#MEANS A LOT TO MEEEEEEEEEEE

[aletheialed]

not me desperately trying to find a way to release enoch from imprisonment for post-canon threads despite the fact that he'd probably be serving at LEAST a life sentence-

[0310s]

gently, by your side | jaehyun

members: myung jaehyun x gender neutral reader

genre: college au, angst, comfort, best friends! to ???, more platonic stuff in this one

tags/warnings: extensive discussions of mental health and chronic/mental illness, y/n is not okay. :(

summary: jaehyun finds you after a bad week.

wc: 2.7k

a/n: this fic’s title comes from this lovely song. as someone who’s struggled with both chronic and mental illness, it really takes someone strong and amazing to keep on going, despite everything. most of the dialogue in this comes from my own musings and experiences with mental health. i wrote this for a dear mutual of mine! i hope better days will come for you soon, whenever that may be. meanwhile, i hope this gives you comfort when things are tough! sending lots of love <3 

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5 days ago 1:28 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

(y/n) we haven’t seen each other in such a loooong time imy :(( i mean i KNOW it’s just been a couple of days since we last hung out but still!!!!!!! when are we seeing each other again !!!! tell me ur schedule QUICK !!!!

4 days ago 6:33 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

heeeeyyyyyyyyy (with the intention to hang out) heeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy heeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyy reply to meeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! tell me when ur free pls i miss u :((

3 days ago 11:58 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

hey i didn’t see u at the party today i thought u said u were going last week!!!  also i asked around and people said they haven’t seen u around recently??? and they don’t know what ur up to

2 days ago 2:05 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

heeeyyyy ?????????? did i do smth?????  or are u just really busy w school and work idk either way pls just let me know :(( i won’t bother u if ur rlllyyy busy

10:35 PM sorry if i’m being annoying btw

Yesterday  11:32 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

ok i thought about it reaaaaaallly hard and i don’t think i’ve done anything to make u mad or upset w me??? well aside from that time last last week that u got mad at me for accidentally messing w ur computer and deleting ur work files WHICH IM LIKE REALLY SORRY FOR but i fixed it!!!!! i thought we were good alrd!!! are u still mad at me 4 that ?

1:00 AM (y/n)?

1:28 AM idk  i thought i was ur best friend :(( did smth change???

2:47 AM pls pls reply :(( i know we can talk this out i don’t want us to not be ok

Today  3:00 PM 🐶 cutie puppy i’m coming over.

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Sitting up from your bed, your heart thuds in anxiety as you quickly scroll through your chat history with Jaehyun. Your eyes hurt and your brain feels especially foggy, like you’re looking at the world through a particularly cloudy lens. How long did you sleep? The last thing you recall was working on your assignments last night, then choosing to sleep instead when you got overwhelmed. Even then, you slept fitfully. You remember setting an alarm at 9 AM today to continue working, but even as you sat at your desk, you couldn’t type a single sentence on your laptop. Everything felt muddled and it was as if you couldn’t understand anything at all. Even the cups of coffee you drank in desperation was of no use keeping you alert; all it did was make you palpitate.

Then you gave up, went back to bed, and you’re here now. Checking the chat timestamps, you realize you haven’t replied to Jaehyun’s messages in almost a week, which has never happened before—you talk almost everyday, even multiple times a day. Jaehyun’s last message was at 3 PM, when he said he’d come over. One look at your screen shows you it’s already 3:20. If you’ve memorized his schedule right, it takes your best friend thirty minutes to get to your dorm from his Fundamental Maths class. That means you have ten more minutes to get your shit together and clean your mess of a room. 

But right when you’ve mustered the energy to stand up, you hear a series of knocks on your door. That can’t be— “(Y/n), open up, I know you’re in there!” Jaehyun’s voice echoes from outside the door. “I asked your dormmate and she said you haven’t left your room since yesterday, so there’s no use pretending!” Shit, shit, shit! You immediately spring up and hastily fold your blankets and organize your desk, throwing away stray food wrappers and plastic cups. You open your blinds to let some air in, and the bright sunlight makes your head throb even more. 

On your way to the door, you spot yourself in the mirror. There’s no other word for it—you look like utter shit. Your eyebags are dark and prominent, your hair disheveled from tossing and turning in your sleep. You look horrendous, but Jaehyun is persistently knocking on your door, so you have no choice but to fix yourself up as fast as you can. You splash water on your face and smoothen down your hair and open the door—then there’s Jaehyun in all his glory. Your heart clenches seeing him; he looks as handsome as always, his bangs fluffy and soft and his letterman jacket fashionably oversized. He looks nothing like you in your ratty T-shirt with coffee stains and pajama shorts. His hand is halfway raised, positioned to knock at your door (he could and would probably do it all day if he had to). Upon seeing you, he blurts out: “Did I do something?”

Instead of answering him, you open your door wider as an invitation, and Jaehyun takes the hint, stepping into your dorm. Once the door is shut, Jaehyun peers at your messy room and remarks, “Wow. When was the last time you cleaned up? You’re usually not like this.”

You know he didn’t mean it like that, but his comment stings at you all the same. “Sorry, Jaehyun,” you snap, “not everyone can be at 200% energy all the time like you.” At his hurt expression, you backtrack. “Sorry, that was really rude of me.”

“It-It’s fine,” Jaehyun replies confusedly. Then he looks straight at you, eyes pleading. He’s picking at the stray thread hanging from his jacket, a habit you’ve come to known is something he does when he’s nervous. “You know what, I thought about it. For days, really, if I did anything that would make you mad and ignore me. But I couldn’t come up with anything at all. I was really worried when you didn’t reply to me for days on end, especially when we talk everyday. So if I did something, can—can you just tell me? I just want us to be okay.”

