#Laszlo kreizler fanfiction

[andy-15-07]

The News

Summary:Y/N anxiously prepares for Helmut Zemo’s return, holding a secret—she’s pregnant. When he arrives, they share an emotional reunion, and he’s overjoyed at the news of their growing family.

Paring: Baron Helmut Zemo x reader

Words count: 2594

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The soft hum of the rain tapping against the windows filled the quiet apartment, adding to the warm, cozy atmosphere Y/N had tried to create all day. She had spent hours preparing for this moment—cleaning, cooking, and nervously adjusting everything in the living room a dozen times.

The smell of dinner—a mix of Zemo's favorite dishes—lingered in the air, and soft music played in the background, trying to mask the excitement and nerves building within her. Y/N checked her phone for what felt like the hundredth time, her eyes darting to the time.

He should have been home by now.

Helmut had been away on a mission for weeks, leaving her with nothing but sporadic, cryptic messages that barely hinted at when he might return. But today was different. Today, she was certain he'd be home. She had received a brief text earlier that morning, "Coming home tonight. Don't wait up."

Of course, she couldn’t just go to bed, not with the news she had been holding close to her heart, a secret she had been dying to share with him. She glanced down at the little box in her hands, flipping it open and shut nervously. Inside was a tiny pair of baby shoes—white and soft, with delicate lace around the edges. She smiled softly to herself, a rush of emotions threatening to spill over.

She had found out a few days after he had left. The initial shock had been overwhelming, but the idea of them starting a family had slowly taken root, filling her with a joy she hadn’t expected. Y/N could already imagine Helmut’s reaction, the way his eyes would light up, the way he’d pull her into his arms, overjoyed at the news.

The rain picked up, drumming harder against the window, and she glanced outside. The city was dark, a few lights flickering through the sheets of rain, but there was no sign of him yet.

Minutes felt like hours, and the worry she had tried to suppress started to creep in. What if something had gone wrong? What if he was hurt? But no, she pushed those thoughts away. Helmut was too skilled, too careful. He always made it back to her, no matter what.

She placed the baby shoes back in the box, setting it on the coffee table and rubbing her hands together nervously. The fire crackled softly in the background, casting a warm glow over the room, but it did little to soothe her nerves.

Then, finally, she heard it. The unmistakable sound of keys jingling at the door, followed by the soft click of the lock turning. Her heart leapt into her throat as the door slowly creaked open, and there he was—Helmut Zemo, soaked from the rain, his hair tousled, but very much alive and home.

“Helmut!” Y/N exclaimed, rushing to him before he could even close the door behind him. She threw her arms around him, ignoring the dampness of his clothes as she buried her face in his chest.

“Schatz…” he murmured, his voice thick with exhaustion, but there was a softness in his tone as he wrapped his arms around her, holding her close. He pressed a kiss to the top of her head, breathing her in, as if grounding himself after weeks away.

“I missed you,” she whispered, her voice cracking with emotion. She had missed him terribly, every moment he was away felt like an eternity.

“And I missed you,” he replied, pulling back slightly to look at her. His dark eyes were tired but filled with love as he cupped her face in his hands, his thumb brushing over her cheek. “You’re a sight for sore eyes, meine Liebe.”

Y/N smiled, her heart swelling with affection for this man she had chosen to spend her life with. But she could see the weariness in his expression, the way his shoulders sagged slightly under the weight of whatever he had gone through. She knew better than to ask about the mission, not right away. There would be time for that later.

“You’re soaked,” she said, her voice tinged with concern. “Come on, let’s get you out of these wet clothes.”

He nodded, allowing her to guide him toward their bedroom. She helped him out of his coat and boots, and then he peeled off his wet shirt, tossing it aside. His body was as strong and lean as ever, though she couldn’t help but notice a few new bruises marring his skin.

Y/N frowned, reaching out to touch one gently, but Helmut caught her hand, bringing it to his lips instead.

“It’s nothing,” he assured her, his voice low. “Just a few scratches.”

She looked up at him, her brow furrowed with worry, but he gave her a small smile, one that didn’t quite reach his eyes. He was trying to protect her, as always, but she could see through the façade. He was tired—emotionally and physically—but he was here, and that was what mattered most.

“Come on,” she whispered, tugging him toward the bathroom. “A hot shower will help.”

Helmut didn’t argue, and soon the sound of water filled the space as steam began to rise around them. Y/N stayed by his side, helping him rinse off the grime of whatever battle he had been through. He closed his eyes, leaning into her touch as she ran her fingers through his wet hair, massaging his scalp gently.

They didn’t speak, the silence between them comfortable and intimate, a reminder of how connected they were, even after all these years.

Once he was clean, she handed him a towel, watching as he dried off and wrapped it around his waist. His gaze softened as he looked at her, his expression unreadable for a moment before he pulled her into his arms once more.

“Thank you,” he murmured into her hair, his voice filled with a deep, unspoken gratitude.

Y/N smiled against his chest, her heart fluttering with love for this man who was always so strong, so capable, and yet so vulnerable in moments like these. She pulled back slightly, looking up at him.

“I made dinner,” she said, trying to keep her voice steady. “Your favorite.”

His eyes lit up, a genuine smile spreading across his face. “You spoil me, Schatz.”

“Only because you deserve it,” she teased, leading him back into the living room where the food was waiting.

They settled on the couch, plates in hand, and for a while, they just enjoyed the meal in comfortable silence. But Y/N could feel the weight of the secret she was holding, the news she was so eager to share. She glanced at the small box on the coffee table, her heart pounding in her chest.

Helmut noticed the shift in her demeanor, his brow furrowing slightly. “Is something on your mind, Y/N?” he asked, setting his plate aside.

She hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to begin. But then she took a deep breath, reaching for the box and holding it out to him.

“There’s something I need to tell you,” she said softly, her voice trembling slightly.

Helmut’s eyes widened in surprise as he took the box from her hands, his expression curious as he opened it. His gaze softened instantly as he saw the tiny baby shoes nestled inside, his breath catching in his throat.

“Y/N…” he whispered, his voice thick with emotion as he looked up at her, his eyes searching hers for confirmation.

She nodded, tears welling up in her eyes. “I’m pregnant, Helmut. We’re going to have a baby.”

For a moment, he just stared at her, as if trying to process the words. Then, slowly, a smile spread across his face—a smile so full of joy and love that it took her breath away.

“Meine Liebe…” he murmured, setting the box aside and pulling her into his arms. He held her tightly, his hands trembling slightly as he cupped the back of her head, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “You have no idea how happy you’ve made me.”

Tears slipped down her cheeks as she clung to him, feeling his love and warmth enveloping her completely. “I was so nervous,” she admitted, her voice cracking with emotion. “I didn’t know how you’d react.”

He pulled back slightly, cupping her face in his hands and looking into her eyes with a seriousness that made her heart skip a beat. “Y/N, there is nothing in this world that could make me happier than this news,” he said, his voice steady and filled with conviction. “You and our child…you are everything to me.”

She smiled through her tears, overwhelmed by the depth of his love. “I love you, Helmut,” she whispered, her voice trembling with emotion.

“And I love you, more than anything,” he replied, pressing his forehead against hers. “Thank you…thank you for this gift.”

They stayed like that for a long moment, holding each other close, their hearts beating in sync. The rain outside had slowed to a gentle drizzle, the soft patter against the windows a soothing backdrop to the moment they were sharing.

Finally, Helmut pulled back, a playful glint in his eyes. “I suppose I’ll have to be extra careful on my missions from now on,” he said, a hint of humor in his voice. “I have more than just you to come home to now.”

Y/N chuckled, wiping away her tears. “Yes, you do. And you’d better keep that in mind.”

He smiled, leaning in to kiss her softly, his lips lingering against hers as if savoring the moment. When he pulled back, his eyes were filled with a tenderness that made her heart swell.

“We’re going to be a family,” he repeated, his voice filled with awe as if he was still trying to wrap his mind around the idea. His hand moved gently to rest on her stomach, his thumb tracing small, tender circles over the place where their child grew.

Y/N placed her hand over his, the warmth of his touch sending a wave of comfort through her. “Yes, we are,” she whispered, her voice full of love and certainty. “Our little family.”

Helmut’s eyes shone with emotion as he stared down at her, his usually composed demeanor softened by the weight of this new reality. He had faced countless challenges, confronted the most dangerous of foes, and yet, this moment—this simple, beautiful moment—was enough to bring him to his knees.

“Do you know how long I’ve dreamed of this?” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. “A family of my own… I never thought it would be possible after everything that’s happened. And now, here we are…”

Y/N smiled, her heart breaking and healing at the same time. She knew his past was riddled with pain and loss, and she understood how much this meant to him. “You deserve this, Helmut. You deserve all the happiness in the world.”

He shook his head slightly, his expression one of disbelief. “I don’t know if I deserve it, but I’m not foolish enough to let it slip away. You and our child…you’re my future now. My purpose.”

She could see the determination in his eyes, the promise that he would do everything in his power to protect them, to give them the life they deserved. It was a vow unspoken, yet she felt it in every fiber of her being.

Helmut gently pulled her closer, his lips brushing against her forehead. “Thank you,” he whispered again, the words heavy with gratitude. “Thank you for giving me this gift, for giving me hope.”

Y/N’s heart swelled with love for him, a love that seemed to grow stronger with each passing second. “You’ve given me so much, Helmut,” she replied softly, her fingers threading through his as they rested on her stomach. “This is our gift to each other.”

They stayed like that for what felt like an eternity, wrapped in each other’s warmth, the reality of their future slowly sinking in. It was a future filled with the unknown, but for the first time, they faced it together, not just as partners, but as a family.

After a while, Y/N broke the comfortable silence, her tone laced with playful curiosity. “So… have you thought of any names yet?”

Helmut chuckled, the sound warm and genuine, breaking through the seriousness of the moment. “Already? You’ve only just told me!”

Y/N laughed, the sound light and full of joy. “Well, we should get a head start, don’t you think? We need to be prepared.”

Helmut’s eyes sparkled with amusement as he considered her words. “True. But I think we should take our time. We have many months ahead of us to decide.” He paused, his gaze turning thoughtful. “But if I had to choose… something traditional, perhaps. Something with meaning.”

Y/N nodded, her mind racing with possibilities. “Something that honors your heritage, maybe? A name that connects our child to their roots.”

Helmut’s expression softened, a deep pride flashing in his eyes. “Yes,” he agreed, his voice low and serious. “Something that carries the weight of history, but also the promise of a new future.”

She could see how much this meant to him, and it warmed her heart to know that he was already thinking of their child’s legacy. “We’ll find the perfect name,” she assured him, leaning into his embrace. “One that represents everything we’ve been through, and everything we’re going to build together.”

Helmut kissed the top of her head, his lips lingering there as if sealing a promise. “We will,” he agreed. “And no matter what name we choose, our child will know they are loved. That is the most important thing.”

Y/N sighed contentedly, feeling a sense of peace settle over her. This was what she had always dreamed of—a life filled with love, a future full of hope. And now, with Helmut by her side, that dream was finally becoming a reality.

As the evening wore on, they talked about their plans for the future—the changes they would need to make, the things they would need to prepare for. They discussed where the nursery should be, what color to paint the walls, and how they would balance their new responsibilities. It was a conversation filled with excitement and a little bit of fear, but most of all, it was filled with love.

Eventually, the exhaustion of the day caught up with them, and they found themselves curled up on the couch together, the warmth of the fire lulling them into a comfortable drowsiness. Helmut held her close, his arms wrapped around her protectively, his hand resting on her stomach as if to keep their child safe even in his sleep.

Y/N looked up at him, her heart swelling with love as she watched him drift off. There was a contentment in his expression that she hadn’t seen in a long time, a peace that came from knowing they were finally moving forward together.

And as she closed her eyes, her head resting against his chest, she knew that no matter what challenges lay ahead, they would face them together—united by the love they had for each other, and for the family they were about to start.

In that moment, Y/N realized that the future was no longer something to be feared. It was something to be embraced, something to be cherished. And with Helmut by her side, she knew they would create a life filled with happiness, love, and endless possibilities.

As sleep finally claimed her, Y/N’s last thought was of the tiny heartbeat growing inside her, a new life born out of the love she shared with Helmut Zemo—a love that would carry them through anything.

The rain outside had stopped, leaving the night quiet and still. And in the warmth of their home, their hearts beat as one, full of love, hope, and the promise of tomorrow.

[nocapesdahling]

Put that Pen Away

Laszlo Kreizler x GN! Reader

My Masterlist

Summary: You come across a man writing in books in your bookstore and have to put a stop to it. Yet you can’t help but think he looks familiar and for a book vandal, he’s surprisingly charming. 

Warnings/Tags: Fluff; Modern Laszlo Kreizler; Featuring Laszlo’s glasses

Word Count: 667

A/N: This one is a bit short, but I’m very excited to be dipping my toes back into writing and a sweet and silly fic featuring Modern Laszlo seemed like a perfect place to start. Hope you enjoy!

You were walking the aisles of the store to see if anyone needed help and to make sure no books were out of place when you saw him. You first noticed his profile, bearded with a lovely nose, his neck wrapped in a scarf and a pair of clear circular glasses rounding out the look. What really made you stop however was not the fact that it was a handsome profile, but that he seemed familiar somehow.

As you gathered yourself and walked closer, the next thing you noticed was he had one of the books out open on one of the tables as he leaned over it. And he wasn’t reading it. Oh no, he was writing in it. Writing in one of your store’s books. That was unacceptable, it was defacement of the highest order. That poor book. Handsome familiar profile or not, you couldn’t let that stand.

“Excuse me, sir. You can’t write in the books. Please don’t do that.”

He sighed and it sounded world weary, like he’d been caught writing in books before and he was tired of people stopping him. Well good, he should be. He should have learned his lesson the first time.

He had the audacity to finish whatever it was he was writing before gently closing the book and sliding it back onto the shelf. You made a note of where it was for its later removal and held in a shudder at the thought that he might have written in others.

He turned to you and you moved your eyes away from the books to take in his face. The gasp you let out was hopefully inaudible. It was Laszlo Kreizler. The Laszlo Kreizler. The author whose books you’d devoured since he published his first Alienist novel, reading them again and again, and the man you’d had a slight crush on ever since seeing his author photo at the end of book one. Well if you were being honest with yourself, it was a little more than a slight crush. However, it was nice to fantasize about people you’d never meet, and a famous author was a harmless person to have a crush on. It’s not like you ever thought you’d meet him in real life. Your favorite author was here in your store, and even more handsome in person. Somehow. And he was writing in books?!

“Can I do it if I’m signing my own books?”

You then realized what aisle you were in. Mystery and Thriller in the K’s. He’d been signing his own books. He hadn’t been defacing anything after all. You were giddy in your relief and smiled at him without thinking.

He was patiently watching you. His dark brown eyes behind his glasses were piercing and seemed to take in every detail as he analyzed your face and expressions. At your smile, his cheeks reddened slightly and he glanced away.

“Yes, that’s okay Dr. Kreizler. That’s wonderful. It’ll be such a nice surprise for buyers. I may have to ask you to sign mine while you’re at it.”

His blush was impossible to hide now and he cleared his throat, his accented voice hesitant. “You know of me? You’ve read my novels?”

You smiled again and gave him a once over. His author photo really didn’t do him justice. “I’ve read all of them multiple times. They’re some of my favorites.”

“Oh… well, it’s nice to meet a fan.” He looked down for a moment before making eye contact again and smiling back hesitantly.

“It’s even nicer to meet you, Dr. Kreizler. Do you do this sort of thing often? Come to bookstores and sign your books?”

“Yes, I have been doing it for years now though I am not often caught.”

“Really? That’s amazing. I’d love to hear more about it and any of your other signing misadventures over coffee. What do you say, Dr. Kreizler?”

“Coffee sounds lovely. On one condition.”

“Oh, what’s that?”

“That you call me Laszlo.”

Reblogs, likes, and comments are much appreciated. Thanks so much for reading!

A/N: This is the first fic I’ve posted in ages, so I hope you all liked it and please let me know if you did! 

If inspiration strikes, then I might end up writing a sequel to this about their cozy coffee date because I love the idea of drinking a hot beverage and talking about books with Laszlo. 

My Masterlist

[lorna-d-m]

Gingerbread

Word Count: 4,870

Rating: E

Warning: wine drinking, swearing, breast play, some dry humping

Author's Note: happy thanksgiving! Now that it's passed I can officially say: Merry Christmas y'all! Timeline wise, this takes place between chapters six and seven.

Alice missed the days of elementary school when the last day before winter break was reserved for nostalgic movies, hot chocolate, and wearing your pajamas to school. Instead, students completed their end-of-term exams. Instead of relaxing, kicking up her feet and putting on a movie, she graded first periods’ exams during second, and so on and so on. Those who finished before the end of the period could read or study for another exam. 

Stevie approached her desk, and she looked up assuming he had a question about the exam. Instead, he handed her a small envelope and whispered so quietly she could hardly hear him, “Merry Christmas, Ms. Greene”. Stevie turned on his heels and returned to his desk.

Curiosity piqued, Alice examined the envelope. She would recognize Stevie’s handwriting, so she assumed it must be Laszlo who scrawled her name on the front of the envelope. Alice noted the fancy stationery: the thick off-white envelope with a red wax seal. 

It was a simple but elegant Christmas card depicting a winter scene. Before she read it, she looked at the gift card tucked inside. It was for her favorite coffee chain and $15, plenty for two drinks or a drink and a snack. Inside the card, Laszlo wrote a brief thank you, Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays. He signed, as well as Stevie. 

Stevie watched her open the card. Not wanting to distract any students or draw too much attention, Alice mouthed thank you to him. She wondered if any other of Stevie’s teachers received a card. When she checked her phone at lunch, Bits answered her question. 

Nice Christmas gifts from the good doc 🎄🎁 I’m assuming you’ll get more than a card from him? 😏😉

Alice chuckled, knowing all the innuendos Bitsy meant with a simple wink and smirk emoji combination. They made plans for Saturday when Stevie was supposed to be hanging out at a friend’s house.

