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Chastity Log Day 15

7/28

What Did We Do?

I had a rare day off but mommy still had to work. SO we didn't have much fun til later in the afternoon. But, it was still a LOT of fun.

Mommy wanted to make sure she looked her best, and I agreed, so we both showered and I shaved her legs, my legs, her kitty, and my little dicky.

I have a deep fetish and attraction for shaving, especially shaving genitals. It's so intimate, personal, and meticulous. I enjoyed rubbing the shaving cream up mommy's legs, which I did first. It went smoothly, and I loved feeling my hands up to mommy's kitty, which she slapped away.

I later went and shaved mommy's kitty. I mostly used electric shavers for that so we didn't have to worry about cuts. Once mommy's kitty was shaved, it looked good enough to eat.

Later, Mommy instructed me to go strip and shave as well. I had to shave essentially all below my waist. I've been shaving my diaper area, front, back and sides, for the last week or two I've been in chastity. Idk about anyone else, but it's HOT, HOT, HOT and humid. Even small day trips and errands padded can be very sweaty, sorry for the details lol.

Needless to say, I thought it would help with both sweat, smell, and friction. It seemed to be more helpful, especially using baby powder when it's humid too, GODSEND!

Either way, I shaved up, down, and sideways and was smooth an adult baby's bottom.

I went back and mommy diapered and powder me up. It was nice and felt myself slipping into space. Some of my night gets a little hazy, some 420 service to help slip into little space and just relax.

One of the moments I recall is mommy using my little dicky for her entertainment and, I think, trying to get me to make cummies to I'd be stuck in chastity longer. But I didn't so YAY, but also boo. Mommy only lets me make ruined cummies, which drains my little ballies but don't make me feel good...well as good. Mommy mentions whenever that happens that I may need a chastity cage more and more. After she used me, she diapered me back up and turned me over.

Next major thing I remember was mommy spanking me repeatedly. This was punishment for my creamies without permission. First mommy made light slaps to my padded bottom. They hurt, but I was okay. Then, gradually, she started to hit harder. Mommy mentioned afterward her tip was that she had to cup her hand.

My diapee offered me some protection. At first, mommy weas okay with my making little noises. But, later she got meaner and started smacking me harder and harder until I yelled what she wanted. I yelled what the 3 closing slaps were for.

Each one was for a time I made cummies without permission and when. At the end, mommy told me I had to be in little chastity for a month. MEEP.

I guess this may mean no fun grown up stuff at all, but I'm not sure. Mommy said once we figure a few things out, a cage is definitely in the works for me.

Mommy finished spanking me when she smacked me so hard I was trying to crawl away on the bed only to be smacked again and collapse.

I had to keep mentioning I'm a dirty boy, I think? If so, I think I could use something else to say. Maybe it's just to brat in me but I got bored.

How did it feel?

Humiliated, but cathartic release of sorts. Fresh n clean after shaving. Slightly proud as mommy said I did a good job

How are you feeling? Ball-Wise?

Better from being emptied but still sore as if they are still as full as my complete chastity

What I want more/less of in current dynamic?

More: Confirmation of what we're doing before we formally get started. Earlier in the night, we'd discussed having an SFW night where I was gonna get dipped and we were gonna sit on the couch and watch movies. Sounded nice.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed our NSFW antics we had above. I just think in one part of my brain I had one version of my little space that's more "childish" or "innocent" or sorts. But, then the erotic events switched my gears.

I am writing this more as a reflection to remind myself that I just want to bring those things up sooner. I meant to discuss this after our session was over, but I think we were both extremely satisfied and exhausted so even if I had thought of it, I doubt I could've said the words at all.

I would just enjoy those little space moments where it doesn't need to be sexy is all. Something I'm sure we'll figure out a way balance as well.

Things I’m enjoying

Spanking more than I thought I would. Likely because it's in a different context and even though I know it's because I'm in trouble I know there's no formal malice. Or the malice lives and dies in this space, and we both know that. My little self will be scared, my big self knows this is not going to last forever and I can keep going even beyond the point of breaking.

[marydswitchduet]

Chastity Log Day 13 (7/25)

What Did We Do?

I had to do adulting things this morning but it went well and now I’ve gotten a better job with better pay.

Once I got home, mommy could tell I was exhausted both physically and emotionally cuz I had only slept an hour after coming home from work. I don’t know how I’m not more exhausted tbh.

We talked and were happy for the good news, and mommy mentioned that she’d do a little session for me. I stripped, half expecting to just sleep but she asked about the diapers and she began fluffing it. I love seeing the little things she picks up, as it is those little things that make all the difference.

