#KILLING AND BITING AND MAIMING I AM SO UNWELL OVER THEM RIGHT NOW

[doctorwhoisadhd]

finished playlist (12 songs because i mean obvious choice right)

Wish You Would (demo) by butch baby

Deep Routed by Ezra Williams

firewalker with me by the garages

My Nose by Ezra Williams

Ultimatum by Elle PF

A Pearl by Mitski

Do You Believe Me by the scary jokes

Maggot by Dazey and the Scouts

shutout by the Chicago Firefighters (released on BLATTLE OF THE BLANDS by the garages)

Sudden Fall by Aleah Hyer

I Am the Antichrist to You by Kishi Bashi

this song will burn before you hear it (from fourth strike song jam 2022 by Fourth Strike Records)

id include key lines for each but they would get SO LONG, some of them its EVERY line, but the lines that are especially powerful i will include

wish you would: jack waiting for the doctor

deep routed: the doctor wanting so bad to have someone who wont have to leave but rejecting it with jack

firewalker with me: jack being fucked up about children of earth in the same way as the doctor about the time war ("nobody deserves to be called a curse/but if you're gonna insist, i'm happy to make it worse")

my nose: the doctor running away from jack and feeling guilty about loving him ("You were a pretty flower though, planted in my path" and "Holding my hand to my throat and pretending it's yours/You said you like my nose, no one's said that before/I think I need you the most and it breaks me down/You said you like my nose, and I like you now")

ultimatum: 1) SUICIDE MENTION! 2) jack/doctor parallels

a pearl: jack being in love with the doctor and the doctor being fucked up over being in love with jack. and them hating each other for being terrible

do you believe me: codependency

maggot: them being fucked up about each other scherzo style ("what if i'm nothing but a cardiac arresting sweetheart/a half run-over cat left in the street/and you're the maggot craving/rotten flesh left outside in the heat" and "what's your best secret? you can trust me/you're hanging beside me on the same tight clothesline/here's my best secret: i keep hoping i'm not/dirty laundry 'til my tears all soak in")

shutout: blaseball song written from the perspective of a player who is in love with another EXTREMELY well known player whos famous for being a complete asshole in a funny way, basically the song is about how the famous player got necromanced and ghosted the singer, and it truly fits 12jack sososo absurdly well. ("i watched you turn to ash on live tv/i watched you claw your way back out of the ground/now he's gone the world was half asleep/but now he’s back the world is upside down")

sudden fall: song about dreaming, i think? i cant find lyrics anywhere but god i just thought it worked

i am the antichrist to you: love song that is so bones and blood and meat and love as being a soldier. them not knowing each other. jack knowing the doctor finds him so hard to look at and having become a soldier ("who are you? who am I to you?/I am the antichrist to you/fallen from the sky with grace/into your arms race")

this song will burn before you hear it: the doctor having just left jack behind. them both desperately trying to rationalize everything theyve ever done to themselves. i actually cannot help but include the full lyrics to this here because i love this song so much and it fits so well

it’s a tragedy that you’ll never see the tire tracks in the snow ‘cause you drove too fast and didn’t look back or tell me to let go

see, i listen too carefully for things i won’t hear so how should i have known that your word wasn’t gospel as you disappeared my last-straw mortal blow

(let go) dare to ask why (let go) but a question, a weight (let go) i pictured your sigh (let go) how you’d say

always the good guy never to blame always the wrong side never the game

always the new dawn wasting to shame always the bleach blond ash in the flame, ash in the flame

it’s a travesty that you’ll never see what’s left behind at home ‘cause time flew and my mind’s new fits to a tee the cage it won’t outgrow all alone, i’m still

shambling to pieces could never find peace unless i could finally show ‘stead of waiting to melt until after the freeze i was more than what you know

(you know) dare to ask why (you know) but an answer, a weight (you know) i pictured my cries (you know) how i’d say

always the good guy never to blame always the wrong side never the game

always the new dawn wasting to shame always the bleach blond ash in the flame, ash in the flame ash in the flame, ash in the flame

doesn’t matter anyway if i could meet myself, i’d scream don’t waste your life on faith

say your goodbyes, but know your someone isn’t there hold on tight, but know you’re clinging to thin air

say your goodbyes a silhouette now if you stare hold on tight, you know your world’s got room to spare that you’ll fill with empty prayer

always the good guy never to blame always the wrong side never the game

always the new dawn wasting to shame always the bleach blond ash in the flame, ash in the flame ash in the flame, ash in the flame

ash in the flame ash in the flame ash in the flame ash in the flame, ash in the flame

ash in the flame ash in the flame ash in the flame ash in the flame

actually i need to make a fucking gutwrenching 12jack playlist RIGHT NOW