#Its very hard to find songs because im looking for such specific things.. but I'm getting very close

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

Can you explain some if thé songs in your ultimate V3 playlist and why thé are there

ANON. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE GIFT THIS ASK IS TO ME. I WOULD LOVE TO

The playlist is gonna end up being pretty long so let me pull out a few I'm particularly excited about right now, one per chapter

CH1: Haunted House - Sir Babygirl. To me, this song is for Kaede's doubts after they find Rantaro's body. She's scared because Rantaro wasn't the mastermind, she's fucked up really bad, but she still has to keep going despite this

CH2: Leopard - Jack Stauber. This is one of the oldest songs on my DR playlist in general. I feel like it represents Ryoma's murder really well, especially the part that goes "And the minds under the floor / Don't see the life as a chore / Though the bad is gone, and they're no longer sore / They can't feel the light anymore"

CH3: ¡Aikido! (Neurotic Erotic) - Will Wood. This one represents Tenko's feelings for Himiko, and while it's fairly upbeat there is a sense of melancholy to it I feel that fits with her desperation at the beginning of ch3. Plus the fact that it literally has Aikido in the title is just such a beautiful coincidence. This is THE Tenko song.

CH4: Snowcone - Rei Ami. Rather than talk about one of the 5+ Gonta songs I have in this section (GIVE ME A BREAK) Here's one for Miu. This song is the perfect transition from the beginning of the chapter into deadly life. The first half is the kind of confident music that absolutely fits Miu, but it ends with a self-deprecating sadder sequence that perfectly fits what Miu was going through this chapter.

CH5: Kiss me, Son of God - They Might be Giants. This one's for Kokichi's re-entrance at the beginning of Ch5. I have two songs like this for him this chapter, this kind of arrogant boasting but there's an undertone of his awareness that he's truly alone because of the things he's done. I like the kind of song for Kokichi that suits the front he puts on but you can just barely see between the cracks.

CH6: Paparazzi Murder Party - Vane Lily. This song's for the retrial of Rantaro's murder, and the revelation that it was Tsumugi who did it all along. I really like the imagery of this song, it fits well with the idea that Rantaro is kind of a celebrity already (since he was the survivor of a previous killing game). And the lyrics also fit well with the slow reveal that she was behind the killing game "'freak.' / 'You're such a freak.' / Well, sorry, but / I'm just being me"

[xwiedzmax]

okay so. twitch was being mean. and didnt let me redeem a song on stream yesterday. so. here i am ranting about good kid from the lightning thief musical again. because i was robbed and didnt get to have it on stream. and its so coded and i need people to know about it

"Six schools in six years / Been kicked out of every place / Everything I ever do is wrong / Never find where I belong / Everybody on my case" this is just Icarus. its so Icarus. its them failing, falling, all over again. but its especially them being the villain over and over again with the 'everybody on my case' line. They can never find a good home without something going wrong. They just keep failing, keep being a failure.

"The same old story / The same old song:"Don't act up, don't act out / Be strong" / I keep my head down I keep my chin up / But it ends up all the same / With "Pack your bags, Percy, you're always to blame." " its about Icarus repeating their mistakes, maybe even as a child - being ordered by Fable. but its just in general them. its them failing, like "you're always to blame". like. It's them making mistakes and everyone blaming them for doing the bad things.

"I never try to do anything / I never mean to hurt anyone / I try, I try to be a good kid / A good kid / A good son" do i need to say anything? no. but i will say words anyways. like. look at that. they never meant to hurt people, they never meant to be the villain. theyre just trying to be good. and especially when Fable came into the picture again "i try, i try to be a good kid, a good kid, a good son" theyre trying to be good, to impress Fable, to be a good son.

"But no one ever will take my side / All I ever do is take the fall / I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid / Guess I'm good for nothing at all" this is like, especially during s1, 2 and 3 coded. its no one taking their side during corruption, not liking Centross, siding with Fable. and like. "all i ever do is take the fall" like. like it cant be more coded. they literally keep falling. over and over. and the "guess im good for nothing at all" is literally them after killing Momboo, that they cant do good, that why try to be good when they kill everything they love. like-

"Gabe was a world class jerk / Dad was never there / The only family that really mattered? / Well, she vanished into the air" this. this could be coded. you could code that. in several ways, probably. Gabe could be Rae, from Ic's pov, during childhood times. or perhaps Enderian. dad could be either Isla or mayhaps Fable. and the one who vanished could be either Isla or Rae, Fable too. it depends how you wanna look at it.

"And now I finally find a haven / Someplace safe, where I can stay 'Till it's "Pack your bags, Percy / Now go, go away!" " this is specifically them in season 2, they finally found a good place, everything was fine, and then they say that one line, that one line about that training arena and they ruin everything

"I never try to do anything / I never mean to hurt anyone / I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid / Yeah, Percy, that's a good one" this is them after killing Momboo, they tried to be good, they tried to do good, but they failed, it seems like they can never do good can they?

"but no one ever will take my side / all I ever do is take the fall / I swear I swear that I'm a good kid / I guess I'm good for nothing at all" again, this is just very Icarus is general but this song can't be more coded. Like "all I ever do is take the fall" y'know how they always fall. And the "I guess I'm good for nothing at all" is also just them after killing Momboo, they can't do good, they can't do good no matter how hard they try, they're good for nothing.

"all the schools in six years, every battle, every day / no one ever tells me that they're proud / no one asks me "Percy how'd you like to come around and stay" " every reset they do something wrong. All the different places during different resets, they try to be good but eventually just fail. "No one ever tells me that they're proud" but that's all they want, isn't it? Someone to be proud of them, their dad to be proud of them. And yet they always end up alone or isolating themself.

"all you get are bad grades and a bum rap and a bad rep and a good smack and no friends and no hope and no mom... she's taken away" them, failing and falling over and over. They just go through the resets, one mistake after another, eventually left alone. "I swear I never stole anything / I never meant to hurt anyone / I swear I swear that I'm a good kid / who's had a bad run" they never meant to do the bad things, yet they continued to do them. They want others (Fable) to believe that they're good, even though they don't think they are. Something something doomed by the narrative.

"and all I need is one last chance / to prove I'm good enough for someone / I'm good enough for someone" this is in s3, wanting to impress Fable, wanting to try to prove they can be useful, they can do something, they're something other than a failure. They want to prove they're good enough for their dad, that they can help him, that they can be good and useful and they can make him proud.

So yeah. Go listen to this song, put it on your Ic playlists, this is a threat /silly

[namorslutfanfiction]

girl I'm down bad for tenoch, like i havent been in a long time for a male celebrity. i am obsessed!! his birthday is tomorrow!

i have so much curiosity about him (as a person, you know), like does he believe in astrology? hes such an aquarius! and because of that, the answer could be yes or no hahah

I have been practicing my spanish more nowadays; i have read almost every single tweet this man has tweeted. im currently reading his book (which is amazing!! must read for people who want to know more about mexicos power dynamics, racism, colorism! very enlightening; as a latina myself, i could swap mexico to my countrys name and it would fit perfectly) (also he is very articulated, intelligent and funny! such an easy-going read besides the theme).

whats his favorite book? what kind of songs he listens to? share your spotify account with me tenoch!!

whats his comfort food? whats his WhatsApp profile picture? is it from a professional shoot or a selfie he took on his phone? did he cave in and bought an iphone? did he have pets growing up? whos taking care of his plants back home?

does he have a nickname? maybe 'Té', or 'Noche'? or is it something that has nothing in common with his name (my family nickname is completely different from my given name)?

and so on so on!! i need ANSWERS!! necesito tomarme un trago con el!! necesito pachequearme y hablar de la vida con este hombre!!!

Same. Like I literally found myself back on this godforsaken site after years because I needed to be able to vent about my love and obsession for this man.

Oh I would love to know his random opinions and his belief systems. I think he would find it amusing that we have looked up his astrological chart to the best of our abilities. Like he would definitely think "wow thats extensive" but he wouldn't make fun of it like some guys do.

So I know like very rudimentary Spanish that I learned because of my job. I got so often mistaken as some type of latin or hispanic person that it was easier to learn enough Spanish to get by and guests were always so understanding. "Oh she can understand us but it's hard for her to reply." I want to learn more Spanish but I don't have the time right now. I wish I could read his book but a translation isn't out yet.

As a filipino I feel like there will be a lot for me to relate to in the book considering the rampant colorism in all parts of Asia. Filipinos are often referred to as the 'Mexicans' of Asia. Which is weird but also fitting. What snippets of translation I've seen have been so interesting though.

