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geek-gem · 5 years ago

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Let's talk about Hilda's dad

As you've seen from my latest posts. I've made stuff concerning Hilda's dad and I've mentioned him before. But now I'm speaking more about him. Especially after finding out he does exist in canon.

Many minutes ago or so I got a message from someone by the name of @smol-maru55 who I was nervous to speak to because I worried I might of bothered people with my posts. But Smol was very polite and actually offered me information that literally Luke Pearson himself answered in a review. I thank Smol for sharing me this because this changes quite some stuff.

Especially what's amazing this was before the show aired on Netflix. Including I think this is where the wiki on the show got this information. Luke talks about other stuff but he talk about Hilda's dad. If you guys don't mind I'm gonna share what he said. But I'm gonna keep the link to the interview to show where it came from. Especially he said other other interesting things too.

Luke Pearson: "There are too many stories about absent/crappy fathers turning a new leaf and showing everyone that they were always a good guy really. It's not something I'm interested in getting into. Hilda's dad's never been there for her, and his absence doesn't define her or her mum in any way, so I don't see him as an important character. I may touch on what his deal is eventually, but he's not going to get to swoop in and take up a lot of panel space."

That's what the main man himself said. Including like I said it changes my mind on some things. But I understand where he's coming from.

Related to the topic and I have spoke of this before. I do have head canon on Hilda's dad and it was around the early days of when I was in the fandom and they still are relevant.

Basically I had this idea for why Hilda's dad wasn't around was because of some reasons. Yet it's honestly like I joked about what the fandom would think would be quite depressing. Even for a show like Hilda. While it has it's serious moments. This would of been a bit much.

The idea I had for Hilda's dad is at first he did love his family, he loved Johanna, and he loves Hilda. But over time as Hilda grew up and became more adventurous, something changed.

Hilda's dad never liked the supernatural and how it was so normalized it was. Especially his daughter was embracing it and her attitude actually annoyed him. You have things like Twig living with them, Woodman visiting without permission. Including other things out there.

So I decided I guess at a point and reading a Johanna X Reader story(Yeah I'm saying that I'm not saying where) featured Hilda's dad and he left the family when Hilda was 5.

Basically he left her at a young age, told Johanna he just couldn't handle the stuff that was going on. He wanted a normal life. The guy left to go somewhere else most likely join the military. Which was something I wonder if I should make a thing but it's official I put him as a SAS which is kind of ridiculous.

He literally left because he didn't wanna deal with Hilda's adventurous attitude and other things. Which kind of says something....if the guy can handle one of the most harsh training for one of the toughest special forces in history, and he passes with flying colors....

But he can't handle Woodman and he almost tries to kill him with an axe. Which I joked about with @simonxriley that Hilda's dad wanted to kill Woodman at one point but Johanna got to stop him(because she even knows that's wrong and Hilda wouldn't want that). Especially it didn't phase Woodman and that freaked Hilda's dad out. Also Hilda found out later when Johanna told her.

The story for him I had was he would go to Trolberg after Woodman told him what happened. He visits them and it be this arc of how he wants to do better and be with his family again because he realized he was selfish. But it doesn't go that Luke talks about. This is part of the depressing part.

So the idea of the story of Hilda's dad trying to get together with his family is showcasing after years without them. He tried change but he can't. Because he thought everything would of been normal now in a city but Hilda didn't change and it's some what worse in Trolberg when he finds out the adventures Hilda has been in.

Especially Hilda's dad revealing to Hilda he actually left because of her. Because he didn't want a daughter who embraced the supernatural and all that around her. He has this prejudice against that stuff because it bothers him.

With the lesson being sometimes dad's aren't always as they seem. Even after they left they sometimes won't change and you have to move on from them. Because if they can't change why should you have them back in your life if they won't change for the better.

Basically with Hilda doubting herself that her own father abandoned her because of her personalities. But because of her friends and Johanna she learns it's okay and it's her dad's fault.

Hilda's dad was supposed to be an antagonist in a way. But not a villain despite he's a SAS ex one or not that's scary. He's a guy who can't mature and change, and just appreciate his daughter of who she is.

I wanna make this clear not every dad is shitty, their have been bad ones. But not every dad is bad I want to be clear on that. It was the concept of Hilda and Johanna moving on from him because he couldn't mature and be at peace with everyone. Especially how his daughter grew up.

Thinking in the end he just leaves, tells them goodbye and realizes this never worked. But seriously that sounds depressing like maybe that he does love them but he can't handle it, yet he can handle being an SAS.

Honestly thinking on this I definitely see why Luke didn't wanna do something like this. Even with my intentions being a different outcome. It's just a bit much unless the show takes on more serious subjects if Luke wants to or not.

In fact I even predict and think I could of made something like a reaction to Hilda's dad is that everyone if you love Johanna, if you ship Johanna X The Librarian, or if you love the show a whole lot and every character. The whole fandom just bands together to hate Hilda's dad because why the hell would you abandonded her own daughter because she loves flying on Woff's and she loves wilderness and everything it has to offer? Hilda is literally the best thing ever and a child that's a blessing.

I do think or yeah I remember. Their was an idea I had for an extra character. A younger male who would be a babysitter if Johanna wasn't around, and has a crush on Johanna and it's sort of like a child having a crush on a teenager at first. But basically it turns out that babysitter this guy that really cares for Hilda and her friends is basically the dad she always wanted and the kind of man Johanna always wanted because he actually cares despite he's weird, he tries his hardest.

I'm sorry for rambling, but again I totally get Luke on why he doesn't on go into detail of Hilda's dad. Especially the fact he admits it never had such a huge affect on Hilda and Johanna's life and they aren't defined by it. God I love he actually said mum but he is British.

Still would of been funny if well I originally wanted Craig Fairbrass as Hilda's dad but I want Kit Harington now so I can see all the stupid but funny headlines of how Jon Snow is in Hilda and people getting into the show and I'm like, "Me and a whole bunch of other fans were here first" it be this funny thing.

Also the younger babysitter guy would be voiced by Tom Holland or KJ Apa.

Really I would like to hear what was Hilda's dad's deal of why he's not with his family anymore. It's probably not gonna be like this but I keep thinking he and Johanna weren't a good match and he's actually a good guy. But still that's the thing Luke doesn't like.

I want him to be a good guy now voiced by Kit Harington because my God if a character like that existed on Hilda, he would probably be the worst character because he's more of a selfish jerk than other jerks like Trevor or the Marra. Especially Trevor is just a kid but still though, hope he develops in season 2. Especially the Marra are the Marra, their jerks, but they just want to cause nightmares for folks. Even though Kelly seemed to be alright because Frida showing some kindness towards her after giving Kelly her bunny back. Which might of well not fully changed but had Kelly appreciate Frida more.

Also Victoria Van Gale just kidnapped a baby weather spirit which was shitty. But considering her place was destroyed. She probably learned her lesson.

An asshole dad who left his daughter because he didn't like how she was is a bit too much even for me or....something.