Your throat closes up and your heart pounds even faster, making you feel dizzy. You have no idea how to answer him, when all he’s ever seen of you is the perfect student who does everything right, who’s smart and good at what they do without any flaws or exceptions. How would he react if he saw you for who you really were?

The words can’t form in your mouth, and out of frustration at yourself, you tear up. Jaehyun notices this, eyes widening in worry, “(y/n), baby, no, no,” and pulls you into his arms. Almost instantly, the tears cascade down your face and sobs wrack your body. You feel pathetic crying in your best friend’s arms, but Jaehyun just soothes a hand up and down your back as you break down. His other arm is wrapped around your shoulders, and it feels like your anchor when you’re drowning in all your troubles. “It’s okay, it’s okay,” he says in a hushed tone, “let it all out.” You grip his jacket even tighter as you bury your face in his chest. 

When was the last time you’ve ever been hugged like this? The last time you’ve ever been truly vulnerable to anyone without that mask of perfection you often don? The last time you felt safe just being yourself? You have no idea. All you know that is in the circle of Jaehyun’s arms, you want to be small and imperfect and yourself just this once.

After your cries die down, Jaehyun clears his throat. “I’m sorry,” he whispers. “I don’t know what it is I did, but I’m so sorry for hurting you.”

“It’s not you, Jaehyun,” your voice is muffled by both your sniffles and Jaehyun’s chest. You don’t want Jaehyun to get the wrong idea that he’s hurt you in some way because of how broken he sounds thinking he’s done something to make you sad. “It’s just. Me.”

“You? What do you mean?” Jaehyun leads you into your room from the doorway. He’s holding your hand and doesn’t let go even when you both settle at the edge of your bed. His palm is warm and his grip loose enough in case you want to let go; you don’t. While you muster up the courage to speak, your best friend just sits there, waiting patiently. “It’s okay, whatever you say, I’m not going anywhere.” You don’t know that for sure, but him saying that makes you want to be truthful just this once, damn the consequences.

You take a deep breath, focusing on your intertwined fingers. You’re too scared to look at his face because you don’t want to see his reaction. “Jaehyun, what kind of person do you think people see me as?”

“Well…” He takes a moment to think about it. “Someone smart, talented, and who gets stuff done?”

In turn, you let out an resigned exhale. “Well, that’s the image I project. Of someone who’s perfect… someone who does things effortlessly. People think it comes easy to me. But it doesn’t. When people tell me that I didn’t need much effort to get to where I am now, I feel undermined. When I express I’m having a hard time, people brush it off and think I’m just overreacting. Because they think I’m perfect all the time. But honestly…? That’s the farthest thing from the truth."

Glancing up from your hands, you scan your room—your desk is a mess of papers and assignments that you have yet to get to. You can’t tell when the last time you spent time being actually productive when what you’ve been is fatigued out of your mind. When you try to sit at your desk and work, all you feel is difficulty concentrating and processing work and readings. Sleep has also proven to be elusive—no matter how long you lie in bed, you never feel well-rested. Simple actions and decisions require so much energy from you that you undeniably lack. You also constantly compare yourself to others, whom things like these come natural to them. But you’ve kept these feelings of yours secret for a long time—you’re utterly terrified that you’d be undermined for being useless and overly sensitive.   

“(Y/n)?” Jaehyun squeezes your hand, and you turn to meet his eyes. His eyes are sincere and kind. “I-I know I may not be the most empathic person, but I promise I’ll hear you out without judging you. I want to be here for you… and I hope you’ll let me. Please?” 

At this, you spill everything you’ve been feeling the past weeks—months, even—to Jaehyun. You stumble over your words and your breath gets caught in your throat, but he’s there to pat your back and to encourage you to keep going. Without you knowing, tears make their way down your face once again, and Jaehyun uses his other hand to gently brush them away. “It just gets so hard that I want to just. Give everything up. I don’t know what the use of trying so hard is when I see how other people don’t need this much effort to do even the most basic of tasks. It’s just so… unfair.”

When you’re finished with your rant, you don’t know what to expect from Jaehyun—but you’re stunned to see him crying. He’s sniffling and wiping at his eyes furiously. “Why…” You have no idea what he’s about to say, but you brace yourself for the worst. “Why didn’t you tell me any of this?” he whispers brokenly. “I didn’t know you were having such a difficult time. I feel like such a shitty friend for not even noticing. I’m sorry, (y/n).” Jaehyun’s eyes fill with tears and he starts “I… I thought we were best friends.” The best friends tell each other everything goes unsaid, but you know exactly what he meant.

“I…” You feel awful now for making Jaehyun cry. “You’re just. You just naturally have all this limitless energy. You’re…” Normal. Not like me. “I don’t know how if you were going to take me seriously if I told you what I was going through… There were times I’d see you, and I’d be so disappointed in myself for not being like you. And I was so scared that if I did tell you, I’d be letting you down.”

Jaehyun’s expression grows more miserable at this. “I-I’m sorry, (y/n), I never meant to make you feel unheard. And I never meant for it to feel like you couldn’t tell me about these things.” 

“It-It’s not your fault, Jaehyun,” you protest, but he shakes his head, obviously disappointed in himself.

“No, (y/n), I’m supposed to be your best friend. How stupid can I be if I can’t notice when you’re having a hard time? I didn’t even stop to ask how you’ve been doing because you seemed to be doing fine. But I should’ve known better. I shouldn’t have taken things at face value. I’m such an idiot,” Jaehyun berates himself. “I’m so, so sorry.” 