I know he hates reggaeton with so much passion its kind of hysterical. I think I remember him mentioning one of his favorite books in an interview but I can't remember off the top of my head. I knoooow this man has all kinds of proud Latin music on his playlist. Also unabashed bangers like Selena.

He apparently has a screenshot from his whatsapp on his twitter somewhere and I think it's like a normal pic not anything professional.

DOES TENOCH HAVE PLANTS? THAT IS THE QUESTION I NEED ANSWERED BECAUSE I AM A PLANT MOM!

Did you see that interview where he was mad hungry and eating the food the interviewer bought him? I wonder if he's one of those mexican dads who is willing to try a bunch of stuff or if he's the type to always choose latin food over anything else.

I've seen some of his activist friends call him 'Noch' or 'Nochie' I also know that Diego Luna specifically calls him 'chiquitin'. And that makes me giggle because I think he smiles his stupid cute smile every time Diego calls him that.

LOL I have two first names and depending on who you are decides which one you call me. So I don't have any nicknames. Everyone would just get even more confused.

I wanna talk to him about everything, life, love, politics, bull shit, the things that make us happy, the things that make us sad. I wanna talk about our pasts, our futures, our dreams.

I want his advice. Like I bet he gives the best life advice.

thank you for the ask,

[chocottang]

heyyys hope this isnt an awkward ask but, since you like cami a very normal amount i presume, i thought i'd ask... do you maybe understand or have any interpretations or headcanons about cami and her shadow and how they manage to coexist in the same body together?

(e.g.: is cami always her shadow? do you think she see it and interact with it like fred? how come she has more control over it than other characters but still not enough? etc.)

overall just your personal thoughts about it just because i think that was never really explained in the show and i would love to see what someone who has such a complex and interesting understanding of her backstory thinks about it ! hope this isnt weird to ask hnhnfnfng

hey! not weird or awkward at all, i love getting asks! and thanks for the nice comments u///u

i put a read more just in case it's too long

like you said, cami's shadow wasn't explored a lot in the show, we only got two frames to be exact.

i'm going to call her shadow tat

i already talked about the first frame in the analysis: i think tat came out as a result of cami's realization that she's not alone, that eak and t-trap have been with her all along. tat was probably triggered by the uncommon influx of overwhelming emotions. her purporse seems to be to keep the body going as normal, since the only thing that we see of cami after this is a frame where she looks the same. we don't know if it's cami or tat in z3r0 but she's also acting the same.

about the second frame, it's interesting in the context of the song, because tat seems to be reaching for something while the lyrics talk about finding a way out. after the song, tat takes over the body, so maybe it was alluding to the way out of the shadow world. but, the frame also goes together with this one in an interesting way.

this frame is actually supposed to go with the one of ttrap reaching for cami when they were kids, cami only reaching out now. but, it could go with both of them. cami is both reaching towards ttrap and tat. meaning, she wasn't taken over by her, but rather, she let tat take control. it may be alluding to cami letting her most repressed emotions take over again, accepting them. nevertheless, we know shadows are sentient beings, not just metaphors, so this leads me to think that:

1. even though cami was met with a pretty strong realization after eavesdropping eak and ttrap, she didn't want to actively change anything about her life. at least not yet.

2. cami and tat have at least met before for cami to willingly give her control. besides, they don't look even mildly surprised about what's happening. only on the second frame does tat look different and it doesnt strike me as surprised, but rather like she's just reaching hard.

which brings me to this question: how does cami have powers? a little out of nowhere, but bare with me.

cami and owynn have powers of some sort that are connected to the shadow world, they can make someone's shadow come out and cami can make someone into a mindless zombie.

we've seen that shadows have some sort of power. gold could turn people into mindless zombies (or maybe he was just retransmitting cami's power?), shadow fox had some sort of fire (or maybe he was the fire?) and fred was able to...explode...and make a group of people forget the last year of their lives.

in z3r0, we learn that when humans and shadows fuse, they gain powers that can debilitate shadows.

this makes me think that cami and owynn's powers are nothing more than their shadow's powers. i don't think its a fusion, since those powers seem to be specifically for debilitating shadows, the opposite of what owynn and cami do. in the case of cami, her powers may be just her shadow coming out, since we dont see her eyes very often. but im very sure that the one time owynn used his powers on that one piano, it was himself. so, there exists a way for a human to borrow their shadow's power. meaning, they have to have a relationahip with them in some way. do they make a deal? do they force them? i dont know. but based on the little we see of tat, it seems that at least her and cami are in good terms.

i don't think it's in the level of fred and freddy though, as i believe most shadows are confined to the shadow world unless they take over the human's body. fred is an exception, a very special boy. but i don't think it's necessary to have a ghost form in order to form a bond with a human. the villains seem to know quite a bit about the shadow world, so maybe they found a way to access it on command so they can regularly talk to their shadow and make sure they access its powers.

so, i think cami and tat are in good terms, and cami visits her regularly in the shadow world. whether it be for accessing her power or to talk about what tat has done outside with the power. since the powers are used to serve the villains, tat has to know about the plan and is on board with everything, and since cami has always been aware of what's happened regarding the plan, it means tat is always telling her what she's done (if she's the one using the powers). they really trust each other and are on the same page. at some point, they had an agreement that when cami has to deal with strong emotions, tat will go out. this may be so cami can escape the situation so she doesn't have to deal with her feelings, while tat keeps normalcy. also, so they can be a productive peon for owynn regardless of the situation. so, they have open communication and willingly give control of the body over to the other one, the frequency of this depending on if tat is responsible for all magic acts or if she only goes out on dire ocassions.

the fact that she has more control over her shadow than most characters may be because she simply has more of a relationship with her. or, perhaps the control she attempts to have over her own feelings manifests in a docile shadow, easily controlled. I don't think tat has the same cold personality as cami, but rather she pretends to. i think, in reality, she houses cami's deepest and most repressed feelings, and tat pretends that she doesnt have them so cami won't get mad at her. she does it and agrees on everything cami wants to do so she continues visiting her. even shadows can get lonely, especially in the black endless nothing of the shadow world.

uhh i think that's all i have. its mostly dumb theorizing. thanks for the ask!!! it was really fun to think about. i do like cami a very normal amount <3

[fandomanimatic-tournament]

Fandom song animatic tournament: Bracket 2 Side B

Pad Thai - Jack Stauber

"Maddening, it's a regular bad thing! Pad Thai, I'm a normal guy! Saddening, nothing's really happening! That's right, take a big bite!"

How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20

"But I believe the world is burning to the ground Oh well, I guess we're gonna find out Let's see how far we've come Let's see how far we've come"

Remember that we're voting on how Iconic they are for ANIMATICS, not for the song itself. In order to make things fair, the tone and mood of the song should not affect how iconic it is (for example, a serious song should not be considered more iconic than a joke song just because it's serious)

Propaganda and animatic links of the songs under the cut:

Pad Thai - Jack Stauber

Propaganda:

No Written Propaganda Submitted

Animatics with the song:

Helluva Boss

OMORI

Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun mitsukou

TGCF

DSMP

How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20

Propaganda:

Aside from two of my favourite ever animatics being to this (Homestuck and Hermitcraft 8) it’s such a fandom song (genuinely up there with soldier poet king in the “oh my god it’s just like my d&d party” vibe). So many stories are about averting an apocalypse or some other looming threat “I’m waking up at the start of the end of the world” and the whole song is about reflecting back on your life and that of the world around you. It’s perfect for a climatic buildup to the end of a campaign or series finale, or a summary of an entire work. “Say your goodbyes if you’ve got someone you can say goodbye to” is perfect for drawing ships or friends or siblings to, with maybe one solitary person at the end. The percussion and guitar also make it very suited to animatics - there’s perfect parts in the music to switch between frames or scenes. It’s been around since 2007 so it’s nostalgic and from the peak of amvs and animatics. Please this song fucks so hard look at all the lyrics listen to it on loop it’s so quintessential to me

the DRAMA. the STORY. the EMOTIONS. this is a song for an animatic that covers character growth and major plot points, and it does it so well! if i am invested in the fandom and watch a how far we've come animatic i already know it will change me as a person

Dude. It makes the heart swell with emotion and pride at wow these characters sure have come far

It's the OG. I don't even know if homestuck started its popularity in the animatic scene but it was huge and it remains huge. From TAZ to (apparently, from a quick youtube search) hermitcraft, this song will tear at people's heartstrings as they think about blorbos the band has can't even imagine.

this song makes me so emotional ok? i know lots of fandoms use it but the ones that stuck with me are warrior cats, hermitcraft and of course homestuck. sorry for the cringe but im glad to be free. anyways this is THE song for anything that has either ended or had a large amount of time pass and also its just a really fucking good song on its own.

