#Kinjou shingo x reader fluff

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Can’t it be You? - Chapter 6

Summary: Kinjou and Reader get another chance to talk while a couple surprise friends show up.

Kinjou x Fem!Reader

Warnings: None

Word Count: ~ 4,000

“What are you doing here?” Y/N asked Kinjou. Shinkai stood up and moved to her.

“Just take a deep breath and hear him out, “Shinkai spoke quietly to her then spoke to Kinjou, “I’m going to head home to change, I’ll see you guys later tonight.”

Y/N watched as Shinkai left, then brought her attention back to Kinjou sitting on her couch. She was about to speak, but he started before she could.

“I’m sorry.” He sighed. “I should haven’t said those things to you.”

She moved closer and sat on the opposite side of the couch. Y/N noticed they were in the same spots they were last night, but this was a very different conversation.

“I should have been more sensitive towards you.” He scooted a little closer to her and her breath caught. “You did something for me that I can honestly never repay you for. No matter how many shirts I give you.”

He laughed lightly at his own joke, but she didn’t smile. Instead she watched him struggle to find the right words.

“I guess I didn’t think that you would have feelings involved at all. It’s kind of stupid now that I think of it.”

Her eyes widened. Her heart felt like it was in her throat. Feelings? Does he know about her feelings?

“Did Shinkai say something to you?” she asked quickly.

“No, no.” He readjusted himself in his seat and put his hands in his lap. “I just meant from what you told me earlier… about having a relationship. I didn’t consider the difference in feelings a romantic relationship has over a platonic friendship. I’m sorry.”

He kept looking to her, hoping she would say something else, say anything at all to him. He hated that she felt bad, especially if she felt bad because of something he said or did.

“I… I don’t have much experience in romantic relationships and I should have been better prepared. That was my fault.”

He rubbed his hands over his thighs and it caught Y/N’s attention. He was wearing his jeans, but she knew what was under them and she started feeling hot as he continued rubbing. She quickly looked up at his face. He was looking at the coffee table, lost in his head.

“Y/N please talk to me,” he spoke softly, but she could still hear the pleading in his voice. “I’ll do anything. We can forget it happened if you want. I will never mention it again. But please, I can’t lose you.”

The last part came out in a whisper, barely loud enough for her to hear. She realized that he also wasn’t sure about how he was feeling and it made her heart sink. The idea that he had been feeling the same way she has these last two days hurt her. Regardless if they had romantic feelings for each other or not, they were friends, friends that barely let a day go by without speaking. She looked over at him and smiled. He was still looking at the coffee table, his hands folded in his lap. He looked worried.

Her need to make sure the people she cared about were okay took over and she slid over to where he was sitting and wrapped her arm around his waist, resting her head on his shoulder.

“It’s not your fault,” she said, “and I’m not mad at you.” She could feel the weight on his shoulder lifted as she spoke, his arm moving to her waist. He pulled her closer, holding her waist tightly and resting his head on hers.

“You don’t even know how happy that makes me.” He pulled away to look at her. “My head was all over the place these last two days. I thought I messed up somewhere or maybe took it too far, but you didn’t want to hurt me by saying it… I was really freaking out.”

He sighed and smiled at her. The relief on his face was so plain she felt guilty for prioritizing herself over him. He had just had sex, for the first time. Of course he would act weird afterwards, but she should have known better. He had been blaming himself this whole time and apologizing to her when she was the one who should have apologized.

“Kinjou?”

“Yeah?”

“Do you want to talk about it later? Us having sex, I mean… I know you understand how it worked.” She laughed, sitting up and facing him. She started playing with her fingers as she tried to find the words. “I just mean how you feel about it… I guess.”

She looked up at him, but he was only staring at her, not speaking. She thought maybe she wasn’t making sense and got uncomfortable.

“I just mean—I don’t mean that you need to… like, reflect on it or—I just mean I never had anyone to talk to when I first… maybe you’re feeling something emotionally that you want to talk about.” Great, now he is going to think you really do have feelings for him. “I mean, not like feelings-feelings, but if you—God, why is this so hard to say.”

“I know what you’re trying to say.” She looked up and he was smiling at her. “I would actually really like to talk about it with you.”

The relief she felt from hearing him say that made her smile. There was a small flutter in her stomach as Kinjou smiled at her, but she ignored it. Shinkai was definitely right. They really did just need to talk about it and she would feel better. She was already feeling better.

“What was Shinkai talking about?” she asked, “he said he was going to change first?”

“I invited you guys out tonight. Sorry, you were in the shower,” he said checking his phone, “We should probably get going soon. Some of the guys we knew from high school are in town and we’re all going out.”

“That sounds fun!” She stood up. “So I get to meet some of your old friends. I wish I knew and could have put on make-up or something.”

“You look beautiful,” he said matter-of-factly and she felt her face flush.