At his sincere apology, you can’t help but admit it to yourself—you desperately needed Jaehyun’s support as your best friend, but you were too scared to ask for it. And honestly? You felt immensely lonely without his words and presence to comfort you. 

“(Y/n), I hope you know that I see how hard you work. I know your sleepless nights and how much effort you put into every single thing you do. Despite everything you’re going through, you’re always trying to be better than the person you were yesterday, and it’s something I truly admire about you. But I hope you know it’s okay to be imperfect and flawed and to not be okay. I want to be here on your good and bad days. I just wish I could’ve been more vocal about this earlier… I’ve really taken you for granted, huh?” Jaehyun sighs wetly, taking your hand in both of his. He’s still crying; you both are, actually. What a silly pair the two of you make. 

“Thank you for trusting me and sharing all of this. It literally means the world to me,” Jaehyun rambles. “I promise I’ll be a better friend to you, someone you feel safe opening up to about anything, whether that be your achievements or your struggles. And (y/n), if it’s not too much to ask… Could I ask you to be more honest with me in the future?” He stares at you imploringly. “I don’t want you to think you have to go through all of this alone. I want to be here for you the same way you’ve always been there for me… Okay?”

“....Okay. Okay, I’ll try,” you respond softly. “Thank you, Jaehyun. I… I’ve never told anyone about this before. But thank you so much for just listening, and not judging, and accepting me for me…” While you appreciate Jaehyun’s presence at this moment, a new wave of fatigue washes over you with all this emotional vulnerability and talking. “Jaehyun… I’m still feeling really tired, so I might go back to sleep. Sorry, I know you came all the way here to see me, but here I am being shit company,” you apologize regretfully.

“Oh! That’s okay. I’ll see you tomorrow?” Jaehyun stands up from your bed to leave. When your fingers slip from each other, you feel an acute loss of warmth—both in your hands and in your heart. He makes his way to the door, slipping on his shoes, and your heart sinks. There’s something you badly want to ask of Jaehyun, but you’re too much of a coward to tell him what you truly want. You don’t want to be on your own right now, but you’d probably be asking too much of him. Accepting your fate, you settle in bed, attempting to take a nap so restless you’re sure will be of no help to your exhaustion.

However, Jaehyun himself stops in the doorway. He turns back around, a distraught look on his face. “(Y/n)... I don’t want to assume, but are you sure you want to be alone right now?” he begins. “I mean, we just had this really heavy talk. Can… Can I keep you company? I promise I’m great at cuddles—that’s what all my other friends say anyway when I annoy them with my hugs.”

When you nod, that’s all it takes for Jaehyun to shuck off his shoes, strip his jacket, and climb into bed with you. With your ear against his steady heartbeat and his comforting arm around you, you’re asleep in no time. It’s the best you’ve ever slept in months.

[puffyducks]

DCRC Week #18

We're reading PKNA #14: Carpe Diem but I don't really gaf about the main story I'm here for Trip because I like Trip. The actual main chapter is just like a warm-up for the 8 pages of Trip comic as far as I'm concerned.

Oh wow haha we got a big cool looking machine here I'm sure that can only mean good things! ignore day of the cold sun that was an outlier probably

ok nevermind

Ok this guy seems a little TOO into getting fucking obliterated here

Character design that always makes me laugh whenever I see him sorry

like you guys see where I'm coming from right

I'm starting to believe what Alex has been saying about people from the 23rd century never cutting their hair, I mean look at this guy's beautiful golden locks wowza

Oh so NOW he actually stays in jail. Right when space and time is getting obliterated and we actually need him, great.

Camera 9 sighting hey bud

NOO UNO IS ALONE who is going to tuck him into bed every night now :(

I like whenever PK looks directly into the camera like he's on an episode of The Office

Guys Casablanca reference. Caoimhin are you there. Can you hear m

ohh god they're BOTH stupid you guys we are so fucked 😭

of all the fucking frames to remember Odin by... I can't even be mad like yeah that sure is him isn't it

"ayyyyyyyyyy what's uuuuuuuuuppp it's meeeeeeeeeee" "STOP"

Donald is just so fucking pissed off this whole comic I'm loving it

Donald thinks the pills are some kind of crazy hallucinogenic drug but the joke's on him cause it's actually just prescription antidepressants

This is turning into a buddy cop sitcom I'm sentencing them both to death for being too silly

Donald for someone you were complaining about having to rescue like 30 pages ago you sure are smirking at each other a lot. Everyone point and laugh they're bonding 🫵

nevermind divorce

nevermind a sort of middle ground? a frenemies situation. or like an enemies to love-

OKAY everyone shut up shut up. It's time for Trip. I have waited for this moment. Waited many weeks since the start of this book club to proclaim (in public) my undying adoration for Trip son of Raider.

I didn't really care much about the Raider my first time reading this series but it was so fucking over for me as soon as they revealed that he has a son. Like oh wait HE'S A DAD??? I'm literally such a fucking sucker you guys. I can't even explain why I've grown weirdly attached to Trip but I just think he's neat. I love him he sucks.

This introduction page is so iconic to me ok. The fact that there's literally 0 leadup to this or any kind of big reveal. The main story ends and then it just cuts to the Raider like "SOOON I'M HOOOME!"

Also the art in these comics is BEAUTIFULLL I love that you can tell it's all done on physical media. It's such brilliant use of what I assume is markers? Or some kind of other ink-based media. I'd love to be able to reach a level where I can make art like this traditionally god. I've read this comic like 30 times I really like looking at it.

Anyways shoutout to the Raider for NOT wanting his son to be a time pirate, it's definitely not something I think about all the time or anything.