She laid out the diaper and had me lay on the bed. This is one of the first times we’ve done this in a long period dynamic. I felt vulnerable but safe. Before I was taped up, mommy gave my pee pee some special attention and it felt heavenly. Light touches, kisses, air on my little dicky all felt amazing.

Mommy hit me with some baby powder, an amazing scent to my nose and prolly one of the smells that bring such easy regression. I hope to get a bottle of the original white one with talc, since I don’t have any issues that the health concerns relate to.

I was dipped up nice and tight, and with my hard little dicky facing up. Mommy had me lay with her and she teased my little dicky in my diapee. I couldn’t get soft to save my life, but mommy said she still couldn’t feel it.

I humped against a stuffy per mommy’s instructions. She told me to pick a pace and stick with it. I did and she rubbed my head as I got into it. She laughed and told me how pathetic I was. I couldn’t object, cuz I was.

I laid on mommy and we cuddled and I slept a little. It was so nice, and needed. I felt safe and so comfortable, and normally it’s tough for us to cuddle like that.

We cuddled and mommy and I whispered about a cuckolding fantasy. Mommy being taken by a primal man, me diapered up in the corner just moaning and wishing it was me while I hump into my diaper. How I would be a good baby and sit and watch mommy make happy noises

Mommy had to go to work, which made me sad. But, she opened me up and powdered me up before she left though 🤤. She teased me and rubbed my hard. Then she spit on my little pee pee, sprinkled some more baby powder on it and takes me back up high and tight. Ugh I was so horny and hard it was straining at the edge of my diapee

I got instructions from mommy to hump my stuffy til she got to work and keep a good pace. I wasn’t allowed to make cummies and I had to go #1 in my diapee til mommy got home to change me.

I was able to do humpies…but I made cummies 😭

The worst part is, it was after I’d stopped but my body was still reeling cuz I was egging myself on talking to myself in little space. It does more than I expect

I told mommy cuz I know better than to try and pull one over on her 😞

She told me I was pathetic, messages below.

I got up and I got a whiff of my stickies mixed with the baby powder…quite intoxicating. If I ever need something smell-wise to basically make me docile or subby, that would be a good place to start. May need to cum on some and save it

I tried to sleep earlier but it was just too much and I just kept making humpies with my stuffy. But it just didn’t hit the same

I woke up later and peed out of my diapee, first time that’s happened. Such a shame cuz I wanted mommy to change me. Oh well

How did it feel?

Embarrassing, fun, little space of disappointment

How are you feeling? Ball-Wise?

Sore, I came today and even now they still hang low

What I want more/less of in current dynamic?

More: research on my own of what helps me enter and delve deeper into a little headspace

Hypno files, I’d like to try some. Whether they be ones I find, ones mommy makes, or a combo of both. I will admit there were a few I saw that needed to be paid that the temptation was there

Things I’m enjoying

All of it, cuddling and sleeping with mommy today. My change this morning.

The fact that even if mommy and I don’t know if we’d ever add a third to our relationship, it does make me happy we can talk about it. Just nice to know we are comfortable and safe with each other to say it and voice interest AND concerns. Nice and healthy

Mommy told me I needed to come up with 3 punishments:

* one I’d enjoy: having to shave my body, I’m comfortable with legs, groin, ass, and upper arms. Then mommy to rub baby oil over me and into my diaper and I have to lay there and not move t the good feelings and high sensitivity

* One to put me Into a deeper little headspace: this one I’ll need to revisit as I’m still figuring out what best gets me into little space

* one that I’d be scared/excited for: given a drink, a bottle perhaps, with laxatives and have uncontrolled mess

[marydswitchduet]

Chastity Log Day 11 (7/24)

First off, fuck notes for not being able to transfer my entry into tumblr so I’m writing this all fucking again 😤 alright I’m done now

What Did We Do?

Similar to yesterday, mommy and I didn’t get to do much cuz we worked opposite shifts. But, as I slept a little later, she woke me up with lower region attention. Just a tease as mommy does.

She was cheeky, quite literally ;), teasing me with a blue lacy thong on her nice booty. Each step had her cheeks swaying just right. Not what you want when your mommy has to leave for work.

Before I tried to take a nap, mommy texted me that I should put on a diaper and put something on to listen to and make humpies on my stuffy. I was horny after that and wasn’t able to sleep

Later I was able to, and mommy woke me up again with some attention ;)

But only a tease again, I was taken aback though when mommy lifted my leg off the ground and pinned me and kissed me. That made me very small and it was so unexpected. Kinda nice, even tho scary.