Anyway I wanted to share that. I'm sorry this got long and me rambling.

#hilda netflix #hilda the series #hilda #johanna hilda #hilda johanna

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thedriftedheart · 2 years ago

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Random Thoughts

Nalulungkot ako ng sobra. Feel like I am being punished yet I am not being told of what I did. I can't freely expressed myself too now in that space, for I feel like he always criticize whatever I say in there. If only he will give me a consideration to at least let me know what I did... My heart is so heartbroken...

Sept 24, 2022 6:36 PM

Going out to chill out...

Aug 15, 2022 11:21 AM

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I don't agree with a prank na may physical talaga, kahit na hindi n/masaktan ang subject, using them or their emotions/pain as a laughing stock is a no-no, KJ or OA man na matawag pero hindi talaga sya nakakatawa for me..

Aug 14, 2022 11:19 PM

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Ngayon ako nanghihinayang na hindi ko tinapos ang Six Sigma Cert., what a missed chance.

Sofa keeps playing in my head, kahit mejo may kurot, it's a good song that's why. Thank you my fave, sana marami ka pang magawang kanta, and thank you too Alpha.

Your music is my sanctuary.

Aug 10, 2022 6 PM

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Naalala ko lang, a shared post in my fave's supporter page crossed my tl yesterday, napansin ko seems may glitch nga sa notif, lahat kasi ng post kahapon walang notif pero nung isang araw na post and even one that posted by my fave nag send naman. Oh wel, techie technically. Petty things? No, as everything's about my fave is worth noticing for..

Aug 4, 2022 6:43 AM

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Still got lss on WYH song by my fave group, stuck and keeps playing in my head. And my fave's voice, is just so sweet, so good to the ears 🥰

I love you my fave, ano nang ginagawa mo? Sana maganda naging gising mo and I hope you're having a beautiful day…

Aug 3, 2022 5:13 PM

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What’s for me this week? What lies ahead?.. Things not always go the way we want, the way we planned things, we can only do much, and hope that everything goes well..

Aug 3, 2022 11:32 AM

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Wander

But it was a fine day overall..

..and so we meet again, you're doing well and it's good. It's always good to see old friends, and still treasure you just the same. The goodness of when you don't hold or left behind any feelings be it the old or bad, you just accepted the reality and face the facts of life, move on without any regrets..

When you look back what happened, you'll realized it's not pain anymore, but sadness, a pity for your old self, when you endured and tried everything, tried to understand the reason why he constantly hurt you, you know that there were reasons out of lies but you chose to accept it cause you still believe there's still hope for both of you, you held too much for the feelings invested, time that were cherished together, until you get tired. And realize your worth is much important than the time, memories you're trying to save for so long. But that was that, you won't be able to meet the right one or be where you ought to be if you'll be stuck in the wrong place, with the person you're not meant to be with. But then again I wonder, how can you say you finally had the right decision, or when can we say it's the "right" one.. And while you're still finding the answer, it's like you're also in a quest for the choices..

May 30, 2022 8:41 PM

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Ang dami na naman mga katanungan na naghahanap ng kasagutan, ang daming tumatakbo sa isipan, kaso inaantok na rin ako.. 😑

But it was a fine day overall..

May 29, 2022 11:53 PM

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amalberga391013 · 5 years ago

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no one’s meant to stay (memoir)

During our first day I didn’t talk to anyone even a hi to my seatmate or anyone who smiles at me. I only talk to my friends out of my classroom during vacant time and get back to being quiet after the given vacant for our recess. Everything went easy on my first week in school full of introduction to each teachers in my subjects. That cycle went for almost 3 weeks but it didn’t last until some of my classmates are approaching me and I already started talking to them little by little and have a short conversation during vacants. Then I met this guy named Jaysen.

Mr. M.P gave us a performance task that needs to be done in less than 2 weeks as we part our ways going to our designated groups we were asked to choose who’s gonna be the leader and assistant, I was chosen for being their leader and Jaysen was my assistant then. After that short voting, we started with the activity. We distributed the task for the short jingle-dance presentation that needs to be filmed as well. While they are thinking about the concept for our presentation I asked Jaysen “ano kanta gagamitin naten para mastart ko na yung sa dance steps naten na related sa math lessons na sinabi”, he answered “hindi ko rin alam eh pero pag-isipan na muna naten ayusin muna natin lyrics” then the conversation stopped there and worked again

Months have passed I already got comfortable with my classmates I get to start a conversation to each one of them if there would be a time. Since Jaysen was my seatmate back then, we used to talk about stuff during vacants. T’was my birthmonth and my 16th celebration was approaching so I invited them to join me on my small celebration at home. That’s when Jaysen started to talk to me everyday, chatting me through my social media accounts, reacting to all of my Instagram stories that was all nothing for me because I didn’t like him that time.

Until one day we decided to stay at my place after our class since we were halfday. Jaysen was there as well, soon as we arrived we ate our lunch already and after that we stayed at our sala played the game truth or dare. Couple of spins were done, until the bottle stopped spinning to me, I got nervous because the game was kinda risky. “ano truth or dare? hahahah” 3 of my friends asked “sige truth nalang ayusin niyo ha!” I answered

I didn’t expect that he’ll be the one to ask me and most of all the question shocked me “kung may crush ka man sa mga classmates naten, sino siya? bawal kj ha” Jaysen asked and he sounded like he was expecting an exciting answer from me that would make his ass giggle. Being the honest one I answered “wala akong crush no, kakasimula lang ng school year crush agad baka gusto niyo muna magpass ng jingle presentation sa math at pumasa hahaha”. All of them laughed like I was lying to them. The 2nd to the last spin of the bottle was pointed to Jaysen, soon as the bottle stopped from spinning he already said “sige na nga para may thrill naman laro natin, dare pipiliin ko na may halong truth hahahaha promise ‘di ako magiging kj katulad nung isa diyan” I only laughed with what he said. “Naks ang tapang mo. kung may crush ka man sa mga kaklase naten at nandito siya ngayon umupo ka sa right side niya, kung wala naman siya dito tawagan mo tyaka mo sabihin na may crush ka sakanya. GO! Hahaha” Neth asked him while smiling like something is about to be spilled.

I was about to stand that time to go to my room and get something when Jaysen stood up and sat beside me smiling. I was shocked because I didn’t expect it but I didn’t mind it and said “kabud nalang ako hahaha kayong mga lalaki talaga manloloko kayo, ‘di meron kang girlfriend do’n sa pagcor building”, everyone were saying “oopss” “naku po” “nilaglag sarili hahahah!” after that we stopped playing already and faced our gadgets.

When that day had passed, it became little awkward between me and Jaysen because of what happened with the game. After 3-4 days he approached me and saying sorry for what he did that made me uncomfortable and said that he and his girlfriend already broke up couple of months ago. I let that pass and we were good with each other. We became more close to each other until one day when we were staying at my friends place he asked me “I will court you okay.” No words came out from my mouth and felt those butterflies in my stomach but thank God when my bestfriend Chin saved me from being awkward again she said “nagugutom na ako ‘di pa ba tayo magmemeryenda?”