Also shoutout to this specific design of George Washington I'm pretty sure this is EXACTLY what he looked like

It's like Mr. Peabody and Sherman if they both fucking sucked

Anyways this is my really cool Trip fanart that I made like two months ago I think. Just a glimpse into my dark reality.

I'm gonna end this post with a quick cry for help: is there ANYONE out there that knows if there's English fan translations of the Trip's Strip minicomics??? Because I've never been able to find any and if they don't exist I'll fucking do it myself and probably post them whenever we reach the chapters they're attached to in the book club. I can't let the other English speakers miss out on Trip content this is a great injustice.

[gifsbysimplysonia]

WTF

NOT THE NEW THUNDERBOLTS TRAILER USING ORANGE CASSIDY'S ENTRANCE THEME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARE YOU FCKING KIDDING MEEEEEEEEEEE?!?!

And yes I know that that song doesn't belong to / wasn't written for him but I've been watching him enter arenas to it for years now, so that's HIS song in my brain and hearing THAT song play while I'm watching Marvel action is CRAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Also, y'know what's SO FUNNY to me? That Marvel was like, y'know how everyone can't stop talking about that moment with Bucky on the bike, even all these years later? What if we give them a new one?

GIF by @itsagentromanoff HERE

Gifs by @unearthlydust HERE

Lordt 👀

THAT

was a lot.

Cuz there's also Yelena.

I can't believe we have to wait til next May.

And we still don't know wtf the * means.

ETA: I saw someone call B's hair a "fck a$$ bob" and I lost my mind cuz....not wrong? 😄 BUT they meant it in a derogatory manner while I'm over here not seeing a THING wrong. And it strikes me as remarkable how personal and specific to an individual media consumption really is.

[jewishrizahawkeye]

hello! welcome back to my FMA Characters as Taylor Swift albums!!! previous albums are here:

debut, fearless (taylor’s version), speak now (taylor’s version), RED (taylor’s version), 1989 (taylor’s version), 𝔯𝔢𝔭𝔲𝔱𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓇

now, let’s all escape into the woods where we live in a cabin and write with a quill pen and wander the moors:

𝒇𝒐𝒍𝒌𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒆

Riza Hawkeye

- folklore is taylor's first forey into not writing completely autobiographically. she is still writing about herself though but projecting that onto fictional characters she's creating (mecore affffffffff).

- the loose story of the album is, you guessed it, folklore or tall tales. stories that are timeless and are passed down from generation to generation, across cultures and worlds to one another for everyone to relate to or learn from. the album discusses a lot of different topics that everyone can relate to or feel connected to in some way as they're not unique feelings and are universal. she does this in a truly achingly beautiful way and is beautiful.

- if you haven't listened to the LPSS version, do it. SO FUCKING GOOD AND MY TEARS RICOCHET HURTS SO MUCH

- BUT the album fits a lot of riza's character and story as almost all of it can be linked to her past or life at most points either in the story or in stuff implied prior to the start of the story

- seven being about her as a child and that innocence that she yearns for again

- if you're a royai shipper (great taste) august and illicit affairs can be read in the context of her and roy having a secret relationship together and the feelings tied into that.

- august being how she can't have more with roy because of their individual goals but still being hopelessly in love

- illicit affairs being about the feelings that comes over time with having a secret relationship and the pain and anger you feel but can't stop (and that's the thing about illicit affairs and clandestine meetings and longing stares they're stolen from one single glance but THEY DIE AHD THEY DIE AND THEY DIE a million little times...)

- mirrorball ties into riza not really knowing herself or what to do. more of a popular fan interpretation though there is evidence of this based on the brief scenes we get of younger her and joining the army because she believes in roy's idyllic ideas of the military. riza herself doesn't fully know herself and mirrorball perfectly encapsulates that

- in addition to that, this is me trying is, in my opinion, the sister song to mirrorball. the song is about how you're kind of at this low and awful point but you're TRYING to be better. to keep fighting and moving on despite everything that makes you want to just stop it all. this connects to riza with similar things that i said in mirrorball. she doesn't fully see or know herself outside of roy. she doesn't believe she deserves to live and only finds meaning and value through roy himself and his future goals. she has stated twice that if he wasn't alive she wouldn't want to be alive. everyday she is actively trying to keep going and fight, even during the promised day she remarks that she needs to keep going when she was just bleeding out 30 minutes ago because she sees roy is still willing to fight despite losing his eyesight not even fifteen minutes ago.

- epiphany is also riza coded but i don't feel comfortable analyzing it and discussing it based on what the songs about. so if you want to know what i mean listen to the song and you'll understand what i mean.

- mad woman is the battle with lust *tips cowboy hat*

- i could very much go on and on and on and i will! hoax with the fucking quotes like

• "don't want no other shade of blue but you" and "your faithless loves the only hoax believe in" and "i am ash from your fire" ARE YOU KIDDING MEEEEEEEEEEE

- okay okay you probably get the picture by this point. in conclusion folklore is heavily riza coded and is another piece of evidence in my "taylor swift kins riza hawkeye" crack theory. also riza needs therapy

- like riza SPECIFICALLY just fixed herself after each traumatic event with super glue and duck tape and is only holding on at this rate through sheer force and her superior officer/boyfriends dumbass ways

[hyunjinspark]

SCREAMING ANON IS HERE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ (this time with a full review)

bestie - when I tell you that this has to be my favorite chapter thus far, I wholeheartedly mean it

the angst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the fluff!!!!!!! THE SEXUAL TENSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the fact that Hyunjin was SO vulnerable with yn!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all of it: it was beautiful & it was perfect & it was so needed