“I—I mean, I should still probably change,” she stuttered, sliding her hair behind her ears and walking to her bedroom.

She had no idea what to wear. If it was just her with a bunch of cyclists, it really didn’t matter what she wore, not to mention that this night was for them to catch up, she was just going to be a third wheel… or was it fifth wheel.

“How many people are going tonight?” she called to Kinjou.

“You, me, Shinkai, Arakita, and our two high school friends. Not much, I guess six. You really don’t have to put a lot of effort into how you look,” he reassured her, “I think we’re just going bowling and maybe karaoke or drinking. Just be comfortable.”

She put on her jeans and found one of her nicer blouses. It would work well enough. She really never had the chance to dress up and go out. It was kind of nice having a reason to do it now.

“Let’s go.” She stepped out of her room, moving the necessities from her main purse to her smaller one. Kinjou looked up from his phone.

“You look gr—oh wait.” He stood up and quickly moved to her, fixing her collar to hide the hickeys he gave her a couple nights ago. His fingers lingered over the marks until he moved them to her waist and she watched his eyes trace over her collar bones and neck.

“Maybe I should change.”

“No, no, you look great.” He put his hands in his pockets and looked up at her. “Should we go?”

They went to get food first. By the time Kinjou and Y/N made it there, Shinkai and Arakita were already sitting with the two friends from high school. Shinkai stood up and waved them over. He introduced them as Izumida and Imaizumi.

Shinkai was in the inside seat and sat next to Arakita and on the end was Imaizumi. Across from Imaizumi was Kinjou, Y/N, and Izumida sat on the inside across from Shinkai. Y/N spent most of her time going back and forth between both conversations. Arakita took some breaks to talk to her and then would join back in, yelling at something Shinkai or Izumida was saying.

She leaned into Kinjou’s conversation with Imaizumi and they joked about another person she didn’t know. Giving up joining, she reached in front of her for the plate of fries and started snacking as she listened in. When the conversation reached a point where she actually couldn’t follow anymore, she pulled out her phone. Before she could even unlock it, she felt Kinjou’s hand rest on her knee and rub circles. Her eyes went wide, her heart immediately racing. She looked over to him, but he was still talking and she wasn’t sure if he even realized what he did.

She tried to focus on the conversation to see if he was actively participating or if he was focused more on her leg, but she couldn’t think straight. Kinjou’s hand slid slowly up her leg, his fingers wedged in between the plushness of her thighs as his thumb rested on the outside.

She swallowed hard, trying not to think about how close he was to her core and how badly she had been wanting him there. He moved his hand to the other side of her further leg, pulling her closer to him. She didn’t know how any of them hadn’t noticed yet, her face was burning and she knew it had to be clearly visible.

She tried her best to ignore it, conversing with Arakita and Shinkai and trying to follow their conversation. Kinjou continued moving his hand, rubbing her legs in different ways that each time it felt like a whole new touch. Every time she looked over, expecting him to wink at her or do something to show he knew what he was doing, he didn’t. He just casually continued his conversation with Imaizumi as if he wasn’t turning her on under the table at the same time.

“Should we get going?” Shinkai started to stand up.

“Great plan.” Y/N jumped up and everyone jumped back. “Sorry, I really need a drink.”

“I don’t think the bowling alley will have alcohol.” Shinkai told her. “Do you want me to stop somewhere and get you something?”

“Oh really? I thought they might have a bar. Maybe I’ll just run to the convenience store downstairs.” She stepped out of the booth after Kinjou. “I’ll go with you.” Kinjou adjusted the collar of her shirt again and that definitely didn’t go unnoticed. She knew she should have just changed.

“Me too.” Arakita was standing up and pushing Imaizumi out of the booth. “Move faster!”

“We might as well all go.” Shinkai pointed out.

They paid for dinner and went to the elevator. It wasn’t very big and by the time nearly everyone tried to get on, Shinkai pulled Kinjou back next to him.

“We’ll wait for the next one.” Kinjou looked over to him with a questioning look.

The doors closed and they both watched as the elevator went from the fifth level to the fourth level before they spoke.

“You’re getting rather handsy,” Shinkai started, “Does that mean you spoke to her after I left her apartment?”

“Not yet.”

“Maybe you should calm down with how much you’re touching her.” Shinkai called the elevator back up.

“Why?” Kinjou turned to him, his eyebrows drawn together with worry. “Was she uncomfortable? She didn’t say anything.”

Kinjou looked down, his eyes searching as he thought back over the last thirty minutes. She didn’t seem uncomfortable, but then again, he didn’t really look over at her. She did jump up the second leaving was mentioned. Damn it, I made her uncomfortable.

“Should I apologize?” Kinjou stepped in the elevator after Shinkai.

“Honestly, I think you’re fine. If anything, you just confused her.”