Animatics with the song:

Hermitcraft

The Adventure Zone

DSMP

Last Life SMP

Homestuck

Please be cautious and read the title, description and warning cards on the animatic videos if you decide to watch them. If you've got specific triggers I'd recommend even more caution when watching animatics of fandoms you don't know, since sometimes canon-typical themes don't get warnings.

Please keep in mind that I don't know all the media and fandoms of the animatics provided as examples and I don't have the time (nor the will) to research them all. Don't come into my notes or my ask box complaining about them being included, I will simply block you. If a ship animatic included is about an adult and a minor, do tell me and I'll take it out of the post

ALSO keep in mind that I don't know all the artists submitted; in fact, even if I do know them I do not know absolutely nothing about them as people (I do not have twitter nor tiktok) and I could not POSSIBLY have the time to research ALL of the artists' controversies and what came of them so PLEASE don't flood my inbox with the artists' entire crime list.

[autisticempathydaemon]

hey hey! idk if this is where I submit for the match up! but I would love to see who you think I'd fit in with! I'm a creative soul who tends to try to develop deep friendships with people above everything. I have a bit of a savior complex as well lol I work hard and play harder, trying to find new adventures to go on with those i care about. I tend to support others before supporting myself, and while im happy to let others open up to me its hard for me to open up in return. the best way i can feel close to someone is deep conversations and being creative with them!

My current fav song has been Maybe IDK by John Bellion, specifically the lyric "i guess if i knew tomorrow i guess i wouldnt need faith"  just the idea of living today to the best you can just because you don't know what will happen tomorrow. the worries of the future should keep you down today

My current fav Redacted audio has to be the Helping your Werewolf bf shift again. Specifically the acting is just so good to me. Erik did an amazing job of portraying Milo's anguish and pain at not being able to shift. Plus the relieved sobs at the end is so satisfying and emotional. 

The one boy i cant get the hype around is Ivan. like sure the yandere thing is somewhat attractive to some, but i just don't like the idea of an actual psychopath being obsessed with me.

my favorite movie is definitely the Secret Life of Walter Mitty by Ben Stiller. its less of a quotable movie and more of i remember every scene very distinctly. its a movie that envelops my own escapism. its beautifully shot, wonderfully acted, and a wholesome story on a rainy day.

my platonic redacted crush has to be Damien. he seems like a blast to interact with and tease. he's a hard worker and is tied close to his goals which i can admire. i would love to body double with him if i had some tasks to get done

space is also 100% my ramble subject when im sleepy, that and greek mythology

My guilty pleasure media is currently the animated shows Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Lego Monkie Kid. despite being kids shows, both of these are beautifully animated and shockingly well written!

I hope that gives you an idea of me! I look forward to who you think i match with!

Hmm, lots of good tidbits of information to consider. You strike me as really thoughtful, really caring, and I think Lasko could really benefit from a partner like that.

A savior complex, from what I understand, is just wanting to help people and make their lives better, and Lasko’s a guidance counselor, so y’all would have that in common. What’s good about pairing two people like that is y’all could keep each other in line, so to speak. Something that’s important when you’re always looking out for other people is to make sure someone is always looking out for you and vice versa. You and Lasko together would always make sure you’re taking care of others, each other, and yourselves.

Another reason I like the two of you together is that you like being creative with one another as a bonding activity. You know what’s the ultimate way to be creative together? Tabletop role playing games! If you don’t already play, Lasko would be so excited to help you with a character sheet, to help you craft a backstory, paint some mini figurines, go out and buy the perfect game dice and notebooks- the greatest combination of nerdy and cute in a couple.

Song:

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go/ Will you won't you, be the one I always know?/ When I'm losing my control, the city spins around/ You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

One, the whole vibe of “you slow me down, I’ll look after you, we’re here for each other” vibes are exactly what I’m picturing for y’all. Also, Lasko and I are around the same age, and I heard this song a lot growing up. I have some weird, like, emotional resonance with it from childhood, and I think Lasko does too. Like, it makes him nostalgic and longing; maybe he always wanted someone to look after and to look after him, and now he’s finally found that in you.

Runner-Ups:

A very reasonable runner-up for you would be Camelopardalis because he would do a great job making sure you balance work and your personal life and that you don’t put others before yourself too much. A more fun runner-up would be Guy because I love sticking that beautiful Creative Writing major with other beautiful, creative people!

note: thank you for waiting, dear, and I hope you like your match-up! 💕

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[prettyflyshyguy]

Alright for the freaks who are oldschool Supernatural tumblr people, or just normal supernatural people, and for the rest who are just like me and don't know shit: I'm dumping all my garbo takes under the cut.

Mostly gonna be me either being really enamored or really upset.

No in-between. These things are either great or the worst. My tastes are specific and I'm picky with vampire fiction and rarely do I find media that ticks the boxes yet, I still watch almost anything I can find obsessively.

Who knows maybe this'll become a new casual TV series if I like the dynamics. Anyway, long post warning under the cut.

They got Bela Lugosi's Dead playing in a room full of nu-metal heads LMFAO

truly the alt communities have always been done so dirty in media

least they did their research on song choices

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jesus christ

flashbacks to my steampunk phase circa 2011

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I LOVE that this woman looks so normie and looks so delighted when she meets this equally normie looking dude in an alternative bar (i want to go there the people seem chill and the vibes are impeccable)

anyway who is this guy he seems familiar

love that they made the most normal dude in the bar the real monster good on them :)

christ they just took one look at twilight and went yeah lets TV parody this shit just for a laugh didnt they

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHE'S 17

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(DID SHE HAVE A FAKE ID I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION)

OK ok ok you get big bonus points just for this bit. Just for this bit.

Thank you supernatural go off

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"I'm just scared I'm dreaming and I'll wake up in math class" girl me too

im sorry this woman looks so much older than 17

POINTS DEDUCTED

POINTS DEDUCTED

BAD TEETH

great eyes, horrendous teeth. very dissapointed. I'm only here for the fucked up canines because we already HAVE them and whats better than perverting the existing human form into something subtly wrong

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This show has such an aggressive title screen compared to buffy and the x files LMAO

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ok i can get behind the chevvy, the chevvy is nice

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

POINTS ADDED - holy shit points added for this cheesy poster alone really capturing the schtick of the late 2000s

ok i get it, i get it guys, they're fun, they're funny, they've got a great sibling energy, the periodic 'screaming' happening in the background of this scene is sending me

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this has been too fun so far i feel like somethings gonna ruin it

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Ok this is so self aware yet the degree they're committing is just.

its marvelous. this is peak. I'm into it.

there are so many ads please i want to see dean have a bad day

Holy shit is that Skinner from the x files i love that guy

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the fashion. iconic. if anything I'll be coming back to this for inspiration for myself.

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the way Dean just slammed that guy on the car yelling "OPEN YOUR MOUTH"

yeah instant favourite.

you've rounded a corner, a dude has just beat the shit out of your brother and now he's about to force feed him blood and your response is: stand there staring like the shocked pikachu

oh so you wait till after he's done to scream "no!" in a half hearted tone

is there something I'm missing here, i know Sam gets a bit cooked at some point (does he get possessed??? idk) so I'm gonna assume thats whats going on

this is the best 'turning' scene I've ever had the pleasure of witnessing in all my years of trawling through vampire media

holy shit the team that wrote this episode fucking get it

the audio design, the acting, is so on point

Supernatural Crew you cooked so hard and I'm deeply thanking you for it

this was fucking made for me what the fuck what the fruck what the fuck what the fuc

Nooooo dont have an emotional breakdown in the bathroom looking at your fangs, but you're so sexy aha

The constant heartbeats anytime Deans in a room with someone got me grinning like :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

ok points deducted, again, for bad teeth but my god

the "I gotta go-" scene GOOD SHIT GOOD SHIT

someone get this kicked puppy a sippy cup

a red fanta chug jug

where is his sippy cup

look i know its probably not fun, at all, to drink red mystery meat juice on set but its gotta be cheaper than CGI teeth. Please.

