#Levipeto

[petras-girlie]

Rivetra parallels between other AoT pairings.

Someone already had this idea but I forgot who, I'll credit them once I find it.

EREMIKA

This one is pretty obvious. Both of them kinda had the same motivations to their partner, Mikasa promised Carla to protect Eren at all costs and send him away from danger. As for Petra and Levi, I'm pretty sure it is Petra's job to be Levi's shadow like, like Mikasa with Eren. It's also the fact that Levi and Mikasa never wanted to be in the Survey Corps in the first place but did anyways just to save the person they hold dearest, while Petra and Eren it was obvious that they were inspired to join it.

ARUANI

This one is also the main stereotype between them. Annie is usually the coldest out of Reiner and Bertoltd, but then again Annie can be also very emotional (like watching Marco die). As for Armin, he is possibly the sweetest one out of EMA yet again he will not hesitate to slit your throat if needed. Both of Armin and Petra can be cold at times, besides they even look alike.

NICOSHA

If I'm being honest, there's hardly any parallel between them but their relationship is like a 50 / 50. Like, Niccolo will cook Sasha food, and she'll give her appreciation by praising his cooking. Petra will do good with her cleaning and training, and Levi would also praise it by saying ‘good job’

YUMIHISU

Hear me out, Ymir was a wandering criminal, like Levi, and Historia is good girl with a good heart but her power is strong, like Petra (due to being the one with the second highest kill count in the squad). Both Ymir and Petra made a letter to their lovers, but Petra never got to send it to Levi but her father instead. Both of them also had one thing that they regret to do, Ymir regret that she never got to marry Historia and Petra regret that she never got to confess to Levi.

MOBUHAN

This one is also obvious, it's Moblit's job to check up on Hange when they did something very reckless, and Hange respects that. Let's say it's also EreMika but with the Captain / Squad Leader x Subordinate role.

MIKE & NANABA

Also like MobuHan but their position in the same, Mike is Humanities Second Strongest and Nanaba is his 2nd hand.

FALBI

Falco is nervous to confess to Gabi (but did it in Season 4 Part 2) and Gabi is one free soul.

EREJEANKASA

Ah yes, the infamous love triangle, by the looks of it, the pairing is the same as the pairings between Petra, Levi, and Oluo, they also look they same ngl

If I missed some pairings, please tell me

[whatpistachio]

Call me by my name.

ONE SHOT RIVETRA ISPIRED BY THE END OF “YOUR NAME” (there are not spoilers!!!)

MODERN AU - RIVETRA X YOUR NAME

The Red String of Fate binding Petra and Levi to the present day.

From the text:

He furiously rubbed his eyes, his cheeks and brutally scratched his black hair, but all seemed to be useless in eliminating the feeling of emptiness that stubbornly twisted in the centre of his chest. It was as if a hard and firm thread, tight and strong, was holding him to what he had dreamed of. "But who...were you guys? What was it? Who...were you?”

-

"Again?" She repeated in a low voice, absent-mindedly fiddling with the red thread that had spilled out of his shirt at the level of her wrist. "That dream again...how is it possible...and then...who..."

LINK: https://archiveofourown.org/works/30680912

[keijier]

Rivetra's daughter looks like:

Omg she's too fcking cute!! ㅠ_ㅠ ♡♡♡♡♡

[lecimarkisa]

LP shippers: Because his politeness and friendliness made Levi fall in love with Petra

LH shippers: Because of the noise Levi is attracted to Hange

LM shippers: Because her cold nature, strength, and beauty make Levi secretly pay attention to Mikasa

LP / LH shippers: Really, we can't believe it!!

LM shippers: If you don't believe me, what is this?

LP / LH shippers:

(source on Wattpad) 👌

[sardonyxie]

🎭 What are your other ships in the AOT fandom?

Hm, ok. There’s Rivetra, LevixPetra, LeviPeto, and-.

