#KDFGKJDHKGJHDKJHGKJDH

[xtinyslip]

"you clearly didn't leave her in enough trouble considering she's here? 'creating trouble for us now?" was that heartless? honestly, right now she was so consumed with how much she hated elaine. how BETRAYED she felt by him and the people she had trusted in most that… perhaps, she wasn't completely processing the magnitude of what he was trying to tell her. her head just wasn't in it and honestly, what little was left of her heart wasn't either. if he wasn't going to give her an actual answer? then to her right now, that was an answer in itself. "how can you say that to me with a straight face? you love me? you want me more? the only reason we are not together this instant is because you chose to believe that bitch over me. you chose to lock me in a room… when if i remember correctly? all i asked of you was TO COME HOME TO ME." she didn't believe his answer any more, that he wanted her more ; how could she? he'd put her here, and day in and out she had to listen to elaine tell her things about the two of them that she never wanted to know. "he would want to bring me home. i want to go home." tears building in her eyes because she'd never doubted that will wouldn't be on her side with this. she wouldn't doubt him in a million years. not after all he had done for her, things no one else could ever have done ; even if they tried. "you seem to have taken it upon yourself to insult me, insult our marriage but don't EVER insult him!" oh, and her tone very much implied that she meant it. "i would have shared with you... in time. i had every intention of sharing with you but at first, i needed time to figure it out for myself." and she knew will would have respectfully given her that time. she hadn't been wrong not to share it considering the situation she was in, yes? "no." she shook her head. "this was never about what was right for me. after everything… what mattered most was what was right for elaine. after everything --" she had to swallow back any emotion that had been burning its way up her throat. was she about to cry? sob? no, over her dead body but it had been very much present in that brief moment. "him? what have you done? GIDEON? my one fucking request was that you leave that boy alone. i want you to tell me you haven't done this?" she had to be wrong. her head wasn't working right, yes? that had to be it. she'd rather actually be fucking crazy than to think for a second he had done this when she specifically told him not too. "i'm safer out there where i actually stand a chance at defending myself rather than in here." she had no rights in here, she had no say - they could do whatever they wanted and it seemed the majority of the people in her life would give them a thumbs up for their efforts to destroy her. no. she was glad that her back was to him, he wouldn't see how she'd reacted to hearing that noise. 'you are the only one with the power to make this go away whilst there's still a chance. i miss you, all i can do in this hellhole is miss you. i need you to give me the chance to prove to you that i wouldn't dream of doing such a thing. after what i have experienced in here, i'm owed that. you owe me that.' even when he moved to change his position, she didn't let him go completely, knowing she couldn't. not ready to admit that it was the last thing she ever wanted to do. when he leaned down, she met him half way, gently pressing her forehead to his in return. cee now knew what she was going to do but she also knew timing was vital. if she rushed this moment, if she did anything wrong ; he could over power her and she wouldn't stand a chance at getting away. cecilia wished she could trust that he'd let her out, that he'd walk out of here and rip up any documents he'd signed but she couldn't. she couldn't trust that which was why she had to make this move, whilst she still could. moving that inch forward, she gently pressed her lips to his, well, it didn't stay as a gentle kiss for long. @fcdcdmcmories

"I.. I WASN'T A GOOD GUY BACK THEN. maybe i never really was, but.. when i met laney, i was involved in a lot of bad things. a lot of scams. anything to make some money, anything to make it by and.. she got in on them too. the point is? she trusted me. she loved me. she thought i was there for her - in a way that not even her own father was and.. when all was said and done? i left her to take the blame and took off. she paid for my mistakes. as for me? I.. I THOUGHT THAT I DID LOVE HER. ONCE. BACK THEN. I THOUGHT SHE WAS EVERYTHING I COULD EVER WANT, BUT.. then, i.. i made a mistake and she paid for it. there's more to it, it's a long story, but.. that's mostly the sum of it. the guilt has been following me around ever since and then, i met you. that's when i learned what love really is. what it is supposed to be. i did care for her, but.. i know now that love.. actually love someone? I'VE ONLY EVER LOVED YOU LIKE THAT," it wasn't an answer. in fact, he was avoiding the actual truth and the way that he and elaine did know each other. he had told her something, yes, but.. it was just the simple version of the STORY, when there was so MUCH MORE to it. but he knew that when it came out? when he told her? nothing would be the same again AND PERHAPS, HE WAS A COWARD. "it's not like that. my past with her is complicated, yes, but.. i love you. i want you. i do. more than anyone else." was that an answer? maybe not, but.. it was all that he had right now. he thought that a part of him would always love elaine, but.. he hadn't known what love was like back then. with her. what he had done to her? he would have never done to cecilia. ever. BACK THEN? HE HADN'T KNOWN WHAT TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WAS LIKE. he had only ever felt that for the woman standing in front of him. "yeah.. more at me than with me. he knows that you're here. well, not here, but.. he knows that you.. have gone to get the help you need. if i were to bring him here? he'd want to take you home. I'M NOT SURE HE HASN'T GONE OVER TO PEDERSON'S SIDE TOO, SO.. THAT CAN'T HAPPEN YET. I'M SORRY." shaking his head. no, he hadn't liked will's tone in the slightest and perhaps, that showed. "and not with me? because you knew i wouldn't agree?" more than that. the words? they made him take a step backwards, shaking his head. it was as if she had slapped him. he would have preferred that if that happened. "I.. I'M SORRY, I.. I DIDN'T WANT TO. THAT WASN'T MY INTENTION. I.. I'M SORRY. I THOUGHT I WAS TRYING TO.. DO WHAT WAS RIGHT. FOR YOU." looking down at the ground, because hand over his heart, that was how this had started. it had been his intention at first and no, he didn't want to think about how badly this had turned out to be. "he's had enough of all of this too, cee.. he just wants to see you safe. he's willing to do what it takes and as a matter of fact, pederson trusts him. it's only a matter of time." the DOUBT was clear in his expression. "i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. would you believe me if i said that a part of me started this because.. i wanted to keep you safe? i know it seems so far fetched, but.. YOU ARE NOT SAFE WHILE HE'S STILL BREATHING." without thinking, he placed his hands on his pockets, hitting the keys accidentally, as they jingled. he didn't think too much of it, considering that they were mixed with his car keys and wallet and the rest. he let his chin rest against her shoulder for a second, giving her hand a squeeze, as he laced their fingers together for a second. i don't want this to continue. i miss you. so much. i wished that it didn't have to. i wish that it could just be you and me again, and.. i'd take you out of here right now if i knew you weren't going to run back to him, but.. how can i be sure of that? around her, he did not think. without any spoken words, he didn't let go of her completely. instead, he changed his position, moving to stand in front of her instead, keeping one arm wrapped around her waist and letting his forehead rest against her own for a second. around her? it was impossible to not let his guard down. @xtinyslip