Hyun practically begging her not to leave? the ~please don’t go~ moment??? oh my gosh my HEART - it was as if the walls he built to separate himself for her were starting to crumble

& don’t get me started on when he called her baby!!!!! I screamed, I cried, I was like OH MY GOD WE ARE SO BACKKKKKK BESTIESSSSSS!!!!!!!

the end of the chapter felt like the chapter before Hyun left & I was LIVING for it ♡

but also!!! the conclusion about the photobooth pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so satisfying, so thank you for answering that question - & the fact that his copy was so worn from him consistently looking at it in his wallet??? I cried fr

okay & not to mention yn INTENTIONALLY spilling wine on herself because she knew that Hyunjin would follow her - I made the most awful noise when I read that part hehehehe (it was giving Maroon & I was like THE BURGUNDY ON MY T-SHIRT WHEN YOU SPLASHED YOUR WINE INTO MEEEEEEEEEEE) (& the whole bathroom scene??? pls tell me it continues to the guest bedroom aka Hyunjin’s room??) but also how cute Han & Changbin were at the party? I love that his friends adore yn so much & that she’s not met with resistance from anyone like Hyunjin was with Felix (different situation, I know - but still)

OH & the fact that Hyunjin just up & left his schedule to come check on her? the fact that he’s legitimately willing to risk everything now for her??? this is a soulmate au fr fr

ending thoughts (I know this is a lot & I apologize)

1. pls tell me that yn will get her paintings back somehow - even if Hyunjin has to obtain them himself

2. will we find out if Hyunjin remembers her from the art store like yn did for years & years? my bestie & I were discussing it (PS: you are more than welcome to join our book club for your own story lol) & concluded that he HAS to remember her from then, right???

3. Christmas with Hyunjin & yn would be SO cute & I feel like we all want to read this so bad lmfao

4. Jeonghan is like my comfort character at this point - I LOVEEEE him, I adore him, I want more of him lol (it makes me love Jeonghan even more irl I’m not gonna lie lol)

bestie, you truly wrote the best chapter & I cannot thank you enough for that (I mean, every chapter is the best but this one was super special)

thank you for all of your hard work, for creating a story that we all love & adore & think about on a consistent basis - I know for a fact this story has changed my life & has provided comfort & solace to me since I found it around this time last year

(& I know I’m missing a lot of things I’m wanting to touch on for my review, but for now, this will do hehehehe)

again, thank you so much bestie - I’m sosososo ready for the next chapter (but also not because I know we have like 6-ish chapters left & I want it to last for as long as possible lol take your time bestie!!! drag this out!!)

I hope you’re having the most amazing week!! ily!!

🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

the fact that it’s your favorite chapter makes me very happy ! him asking her to stay is my 💔❤️‍🩹 and daejon gang will be back sooner than you think. a christmas scene…you may just get it, and about the art store as well…haha.

im glad you like jeonghan so much haha, i don’t know much about him (irl) but he is fun to write 🥹

you’re way too kind 😭 im happy my story provides you that comfort, that’s why i share it. :D

[puppygirltitties]

hey uh somethings been bugging me, i just can't wrap my head around it. im hoping you might know something. i mean, you're definitely an expert puppy, so i'm sure this question's gonna be really obvious to you, but it would mean a lot to me it if you helped me figure this one out.

who's a good girl? who's a good puppy?

is meeeeeeeeeee

[1eos]

oh no my condolences kendra :( kassie was so so loved at least theres no doubt she had the best life she couldve possibly had!!! 💖💖 so sorry i didnt see sooner i hope life is as kind to you as it should be

perthhhhhhhhhhhhh thank you for the well wishes it really means a lot to meeeeeeeeeee 🥺💖

[degozarumyu]

gr89 spoilers

so uh

??????????

??????????????????????????

yeah

no subs yet but I'm impatient and wanted to watch anyways so I missed a lot of stuff lol but!!!!!! wowee

shakes them what does this mean!!! what does this mean go rush tell meeeeeeeeeee why is that their family crest?????? what does kuai know about the oudous!!!

transamuvelgr based

yuamu so cute :((

yuuhi so cute :((

yuuga mvp once again,, casually putting huge glowing numbers in the sky (but why did he make the helmet look like that specifically LOL)

I hope even if its just by being assimilated into yuudias or something they save kuaidul from dying :((((( he's too silly to die </3

plus if he gets assimilated he can be like the partner that most ygo protags have had and backseat duel <3

i was confused when I saw mr nishaw mixed in with all the velgearians in the preview but then ig if kuai and mr creator made both the velgearians and the dudes they were at war with it makes sense they made the neutral side too huh

i wonder if it'll be the case that all aliens with the crescent eyes are made by them/have the galaxies?? and all the others r like. organic

anyway *puts this ep in my "shaky evidence that the oudous r from space" folder*

I can't wait for subs so I can actually understand whats happening :D

also side note I was looking for something on the wiki and saw this

lol. lmao even

otes naming his first child after a card game... what a loser

[sainteda]

Nooooooooo I don't regret anything at all! I can listen to you talk endlessly for hours! 🥰️🤗

"if we're a slow burn, everyone's a slow burn" — GOOD?!!!! i have never ever met anyone who doesn't like a slow burn.

E.G. MEEEEEEEEEEE!! I mean come on like I live and breathe slow burns! Especially with kaz and inej I was really looking forward to how they're relationship would continue to grow without the concept of touch and physical intimacy.

I think I told you that I never read any of the books so wesper were definitely knew to me. But I agree with you about how their relationship felt fast paced and lacking a lot that I suspect was in the books.