After how many weeks, we were back from our late night calls and everyday conversations after class. Everytime I see him coming from afar I can feel those butterflies in my stomach and that was some kind of strange and new. Until I made a reflection on myself, realized that I am slowly liking him already. Things went differently we often go out after class if we have free time, eat outside during weekends. Until he told me that he’ll be courting me for real, he didn’t ask for an answer if I’m giving him the permission to do so. He chose to show his feelings for me even if he doesn’t have the assurance from what he started.

He was really an ideal man, boyfriend material, someone who you would wish to have too as your suitor and boyfriend. Months of courtship, we became officially in relationship and legal with both side. Our 2 months as girlfriend and boyfriend wasn’t that healthy we thought we won’t make it. Fast forward to our 5th month we rarely argue, still the same we go out when we are free from academics. We became more comfortable with each other, telling secrets, movie dates and stuff.

We were given a task in our MAPEH subject, we have to present a role play that involved singing and dancing our section was divided into two groups with 20 members. I was in a group with Jaysen, since they knew that we are in a relationship and to make things more easier we were asked to be partners since our play is Cinderella.mikayIn the middle of our presentation, Jaysen was staring at me while doing my part in the role play taking some pictures of me wearing a red&black cocktail dress. On the part where the prince and cinderella are dancing he gently held my hand and waist while dancing, I felt his sincerity and made me appreciate him more with his actions. After that presentation he escorted me going to the comfort room since I was wearing a 4 inches heels and I had to dress up for our next subject. While changing to my dress to uniform I couldn’t remove my mind’s focus with the way he looked at me during our presentation. After changing, I washed my face to remove the applied make-up and went out the comfort room.

As I stepped out the comfort room I should be asking him to eat for a while because I didn’t ate for breakfast but Jaysen handed me a mineral water and 5 pieces of siomai with a cloud 9. I smiled at him and said “’di kana dapat bumili, aayain sana kita kumain after ko magbihis pero thank you” he answered me by kissing me on my forehead.

Fast forward to when were almost there for our anniversary when something went wrong, I knew that he was talking with his ex girlfriend through messenger without telling me, his friend was the one who told me about that and I was mentally and emotionally blocked. I had these couple of questions to myself are they getting back? What’s with them? Why are they talking behind my back? But I let that pass and waited for him to tell me the truth but him being the asshole didn’t confess and acted like nothing’s happening during those time. I started to confront him the next day before our exam, asked him if there’s something that I need to know but he refused to say the truth and answered me “wala naman akong ginagawa na ikakasira ng relationship natin tyaka I’m not betraying you don’t mind it any—” I slapped him and showed him a screenshot of Jaysen’s ex girlfriend conversation with him and a picture of them both kissing that was sent to me. I didn’t let him to explain his self, I left him in the classroom and went to my next class.

My situation didn’t went that easy. The man whom I expected a lot that won’t break my heart and ate all his promises. After a year of suffering from the pain that he gave I saw myself change the old me is slowly fading, the old passionate lover and risk taker in all aspect was already gone. Couple of months ago I was about to leave the house going to school when my phone vibrated with an Instagram notification that says someone sent me a direct message from a guy.mikaynamed Thirdie, he’s from Italy, also he was a former schoolmate of my bestfriend. We often talk after I attend school since phones aren’t allowed.

He flew back here in the Philippines and decided to study here for his 12th grade. His place was somewhere at Mexico, Pampanga. A month ago was our term test, I asked Nen and Doy why don’t we meet and review for the heavy subjects to examine on they agreed and meet up at Bon Appetea, Sto Domingo. I knew that Thirdie was just kilometers away from me, after 4hours of reviewing our lessons, Nen asked us a favor if we can help her to get her things from a friend in TinajeromikayHe flew back here in the Philippines and decided to study here for his 12th grade. His place was somewhere at Mexico, Pampanga. A month ago was our term test, I asked Nen and Doy why don’t we meet and review for the heavy subjects to examine on they agreed and meet up at Bon Appetea, Sto Domingo. I knew that Thirdie was just kilometers away from me, after 4hours of reviewing our lessons, Nen asked us a favor if we can help her to get her things from a friend in Tinajero, fortunately Thirdie was also there catching up with his friends since he was away for a long time. 2 hours have passed we went to Tinajero to get Nen’s things and we decided that we will immediately go home when she have her things already.

But we were asked to stay by her friends to play a mobile legends for a while, they were all playing except for me because I didn’t had the mood in playing instead I read my reviewer. It was 6 pm when we are about to go home and about to call a tricycle to ride on going to the terminal, but Thirdie called me on my phone saying that he’ll drive us home. That made me think that he’s gentlemen and kind not knowing that he has a crush on me at that time. Week after, we used to talk to each other and get comfortable with each other asking how was our day, updating each other and stuff. He’s understanding, kind, gentlemen and has a big respect to woman kind of guy. To make the story short we had our 3 days retreat, 2 days no phone. We weren’t able to have conversation but that was okay with us, he was very understanding with the situation we had during my retreat and I appreciate him for that. The night after our retreat, everything was like a popped bubble. I didn’t received any kind of message from him anymore, even a message that he’s gonna stop talking to me he just left like nothing.

All I thought he was the answer to one of my prayers. I could only think of him everyday, dreamed of him every night. But all I could do is to let this things pass by, let him go and let myself breathe again from pain. Maybe he is meant to be a blessing and a lesson for me, we were only meant to meet to learn something new and get challenged with that kind of situation. I don’t blame anyone with what happened because I know everything happens for a reason and something big will come in exchange for what was lost.

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coliwrites · 5 years ago

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The Fall Out

[1] Of Different Priorities

“Jeonghan, two years in this relationship, never kitang pinagbawalan magdota,” Coli said frustratingly. Nasa dorm sya ng boyfriend para sana ayaing pumunta sa library pero naabutan nya itong naglalaro. “Just this one, because maghahanap tayo ng possible topic nyo si Seok, diba?”

“You know, Pipes, you’re being so stress about our thesis,” he said, eyes still fixated on his computer. “Kaya na namin yun ni Seok.”

“I can’t believe you,” she said, starting to get really mad. And sad. Jeonghan being like this right now makes her feel like she is fighting their battle alone. Hindi ba nito iniisip ang future nila? She sighed.

“Okay, then. Just text me if you changed your mind,” she said before leaving.

[2] Of Pushing Her Dreams to His

“Love, what do you think is better? Should we enroll sa review center or just self-review?” Coli asked, feeding Jeonghan his favorite cookies from M&S while he drives.

They are on their way back to the dorms after filling their application form for NMAT. Coli have been meaning to process their paper since they open for acceptance but Jeonghan have been skeptical, hence, Coli dragging him on their rest day to the office to file.