Ok, enough playing around:

Mikenana: They’re just the cool and hot vibes like 😭 Mobuhan: So. Freacking. Cute.  Eremika Jeankasa

Honorable mention for YumiKuri because they deserved better. Aruani can be cute too! ✨

Ask Me: Emoji Edition 

[amaranthprincess21]

Heartbeat

Rivetra Week, Fall 2015 Day 1: Heartbeat TW: None Synopsis: After their wedding, Levi has trouble sleeping.

Levi Ackerman should have been fast asleep. He’d been up since five that morning and according to the bright red numbers on the hotel room’s bedside clock, it was already three am. Maybe there was still too much adrenaline going through his system. That had to be it. There was no other explanation for it.

He glanced over at Petra, who was snuggled up beside him. Unlike him, she was able to sleep and had been for the past hour or so. She was lucky; they’d been together long enough for him to know that she could sleep through anything. Even after all of the excitement of their wedding and their upcoming honeymoon, she was still able to pass out. Levi exhaled slowly, counting his breath as he sunk deeper into the plush blankets.

He rested his head on Petra’s chest, listening to her heart beat steadily. It was calming, more calming than soft music and more soothing than the warmth from a glass of hot milk. Levi closed his eyes, letting her heartbeat flow through his mind. Perhaps this would help him sleep.

[lilchibihanna]

Rivetra Chat {BACK TO SCHOOL EDITION}

With Attack on Junior High around the corner and school literally cock slapping us with its presence, ask-real-petraral  and I decided to do another round of Rivetra Chat. We have decided we will be holding it on Saturday September 12th,2015 at 8pm EASTERN STANDARD TIME ( nonsense-shit this will be on Sunday September 13th at 8am for you) If you need help figuring out what time it’ll be in your area don’t hesitate to message me

What?!

You may be asking yourself “Hey Hanna, what this?” and I would reply like “bruh, its just a bunch of Rivetra (LeviXPetra) shippers in a room, hanging out having a good time on the internet.” We may play cards against humanoity, we will share headcanons, we will cry our souls out BECAUSE THAT’S HOW WE SHIPPERS ROLL. I will be posting the link to the chat on my blog ( lilchibihanna) As it starts.

WHO?!

Literally anyone is invited if they wanna come hang out. All I ask is that you respect other people in the chat. I do not tolerate bullying of any kind. Bullying will result in a permanent ban from all subsequent Rivetra Chats

Why?

Fair question. I originally started this up with ask-real-petraral because we wanted to meet other people in the community and to bring people together who had common interests. Essentially it was to make friends. It’s still something we do today. We love getting new people in the chat so please don’t be shy. Everyone is friendly and welcoming.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask me! We look forward to seeing you all there!

[lurkingobservingdoodling]

howl! Petra and sophie! Levi....because....why not.

[qmonnie]

Even if its not my otp I cried  ಥ_ಥ

[petras-girlie]

Call your Name & Light of Dual Wings

A little something for my Rivetra Shippers, I've gathered all of the information I could.

She lost her brother a month ago,

His picture on the wall, and it reminds me,

“When she brings me coffee, her smile,”

We all know that Petra is usually the one who makes everyone's coffee or tea. Saying that she's also the only one who smiles at people.

“I wish I could be with her, till my last day”

Canonically speaking, we saw that one chapter (I forgot since I'm only starting the manga but I saw it in a blog) where the Levi, Hange, and Mike squad are around a fire. Though we never saw if Levi actually wanted Petra to stay with him.

“She said, she'll give all her love to me”

Obviously, the infamous Season 1 Letter Scene, Petra's dad stated that Petra has Hugh respects for Levi and that she have somewhat feelings for him.

“We dreamt a new life, some place to be at peace”

This was also in the chapter I mentioned earlier, it was seen that Petra was the closest seated to Levi out of everyone else.

“But things changed, suddenly”

Could be Petra's / Levi Squad deaths

“I lost my dreams, in this disaster”

I've read somewhere (and yes, this is an official characteristic of Levi) that Levi was suicidal and tried to take his life away but he stopped it when he finally found a reason to live, and since he hasn't lost anyone in a few years after Isabel and Farlan, the Female Titan Arc was a disaster after all, since everything happened there was unexpected.

