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#Julian fellowes please let’s have a chat and a fight cmon
mrburnsnuclearpussy · 2 years
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🌟✨🕯 Downtown abbey season 6 isn’t real it can’t hurt me ✨🕯🌟
#Downton abbey#i just want to be normal about this why can’t I be normal!!!#like god#I’ve calmed down now but why did they mangle Carson’s charcater so much#and Thomas’s story was just… :/#Julian fellowes please let’s have a chat and a fight cmon#:(#i just want to enjoy my fixations without them making me sick#but this has got me so upset from as soon as I fell into it and like#it’s not my fav obsession so far it’s been awful#more bad than good#but I can’t help it I literally never can#i just want to be over it!!!! but this could go on for years knowing from experience#like I know I’m being irrational and upset over nothing but also I’m not and like this is everything#why do these things take up my entire being and identity why can’t I just enjoy them and be normal about it#i hate this actually I’m sick of it#i keep trying to force myself to fall back into other fixations to take me out of it but It just doesn’t work#like if I could share it with ppl in a positive way maybe it’d be fine#but all there is is the fandom which all seem to HATE my fav character and it just makes it 100x worse#it’s literally more trouble than it’s worth why can’t I stop#and I can’t like just talk to ppl around me about this for obvious reasons but it sounds literally insane and so embarrassing which it is#so I just sit here and do my little job every day and keep it to myself#but like I hate it#i want to be normal because then you can share who you are fully and be loved for that
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