#MY EVERYTHIGN DELTA

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hey girl did u fall from heaven cuz u look like Delta Dawn from trolls

[meowsticmarvels]

sorry okay i've ranted about this on twt before but phi's role in ztd is just... odd to me. the reveal with her being related to delta (and also sigma and diana) is placed as one of the biggest ones like literally one of the reveals that delta says during final decision is phi's status as a double clone. and i do like her having a fucked up existence being a living paradox and being not meant to exist and all that. its fukcing interesting and i love it and talk about it a lot. but it's also just. for someone who's positioned as one of the most important characters to the plot as to WHY a lot of things happen she's also.... barely in the game? she's basically just in the game to be dead or To Be Born which is like. okay. something could be said about her lack of agency in everything but it ISNT said so like? and plus her not being there for that much of it takes away a bit of the weight of the reveal imo. like it's not as powerful if she had a bit more development/screentime to justify it and have a good payoff in my opinion i think. clearly im abnormal about phi so it was crazy for ME but it's just. i don't know. even for me it doesnt feel strong without that. from a writing perspective it makes a bit more sense to put the weight of a reveal as great as that on a character who already got substantial development or buildup to justify it. the most i CAN say is the existence of the fire fragment because that part is genuinely one of my favorite parts of the game (and also the flashback with phi and diana @ dcom) but it jsut. i don't know!

i've always thought and interpreted from her dialogue in both games that she's got a really weird sense of identity (calls herself "not a normal human being" in ztd, compares herself to a variable or an x-factor in vlr, also seems to believe diana and sigma's lives are worth more than hers) which could be interesting!!! and how her existing situation with her parents is when combined with the NEW information - did they keep the fact that she was an experiment as an infant from her for her entire life? like it couldve been INTERESTING. and still kinda is imo but it's just a weird writing decision to write her out of so much of the plot while ALSO wanitng her to be important at the same time. id ont know if this makes any sense to anyone but its just like. Okay? Sure?

[diary-in-disguise]

Ughhh 9/17/22

I don't even wanna talk about today, basically i got up in the morning and got groceries and stuff to clean. Then I went and stopped by this new shop I was told about and it was the Appalachian Apothecary. I went on a small shopping spree and got new gummies and 2 organic soaps as well as $3.00 Mugwort tea. The prices were great.

Anyways I started cleaning but went too far, my brother kept stopping up the upstairs sink with soap and just nasty stuff i dont even wanna write about. I wore gloves to clean it but it still felt gross.

Around after that i kinda freaked out and the gummie i took earlier started taking effect more. It was Delta 9 based, a new one i got at the shop. Then the gummie started hitting a little too strong and i started kind of having the visuals in my head and my ears started getting so sensitive i thought my eardrums were gonna explode, that scared me a little so i got water and just kind of slept the high off. Before that I was kind of just imagining all these dumb thoughts like how everythign in my line of vision was only a thin painting covering up the real nature that everything was nothing. Also weird 90s looking cartoon animations were playing too and even though the drug was labeled for creativity, i have to admit i felt like i was just watching a bad cartoon this entire time. Anyways it was hard remembering parts of it, which is funny because in that state i was making an effort too but somehow i just knew it wouldnt make much sense when i woke up. It kind of made me feel better atleast, i probably wont be cleaning much anymore.

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

Hi Ralph, I’m the anon from a week(s) ago RE Louis/international travel/concert. I was coming from a place of living through 16/18 months being under (at least) mask mandates. I was living in Canada up until May this year and have been home just in time for the Delta Variant to take ahold (Sydney, Aus). My understanding is that the vaccine doesn’t make you immune from getting covid, but from feeling the full affects of it. I’m completely stuck with wanting the world to open up pt1

Pt2. and wanting to remain in my tiny bubble of literally not wanting to interact with anybody whom I don’t live with. I found it so confronting that someone would travel internationally and then be expected, and relied upon, to return a negative covid result in order to conduct the concert? I’m not sure I’m expressing my thoughts very well sorry, but I hope you get my gist. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, and information. It really helped! I hope you’re doing okay :)

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Oh anon - that sounds very hard. Canada to NSW right now sucks. It's only been 48 hours here and I'm like 'this isn't fair! I've done my time.' I'm sorry abou both your governments as well. I'm really glad that you're vaccinated (and you managed to make it into Australia - that's a whole other stress).

So I'd put it slightly differently - I'd say that the vaccine offers amazing protection against serious illness and death from COVID. It also offers some protection against both catching COVID and passing it on. Nobody is quite sure how much, but it is clear that there is less protection against catching it and passing it on than there is against severe illness and death.

I think that feeling of wanting things to go back to normal and also wanting to stay safe is really common. It may not mean much from someone who has navigated the change in such a different way, but here's how I've come to think about it. The vaccines work - they work incredibly well. Immunocompromised people will still be uncertain about their protection. But everybody else who has had the chance to be vaccinated, can and should be confident in the protection the vaccine has given them.

But while the path to safety is reasonably clear, the path to readjustment is much more complicated - and will vary widely both between people and depending on the envrionment that you're living in. Everyone has different stress points and anxieties after the last eighteen months. Try and be generous to yourself and to other people - it'll be a big change. It's totally OK that you want everythign back to normal and to hide away for ever.

I didn't quite understand your point about the international travel and the COVID test. Was that about Harry's concerts? I don't think international travel has much to do with those rules, but I might have missed something.