Oh hush you 🤫A lady doesn’t kiss and tell

She went back to grading, worrying if the gifts she bought him were enough. Saying he was difficult to shop for felt like a lame excuse, but Alice couldn’t think of anything else to get him. Unless… well she supposed it was more of a purchase for her, but he would certainly appreciate it.

Laszlo deliberated for two days about what to cook for dinner. It was not his first time cooking for Alice, but it was his first time in his kitchen amongst all his tools and familiarity. The expectations were higher. He wanted to do something delicious for her, showing her how much he cared for her. Once decided, he went to the markets in the morning. It was his guilty pleasure. Laszlo enjoyed carefully perusing all his options and leisurely strolling around. He could never stick to a list; he always bought things he didn’t need but decided at the moment he wanted. 

He returned, carefully holding a brown paper grocery bag to his chest. Stevie stood over the stove, cooking a late-morning breakfast of eggs and toast. Laszlo had to tease him as he slipped into a winter break sleep schedule. 

“Good morning. Any later and I would tell you good afternoon.” 

“Ha ha,” Stevie laughed dryly. “I’ve never heard that one before.” 

Laszlo unpacked his groceries and handed a party-size bag of chips to Stevie. “For tonight,” Laszlo thought it rude to go to someone’s house emptyhanded. “Do you need a ride or is Jake picking you up?”

“He said he’d pick me up at like four, and then…” Stevie trailed off, but Laszlo waited expectedly. “I was going to ask you how late I could stay.”

Curfew was, Laszlo didn’t like to call it a debate, but a matter of discussion. On school nights Laszlo stuck to 9:30, wanting Stevie home at a reasonable time. On weekends, however, he was more flexible. So long as Stevie was transparent about his plans, telling him where he wanted to go and who he would be with, Laszlo was willing to adjust the time. 

Laszlo trusted Stevie and he had yet to disappoint him, but for emergencies and peace of mind, they had each other’s location shared on their phones. It went both ways, Laszlo could see if Stevie was at school, home, or a friend’s house, and Stevie could see if he was at the university, the Institute, the police station, or the courts. As a show of faith, Laszlo told him he would only check if he had a legitimate concern or cause. He had yet to check, knock on wood. 

And of course, if Laszlo coincidentally had plans with Alice the same night, then perhaps Stevie could stay with his friends a bit longer.

“That depends,” Laszlo huffed a sigh in thought, “Will he be dropping you off, or will I pick you up?” 

Stevie didn’t bother to plate his food or sit at the table. He stood at the counter, scooping the scrambled eggs onto a piece of sourdough toast with his wooden spoon. At least he didn’t create many dishes… Stevie answered with a mouthful, “He can drop me off.” 

Perfect. “How does eleven sound then? Take it as an early Christmas present.” Then Laszlo could enjoy more time with Alice. “And text me when you’re on your way back.” That way they had a reminder when she needed to leave. 

“Thanks!” Stevie was a quick eater, a result of his childhood, and already he finished his breakfast. After cleaning the few dishes he used, he went back to his room.

Alice pressed her lips into a thin line in focus. It was an unconscious habit as she piped details on gingerbread cookies in royal icing: delicate buttons to the little men, twinkling lights on the trees, and fine lines on the snowflakes. Flour and icing smeared her cheek and dusted her clothes, and she was sweating from the residual heat of the oven. 

The timer on her phone startled her, making her smear the line of the snowflake. She cursed and set the cookie aside. Alice didn’t want to give Laszlo an ugly cookie. And, she sighed while brushing away an errant lock of hair, she didn’t want to look like an ugly cookie either. The timer reminded her to step back and start getting ready.

After hearing Laszlo had no Christmas plans, other than little celebrations with Stevie since John and Sara were on a much-needed vacation, Alice wanted to make sure their night was perfect. She debated what to wear, settling on a red low-cut sweater and a tight skirt. Classic, but enticing, and she could show off one of her gifts for Laszlo.

***

Alice parked on the street and waited in her toasty car. It was her first time visiting Laszlo’s house. She pulled out her phone, and rather than text Laszlo that she arrived, she typed a message for Bitsy.

Oh shit. He’s rich rich 💰

Bitsy responded quickly. oh??? 👀👀That’s good because you need to marry rich you’re a teacher

She took a picture of the front of the brownstone house and sent it. That should tell Bitsy all she needed to know. Then, she texted Laszlo that she had arrived. Taking a deep breath in, she left the coziness of her car and braved the cold night air. 

The front door was off street level; it was up a set of stairs. Alice was careful, her hand gliding over the railing as she ascended them. The last thing she wanted was to slip on icy steps: embarrassing herself and ruining her hard work that afternoon or Laszlo’s gifts. Before she could knock on the old brass knocker or ring the decorative doorbell, Laszlo opened the door. 

He radiated warmth, and not just because of the heat escaping the house. Laszlo wore a white apron over his clothes, a lock of hair fell across his forehead, his sleeve was rolled up, and he smelled like the delicious food he cooked. It made Alice’s stomach growl and her heart flutter. 

“Please, come in. You can put your coat there,” he gestured to a coat rack in the corner of the vestibule and took the platter of cookies from her hands, “and I can take these to the kitchen.”

He had a vestibule and a foyer beyond that. Alice knew he had money, but she did not realize how much until she saw his home. She shed her coat, and she caught Laszlo’s eyes appreciating the neckline of her sweater just as she intended. 

“I’m afraid I haven’t quite finished, but please, feel free to wait in the parlor and nibble on the cheese board while I return downstairs.”

“Your kitchen is downstairs?” Alice almost asked “you have a parlor?” but that was a less pressing matter.

Laszlo chuckled. “Yes, it’s an old house, so the garage, kitchen, and ironically Stevie’s room are all street level. I promise I won’t be long.”

“Good,” she pressed a kiss to his cheek, “I’m hungry and I’ll miss you.” 

His cheeks flushed, and he kissed her properly. “Then I won’t keep you waiting.” He disappeared down the stairs, readjusting the apron tied around his waist. Alice admired his ass as he left. 

Alice did as Laszlo suggested and wandered to the parlor. She nibbled on a cracker with brie and thinly sliced apple while she surveyed the room. A heavy, ornate fireplace warmed the room, and she relished its heat. Her sweater and skirt did little to keep her warm. Alice noticed there were no pictures on the mantle, just a television mounted on the wall. It was one of the fancy ones disguised as a landscape painting, complete with a gilded frame. 

Two bookshelves bookended the fireplace, and Alice skimmed through the titles. Some she recognized, like classic novels, whereas the psychological essays and journals were far from her realm of familiarity. Where did he find the time to read, she mused. A record player nestled in the corner, made to look like a vintage gramophone, filled the room with traditional Christmas music. Alice hummed along to the familiar song. Laszlo was a maximalist, filling his home with as much as he could in his eclectic style.

Alice heard footsteps coming up the stairs, so she went to the formal dining room. As she wondered how often Laszlo and Stevie ate there, he answered her silent question.

“We rarely use it, but I wanted tonight to be special.” 

“Please, let me help you,” she offered. Laszlo held a heavy tray laden with plates and bowls with one hand.

“There’s no need,” he insisted, setting it on the table.  “It’s part of why we don’t use the dining room very often.”

“I can imagine, but it looks lovely, Laszlo.” He dressed up the space with formal dinnerware and linens. He lit a candelabra on the table, and pitchers of water and bottles of wine waited to be poured. 

“Thank you.” He blushed again, clearly unused to praise. Alice wanted to make the tinge of pink darker. 

“You’ve put in so much effort, and I appreciate it. You’ve made tonight special and memorable, and we’ve barely begun.” 

Laszlo returned downstairs for the rest of the meal, and Alice stole a glance at what he brought up already. A basket of dinner rolls, small bowls of soup, and salads. This was meant to be the appetizer, and she wondered eagerly what the main course could be. With perfect timing, he brought the entrée: roasted vegetables, seared duck breast with a red wine sauce, and creamy mashed potatoes. 

Once everything was settled on the table, Laszlo could settle himself. He removed his apron revealing a white button-up and a Christmas-themed waistcoat: dark green with white detailing and gold buttons. Laszlo pulled out her seat for her, and then he poured them both a glass of water and a glass of red wine.  

“Please, enjoy. There’s plenty.” He offered her the basket of warm dinner rolls glistening with butter.

Laszlo was an excellent cook, and she was excited to try it. He waited until she tasted it and smiled before he ate anything.  

Over dinner, they reminisced on past Christmases: best presents, worst presents, family drama, vacations. Alice thought long and hard about the best present she ever received and decided it must have been when she got a Barbie dreamhouse. She knew what it was as soon as she saw the gigantic wrapped box by the tree, but her parents made her wait until the end to unwrap it. Laszlo smiled saying he had something similar happen when his parents bought the baby grand piano for the parlor.

“Do you play?” She noticed it, but the keys were covered and the music books were nowhere in sight. If he did, he left no clues. 

“No,” he frowned, “not since I was a young boy.”

Alice didn’t want to upset him, so she did not press it. She found it odd since he was the one who mentioned the piano, to begin with, but this was a happy night. From then on, Laszlo was more inclined to listen to her than share his memories. 

Alice insisted upon helping him clean up after the meal, and Laszlo found it hard to refuse her. He enjoyed simply being near her, and he admitted it was easier with an extra set of hands. Laszlo rinsed the dishes from dinner while Alice unloaded the dishwasher. 

“I wasn’t sure about making Christmas cookies,” Alice confessed.

Laszlo raised an eyebrow in playful alarm. “Why ever not? Your cookies are delectable.”

“I don’t want you to think I’m a one trick pony. You’ve had my cookies before at open house and the conferences, so I thought I should show you something new.”

“But they’re delicious, and I presume gingerbread to fit the season. I’ve not tasted those.”

“Which is why I went with it. You can really only do gingerbread this time of year. But I think next time, I’ll make something totally different.”

“I look forward to it.” Since his hands were covered with soapy water, he pressed a kiss to her cheek. “Speaking of dessert, do you want it now or do you want to wait?”

Alice smirked. “Well, if dessert is a real kiss, I want it now.” 

How could he refuse? Laszlo kissed her again, his tongue slipping into her mouth. Alice pinned him against the counter, and since her hands were dry she ran them through his hair and rested them at the back of his neck. Laszlo leaned into her touch.

Abruptly, Alice ended their kiss. She stayed close to him, pressed to him. “But if dessert is the cookies, they can wait until we’re watching a movie on the couch.” Laszlo hardly understood what she said. He was too distracted by the way Alice kissed him. She giggled, clearly amused by his love-drunk expression, and smiled. “Come on,” she teased, “let’s finish this up.” Laszlo did not need any more encouragement. 

***

They set out all their gifts on the coffee table along with the platter of cookies and two mugs of hot chocolate. Laszlo insisted on preparing it for them, his recipe using dark chocolate and rich milk to create the most decadent drink. Stevie preferred the instant Swiss Miss powder, no doubt due to his unrefined palette, and Alice surprised Laszlo by asking for a sprinkle of cinnamon and nutmeg. Curious, he had to try it for himself.

Alice shivered once on the couch, so Laszlo found the red knit blanket he kept in the living room and draped it over her shoulders. She looked comfortable like she belonged there.

“Can I go first?” Alice volunteered, “My gifts for you require a little bit of explanation.”

“Well now you must. You’ve piqued my curiosity.”

She handed him one slim box, one wrapped present that could only be a book by its shape and size, and a flat, rectangular box. All were wrapped in delicate blue and white snowflake wrapping paper and finished with silver bows. Laszlo reached for the smallest box first. He tore the paper at the tape and lifted the lid from the box. It was a black and gold fountain pen, weighted in his hand.

“It’s supposed to be smear proof. All the reviews said it was left hand certified.”

“That’s very thoughtful of you.” He reached for the book next, sliding his thumb under the edge of the wrapping paper. It was a well-read, well-loved paperback copy of her favorite book. Laszlo glanced at her before skimming through the pages. 

“We talked about books before, and how a person’s favorite book can tell you a lot about them, so I thought I would give you my favorite filled with all my thoughts and annotations.” It was a deeply personable gift. Laszlo was shocked, and he immediately tried to give it back to her. “I already bought myself another copy, please, keep it.”

The final present was a rich golden-colored cable knit sweater. Laszlo held it up, modeling what it would look like, and he saw her eyes light up. He would have to wear more gold…

“I had to guess your size, so I put the receipt in the box in case you need to return it or exchange it. But I thought the gold would suit you, and I see I was right.”

“Thank you, darling.” He kissed her cheek again. Laszlo enjoyed seeing her cheeks flush whenever he did. “It’s all so thoughtful.”

“Technically,” Alice said with a sly grin, “there’s one more gift, but you’ll have to wait to unwrap it.”

“Oh?” Laszlo checked the coffee table wondering how he missed it. Alice nodded, removed the blanket from her shoulders, and sat up straight, pushing her plentiful chest out. “Oh!”

Intentionally, her sweater slipped off her shoulder exposing a touch of lace. His eyes followed the movement. “It’s more of an investment, I think, but mutually beneficial.”

“Certainly,” he agreed, unconsciously licking his lips. 

“But not yet.” Alice fixed her sweater and re-wrapped the blanket. Laszlo blinked twice, refocusing on the moment. She knew how to tease him, draw him in, and turn his head all around. It was maddening and enthralling. He thought carefully about the order in which to give his gifts to her. Start small.

“The poinsettias on the table are yours to keep, so long as you keep them away from Georgie. I read they’re not good for cats, so put them somewhere high and out of reach for him.”

“They’re gorgeous, Laszlo, and I appreciate the research. All the other flowers you’ve given me have been Georgie safe, so I’ll have to find somewhere special for these.”

Next was a little gift bag filled with imported German chocolates, the best in his opinion, and cat treats for Georgie. Treats for both of them, he explained, with a sheepish smile at the pun. These were all small gifts, trivial really, but they all brought a smile to her face. It was time to step it up. He handed her a slim, unmarked envelope with two tickets to the Nutcracker, on Christmas Eve no less. 

Alice’s eyes glittered. “I thought this had been sold out for months! How did you get these?”

“I have a box, so I get the first pick of any tickets…” he trailed off. He always bought at least two tickets. In years past, he would take John, Stevie, or John and Sara and play the third wheel. This year, Laszlo would have a date. 

“Fuck off,” Alice said indelicately, but still alluringly to him. “You have a box?”

“I do,” he snickered, “It was my family’s before it became mine.”

“That’s incredible.” She still held the tickets in her hand, looking them over and over. His eyes met hers, a silent question. What are you thinking? “Honestly, I’m trying to think if I have an outfit worthy of this.”

“Whatever you wear, I’m sure it will be divine, and I hope you pair it with this.” He slid his final present over to her: a small jewelry box. 

Tentatively, she set the tickets down and picked up the box. It wasn’t wrapped; Laszlo thought the black velvet spoke for itself. Now he feared it was too much too soon. Jewelry set certain expectations. It announced intention. 

“Oh, Laszlo.” Her thumb rubbed along the edge of the box, and she tilted the necklace and earrings toward the light. “It’s- I don’t know what to say other than thank you.” Alice’s wide eyes met his, and he thought he saw the shadow of a tear.

“Darling, what’s wrong?” The troublesome tear slipped down her cheek when he asked, and more threatened to follow. Given the nature of his work, Laszlo was accustomed to tears, but he did not know what to do when Alice cried.

“You’ve done so much and given me such wonderful gifts,” she tried to steady her voice but was unsuccessful, “and I’m worried I didn’t do enough.”

“Don’t say that,” he rushed to assure her. In the unspoken silence, Laszlo sensed her true fear was that she wasn’t enough. He struggled for words, so he took her hand in his and squeezed it. “You have given me plenty.”

Alice smiled, tears still in her eyes, and nodded to herself. “Thank you, Laszlo, just-” she paused again, registering her hand in his, “Thank you.”

After Alice dried her tears, embarrassed she cried but comforted by Laszlo’s words, they dimmed the lights and turned on a movie. All playful bickering about what to watch stopped when Alice spotted an old stop-motion classic about the year without Santa Claus. She had not seen it in years, but she vividly remembered the song with heat miser and snow miser. Laszlo chuckled and indulged her, selecting the movie and letting the opening credits play. 

She cuddled up next to Laszlo, his arm across her shoulders, and she shared her blanket with him. Alice leaned her head on his chest, and he rested his chin at the top of her head. She was comforted by his slow and steady breathing. Laszlo was a rock: steady and reliable under her. 

Both their hands wandered, appreciative and lingering touches, until the movie was forgotten and Laszlo encouraged her to sit on his lap. Alice hesitated, biting her tongue at a quip about being more than he could handle, but he was insistent and unflinching. She straddled his lap, her already short skirt rising up even further, teasing him with the tops of her thighs. 

“There you are,” Laszlo crooned. He looked less perfect and more like a person. Toussled hair, pink cheeks, sly smile. Alice adored him like this. His hand circled her waist and pulled her closer, eliminating any space between them. His kiss tasted of their drink, rich chocolate with a touch of spice. Alice melted into his touch. Laszlo panted, whining into her mouth as he felt her chest pressing against him.

His hand slipped under the knit of her red sweater and traced the skin underneath. His fingers danced over the clasp of her new bra, her gift just for him to unwrap, asking her permission before advancing any further. She broke their kiss and nodded, a quiet “I want this” escaping her lips. Laszlo needed no more encouragement, and he deftly undid the clasp. She pulled the sweater over her head and tossed it aside. Her nipples pebbled in the sudden chill, and Laszlo was quick to latch himself to her. 

He took one into his mouth, lavishing it with attention, while he cupped her other breast with his hand. Laszlo did not want it to feel unappreciated as he nipped, licked, and pinched. Alice moaned his name and wriggled her hips against him, craving more in the heady heat of the moment. “I want to see you,” she huffed. 

Laszlo paused and drew back. A trail of saliva connected them, and Alice brushed it away with her thumb. “I’m all yours,” he murmured.

