#Me @ myself “Getting cyberbullied is so stupid just turn off your laptop 4head”

[phr-2-771]

I'm in this awful middle ground of "I love sharing my music and I don't want to stop" and "The mere thought of the Vocaloid community makes me so sick with anxiety I could throw up" and I don't know what to do about it...? The problem is that everyone who interacts with my music is so nice, but I still live in nauseating fear that specific people will sic their audience on me (despite having no reason to believe this will happen). I've already lost all my friends in this community because of those people (which was honestly really good for me in the long run LOL but it was devastating when it happened). I spend so much emotional energy fearing that one day a song of mine will get a little too popular and these people will be annoyed enough by my presence that they'll try to harass me off the internet. I mean, they've done that before. They did that to a 14 year old. If I am so scared of this happening then is there a point to existing online at all? I can make this anxiety go away by literally just getting offline, LOL.