#Izzy is scrambling around in my head like a little skrunkly rat

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I really think Izzy thought he had a good bond with Ed

He probably thought he was as close as anyone could get to ed, that they had this unbreakable, power pair bond and that nothing would get between them

And honestly I think he had repressed Fruity Feelings about Ed that he never allowed to the surface because Blackbeard doesn’t date, doesn’t love. Blackbeard only knows death and loss and there’s no room for feelings in their line of work. Izzy can deal with that thought.

And then Stede happened, and Izzy saw that Ed can love, wholly and truthfully, and the worst part of it all is that Izzy never stood a chance and even though he knew that all along it really tore open the wound. All he can do is hope to turn Edward back into Blackbeard, restore things to how they were before Stede, cause realistically he lost everything when Stede and his crew came around. Ed didn’t want him around anymore, and his crew mates were getting along with the crew on the revenge better than anyone ever got along with Izzy

And yeah maybe Izzy does come off as a selfish dick who’s power hungry and full of mindless bloodlust but actually I think that’s partially born of self-preservation, since after all if nobody is looking out for Izzy, and nobody wants Izzy to look out for them, then the only person left to look out for is himself. He turns all of that internalised hate and insecurity onto everyone else which makes everything worse but what else can you even do aside from fading into the background? When people don’t let you have any power, or any significance or meaning, the only thing you can do is scream and yell and hope someone will hear the weight of your ramblings, especially when you USED to have power and significance and meaning and you’ve been replaced by some guy who at face value isn’t any better or more important than you

All I’m saying is I forgive Izzy. A little bit. Just a bit. I think he deserves that much. And also he needs to get laid I think