Alice hastily unfastened the buttons on his waistcoat and shirt, cursing him for wearing so many layers, but grateful for them too. Laszlo looked good in his layers, coordinated and well-put-together, but she wanted to see underneath his careful clothing choices.  Alice feasted her eyes on a broad chest, dusted with coarse hair and fine freckles, leading down to his soft stomach. Laszlo tipped his head back and groaned when she trailed her hand down his chest.

“Much better.” Pleased, Alice touched Laszlo’s chin and brought his attention back. His eyes were hazy, as if he’d drunk more than a glass of wine, as he studied her form. Laszlo ran an appreciative hand across her body: cupping her breast, holding her waist, and resting on her ass. He kissed her again, his lips wandering from her lips to her jaw, and her collarbone. 

“Laszlo, I-” His phone, forgotten on the coffee table, rang and interrupted her. She turned, glancing at the caller ID, and handed it to him. “It’s Stevie, he’s probably on his way home.”

Laszlo answered and held the phone to his ear. Alice was somewhat relieved he called. She wasn’t sure how much further they were going to go, and she was nervous to broach the topic. This was a natural end to the evening. When she went to move off his lap, he held her there with his right hand. Not firmly, but the surprising and warm touch was enough to keep her there. She slipped her hand over his.

Alice waited until he hung up to speak. “I think it’s time for me to go, Las.” 

“Please, darling, five more minutes.” His hips ground against hers, and his voice was as enticingly sweet as honey. 

“Five minutes, my final Christmas present for you,” she teased.

His lips reattached to hers, and his hand groped her breast. Her hips continued above him, and Laszlo followed every one of her movements. 

Hindered by Laszlo’s request, but hastened by his assistance to redress, Alice left without issue. She promised to text him when she arrived home safe and sound, and he reminded her what time they would leave for the Nutcracker. Laszlo waited for Stevie to return in the kitchen, hoping to ask about his evening before locking the front door and going to bed. 

“Hey,” Stevie entered through the more hidden ground-level door that connected through the garage. He preferred the direct access rather than messing with the front door. It was part of why he chose to live downstairs.

“How was it?” 

“Good,” he shrugged, “Caleb got a new game for us to play, so it took a while to figure out the rules, but it was fun.”

“Did they enjoy the chips?”

“Yeah, yeah, they did.” Stevie glanced at the sink, empty apart from two mugs of hot chocolate. “How was your evening?” 

One mug was still smeared with lipstick, and panic shot through Laszlo. Did he have any of her lipstick on his face? He wished he checked a mirror instead of presuming he looked okay. Laszlo flustered, thinking on the spot.

“Fine. Some people from the psychology department came over for dinner, part of a new tradition they’re trying to start.”

Stevie poured himself a glass of water and stood in front of the fridge. “That’s cool. Any leftovers? ”

“What? They didn’t feed you over there?” Laszlo chuckled, relieved by the change in subject.

“They did, but I’m still hungry. Growing boy and all.” Stevie ate a dinner roll without bothering to microwave it. 

Laszlo rolled his eyes. Ah, the youth. “Goodnight, and don’t forget to lock up.”

“Already did.”

Laszlo meant it when he said, “Good kid.”

***

Two days later, Laszlo picked Alice up from her apartment with a bouquet of pale pink roses. She wore a simple, elegant black dress and shawl. Underneath her silver shawl, Laszlo spotted the simple necklace he gave her and more than one purple hickey. He felt a sense of satisfaction seeing his work.

They arrived early to the theater and worked slowly through the crowds. People acknowledged him — former clients or students — and he stopped for a moment to chat with some of them. His chest puffed up with pride, talking to them with a woman as wonderful as Alice on his arm. She shimmered under the chandeliers.

Finally, Laszlo brought her to his box on the upper level. Alice whispered in his ear she always wondered what the view from the boxes was like rather than general admission. Laszlo promised to take her to more shows in the coming year. They enjoyed the show, her hand clasped in his, and her shawl slipping off her shoulders.

Laszlo asked if she was hungry, too, when they left the theater. Sheepishly, Alice confessed she was. He swung by a fast-food joint, one of the only things open at the late hour on Christmas Eve, and ordered fries and milkshakes. After their midnight snack, they made out like teenagers in the front seat. It was a complete contrast to the formality of their evening, but it was the perfect way to end the night.

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INFATURATION - The Reunion

Pairing: Laszlo Kreizler x Fem!Reader

Summary: After years of solitude, protected by the wall of a house you were forced to call your own, you open the doors to welcome your stepdaughter. Only to see her bring in the man who cause all your misfortune.

A/N: There isn't any warnings bc this chapter only introduces the plot and briefly narrates the reunion of Laszlo and his former lover.

But this is a Persuasion-inspired fic — meaning it is a second-change romance.

I think this is all, for now.

Enjoy!

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 It is unthinkable.

 The grimace on your face was caught by your company when the stranger’s silhouette took shape. But that was no stranger at all, you could tell, even in the distance when his face was yet to be revealed.

 The brown hair, the bright eyes, the cane... 

 This must be a dream, a terrible nightmare — was your first thought when you recognized the figure.

 You gasped for air, tightening your hold on Edwinas arm. You could hear her calling your name, but it was as low as a whisper. Barely there, mixed with the loud waves.

 The silhouette doubled, forming a second figure, one that you couldn’t quite place. It was of no consequence, you were transfixed by the approaching man.

 Step by ungainly step on the sand he shortened the space between the two of you. In no time his features became visible, demanding attention. The bright brown eyes above anything else, but the matching hair still had its charm even now, curling behind his ears.

 When his eyes finally meet yours it is in wonder, but it feels like being punched in the stomach. Hard and painful.  There was a knot in your throat and you couldn't breathe properly. 

 His lips opened to whisper your name.

 It was only with a scream you broke out of the devil’s spell.

 Daniel, the reason for your oh so tard visit to the beach, was the one to scream and so snape you back to reality. Demanding your attention to the funny shell he found by the Ocean.

 You turn around to face him, baffled still.

 “Ma’am, are you well?” questioned the governess at the same time Danny screamed “Mama” at the top of his lungs. Your ears were buzzing and, truth be told, you were definitely not in full control of your mental abilities yet.

 You did not know to whom you should answer first, the maid or the bubbling infant,  but the dripping clothes of the child way too close to the Ocean's waves gave you the directions you needed.

 “That is enough, young man” you said, calling your son closer to you. 

 “Yes, mister,” Edwina agreed upon seeing the deed. “That isn’t proper behaviour.”

 He laughs and doesn't shake at your objection, but runs to you and shows the shell holding out his tiny hands.

“M’Sorry” he murmurs “I wanted you to see this. It’s a present, you see?”

You take the shell and thanks for the gift, another addition to your collection.

“Ma’am, how are you feeling?” 

You face Edwina, still much aware of the strangers, and force a smile.

“I’m much better. Thank you.”

“You looked so sick just now,” she says.

“No need to worry about it, Edwina.” You look at the couple from the corner of your eye, noticing that they have their arms lined.

She hums and Danny rounds circles around you.

“Oh, what a delightful surprise” Professor Stratton greets you.

 You turn around abruptly.

 In your terror, you did not recognize the figure beside Doctor Laszlo Kreizler, but now you could tell who it was. Miss Stratton was correct, what a surprise! — you just couldn’t agree with the delightfulness. Miss Stratton was to arrive the very first thing tomorrow morning, but you guessed the ship did not care for men's assumptions.

 “Karen” you smile, “you arrived early!”

  Her smile was just as bright and contagious as you remember it, and she looked very satisfied. Karen took your hands between hers gently, squeezing it, and, when Daniel very carefully not to be heard whispered a question to Edwina, she gasped.

 “Oh, that can’t be!” she turned to him, then asked. “Is this the tiny baby I held in my arms not five years ago? Is this Danny?”

 Despite being very excited and anxious about the arrival of his half-sister and not being able to stop talking about her to anyone listening in the previous weeks, Daniel fell silent with her attention. Suddenly very shy.

 “Go ahead, Danny” you encouraged him, stretching out your hand so he could hold it and come closer. “Say hello to Karen, she was very excited to see you again.”

 “Were you?” he asked, timid.

 Dr Keizler stood in silence, flabbergasted, watching the scene before him evolve. Both because nobody introduced or talked to him and he simply could not believe his eyes.

 He looked at you and the boy with gushing curiosity, a feeling he couldn't quite describe, but relish. Yearn. He wished you would look him in the eyes, but you were focused on the chatting.

 Professor Stratton chatted to the kid she called Danny for a good pair of minutes before turning back to him. 

 “How can I be so rude?” She faced Laszlo. “Mrs. Stratton,  Mrs. Smith, Danny, this is the friend I talked about. Dr Laszlo Kreizler.”

 “It is a pleasure, sir,” said Edwina.

 Danny promptly, and exaggeratedly, bowed in greeting. Giggling like only a kid could.

 You weren’t sure what to do. You already knew Dr Kreizler so the introduction wasn’t necessary, but you also did not know if you wanted everybody to be aware of it.

 Before you could do or say anything about it, Karen recalled:

 “She originally is from New York, Laszlo. Perhaps you've even seen each other around the city.”

 “Indeed. We already met” Laszlo answered, without taking his eyes off of you. 

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So, this is it. The first chapter of the fic I talked about months ago. I haven't finished it as I hoped I'd by now, but I really wanted to post this. The Daniel Brühl's fandom is so quiet lately, I miss the old days.

Oh, yes, I did name the kid Daniel!!!! couldn't help it.

I hope you liked it!!

xoxo

[noforkingclue]

Laszlo Kreizler Masterlist

No Questions Asked- complete

NSFW

Dark

A Slow Game

Unwanted Attention

Requests

Crossover

Feelings

Dark

A Planned Future

Forced to Agree

Good Girl

Mourning

Willingness

Fluff

A Fresh Relationship

Certain

NSFW

Dark

What The Doctor Wantsl

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Prompt 10: First time(s)

Characters: Aaron Hotchner, Helmut Zemo, Lazslo Kreizler, Raymond Reddington, Tywin Lannister

Rating: 18+ (minors DNI)

Notes: I wanted to post this yesterday as a sort of round-up for the month but I was caught in a writers block over that Tywin story I promised (which is now over 2.000 words and people are barely boning yet!). Sooo you’re getting it today, sorry.

Anyway this is more headcanons than fics but I hope y’all will still like it and as always the ask is open if there’s something you would like to see more of.

Aaron Hotchner

In my head there’s two possible scenarios with Aaron:

Sweet and soft in a candlelit room, him constantly holding your hand and looking you deep in the eyes. This comes after a series of dates and probably a conversation about intimacy and what you’re comfortable with. It’s romantic, slow but powerful – this man doesn’t do half measures.

OR: the two of you are working together in whatever capacity and he’s trying so hard to be professional and distance himself from you but something happens and he just can’t hold himself back any more. He would probably be even more nervous in this case than if you’ve been dating: what if he read the signs wrong? He would never want to hurt you or make you uncomfortable but you’re so beautiful to him, so special. And so when something happens – maybe either of you get injured or he gets a little too jealous of how you laugh at some police officer’s flirtatious jokes – he snaps and as soon as he can manage to get you alone, he’s moves oh so close to you, cornering you. In hushed whispers, his voice going even deeper than usual, he tries to make you admit that you want him too; he would immediately back down if you said no but if you said yes, he’s all over you, all of that pent up frustration, lust and emotions, spilling out and you’re in for a ride. He would never be aggressive but he’s a strong, physically large man and could get a little forceful if he’s particularly desperate. He’s lifting you up, taking you against the wall, or pinning your legs to the mattress as he eats you out on a hotel bed.

In any case this is a man who’s all about your pleasure – and with his profiler training he’s very quick to pick up what you like. He will spend hours with his head between your legs if you let him and those thick fingers of his will have you moaning and whimpering in seconds. He’s quite athletic and I could see him lasting for a while but he’s not a several rounds kinda guy – not without a long break in between at least.

Helmut Zemo

I think I already wrote this?

After getting out of prison (and I don’t really see him getting with anyone before that but that’s another matter), he would be so touch-starved and run extremely hot-and-cold on you as he wrestles with his own pride. He’s quick to flirt and would definitely take pleasure in how frazzled he could make you with a few suggestive whispers and the smallest of touch but if you tried to turn the attention onto him? He’s shutting that down or would at least try to deflect attention back on you.

He would happily go down you, mostly (but not exclusively) for the huge boost to his ego as you flail and moan his name over and over again.

He’s prideful but not necessarily selfish in his attentions to you: he would gladly make you cum four times in half an hour, just as well as he would buy you expensive clothes and jewellery. It would make you happy which in turn strokes his pride and ego.

Lazslo Kreizler

Sweet, sweet Lazslo. He would be so nervous and ever so slightly awkward the first time. Nervous because he doesn’t want to taint you with the darkness he thinks lives in him, he wants you to remain pure, unspoiled (this would be his thoughts no matter your line of profession or background).

The awkwardness would definitely come from his lack of experience; I don’t think he’s a virgin, even when the series starts, but he’s not had a lot of physical encounters but the main thing would be the actual emotional intimacy. To actually let his guard down and let someone see him, fully, for who and what he is, that would be nerve-racking for him.

He would be sweet, though, and very gentle – again to not scare you off or “taint” you in some way. The main focus would definitely be on you and I could see him try to hide his own body for as long as possible. He would also rely heavily on his academic/clinical knowledge of your anatomy and what (he thinks) will bring you pleasure so you would possibly have to quite forcefully tell him if you wanted something more specific (read: kinky or just out of the norm).

With his physical disability, there’s definitely positions that would not be possible or at least painful for him to sustain for any period of time – which would only add to his apprehension and nervousness – and it would be up to you to reassure him that it’s not an issue. Thinking about it (which I definitely have) I don’t think missionary would be comfortable for him whereas you riding him would quickly become a favourite as it also has the added bonus of him getting to see you in all your glory.

Raymond Reddington

Even though Raymond flirts with just about anything and anyone and has a general love for beauty, luxury, and all things pleasurable, it would be a HUGE step for him to actually be with someone physically. Sure, there would be suggestive whispers in the backseat of the car, his voice barely more than a rumble in his chest, his hand gently creeping up your thigh or softly down your spine but actual sex? That could take a while. The emotional part of a relationship might come first, he’s fiercely protective and cares so deeply about most people he surrounds himself with that you could easily fall into a routine of being in a relationship but without some of the physical parts.

He would feel bad about it, though, like he’s stringing you along or holding you back. All these thoughts, though, he would keep to himself until one day he would whisk you away to some remote cabin or small apartment that he bought years ago using seven different aliases to keep it completely hidden.

Once there, though, he’s not holding back. He’s pulling orgasm after orgasm from you, whether it’s with his clever tongue, his thick fingers, or his glorious cock, from the moment you enter the premises. It’s not so much of a first time as it’s a first few days, as he takes you in every room and on every piece of furniture. Languid breaks in between rounds will be with him feeding you specially imported treats from all over the world – everything from caviar to indulgent cakes from small bakeries in countries you didn’t even know existed – or him cooking you simple but delicious meals.

In short, he will spoil you rotten and no type of pleasure is off the table.

Tywin Lannister

Sorry to say but the first time with Tywin would not be sexy (if we’re going with the common trope of reader being his wife). He wouldn’t force himself on you but would see this as a transaction and would expect you to have the same understanding; both of you need the marriage consummated and he needs (male) heirs. He would not be concerned with giving you pleasure but would make sure you’re not in undue pain and that the act was over as quickly as possible.

I think, though, that over the course of a marriage to him there would be many “firsts”: your first kiss (which would definitely not be on you wedding night), the first time he made you orgasm, the first time he spent the night in your bed instead of immediately returning to his own, etc. And all of those would be far more impactful than the first night.

[redex-writes]

IT'S FINISHED

Rondo, the last work in the Piano Concerto No. 2 series, is finally finished.

[lupines-slash-recs]

Rec: Fruitful Partnerships by Starlinghue

Title: Fruitful Partnerships Author: Starlinghue Canon: The Alienist Pairing: Laszlo Kreizler/John Moore Rating: Mature [R] Word Count: 9,376 Summary: One night at the Opera, during those long, anxious months following the investigation, Laszlo turned discreetly in his

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Daniel Brühl Masterlist

A Love Unscripted- Daniel Brühl

The News- Baron Helmut Zemo

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Smut Prompts for the Danny Bunch!

27 for Laszlo <3

thank you for this!! here's a short drabble for Laszlo x gn!Reader [AO3 link]

smut prompts - 27. “I’m too busy.” “I’ll be quick, I promise.”

minors DNI 18+

You were in a playful mood tonight, and as you walked into Doctor Kreizler’s spacious study, you grinned when you saw him seated behind his huge wooden desk. There were papers strewn about on its surface, and Laszlo looked like he was focused, reading something intently with his glasses on. Oh, you’d have to do something about that.

“Hello, darling,” you greeted, walking up to his desk. Laszlo glanced up briefly in acknowledgement, but then he immediately went back to reading. Hm. You walked around to where he was seated, and you pressed a kiss to his cheek, your fingers dancing along the collar of his shirt. Laszlo inhaled sharply at your touch, although he didn’t pull away.

“I’m too busy,” he protested, although a slight blush had risen to his cheeks. You grinned, knowing exactly how to fix this.

“I’ll be quick, I promise.” Before he could protest, you dropped to your knees and slid slightly underneath the desk, positioning yourself between his legs. You chuckled when you heard him gasp again.

“Shh, darling,” you shushed, unzipping the fly of his nice trousers. “I’ll take care of you. Meanwhile, you can continue to work…if you’re so busy.” Laszlo looked down at you then, and you just grinned up at him mischievously. The man was still holding a paper in his left hand, and his glasses were perched on his nose, as if he truly intended to continue working through this.

Without further adieu, you tugged down his briefs and gently grasped his arousal in your warm hand, causing Laszlo to let out a muffled moan. It pleased you that he would finally have a reaction to this, and you wanted to earn more of those strangled sounds of pleasure from him.

“Schatz, I, I need to keep working–” Laszlo cut himself off with another groan as you began stroking him. Oh, how wrong he was to refuse the two of you a nice, long, pleasant evening together.