“I didn’t want to confuse her,” Kinjou worried, “I was trying to flirt with her.”

“That’s your flirting?” Shinkai laughed as the elevator doors closed.

“What should I do?” He was rubbing his forehead.

“Look, I’m not going to tell you exactly what to do. She obviously sees something in you so you’re doing something right.

“I just want her to feel good. Should I compliment her? I already told her she looked beautiful.”

“You—” Shinkai stopped himself and laughed lightly. “You told her she looked beautiful? Not going for subtle, I see. I think you need to wait on any of that until you talk to her tonight.”

“Okay,” Kinjou nodded, “no complimenting yet.”

“If you want to turn her on though, just keep doing what you were doing.” Shinkai spoke quickly as they reached the first floor. “The fact that you’re not acknowledging her when you do it is good too, but don’t push it too far—Hey guys! What are we drinking?”

Shinkai walked out of the elevator and Kinjou followed. The others waited for them and they all walked into the convenience store.

Y/N had started a conversation with Imaizumi about how his first year of university was going. He wasn’t much of a talker, but he answered her questions and seemed interested in her talking about cycling.

The convenience store had a pretty large selection of alcohol and they each bought a drink and sat at the table outside. Kinjou couldn’t bring himself to sit next to Y/N at the table so instead he sat next to Arakita who sat next to her.

“Where’s the bowling alley anyway?” Arakita asked. “I don’t want to walk too much.”

“It’s not too far,” Kinjou responded, “just a couple blocks.”

“We should probably get going, it’s going to get busy.” Shinkai quickly finished his drink and stood up along with the others.

Y/N chugged her drink quickly, dribbling some of the liquid out of her lips and down her chin. Kinjou smiled at her, pulling a napkin from his pocket and wiping her chin.

“Thanks.”

“You’re so cute—” Kinjou immediately remembered not to compliment her and did his best to catch himself, “—clumsy. You’re clumsy… and messy.”

“Kinjou.” She looked at him, perplexed and slightly insulted.

“I’m sorry.” He looked down, confused, before he turned around and they followed the rest of the group walking to the bowling alley.

Shinkai was right, it was starting to get really packed. They took their names down and waited in the lobby for a free lane.

“Arakita!” A high-pitched voice called from around the counter. They all turned to look and Roxxy was making her way to the group.

Arakita groaned once her saw her, but once she approached the group, she turned directly to Kinjou and smiled, putting a hair behind her ear.

“Hi, Kinjou.” Her cheeks flushed a light pink.

Y/N could feel herself getting angry, her stomach starting to bubble. She felt someone grab her hand and assumed it was Shinkai since he must’ve known how she was feeling in that moment. She looked down and it wasn’t Shinkai’s hand, it was Kinjou. He quickly let go.

“Who are your two friends?” She turned to Imaizumi and Izumida.

“Some friends from high school.” Shinkai put his arms around Kinjou and Y/N as he answered her. “They’re visiting and we wanted to show them around.”

“Fun! It’s really busy tonight.” She looked around as if somehow, they hadn’t noticed the people. “I was supposed to meet some friends, but they canceled on me. If you guys want, you can join me with my reservation.”

Both Shinkai and Kinjou looked at Y/N. Arakita waved his hands ‘no’ behind Roxxy.

“I—I guess that’s—yeah, we can join.” This night just got bad.

“Great!” Roxxy bounced, clapping her hands. “I’ll go tell them. I’m on lane 16.”

They weaved their way through the crowd of people waiting in the lobby and got their shoes and ball, meeting at lane 16.

They were a couple frames in and Roxxy was up to bowl. She grabbed a ball that was too heavy for her and dropped it. Y/N rolled her eyes. She pretended to try and pick it up, but struggled.

“Kinjou, can you help me? I grabbed the wrong ball.” She smiled, looking back at Kinjou. He stood up and picked up the ball, putting it back in the ball corral. He looked directly at Y/N, trying to see what she was thinking and all he could see was her anger.

“This is going to be a long fucking game.” Y/N stood up. “I’m going to the bar. Imaizumi, come with me.” She grabbed his arm and pulled him behind her.

They got to the bar and she rested her head in her hands.

“You look upset.” He noticed.

“So you do know how to speak,” she joked. “Sorry, that was mean.”

“It’s fine.” He laughed. “I don’t really like talking.”

“Spectacular trait for a man.” She smiled and took a shot. “You must be great with the ladies.”

She handed him a shot and he shook his head.

“Come on, I think we both need to loosen up.” She handed it to him again and he took it and they both gulped the drinks down.

“So what’s with you and Kinjou?” He asked, taking a second shot from her.

“You mean Shinkai?” They clinked their glasses and drank.

“I mean Kinjou.” He raised his eyebrow and smiled.

“There’s nothing with us.” She thought about it. “I mean, I don’t think there is.”