There's so much I'm curious to see if they get a season 3 or that desired spin off that honestly should have happened in the first place. Because mixing the crows into the SAB storyline was not a good idea, especially, since they've overshadowed everyone else.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me! 💖

thank you for asking!!! <3

yeah in general i can't recommend the duology enough if you ever decide to get around to it! if you like show kanej for the slow burn you'll LOVE book kanej and book wesper. elite slow burns

i dread the thought of a sab s3 or soc spin-off, i don't want to see these characters butchered any more than they've already been 😭

[starswallowingsea]

ugh wisdom teeth removal is coming up so quickly 

[ateezgf]

i love seeing older edits reemerage in my notes bc i’m just out here doing this for funsies and then seeing other people enjoying it as much as i do just makes me v happy :^)

[algumaideia]

It'll never not be funny to me that in ACOMAF Feyre is like “the girl who wanted to be coddled and protected died UTM, and I emerged, a strong independent woman who don’t need no man” and simultaneously is like “Tamlin didn’t protect meeeeeeeeeee 😭😭😭 My death is all his fault—even though Tamlin sent me away because he knew he couldn’t keep me safe and even though Lucien and Rhysand both said he couldn’t protect me—he still didn’t care about meeeeeeeeeee he’s so evil” and it’s hilarious.

Hi nonnie!

This is pretty funny. And I think it happens for two reasons:

1. The constant retcon and the fact SJM constantly ignores what she've written.

2. This quote is not there to show Feyre growth as a character but to compare Rhys and Tamlin. That's why she continues to think how Tamlin did nothing but Rhys is soooo better.

So, what I'm gonna say from now problaby has nothing to do if what you asked, but those are the thoughts I had about the quote you sent.

Feyre says she doesn't need to be protected anymore bc unlike Tamlin who put a magical shield around the house and didn't let her train, Rhys put a magic shield around her and sent her to a suicide misson when she was bad bc of the trauma and depression. Clearly Rhys is the one who loves and values her life the most, besides what says I respect you more than sending you to die? She also spent a lot of time doing nothing. going to dinners and just existing. And then she trained combat for 2 or 3 months, therefore she is clearly a capable warrior. Those guys that have been training for centuries do not stand a chance. And how can we forget how she didn't train her powers but was capable to use them when the plot needed without even understanding them?? She doesn't need protection.

This phrase is also a lie bc everyone needs to be proteced from the Inner Circle.

About the cuddling part, I don't remember any cuddling in the books??? Just sex. If there is no cuddling and this is comparison between Tamlin and Rhys I think it is talking about how in the begining of MAF Feyre and Tamlin were having sex instead of communicating (But can Feyre communicate with anyone??). And then there is also Rhys saying how he missed having sex with Feyre but most of all missed talking to her and just enjoying her company. Wow, Rhys is such a good partner.

The thing is that Rhys and Feyre have no meaninful conversation through the books. Whenever they're talking about something "deep" it was just infodumping. When Rhys was feeling bad about the Tarquin situation, instead of trying to talk to him, Feyre transformed that in a conversation about them enjoying how sex they were(or something like that, I don't know how to explain it). Then whenever they are alone they are having sex, wanting to have sex, almost having sex, thinking about sex. In acofas Rhys doesn't miss talking to Feyre, he misses having sex with her, in their final scene they do not talk about having a child and what that means, they just have sex.

There is no cuddling. And maybe that is because I'm ace, but I think that they cuddling would've been more intimate than they having sex. Because it would have been they just enjoying their presence, just enjoying being next to each other. It would say they don't need to have sex to them like to be with each other, but that's not what I got from their relationship in the books.

Best regards,

Me.

[divorcebf]

i’m gonna play you a song that i wrote about a relationship that i was in that the number one feeling i felt in the whole relationship was anxiety. because it felt very fragile it felt very tentative and it always felt like okay, what's the next roadblock what's the next thing that’s gonna- that’s gonna deter this what's- how long do we have before this turns into just an awful mess and we break up? is it a month? is it three days? and so you know, i think a lot of relationships can be very solid and that’s kinda what you hope for, solid and healthy. but it’s not always what you get and it doesn’t mean that it’s not special, and extraordinary just to have a relationship that is fragile and somehow meaningful in that fragility. so this is a song i wrote with jack antonoff and it’s called out of the woods. looking at it now it all seems so simple we were lying on your couch i remember you took a polaroid of us then discovered the rest of the world was black and white but we were in screaming color and i remember thinking are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good looking at it now last december we were built to fall apart then fall back together ooh your necklace hanging from my neck the night we couldn’t quite forget when we decided we decided to move the furniture so we could dance baby like we stood a chance two paper airplanes flying flying flying and i remember thinking are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good remember when you hit the brakes too SOON twenty stitches in the hospital ROOM when you started crying baby i did TOO when the sun came up i was looking at YOU remember when we couldn’t take the HEAT i walked out and said i’m setting you FREE but the monsters turned out to be just TREES when the sun came up you were looking at MEEEEEEE you were looking at MEEEEEEEEEEE yeaaaaah ohhh you were looking at ME oh i remember are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet in the clear yet in the clear yet good are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods yet are we out of the woods are we in the clear yet are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good i remember i remember are we in the clear yet in the clear yet good

[jewishrizahawkeye]

alright…. the moment anyone who’s been invested in this series has waited for…

folklore

Riza Hawkeye

- folklore is taylor’s first forey into not writing completely autobiographically. she is still writing about herself though but projecting that onto fictional characters she’s creating (mecore affffffffff).