“Hmm.. Either is okay with me. But do you think we’ll be both busy to enroll pa sa review center?” Jeonghan said, playing with Coli’s hand (this is his way of calming himself—holding her). Honestly speaking, he is very nervous and uncertain with this decision. But this is what makes Coli happy. She’s been very stress about school lately that he wants to make her smile at least.

“Self-review it is, then,” she decided, smiling at Jeonghan. She then started planning about how their schedule would be. But he hopes she would pause and enjoy the moment. Just this moment.

[3] Of More Discussions and Lack of Thereof

“Pipes,” Jeonghan calls frustratingly. He hastily went to Coli’s dorm when he received a message that she is sick but stubbornly still wants to go to school. “You’re sick. You don’t have to go to class if you can’t.” He is sitting on Coli’s bed, still trying to convince her not to go.

“But, love, I can’t miss any of my class,” she complains while trying to get out of bed to get ready for school.

“Pipes, please,” Jeonghan plead. “I’ll ask Jihoon to cover for you,” he said at inalalayan si Coli na makulit paring tumayo sa kama.

“Okay. Just this once,” she finally concedes at bumalik sa pagkakahiga.

Jeonghan only sigh habang kinukumutan si Coli. Naiintindihan naman nya ang dalaga and how demanding senior year is. Naiintindihan nya din na every action and decision they make from here, will determine their future. Pero sa totoo lang, namimiss na nya ito. He always tell her to rest kahit saglit, kahit isang araw lang. He even suggested going to her favourite café in the north but she refused.

Hinalikan nito ang ngayong natutulog na ulit na nobya before leaving, in hopes that Coli would understand that he just wants to enjoy this last year with her. He hopes she would understand that doing so will not compromise their future. Sana.

“Jeonghan, huwag ka na kaya sumama kay Cheol?” ika ni Coli sa boyfriend nang magpaalam na aalis ang huli kasama ng kaibigan. They are walking holding hands going to her dorm.

“But love, Cheol needs someone to talk to,” Jeonghan explained. “Mukhang may pinagdadaanan eh.”

“Okay. But please don’t drink too much, ha?” she reminded him. “May reporting ka pa bukas.”

“Yes, ma’am!” he said at huminto nang marating na nila ang dorm ni Coli. “And goodnight, love,” kissing her goodbye.

Sinundan na lamang ni Coli ng tingin ang papalayong nobyo. She’s actually getting worried about him kasi napapadalas ang labas nilang magkakaibigan kahit school days. And this is actually the first time she suggested him not to go pero hindi parin sya pinakinggan.

“Oh Nonu, why did you call?” sagot nya sa kabilang linya. It’s 2 in the morning at nagising sya sa tawag ng kambal nya.

“Promise me you won’t get mad first,” sabi ng kambal sa kanya.

“What it is, first?”

“Promise me, first.”

“Okay, promise. What is it?” she said, annoyed.

“Jeonghan is here in the dorm with Cheol, shitfaced,” ika ni Wonwoo sa kanya. “I’m telling you this so you won’t get worried. I don’t think kaya nya pang tawagan ka for update. Please huwag mong awayin pag gising. I promised him I won’t tell you.”

She ended the call after thanking her twin brother. She didn’t know what to feel. It’s 2 in the morning and her boyfriend is drunk when she clearly asked him not to drink too much. Parang wala nang pakialam si Jeonghan sa nararamdaman nya. Gusto nyang magalit—no, galit na sya. Pero mas lamang ang lungkot kesa sa galit. Dahil sakanilang dalawa ng nobyo, sya na lang ata ang lumalaban para sa future nila.

“Love, wake up. May reporting ka pa today,” Coli said while tapping Jeonghan’s arm trying to wake him up. Pinuntahan nya ito sa dorm ng kambal nya when Wonwoo called her na hindi nya magising si Jeonghan.

“Hey love, why are you here?” tanong nito sabay talukbong ng kumot sa mukha.

“No time for questions. You’ll be late,” Coli said then inalis ang kumot kay Jeonghan. “I also took the liberty to get your clothes and your materials for reporting sa dorm mo. I hope you don’t mind. Mag-ayos ka na before pa tayo malate pareho.”

No, she will not get mad at him now. Baka mamaya or bukas pero ngayon, aasikasuhin nya muna ito. Baka hindi pa ito makapasok sa klase kung magagalit sya rito. So instead she calmly fixed his things. “Ready na din breakfast mo and your meds for hang over, please tumayo ka na dyan.”

“Uy, Cheol,” bati ni Coli kay Seungcheol nang makasalubong nya ito sa hallway ng school nila. “Not to be the kj girlfriend or anything, but please don’t ask Jeonghan again na uminom if may school responsibilities sya kinabukasan,” she sighed. “Sorry, I know I’m out of line. But kasi si Jeonghan, hindi yun nakakhindi sainyo. So favour lang, Cheol, please.”

“That was out of line, Coli, and you know that,” pagalit na sabi ni Jeonghan. “I can’t believe na kakausapin mo pa si Cheol about this.”

Pinuntahan ni Coli si Jeonghan sa dorm to bring him food and to check if may hang over pa ito. She also told him that she talked to Seungcheol earlier about what happened. She thought he wouldn’t mind pero nagulat sya sa galit ni Jeonghan ngayon.

“I’m sorry, okay,” sagot ni Coli. “I’m just concern about you. And knowing you, hindi ka nakakahindi sa barkada, so I did what I need to do.”

“Are you hearing yourself right now?” Jeonghan asked, clearly annoyed at how Coli is acting. “Ano ba ‘to? This is not you, Coli.”

“Masama bang maging concern ako sa’yo? Kasi ikaw, parang wala ka nang pakialam sa lahat ng ‘to,” pagalit na sagot ni Coli. She’s starting to get mad, too. “We made plans, Jeonghan,” she said slowly trying not to cry. “Diba sabi mo sabay tayo mag memedschool? That was the plan, right?”

“First, we will take nmat and get our target percentage,” she continues. “Then, we will pass our classes. And then, we will finish our thesis. Tapos, med school,” she said, couldn’t stop herself from crying anymore. “But this, Jeonghan, it feels like you don’t care about those at all. Parang nakalimutan mo na.”

Then she leaves. And he didn’t go after her.

“Oh Jeonghan, bakit di mo sagutin phone mo? Baka mag-alala na sa’yo si Coli,” Seokmin told him. Nasa library sila ngayon para maghanap ng related literature para sa thesis nila.

Honestly, kanina pa sya tinatawagan ng girlfriend but he couldn’t let himself answer it. He still remembers the last time they fought and he made her cry. They already made up pero nahihiya parin sya dito and he wants Coli to see that he’s trying now. Na hindi naman nya nakalimutan yung plano nila.

“I’ll call her later once I’m done with this,” he said. “Mabuo man lang natin tong outline bago ko sya tawagan.”