“Well he spends a lot of time looking at you.”

“That’s just because we had s—I should let him tell you that story. Do you need another shot?” He shook his head. “Let’s go, it’s probably my time to bowl.”

Y/N sat down next to Shinkai and he leaned into her.

“We’re going to bounce after this, we’ve all had enough of her.” He whispered in her ear and she has never been happier.

…..

They all couldn’t wait to get outside and be done with bowling. Even Izumida was annoyed with the amount of times Roxxy ‘picked up the wrong ball’. The night was still young and they decided to hit a bar quickly on the way home. Most of them slowed down their drinking, knowing they had a race tomorrow and Y/N had already had a couple drinks and three shots so she got one drink to sip slowly on while they were there.

Seeing the guys with their high school friends really was fun. It was harder earlier on since she didn’t know what to say and they hadn’t had anything to drink at all, but having the experience of hating bowling to connect them, Y/N was able to join in more conversations with them. She even got Imaizumi to open up a bit more and dance with her.

At the end of the night, they were all saying bye. Y/N felt pretty sad because after a couple drinks, she really started enjoying talking with Imaizumi. They exchanged numbers and Imaizumi and Izumida both headed to the train station. Arakita was half asleep on the stool at the bar and Shinkai said he would get him home since they lived close to each other.

“Just us.” Kinjou smiled at Y/N. They were about a fifteen-minute walk to her apartment and having time to clear their head before getting to her place worked out nicely.

Y/N tossed her keys on the entry table and went to the kitchen for water.

“Do you want something to drink?” She asked Kinjou.

“I’m okay, thanks.” He walked to the couch. “Actually, can I have some wine or something.”

“Wine sounds so good right now.” She poured them both a glass and went to sit next to him on the couch. “Did you enjoy getting to see your old teammate?”

“I did. It seemed like you two got along too.”

“After he started talking, he wasn’t so bad.” She smiled. “Can I just say, I think it was a bad choice on my part to agree to play with Roxxy.”

“Such a bad choice. I kind of hate that I sort of brought her into our lives.”

“It wasn’t just you,” she said, “she has this thing for Arakita too. And she might even have one for Izumida now.”

“Well you handled the situation well. I only heard you say ‘fucking bitch’ twice.”

“You did not!” She swung the throw pillow at him.

They were both laughing and quickly realized they finished their glass of wine. Kinjou got up to get them some more.

He walked to the kitchen, opening up her refrigerator and pulling out the bottle. As he was pouring each of their glasses, he noticed all the photos on the refrigerator door. She had photos from when they all first became friends, different selfies from parties, some photos of Shinkai and Kinjou that she took for a photography class she had, even photos of Kinjou’s birthday party last year.

They had so many memories together. Telling her how he really felt was a risk, but she deserved to know. He needed to tell her. He left the wine glasses in the kitchen and moved to the couch to talk to her.

“Y/N…” He looked down at her and saw that she had curled up on the couch and fallen asleep. He smiled at how calm she looked, so peaceful and unbothered.

He took the throw blanket from behind him and unfolded it, laying it over her. He knew she hated sleeping with socks on so he pulled hers off and set them on the floor next to her.

“Y/N.” His voice was low. “Can you hear me?”

He watched and waited for her to move, but she didn’t. She stayed in the same position, her chest rising and falling evenly as she breathed.

“I have something I want to… something I need to tell you… Something I probably should have told you a long time ago.” He took a deep breath. “Y/N… I’ve had feelings for you since the moment I first met you.”

He waited again, watching to see if she moved or showed any sign of being awake. Nothing.

“When I first saw you at training practice three years ago, I was hooked. I didn’t think you would be interested in me then. I was eighteen and so nerdy and you were this enchanting goddess, so smart and pretty and talented. So, I waited, just taking my time getting to know you.”

He leaned back on the couch, remembering.

“When I thought that maybe you might say yes to getting coffee, it was already second semester and you were my TA. I didn’t want to put you in a weird place so I waited again. I had already waited three months so another three didn’t seem so bad. But then you and Shinkai started dating. I was a little hurt at first, but every time I saw you, you were smiling and it made me so happy to see you like that.”

He sighed.

“Then when you guys broke up, I wanted to give you time to yourself before I asked you out. It was really confusing because even though you broke up, you were always around each other and that’s when I figured out your arrangement and I felt weird asking you. Things like this kept happening until I just sort of stopped waiting and we became close friends. We hung out every day and I was really happy with that. Then at that party, when we danced and later when I kissed you… everything came back to me. All of it, all at once. I told myself for so long that it wasn’t going to happen, but it’s like I was able to believe again that maybe it would.”

He sat up on the couch and looked back at her.

“I’m in love with you, Y/N.” He smiled, being able to say it to her, even if she was sleeping. “So in love with you.”