I'm crying, missing my lover

“I don't have the power, on my side forever”

After fight the female titan alongside with Mikasa, Levi was forced to lay off because of his sprained ankle.

Oh, where is my lover?

“And I got no power, I'm standing alone, no way”

A theory that the people Levi loves just dies then and there. Levi feels like he's standing all alone because he cant have someone who would stay by his side forever.

Calling out your name

I said, I'll give all my love to you

We dreamt a new house, some place to be at peace.

But things changed, suddenly,

I lost my dreams, in this disaster.

“We don't know what is wrong tonight”

Seriously, we don't.

“Everybody's got no place to hide”

Season 3.

“No one's left and there no one to go on”

Dumping of the bodies, no one is so called, ‘important’ in the batch. But who do we see? Petra fucking Ral.

Or could be either Erwin's death.

“All I know, is my life is gone”

Remember the forest Zeke and Levi stayed? Yeah, it was the same forest where everything first started.

Petra, Levi's sunshine, world, energy to get up in the morning, reason to live. Gone. Poof.

I'm crying, missing my lover

I don't have the power, on my side forever.

Oh, where is my lover?

And I got no power, I'm standing alone, no way.

Calling out your name.

https://open.spotify.com/track/0vsX9anltn3w2e5OKe4eh5?si=7yw-4aZbTb6_x-Sw1lZx2g&utm_source=copy-link&dl_branch=1

“Even though you always and across, stern and cold”

If you still dont know, please, think 😭🖐

“I knew it all started from a kind, gentle place”

Although the Underground City wasn't the nicest, Petra knows that Levi was one of the most caring persons she met, I mean look at his first appearance in season 1, he was assuring a dying soldier.

“And from behind all of your lines of nonchalant words, there's a ray of warm, and gentle light, that shines so bright in the darkness”

It has been shown that Levi talks as if he doesn't wanna talk to that specific person due to his cold and stern nature, but then again he even if he still uses that time of voice, he can stiff reassure a person.

Many of my memories are all of the painful moments that we've been through

But despite it all, we made it this far,

“Without a doubt of what you could do”

I mean look at Levi's inhuman speed—

“I know you can't quite predict, what will happen to us all in the future”

Hello? Female Titan Arc?

“But you had my back, what ever I lacked”

The amount of assist Petra has, think about the times that she and Levi has been fighting together? You could see in Petras first appearance that she called reinforcements, cough cough, Eld and Gunther, think about it, they may have been fighting together but Levi realized that the job was too much for her so he called someone else?

“You were always right behind to give the push I need”

Maybe lack of self confidence? Who knows

“We must choose, to take a path of least regret, you always said.”

Eren fighting between transforming or not while the Female Titan was chasing on them.

“But when the moment comes, to make the choice,”

Erwin or Armin?

“Who's gonna have your back in the end?”

It looked like after Petra died Levi didn't had anyone else to fight with him, maybe he was getting memories, I suppose?

Small feathers fluttering, joining one by one.

as they take a form, of a white wing in the setting sun

“Fragile souls vanishing, dying one by one”

The amount of people dying in that damn show—

“As they leave behind, a blackened wing, of a war not yet won”

Is there gonna happen after the Rumbling? A lot of people died in that Arc, damn.

“Tough a bird is destined to fly, beyond the walls that reach the sky,”

Wings of Freedom.

“I don't quite understand, I am certain they can't, with just a single wing to take them”

Possibly, because the amount of people Levi lost, the other wing is his, and the other one is for the people he holds dearest, Petra thinks that Levi can't fighting his own like that, he need someone to be there for him.

“But you take then upon you own back”

Petra realizes that Levi, in fact, can hold himself, but he does need mental help.

“Those wings, both white and tattered black”

Levi's souls and the souls of people he promised toml.