“Hush, I promised I would be quick,” you said, intending to make good on your words. “And I never back out on a promise.” Doing your best to maintain eye contact, you took him in your mouth, not allowing him time to tell you differently. You bobbed your head, using your hands and tongue and everything you knew that would drive him wild, to the brink the quickest. Laszlo was making the most beautiful noises, whimpering and gasping. A gorgeous flush had risen to his cheeks and had climbed its way to the tips of his ears.

You hummed around him, enjoying the feeling of Laszlo shuddering beneath you. Somehow, he still was holding onto that oh so important paper of his. His glasses had slipped down the bridge of his nose, and a lock of hair now fell over his forehead. So much for working.

Before he knew what had hit him, and before he could warn you, Laszlo was coming. Stars flashed behind his eyelids as he rode out the waves of ecstacy, and you hummed your approval. When Laszlo finally recovered, he opened his eyes to find you buttoning up his trousers, almost as if nothing had happened.

“See? Quick,” you said, winking as you stood up. “Come see me when you finish your work, Doctor Kreizler. Maybe we can work out a longer session. If it fits into your busy schedule, of course.” You turned and walked away, up to your bedroom, leaving Laszlo to gaze longingly after you. With that promise, it looked like he didn’t have that much work to do after all.

[lorna-d-m]

Chapter Six: Communication

Pairing: Laszlo Kreizler x fem!OC (Alice Greene)

Summary: Professor Laszlo Kreizler is a workaholic. Between teaching university courses, running the Kreizler Institute, and minding Stevie -his ward-, he does not have time for relationships. That is until he meets Ms. Greene, Stevie's English teacher, at open house. Can he open his heart to the possibility of love?

Word Count: 4,060

W: mentions of bullying/hazing, sexually suggestive content

A/N: I have been enduring unending struggle after struggle this semester, so I'm sorry this took a while.

previous chapter

Golden light filtered through Laszlo’s office window. One of Rachmaninov’s symphonies played softly over his computer speaker, and he graded student essays with a fine-tipped red pen. A soft knock on the door broke him from his focus which he did not mind given the poor quality of the writing. Alice stood in the doorway, two coffees in hand, and a smile a mile wide. 

“What a surprise.” He pushed the stack of papers away and leaned back in his chair. 

She shut the heavy door. Her hips shimmied in a way Laszlo knew was meant to entice him. It worked. “I thought you could use a little afternoon pick-me-up.” 

“From you? Always.”

Alice handed Laszlo his coffee, no cream or sugar, and sat on his desk. She crossed her legs, her skirt riding up her thighs, and took a sip from her drink. Laszlo looked up at her, admiring everything he saw, and set his coffee to the side. He didn’t need it when he had her. 

His hand ran along her calf prompting her to re-cross her legs. Laszlo’s eyes flicked back and forth, torn between the mischievous glint in her eye and her plush thighs. Alice leaned down, her chest eye level with him, and cupped one of his cheeks with her hand. Her fingers played with his beard, and he nuzzled into her touch. He took a deep breath smelling her floral perfume, his forgotten coffee, and the old books in his office. Divine.  

She kissed his forehead, and then she leaned back on the old oak desk. Entranced, Laszlo stood. He was a sunflower yearning for the sun. She spread her legs, and he stood between her thighs clasping her waist. Standing, he was a touch taller than her, changing the angle between them. He kissed her, tasting the cinnamon sweetness on her tongue, and searching for more. 

“Oh, Laszlo,” she pulled away from his kiss, but her hand laid on his chest over his heart. “Are you sure? Anyone could come into your office, and I would hate for us to be interrupted.” Alice played coy, but Laszlo knew better. He pressed a kiss to her knuckles.

“Darling, you’ll be the only one coming in my office today. I promise.”

Laszlo pushed down the turtleneck of her sweater and kissed her neck. Impulsively, he wanted to leave a mark she would need to hide with another sweater. He cupped her breast, feeling the faint outline of lace under the knit, and he tugged on her sweater. It came loose from being tucked into her skirt, and he moved his hand under it. His thumb grazed the delicate lace, and he let out an appreciative chuckle.

“Please, Laszlo” she whispered in his ear, “more.”  

He clicked his tongue. “Greedy girl, aren’t you? Patience, and I will give you more.” Laszlo sank to his knees, and he guided her glorious thighs over his shoulders. He tugged at her lace underwear, and he wondered if it matched her bra. Alice giggled above him and wove her fingers into his hair, pulling him ever closer, not that he needed any encouragement. He lazily kissed each of her thighs, intent on leaving marks there too—

Laszlo woke with a start. Sweat clung to his flushed skin and shirt despite the late fall chill in his room. He was sticky with precome and tangled in the sheets. Laszlo groaned and ran a hand through his bedraggled hair. He didn’t need a doctorate in psychology to know the meaning of a sex dream. 

A cool breeze blew the long linen curtains, and a pale morning light filled the room. Glancing at his alarm clock, because he preferred the old-fashioned alarm clock to his phone, he knew he had a few minutes. For a moment, he thought about finishing the fantasy. Laszlo could easily imagine the ending, lapping at her until his beard was soaked with her, but he hesitated. 

With a groan that Stevie would certainly tease and call “an old man’s groan”, Laszlo left his comfortable bed. He rummaged through his bedside drawer for the pack of cigarettes he unsuccessfully hid from himself and shrugged on his warm robe. Laszlo didn’t have sex, but he still craved a cigarette. Only one, he promised himself, then he would shower and dress for the day. 

“Cheers!” Bitsy and Alice clinked their glasses together. Adorable, tiny rubber ducks floated in their mimosas, and despite the restaurant’s warning about a dollar charge for taking the ducklings, both women fully intended to slip them into their purses before leaving. 

“It feels like forever since I saw you! How was your trip?” Alice set her phone to the side and clasped her hands in front of her. A few weeks back during one of their planning periods, Bitsy booked the excursion. Alice joked she was planning, just not lessons or teaching. Over the three-day fall break, Bitsy and Lucius went upstate to a bed and breakfast, with the best reviews and amenities. 

“Amazing,” she sighed dramatically. “I’m so glad we did it. You know how everyone talks about going somewhere to see the leaves change colors and go apple picking?”

Alice grinned, imagining the leisurely autumnal weekend. “Yes, of course.”

Bitsy spilled all the details while they waited for their food. They took a gorgeous vintage-styled train upstate much to Lucius’s delight. She showed pictures and videos of the views and laughed recounting their apple-picking and cider-making misadventures. Apparently, both were more difficult than they seemed. Their bed and breakfast was a quaint cottage with a main hall for meals, and a precious elderly couple hosting. She raved about the cider donuts Linda made and passed the recipe along to Alice. 

“And you? How are things with the doctor? Or does he prefer the professor?”

“Please, you know I call him Laszlo.”

“Uh-huh, I just like to tease you, and by default him. So, how are things with you and Laszlo?” The waitress brought over their food, so Alice waited until they were settled to answer. 

“Well, without getting my hopes up,” Bitsy rolled her eyes, “it’s wonderful.” Alice blushed and not because of the mimosa. 

On their first date, he picked her up from her apartment with a bouquet of camellias. As soon as she commented they were cat-safe flowers, meaning she could place them on the coffee table without worrying about Georgie eating them, Laszlo produced a bag of cat treats from his coat pocket. He didn’t want Georgie to feel left out, he explained. Alice noted his thoughtfulness and attention to detail. 

Laszlo took her to dinner, as he promised at the conference, at Delmonico’s. Alice had never been, but Laszlo assured her it was his favorite restaurant. She could tell when the owner and the waitstaff greeted him by name, asking if he wanted his usual table, and bringing a complimentary bottle of wine. Alice was prepared to pay for her meal, but Laszlo insisted saying he should since he invited her.

Alice gently moved her drink from side to side to see the rubber duck move. “It feels silly to say, but I think we’re courting rather than dating.” 

“I guess that’s what happens when you date an older man,” Bitsy giggled, taking another sip of her drink.

“Shut up,” Alice couldn’t hold back a laugh either, “you know I have a type, but I’m serious. He’s been such a gentleman. Like he always brings me flowers or chocolates or coffee or something. And he brings something for Georgie too, I swear he has more toys and treats than I’ve ever bought him.”

“So how has he topped your first date?”

 Alice responded when she finished chewing her latest bite. Her sandwich was almost too good to put down, but she wanted to answer. “We’ve done a few more dinners, some after an event or some just because that’s what we could schedule. You know that cute little art museum a few blocks from here? We did that and had lunch last weekend, and he wants to go to the history museum soon too.”

“Wow, the history museum. Sexy.”

“You’re laughing, but it’s so sexy when he reads the little placards and stands there analyzing it, rubbing his beard in thought. Then he asks me what I think and we talk about it before moving on. And, Bits, museums mean he always dresses nice, too, like suits or sweaters.”

“Listen babe, I tease you, but you seem genuinely so happy. Better than I’ve seen you in months, easily. It sounds like he treats you well, and he should continue to do so if he knows what’s good for him.”

“He does, he really does. Did I tell you what happened when we left the art museum?”

“No, what?”

“Well, I stupidly didn’t check the weather that morning when I got ready, but obviously he did because he brought this giant umbrella. Laszlo left it in the lobby while we walked around, and of course when we went to leave it was an absolute downpour. The restaurant we wanted to try was only two blocks away, so we planned to walk.”

“Of course,” Bitsy commented between bites.

“So he gets out his umbrella, and it’s big enough for the both of us. Laszlo held it, and we walked arm in arm down the street in the rain. I felt like I was in an old Hollywood movie and we should start singing in the rain.”

“Adorable, and you should have.”

“Well,” Alice demurred, “we were so close together, arm in arm so you know we were kinda pressed against each other. I could smell his cologne, and Bits, I swear to God it felt like pheremones to me. We made out under that umbrella until the rain stopped.”

Laszlo knew he sounded like a technology-hating curmudgeon, but he preferred calling to texting. Of course, with their busy and ever-changing schedules, texting was far more convenient. However, Laszlo savored anytime Alice called him and he could hear her voice.

Typically, they talked after he ate dinner with Stevie and while she cooked her meal. Laszlo chided her for eating so late, but the timing was convenient. He could slip into his room or his office when he felt his phone buzz in his pocket without arousing undue suspicion. 

“What are you cooking tonight?” Laszlo heard the steady hum of a stovetop ventilation fan and a beeping timer. 

That was another advantage of the phone, or even better, FaceTime. There was so much more ambiance when he could hear or see. Sometimes he could spot Georgie or hear him meowing in the background. Laszlo felt he was there, despite the distance, and he could get a glimpse of her evening. It was almost domestic. 

“Pasta, hence the fan, and some chicken in the oven. I think it’s almost done, but I want to give it a few more minutes to be sure.”  

“Be careful,” he cautioned, “I know you’re worried about undercooking it, but you don’t want dry chicken either.”

“Yes chef,” she teased. “What about you? When are you going to cook for me instead of giving me advice?”

Laszlo leaned against the balcony railing and hummed in thought. He wondered that himself, but he didn’t have an easy answer. “I’m not sure, with Stevie, I-”

“-It’s okay. I would love to have you cook for me sometime, but I know with Stevie it’s more complicated. We can take our time.” 

“I appreciate it. Maybe I could cook for you in your apartment? We could have a nice night in.”

“I’d like that.” 

By now they had a routine. Laszlo would tell her about his day while she ate, and once she finished she would tell him about hers. They laughed at the similarities between her high school freshman and his college freshman. 

“Do you know what I heard today?” His students always assumed he couldn’t hear them, a fallacy of their youth. 

He could hear her setting her dishes in the sink. “What?”

“One of them said I must have ‘gotten laid recently because there wasn’t as much of a stick up my ass’.” Alice snorted, trying not to laugh. “It’s okay; it’s funny. You can laugh.”

“Mine told me something similar, but not like that. They said I must be in ‘looooove’ because I’m smiling more.” 

Laszlo rocked on his heels. “What do you think?”

“I-” she hesitated, and Laszlo instantly regretted his question. He was known for prying and pushing, and he feared it was too soon. 

“-You don’t have to answer that. I shouldn’t have asked-” Laszlo pinched the bridge of his nose and scrunched his eyebrows. 

“It’s okay, Laszlo. You didn’t push me too much.” He breathed a heavy sigh of relief. “I wouldn’t say I’m in love, yet, but I know I’m happier. What about you?”

“I feel the same.” Laszlo was glad she couldn’t see his cheesy smile.

November was chilly, even with a proper jacket. Stevie shivered and waited outside by the car line for Laszlo. Being late was unusual, so after fifteen minutes Stevie texted him. No response. At half an hour, Stevie called him.

On the last ring before going to voicemail, Laszlo picked up the phone. He immediately apologized, saying he didn’t realize what time it was and he was in the middle of an important meeting. 

“Will you be here soon?” Stevie glanced at the already fading sunlight and emptying parking lot. Laszlo paused, and from that alone Stevie knew the truth. “If you can’t, can you send Mr. Moore or Ms. Howard?”

“I need to get back to my meeting. Try Moore first, and again, I’m sorry.” Laszlo hung up quickly, barely giving Stevie time to think. He huffed a sigh and pulled up Moore’s contact information. Stevie decided to text him first: Doc’s in a meeting. Can you pick me up?

As Stevie waited for a response, he rubbed up and down his arm to warm up. His phone buzzed in his pocket, and he eagerly checked. I can, but it could be half an hour to forty-five minutes. Is that okay?

Stevie thought it was better than nothing. He texted back that it was alright, and he thanked him. Since there were still cars in the parking lot, Stevie bet there were still teachers or other staff inside the warm building. He wandered down the main hallway, wondering if he should sit right there, in the library, or find an empty classroom. As he debated this, someone called out his name. His head flicked up, trying to find them. 

Ms. Greene stood at the door of the teacher work room with a stack of papers in hand. Stevie relaxed, knowing she wouldn’t get onto him about loitering around the school like some of his other teachers would. 

“What are you still doing here?” She gestured to him with her pack of copy paper. 

“Waiting to be picked up. Doc’s in a meeting so…” Stevie trailed off, not wanting to admit he had been forgotten.

She nodded once, understanding what he said between the lines. “Why don’t you hang out in my room?”

“Are you sure? I don’t want to keep you if you were about to head out or anything.”

“Please,” she scoffed, “there’s always something I can be working on. Don’t worry about it.”

Ms. Greene set her stack of papers on her desk and sat at her desk. Stevie slung his backpack off and put it by his desk. He looked around thinking how rarely he saw the room empty. It was normally packed with people, every desk was taken, and Ms. Greene would have to dodge backpacks and lunchboxes to walk around the room. By the end of the day, the desks were crooked and out of place, so Stevie started straightening them up.

“When you finish, do you want to clean them?” Stevie froze, not realizing she was paying attention to him. “There’s Clorox wipes in that cabinet.” 

“Sure, yeah.” Stevie was used to tidying up at the Institue when he was bored or restless, so he continued in her classroom. They talked while he worked making the time pass quicker. She asked about school and what other assignments he was working on in the week. He had a history paper coming up, and they were supposed to do another lab soon in biology. Stevie wasn’t worried about the paper, Laszlo taught him how to write an essay over the summer, but he was nervous about the lab. Biology wasn’t his strongest subject, but he liked Ms. Sussman’s class. 

Stevie crouched to pick up an errant highlighter, and when he heard Coach Connor’s voice cut the momentary silence he stayed where he was. In the corner, behind a group of desks, he wasn’t immediately spotted. He moved so he could see between a crack in the desks and watched.

Ms. Green recoiled, almost retreating into her desk corner. Stevie recognized her discomfort as she crossed her arms and furrowed her brow. Her eyes flicked to where he hid and back to Coach Connor. “What are you doing here?” she questioned.

“I saw your car was still in the parking lot.” What is he stalking her? She stayed quiet prompting him to keep speaking. “I wanted to see if you’d changed your mind since the conferences.”

She sighed, clearly at her wit’s end with him, “Patrick, I said no, and I meant it.”

“Are you sure-”

“-I’m sure. I have a boyfriend now, and I don’t appreciate your insistence. It is not professional or appropriate, especially while at the school.” 

Boyfriend? Stevie wondered if it was Doc. They certainly seemed to hit it off at the open house, and it would explain his weird behavior and change in mood. He would keep observing.

Coach Connor’s face flushed red, he grumbled an apology under his breath, and he turned on his heels. Once assured he was gone, Stevie sheepishly stood up from behind the desks. 

Ms. Greene’s face was in her hands. “I am so sorry about that. I don’t even know what to say…” 

“Don’t worry about it,” Stevie shrugged. “Clearly, you didn’t want him here either.

“I noticed you stayed hidden there. Has he been bothering you, too?”

Stevie sat on the desk, fiddling with the highlighter in his hand. “Yeah, kind of. He’s harder on me in P.E., that kind of thing.” He was quick to reassure her. “It’s nothing I can’t handle.”

“Are you sure? He shouldn’t be treating you like that, and I know you don’t want to be a snitch or anything, but it’s important to speak up.”

Stevie knew he should, but he didn’t want to create any problems. Doc was happier, possibly because of Ms. Greene, but this afternoon was a reminder of how much he juggled. Stevie would feel guilty adding anything else. 

In the meantime, he could deal with Coach Connor yelling at him or making him run more laps. He could stomach the football players' stupid jokes and isolation, done on Coach Connor’s orders, no doubt. 

“I’m sure,” he answered.

While Alice tweaked her slides for the week, Stevie worked on his homework. He sat at his desk for class which she chuckled at. A classroom of empty desks and students will naturally pick their own desks. Alice enjoyed having Stevie there and providing a safe space for him to wait for his ride, but she also wanted to go home. She was tired and slightly cold, and she wanted to change into a pair of sweatpants and an old t-shirt. 

“Hello hello.” Alice looked up from her laptop. A tall, well-dressed man with dark hair paused in the doorway. “John Schuyler Moore, and you must be Ms. Greene if the sign outside your door is correct.” He extended his hand for her to shake, and she took it. 

“Yes, I am. You must be here for Stevie.”

“I am, and hopefully he hasn’t given you too much trouble,” John winked. 

