#LISTEN I LOVE THE LILIA AND SILVER DYNAMIC WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL

[llondonfog]

(breathes in the silver lore—)

ok i knew i wasn't going to be normal about this and i was right.

so we know that silver grew up very isolated, a fully conscious decision by lilia, away in the mountains outside of the castle where malleus and his grandmother live and the surrounding town. half of me wonders is this because of lilia wanting to get away from townspeople and live more quietly to himself after the war, or is this for silver's benefit? we know tensions still exist between fae/humans because while things are better, sebek wouldn't be getting away with saying such awful things so freely if it wasn't to some degree accepted back home. so is silver being raised away from potentially judgmental townsfolk? just things to wonder.

and then we get to silver telling us that lilia loves to travel and would spend an extended amount of time away from the cabin, which silver would be responsible for. HOW OLD??? HOW OLD WAS HE LILIA?? HOW OLD WAS ACCEPTABLE FOR YOU TO LEAVE A CHILD THAT FALLS ASLEEP INDISCRIMINATELY TO TRAIN, COOK, CLEAN, TEND TO YOUR FIELDS???? (i'm not even about to touch the fighting bears comment i'm still processing that!!!) you're lucky the cabin DIDN'T BURN DOWN!! WHY COULDN'T YOU TAKE HIM???

and that's!! that's what gets me! why couldn't he take silver!! what would have possibly prevented him from showing his son the world when it's something in comparison that malleus, his other ward, never had the chance to do thanks to his royal status? lilia is so proud of his experience with other cultures and being a worldly individual, WHY DIDN'T HE TAKE SILVER? (was it because he stole silver/knew silver was a prince and couldn't risk discovery hmm who knows)

like silver has such a happy face talking about his father and his travels, he's so PROUD of lilia and it absolutely breaks my heart. between being trained like a little child soldier and then being left alone, his standards of what equals love and affection are so low and then he's so damn devoted!! to lilia, he'd do anything for his precious father i just, i'm going to go cry now just leave me here to wallow in my tears