“With the strength of both wings, you could do anything”

Time skip to season 4

“To lead us all beyond this forsaken place”

In season 4, Levi was the only one who was wearing the Wings of Freedom cape up everyone else, it could mean that he just won't give up on it, he promised to the people and he's not gonna let go of it. It was also shown that he was the one leading the whole troop.

“So I will die, believing I, have made the right decision”

Die with no regrets?

“Oh how I long, for this to last, but it seems that my time has finished”

Petra couldn't wait for all of this to be over. But she never meant it for to be this fast. Goodbye.

“As I cease, I have one thing, I've always yearned to say to you”

Could be I love you? Maybe she doesn't have enough confidence to say it to Levi so she just said it to her dad so Petra can lay off without a heavy heart.

“It's just... Never mind, it not important in the end”

She just couldn't bring herself to say it.

Small feathers fluttering, joining one by one

As they take a form, of a white wing in the setting sun

Fragile souls vanishing, dying one by one

As they leave behind, a blackened wing, of a war not yet won.

“In the end of my life, was I brave in your eyes?”

Yes Petra, he did.

“Did you still look at me, and see a girl willing to give everything?”

Sacrificing herself for the sake of Eren's safety.

Please don't ever forget, you have upon your back

The shining light of two wings

that will guide you, both white and blood - spattered black

If I were to call something that pure light behind you

The feeling it begets,

Yes it's hope.

[petras-girlie]

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[amaranthprincess21]

The Thirst is Real. Levi/Petra

Modern AU

Tw: some sexual elements

Synopsis: When Petra gets lost trying to find her parents, she decides to watch the fireworks show with the very snarky and very cute boy she just met. 

If there was one thing Petra hated, it was being a third wheel. She just couldn’t stand being the odd one out and it made her gut lurch when couples started being affectionate. Loneliness was the only explanation she could come up with. After all, it was just her parents and the occasional passersby being lovey-dovey. Or maybe it was just because that’s how Disney parks made her feel. Seeing all of the couples made her want to bring someone special there too (not to mention spread happiness; Petra was raised on Disney and couldn’t think of a better way to make someone happy).

Epcot’s lighting was dim as she wandered around the park, trying to find her parents as well as a decent spot to film to fireworks show for her friends back home. Her parents hadn’t wanted to go on Test Track again, so she went on alone while they staked out a nice spot to watch the fireworks show that night. Both of their phones were dead from the looks of it; Petra had tried calling them five times and each time it went straight to voicemail. Of course this would happen when it’s so dark, she thought in frustration as she walked around the lagoon, soft brown eyes scouring crowds for her parents. Aches stretched through her feet; she’d already walked around the entire lagoon once before.

We’ll be easy to find, they said. We’ll be somewhere in the World Showcase, they said. Our phones aren’t dead, they said. Her fingers raked through her ginger bangs. Maybe she just needed to get her hair out of her face. But alas, this did nothing and it was still as dark as it had been before and she was still just as lost as she was a few seconds ago. Five minutes till the show starts. Maybe if I get somewhere high I’ll be able to see them. I’ll head back to the Japan Pavilion and see if I can get on that second floor. At least I’ll be able to see if they’re there or not.

The crowds were gathered along railings facing towards the lagoon that sat in the center of the World Showcase. Walking around wasn’t that big of a deal, but Petra wished she could at least see faces. The UK Pavilion was pretty barren, most of the crowds flocked together in the outdoor dining areas. A couple walked past her, the boy’s arm draped over his girlfriend’s shoulders. A sharp pang struck through Petra as she enviously eyed the two. Why can’t that be me, she thought as she continued moving down the road. Why can’t I be the one walking around Epcot with my boyfriend? Movement caught her attention and turning to look she saw a small, elevated seating area tucked away behind some trees and bushes. Wait, there’s something there?! They have to be in there. That’s the one place I haven’t checked. She moved into the small area and looked around. No trace of her parents. Argh, where could they be, she thought, letting out an agitated sigh.

“You all right there?” a deep voice asked. A short black-haired man stood near the waist-high, wall-like railing. Damn, was I really that loud? She nervously laughed, rubbing the back of her neck.