“No, he’s been wonderful-”

“-Oh, you thought I meant Stevie, no, no, I meant Laszlo.” He laughed, and she bit her tongue to keep from doing the same. “You’re the one who has to deal with him as a concerned parent.”

Alice smiled. “He’s been wonderful, too. Very communicative.” 

Stevie packed up his bag slowly, keeping an eye and an ear on their conversation. Alice was conscientious that everything she said was being analyzed. 

“It was so polite of you to let him sit in your classroom. You could’ve gone home an hour ago, enjoyed your evening, and yet here you are.”

Alice didn’t miss the way he said enjoy your evening. It was a clear innuendo that she glossed over. “It was no trouble at all. Stevie’s a good kid, and you’re a good friend to come pick Stevie up.”

“I would do anything for a friend like Laszlo. I’ve known him for almost twenty years, and I know he would do anything for me in return. He’s like that, you know,” John shrugged, “he seems tough, but he would give someone the shirt off his back if they needed it.”

“I’m sure he would.” Heat rushed to her cheeks, briefly imagining Laszlo without a shirt and the dark chest hair she would find there, and she cleared her throat. “Stevie, please, don’t hesitate to let me know if you need anything. And Mr. Moore, have a good afternoon.”

***

At around nine, Alice got a text from Laszlo. She had just laid down in bed, ready to get warm and comfy for the evening, with a book and a mug of tea. She set her book aside on her nightstand and checked her phone. 

Darling, I am sorry for being so inattentive today, and I want to thank you for letting Stevie stay in your room. I appreciate it. 

Alice’s thumb hesitated over the Facetime button. She hoped Laszlo would pick up and that he didn’t text her and immediately set his phone aside. She didn’t look her best, her hair was pulled back in a messy bun and her face was still red from washing it, but she wanted to see him. 

“Hey Laz,” she smiled at him, but she was concerned. He sat at his desk, dark circles under his eyes, and creases deep in his forehead. She could see a stack of papers spread out in front of him, and he held a fountain pen in his hand. 

Laszlo smiled back at her, and it made her heart skip a beat. “I missed you today,” he drawled. “An emergency case came up, and they needed me at the courthouse and at the juvenile facility, and I have to read all this paperwork for tomorrow morning… But I needed to hear your voice and see your face.”

“Aww,” she blushed, but she knew her face was already red and he probably couldn’t tell. “Thank you, baby. It’s okay to be busy and do what you need to do.” He took a sip of what she assumed was coffee. “I just appreciate a heads up or something if you’re going to be unavailable. I could even plan to keep Stevie for a while or something if you let me know.” 

“That’s very generous of you.”

“But I must say, it was nice to finally meet one of your friends.” Laszlo groaned in embarrassment, and Alice giggled. “He was very complimentary of you.”

Laszlo set down his pen and ran his fingers through his hair. It was nice to see him relax and not think about work for a moment. “What did he say? You know he’s never going to tell me.”

Alice mocked offense. “What makes you think I’m going to tell you either?” He huffed a sigh and chuckled. “It’s admirable, really, the way he spoke about you. He would make a good wingman if you weren’t already taken.”

“John means well, obviously, he just doesn’t know everything yet.” Yet. She wondered when she would meet his friends officially, and he would meet hers. They were still in the beginning of their relationship, but she assumed since she told Bitsy, Laszlo must have told his friends something. Soon, she thought, but hopefully not too soon. Alice liked existing in their secret little bubble.

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9, 17, 20 and 38 from the smut prompts with laszlo?? I’m sorry if that’s too many, they’re just sooo good!!

Feel Me

Wowowowow friend, those are some excellent choices! I tried to work them all in here for you, but I did have to edit a couple of them to keep the flow. Hope you like it! Feedback is always appreciated 🥰

9 / 17 / 20 / 38 from the Smut Prompt List

Laszlo Kreizler x femme! reader

Warnings: smut (18+ only), kind of dark! laszlo, soft dom! laszlo, gendered terms for the reader, vaginal fingering, infidelity, inexperienced reader, shame, period-typical sexism, mentions of bad sex, inappropriate power dynamics (doctor/patient), i don't know how victorian undergarments are supposed to work, maybe it's a little ooc? I have no idea. Let me know if I missed anything!

Dr. Kreizler has his face between your legs.

With you skirt pulled up over your knees, his breath brushes against your parted thighs and your face burns with shame. You're not bare—your dress still offers plenty of coverage—but without your undergarments you might as well be nude.

Tears sting at the corners of your eyes; you just barely resist the urge to force your legs closed, shutting out him and this soulless exam room and the knowledge that you're sitting here, waiting for a man who is not your husband to look at the most sensitive part of you and tell you exactly why you're broken.

"And when did the problems start?" he asks, standing. You relax your legs, pushing your skirt back down over your ankles.

"Since we've been married," you tell him. Dr. Kreizler strolls leisurely around the exam table, but you keep your eyes in your lap.

Your husband has been very patient with you, even after six months of marriage, yet every night is still an exercise in embarrassment. He’s become tired of you trying and failing to feel something, to react to your his hands the way you should, instead of counting your breaths and waiting for it to be over.

And who could blame him?

"There's been no improvement?"

You shake your head, unable to speak past tears pooling in your lashes.

His hand rests on your shoulder, thumb stroking softly over the juncture of your neck—a comforting gesture that still manages to put you on edge, setting your skin alight beneath the sleeve of your dress.

"I'd like to try something else," he says, voice always smooth, like a rich piece of chocolate, or velvet under your fingers, "I want you to tell me how it feels when I rest my hand in different places on your body. Can you do that for me?"

Your heartbeat quickens, but you nod. Dr. Kreizler would never hurt you.

"How does this feel?" he asks, and he shifts his thumb higher, until he reaches skin, and your pulse thrums beneath the press of his finger.

"It feels . . . alright."

He nods, stepping around to the other side, letting his hand trail down over your sleeve, until his palm is covering the back of your hand.

"And this?"

His eyes are on the spot where your hands meet, so analytical as he observes the contact, but your eyes are on him.

He has such a handsome face. You've always thought so, since the day your husband introduced you—the handsome, lonely Dr. Kreizler with his soft eyes and penchant for the opera. And you loved your husband—of course you did—but there were still times when you'd find the doctor's eyes on you across a crowded dining room or party, and the electric feeling of his notice would stay with you long after you and your husband had retired for the evening.

"Fine."

It feels better than fine, the slightest chill traveling across your skin as he strokes the tip of his finger over the ridges in your knuckles, the delicate bones on the inside of your wrist.

He hums in casual response. "Is it good when I touch you here?"

He presses his hand against your stomach, with more force than the other touches, just below the swell of your breast. The weight is pleasant, and the proximity even more so, his face much closer than before, eyes cataloguing each subtle shift in your expression.

"It is."

His gaze flashes to your lips before meeting your eyes again. A single strand of hair falls across his forehead, just brushing the tip of his nose.

"And what about," he leans in, closer still, hot breath caressing your cheek, "this."

His hand slips between your thighs, bunching the fabric of your dress against your bare cunt.

"Dr. Kreizler," your hand grips his wrist, but you're unsure what to do once with it once it's there. You could—should—push him away, but the pressure is surprising, and the slight shift of his fingers and the ripples they send through the fabric feels . . . good.

He hushes you with a stern glare, making no effort to remove his hand, grip like iron compared to your own.

"Laszlo. You'll call me Laszlo in private."

"Laszlo," you correct yourself without a thought, "my husband, he'll—"

"Your husband," he spits the word with an uncanny venom, grinding the heel of his hand more forcefully against the sensitive spot between your thighs," is a fool—blaming his inadequacies in sex on an undeserving wife. He sent you to me because he believes you cannot feel his pawing hands and pathetic thrusts, but you can feel, leibling, just as well as any woman. You can feel me."

He's right. You can.

He has such talented fingers—hands that would be right at home on piano prodigy—coaxing a sinful heat in your core despite the layers of fabric.

“How does this feel, leibling? Tell me how it feels.”

“It feels—“

How does feel? It's wholly unfamiliar—the desperate shift of your hips against his hand, the pleasant fog at the corners of your vision and the edges of your mind. It feels like everything you've ever wanted, like the long-awaited opening of a maddeningly locked door.

"I— Laszlo, I need more."

He leans in closer, close enough that his lips almost brush yours, and for a moment you think he might kiss you. You hope he might kiss you.

"Lift up your skirt," he whispers instead.

You have the hem in your hands a moment later, raising it eagerly until your balled fists rest in the middle of your thighs, and your momentum fails. Despite everything you've already done, there's no getting past this indecency on your own.

"So shy, now, schatz? Moments ago you were humping my hand and now this is all you can give me? Perhaps I should inform your idiotic husband that no more treatment will be necessary. Perhaps, you've already been cured. Would you like to go back to him so soon, pet?"

"No," panic flares, and the hem of your dress bares another inch of your skin, but it's the warmth of his hand on your thigh that convinces you to lift it the rest of the way, lifting your hips out of the seat, flinching at the cold material of the exam table against your bare ass.

"Good girl," he coos, taking your chin between his fingers, "now, kiss me properly."

Your lips part, and his eyes are still open when he presses a gentle peck to your lips, closing them only when you kiss him back.

Oh my. It's nothing like any kiss you've had, in your limited experience. The chaste kisses you shared with your husband after your engagement had their own kind of thrill—the thrill of an imagined fairy tale, of a promised happily ever after. The naïeveté wore off rather quickly, after your failure to perform your other wifely duties.

Kissing Laszlo isn't like that at all. There's a quiet passion behind tender movement of his lips, not out of duty, but desire. His hand cups you, without force but still secure, determined to keep you against him as long as you'll let him.

Your eyes don't open automatically when you pull back, eyelashes fluttering against your cheeks, and so you don't see the look on his face as he brushes his thumb over your skin, before pressing the tips of his fingers against your parted and swollen lips.

"Open," he comands, and you're so pliant for him, opening wide enough for his fingers to disappear into your wet mouth all the way to the second knuckle before you respond with a soft gag at the pressure.

"I'm sorry, liebling, I'm sorry," he shushes you, so gentle, pulling back just enough to allow your tongue some movement between his digits, "I need my them nice and wet before I tease that aching cunt of yours. Suck on my fingers, now."

You do as he asks, hollowing your cheeks and tightening your lips. You shouldn't be doing this—shouldn't be sinking to such base acts, not when you have a husband at home and a spotless reputation and a last name that everyone in New York knows.

It's no use. You couldn't stop now, not when Laszlo is looking at you with those soft, irreverent eyes. You'd walk through fire if he asked it.

His fingers escape your lips with a soft pop, shiny with spit. You watch his hand disappear between your legs again, and your heart thumps more heavily in your chest. It's getting harder to breathe.

"There we are, liebling," he praises you, stroking your outer folds with his moistened fingers, spreading the slick across your cunt, just barely brushing your clit.

The shock of pleasure jumps through your chest, your back arching slightly off the exam table, lips parting with a violent breath.

Laszlo smirks. "And he thinks you can't feel."

Your husband's mistakes are becoming clearer with each stroke of his fingers—their gentle circles around your tender clit, or the teasing press at your entrance.

"You're getting so wet for me, pet," he comments, stretching your entrance little by little with one circling finger. "I think you're ready for more of me."

You nod, grateful your soft moans are keeping your mouth too busy to beg.

He slips his middle finger inside of you, and it's already a thousand times better than anything you've experienced in your marital bed. The gentle stretch, the way he curves his finger against your tender front wall while his thumb works steadily at your clit—it has you reaching heights you had never thought would be available to you.

"Please, Laszlo, please," you paw at his chest, trying to grab hold of his jacket, looking for leverage, but your hands are weak, your body much too concerned with the rapturous glow overtaking your cunt to function properly.

You'll have to beg then, instead. "Please, kiss me again. Please."

He chuckles, his wrist working more ardently until you can hardly hear him over the wetness between your legs.

"Not yet. I need to see you cum first. I want to watch you unravel for me."

He slips another finger inside of you without ceremony, and your eyes roll back in your head, vision going dark.

The movement of his fingers is nothing short of marvelous, scissoring back and forth, punctuated by the occasional deep thrust that has your hips lifting from the seat and stars in your eyes.

His voice reaches you even in the deepest trenches of your pleasure.

"It's alright, liebling, you can let go. Cum for me."

And you do, sunken beyond a point of return, emerging on the other side in a flare of bright light, the spasming of your cunt sending shards of it through your body with every stroke against your raw and aching clit.

"Look how good you are for me," he whispers, pulling his fingers from your core as the contractions subside, brushing his wet fingers across your hairline.

He kisses you tenderly, his hand—still sticky with your spend—cupping your cheek. Your legs shake from your release, but it would be impossible not to kiss him back.

He pulls away, cleaning his fingers on a nearby cloth before brushing his hair back into place, slipping back into his doctor's persona as easily as he'd slipped out of it.

"Tell your husband that you'll need regular treatment for the foreseeable future. Perhaps once a week."

You nod, pulling your skirt back down into place before you stand from the exam table. You're unsteady on your feet, swaying dangerously, and he takes you with a hand on your arm, pulling you in tight against his chest.

"The next time he touches you, schatz," he says to you, speaking right up against the shell of your ear, and the sin in his words makes you shiver, "make sure you're thinking of me."

[noforkingclue]

No Questions Asked (Laszlo Kreizler x reader) Chapter 22

Warnings: mentions of period typical misogyny

No Questions Asked tag list: @direbatattck

You laid in the comfortable bed looking up at the ceiling. You had tried to sit up but the pain in your side was a sharp reminder to be careful. You had never felt as useless as you currently did. While this wasn’t the first time you had been injured, far from it in fact, this was probably the most serious wound you had received. You were also going to have to deal with the consequences of your secret being found out. You closed your eyes and tried to think of a good reason for your crossdressing but none came to mind.

Oh well.

The truth it was going to have to be.

You looked over sharply when someone knocked on the door. When you didn’t answer the person knocked again only slightly louder.

“And what were you going to do if I was asleep?” you asked, “keep on knocking until I woke up or would you have left me alone.”

The door opened a crack and you glanced over as Sara entered the room. She held an armful of clothes and you wrinkled your nose at them.

“I want my old clothes back.” you said

“They’re covered in blood.”

“I don’t care.”

“Right.”

Sara grimaced and marched further into the room. You sat up, hissing in pain, and pulled the sheets up against your chest. Bandages were wrapped around it but you still wanted some modesty around someone who was a virtual stranger. Sara knew ‘Doc’, she didn’t know Y/n.

“There’s hot water,” Sara said, snapping you out of your thoughts, “get yourself cleaned up. We’ll be waiting for you downstairs.”

“And they know?” you asked

Sara gave you a disappointed look and you just rolled your eyes. You knew that John and Kreizler knew but a part of you, a very small part, hoped that they didn’t. You let out the breath you hadn’t realised you had been holding when Sara finally left the room. You waited for a minute, just to make sure you weren’t going to be interrupted, before finally slipping out of the bed. You winced and held your side as you slowly shuffled over to the screen that Sara had gestured to.

You let out a sigh as you slowly sunk into the hot water. Fuck, you couldn’t remember the last time you had a hot bath. You were far too used to cleaning yourself in cold water. This was a luxury you really shouldn’t get used to. Soft beds, warm baths and probably good and rich food. All things that you were now so close to and yet was so far out of your reach.

This still wasn’t your world.

You were just visiting and on the whim of those who occupied it.

You could be tossed out into the mud and blood and shit at any moment and they would get on with their lives.

You only got out of the water when it had turned cold, grabbing a towel. You wrinkled your nose at the clothes Sara had provided. You had been in disguise for so long, you couldn’t remember the last time you wore a skirt let alone a dress. You threw it to the side, trying to ignore how nice the material felt, and turned to the wardrobe in the room.

Right, time to find something more suitable to your tastes.

You grinned when you found an old shirt. It was slightly too big but that didn’t matter. It was clean and you could still make it work. You had started doing up the buttons when you heard someone else knocking at the door.

“You can come in.” you called

You had been expecting Sara but to your surprise it was Kreizler who opened the door. The two of you stared awkwardly at each other for a moment before he turned his back. You just rolled your eyes.

“My apologies,” he said, “I didn’t realise you were changing.”

“I didn’t realise you were such a prude,” you said as you continue to look through the drawers, “would you be reacting like this if I was a man? Are there any trousers in here?”

“I thought-”

“No you didn’t,” you turned around and put your hands on your hips as you glared at him, “now trousers. Unless,” you smirked and walked closer towards him, “you enjoy seeing me like this. Half naked and in,” you looked about, “a room in your house.”

“I was merely looking out for your health.”

“By putting me to bed.”

“That was just one aspect.”

You walked closer to him until you were standing directly in front of Kreizler.

“And now I’m half naked in front of you,” you said quietly, “most men wouldn’t be so… honourable.”

You made direct eye contact with Kreizler and paused. You had never seen that look on his face before. His eyes had gone dark and he slowly raised his hands to your shoulders. You knew you should pull away, to avoid getting too close, but you didn’t want to.

“I’m not another project for you to study,” you said, “I did what I had to do to survive in my world. My world, not yours. Now, are we going to continue our investigation?”

Kreizler held your gaze for a second before smiling and nodding.

“We’ll be waiting for you downstairs.” he said before turning and leaving the room, shutting the door behind him

You let out a sigh of relief before collapsing back onto the bed. You closed your eyes before sitting up straight.

“Damn.” you said, hitting the mattress

He didn’t give you any trousers.

Bastard.

[rumblelibrary]

I need a very loving Laszlo smut, either top or switch with him, take it any direction you want, any build up, any kinks. But I just... my soul needs this V I need to see this man happy and satisfied

Coming Back Home [Dr Laszlo Kreizler x Wife!Reader]

Word count: 3k

Warnings: SMUT (fingering, mild victorian dirty talk)

Author’s note: I am weak to see this man happy, my mind went a bit overboard, but I just couldn't hold it back, to see him happy and fulfilled in all his means, professional and private. Thank you so much for feeding my obsession and being my supporter @cazzyimagines <3

The cold air hit him as a welcome back in the moment he exited the carriage, he was back in New York after six months of study and hard work in Wien, he hated and loved it: he learned a lot and got the chance to talk with some of the best alienists in the field granting himself some valuable resources and upcoming publications, the city was amazing and romantic. But all day, every day, he was with his mind on the life he left here, on you and your baby boy waiting at home patiently, easing his pains with letters and little colourful sketches, reassuring him that he would come back to the same house he left.