“Pipes, sorry I can’t go to our review lesson today. Seok and I are going to finish chapter 1 and 2. Need na daw ni Ms. Kang,” pagpapaliwanag ni Jeonghan kay Coli sa telepono. Scheduled review nila ngayon for NMAT, suggestion nya ito sa boyfriend since they decided not to push through with review center. But since she suggested this, dalawang beses palang atang natuloy ang review nila. Napailang na lang sya.

”Okay, puddy, just tells me if you guys need help,” she said understandingly. Busy sila pareho at ayaw naman nyang ipilit pa ito kay Jeonghan. “I’ll just send you the lesson today para mabasa mo if nagkaroon ka ng time.”

“Okay, love. Sorry again,” he said ending the call.

“Hey love, akala ko kasama ka nila Cheol?” Coli asked. Nasa dorm sya ni Jeonghan para dalhan ito ng pagkain nang malaman na hindi ito sumama sa laro ng barkada.

“No love, di na ko sumama,” paliwanag ni Jeonghan. “Tatapusin ko pa ‘tong reports para makasabay na ako sa lesson natin for NMAT.”

“Love, I’m sorry if you feel like I’m pressuring you on this,” she said at niyakap ang boyfriend mula sa likuran, resting her face on his shoulder. “But I hope you understand, hm?”

“Yes, love,” he said, humarap ito sakanya at niyakap ng mahigpit. “Of course,” he said kissing her lips before he face his desk again to continue his reports.

[4] Of Failing and Giving Up

“Love, it is okay,” Coli said while sitting on Jeonghan’s lap, holding his face and trying to comfort him.

They are at Jeonghan’s dorm watching Netflix when the result of NMAT came out. Coli passed the percentage limit of their desired school while Jeonghan didn’t.

“Love, maybe hindi para sakin ang med school,” Jeonghan said hugging her waist and burying his face on her neck.

“Hey, diba ikaw na nagsabi meron pang isang batch sa March,” alo ni Coli dito. “Sabay na lang kayo magtake ni Seok or ni Jihoon.”

“I don’t know,” he said holding Coli to him more.

“Love, I’ll just remind you to file your application na,” Coli said. They are in Jeonghan and Seokmin’s dorm and magkatabi silang dalawa sa study table nito doing their lab reports nang maalala ng dalaga na paalalahanan ang nobyo. Sunod sunod na naman kasi ang experiments nila para makahabol sa curriculum kaya mas busy sila ngayon. “Seok, sabay ka na kaya?” sabay baling nito kay Seokmin na nasa kabilang table.

“Di ko pa alam kung magtutuloy ako eh,” sagot ni Seokmin.

“Love, hayaan mo na si Seok,” sabi ni Jeonghan sabay halik sa pisngi ni Coli. “Tsaka ‘wag mo na muna yan isipin, malapit na finals oh.”

Coli wanted to say more but decided to stop. They are stress as it is and ayaw na nyang dumagdag pa. Baka mamaya ay pag-awayan pa nila pag pinilit nya. So instead of saying more, pinagpatuloy nya na lang yung reports na ginagawa nya.

“Hey, what’s this? Application form for vetmed?” she asked, holding the document she accidentally found on Jeonghan’s study table. “You’re applying?”

“It’s nothing, love,” Jeonghan answered sabay kuha sa papeles para itabi. “Pangback-up lang if ever hindi na naman ako umabot sa limit.”

“But.. Why didn’t you tell me about this?” she said calmly, waiting for Jeonghan’s explanation.

“Sorry, I just—“he said. “I don’t know, Pipes. You’ve been so stress lately. You’re into the plan—our plan and this might tick you off. Ayaw ko lang na pag-awayan pa natin.”

Coli just nod kahit ang dami nya pang gustong itanong but she decided not to pry anymore. Para walang away.

“Love, wake up na,” Coli said while showering Jeonghan with kisses to wake him up. Since parehas nilang rest day today, she decided na puntahan ito sa dorm para ayain na magfile na ng application ulit for NMAT.

“Hmm.. Five more minutes,” he mumbles sabay hila kay Coli sa tabi nito at yumakap.

“Kanina pa yang five minutes mo, eh,” she pouts pero hindi naman umalis sa pagkakayakap ng nobyo. “Dali na, love, baka tanghaliin pa tayo.”

“Love,” he calls. “Maybe I don’t want to go,” Jeonghan said fully awake now and looking straight into her eyes.

“What?” gulat na tanong nya. Bumangon sa pagkakahiga at umupo, waiting for Jeonghan to explain.

“Pipes, I need to tell you something,” he said sitting and facing her. “I’ve been thinking that I don’t want to retake NMAT anymore.”

“But.. What about med school?” she asked. “What about our plan?” she asked again, confused.

“Maybe that was your plan,” he said. And suddenly she felt like someone just punched her. Hindi sya makahinga.

“What do you mean my plan?” she asked wanting to understand what’s happening.

“Maybe ayoko naman talaga magmed school but I desperately wants to be with you that I tricked my mind na ‘ah, oo nga ito din gusto ko,’” he explain holding her hands. “But when I failed to meet the percentage limit of SNU, that’s when I realized maybe I’m not fit to be a doctor.”

“That I’m holding to this dream just to be with you, to make you happy,” Jeonghan continues while crying. “Na dahil gustong gusto kong makasama sa plano mo, hindi na ko gumawa ng sakin. And it hurts. Sobrang sakit, Pipes, na marealize na hindi pala ako fit sa mga plano mo.”

“Bakit ngayon mo lang ‘to sinabi?” she asked, both of them crying now.

“Because I’m scared,” sagot nito. He paused for so long she thought that’s the only answer she will get from him.

But he suddenly looked into her eyes with painful gaze. And she knew that whatever he will say now, will break them both—if it doesn’t kill them. “Natakot kasi akong masira ang mga plano mo nang dahil sakin.”

Coli holds Jeonghan while he cries. Seeing him like this feels like her world is crashing before her eyes. And it is. And it fucking hurts.

[5] Of Choosing Different Path

Two weeks after that confession from Jeonghan, Coli finds herself in their favourite café beside their university. They haven’t talked since she left his dorm that day. Hindi nya alam pero parang sinasadya nilang dalawa na hindi magkita o mag-usap. She thought maybe they are both afraid of the inevitable—their differences. But doing so only makes this harder for them, prolonging the agony of the thing they both know will happen eventually.

So, earlier that day Coli called Jeonghan to meet her and talk. And now she waits while looking at the bookstore in front where they first met—naglolokohan pa nga sila na ayun yung meet cute nila (“Pipes, when our future children ask us where did we meet, ikukwento natin yung sa bookstore ha, hindi yung sa dorm nila Wonwoo”). She only smiles with the memory.

“Hey,” bati ni Jeonghan sakanya sabay upo sa tapat nya. “Nagorder ka na ba?”

“Yes, I already did,” she replied. “Inorder din kita ng usual mo, if you don’t mind. Sorry force of habit pero you can change your order naman—“

“Pipes,” he cut her from blabbering. “It’s okay.”