“Yeah, I’m just trying to find my parents. We were going to meet up to watch the fireworks together but I haven’t found them,” she told him earnestly.

“Have you reported to the lost children kiosk?” he inquired.

“Excuse you, but I’m not a kid! I’m twenty!” she exclaimed indignantly. The corners of his lips twitched, a brief grin flitting across his face. Wow, what a charmer. He’s got a sense of humor on him, she thought, only being a little bit sarcastic. Biting humor was her thing. “Are you an asshole to everyone or just me?” she asked, putting her hands on her hips.

“Don’t flatter yourself, I’m an asshole to everyone,” he replied. A deep, booming voice sounded from the speakers sprinkled around the area announcing the start of the show. Damn it, I’m too late. You know what, I’m not going to find my parents until I meet up with them at our car. They’re going to want to cuddle anyway. I’ll just be awkward third wheel. I’m just going to stay here and watch the show.

“Would you consider being nice for once and let me share your spot for the show?” she asked.

“Knock yourself out,” he said, scooting over to make room for Petra. She squeezed beside him and a group of teenage girls.

“Thanks. I’m Petra, by the way,” she told him.

“Levi,” he replied tersely, eyes flitting to her before going back to the spectacle beginning to unfold in front of them. This spot is decent for filming. It’s better than nothing. She pulled out her phone and quickly got to the camera app. The camera was still set on the front one, showing her a very nice image of her and Levi.

“What, are we taking a selfie? It’d be nice if you asked me first,” he said in a deadpan. She jokingly gave him a dirty look before correcting her camera’s view.

“Don’t flatter yourself, you’re not the kind of guy I like to take selfies with,” she replied, making him chuckle. Although, we do look very good together, she admitted silently. We’d make an aesthetically pleasing couple. I’m cute, you’re cute, not to mention you’d probably look pretty good holding my hand, and walking around with me, and bending me over a table. Oh my God. Petra, stop thirsting after some cute guy you just met, she told herself firmly. You met him five minutes ago. You can’t fantasize about him. You don’t even know him.

Petra set up her phone’s camera and started filming, making sure the camera didn’t get in anyone else’s way of watching the show, including her own. It wasn’t often she got to go to Disney World and she wasn’t going to watch a fireworks show through a screen.

It was odd watching fireworks next to a stranger. Except for their banter, nothing tied them together. And yet Petra felt a sense of camaraderie with Levi. These fireworks had brought the two of them together when normally she probably would have walked by right him after thinking a few fleeting (and inappropriate) thoughts about him. Despite his slightly shitty sense of humor she felt completely comfortable standing next to him and from his relaxed stance he felt the same sense of peace.

She wondered if this was what being at a theme park with a boyfriend would be like. This calming presence and somewhat intimate connection. Except if they were dating he'd have his arm around her shoulders and she'd be resting her head on his shoulder. Or maybe his arm would be around her waist, hand slithering down to her hip and thin lips peppering her neck with kisses. She could feel the ghost of his lips loving and nipping their way up her neck, his deep voice pleading with her for them to go back to their hotel room. Gah, stop it! He's cute but get a grip, girl! Ugh, I need to take a cold shower or something.

When the show came to an end the smattering of applause filled the small patio. A few stray couples left early, hightailing it towards the park’s exit. Petra gathered her things a little slower, watching Levi out of the corner of her eyes. He made no move to leave, simply looking out over the lagoon with a bored expression written on his face. Did he not like it? Or has he just seen it enough times so it’s not exciting?

"So, are you local, or . . . ?" Petra's voice trailed off.

"Local. Born and raised,” he replied. Well that explains it. “What about you?"

"Out of state. I'm here on vacation," she answered. He nodded slightly; she imagined he was thinking the same thing.

"How long are you here?"

"Six more days, then heading back home to west coast."

"I see." She gathered up her stuff and felt a reluctance to leave him. As snarky as he was, she enjoyed talking to him. "What park are you heading to tomorrow?"

"Hollywood Studios."