It was late, he could see the light in baby’s room was off already and it pained him to be late for the goodnight story.

The driver dropped his belongings beside the door with a huff before taking his money with a big thank you.

Laszlo nodded, a sense of tension taking over him, what if something indeed changed? What if you hate him for leaving for his own interest? Will his son remember him? 

The silliest questions took over him and he just rang the bell before the spiral would take over and make him sleep in the garden out of his imaginary shame.

Stevie opened the door and his face lighted up instantly, Laszlo’s hand moved close to his own face with a finger up to signal him to keep quiet. The young lad nodded opening the door more, but a loud whine came out of his lips when he saw the heavy trucks beside Laszlo. 

“Stevie? Who is it?”

Your voice vibrated through the walls enveloping Laszlo like a distant memory and a fresh breath of air at the same time.

Stevie mumbled something “Nobody Madam, only some funny head playing with bells at night” he said as Laszlo nodded at him.

He left the coat at Stevie with his gloves and hat making his way to the bedroom upstairs trying to be as quiet as possible, your vanity the first thing that appeared to his sight, he shifted lightly so he could spot your figure reflected in the mirror without being seen.

You were already in your white night dress, hair down wrapped in a braid that rested on your shoulder, his own dark blue night gown draped over you making you appear even smaller, a book resting in your hand, the other hand toying with the fabric of his gown. A soft sigh left your lips and a little smile, you are liking the book. You turn the page with your features lighting up by interest, he felt almost guilty to interrupt you.

“Guten Abend, my love”

Your head shot up, eyes wide in surprise, a smile growing on your lips as he walked inside the room revealing his presence. A sense of nervousness still on him.

“Laszlo” you called rushing to him, discarding the book and throwing the covers onside,  closing the distance between the two of you by jumping out the bed like an excited child. Your hands wrapped quickly around his neck, you pulled him in, lips clashing against one another. He smiled in the kiss, eyes a bit teary as the happiness you were able to blossom into his chest since the first time he met you was still there. He cupped your cheek with his left hand, the kiss being long and followed by little short ones, and then again a long one.

“You should have told me” You whispered and he smiled at you noticing how you also got a bit of tears streaming down your cheeks, but all due to happiness. You picked his right hand kissing it lovingly, oh that ritual of yours, that mindless action you always did to kiss the part of him he despised the most.

“Welcome home, my love”

He smiled widely, so wide he felt his cheeks and jaw hurt, while he leaned his forehead against yours and you closed your eyes enjoying it. Your little telepathy thing, like he could pour his thoughts to you and vice versa.

In the meanwhile Stevie kept himself far from the two of you not wanting to interrupt or witness anything he shouldn’t. Laszlo pulled back from that position as he stared down at you, your eyes met again as you gulped down a little, his eyes travelling onto your neck as none of you seemed able to pick what words to let out first, too many informations gathered in six months that letters couldn’t covert.

His eyes raising up to yours, you moved first guiding his right hand still safe in your grasp inside that warm robe hiding your body, his fingers meeting with the obscenely thin fabric of your night dress, the shape of your breast clear under his touch, his thumb brushing over your nipple earning an immediate reaction from you. 

His breath itched, his tongue wetting his lips as you kept supporting his weak arm while his hand discovered once more what hidden treasure was the body of his wife.

His left hand undoing the silky bow around your neck that kept that useless piece of clothing closed, your breasts being exposed as he leaned his head down lacing his lips with you nipple and giving it a tempting suck, his tongue roaming over it as a sense of home and comfort surged into his stomach, then he spoke and his hot breath against your wet nipple made you shiver.

“Have you done the exercises that I gave you?”

“No”

His eyes shoot up at you, a mix between the need to scold you and desire in them.

“I could do it only with your letters” you added.

“Not touching yourself enough must have been painful, exasperating, you could have brought yourself to hysteria”

“I know, but I was waiting for this moment”

He smirked, the idea to be a vital part of your sexual expression turning him on immensely.

“Which letter was your favourite?”

“The one where you described your fingers inside me, I could imagine it so clearly while I was doing it to myself”

He almost let out a groan only by the sound of your words, the need to go knuckles deep inside you now almost impossible to hold back as the image of your distressed figure rolling onto the sheets trying to emulate that pleasure he only can give you clouded his mind.

His left hand almost angrily undoing the fabric belt the nightgown around your waist before moving behind your back to pull it off your shoulders, you gently let go of his right hand helping him in the task, your hands now tugging his jacket, his waistcoat, beginning already with his shirt buttons, you were so in need, but he was the same. He tugged his shirt off probably ripping off some buttons, the urgency you both felt filling the air.

His eyes trying to take in all your figure as you finally let go of that white dress.

“Oh, meine Frau, no statue or artwork or inspiration I have seen in this travel equals your beauty” he groaned as he felt like he almost forgot how he worshipped your body, how your only presence triggered obscene desires through him.

There was almost a moment of suspense before he leaned his warm body against yours, skin on skin again.

His erection already brushing over your lower stomach as you guided him onto the bed with you laying down for him. “Laszlo” you were about to beg him not to make you wait, not to tease you but his left hand fingers were already between you legs and a yelp of pleasure left you lips immediately.

“Soaked wet without me even touching you”

He was so pleased, you didn’t need to look at his face to know, but you whimpered when his long finger pushed inside you, he knew it, he knew exactly how to touch you, how to manipulate all of you. His lips laced to your neck, he sucked on it, bit it, hickeys soon will follow the passage of him. He is back.

To see your own neck pale and empty from his marks pained you everyday, but now he is at home and there won’t be a single centimetre of you spared. Another moan followed as his mouth found your nipples again, your legs trembling as a second finger joined the first one making you gasp for air. The ultimate pleasure approaching in you too quickly, abnormally quickly, but you missed him so much and six months without his care on you was a torment.

His prideful smile gave you the freedom not to restrain your pleasure, your hips jolting up and trembling, more wetness gathering on his fingers before he pulled them out knowing that it would make you feel empty.

He punished you with distance as he sat down on the bed, you crawled over him, legs still feeling like jelly as you forced yourself to straddle him. You didn’t need to rest, you wanted him to bring you to exhaustion and he knew it, he knew you won’t wait anymore. So you aligned him with your folds, his hard cock opening his way into you easily thanks to your recent orgasm, a loud growl leaving Laszlo’s lips.

“My wife, it appears to me that you’re back being a virgin after only six months away from me” 

You blushed because his words made you sensitive and proud in a very peculiar way, you moaned slowly beginning to ride him as he kept muffling how tight you’re pressing his forehead against your chest, his left arm wrapping around you. You voiced your pleasure freely, fingers tangling to the back of his head, now it was your turn to guide his pleasure, to set the rhythm, but the pace was slow and deep, the desire still feverish in you, but the closeness inspiring you tenderness. 

“How horrible to rest in the cold Wien without you, how empty to walk without your presence” he spoke directly to your chest, to your heart “every achievement was not an achievement if I couldn’t share it with you” he confessed, his hot breath against your breasts.

“You’re back now, next time we will come with you”

You smiled as his eyes shone looking up at you “my wife”

He loved to call you that, he always did, the pride in his voice when he asked you  to be his wife the first time came back to your memory. You didn’t need many nicknames, wife and husband, the holy duo, the balance, the symmetry.

“I love you, my husband”

You moaned against him, his fingers digging into your skin, his right hand settling over your hip.

You couldn’t guess how much it lasted, you impaled deliciously yourself over him, he loved to stare at you going on your own on top of him, love it, express fully your feminine power. His left hand teasing your clit sapiently mimicking your movements making it nauseatingly perfect, your mind clouded by pleasure. He cursed, he growled biting onto the side of your breast when filling you up and gaining another moan from you, he held you down as he kept rubbing your clit until he felt your walls clasp deliciously around him, he still didn’t want to move.

He loved to see you helpless, washed over by pleasure, legs jerking aimlessly and fingers pulling onto him and his hair.

You didn’t take time to recover from that second orgasm, his skilled fingers knowing their ways around you, you bowed your head joining your lips again, you still couldn’t believe it.

“I am such a lucky man to have you”

You smiled kissing his forehead “I am lucky with such a husband like you”

You stayed like this, hugging, the time to talk will come, the time to exchange gifts and come back to routine. But not now. After countless minutes you slowly shifted from that position, freeing his hard on from you but slowly moving beside his sitting figure staying on your all fours, the braid that held your hair almost completely loose.

“Come my husband, you only had one orgasm, I know you love even numbers”

The next morning the light from the window hit his eyes, he frowned stirring as he blinked tiredly. Your figure tangled to his in bed, the covers over the both of you. He kissed your forehead out of habit, the marks already forming on your neck made him proud, your regular breathing and gentle perfume mixed with the sweat of sex made his senses alive. You felt him move and woke up pretty easily, probably due to have slept alone for so long. You smiled at each other, no words yet needed, a soft kiss placed on each others lips.

The a soft sound, more like little sounds following one another, little feet rushing down the hallway.

“Mama” being whispered by a very shy boy, his clear brown hair peaking up from the doors.You smirked covering Laszlo completely with the duvets.

“My baby” you said sitting up holding the covers over your body.

“Mami!” He gasped surprised “what happened to your neck?”

“Oh, it is normal my baby, is it so late?”

He nodded and you smiled as he hopped on top of the messy bed, Laszlo smirked from underneath the covers, it seems like somebody took a habit of sneaking into the big bed.

You smiled as your boy resembled so much his father, he crawled to move to your lap and that’s when Laszlo sat up with a loud “Who’s in my bed?” holding his hand up like a claw.

The boy squared but soon threw himself against his father’s chest.

“Apa visszatért!!!” He shouted so loud at you like you didn’t notice Laszlo at all and you chuckled finding the two of them so adorable.

“I am going to get some breakfast done” you said willing to leave them their space. Laszlo nodded at you as you wrapped yourself into your dress and then the thick nightgown. You could hear them talk softly, Laszlo was all about speaking to him in his mother’s language but also in German, so your boy was always mixing the three. “Have you being a good master of the house while I was away?” “Yes Papa, I have been extra good and mommy was happy too, but it is not like when you’re here” Laszlo’s little chuckle won you over even by distance. You had to learn Hungarian through Laszlo, even if you were lucky enough to know German already. But how sweet it was to learn along with your boy.

“Little Andrea woke you up, mrs Kreizler?” The cook, a very nice and good hearted woman asked once you reached the kitchen still wrapped in your night clothes and redoing your braid.

“He did, but his father is back, I couldn’t detain him in any way” You assured as you instructed about the breakfast to make something special. When everything was ready and settled you saw the two of them coming downstairs together, Andrea holding his father’s weak hand into his, still babbling in German to him. The two of them still in their night clothes, you loved to be unruly with them, half of the world outside would be shocked to see a family have breakfast in their night clothes, but who cares. You sat all together as Laszlo begun narrating about his travel, Andrea almost forgetting to eat as he sat down staring at his dad with shiny eyes like he could disappear any time.

“Andrea, at least the juice” you said and he nodded vehemently in particular after you whispered something to his ear.

“Do you have secrets with me?” Laszlo inquired with a smirk, his messy hair a blessing in such bright day.

“Always had” you said with a smirk and he chuckled softly before standing up and leaving for a moment coming back with some boxes.

He handed his boy one and two to you, while Andrea was busy unwrapping the gift Laszlo moved behind your sitting figure “open the small one first”

You obeyed quietly as the box was clearly hinting it was jewellery, inside you found some white gold and blue sapphires earrings.

“Laszlo, you ..” He shushed you softly “come on, wear them for me, jewellery over night dress, a new fashion from Europe” He joked softly but you obliged his wishes putting them on, Andrea making happy cheering sounds as he found the model train of his dreams. The earrings dropped beautifully on you, framing the new Laszlo loved so much “I knew only a Venus like you could sport them” he said making you blush, he always spoke in a way that made you feel like courting never ended.

“What about this?” You asked about the second box and Laszlo smirked just gesturing you to go on. Inside there was a study for a portrait, your portrait, clearly inspired by the picture Laszlo had with himself of you.

“I met this young painter in Wien, a bit struggling with money but extremely talented as you can see, a craftsman that works with gold, I invited him to come here next month and work on your portrait, he fell in love with your figure already, I already know I will have to guard your safety.”

“What is his name?”

“Oh, he is not famous, Gustav Klimt”

“Well, we can make him famous then” you said and Laszlo just smiled more as you kissed his lips to thank him for the beautiful gifts, knowing Laszlo he probably had way more hidden in his trucks “I knew you’d say something this kind of sweet”

“Mama, you look beautiful” Andrea called you staring like he was waiting for you to say something and you smiled nodding “yes, now it is the perfect time”

“For what?” Laszlo asked as you took his hand guiding him to the living room.

“Please, take a sit now” you said slowly guiding him to his armchair, the comfort of the familiar place relaxed him, the fresh flowers in the vase, the books laid on the table.

“Andrea has a surprise for you” you said leaning to sit on the arm of the chair looking up a his confused face, but he was unable to let go of that smile creeping on his lips.

“Come inside darling” you called “we are ready”

You took Laszlo’s right hand guiding it on your lap, the curiosity already eating him alive as little Andrea came holding his little violin, still looking extra cute in that night dress that made him resemble some cute baby penguin. He puffed his chest blushing as you gave him a nod of encouragement, Laszlo’s eyes shining to see his son like this and the chemistry you two have.

“I have learned this piece to welcome you back home” he announced as his shaky voice betrayed a bit his nervousness.

He placed the violin carefully onto his shoulder resting his cheek on it, your hands holding Laszlo’s while tapping with you finger to keep the tempo for Andrea. The melody was simple, but quite impressive for such a young player, Laszlo was unable to look away from his son, from the way he relaxed while playing, for the way you clearly helped him to gain the confidence to do this little performance.

He looked up at you as you two shared that look of complicity.

Life was bright over Kreizler’s household. 

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good doctor kreizler ch.4: sufferings of the present

summary ↠ part 4 of good doctor kreizler // laszlo deals with the aftermath of your abduction and ponders on what his and his son's lives could be if you are truly gone. pairing ↠ laszlo kreizler (the alienist, 2018—) x fem!reader (y/n) word count ↠ 2.8k warnings ↠ explicit language, mentions of abduction, SO MUCH ANGST, laszlo being a mean and brooding bitch to sara, mentions of: breastfeeding, blood, suicide, child abuse author's note ↠ jesus christ, first i don't post for a month, and then two updates in like 3 days. yall don't come here for consistency, that's for damn sure. thanks for sticking in! we're just over halfway finished with this fic, though! so stick around for the next few parts!!

Laszlo could hardly function. He had fallen to the ground distraught, his knees bruising from the force of his body weight crashing to the wooden floor, and he went nearly comatose as John pulled him up. He halfway-carried Laszlo into the study and settled him on the chaise lounge, and he whispered, “We’ll find her, Laszlo. I promise we will.”

The only thing that broke Laszlo out of his catatonic state were the shrieking wails of his newborn son. There was something instinctual about the way Laszlo cradled Friedrich to his chest and shushed his cries, like he was asleep but still working. He held Freddie in his left arm, rocking him softly, but he still didn’t speak, not even to soothe the newborn.

Once the sun rose, Sara gathered her wits and entered the study, prepared to see an awful scene before her. She had heard stories about mothers who had gone insane with grief and killed their own children and she had steeled herself to see a similar fate having befell her mourning doctor. Instead, she found silence. Laszlo stood at the window, Friedrich held tight to his chest in his left arm as he looked out the glass to the street below. She could tell that he was no longer in disbelief, now at the stage in his grief where he could think rationally once more, and his mind seemed fixated on whatever he found outside the window. “What are you watching out there, Doctor?” Sara asked.

Laszlo shook his head and sighed, breaking himself from his nightmare. “Nothing,” he said. “Nothing to watch. No footprints in the snow, the bedroom window isn’t broken, there's only fragments of fingerprints… There’s nothing to see.”

Sara sighed lightly, and she said, “I’m going to the shop to get formula for Friedrich. He must be getting hungry.”

“I can run my own errands, Miss Howard,” Laszlo began, but Friedrich gave a quick wail that had Laszlo abandoning his conversation and bouncing him a bit to soothe him. It seemed that his years working with children were nicely translating to his own son, and Sara was at least a little relieved to see that Laszlo was acknowledging him at all.

“People know,” Sara said quickly. “Lucius telephoned earlier, people know that something happened to Y/N. He said that his neighbors asked if she had died. The rumor mill has started up, Laszlo, and if you’re seen out, people will try to talk to you, offer you condolences. Please, I think it will benefit all of us if you stay home with Friedrich.”

Laszlo fixed his jaw as he listened, and he heaved a sigh. “As always,” he said. “You’re right. I suspect I’ll be here when you return.”

Sara frowned, and she put a careful hand on Laszlo’s shoulder. “It seems impossible, surely, but don’t dwell. John’s already at the Institute, with the evidence we have from the boy murderer, working on any leads we have. We’ll find her.”

"How do we know the cases are connected?" Laszlo asked.

Sara sighed. It had been Laszlo himself who had insisted upon that much earlier in the night, speaking through gasping sobs and bouts of retching. "The handwriting is the same," she said softly, just as Laszlo has explained it. "The same loops, same pressure points. And the reference to Mother Mary, and Friedrich being born on Christmas Day. An assumption, to be sure, but it doesn't seem ill-placed."

And then, Laszlo sniffled. Sara looked at his face and, behind his thin, circular glasses, she found the doctor’s dark eyes glossy with tears. “I failed her,” he whispered. “I was supposed to protect her, and I let this happen to her. What sort of husband am I? What sort of father, if I let this happen to my child's mother?”

“You didn’t let anything happen,” Sara said quickly. “Laszlo, there wasn’t anything you could have done. But now we need to focus on you and Friedrich, and getting Y/N home. Alright?”