“Sorry,” she said, looking anywhere but Jeonghan. Suddenly, she doesn’t know how to act around him. It feels familiar but different. A whole lot different. Parang hindi na nya ito kilala.

“Coli, I’m sorry,” Jeonghan said. May sasabihin pa sana ito pero biglang dumating and inorder ni Coli para sakanila.

“I actually don’t know why you kept on apologizing,” she said holding her favourite frappe. “Between us, ako nga dapat ang magsorry sayo. Sorry kasi hindi man lang kita natanong kung ano yung gusto mo. Hindi ko nga alam kung “grande mocha frappe with one shot of hazelnut syrup blended whipped cream” nga ba talaga ang gusto mo,” she chuckles. “Pero seryoso, sa sobrang comfortable ko sayo I usually forgot to ask. Na baka gusto mo ng venti or espresso shot instead of hazelnut. Na baka mas mageexcel ka if magvetmed ka instead of med school.”

“Coli..” he said tears forming on his eyes.

She looked away. Hindi nya na kayang makitang umiiyak na naman si Jeonghan. “But Jeonghan, you have to understand that you need to tell me these things. Dapat nagsabi ka,” pagpapatuloy nya.

“Pipes, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you,” he said. “I’m sorry I got scared I might ruin your plan. I’m scared that I already did the moment I realized I don’t want to continue med school anymore. I’m scared because I know it will definitely hurt you. And I’m sorry kasi sa sobrang gusto kong pasayahin ka, nacompromise ko yung akin. Dinepende ko na lang sa’yo.”

“Jeonghan,” she said, hurt.

“But it doesn’t mean I’m not happy anymore,” he said quickly like he’s reading what’s on her mind. “Because I am. And I don’t think there will come a person who can make me this happy, ikaw lang,” he said, holding her hands. “You make me so happy to the point that I made you my world. That every decision I make will be based on you and your timeline. And when things fell apart, you’re all I have,” he continues while tears streaming down his face. “And lately I don’t even feel like I have that. I felt so lost and I couldn’t tell you anything.”

Coli couldn’t speak. This is how he’s hurting Jeonghan for thinking too much about their future. And this is how she’s been so selfish not to notice. And suddenly she regret everything; rejecting his invite to go to their favourite café in the north, changing their weekend Netflix and chill to review sessions, rescheduled their museum dates because they need more time in the lab, and most especially not holding his hands when he needed it the most. She regrets not being able to be the person he needs because she’s too obsess of the person she wants them to become. And it might be a little too late now.

“I’m sorry I didn’t hold your hand when you needed someone to hold onto,” she apologized while sobbing. “I love you so much, Jeonghan, that I didn’t realized I’m already hurting you.”

“No,” he said shaking his head. “This is not about you at all. Cliché, I know. But this is me giving you a job that I should’ve done myself. I’m sorry for being so selfish for depending everything on you—my happiness and my dreams.”

“Pipes, sorry nakalimutan ko na may mundo pala ako, hindi pala dapat ikaw,” he continues. “Dapat pala instead of making you my world, I should’ve built mine to align with yours. Because the time I realized that our worlds aren’t aligned anymore; I lost myself and I hurt you in the process.”

Coli never cried this much—not when Marcel’s mother died, not when she flunk her ecology midterms, or not even when she got zero on her integral calculus quiz. Ngayon lang. And she couldn’t stop crying.

“Jeonghan, I’m sorry for not loving you the way you love me,” she said while holding Jeonghan’s hand. “I really am.”

“No, Pipes, thank you,” he said. “For loving me the way you know how.”

The last three years of them fighting for their relationship has come to this—hurting each other for loving too much, too differently.

“I love you, Coli,” he said while letting go of Coli’s hand. “Mist or not.”

Coli decided to stay in the café when Jeonghan told her he should probably go. And now, she’s halfway done with her second cup of their her favorite drink. Her eyes are now dry but still sad. She absentmindedly looks at the bookstore in front and remembers Jeonghan’s last words to her: mist or not. That was a reference from their favorite book series, where he also gets his pet name of her—Pipes. A bittersweet smile escapes her lips as she remembers the reason Jeonghan decided to call her that; ‘because like Jason to Piper, I like your version of love better than anything else.’ She didn’t know what changed—the way she loves or Jeonghan’s preference—but one thing is for sure that Cupid was right; Love will not always makes everyone happy. Sometimes it makes them incredibly sad.

#kwento #yoon jeonghan #seventeen

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darkcozyforest · 8 years ago

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The Intern--Chapter 4

Here is the next chapter. We get a little more background information of life in Kansas. I’m excited for where this series is going. I hope you guys enjoy it too. Let me know what y’all think! Thank you so much for reading my work! And let me know if you would like to be tagged in future chapters.

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The next couple weeks after the flowers incident, things began to run smoothly. You got along with everyone in the office and were fitting in well. Your professors had been right when they told you Barba was ruthless. But you preferred it that way. Once he got started on something, he was passionate about fighting through to the end. Not many people showed that kind of passion anymore so it was refreshing. Especially since you felt just as passionate.

The other plus about seeing Barba so invested in the cases was that you also became invested. So all of the initial bumbling school girl crush feelings had died down. You still went on your occasional rambling sessions, but Barba seemed genuinely interested when you did. He was very easy to talk to but sometimes you got a little off topic because of that.

“I feel like you have story about everything.”

“Oh, I’m sorry Barba. If I’m talking too much just tell me to hush up. Sometimes I forget. My mama always told me it was just because I liked to hear the sound of my own voice. But that’s just not true. I ju—I’m doing it again.” You laughed at yourself.

“No it’s alright Y/N. I meant that in a good way. People that are from here don’t share more than they are asked. They say as little as possible. It’s refreshing to actually be around people who enjoy having a conversation.”

“That’s me. Some of the stories I could tell about back home. Oh goodness. The people from around here would never believe them.” Your phone buzzed and you looked down to see your mom calling. “Speaking of back home, this is my mama now.”

“Go ahead and take it. I think we’re done for the night anyway. I’ll just pack my things and then wait for you so we can take a cab back to the apartments.”

“Thanks.” You turned and answered the FaceTime. “Hi mama!”

“Y/N, are ya there? Can you see me?” The camera was trying to focus and you could see your niece in the background running around.

“Yes mama, I can see you.” You chuckled. “What’s goin’ on?”

“Oh not a whole lot. I just hadn’t heard from you in a while. Just wanted to check in. Are you still at work? Oh I’m sorry sweetheart. I didn’t mean to interrupt. You can just call me later!”

“Oh it’s okay mama. We’re getting ready to head home anyway. Is that Lacy I see back there?”

“We? Oh yes Lacy is here. Your sister started working at O’Malley’s over in Weston.”