Before I left for work, mommy told me how apparently one of the guys she works with classified her as his “ideal woman” based on a lot of factors.

Afterward, mommy made a joke about cuckolding and how if we wanna now we have an option. I’ll admit the idea put some images in my mind. The idea of being forced to the side as mommy has her way with whomever, since mommy knows best. I have to just sit there a horny little mess and hump one of my stuffies and make cummies in my diapee (assuming mommy allows me to cum at all)

In dark recesses, I imagine mommy and her new friend fucking and he’ll make stickies in her kitty. And as a treat, mommy will let me clean up what’s left and lick her kitty clean for her.

Depending if mommy was satisfied, I may need to suck her friends big thing so she can have some more fun. Idk if I could ever really get behind this, but I clearly find the image of it intense and sexy enough to imagine (and apparently get hard over).

But I suppose once you go deep enough down the rabbit hole, a lot of dark things enter the mind. I guess I’m okay with that ;)

She kept teasing me til I left for work, making me really wish I could stay home. Rather than stay home, mommy sent me some dirty naughty pictures 😳

Mommy’s hot kitty. 😋 all I’d want is mommy’s permission to dive in and have a taste. Wow, hello headspace…and stopping to get control of my horniness

Mommy put some dark and hot images into my mind too:

I just want to suck it then put u in a diaper and make u build your stamina w playing your stuffy tehehe

Pathetic? Maybe. Sexy? To me? 🥵

She also talked about taking her underwear off and putting it in my mouth to keep me quiet. I’d be more worried the smell and taste would drive me even more wild, maybe that’s what mommy wants.

Mommy talked about looking into inducing lactation for her, and getting me a stuffy of my own. The one I have isn’t technically mine, but mommy lets me borrow him.

She says I need my own to dirty.

How did it feel?

Embarrassing in the most erotic way. But still, makes me feel all tingly and sexy ;)

How are you feeling? Ball-Wise?

Sore from mommy’s antics; but a good sore

What I want more/less of in current dynamic?

More: menial tasks, even if it’s just stuff I’m already doing or things I have to do to sleep or masturbate

audiobooks, hypno, podcasts. Sometimes there’s things I discover turn me on I never expected, like ABDL. I like to listen and hear from other people and their experiences and it lets me know what types of things are of interest to me beyond what may just be able to be read. And the audio can sometimes put me in a space.

Things I’m enjoying

ALL OF IT

Low key enjoying that I’ve been in chastity so long I’m peeing semen once in a while

[marydswitchduet]

Chastity Log Day 10 (7/23)

What Did We Do?

It was a busy day for mommy and me so we didn’t get to enjoy much time together. But after work, we got to spend some time together as and that was nice even if it wasn’t as long as I wanted.

Instead I spent the day when I had free time window shopping for little items. I told mommy one thing I wanted to do was look into things that would allow me to go deeper into my little space.

It may be a while before I get a chance, if ever, to obtain them. But, if nothing else it’s nice to know the options are there and they look really nice and appealing to me.

Realizing I’m a very sensory guy I think when it comes to little space and possible regression. I enjoy the visual for myself, and in that case also the comfort. Hence the diapers, the clothing, etc.

I also identify a lot with smell. When big, I have smells that I enjoy on the daily. If I’m little, or I want to start moving into being little, aside from Mommy directing me there (ordering) a whiff of the baby powder I use does wonders. And it just smells good.

How did it feel?

In this case, not much to formally feel. But I showed Mommy my list, and it was nice to see that she didn’t have any issues with anything I’d saved for myself or her. I found a shirt with discrete openings for breastfeeding 😋

Of course it’d only be worn privately, but still a nice little neat and discrete taboo item.

Mommy has always been very accepting of a lot of what I’ve shown or expressed an interest in. Even if she doesn’t fully understand, she’ll meet halfway and I’m always grateful for her love and her presence in my life (in all aspects, not just our dynamic).

How are you feeling? Ball-Wise?

A little sore today when in normal adult undies

What I want more/less of in current dynamic?

Mommy changing me once in a while, either for my enjoyment or for my punishment/humiliation

Language in little space (honestly gotta try em out):

• P3nis = little thing, pee pee, dicky, baby clit, dinky

• V@gina = kitty, honey pot, hoo ha, cooch (on fence on this one lol)

• Climaxing = cummies, feeling really good, making stickies (in my diaper), milkies

Looking into little time non sexual as well

Things I’m enjoying

Being taken care of, feeling the physical love more, closeness

[marydswitchduet]

Chastity Log Day 9 7/22

What did we do?