Please let more relunctant vampires reluctantly chug jug (with you)

Oh Never Mind they wrote it in that he can't drink or he's stuck >:(

im still having a good time, just a bit less of a good time

YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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using a large serrated knife to cut appart a horde of vampires seems like a great idea and getting covered in blood you're not supposed to drink is inevitable

but watch out

Sam: thats a pretty mentally stable thing to do

I REALLY WANT TO

CHUG JUG WITH YOU

ok this scene of him makes up for the lack of authentic blood chug jug I'll take what I can get

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Ok final thoughts: that was a solid 7 and a half out of 10

thank you Supernatural you hit almost all the high notes when most stuff falls flat for me. Still, you came soooooooooo close. And got so far. And Yet in the end it doesnt even matter.

Still, this one's going straight to the pool room, and I can comfortably say I'm throwing it on the shelf of 'comfort media' that I can go back to on a bad day.

This had some fucking BANGER scenes that surpassed my expectations and deeply pleasantly surprised me. Good shit! As someone who is hard to please, this was a riot. Still; a shame they arbritrarily rules-d him taking a chunk out of someone. Would have been sick. Could have had the great slow build up of the initial turning scene - him and the love interest, holding back - then him cracking it after holding out and snapping.

It is not too much to ask, I swear. It's a good trope.

Do I dare take the risk of trawling through fanfiction to find another horribly specific weirdo like me, because Supernatural seems huge and a scary place to fanfic trawl.

[mellyncholly]

tagged by my buddy stark (@lastquincy) to do this one! thank you :)

last song i heard:

"honey i'm home" by destroy boys. this was the only song from destroy boys (current favorite band) that i hadn't heard until a few days ago when bluejay literally made me listen to it and WOWWW. extremely catchy and the lyrics hit hard as fuck for me.

favorite color:

wouldn't you believe it. it's red. shades of red that could be classified as 'blood' or 'wine' are esp my favorites, and i also really like black. i started wearing more colors in 2023 (red, of course) but recently i've been leaning more into dressing punk and wearing mostly black.i love black

my favorite shades. however im a little bit twisted and i REALLY like any shade of red that is purely R and has no Gs or Bs.

this is a fucking angel to me ok.

last watched series:

my last watched "series" in general would technically be the walten files since a new one came out. by god those files really are walten. specifically in terms of TV though right now i'm watching the sopranos and sometimes mr. robot from time to time, both very good i'm enjoying them a lot especially the latter, although i think my last complete TV series was black mirror. some episodes weren't all too great in comparison to others but for the most part i really enjoyed it.

sweet/spicy/savory:

i'm very much a savory person. the taste is always so great but there is also something that feels so fulfilling about eating something savory compared to something that is sweet or spicy. i do enjoy a little sweetness or a little spice in my food sometimes though. writing this and thinking about food made me go boil a pot of water i want ramen so bad.

relationship status:

i'm single (SHGOULDN'T BE!!!!!) but i'm looking to try and meet people soon. i'm still a little unsure of my sexuality (probably bi lesbian?) but i'm almost certain of the person i am and who i wanna be so that's good. expressing myself sexually has become really important to me so even finding a fwb partner would be nice.

last thing i googled:

the last thing i googled was 'is ramen considered savory'. i was googling a lot of questions about what's considered 'savory' because i saw that question about preference between sweet and spicy and savory and immediately forgot what foods are classified as savory. i don't know how food works

current obsession:

oh my god don't even get me started. it's a four-way between signalis, monument mythos, walten files, and undertale right now. however i'd argue that walten files is only growing again right now and monument mythos for me is always a constant because i love it that much, so currently it would probably be signalis or undertale. i replayed undertale for the first time in at least 7 years in the last couple weeks and it was incredible especially because i could finally understand a lot of stuff i didn't understand or pick up on before, i vaguely got it when i was younger but i never picked up on the deeper, subtle characterization of so many of the characters and all of the details. undertale is an absolute masterpiece. another masterpiece i've been obsessed with is signalis. signalis was my first survival horror and it was an incredible, tense, tear-jerking experience. its such a beautiful and horrifying game about women and sapphic love and uuuuUUGGH it's PERFECT. the soundtrack is beautiful, amazingly composed and performed, the graphics are perfect for the vibe it's trying to go for. the characters all have fun designs and the main characters and story are all so intriguing it just keeps me thinking about the metaphorical themes of it all. signalis is a huge inspiration to me and i have so many thoughts about it please check it out.

last thing i read:

the last thing i read was chainsaw man! i LOVE chainsaw man and it's another massive inspiration for me...asa mitaka makes me feel so fuckin happy. autistic high school girl that i relate to so deeply. last time i read it, the story left off at a pretty big point so i should definitely pick it back up again before i start getting far behind again. the story was going somewhere that i thought was extremely interesting so i'm excited to see how it continues.

something i've been looking forward to:

in the long-term, i'm looking forward to a lot of things in the summer! i'm turning 21, going on a road trip to see a concert and visit a friend across the state, going to anthrocon, and maybe doing some stuff for pride! i'll be doing all of this with two of my best friends in the world and i'm really excited, although i am definitely nervous about the road trip since i'll be the one driving but i think it'll be OK since i'll have my friends with me :) i think this summer will be great because of all of the above but this also feels like it's gonna be the first summer where i won't be almost entirely focused on my job and i feel like myself!

i don't have anyone in particular that i want to tag for this but if you want, feel free to make a post like this :)

[wolfriver777]

dissecting my mdzs playlist

It is very small cause I don't go out of my way to find songs to associate with characters they come to me while I'm chilling. I have a bit to say and like also lyrics to force ya'll to read.

Things to Do - Alex G. I associate this song largely with Lan Xichen and post canon in particular. This lyric in particular drives me insane /pos "The calculator will make the same mistakes Yeah, I see it in its face" The lyrics in gen I think just really hit the spot for Lan Xichen.

I Wait for You - Alex G. Wangxian!!! More specifically Lan Wangji, it's just so them i encourage you to look at the lyrics, but of course the classic chorus "It's nothing new I wait for you" and the beginning " Selling pills to the girls when they cross the block I told him he should quit that sketchy scene He said, "Nothing compares to the fever dream" ughughugh *explodes*

Lacy - Olivia Rodrigo. Jiang cheng and Wei Wuxian yes easily chengxian too me cause of how kinda homoerotic the song is if you ask me. I wish I could just copy and paste all the lyrics here cause the whole song fits them so fucking well!!! I think the 2nd verse just hits the chengxian vibes the most "Smart sexy Lacy, I'm losing it lately I feel your compliments like bullets on skin Dazzling starlet, Bardot reincarnate Well, aren't you the greatest thing to ever exist?" The 2nd chorus also hits so hard but theres one more i want to add that just hits harder than the chorus, the final verse is just *chef's kiss* "Lacy, oh, Lacy, it's like you're out to get me You poison every little thing that I do Lacy, oh, Lacy, I just loathe you lately And I despise my jealous eyes and how hard they fell for you Yeah, I despise my rotten mind and how much it worships you" It's about the envy and its delicious

Can't Catch Me Now - Olivia Rodrigo. Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian, yes my brain also reads this with a chengxian vibe. I love the idea that through out those 13 years that Wei Wuxian's memory bitterly haunted Jiang Cheng, there's something awful about the idea of Jiang Cheng having an intense freak out because well, Wei Wuxian is gone, he's dead. " Bet you thought I'd never do it Thought it'd go over my head I bet you figured I'd pass with the winter Be somethin' easy to forget Oh, you think I'm gone 'cause I left" This verse in particular itches my brain just right and then of course the chorus as well drives me insane, when i tell you, you can imagine Jiang Cheng so breaking down to this song and it drives me insane But I'm in the trees, "I'm in the breeze My footsteps on the ground You'll see my face in every place But you can't catch me now Through wading grass, the months will pass You'll feel it all around I'm here, I'm there, I'm everywhere"

The Night We Met - Lord Huron. Lan Wangji, wangxian if you will. Honestly I shouldn't copy and paste another whole damn song, BUT this damn line "I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you" I'm just gonna explode again, yall should totally listen to the whole song or like read all the lyrics cause god fucking damn.

Wait for It - Hamilton musical. Jiang Cheng, Once again fellasI shoudn't copy and paste a whole 'nother song but fuuuuuck, admittedly I had forgotten how Jiang Cheng this song is until I'm listening to it to write this. "When they died they left no instructions Just a legacy to protect" look at me and tell me that doesn't have the vibes of the fall of Lotus Pier! Also the damn chorus god that just fits the vibe of of mdzs as a whole in my brain "Death doesn't discriminate Between the sinners and the saints It takes and it takes and it takes And we keep living anyway"... Mdzs is so just, there's a lot of grey area to me but god. I seriously cant post the whole damn lyrics but towards the end it get's very Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian and just ugh im going insane.