“What on Earth is she doing workin’ all the way in Weston?” You completely ignored her ‘we’ question. You still hadn’t told them that you lived across from your boss. “If she’s gonna do that, why’d she even bother movin’ back to Troy? She was fine in Atchison. She has a teachin’ degree but she’d rather work as a bartender in Missouri an hour away from where she’s livin’. Mama, you gotta stop lettin’ her do this. She is a grown woman, with a husband and three-year-old daughter. She’s gotta grow up at some point. You and daddy don’t have the extra money to be payin’ her rent that I know you probably are.”

“Lori is Lori. But her and Derek have been strapped for cash lately. And with Derek gone all the time with the railroad it was easier for her to move back to Troy. She says that O’Malley’s pays better than Willies did.”

“Mama, it is still an hour away. At least in Atchison it was only 20 minutes. She’s gonna spend all a that money on gas. They always need subs. Why doesn’t she just…” You ran your hand over your face and looked at her. “I’m sorry mama, I’m just tired of her taking advantage of y’all. And there’s nothing I can do, because all of my money is going into my apartment and other bills.”

“Are you doin’ okay sweetheart? How are you doin’ on money?”

“I’m fine. I will not ask you for money. That is one thing that Lori and I differ on. She may not have a problem asking for it, but I do.” You saw Barba move out of the corner of your eye. “I’ll be okay mama. I knew what I signed up for when I came out here. But I gotta go. We’re about to head home.” The ‘we’ slipped out again before you could stop it. You mentally smacked yourself.

“Oh yea, who is ‘we’?”

“Oh, I forgot to tell you.” You turned your head towards Barba and rolled your eyes. “I found out that I live right across the hall from my boss.”

“How funny! Is he single?”

“MAMA!” You stared at her with wide eyes and motioned off screen and then turned towards him and mouth “I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry Y/N, but you’re not gettin’ any younger. And I would like more grandbabies than just Lacy. Let’s face it, your brothers are never gonna settle down. And your other sister, well she’s a bit of a gypsy. And who knows how long your fath--”

“Mama I’m hanging up now. Bye I love you.”

“Oh at least let me meet the man! Hey Jack! Come here and meet Y/N’s boss!” You got up and walked towards Barba.

“Mama don’t bother daddy if he’s resting.” You turned to him. “I’m sorry. Do you mind? If I don’t do it now, she’ll just keep pestering me.”

“Not at all Y/N. I completely understand.” He chuckled as he thought about his own mother, taking the phone from you. “Hello Mrs. Y/L/N. I’m Rafael Barba. Pleasure to meet you ma’am. Y/N has been doing wonderfully. One of the quickest to catch on around here.”

You watched your mother’s jaw drop as she caught a sight of him. Same mama same. “Um.. Uh… Call me Maggie um... yes… yes we’re uh her uh her… FATHER her father and I are very p-proud of her. We always knew she’d get out of here. Jack! Jackson get over here.”

Good God woman get ahold of yourself. “You have great reason to be proud of her. She is one of the hardest working interns I have ever had.” He turned and winked at you and your mother started giggling.

“So are you single?”

“MOTHER! HONEST TO GOD!”

“What Y/N? He is gorgeous! Look at him!”

“And we’re hanging up now! Bye mama! I love you!” You clicked the red button before she could get out another word. “I am so sorry about that Barba. My mother doesn’t always have a filter.”

“It is quite alright Y/N. My mother is very similar. Hell, we have brunch every Sunday and she asks me when I’m going to settle down myself.”

“It’s awful. My whole family is crazy.”

“I caught some of that.” You started to walk towards the elevator together. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to eavesdrop. I was waiting for you to finish after I packed up.” It was his turn to get all flustered. You had to stifle a laugh.

“It’s okay Barba. I’m a little loud anyway. I’d be surprised if you hadn’t heard part of the conversation.”

“Did you know your accent gets thicker when you talk to your mother?”

“Oh my goodness, yes. I’m good at hiding it up here. But I get around my family and it comes right back. Kansas may not be in the South but we all still have a little bit of the accent in small towns it seems.” The elevator opened on the bottom floor and you went out to hail a cab.

“So your sister, if you don’t mind me asking, she moved back home?”

“Yes.” You rolled your eyes thinking about it.

“All of my siblings still live in our hometown. Troy, Kansas. It’s close to the Missouri border. But my sister moved to Atchison, which is about 20-25 minutes away, after she got married.” The two of you got into the cab and Barba gave them the address.

“Anyway, she has always bummed money off my parents. Most of my siblings have. And I understand asking for help, but she is 28 years old and has a husband who makes good money with the railroad. They have the money. My sister just decides to blow it all on things she doesn’t need. And now she moved back to Troy so she could bum more money off my parents and get free babysitting. I hate asking for money. Especially since I know how strapped they are with my daddy not being able to work. I can barely pay my rent but you don’t see me callin’ mama and asking her to pay it. I chose this life. And what irritates me is that she has a degree. She could go be a teacher. But she chooses to be a bartender.”

The cab pulled up to your building and you started to fish for your wallet. “I don’t know. I just want so much for all of my siblings and I just don’t think they want it for themselves.” Barba stopped you and paid for it before you could protest and you frowned.

You walked into the building and towards the elevator in silence. When the doors close, you spoke up, “You didn’t have to pay for the cab. I am very capable of doing that. I didn’t tell you all of this to try and get you to pay for things. I don’t need money. I mean I do, but I am capable of paying for things. I am not my sister.”

“Y/N I know you can. But I also make a little bit more money than you do.” He teased. “And I’m not paying off student loans. How about you catch the next one?”

“Okay. I just don’t want you to think I’m asking you for money.”

“I didn’t at all. I’m sorry if it came off that way. Sounded like you have a pretty big family. How many siblings do you have?”

“Four, I am the middle of five. I have two older sisters and two younger brothers. Lori is the oldest. Her husband’s name is Derek. Then there’s Julie. Then me. Then the twins Jake and Junior. Well it’s Jackson Junior but we just call him Junior.”

You stepped out of the elevator and sighed thinking about your family. “Well, you can’t control your siblings’ actions Y/N. It sounds like your sister just needs to be an adult. But it also sounds like you care about them a lot. They’re lucky to have you.”

“It doesn’t feel like it sometimes. In the seven years, I have been out here, not one has come out to visit. My mama and daddy did. But just for graduation. Of course, they have an excuse…” You turned your head towards your door as you thought about your parents.

“Well if it is any consolation, I meant what I said about you being one of my best interns.” He flashed you a cheesy smile, trying to get you to do the same.

“Thank you Rafael. That means a lot.” You smirked and went to head into your apartment.

“Would you like to get a drink Y/N? You look like you could use it.”

“No, thank you though. I’ve gotta call my mama back so I can talk to my dad. I’ll probably get a lecture for hanging up on her.” You laughed. “Sorry about that again.”

“It’s fine. Tell them I said hello. See you tomorrow Y/N.”

“Goodnight Rafael.”