"Nice. If I run into you there we should go on a few rides."

"I'd like that." And just to give her sultry thoughts some satisfaction, she winked at him before she took off. Giggles bubbled in her throat and stomach but she fought them down. The last thing she needed was someone seeing her giggling to herself like a madwoman.

A/N: this was partially inspired by me getting lost in Epcot during my most recent trip to Florida and yeah. And also I thought it’d be fun to write thirsty!Petra.

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[amaranthprincess21]

More Than Meets the Eye

Rivetra

Warnings: like a shit ton of sexual themes, a lot of discussion about porn.

A/N: I just wrote this piece for fun. The idea came to me and I thought it’d be a silly and fun thing to write. 

Petra Ral was the sweetest, kindest, and most innocent girl Levi had ever met. She didn’t talk all that much in class outside of answering questions and participating in class debates. They had history and English together and his dorm suite wasn’t that far from hers. He’d known her since last year when they both started at the UC Trost. Well, maybe “known each other” wasn’t the best way to put it. “Been acquaintances while Levi harbored a deep and secret crush on Petra” was a more accurate term. She had helped him and his roommate Farlan move into their room freshman year when the two of them had been completely helpless and from there the crush just grew. And now, a year and a half later, he hadn’t made any moves and kept his crush under wraps.

Two more minutes and history would be over. It’s about fucking time, this week has felt like a month, he thought. I might actually get some sleep this weekend. Not to mention kick some ass in the Smash Bros Brawl tournament Saturday. He glanced over at Petra, who sat a row in front of his and a few seats away. She was deeply engrossed in taking notes, her fingers flying across her keyboard. Her laptop was probably the girliest thing he’d ever seen. There was a fucking bedazzled cat on the back, not to mention her name written in glittery pink letters. It all went well with her lacy or floral dresses she wore all the time.

Shit, I’m in over my head, he thought, raking a few fingers through his black hair. She’s innocence and sweetness personified and I’m me. God, what am I even doing?  

“Levi?” He nearly jumped out of his seat at the sound of her voice. Around them students were packing up and leaving. Damn it, did I zone out again? “Are you all right?”

“Yeah, I just spaced out for a moment,” he said, shoving his binder into his backpack. He paused, wondering if he keep talking. Should I invite her over for the tournament? Does she even like video games? “I, uh. I guess I’ll see you around.” She bit her lip and nodded.

“I’ll see you around! Have a nice weekend.”

“You too.” As soon as she moved he kicked himself. Damn it! I should’ve said something to her, anything! This is going to be the fucking end of me. I can’t believe I can’t just grow a pair and just ask her to hang out. He was still silently fuming when he got to his dorm. Farlan was already done for the day, lazing around on his bed as Levi dumped his stuff in their room.

“How was history?” he inquired, pausing whatever he was watching and pulling his earbuds out of his ears.

“Boring,” Levi replied as he plopped down onto his bed.

“Did you make a move on Petra yet, or?”

“Of course I didn’t.” Farlan groaned enough for the two of them, dramatically throwing his head back.

“Levi, you’re not going to get anywhere if you don’t make a move,” Farlan told him. Scowling, Levi gave him a dark look.

“I fucking know that. How about you focus on your own love life?” he suggested heatedly.

“Yeah ‘cause there’s so much to focus on,” he sarcastically commented, making Levi snort.

“Your jokes are complete shit, Church,” Levi told him.

“At least I’m pretty. Look, if you’re not going to talk to her, I’m inviting her to our Brawl tournament this weekend. Maybe video games is a way to bond,” Farlan suggested.

“I was going to invite her and then I choked up,” Levi said. “I’ll go over to her suite later and invite her to it.”

“Good.” Levi lied back on his bed and pulled his own laptop out. His history paper wasn’t going to write itself. It’s not like I’m asking her out on a date, he thought, opening his document and pulling up his internet browser. Just ask her over. It’s not a big deal. It’s not romantic. The room fell silent as Levi worked and Farlan went back to watching whatever the hell he was watching. It’s just hanging out. All of a sudden Farlan yelped, shoving his laptop off of his lap and backing into the wall.