Night Shift - Lucy Dacus. Jiang Cheng, chengxian. Let me just copy and paste the whole lyrics again. This verse in particular "Am I a masochist, resisting urges to punch you in the teeth Call you a bitch and leave? Why did I come here? To sit and watch you stare at your feet? What was the plan? Absolve your guilt and shake hands?" and this one " Now bite your tongue, it's too dangerous to fall so young Take back what you said Can't lose what you never had" and of course the final verses(?) " You got a 9 to 5, so I'll take the night shift And I'll never see you again if I can help it In five years I hope the songs feel like covers Dedicated to new lovers" The way this verse is just repeated and builds up in sound and just yall, I'm screaming and crying just thinking about the vibes in my head that I just cant word! The whole "never seeing you again if I can help it" what if I was evil y'all?

True Blue - boygenius. Wei Wuxian. God I honestly don't know at this point what lyric made me pin point this as a song for him. It just definitely feels it can be about him you know. "When you don't know who you are, you fuck around and find out When you called me from the train, water freezing in your eyes You were happy and I wasn't surprised" Wei Wuxian always figures it out, god just yeah and the chorus about how it feels good to be known and you cant hide from them like you hide from yourself? uuuuh Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng! and "You've never done me wrong Except for that one time that we don't talk about Because it doesn't matter anymore Who won the fight? I don't know, we're not keeping score" I am so evil about them god, And Wei Wuxian's love being tried and just waaaaah im gonna explode

Stay Down - boygenius. Wei Wuxian. When I tel you there's a verse that is so Wei Wuxian and it make's me so damn evil, The song as a whole fits him so well but this verse is just so him especially post sunshot campaign me thinks. " So, would you teach me? I'm the villain, aren't I? Aren't I the one constantly repenting for a difficult mind? Push me down into the water like a sinner Hold me under and I'll never come up again" God try and tell me that it doesn't suit him, go on. I just sdlfhlskxfjlksdfj

Afraid of Heights - boygenius. Lan Xichen and Jin Guangyao. Xiyao. Thought this had vibes, friend said that it fits xiyao, I agree. the reverse of risking and not risking just sorta fit. I personally imagine the lyrics being from Lan Xichen's perspective. I think the last two verses in particular really hit but its really the last one that make's make think of them " You called me a crybaby But you're the one who got teary Telling me what you believe How we're stuck in entropy How it hurts to hope Oh, it hurts to hope for more Oh, it hurts to hope the future Will be better than before"

[sentientgopro]

Okay, screw it, It's been on my mind alot, I'm writing the damn mirror post so I can get it off my mind.

There's a song I listen to often that has a couple of lines about "breaking the mirror". I'm the type of person who feels the need to understand every line of every song they listen to, so I googled the meaning. (Side note, part of me felt like it was right to write girl instead of person and she instead of they? I almost always use gender neutral terms in anything I say online regardless of being about me, but feeling like saying she is not something I've done before. That was weird. Back to the point.)

So I don't know how commonly known it is or whether people still pay attention to old superstitions, but apparently breaking mirrors brings you years of bad luck, but eventually you'll be just fine.

And there's obvious parallels between this idea and transitioning. Things will get alot harder after you start, but you'll be infinitely better off when you start to reach the other side. Right now, I can live simply as a guy and not have to worry about the perils of being trans, but once I break the mirror, it's on.

But I can't get over how there's this really old symbolism of taking the very thing that displays who you are, and shattering it, and it's gonna cause alot of problems for a while, but then the reflection is restored, better than ever, and all the bad is washed away.

And this was just a neat little idea in my head, until I saw a CERTAIN game with a certain stereotype was on sale for like £3 and bought it. And oh my fucking God, mirror symbolism is EVERYWHERE, because of course it is. The very incarnation of the bad parts of Madeline literally come from looking herself in the mirror and breaking it. People have talked before about the heavy Mirror symbolism in Celeste, often mentioning trans people's relation to mirrors, but recontextualising that with the superstition and the things I just mentioned made it hit so hard for me when it clicked and I put it all together.

Now, I always knew this would be an aimless rant, but I still spent a while trying to think of a good way to tie it together but its not working. I'm just gonna talk about the lyrics now and how they reflect my specific situation. Its 4 lines, in pairs, in two seperate verses:

"I need time to break all the mirrors,

But my mind is in pieces and not ready to make it clearer."

"Time to make it all clearer,

And if time never ceases I'll be ready to break the mirror."

How often do you hear trans people talk about how theyre not ready, or theyre finding excuses for themselves, and they don't know why? I'm the same, but I genuinely have a rock solid excuse for myself, that I live in an unsupportive and overcontrolling household, so I couldn't even start doing anything in secret because of how restricted I am. I should be going to Uni in about a year and a half, so that's the starting point. But even if this wasn't the case, I dont think Id start transitioing yet, Im not ready, my mind is in pieces and not ready to make it clearer.

But that's the thing, it IS time to make it all clearer. Ive got time, with no pressure, to figure myself out and improve my mental state so that I'm in the best position possible to break the mirror. So as long as I never cease doing that, I'll be ready to break the mirror.

If you're wondering what the song is, It's The Gift by Kevin Sherwood and Elena Siegman. The rest of the song isn't a trans allegory or anything, I honestly couldn't tell you what most of it is about, it's from fucking COD: Black Ops 3 Zombies lmfao. Every map in the Zombies mode of the Black Ops games has a secret song, usually by Kevin Sherwood and often with Elena Siegman singing, but sometimes its a different vocalist.

The reason I'm mentioning all this is because the map this song is on is Literally called "Revelations". Yep, certainly having a few of them lmao.

So, thanks for reading this unhinged rant about mirrors that's probably unoriginal as shit, I'm going to cut this off Immediately before I launch into a rant about how good Kevin Sherwood's music is. Honestly, hes too good to be working on COD, not to mention how Elena Siegman has the voice of an angel and a demon at the same time, that girls range is insane. Fuck, Im already slipping into a rant, I just need to stop writi

[rinsfujo]

3, 11, 26, 30, 38 and 39 from the ask meme!

3- three films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

i have horrible taste in movies and i tend to rewatch the same pieces of media over and over instead of watching new ones so this is a perfect question but no one can judge me... number one is Superbad. it's silly and nostalgic. number two would be White Chicks. also just so ridiculously stupid but very nostalgic and makes me laugh every time. third one is Call Me By Your Name it is genuinely one of my favorite pieces of queer media!!! (i could go on and on about why it's been romanticized for the Wrong reasons and why it needs to looked at with nuance but thats for another day.)

11-what do you consider to be romance?

ahhh.. for me romance is being able to be yourself around someone. it might just be because i'm neurodivergent and find it very hard to be fully comfortable around someone,, but that's always been the thing that makes me fall for someone. someone telling me i can be myself and not have to hide anything about me is the most romantic things in the world... that's why i love my significant other so much because they let me be myself with no judgement or harsh words and i do the same for them :3

26- fave color and why?

ahh i really like pastel pink and black but i've been really into dark seafoamy green as well. my entire room is pastel pink and it's just very pleasing to my eyes and makes me feel cozy.. however almost my entire wardrobe is black bc im pale and it looks good against my skin. ive been into green cus of deku.. what can i say

30-what's one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

getting a text from a family member/irl randomly saying 'let's see each other soon' cus im like ????you remember me??? you think of me when im not there and want to see me??? ;__; (another answer to this question is watching spongebob squarepants in my pajamas into the wee hours of the night. that works too.)

38-fave song at the moment?

messy by lola young cus the lyrics are way too relatable and its so damn catchy...

