#Like a sliding glitched image that stretches and distorts the face. Like a statue eroding.

[blackvahana]

Honestly, and I know this is because I came up against what I'd called the Gatekeeper before of Lev, the under-all(most)-masks inner consciousness body of his though we all theoretically have one, where his emotions and conscious mind are just manifestations and translations of an internal sleeping lake.. Yeah, no, it was another mask. Anyway. The topic

Honestly... Im thinking about my connection to dogs briefly. Saw a post and have seen posts lately from therians talking about how their animal part or more animal self interacts with reality, for example talking about how they're a dog in the playful puppy way or as a guard dog or whathaveyou. Not a therian to be clear, it's a different thing, but doghood is always a mask of wolfhood for me, it's the "I have become, through forces that made this into an animal-and-master situation, something forced to be palatable"... It's generally complicated, there's elements of "the mother wolf becomes a dog so her children recognise her, she's older than their species but they only know their own species, so she puts on the dog body to play with them", there's elements of "I was forced into this form, taught that I have to yip and bow instead of growling and showing teeth", and so on and so forth. Not really the point, it's too complicated to summarise why I'm a wolf and why that gets represented and expressed as a dog - especially because ultimately wolf is a representation and expression of something else in turn

Point is when Lev stares right through the dog me because he knows I'm putting on a mask he just sees myself staring, cryptid-ass liminal shit lmfao. Actually. Not sure what the connecting logic is between the Gatekeepers thing and this. Probably just Lev encouraging my own to go play with his

Fascinating as fuck honestly finally seeing the Gatekeeper of Lev's crumble into being yet another mask. I've been waiting for that for a while now lmfao. It's probably partly to do with the fact that Lev said earlier he wanted to help me wake up more parts of myself that are sleeping, parts beyond the conscious minds... Man I am so fuckin tired