- the loose story of the album is, you guessed it, folklore or tall tales. stories that are timeless and are passed down from generation to generation, across cultures and worlds to one another for everyone to relate to or learn from. the album discusses a lot of different topics that everyone can relate to or feel connected to in some way as they’re not unique feelings and are universal. she does this in a truly achingly beautiful way and is beautiful.

- if you haven’t listened to the LPSS version, do it. SO FUCKING GOOD AND MY TEARS RICOCHET HURTS SO MUCH

- BUT the album fits a lot of riza’s character and story as almost all of it can be linked to her past or life at most points either in the story or in stuff implied prior to the start of the story

- seven being about her as a child and that innocence that she yearns for again

- if you’re a royai shipper (great taste) august and illicit affairs can be read in the context of her and roy having a secret relationship together and the feelings tied into that.

- august being how she can’t have more with roy because of their individual goals but still being hopelessly in love

- illicit affairs being about the feelings that comes over time with having a secret relationship and the pain and anger you feel but can’t stop (and that’s the thing about illicit affairs and clandestine meetings and longing stares they’re stolen from one single glance but THEY DIE AHD THEY DIE AND THEY DIE a million little times…)

- mirrorball ties into riza not really knowing herself or what to do. more of a popular fan interpretation though there is evidence of this based on the brief scenes we get of younger her and joining the army because she believes in roy’s idyllic ideas of the military. riza herself doesn’t fully know herself and mirrorball perfectly encapsulates that

- in addition to that, this is me trying is, in my opinion, the sister song to mirrorball. the song is about how you’re kind of at this low and awful point but you’re TRYING to be better. to keep fighting and moving on despite everything that makes you want to just stop it all. this connects to riza with similar things that i said in mirrorball. she doesn’t fully see or know herself outside of roy. she doesn’t believe she deserves to live and only finds meaning and value through roy himself and his future goals. she has stated twice that if he wasn’t alive she wouldn’t want to be alive. everyday she is actively trying to keep going and fight, even during the promised day she remarks that she needs to keep going when she was just bleeding out 30 minutes ago because she sees roy is still willing to fight despite losing his eyesight not even fifteen minutes ago.

- epiphany is also riza coded but i don’t feel comfortable analyzing it and discussing it based on what the songs about. so if you want to know what i mean listen to the song and you’ll understand what i mean.

- mad woman is the battle with lust *tips cowboy hat*

- i could very much go on and on and on and i will! hoax with the fucking quotes like “don’t want no other shade of blue but you” and “your faithless loves the only hoax i believe in” and “i am ash from your fire” ARE YOU KIDDING MEEEEEEEEEEE

- okay okay you probably get the picture by this point. in conclusion folklore is heavily riza coded and is another piece of evidence in my “taylor swift kins riza hawkeye” crack theory. also riza needs therapy

- like riza SPECIFICALLY just fixed herself after each traumatic event with super glue and duck tape and is only holding on at this rate through sheer force and her superior officer/boyfriends dumbass ways

alright hello!

a month or so back i was sent these asks in september telling me about a series that @megthemighty did on what taylor swift albums are fullmetal alchemist characters! and the anon wanted to hear my opinions since my brand is just liking taylor swift and enjoying fullmetal alchemist a completely normal amount (you can trust me, i promise). and i thought the idea was very cool and wanted to share my thoughts on each album! so after working on this for two months (don’t ask) i finally finished the list!!

i also went off on this at times because i would either word vomit about an album/song or a character and ended up making something that’s INCREDIBLY long. so i decided it would be best to post it one at a time in a chain post style (so i don’t like overwhelm myself or others). so i’m going to slowly chain post over the ne t few days this with each album and character! so without further ado:

Taylor Swift (Bonus Track Version):

Winry Rockbell

- debut has some of taylor’s best lyrics to date and can cut glass (cold as you still gives me chills)

- the primary theme of the album is about who will i become and first loves while also having a common theme of radio and music being used to describe love. which is important to taylor’s character as she was obsessed (and still is) with country music, so her saying “his smiles like the radio” is her evoking a specific feeling of her listening to music on the radio and sharing that to the audience that when her boyfriend smiles it makes her feel like she’s listening to her favorite songs on the radio. i definitely over explained it but it’s a very sweet and beautiful line to describe how in love you are with a person and how they feel to you

- this idea, while drastically different from winrys loves and goals, radiates her character though

- both winry and taylor had big dreams ever since they were young and went out into the world to make it a reality still at a young age. for taylor, she was able to release her first album at 16 and would later win album of the year on her second album (which i don’t think people realize is FUCKING INSANE TO DO ON YOUR SOPHMORE ALBUM AND IT BEING A COUNTRY ALBUM). similarly though, winry starts working at her family’s automail shop when she’s young, already being ed’s full time mechanic at the age of 14, and later takes up an apprenticeship in rush valley and gains a loyal customer base very quickly for her time there. for a girl that young to achieve something like that is INSANE. she’s already got her dreams met at the age of 15 and it can only go up from there for her

- but tying back into the primary theme of the album being “who am i and who will i become” and how that resonates with winrys character. winry is trying to not only find herself in her youth but also how to help ed and al after their accident. her life was shaken after it and she’s doing everything she can to help them. if y’all would let me quote a song here, she’s “just a girl trying to find a place in this world”

- also songs like TDOMG, Tim McGraw, Invisible, Mary’s Song and so many others can be read as edwin coded as they’re about a young love that sticks around but not always seeing the other as a potential option until it’s to late… or maybe it isn’t, you’ll never know until you tell them

- at its core debut is just a young girl getting to follow her dreams and do what she loves while not knowing what the future will hold for her. which fits winry going to rush valley and her story arc. she doesn’t know what will come but gets to chase her dream very young and only grow from there. especially in the wake of ed and al since her world was shaken and she didn’t know what would or could happen to them or her. she doesn’t know what will come but gets to chase her dream very young and only grow from there.