“Did Isabel send you another picture from that creepy Korean ghost story?” Levi deadpanned, glancing over at Farlan. He didn’t even glare at Levi, just grabbing his laptop and slowly collecting himself.

“Holy shit, Levi. You’re not going to believe what I found,” he said, getting up and sitting beside Levi. He pushed Levi’s laptop aside and placed his own in between them. Levi looked at his friend, an eyebrow raised.

“Why were you watching porn when I was in the room?” he asked.

“I was going to leave eventually.”

“That’s reassuring.”

“No but you have to see what I found.” Levi sighed and gave in. It was probably some horrendous acting or something that they’d laugh about for a week. But when the video started Levi saw something very different, something that made his heart stop for a moment.

“Is that Petra?!” he demanded.

“Yeah! I was just looking around this site and I found this. Never would've thought she did porn,” Farlan said. “She always seemed like a good two shoes.” He paused, watching a bit of the video. “I’m not really an ass kind of guy, but -”

“Seriously?” Levi demanded, a stern look on his face.

“Sorry,” he grimaced. “I guess you gotta do what you gotta do to get money. Just hope no one’s mistreating her, you know? I don’t really know her but I’d hate to see her get hurt.”

“Well if it’s like this I don’t think she has to worry about other people,” he said. He could feel heat burning from underneath his skin. Whether it was from watching Petra touch herself or the sheer shock of finding out what she did for a living, he didn’t know. It was probably both. Shit, I can’t believe this is her job. She always seemed so cute and innocent. Not that she’s any less cute, but I guess she’s not the angel I made her out to be. Farlan shrugged, clicked on a few things, and went to a different page.

“Well let’s find out,” he said. But as they scrolled through Petra’s profile with all of her videos, they found that they did have to worry about other people. The video titles were explicit and paired with the preview images it made his head swim, everything swirling around slowly. This feels wrong, he thought. I feel like I shouldn’t see this. It’s her body and it should be worshipped. God, no, she’s not a goddess or something. She’s a person. Jesus Christ, get a hold of yourself!

“Holy shit, I never would have imagine Petra being so kinky,” Farlan continued as they scrolled through the videos. “And fucking Christ is that Nifa?!”

“Nifa I could see doing porn,” Levi shrugged.

“Yeah, no shit ‘cause the thumbnail is her and Petra fucking,” Farlan pointed out.

“You don’t think she’s only into girls, right?” Levi asked.

“Just because she’s having sex with girls doesn’t mean she’s romantically attracted to them,” Farlan pointed out. “She could be bi, or pan like me, or have different romantic and sexual identities. And see! She’s having sex with four guys in this one! There’s your reassurance she has some interest in men!”

“Seeing her having sex with other men isn’t helping,” Levi said. Farlan’s phone buzzed in his pocket, making him jump. As Farlan got off the bed and took the call, Levi scrolled through the page. There had to be at least sixty videos. A majority of them seemed to be her by herself but a good quarter of them were with other people. A sick feeling rolled through his body and he couldn’t give it a reason. He wasn’t disgusted; worried about her welfare, yes, but he wasn’t grossed out by the fact she did porn. Well, he was slightly grossed out due to the dirty and possibly unhygienic nature of sex. He didn’t think less of her for doing this, but something was gnawing at his heart.

“Izzy’s car broke down near the mall. I’m going to help her out. Feel free to watch stuff on my laptop, just don’t be an idiot. I’ll be back in an hour,” Farlan’s voice pulled him out of his reverie. He grabbed his keys off of his nightstand and his sweatshirt.

“Can you pick up dinner tonight?” Levi asked.

“Yeah, sure. What sounds good?”

“I don’t know. I guess just get that family meal thing from that grill place a few blocks away from the mall,” he suggested.

“All right, I’ll do that. See you later.”

