#JestersStory

[jester-darling]

Jester’s Story (Chapter One)

notes; Jenna and Jester are the same person, but Jester uses he/they and Jenna uses she/her. Also thank you @slovoricbutbetter for beta reading and actually getting me to post this!! CW/TW there’s mentions of bulling and self hatred. Hope you enjoy!

Jenna grew up knowing she was odd, weird, different, a million different words to describe her; none of them being normal. Jenna wasn’t normal, she knew that, but she wanted to be. Well, her mother wanted her to be. Jenna just wanted to be loved and happy, to earn love meant to be normal. 

“You can’t be normal with your obsessions Jenna!” She heard. 

“Look at this freak! Acting like our singing court jester!” She was teased. 

“God damn it, Jenna! Why can’t you just be a normal kid! Normal kids don’t HURT other kids to keep them away from crushes Jenna! God- just- just go to your room, I have to get ready for work. I don’t have time for this, just go.” Her mother always ranted.

Jenna grew tired, and fast, so when she was ten she put all of her obsessive tendencies, love, and general excitement in a box, and called the box her alter-ego Jester Darling. It was still her, just how she actually felt and was, she was Jester, and Jester her.

A completely normal thing to do as a ten year old, yep completely normal. That leads Jenna to now, a first year at a university in Russia, moving into her dorm, holding a box filled with Jester Darling themed items. 

“So roomie, what’s with the box of diamond stuff? Oh wow that’s a lot of lavender!” Her noisy dorm mate asks. 

“Oh nothing much, just some merch from a streamer I like.” Jenna grumbles shoving the box under the, honestly rather crappy, bed supplied by the school. Jenna glared at the box, Jester Darling is supposed to stay hidden. Jenna and Jester are supposed to stay separate. Why did this nosy good for nothing-

Jenna hated nosy people, she knew that. She sighed and took a deep breath, readying herself to stand. Jenna whimpers softly as she stands, the hard, cold floor of the dorm didn’t help her knees. 

She had gone with a perfectly normal pink and yellow theme for her half of the dorm, perfectly cute, perfectly normal, perfectly Jenna. 

“Sorry! I never introduced myself! I’m Jenna. It's nice to meet you!” Jenna smiled at the dorm mate she almost immediately forgot the name of, this is going to be a long year.