Laszlo mulled over Sara’s words for a minute, and he looked down at his son. His eyes were open, looking around with the curiosity that he had certainly inherited from his father, and Laszlo murmured, “I think I’ll call him Freddie.”

“That’s a good name,” Sara said. “Freddie Kreizler… A handsome name for a handsome boy.”

“He looks just like me,” Laszlo scoffed. “‘Handsome’. He is more handsome than I.”

“Don’t say that, Laszlo,” Sara scolded gently. “You’re as handsome as the day is long, and so is your son. I know you don’t believe it when I say it, but I’ll have Y/N tell you.”

Laszlo tightened his jaw, and he felt his face loosen at the sound of Freddie’s itty-bitty gurgles. The boy was a handsome little thing, even though he was hardly more than twelve hours old, and Laszlo gave a jolt of shock as he watched his own tear fall onto Freddie’s forehead; he didn't even know he was crying. Without a word, Sara stepped forward and carefully took Freddie from Laszlo’s grip, and she whispered, “I suggest you go lay down, Laszlo. You’ve had a difficult day, and it will only get worse.”

“I need to take care of my son—” Laszlo started, but Sara shook her head.

“Laszlo, I am telling you to lay down,” Sara said firmly. “Or I will have John make you. You need to rest, you’ll feel better.”

“I’ll feel better when I have my wife back in my arms,” Laszlo mumbled. “And I cannot stop until I do.”

“Laszlo—”

“No!” The doctor roared, and Sara took a shocked step backwards. Her hand came up to cradle Freddie’s head to her chest as he began to wail, and Laszlo said, “I will not sleep, I will not eat, I will not do anything that does not bring this investigation to a close! Every moment that I am resting, eating, not working, is another moment that my wife is being hurt, or another moment in which her body grows colder and colder! I cannot stop, I refuse to! Of course you can’t see it, Sara, you know nothing of heartache of this sort. I vowed, so many months ago, to protect Y/N, and I cannot even accomplish that! What did I do instead? I let her be abducted, right from under my nose! My world has stopped turning, I might as well be dead. Go, go find John and cry to him about how awful I am, how heartless I am, just how I know you always do! But know this, Miss Howard: if you thought I was heartless before, when the very woman I loved was alive and held my soul in her hands, you do not even want to fathom the sort of man I am now.” Laszlo paused to take in a shaking breath, and a strand of his dark hair fell in his eyes. He didn’t move it, though, and his reluctance to keep up even the smallest bit of his appearance made Sara’s blood run cold. Freddie was still wailing, his crying having gotten louder to compete with his father, and Laszlo gave a frustrated grunt. “And shut that fucking thing up! I can hardly think with its damn incessant whining!”

Laszlo watched Sara’s face fall into a contortion of hurt and sorrow, and he knew that he went too far. Certainly, there had been times in the past where he had said hurtful things to her, even the memory of his palm connecting harshly with her cheek having crossed a line, but this was new. This was something else. Sara knew that, as angry and hurt that the good doctor was, he meant none of what he said. Perhaps his words did stem from a place of truth, but Laszlo was a man in mourning. Her sorrow was not at her expense, but rather at Laszlo’s. This poor man. She couldn’t imagine what was going through his mind. Surely, it was nothing that Sara could even imagine.

“One day,” Sara said softly. “You will look back and see how ridiculous you’re being. But I understand that that takes reflection and hindsight. But know that your words hurt. They hurt me, they hurt you, they hurt Friedrich, and they hurt the investigation. And they hurt Y/N.” Freddie continued his sobbing, and Sara held him close. “Even if you don’t believe me, when we get her back, she’ll tell you.”

“Tell me?” Laszlo spat. “What, with her cold mouth? Her dead mouth, the mouth I let die?”

“She’s not dead—”

“How do you know?” Laszlo asked. “How can you say, with certainty, that my actions last night did not lead to my wife’s death? It’s because I brought her on the investigation, it’s all because she’s associated with me… The moment she agreed to be my wife, she died.”

“You speak of her like you know she’s dead,” Sara said. “And as if she is incapable of making her own decisions. Sometimes, Dr. Kreizler, women can make up their own minds and decide what’s best for them outside of the men in their lives. Laszlo, we don’t have much to go off of, only that letter and the few stains on the windowsill, but we need hope more than anything. We cannot write her off and presume to find a body. We find her alive. Do you hear me, Laszlo? Alive.”

Laszlo lowered his eyes to the floor, his jaw clenching as he bit at Sara’s words. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. “You’re right. I… It’s only that I can’t imagine my life without her. I-It’s selfish, Sara, but… I can’t be a widow. I simply can’t. If she’s left me for another world, I… I suspect that I might follow her. Regardless of Friedrich or not.” Then, his dark eyes grew stony, and he looked back up at Sara. “If anything were to happen to me or to Y/N, promise that you’ll do what’s best for Freddie. Whatever you choose it to be, please.”

Sara nodded quickly, swallowing down tears, and she set herself steady. “Anything for the two of you,” she answered. “Please, Laszlo, I beg of you. Sleep. I’ll come wake you the moment we get any news from John.”

Laszlo took a heavy breath, then looked back at the window. The rising sun made the freshly-fallen snow glitter on the street, and Laszlo thought of the way you would have smiled at it. He thought about you sitting in your chair by the window, a glass mug full of steaming cocoa, nursing a forgotten book as you watched the sun rise. Laszlo tried to imagine what the scene would look like now; instead of a book and a warm drink, you would have his son in your arms. Perhaps your chemise was unbuttoned, and Freddie was nursing from your breast as you watched the sun. Laszlo could see the scene in his mind as easily as if it were actually happening: you sitting there, only your thin chemise nightgown, untied to allow his son to nurse, your hair down and mussed from sleep. Laszlo could see himself getting dressed for the day, buttoning up his vest as he entered the library (in his daydream, you were surely in the library, as it was your favorite spot in the house). Laszlo would sigh and kiss your cheek, then sit beside you and handle his right arm to lay around your waist. He would settle his head on your shoulder and use his good arm to wrap around Freddie, and brush his thin dark hair back from his blazing eyes. Laszlo could even hear himself speak: “Mein Gott, my beloved. I have never loved someone like you, and I don’t think I ever will.”

“And your son?” you would ask, giving him that sleepy smile that graced your mouth during those hours of the day where there was little on your mind other than your interrupted sleep.

“Freddie’s got my affections in a different way,” Laszlo would answer. “I love both of you, and I love my son in a way that makes my chest burn. But you… You and your love soothe the flame.”

You would give a little “Hmm!”, then say, “If you weren’t an alienist, you might have a good career as a poet.”

“I’m not an alienist, my beloved,” Laszlo would say, nuzzling his beard into your neck and making you laugh. “I am a husband— your husband— and a father— his father. Those names are more important to me than any degree or title that some school can give me.”

“Really?” you would ask, and Freddie would give a little squeal as he drank, and extend a little fist out to his papa. Laszlo would take his son’s hand and feel the boy hold tight to his pinkie, and he would listen as you asked, “What’s your favorite name you have, Las?”

“That one,” Laszlo would answer. “Las. You’re the only one who calls me that. Or, perhaps, Papa, if that is what Freddie chooses to call me. I presume that will be my favorite.”

You would smile at him, that soft and contented thing that made Laszlo’s heart hit his ribcage, and you would lean in and kiss him. He could taste your lips, sweet and soft against his, and he could feel your hand reach up and rest on his face, your fingers stroking his beard. It was as if you were really there, touching him, kissing him, holding him. It hurt his heart all the much more when he came to his senses and found himself laying in bed, alone. He couldn’t remember how he got there, or if he had even been asleep as he dreamed of you, but he sat up all the same. In his mind, he recognized that he was at the scene of a crime, that every inch of the room should be examined by Teddy and his capable men, but the thought of anyone else in there made Laszlo sick. This was his bed, your shared bed. The bed where he first made true love to you, tugging off your dress and biting at your breasts as he rutted into you like a starved animal; from what he could gather, you didn’t mind his actions that night one bit. The bed where his son was conceived, where Laszlo planted the seeds for the most honest love of his life. He had nursed you during difficult parts of your pregnancy in that bed, sat beside you and read to you on days where you could hardly leave. He woke up next to you in that bed and went to sleep next to you there. He held you, kissed you, adored you, revered you there, he became a father there, and, even though the bed had been stripped of the sheets and it was nothing more than a mattress with a few uncased pillows on it, it was hardly even the bed at all that made his heart ache. Laszlo figured that, even if all of those things had happened on perhaps the chaise lounge, he would still have an affinity for this room, this bed, solely because, just hours ago, it had been the last place he had seen you. He thought about the fleeting image he had, the last moment he had seen you. He wished that he had a clearer image of your sweat-covered bosom, your hair, your flushed face. He wished that he had kissed you one last time before he left.

Groaning with the weight of his world, Laszlo got out of bed, and he moved to the window. The sun was evenly in the midsky, around noon or so, but he drew the heavy curtains and sent the room into near darkness. Then, Laszlo surprised himself. He worked himself to his knees and settled his clasped hands on the dark wooden windowsill, and he bowed his head. He could hardly remember the actions, but, with a shaking right hand, he made the sign of the cross over his chest, and he sighed. He didn’t even know what to say. “Please help her,” he whispered, his voice cracking with the weight of his pleading. “I haven’t called on you in years, but please. Protect my wife. Keep her well. She’s a mother, you cannot take a mother from her boy… Her boys. Perhaps it’s selfish, Lord, but I need her too. I can’t… I can’t go on without her. She’s smarter than me by far, a more handsome being than I; I am her inferior in every way, but I need her. I have devoted my life to my work, but that was before I met her. Please, I need… I don’t deserve it, not one bit, but please. Give me a sign that she’s alive. Any sign, a fallen snowflake or a certain song on the radio, please. I need her.”

Laszlo’s eyes hurt with the force of how hard he had them squeezed closed, and, upon opening them, a stolen sliver of sunlight blinded him. He shifted away, trying to remove the flashes of purple and mauve in his eyesight, and, once he was right again, he looked forward at the cream-colored curtains. He had ordered them from Venice after you commented on how nicely a similar set complemented John Moore’s grandmother’s parlor, and, when they arrived, you, although a little plump with pregnancy, had jumped and threw your arms around Laszlo’s neck and planted a big kiss on his cheek. Laszlo reached for the curtain, lace with a silk backing, but he stopped frozen. There, the deepest crimson, sat an oval. It was different from the others that littered the windowsill. It was the exact thing that the Isaacsons needed to achieve their dustings; a full mark. Albeit bloody, a perfect fingerprint. Suddenly, words boiled in his chest, and burst forth from him before he could stop them: “Sara! Phone John at the Institute! Phone the Isaacsons too! I found something!”

[shmaptainwrites]

𝐀 𝐃𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑’𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 [𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐙𝐋𝐎 𝐊𝐑𝐄𝐈𝐙𝐋𝐄𝐑]

PAIRINGS —  Laszlo Kreizler x fem!reader

SUMMARY —  After the death of Martha Napp Laszlo can't seem to get out of his head and deal with his emotions concerning his own guilt and all you want to do is help.

WARNINGS — minor season 2 episode 1 spoilers, descriptions of death (by electric chair), a bit of sadness and minor angst (but there's fluff too I promise), pregnancy

NOTE — Alright you guys! This is it! The fic you guys helped me plan! As you can see it's for Laszlo, and a fluff/hurt comfort fic. The prompts that got the most votes are bolded and used down below and I took a few of your guys' suggestions as well. I can't wait to see what you guys think and thank you so much for helping me pass so many milestones <3 [Also I got the translation of the name (Ilka) off google so apologies if it's inaccurate]

The rhythmic bouncing of the carriage was not enough of a distraction to deter Laszlo’s thoughts from what had just happened. The images of her convulsing body through his mind, the way she shook, screamed and then stopped. The silence was worse than her screams.

If he had just managed to find the baby, well and alive this would have never happened. He wouldn’t have failed them. Failed them both.

But now Martha Napp was dead. The smell of her burning flesh stained in his nostrils. The words of the guards as they called for higher voltage. More than necessary to kill. 1000, 2000, his voice caught in his throat, wanting to scream for them to stop, they had done enough. They had taken the poor mother from her child. An innocent woman.

He couldn’t comprehend who would have taken her baby. Let alone why.

He couldn’t go home. No, not yet.

“Stevie,” he said, his voice more strained than it would have normally been.

“Yes Dr. Kreizler,” the boy nodded, turning his head around.

“Would you take me to the park please,”

“Not home?” he asked and Laszlo shook his head.

“I find myself in need to… clear my head,”

Stevie turned the carriage to go towards the park while Laszlo tried to focus his mind elsewhere in a much futile attempt. All that he could hear was the shaking of the chair against the ground and the sloshing of the water in the bucket at her feet.

Stevie stopped the carriage in front of the park, letting Laszlo climb out of the vehicle and walk carefully over to the bench, the chatter of children and families, birds chirping, drowning out his thoughts if even only for a short time. The evening air was cool but refreshing and the sun gave everything a wonderful orange hue. It would have been a nice day if his mind wasn’t plagued with guilt and regret.

Although when he sat down on the bench, he wasn’t not expecting to have another body join him. A familiar one at that.

“Laszlo,”

His head turned and he was met with John’s tired and apologetic eyes.

“What might you be doing John?” he asked carefully.

“I thought I might find you here,” he admitted. “I wanted to make sure you were alright,”

Laszlo chuckled humourlessly. “What a curious thing to ask after a day such as this,”

“Laszlo what happened was terrible, but it happened,” John insisted. “There’s no going back, all we can do is try our best to find the child before any more harm comes its way,”

“You didn’t make promises John,” Laszlo shook his head, squeezing his eyes shut as a small breeze blew across them, leaves swirling at their feet. “I was a fool and I promised her things I couldn’t deliver,”

John turned to face his friend more fully.

“Laszlo this is not your fault,” he insisted. “You fought for Martha Napp, tirelessly, at every single impasse you were there, putting your reputation at stake, you mustn't forget that,”

Laszlo pinched the bridge of his nose.

“As much as I would like to wish what you said had granted me some comfort I’m afraid it hasn’t. Martha Napp did not deserve to die and I let that happen to her,”

John didn’t say anything, only extending an arm to place on the shoulder of his friend.

“Don’t think too hard Laszlo. We’ll find the child. That’s the first step to fulfilling the rest of the promise,”

Laszlo nodded his head and the two men stood up, sharing a handshake before parting ways.

Stevie was still waiting for the doctor, his carriage parked off to the side.

“Where to, Dr. Kreizler?”

“I should think I would like to stop by Sara’s office before heading home,” he said.

“Of course, hop in, we’ll get you there in no time,”

Laszlo nodded, greatly appreciating all the help Stevie had brought him, especially as of late. He wished to let his eyes rest on the way there, but every time he closed them he saw the most disturbing things. No, it was no longer only Martha’s death that his brain wished to put at the front of his mind. Images of his loved ones, in situations so foul he would never be able to find the words to describe them.

From that moment onwards he was determined to keep his eyes peeled open.

By the time they reached Sara’s office, the sun had set, and most if not all of the lights were off. He quietly crept in, peeking his head through the doors, and walking the halls until there was a slight click followed by,

“Laszlo! You must be more careful! I could have killed you,”

Sara was holding a gun, outstretched towards him. She placed it back in her purse and looked over at the doctor. Sympathy, but also the same amount of guilt in her own eyes.

“You would have been doing me a service,” he said quietly. “I can’t seem to rid myself of the smell of burning flesh,”

“A drink is in order then,”

“Ah yes,” he nodded. “I’d love a glass of-,”

“I’m going to stop you there,” she opened the door to her office, letting him come inside. “By drink, I mean American bourbon, straight or watered down,”

“I’ll have it straight then,” he nodded and Sara went to pour him the drink. “It’s quite interesting, the way you’ve decorated this place. It’s very you,”

“Laszlo please,” she sighed, handing him the drink, “I’d really wish for you not to try and discover the deepest secrets of my mind through the furnishings of my office,”

“Very well then,” he nodded, lifting his glass and sipping the strong amber liquid.

“There must be some reason you’re here,” Sara noted. “Is there a way I can be of assistance to you Laszlo?”

“Will you be taking on the case of finding the Napp child?” Laszlo asked.

“I feel like I must. The police have already determined it to be murder. No one will be looking for the baby,”

Laszlo nodded, taking another sip of the alcohol, his eyes trailing to the many guns and certificates that lined the office walls. There was a chalkboard in the corner, Napp was written in big white letters in the top centre and everything they knew about the case underneath it.

“Should you ever find yourself in need of my assistance,” Laszlo started.

“I will not hesitate to call on you,” Sara assured.

“I made a promise to Martha,” Laszlo explained. “You would be doing me a service Sara, as your friend, for letting me be involved in this,”

“Of course,” she nodded, tracing the rim of her glass with her thumb. She lifted it slightly as if in a meagre toast. “To Martha, may she find peace,”

Laszlo pressed his lips together, lifting his glass in a similar motion, tilting his head forward. “To Martha,”

Laszlo finished his drink then bid Sara goodnight finally instructing Stevie to take them home. Entering the house with a creak at the door he almost felt guilty. It was so late, he hadn’t called home all day, you were probably worried out of your mind.

He didn’t find you in your usual waiting spot, in the living room by the piano. Instead, upstairs, he saw the light of a candle illuminating his study and carefully made his way towards it, just barely grazing his fingers over the doorknob before gripping in tightly and twisting it with a gentle push open.

You were still in your day clothes, no doubt highly uncomfortable at this time of night, curled up in his chair with a novel in your hands.

He didn’t think you noticed him, but when you whispered,

“One more paragraph,” he knew you were nearing the end of the page and wanted to mark it properly.

As soon as your eyes scanned over the last word, you took the small slip of paper and placed it in the centre of the next two pages and shut the book, looking up at your husband and giving him your full attention.

“It’s late Laszlo,” you said simply and he pressed his lips together and nodded.

“I know, I apologize,” he said simply, not wishing to elaborate on his worries, but you had a different idea.