39-youtuber you've been obsessed with and why?

slushynoobz because they are like the one of the few youtubers that make me audibly laugh out loud. specifically their podcast episodes rather than their main channel videos. love martin n hamzahh

[psychelis-new]

so sorry this is late but thank you so much for the reading! i love your work and i feel so special that you made time to answer mine <3

i dont believe in soulmates in the fantastical way thats usually portrayed with some type of physical thing connecting them, like an invisible string or a tattoo that glows when ur close to them, but i do like to think that everyone has a person or even multiple ppl that they were destined to meet for some reason, and i do think this is my person for me. but i had never thought ab how no matter what u call it, the result is the same, and i dont know if you’re a taylor swift fan but its giving Call It What You Want :p

all parts of your reading resonated with me, omg we literally just had a conversation this past weekend where he wanted me to tell him these 2 secrets i have (not huge ones, just things im embarrassed ab) and i refused to tell. he told me i shouldnt feel embarrassed ab them and logically i know he wont shame me for it, but it still doesnt get rid of the feelings of embarrassment i have when i eventually will tell him. i know he loves me now, but it definitely was not always this clear. for a long time i struggled with knowing how he felt ab me, and he said it himself he was bad at liking people. we’ve really grown together over the past year and im happy to know that he finds this relationship secure. i hope one day i will be able to overcome my issues with sometimes blocking him out and closing up bc i really want to be the best i can be with him.

thank you again for the insight, wish u the best, ~🩵🌿

Hey! Thanks for the feedback, despite you wrote it on Anon I still kinda can recall your reading from your inputs^^. I admit I almost laughed at the glowing tattoo but you know, everyone can see that special connection with someone the way they rather. Idk if it's fantastical or not to imagine having an invisible red string (Taylor Swift^^ I'm not a huge fan of her, but yep, I know a few of her songs) that connects you to a special someone but... yeah, just don't let your adult rational mind entirely blind and block your inner child ig. If someone believes in that, then it's cool to me. As if you want to see the connection or call it in a different way. Y'all are equally valid. Everyone can see things they own way, there's no wrong or right, as I told you. This is the beauty of being so many and so different. And of having so different experiences and level/types of connections with our specific person/people. There can totally be some soulmates having moles/scares in the same place to me, why not :D

Anyway, I hope you can try and see what is blocking you from a different pov, so to become more vulnerable in the relationship and really let them in and take the whole thing to a different level. I know it's very hard to bring down our walls (they're so protecting and safe), but it's always worth it. Just remember to take your time, and follow your guts so that when you feel it's time to tell your secrets, you will have no regrets of sort.

Honestly, this guilt/embarassment you feel may originate from your inner fear of being judged: remember if this happens, it's never your fault. Others judge you because they very likely lack that thing or have it too and were told is bad, but it's easier to point things out on others than taking time to look inside and understand reasons and all. And... ofc not everyone will judge you negatively, not everyone will give you a different worth for a couple of specific things you feel guilty for (for any reason: maybe again you were judged or feared to be judged by others and left alone and... yeah, the self-preservation is still strong inside of us but we're no more living in Prehistory, people don't get eaten by lions even if by any chance they are left alone from their "groups"). Your worth is still the same and it's the one you give yourself for all you've done and all you are and potentially will be. We all have things we don't like about ourselves, but they don't have to be demonized, they can also turn into our strong points the moment we leran how to value them or give them their real worth (for us, not anyone else nor society... society is just f- up). If your guts tell you you can trust him, then trust him, don't block yourself. You won't be hurt. And if by any chance you'll get hurt (even not by him but others), you will survive. Always. Your heart is stronger than you think. Everyone's heart is stronger than we think: it can always love and let love in again. The problem is "only" in the mind (our amygdala) and the way it wants to protect us from every little negative/painful thing that we have learned first hand or through other experiences [especially emotional pain, and in a minor way, physical pain too: think about how you may walk a bit more carefully especially in the days right after you hit your foot against a night table -physical pain usually leaves a slightly less strong wound inside that may get healed faster, unless you broke a bone or sth: that may last longer and grow into a habit...but we're not here for that so I'll shut up] ;)

Best of lucks btw, take care<3

[poltergeist-coffee]

"I’ll tear it all down if you ask me Just say the word and hold on tight I’ll build it back up if you ask me As long as you’ll be by my side"

Song: Big Sky, MT just radiates qforever energy to me and i don't think i need to explain myself why (would you forgive me if i said it mostly makes me think of insaneduo <//3 my favortism...)

-- --

"We took off in my plane Your eyes grew wide As we soared into the sunrise You asked me when I learned to fly I replied “You were watching the whole time.”"

"I cannot count the times you’ve caught me from the fall I hear your voice when my back’s up against a wall When the darkness makes me feel I’m far away from you You gently remind me that this never was nor will be true"

Song: Shoulders is a very qsmp song to me in gernal. just the parents talking to their eggs who are growing up before their eyes. the song is from the eggs perspective talking to their parents i think :))

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"Little bird, wait a moment I only just found out your name I wonder what else lies beyond those verdant eyes A mine of mystery"

"Little bird, stay forever I'm better off because you came I'm gonna learn that song you're singing La da da da da da..."

Song: Little Bird.... would you forgive me if i said this song reminds me of sugarduo? because it does and im imagining an animatic of it.... the song is in forever's perspective ofc and he's talking about philza......

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"Take a look at my heart And you’ll see that my broken hands weren’t The only thing torn apart I wеnt through hell for heaven’s sakе And all that I have to show Is the overwhelming weight of being alone"

"You don’t really wanna know how bad it went Even if you’re convinced it was an accident I didn’t know it would be this hard to come clean If you don’t mind, I think I’ll just go to sleep and dream"

Song: Sparrow and I'm claiming this song for qmariana and its about her feelings towards what happened with juanaflippa (the misclick....) also towards the end it's his feelings with slime?

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"From day one you pushed me forward Never once stopped to take a breath When I look for you You're standin' in my corner Holdin' up the world"

"Maybe somehow I'll return the favor I'll never come close"

Song: Corner is another one from the eggs perspective to their parents!! specifically tho this song makes me think of chayanne and philza :))

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"Our eyеs, selectively seeing what we want to find Half blind, wildly swinging for the love of the fight Fearlessly, we forge ahead Foolishly burning the bridge we are standing on top Of the world we are breaking in two"

"If we can’t learn to live like neighbors should We may just burn down this whole neighborhood"

Song: Two Kinds just makes me think of how all the parents on the qsmp work together now.... like they use to be less trusting of others with their eggs but now everyone is pretty much chill with anyone on the server caring for their egg, you know?? the it takes a village to raise a kid thing?? idk just thinking of that while reading the lyrics (if you squint you may see what im talking about OR youll think im crazy lol)

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"Face the consequences Either that, or we’re fine living the rest of our lives With our backs to the way forward We’ve become dependent on the poison of the lie"

"It’s obvious everything isn’t in its right place Do we really need a better reason to change?"

"We’ve been made a fool by the fable of the times (The comfort of the lie) (The poison of the lie) (The power of the lie)"

Song: Fable Of The Times... something something the federation something something they're stuck on the island and fighting the narrative and trying to find a way out with their eggs alive

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"I can’t believe this is the end I hoped it would last a little bit longer Goodbye hurts every time But absence makes the heart grow a little bit fonder"

"Just remember this won’t be forever We’ll get back together And we’ll raise a holy ruckus to the heights Just know this will stay with us forever Next time will be even better We’ll hold each other ‘til they kill the lights"

Song: The End... do i really need to explain it? (When an egg dies and they get to talk to their parents for the last time...) (I'm of the belief that the dead eggs aren't really gone thought so i do think they'll be able to see each other again)

NEW THE ARCADIAN WILD ALBUM JUST DROPPED!!! IM GOING TO LISTEN TO THE ENTIRE ALBUM AND THEN FIND A WAY TO APPLY EVERY SONG TO QSMP CHARACTERS/DUOS

[windvexer]

what do you think are some good examples of great easily verifiable spells? im getting around to kicking off my practice after years of just reading, and i want to follow your philosophy of concrete results.

of course instead of just kicking it pff im making plans once again but thats just me forever. looking for relatively small and specific results. so that its not overtly hard to pull of but also something i wont be unsure about at the end

It varies from person to person. I rec making a list of small, irritating things that remain relatively unchanged in your life. Ideally, these things will be part of your routine that you are able to check on daily or at least weekly.

Examples include:

All the good parking spaces are always taken at work/school

Manager always interrupts you before break is done and you never get full breaks

Menu item is always sold out by the time you get to the cafeteria

Scary dog in house on the corner always barks at you when you take your morning walk

Drive-thru line is always full when you get there

Employee you don't really like insists on talking to you every time you just want a dang soda from the corner store

Friend always texts back at last minute, causing stress and indecision in group activity planning

ideally, carry around a notepad and keep track of how often these things actually happen before you work magic over it. I'm one of those people where I'm like, the good parking is AlWaYs TaKeN 😩 when in reality it's like one out of every five times and I'm just a drama llama.

Choose whatever thing in your life you want to start with. Don't over-think it. If you are just now starting to practice you don't have enough experience to choose which area is best to start with. It's like if you've never done yoga and you want to figure out which pose will make your back feel best before you try any pose. You won't be able to tell until you actually try some and get experience.

Please give yourself several attempts at trying to influence this single area before you move on to a different area. People are out here casting their first spell once, not seeing results, and immediately giving up. Like you pick up a guitar for the first time and can't immediately play song so you weren't born a musician and it's time to quit, right? A full working of magic tends to be like a song, not a chord. Practice is required for results.

