#Maybe she would try to convince him hey this commitment isn't worth the time U R dumb . Make him hate her again
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
delightedchips · 4 days ago
Text
about the timebomb healing period ..
particularly interested in the idea of ekko also struggling to adjust having returned back to the current universe so suddenly and being whiplashed by a lot of things like the scar & sevika team up 😭 (i assume anw by how casual the two pop in tgt during the recruit meeting) it does offer a neat foundation of a shared sorrow of some kind between timebomb .. jinx watching him pour so much of himself taking care of her and also catching glimpses of him when he's away struggling to digest all the happenings of the firelights during his absence, grieving heimerdinger, rebuilding a semblance of a relationship with sevika, seeing the current dissipation of the tree, getting bombarded by news of an upcoming war and still having a big chunk of his heart to help jinx, making sure she's eating, her bed is warm, water is always ready .. a boy of many burdens ..
maybeee. the sadness cycles back to jinx because the sight of it all tugs her heart to guilt (maybe even anger) and she has this sudden urgency to save him from what hes committing to by taking her in . a part of her actually wants this second chance but she still doubts ekko understands who she really has become and desperately wants assurance that he does . But instead of asking for it she opts to try and convince him to give her up again via rashing out in cold-hearted anger . with the outcomes of either ekko actually giving up (which, in turn, to jinx, 'saves' him. which is viewed good! ekko doesn't deserve another burden. ekko deserves the 'truth'. at least to jinx) or, ekko not giving up (which, in turn, to jinx, assures her. affirms she is still worthy of love at all even at this point. maybe it's not too late. but jinx won't admit how appealing it all actually sounds or how she would much prefer that outcome).. I don't think ekko would react w comfort .. i want to think he'd break too . All the rage cracking thru .. but in the end he still chooses to pursue this path .. something something
A shared sorrow . Kinda. A cycle of sadness . Kiiinda. Just two broken people trying to figure it out .. carrying a semblance of a want to save the other but each of their efforts costing a part of themselves
#Like jinx's guilt could probably be rage too .. how dare u not see how bad i am. how dare u take these lengths#Maybe she would try to convince him hey this commitment isn't worth the time U R dumb . Make him hate her again#she doubts his commitment and his understanding of what he's getting himself into#the way you look at me is shrouded by the past. think of the dead bodies. think of the shimmer. the bombs. remember now#The past is gone#you are still so naive#(Please look at me as I am) (please prove I am worthy of this forgiveness)#(I as in me in all my terrible)#And then she slowly would see the evidence Ekko did not in fact take her in with rosy lenses#he saw her completely#from the innocence of their childhood to the hurting of their parting sumthsumth he did not take her thoughtlessly .. he knew her completel#I do not look at you half-heartedly or through a past we have lost I look at you with a love I can not leave#I have tried#I have tried to rid of it but it keeps coming back. Now it is here and I have decided to let it stay#I know your mistakes I know all the pain you have caused. I know the ones you felt#I know as well the ones you caused me. I know a part of me hates u still . I know. I know#there's this reassurance he did not make the choice with a different person in mind He Had HER in mind fr fr. All of her#jus brain slopping like goo!!!!!#not good explained but whatever#!!!#Ekko#timebomb#Jinx#Ekko x jinx#Arcane#idk I get the vibe. That desperation that u love me for me right? Not the facade . Or anything. U saw my imperfections right?#i hope u did. I hope u know what ure getting into . THAT KINDA THING.. eats door..
14 notes · View notes