“Won’t you come closer?” you asked. “I haven’t seen you all day,”

You changed your seating on the chair, feet down on the ground, legs pressed together, your arms resting on either armrest. Laszlo blinked once and for a moment his heart stopped. Your feet were placed in a bucket of water, arms tied down, a cap on your head, but he blinked again and it was gone.

“Why don’t you come to me,” he suggested gently, trying to coerce you into leaving the chair, allowing his mind some rest and ease.

You agreed silently by standing up and walking over to him, your hair falling down in its natural way after having unpinned it some time ago. You looked peaceful. You always did, especially this late at night, it was the time your mind was most at ease.

Your hand reached out to move a misplaced curl from his forehead, a weak smile grazing your lips.

For some reason, Laszlo wasn’t altogether sure why, he flinched at the contact, causing your smile to turn into a frown. You removed your hand quickly, bringing it to your chest, fingers gently fiddling with the frilly fabric of your dress.

“Something happened,” you said simply, knowing without him having to utter a word. “Talk to me Las,”

“It was nothing,”

He knew it was pointless to lie, but it came out anyway. He didn’t want to burden you, he never did. And this, this was the burden to bear all burdens.

“Laszlo,” you said, your voice almost lightly scolding. “Qui n’avance pas, recule,” (He who does not move forward, recedes)

“I-,”

“You cannot say it doesn’t apply to you my love you’ve used that many a night to win an argument with me,” you said, but it was gentle, loving, you wanted to help.

“(Y/N) I can’t say,” he shook his head. “I can’t tell you,”

“What do you mean?” this worried you. “I’m here to help Laszlo, I took that as a part of my vows to you, that I would be here through it all, don’t you remember?”

“Of course I remember,” he nodded, but then shook his head and broke his gaze away from you. “I just… I just can’t say,”

You took a deep breath, your own eyes trailing to the clock on the wall. It was late, you couldn’t fight all night.

You didn’t say another word, only gently pushing past him and making your way to your room.

It was a relief to rid yourself of your dress and corset, you felt as if you could finally breathe, the physical side of your body now relaxed along with your mind. Well, as relaxed as your mind could be after the conversation with your husband.

You thought of him while you picked up your sleep clothes, one of Laszlo’s shirts and a pair of his trousers, they messed them up at the tailors and they seemed to fit you better and you loved to sleep in them. It made you feel like you were eternally being held by him. A pseudo embrace.

These past weeks had been hard. The case he was working took much of his time, he was overworked, overtired, and stressed beyond words. You just wanted to be next to him, you wanted to be able to work through whatever was going on in his mind with him. He may have been the alienist, but alienists needed someone to look after them too.

You had been laying in bed, staring out the window, praying that the door would open and Laszlo would come rest by your side, but nothing happened. A half-hour passed and still, nothing.

Your worries got the better of you and you pushed yourself up on the bed, going to make your way to his study where you assumed him to be, but the candles had been since blown out. So carefully, you made your way down the halls, peeking your heads into the rooms until you reached the middle one, pressing against the wood and glancing over at Laszlo.

He stood, placed almost in a calculated manner in front of the bassinet, his hands in his pockets, looking down at the sleeping figure of your daughter, and from there everything started to make sense.

All these demons haunting him, whatever was causing him to feel this way was because he thought you, you and Ilka could be in danger. His darling angels.

You chewed your bottom lip, watching his hand reach out to gently stroke her cheek, such an innocent, loving gesture and you could sense how much he wanted to hold her, but at the same time not wishing to rouse her from her peaceful sleep.

For a moment, your mind drifted back to happy memories, memories of a time when things seemed to be alright after one madness had ended and before another began.

—

You stepped out of the doctor's office and into the summer sun, your breath caught in your throat. This was news, you hardly thought it was going to be anything like this. You thought maybe just an illness that might require a tonic or medication of some kind, but this was more of a permanent affliction. Maybe affliction was the wrong word.

But suddenly the air smelled fresher, the sun shone a little brighter, and everything seemed right.

You decided it might be nice to walk home instead of being stuck in a carriage, an unusual smile on your face up until the point where you realized something.

How in the world were you supposed to tell Laszlo?

He was out of town for work, you hadn’t told him about your symptoms, you knew it would worry him and now you were in a bit of a bind. You were so caught up in your thoughts of how to inform your husband (surely you would want to do it in person) that you didn’t notice the lady walking directly towards you, her head bent down in concentration, reading a newspaper.

You both bumped into each other, spewing out apologies immediately before you realized that you knew each other.

It was Sara Howard.

“Sara!” you grinned, placing a hand against your chest. “Goodness you gave me quite a fright, are you okay?”

“Oh I’m fine,” she nodded, quickly folding her paper up and giving you her attention.

“It seems we are both a bit lost in our minds,”

“Yes, I fear more so for me, I seem to be going in the wrong direction,” she frowned with a playful chuckle. “May I accompany you?”

“Yes of course,” you nodded, extending an arm to her so she could link it with her own and you could walk down the street together. “What brings you to this end of town?”

“Just work,” she nodded. “I’m looking for some office space currently,”

“For the detective agency?”

Sara nodded with a smile.

“Oh! There’s a nice cozy little place on Broadway that might work perfectly,”

“I’ll have to take a look at it,” Sara hummed. “Now what has got you in such a chipper mood? Normally when Laszlo’s out of town you barely leave the house,” she remarked.

“It’s nothing,” you shook your head, but unable to keep the smile from your face.

“(Y/N) you are such a terrible liar,”

“Well if I’m such a terrible liar what am I hiding?” you asked, raising your brows.

“I’ll give you the recipe for my grandmother's pound cake if you tell me,” she coaxed.

“Oh really?” you asked, your stomach already growling at the thought of the sweet treat. Sara gave you another nod and you bit your lip and stomped your foot down on the ground. You wouldn’t be able to tell Laszlo until he got back and it was such a heavy thing to keep to yourself, perhaps it was best to share it with your close friend and confidant. She would already come to know it at some point.

“Alright, but you mustn't tell Laszlo until I’ve had the chance to speak with him myself,” you insisted and Sara nodded adamantly. “I was at the doctor's office and they told me… well they told me that I’m with child,”

Sara’s eyes were blown as wide as you had ever seen them, clearly not expecting such an answer.

“(Y/N) this is wonderful news,” Sara stopped walking to pull you into a hug. “I’m incredibly happy for you and Laszlo,”

“As am I,” you nodded, holding your friend a little tighter. “I must admit we’ve spoken about starting a family recently, but nothing quite so serious, but I suppose the decision has been made for us hasn’t it,”

“Yes, it does seem that way. Let me walk you home then, it only seems appropriate to have someone watch over you at such a time,”

“Oh Sara I would be fine, but I won’t deny you my company,” you smirked and she rolled her eyes lightly.

“Is there someone around that you can call on if need be?”

“Stevie is at home and if it turns out I need more than his assistance I won’t hesitate to call you or John,” you assured her, “You have my word,”

“Good,” she smiled somewhat victoriously and let go of your arm so you could turn to walk up the steps to your home. “(Y/N) be sure to tell me as soon as you’ve mentioned it to Laszlo,”

“Of course, I wouldn’t want to keep either of you waiting too long,” you chuckled. “It was nice seeing you Sara and don’t hesitate to stop over for a visit, we do not do it often enough,”

“I’ll be sure to keep the offer in my mind,”

You bid your friend goodbye and walked up the steps to your home, entering quietly despite the fact that no one was there and pressed your back against the door, a sigh of relief escaping your lips. You wished Laszlo would hurry back home, you did, after all, have big news to share with him.

—

A few weeks had passed since your encounter with Sara, Laszlo had made it back safely home a week ago, but it seemed, as with most things, it had slipped your mind to tell him about your...delicate situation.

You sat together in the dining room, sharing a dinner of beef stew when suddenly a wave of nausea overcame you.

Laszlo didn’t notice it at first, talking about a piece of literature he had read, but when his eyes flicked up he saw your head in one hand and the over placed on your chest as if to suppress a not so delightful feeling.

“(Y/N), is something the matter?” he asked, quickly wiping his hands and stepping away from his chair to come closer to your side.

His hand pushed some hair away from your forehead and prompted you to look at him.

“It’s just another bout of nausea, it should pass soon,” you said, taking in a shaky breath.

“My beloved, this is happening far too often don’t you think?” he asked. “We must find a way for you to see a doctor soon,”

“Laszlo I’m fine it’s just the baby,” you waved off your husband and his face seemed to go ghostly pale.

“B-Baby?” he repeated, standing up and you finally realized the problem with what you said. You cursed under your breath and looked up at him with an apologetic smile, standing up to be at eye level with him.

You held back a small chuckle as you tried to explain yourself to him, “I-I was meaning to tell you, but it must have slipped my mind,” you said. “You were gone for so long and I wished to tell you in person, but after the appointment, I ran into Sara and she’s been helping me with things I practically forgot I didn’t tell you,”

At this point Laszlo surprised you, you thought he might be upset, but his face bore the same light-heartedness as your own, a playful frustration.

“Sara? You told Sara before me?” he said, unable to fight back the smile that came upon his features.

“In my defence, I forgot I didn’t tell you,” you retorted playfully.

“Forgot you didn’t- it was my own child good God (Y/N)!” he laughed and oh what a wonderful sound it was. It wasn’t often you heard such a thing, but the amount of pure joy that radiated through his voice was enough to lift one off their feet.

“I’m really sorry Laszlo truly,” you giggled, your bottom lip between your teeth.

“Were you ever going to tell me or was I just supposed to live in ignorant bliss the rest of my life?” he jested and you slapped his arm lightly.

“Just shut up and kiss me already,”

That was something you didn’t need to ask Laszlo twice to do, his lips were firmly on yours, his right hand pressed against your stomach while his left held the back of your neck.

“A child, my beloved, I-I’m at a loss for words,” he whispered into your lips.

“For once,” you rolled your eyes and he kissed you harder to silence you, a slight squeal escaping past your lips.

He paused, his forehead pressed against yours looking deep into your eyes before something dawned on him.

“Your corset, it’s constricting your airways, increasing your nausea,” he looked worried now. “We’re at home you should take it off,”

“I assume you’re finished with dinner then,” you chuckled lightly.

“My mind is spinning, of course, I no longer have an appetite,” he took your hands in his. “Come let us rest,”

Nodding your head you followed him up to your room, discarded dishes on the table paired with unfinished food.

When you entered the room he drew the blinds shut and closed the door, coming back to your side to help you.

You had already removed your blouse and he placed his right hand holding your waist while his left undid the knot of your corset, carefully pulling back the string until it could be easily slipped off.

He gave you a shirt, far more comfortable to wear and for once it felt like you could breathe, your brain was able to focus and the headache slowly faded.

Laszlo was in front of you, his hands ghosting your stomach. You gave him a gentle look, your hand pressed against his cheek, your thumb stroking his beard.

“M-May I?” he asked his hands now at the hem of your shirt.

You nodded and he bent down carefully, lifting your shirt up to the top of your stomach and allowing you to hold it up for him yourself.

You were just barely showing. A small bump.

Laszlo held your waist once more, his grip slightly tighter while he leaned into your stomach, pressing a delicate kiss, right below your belly button. You almost shivered at the close contact, his beard soft against your bare skin.

When his lips pulled away they were replaced by his forehead against you and he whispered a quiet, almost inaudible,

“I love you,”

And it was only then that you really got a sense of how much he craved a family, children, to be a father. You knew from the moment he found out he was ready to give everything up for your child, no matter what the cost.

—

Laszlo was pacing wildly outside of your bedroom in the hallway, flinching each time you cried out in pain, begging for the nurses and midwives to let him in, but they refused. It was no place for a man to be.

His finger started tapping mindlessly on his side while his other hand stroked his beard and ran his hands through his hair, multiple times.

It had been… he didn’t even know how much time had passed, but it felt like an eternity. He just wanted to be in there. Sitting next to you, holding your hand. He wanted to comfort you because that was his job as your husband. Not mindlessly pacing like some useless decoration in the workings of this delicate process.

Laszlo was so engrossed in his thoughts that he almost missed the small cries coming from the room. His ears perked up and his eyes widened as he pushed past the door, rushing into the room, not giving the nurses and midwives even a second to let him get out because he was kneeling at your side, entwining his left hand tightly with your own.

“Are you feeling alright my beloved?” he asked, eager to hear from you.

“Exhausted, but well,” you breathed out, “H-How is she?” you asked.

“It’s a girl?” he responded, his face beaming with pride and you nodded.

“Happy and healthy Dr. and Mrs. Kreizler,” the head midwife assured, bringing the newly wrapped child to your arms. Laszlo let go of your hand so you could better adjust yourself to hold the baby.

“Oh she’s beautiful,” you cooed, using your fingers to delicately move the blanket coming into her face.

“Do you have a name for her ma’am? Sir?” one of the nurses asked the two of you and Laszlo smiled.

“I believe we do,” he nodded and you agreed. “Ilka, our little torch of light,”

“A beautiful name fit for a beautiful girl,” she smiled. “We’ll let you two have a moment alone, but we’ll be back soon to check up on you ma’am,”

“Of course, thank you,” you nodded and the room was cleared, leaving you, your husband, and your daughter. After a few moments of silence, you looked up at Laszlo, staring so intently at the small girl. “Would you like to hold her?” you asked.

He seemed to hesitate a moment and you quickly quelled his worries with a gentle hand to his cheek.

“Your daughter Laszlo,”

He swallowed thickly and nodded, standing up first and coming to the other side of the bed to sit next to you. Carefully he scooped Ilka out of your arms, holding her close to his chest, her small eyes just barely blinked open as her mouth moved around in odd kissing motions.

Laszlo’s lips flicked up into a smile, letting out a small chuckle, accompanied with teary eyes.

“Hello there meine Schatz,”

You smiled at your husband, letting out a yawn and resting your head against his shoulder, more energy leaving your body with every second, it was nice to just shut your eyes, hear him whisper sweet words to the both of you. The two most important people in his life. The two people he would love unconditionally.

—

“Laszlo what did we say about having her around these things,” you whispered somewhat harshly, pointing to the photos of previous crime scenes.

Laszlo’s eyes went wide and he quickly flipped over the images on the side of the table where Ilka was looking. She was sitting in his lap while he looked over some additional paperwork for the institute.

“Apologies,” he chuckled nervously. “I must have forgotten I had them laying there,”

You nodded and took a seat across from your husband’s desk, watching as your daughter fisted his coat in her small palm, trying to reach for his pocket watch with her other hand to put it in her mouth. She sat in the center of Laszlo’s chest with his arms used as barriers so he could continue to read while she played around with whatever she found herself inclined to.

Laszlo was insistent to get as much time with her as possible. He had read many articles that said the beginning years of a child’s life and the way they presented their attachment were highly important to the ways they would perform in relationships in the future.

Sometimes you would just sit, watch how they interacted. His quiet mumbling about whatever he was reading followed by Ilka’s babbles.

Every once in a while when his mind needed a break he would pause and turn to her, trying to teach her new words or even just playing silly games like peek-a-boo.

Now Ilka’s eyes were on you though, expecting some sort of interaction from her mother.

“Hi my love,” you waved at her, a sweet smile adorning your lips. “Are you having fun with your papa?”

The girl, having understood you nodded her head and giggled before gurgling a bit of drool and having it all on Laszlo’s lap, he didn’t mind.

She reached out a hand to you and you extended yours across the table allowing her to hold two of your fingers in her tiny hand. She attempted to place them in her mouth and for now, you let her because it wouldn't be long before she had teeth and well you would make for a pretty bad chew toy at that point.

Laszlo bent his head down pressing a gentle kiss to Ilka’s head, letting himself rest there, his glasses perched upon his nose, still flipping through his papers.

Ilka wasn’t a fussy baby, she loved just sitting with her parents, especially her father. She was her dad’s girl, that was for sure and you doubted that would change as she got older. You didn’t mind too much, there was always the next child that might cling onto you, perhaps a boy. But for now, it was the three of you, the Kreizlers. A family by all definitions of the sort and not something you and Laszlo ever thought you might have had the honour of having.

—

“This is about Martha Napp isn’t it,” you whispered finally, causing Laszlo to turn around and face you, not having realized you were there before. “Today was her execution day, I saw it in the papers,”

Laszlo swallowed thickly and only nodded.

“A daughter holds her father’s heart,” he looked over at the resting baby again.

“Of course she does,” you nodded, not entirely sure what he was getting at.

“What happened to her child could have been Ilka,” he whispered, “What happened to her-,”

“No don’t say that,” you shook your head, walking over to him quickly and wrapping your arms around him tightly. “Don’t say that Laszlo,”

“But I’ve failed all of you,” he whispered shakily, clinging onto your frame.

“No you haven’t Laszlo,” you assured him, pressing a gentle kiss to the side of his head while he continued to shake in your arms.

“It was so terrible (Y/N),” he sounded so distressed, you had never heard that kind of emotion in his voice before, that desperation. “The way she shook and spasmed when they shocked her, w-when her screaming stopped, but they kept going,” he gulped. “I can’t get the smell out of my nose, I can’t!”

You hushed him quietly and pulled him away from you slightly to press a kiss to his forehead before leaning down to his trembling lips.

“That’s a terrible thing to have to witness,” you acknowledged. “It’s not fair to you, to Martha, she deserves justice and there’s no one better to help serve it than you, do you understand me, Laszlo. You are in no way responsible for what happened to her. Look at me Laszlo,” you insisted and his eyes flicked up to yours. “You’re not responsible. And you know what else, you have me here, Ilka, we’re safe and we’ll do whatever you think is necessary to stay that way,”

Laszlo nodded and bent down to press a grateful kiss to your lips.

There was a small shuffle in the bassinet followed by a quiet cry and you both turned around to see Ilka waking up. Laszlo carefully walked over and scooped her up in his arms, hushing her gently, pressing his lips to her forehead.

“Come on,” you placed a hand on his back, leading him out of the room. “She can sleep with us tonight,”

Laszlo silently agreed and followed you out of the nursery, the three of you pressed closely together and closing the door behind you.