#the intern #rafael barba imagine #rafael barba x reader #Rafael barba #barba x reader #my writing #Raúl Esparza #Raul Esparza #Law and Order: Special Victims Unit #law and Order SVU #so maybe we should start all over again

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tumblethattt · 8 years ago

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March31-April 01 '17 (Iba Zambales-Highlands)

Another Year for another Youth camp experience. Counselling again, bringing yhe Gospel to people and Lifting up the name of the Lord. Second timer na ako for being a Counsellor last 2014, 2years ago pero still parang kelan lang at di ko padin malimutan yung experience ko nung una, yung kaba ko nung una, mga doubts ko nung una, mga fears ko nung una atbp. Sobrang anxiety yung naramdaman ko kase i never witness one although I saw it naman many times pero iba parin pag naririnig mo kaso from a far ang pwesto namin and usually it was done at the dining area. So yun, pero after that struggle of mine still I made it and treasure it dahil sa victory ko to face my fears na baka di ako pakinggan, baka magtanong sila and then di ko majustify, baka mautal ako ng mautal ( pero totoo nauutal talaga ako pag humaharap sa tao di ko yun naiwasan noon), baka maliitin nila ako, baka barahin nila ako or whatever. Pero hindi nangyare yun, The Lord provides me wisdom to answer their question, to have boldness to share the word, to have a clearer mind and words to explain the gospel and to have patience to express the love of God.

This Camp panibaging struggle talaga at mga iba’t ibang atake ng kaaway ang pilit na humahadlang samin sa camp. Pass 3am, nagising ako nagprepare ng baon ko, nagsaing, nagpainit ng tubig at nag-ayos ng gamit. At pasado ala-sais na ako umalis ng bahay para pumunta sa Starmall na meeting place naming mga campers. 5:40am ang target time para makumpleto kami pero pasado ala-sais na nang makumpleto kami. Naghahantay kami ng bus ,at nakikita kong tanong na din ng tanong yung mga kachurchmate ko kung saan na yung bus? Papunta na ba yung bus? Anong oras dadating yung bus? Pero lumipas ang 7,8,9 am wala pading bus. Nawawalan na ako ng pag asa maging yung iba samin gusto na ding umuwi kase expected time of departure namin was 7 am pero anong oras na non, tas naconfirm ng Youth leader namin na nasira yung bus na para samin kaya nagpadala ng bus at kinontak from sta. rita bulacan pero ayon sa driver namin nung nagkwento sya sa daming tumatawag sa kanila para mag rescue ng campers ayung bus na yun eh siguro daw sa ibang location dumeretso para magrescue. Di rin binibigay ng coordinator sa camp yung number ng bus driver para macontact namin, kaya ang hirap talaga na naghihintay lang kami ng update from camp, at nakikita kong stress na stress na yung Youth leader namin simula nung umpisa, feeling ko sobrang pressure na sya sa nangyayari non, kada may update sinasabe nya sa mga invites kung samin per ‘se okay lang maghintay dahil for the 2nd time nangyari ule ito pero nahihiya din kami sa mga invites ng mga kabataan sa tagal ng bus.So they pray. 9 am na nang maconfirm namin na darating ang bus 10 am, then second update samin na nasa SMF na pero 30mins na wala padin yung bus? Then 3rd update samin nasa tungko na.In short pass 10 na kami naka alis. Finally…. we prayed for a safe trip lead by Pstra. By 1 am nagstop over kami ng Lubao Pampanga, para maglunch for 30 mins and arrivded in Zambales Camp ng 5pm.

Agad inabot samin ang I.D’s and tinuro amg dorms namin D3 sa girls, D8 sa boys. Pahirapan dahil huli na kami dumating at halos nagpprepare na sila for first session, Nag hahanapan palang kami ng Higaan sobrang daming campers at di na kami kasya sa dorm although may mga pwesto pa ng higaan pero hiwahiwalay na yung iba we give way for other lalo na’t meron talagang ayaw magshare ng higaan nila kahit na ang bilang sa isang deck ay for 4 persons nagiging 2 persons nalang. Pinatawag na yung mga counsellors , na una na yung mga kasama ko ako naiwan pa kase hinanapan ko pa ng higaan yung ibang invites namin na walang matulugan. Kaya tumakbo ako papunta ng Dorm C para sa Meeting namin and preparation sa Counselling sa gabe. Nalaman namin na 1,200 ang campers and 40 lang kaming counsellors , matinding battle talaga ito kaya we pray hard after the meeting for the success of this Batch (46) na i-handa ng Diyos ang mga puso ng bawat kabataan sa message ng pastor at para maluwag nilang natanggap ang Gospel at mga preaching ng pastor.

We enjoy the Opening night , Di man sya ganoon ka bongga like ng past camps pero pero still di naman eto ang main point ng camp ,isa lang ito sa parte upang maenjoy ng kabataan ang camp, na kaming mga Kristiyano nagsasaya din at hindi laging KJ.

Hanggang pinatawag na kami for preparation. Kinakabahan parin ako pero this time mas naguumapaw yung excitement. Dahil 1,200 ang expected na magpapacounsel we prepare ourselves for 2 sets , with a ratioo f 1:20, kanya kanya kaming pray sa pwesto namin. Kasama namin as counsellors yung mga bagong graduates namin as preachers na first timers, nung una medyo na nagiisip yung iba samin na dapat campers muna sila para maenjoy nila yung camp pero dahil kulang talaga sa counsellors, alam ko na namang mas greater experience yung mafefeel nila more than camper.Di rin ako mapakali sa kakabasa nung pamplet namin ng gospel, Hanggang pumasok na ang inaltar call ng pastor. May mga professionals, Govn’t officials, matatanda, bata at iba’t ibang edad para I-deal. ThankGod naging successful yung first sessions. Kinabukasan, For Baptism naman ang sharing namin at 5 sa mga hinawakan ang may matibay na decision para magpabaptize kaya gayon nalamang ako kasaya na merong willing sumunod sa Diyos. Sinamahan ko sila hanggang sa pool at binantayan. Dati hindi kami nakakapasok sa loob ng pool kase volunteers at pastors lang nasa loob after namin mag share, ihahatid lang namin sila but magssta kami sa labas ng pool area pero this time umabot kami sa loob dahil sa kakulangan ng tao, naging screening din kami hanggang sa prayer after baptism sobrang laking opportunity nito para samin. Di ko din alam namay second wave pala para kaseng wala akong maalala dating may ganon kaya nung sinabeng may second wave nagulat ako pero still the Lord is in control sa lahat, wala akong sapat na kaalaman nagstitick lang talaga ako sa alam kong tama at kung ano din yung binahagi sakin nung una araw na naging kristiyano ako. Yung ang pinanghahawakan ko. Nag end ang araw namin sa Camp with Victory. Pilit man kaming hinaharang ng kaaway mula nung maghantay kami ng 5hrs para sa bus, ang maputukan ng gulong along the way, ang maubusan ng higaan atbp. Still nasamin parin ang Lord na nagbigay samin ng tagumpay for the Camp. Di man panalo yung team namin sa Batch enjoy parin namin ang experience na ito

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