After we ran some errands, mommy made me strip and diaper up and wear a pink and white Teddy

I thought I look pretty good tbh. Later, mommy played my Spotify story again where the protagonist is in a nursery for little and she slowly becomes one as treatments to make her an ideal little to be adopted by amazons in the dimension of the story

I guess the idea of it being forced is a nice fantasy of sorts, where it’s not a choice made by you because control is essentially taken away from you.

Once done, I was humping Mommy’s thigh through my diaper and sucking at her tits. At first, I wasn’t hard and just enjoying the sensation. Then, every once in a while mommy would rub her pussy juice on her nipple and in my mouth for me to taste

Every time I smelled and tasted it, I’d get harder and hornier. Later, she rubbed it under my nose which didn’t help for my self control

I have rules that if I’m gonna use my diaper at all, I have to ask mommy for permission first and then after she says ok, I say thank you

2 suppositories and 1 enema later I’m on the toilet after begging to get out of my diaper so I don’t have to mess in it. I think if I have suppositories in the future I need to eat more as some of that felt painful.

After I was cleaned out, I showered and came back to mommy. She had me put in a plug, there’s an electric one but I couldn’t wear cuz it wouldn’t fit. I was able to get another one to fit instead.

Mommy was okay with that; she began teasing and sucking on my cock. She’d tease me and bite or scrape my cock in between sucking and was painful.

She was switching between playing with my nipples and playing with my cock. The pain was excruciating but mommy would reward me if I could take it. I wanted to make her proud.

Later, mommy used my little cock in her pussy. But, I couldn’t hold on long without feeling like I would make cummies. That’s what I say now to mommy when I think I’m gonna finish. But I know I’m not supposed to, so I make sure to tell her. Even so, it’s so hard 😭

Mommy’s pussy feels so nice and warm and tight around my little cock. I could feel her squeezing bits of precum. She warned me that if I couldn’t help myself I needed to be out in a diaper. I wanted to enjoy mommy’s pussy but she felt too good.

Eventually I had to give up and put on a diaper. I also had to hump mommy’s stuff is again through my diaper. While doing that, mommy had me get the vibrator wand. She used it on my diaper, the stuffie, and my nipples.

Mommy said sometime maybe I’d jump my stuffie without a diaper. 😳 idk why but that just feels wrong and kinda yucky.

I kept humping mommy’s thigh til she told me that was enough.

How did it feel?

For me, I realized the more baby talk we use the deeper into the little headspace I go.

The suppository prolly would’ve felt different if I’d eaten more that day. If I ever revisit I’ll need to make sure I eat more that day otherwise the pain of trying to force a BM with nothing there may be an issue for my insides

Mommy’s pussy felt amazing, too much pleasure for me to handle. I liked mommy calling me her good girl, but I think I’d need to feel more feminine outwardly for it to feel effective. Wearing more feminine presenting baby stuff or pink lingerie, makeup, etc.

No objections of being called a good boy though cuz we’ve had that in our dynamic for a while now. While the plug didn’t shock, I did enjoy my asshole squeezing around it when I’d get pain or pleasure. My prostate would be hit too and it would be heavenly.

The vibrating wand felt amazing and I felt little and pathetic, in a good way if there was one, when it was used on me either on my diaper directly or on the stuffie.

How are you feeling, ball-wise?:

Aside from when Mommy slapped my balls, they didn’t seem to hurt which was nice

What do I want more/less of in our current dynamic?:

Because of the diapers, I’d prolly feel more little if I had to constantly pee when the feeling came up rather than having to flood it every time.

More dirty talk, since that gets me into a space more than anything; will look into

Look into little space time that is non sexual as well

Things I’m Enjoying:

Most everything so far ❤️ feeling cute

Feeling small, little, and safe

[marydswitchduet]

Chastity Day 8 Log

Mistress told me I need to log my chastity for the time being

(7/21)

Days since cumming:

8

What did we do:

Mistress allowed me to hump in between her cheeks later after she got home from work.

After that, I was diapered and went into little space. It was nice. As Mistress let me breastfeed, she played one of my stories I found (post below from CheekyCharlie). She asked if I wanted to call her anything else and I questioned asking to call her, Mommy? Foreign, but felt nice coming out.

Having a young child, my goal is to want to have this be separate from his time and interactions. We use "mama" for him and "mommy" for me. That's more a minor outside of kink discussion for me and my partner. Communication is key.