“Later,” Levi said. Farlan pulled the door shut behind him and Levi was alone with his thoughts. Out of everyone he’d ever known, Petra was the last person he’d think would do this. I haven’t even gotten any and she’s out there making a job out of it, he thought. Part of him did worry about her; she was a wonderful person and he didn’t want her getting hurt or mistreated. Maybe this bothers me because it’s not with me. I always thought if we dated we’d be each other’s first but that’s not going to happen. She’s not the girl I thought she was. She’s not innocent. I mean she’s taping herself doing some kinky shit and getting money out of it. Do I really know her?

Ugh, get a hold of yourself, his conscious scolded him. Boo hoo Petra gets money by fingering herself. Your life is so hard because she’s not on the pedestal you put her on. He clicked on one of the videos and waited for it to load.

I did put her on a pedestal, didn’t I, he realized. I know Petra. She’s kind, smart, and I like spending time with her. I like her. But I’ve been treating her like she’s a goddess and not like a person. She’s a person and I need to start treating her like it. He paused, eyes trained on the video. This is probably not what most guys think watching porn.

Half an hour passed, Levi lazily going through her videos. She was pretty good at it, he had to admit. Porn wasn’t his thing but given it was Petra and she was shitty like other people, it was decent. His phone rang and he reluctantly paused the video to pick it up.

“Farlan, what’s going on?” he asked.

“Hey, so long story short, Izzy’s engine caught on fire. We’re fine, I might have to get a haircut, but we’re on the wrong side of town to pick up food. Can you get us all dinner tonight?”

“Yeah, sure. I’ll run down to the cafe and get us mac n cheese, or something,” he said, exiting out of the browser and shutting the computer closed.

“Awesome, thanks,” Farlan replied. “We should be back in fifteen minutes. We’re leaving right now.”

“All right, see you soon.” Levi hung up and grabbed his wallet and keys. Their building was far away from campus dining but it was close to a small shopping center with a small cafe that specialized in mac n cheese. Due to it being cheap and delicious, it was always full of customers, most of them fellow UC Trost students. And as Levi suspected, the place was packed. Tch. They’re going to beat me to the dorm, he thought, checking his phone for the time.

“Oh, hey Levi!” He looked behind him and his heart started pounding in his chest as Petra walked into the small cafe, getting in line behind him.

“Hey, Petra,” he said. Explicit images of her ran through his mind and made his skin feel like it was put on top of a space heater. He silently prayed he wasn’t blushing. Talk about embarrassing. Stop thinking about her sex life, it’ll just make things worse, he scolded himself. “I didn’t expect to see you here.” Shit that was the stupidest fucking thing to say.

“Well, I love mac n cheese, so . . .” she shrugged. “How’s your weekend going so far?”

“Weird.” The word was out of his mouth before he could stop himself.

“‘Weird?’” she asked, raising an eyebrow. “Is everything all right?” I watched you get fucked by four guys if that doesn’t constitute as weird then I don’t know what does.

“Yeah, everything’s fine. Just my friend’s engine caught fire and engines don’t normally do that.” “Engines don’t normally do that?” Fucking Christ I’m a wreck, he kicked himself. This is the last time I’m watching porn.

“Oh no! Are they okay?” she asked, worry furrowing her brow.

“They’re fine. Shocked and confused, but fine,” he replied.

“Good, I’m glad to hear that,” she sighed. Now that you’re not acting like an idiot, you should invite her over, his conscious nudged him. Go for it. It’s perfect timing. Despite the nerves sloshing around in his stomach, he mustered up all the courage he could get. He was going to do what he should’ve done earlier.

“Yeah. I, uh, Petra, just wondering, do you like video games?” he asked, heart pounding painfully in his chest.

“Depends on which ones they are, but generally I like video games,” she shrugged.

“My suitemates and I are having a big Smash Bros Brawl tournament tomorrow afternoon. It’s basically a fighting game. If you want join, you’re more than welcome to.”

“I’d love to but I can’t,” she replied, looking almost heartbroken. “I have work all day tomorrow. But I really wish I could, I . . . Levi, are you okay? You look like you’re going to pass out.”