[ray-ray-writings]

I'm puncHING THE AIR RN ALL YOUR IMAGINES ARE SO AMAZING!!!! PleASE I imagined Bad and Skeppy lowkey competing over "which of us is Sapnap's partners favorite dad" -🍉

🍉!!!!! Thank you so much, that means a lot to meeeeeeeeeee!

But this idea is just so *chef’s kiss*

Like I think it would start one day when you come over to hang out with Sapnap, but he’s not awake yet so you go to the kitchen and find Bad there making breakfast. “Hello Bad,” you greet a little shyly, because even though they think you’re a part of the family, you’re still just a bit shy around them. Bad whips around with a huge grin on his face, “Hey kiddo! It’s so good to see you! Our lazy s/o’s are still asleep so I decided to make breakfast for the four of us.” Bad tells you as you move further into the kitchen. “Oh! That’s really sweet…. Can I help?” You ask, again shyly because you really don’t want to overstep but you really want to help. Bad’s heart melts at the thought of you actually wanting to help him in the kitchen. “Of course you can sweetheart, come here,” he chimes, motioning you forward to stand by his side. An excited grin falls on your face as you step forward and begin to help Bad cook. The two of you have an absolute blast cooking together. You make jokes as you flip pancakes and cut up fruit. You two are laughing so loudly that you wake up the sleeping boys. Sapnap and Skeppy both come out of their rooms very confused and exchange confused looks before heading down to the kitchen. When they get there, their hearts melt at the sight. You’re trying to flip a pancake and Bad is watching you with an extremely proud look on his face. “I did it!” You squeal in excitement as you successfully flip the pancake. “Yes you did! I’m so proud of you.” You can’t help it, you just wrap your arms around Bad in a really tight hug in your excitement. He’s a little shocked, but he hugs you back just as tight. After you let go of the hug, you catch a glimpse of your boyfriend standing in the kitchen. “Bubs!” You cheer and bounce toward him, pulling him in a huge hug and giving him a kiss on the cheek. “Hey baby… What are you doing here?” Sapnap asks, still a little confused and groggy. You let out a laugh, “We had plans today… Did you forget again?” And Sapnap can only nod, his face flushing with embarrassment, “Sorry” You let out a soft coo and press a quick kiss to his lips, “That’s okay bubs. If you don’t want to hang today, I’ll just annoy your father’s all day. I’m sure they would love to hang out with me.” You turn toward Skeppy as he and Bad chuckle at the interaction. Skeppy steps forward and pulls you into a little hug as a greeting, “yeah bud. We’d love to steal your s/o for the day,” Skeppy teases his son, giving him a small wink. Sapnap lets out a small whine and shakes his head, “No!! Just because I forgot doesn’t mean I don’t want to!” He pouts causing the three of you to laugh one more. Sapnap grumbles and pulls you from his father’s arms and sits you down at the table and sits next to you, although he pulls his chair so close to you, that he’s practically on your lap. 

The four of you sit down to breakfast and have a great meal. Bad compliments the food and basically gives you all the credit, even though he definitely did almost all of the work. So after breakfast, you and Sapnap go up to his room while Bad and Skeppy clean up. “So what was that about this morning?” Skeppy asks, as he and his husband wash dishes. He won’t admit it but he’s a little jealous because he really wants you to like him the best and it seems that his plan is failing. Bad only gives a half shrug, “They asked if they could help me cook and I couldn’t refuse… I really think they like me” Bad states casually. Skeppy lets out a little huff and washes the plate a little more aggressively. “What?” “Nothing” “No it’s something… Are you jealous that Y/N and I cooked this morning?” And Skeppy lets out an exasperated sigh because, yes. “I just want them to like me the most.” Skeppy admits, handing Bad a dish. Bad lets out a laugh as he rinses and dries, “Sorry to break it to you babe, but I think they like me more.” Skeppy only playfully glares at him, “We’ll see about that” 

For the next few weeks, the two dads keep trying to one up each other to get you to like them more. Skeppy asks you if you want to help him get materials and you two come back and you’re laughing your head off and when you go separate ways, you give Skeppy a big hug and he kisses your forehead. Bad sees this and pouts the rest of the night. Skeppy only chuckles and kisses Bad, “Sorry babe. I think I’m overtaking your spot”. A few days after that, Bad hands you something that you had been talking about getting for a while but couldn’t find the time or money to buy it. “Bad!” You freak out as you examine the item, “What? I can’t accept this!” You say as you try to push it back in his hand. Bad only smiles and shakes his head, “Yes you can kiddo. I got it for you, I don’t have any use for it. It’s yours.” And tears prick in your eyes and you wrap him in a huge hug and cry into his shoulder. “Thank you so much” Bad kisses your temple and winks at Skeppy over your shoulder, “No problem kiddo.” And Skeppy is fuming and planning what to do next. 

All throughout this time, you’re oblivious to what’s happening, you’re just happy that your boyfriend’s fathers like you. Sapnap on the other hand is less oblivious, but he also doesn’t say anything to you about it. He does however make sure that it doesn’t go too far and makes sure that home life is still balanced. Sapnap does like to tease his fathers by saying things like “Y/N told me today that they needed a new pickaxe” and watches in amusement as the two fight over who gets to craft a new one for you and give it to you. He asked you once if you had a favorite and you looked at him like he was crazy, “Absolutely not! I love your father’s equally and so much. I could never pick a favorite” Sapnap keeps that to himself though. It would just be so cute and so funny, especially if you had no idea about the competition.