I also recommend keeping track of attempts because I'm also a person who's like, "I've tried sooo hard to fix this with magic but I failed," when in reality I thought about it really hard like twice, did one spell, and started planning a second spell and just gave up.

After several attempts to modify a situation, if it doesn't work, choose a very different situation and try that instead. As an example, some people can banish as easy as breathing and others can conjure money at the drop of a hat, but that same person might just be totally incapable of clearing out a drive-thru line. Your skills are unique and you never know what situation might be resistant to change, even to a very experienced practitioner.

Although of course reading is very handy, understanding theory is very different from being able to do the work. You can read about music theory for years but that doesn't make learning your first chord less awkward.

Also, you may find that magic very much disagrees with you about which situations are easiest to influence with magic. So again, I'd avoid over-thinking it :)

[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

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1. hi, mods and everyone, thanks for all the great recs and finds! i have a request for the fic finder, if that’s ok. it’s canon divergent, i guess? or maybe a canon au would be a better description. wwx is a man out of time. he’s frozen in the past, then is defrosted in the future (@ cloud recesses, pretty sure). in any case, it’s future!lwj who helps him recover and reintegrate. does this sound familiar to anyone? i’m kind of starting to think i either imagined it or took a plot i read in another fandom and imposed the mdzs charas on it lol. however this turns out, thank you all very much for your time and help

FOUND! Alexandria by LilyMaxwell (T, 23k, wangxian, scifi au, time travel, romance, fluff, hurt/comfort)

NOT FOUND! Do androids dream of Lan Wangji? by DizziDreams (T, 27k, wangxian, scifi au, everybody is a robot au, android WWX, android LWJ, minor violence)

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2. henlo! im looking for the fic were WWX was clueless that he was pregnant. its in modern era where he and LWJ was in some sort of fuck buddy relationship. then he just felt diff in months but never realize he was pregnant. he ended up giving birth in their apartment, and in a sequel it happened once again but instead he was already married.

FOUND? Blood, Google, and Love by Prairie_Grass (E, 4k, wangxian, modern w/ magic, ABO, getting together, mpreg, fluff & angst, semi graphic description of giving birth) and it’s inspired by fic Surprise Baby! by trulywicked (M, 10k, wangxian, modern w/ magic, ABO, established relationship, unplanned mpreg, accidental baby acquisation, birthing scene)

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3. Dear, wangxianficfinder. I am in need of your assistance. I seem to have lost the link to a series where Wangxian are both females, Lan Zhan is a CEO while Wei Ying is her secretary, and they were childhood friends. There are two main scenes that stick out: One where Lan Zhan threw down Jin Guangshan for groping Wei Ying in one story and Wei Ying getting her hand stuck in a vending machine in a another. Please wangxianficfinder collective, you're my only hope! I couldn't find it on my own! @kaitou-cure-prism12​

FOUND! Beautiful mess, a colourful wreck by covalentbonds (Not rated, 12k, wangxian, rule 63, fluff & humor, mild smut, childhood friends, first meetings, evil vending machines)

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4. Hello wonderful mods of this blog, I have lost a fic I want to reread and I hope you can help me. All I can recall is the beginning of the fic where Wei Ying, Lan Zhan and A-Yuan travel back in time due to dying in the timeline before returning. Wei Ying due to the Stygian Tiger Seal, Lan Zhan to his whip marks and A-Yuan to a fever. Please help.

FOUND? Lan Yuan's War by BurningTea (G, 191k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Angst, Sick LWJ, Hurt/comfort, Eventual Happy Ending) iirc Lan Wangji and Yuan both time travel because of the whip marks and being sick, I haven't finished it so I don't if Wei Wuxian does too

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5. Hi! Thank you fr all your hard work! I need help finding a specific nsfw fic. do you happen to remember a smut fic where wangxian get schooled on gay sex by a male sex worker?

FOUND? Smoothing things over by Aki_no_hikari (E, 5k, wangxian, post-canon, case fic, married couple, anal sex, learning about lube)

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6. Hello! I hope I'm doing this right. I need help finding a fic where Sizhui told his friends that his dads didn't love each other. He discovered that wwx and lwj only got married to adopt him. It was a modern au, I'm almost sure. Thanks!

FOUND! Play your love songs all night long by AlfAlfAlfAlfAlf and tardigradeschool (E, 17k, WangXian, Modern AU, Marriage of Convenience, Mutual Pining, Light angst, Romantic Comedy, Misunderstandings)

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7. Good day/eve mods!! For the next fic finder I'm looking for a fic in where JC and NHS were like 'how dare JGS bad mouth WWX' so they set up this plan where NHS pretended to offend JC. Which caused JC to 'accidentally' kick JGS down the stairs and then everyone proceeded to laugh at him. Hope ya guys are having a great day! ~

FOUND? A little help (can go a long way) by syriala (G, 5k, JC & NHS & JZX, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Sworn brothers, Hurt/comfort, Humor)

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8. hello mods! thx for all ur hard work xx I've been tryna find a fic where everyone travels back in time but only the ones who died remember their memories? they hold a discussion conference and wrh is there and at first the jiangs think wwx doesn't remember but it turns out he was just pretending and during the conference WRH suggests an arranged marriage between WQ and WWX

FOUND! Second Chances by YumichanHamano (T, 76k, wangxian, time travel fix-it, those who died remember, WWX centric)

not FOUND sounds a little like The Wild Geese's Tomb by The Feels Whale (miscellea) (T, 66k, wangxian, time travel fix-it), but there wasn't an arranged marriage.

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9. Hiii! I can’t remember the name of this wangxian fic but it was after the fall of lotus pier, essentially JC choked WWX to near death and I think LZ helped call his spirit back. It was a hurt/comfort that I can’t find anymore.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME FIND IT ( ू•⌄• ू )✧ @ramenchan

not FOUND the river brought you here by chilianxianzi? (Not Rated, 11k, Wangy,. Canon Divergence, POV Outsider, Happy Ending, Recovery, Last abuse, Strangulation) it doesnt quite fit the description but could it be 'the river brought you here' by chilianxianzi?

FOUND! a star called sun by thelastdboy (E, 65k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Heavy Angst, Self-Worth issues, Amputation, Situational Mutism, Slow burn, Angst with a happy ending) It's fits most of the description except it wasn't a near death choke, and it's not exactly hurt/comfort?/ i would call it hurt with v little comfort, but there is a scene where lwj talks to wifi using inquiry, and because wifi is so close to death from jwy choking him, it works

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10. Hello! I hope it isnt to much but I'd like some help in finding a fic. It was canon divergence with wwx was successfully escaping lwj at mo village and settled at an in(?). I remember that it that it the anniversary of the d3@th of the yllz. Lwj came to his inn/tavern bcs he wanted to buy alcohol in memory of it and wwx introduced himself as mo xuanyu and i think there was a reveal of sizhui being ayuan. Thank you <3.

FOUND? all i want is nothing more (than to hear you knocking at my door) by jojkees (G, 4k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Light Angst, Mutual Pining, Getting together, Happy Ending)

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11. Hey I’ve been looking for this fix for a while and wanted the give it one more try before giving up. I don’t remember much but I think the Jiang sect were able to shift into dragons, wei wuxian gave birth during the fall of lotus pier and gave his baby to madam Yu to escape with. I also remember that wei wuxian was a Phoenix shifter that saved the sect disciples. I would really appreciate if this is found 👏🏻😭

FOUND! Changes by Duochanfan (Not Rated, 45k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Shapeshifters AU, Baby LSZ, Mpreg, Angst with a happy ending, Good Madam Yu)

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12. Hello! I would like to ask for help in finding a fic. I've tried searching for it but I haven't had any luck (I'm beginning to wonder if it was deleted or if it was actually a Twitter thread instead 😭) basically wx are married but they're both so busy the "spark" is beginning to go out in their marriage. And then lwj gets a new coworker that reminds him so much of a younger wwx and on a business trip he ends up sleeping with him. This starts an affair and eventually wwx finds out that lwj has been cheating on him and is understandably heart broken. They go to couples therapy and work it out and lwj transfers jobs. It had a happy ending more or less and it wasn't that long I don't think and it was definitely complete. Any help in finding it would be appreciated!! Thank you!!