It was a weird but nice feeling as I was sucking Mommy's breasts that there was a similar moment in the story, and it felt nice. Felt almost captivating and making me go deeper into the headspace.

One thing I'm still working on figuring out is how much, if at all, the little space has an overlap into sexually. That's what sessions are for though.

Mommy made me hold it in my diaper until I couldn't hold it anymore. Then, she made me hump one of her stuffies. She said it would do for now, but I needed to get my own. I may have a few I've already saved on amazon

I entered that point of being horny to the point of losing mental capacity and caring only about the pleasure. We talked about how if she wanted, if I'd want to suck cock for her. To completion. I told her if she wanted me to, I'd do it cuz I want to make Mommy proud. For some reason, I'd be more open if it came to a trans person who may be female presenting. I guess for me, I don't have an issue with anyone's equipment but I just don't have an attraction to males I don't think. Not more than a casual appreciation.

Being horny enough, you can mold someone to a degree. Meep

How did it feel?:

I felt safe and comforted. I asked Mommy last time if I could be more comforted.

I was a little anxious when the Spotify story was playing because even though I thought it was fun and comforting felt very intimate, I had a little anxiety about how she might react. I know she prolly wouldn't care, but anxiety sucks you know?

I liked licking Mommy's juices again.

I enjoy calling Mommy "Mommy", but there were other moments were it felt not the right word. So I guess I'll try to find the moments where it feels best.

Like last time, it was nice. I felt small, I felt little, I felt safe.

How are you feeling, ball-wise?:

No pain today, but instead I've crossed the threshold of being in chastity so long am peeing semen at the end.

What do I want more/less of in our current dynamic?:

More of that feeling of comfort, smallness and safety. I guess I like the idea of "slipping" into this headspace. Not sure how best to figure that out, I think language would prolly helpful. Trying to figure it out.

Maybe more into the idea of a little headspace and persona, non-sexually for me. More for a moment and place of comfort

Maybe baby talk?

Looking into prostate play or milking? Feminine play with ABDL, baby girl over baby boy? But forced? More of a thought than anything

Porn and torture?

Things I’m enjoying:

The breastfeeding, feeling helpless, side comments of my humiliation because even though embarrassing also making me low key sexy or funny.

[marydswitchduet]

Mistress told me I need to log my chastity for the time being so here we go

(7/20)

Days since cumming:

7

What did we do:

Mistress let me hump her ass, even in between her cheeks 😳

After that, I got to suck on mistress’ breasts. Mistress rubbed my hair occasionally and was playing with herself. I got to lick and suck her breasts and lick mistress’ pussy juice off of them.

It was quite tasty. Mistress got to cum, I’m glad I was able to be of use. Before she left for work, she told me after I took care of some home duties that I could put on a diaper, which I did before I went to sleep before work.

How did it feel?:

Felt odd but in the best of ways. I felt very horny, to the point of all other thought processes were shut down. I moaned into the pillow and felt almost weak and pathetic, but also extremely sexy.

When I sucked on her breasts, it felt very intimate. It was almost a switch in the moment from sexy to deeply intimate. I also felt very…little which felt extremely nice in an unexpected way. She rustled my hair and it was instantly relaxing and I just felt my body relax itself and I just focused on the moment and my current action.

It was still intimate when she made me lick her juices off but in a fun and sexy way. Felt almost akin to milk. I could’ve stayed in that moment for a while.

I was about to fall asleep much later without a diaper, but I didn’t want to disappoint mistress and I had been yearning to diaper up all week and just never felt in the right mood.

There were a couple times as I wrote this I almost referred to mistress as mommy. Not sure how I feel about that. Not in a Freudian way, more in a dynamic and a symbol of comfort in a scene I suppose.

I felt small, I felt little, I felt safe.

How are you feeling, ball-wise?:

Not as much pain today, but wearing briefs may be helping to cradle them. The diaper did too

What do I want more/less of in our current dynamic?:

More of that feeling of comfort, smallness and safety. Maybe more into the idea of a little headspace and persona, non-sexually for me. More for a moment and place of comfort

More talking to me as a little, being a “good boy” “good pet” “good slave” “good sissy”. Lifting my chin to point me up to look at you and listen.

Maybe baby talk?

If sexual at all, humiliation I think.

I’d love more language in a dynamic of this mistress situation. Need to look into more what I’m thinking of, will add as another note maybe?

The hair rubbing just automatically is a comfort and a headspace trigger for me I think since it’s so rare to happen

Things I’m enjoying:

The breastfeeding, feeling helpless when humping you, your attitude