FOUND? Twitter fic by @giraffeter​ (CW: infidelity)

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13. Hello there! I’m looking for a modern au fic where WWX ended up “ghost marrying” LWJ, who was declared dead because JGY had him murdered. LWJ (barely) survives and ends up haunting the house because he’s angry and WWX helps him resolve the situation. There was a side of LXC/JGY, and I remember a scene where WWX was possessed(?) and playing music and it freaked everyone else out. I’m also 99% sure its a complete fic. Thank you for the help!

FOUND! lovers be lost (but love shall not) by la_muerta (T, 13k, wangxian, 1910s au, arranged marriage, ghost marriage, case fic, happy ending)

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14. Hi mods! I'm looking for a fic where wangxian raised a child (I think a-yuan?) and once they're a teenager, they realize that wx were never actually married and they get upset. I recall there being something about connected apartments. maybe that wangxian each had one, but bc their kid is graduating, they were gonna rearrange and give one of them to their kid. (There might've also been something about their kid's SO also moving in?) Tyvm everyone for the help!

FOUND? Ticking Away the Moments by airinshaw (E, 13k, wangxian, modern, kid fic, getting together, fluff, pining, minor LSZ/LJY)

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15. Hi mods! Hope you're having a lovely day! I was wondering if anyone knew the fic where a-yuan gets adopted by the rich lan fam, but keeps thinking of wwx who took care of him, so the lan fam starts a search/invites ppl over to their house. wwx arrives at the mansion(?) and offends some rich person or something and doesn't get let in, but meets lwj (I think) who asks him some questions about a-yuan. wwx meets a-yuan and eventually, I think lwj invites wwx to live with them and the wens encourage him to go too. Thank you!

FOUND? The sun'll come out Tomorrow by Cy_anne (T, 33k, WangXian, Modern AU, Annie Fusion/AU, Light Angst, Fluff, Mostly Gen, Good Uncle LQR, Happy ending)

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16. hii!! I heard there's new mod, welcome mod c! (Hi ^^ ~ Mod C) hope am not bothering you mods too much. so, do you know i u have encountered a fic were wangxian was childhood friends playing to be boyfriends but they weren’t actually one. (idk if it fits fake/pretend relationship tag, didn't found anything.) there was a moment in their teens (midschool ig) where a girl confessed her feelings to lwj and wwx immediately says lwj has bf and it's him. they were roommates, too. I think it was due to university of something like that. they were questioned by jc and nhs if they r real lovers or not. also, there was wedding (not 100% certain if it's jzx & jyl’s) wwx starts questioning himself if he was really inlove with lwj. reminder that they r not friends with benefits. they were just playing, holding hands or hugging e/o. I am not actually the person who was finding this fic but I am interested, til now, no one has found this fic. Thank you! @vdjixian

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17. Hello there, hope you're having a wonderful time where ever you are! This is for the next fic finder, I remember reading this fic about the Yiling villagers peeking in on the oh-so infamous Yiling patriarch whenever he bathes in the lake and this fixes everyone's perspective of him and saves him from his canonical demise. I want to revisit that fic again but I can't seem to find it. If anyone knows anything, that would be great thank you!!

FOUND! That Time Everyone Assumed the Yiling Patriarch was Ugly by tinitin (M, 4k, wangxian, canon divergence, inappropriate humor, crack, shamelessness, getting together)

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18. Hello! I'm looking for a fic where wangxian is engaged and madam yu tries to break their engagement bc she doesnt think wei ying will be happy with lan zhan? It was a one-shot iirc? Thank you! Hope the mods have a nice day!

FOUND! Still Waters by PorcupineGirl (G, 6k, wangxian, canon divergence, cloud recesses study arc, YZY pov, arranged marriage, protective YZY)

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19. Hello dear mods, and thank you for all that you do! I’m trying to remember the name of this fic and hope you can help me; iirc, it’s focused on the junior quartet and the ending involves them using some kind of time travel array to reach into the past and Sizhui catches WWX as he’s falling to his death? They were on a mountain that turns into a lake or something from the massive power drain of the array. Thank you! @bookkbaby

FOUND! Would You Come Home? by s6115 (Not Rated, 46k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time travel Fix-It, Family Feels, Junior Quartet)

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20. Hi:) Do you know a little fic, after Lan Zhan's punishment, where Xichen deliberates what to do with A-Yuan and how close to keep him and qiren outright says that his name will be Lan Yuan and a member of their family, because curently its the only reason Wangji wants to stay alive. There is a possibility that it has been deleted because I couldn't find it in my recs.... @krysaniar

FOUND? Ch. 5 of The Untamed Drabbles and Tiny Vignettes by Sally M (sallymn) (T, 2k, WangXian, Drabble Collection, Ficlet Collection, 3 Sentence Fiction, 3 Sentence Ficathon, Not all are ficathon entries, Age Regression/De-Aging, Character Undeath, character death but they deserve it)

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hellooo! love your writing :D got a few questions about it (i'm not going to ask about plot because you are too slick at avoiding them :'') )

how do you… exactly portray angst? I say because the way you write tommys is more grittier than I have read anywhere else. (like in For You, The World) keeping away from overusing metaphors is the hardest thing, I swear. writing trauma in stories might not be the most realistic thing mainly because you cannot really have reference unless you would have actually experienced, so how do you manage it? (im a very beginner writer haha)

also, do you have any songs for hush, or any other of your fics? like is there a specific song you have for any of the characters? :D

have a good day!

I am, indeed, very slick at avoiding them (as in, I’m forcefully yanking myself from responding at all because I don’t trust myself to not say anything, lmao). 

This is a curious question, and admittedly not something I’ve thought too much about in regards to my own writing.

I don’t really know how to go about answering how exactly I go about writing angst but-

I’ve always been drawn to the more gritty and realistic aspects of humanity and I suppose my writing kind of reflects that, in explorations of complicated relationships, the selfish desires that aren’t always good, the wants that burns hard and harsh and desperate and ultimately just human. 

We aren’t perfect and I like that. 

For You, The World is, if you break it down, about the loss of a home and Tommy’s journey to finding it again. It’s about getting up when life is dragging you down, leaving you hollow and empty and so very tired, desperately searching for meaning when you have nothing/have lost everything, and ultimately finding hope again.

Home and love. Even when it isn’t perfect it’s there. Always. Even if it’s a bit broken. 

I think most of us crave and desire that kind of reassurance, to want the people we have to stay by us. It’s human to want that kind of love, even if it isn’t necessarily realistic, because people come and go in life even when we’d once thought nothing could separate us. 

No matter the setting of my stories I try to keep them grounded, in a sense. The world and the people in it aren’t perfect and I don’t want them to be. I like the imperfections in humans, that’s the core of my writing, what I want it to reflect. It’s not about making excuses for them but rather understanding, I suppose, in a way. Even if I throw them out into space or send them on a spiralling journey into a land of mythical creatures and impossible feats that stays to the best of my ability.

Humans are capable of being cruel and kind, soft and harsh, broken and strong. There’s no one side to it.

I think that’s kinda why my writing feels gritty - I want it to reflect those bits and allow them to be messy and achingly human. 

About writing without reference - even if you feel like you don’t have a frame of reference for what you want to portray there’s likely something that you can understand in it at its core and work outwards from. I’m honestly not the best at giving advice on this because it ultimately depends a bit on the subject matter. 

In regards to the writing itself it’s hard to offer any advice because I honestly can’t say how much metaphors I use and don’t use in the first place and there’s no right of wrong way to do things either - it’s a style choice at the end of the day and you have to kinda trial and error it to your satisfaction.

You want to use a lot of metaphors? Go for it. Exhaust them. Cram that chapter with them. Go wild. See what it looks like, see if you like it, pick out the parts you don’t. 

Some people like my writing, some don’t. That’s quite fine. Let it be fine.

The one solid advice I can give is just - keep writing, find what you vibe with. The more you write the more you’re going to think about how to best reflect what you want to portray and you’ll surprise yourself as you settle into your own voice.

What about my writing in For You, The World is it that hits hard for you? I often save little quotes and bits that hits especially hard from other writers to revisit and consider just what it was about them that resonated.

(Sometimes I save bits and quotes from myself because I’m like, bruh, I wrote that??)

About songs... yeah, I’ve uh, got a ton tbh. Nothing character specific though? I’ll put eleven of my faves I’ve looped during the writing process of Hush since we’re eleven chapters in :)

Creature by  half•alive

Honeywell by Clem Turner

You Belong To Me by Cat Pierce

Playing In The Sand by Bule

Impostor by Henri Werner

Favorite Colour Is Blue by Robert DeLong

Oceans by Seafret

Happy Face by Jagwar Twin

Mermaid by Skott

It’s Alright by Mother Mother

Cringe by Matt Maeson