#It's been a while since I drew Connor 😭

[callme-mag]

Quick sketch of my husband

[rainyraisin]

HEY FOR THST ASK GAME U RB YESTERDAY 28, 39, and 8

OMG TY PIXXXXX this ask game is so fun so I'm hyped rn

8: any reoccurring dreams?

As far as I'm aware, nope! All the dreams I remember are really fucking weird and unique. I don't actually dream most nights but when I do its so strange. My most recent dream was me and @aaronymous9 playing a life simulator for some reason and I had a farm on it???? Not the strangest dream I've had and there's definetly more to it I'm not remembering bc I woke up and then dreamt about smth completely different afterwards but I just woke up so it's the only one I can think of rn lol

28: Do you collect anything?

Oh I collect SO much shit. At the moment I collect: manga; pop figures, anime figures, and other general merchandise such as plushes; sonic trading cards; video games; enamel pins, prints, and keychains from small businesses (seperated it from general merch since those are mass produced and like literally everything except 1 or 2 things on my ita bag is from a small business and my door is COVERED in prints); mha posters (i think i need like a couple more and ive got all the main big posters for each season); and pokemon cards (very recent though, I don't have many bc they're so hard to get ahold of).

Manga is definetly my biggest collection, I probably have over 200 now lol I rlly gotta count them up again I havent done so for a few years- but I also have a shit ton of figures, I just counted my pops and I have around 80 (some of my boxes on my main shelf are hidden behind other stuff 😭), and I literally can't count how many anime figures I have bc I have a ton of little tiny ones- Here's a pic of my main shelf, still a wip bc I'm reorganising my room at the moment (albeit very slowly, I know the TMNT shrine looks a bit shit but that's bc I've packed most of the stuff away to sell lol)

39: Any youtubers you've been obsessed with lately?

I've gotten reallyyyy back into AstralSpiff lately, been rewatching all his videos, mostly the FNAF and Poppy Playtime ones since there wasn't rlly anyone else I wanted to watch play Chapter 4 and as much as I love GTLive I fell off of watching them play chapter 3 like halfway through 😭😭 (also even though I love Ash I mostly watched GTLive for Matpat so 💔💔)

I'm also thinking about rewatching a lot of Drew Gooden and especially Kurtis Connor stuff lately since it's been a while since I've done so, and I'm seeing Kurtis Connor's tour in a few weeks so!!!!! If he makes any references to his older videos that I havent seen in a while I wanna make sure I get it lol

But yeah at the moment I've only really been watching Spiff since I havent really been watching much YouTube at all lol (only other youtubers I've been watching are Pinely and Izzyyyzz(?), I like commentary and video essays a lot lol)

Thank you for the questions‼️‼️💖💖🌸🌸

[bunkernine]

hi pls ignore this if i have mistaken you for someone else and am making a fool out of myself but are you the person who wrote isosceles?? because that fic altered my brain on an abnormal and chemical level way back when and i just remembered it the other day and binged it all again and i feel like i remember there being a few other fics in that universe (one from travis’s pov iirc) and i wanted to know where they are. of course if you are not the person who wrote isosceles i am a fool and feel free to ignore this ❤️

I did, yeah.

I wrote it when i was 14 so at a certain point i didn't want to be associated with it because it didn't reflect me as much anymore. It was my big baby at the time!!! But i divorced from that a few years ago. As for the other universe fics, if i remember correctly: connor, drew, a vers where jason admits to liking him back (some point isos implied that jason DID like leo back but was too confused to do anything).... But i deleted those first because they just weren't as fun, and my own friend group was falling apart so it felt too close.

But yes, you have found me LOLOL. Isos is orphaned, but unfortunately the other fics are deleted fr. Sorry :( but thanks for enjoying it!!! 💖

(ramblings under the cut)

The reason why i didnt delete isos too was because so many people were saying what you are now. If i could, id rewrite it (both with style and plot differences) and do a whole new remastered version. Im not sure why i decided to write his senior year when i was a freshman/sophomore LOL so I always figured I would've came back to it when I was older.... Clearly I did not.

I WAS miserable in high school, at least socially. So Leo was a little TOO personal and it made me mad when i basically did what he did towards the end. I spent some time just doing some random apolleo fics. Capolleo series, so my name should've been capolleon by then? LOLOLOL i had been majorly influenced by some now-deleted fic which is why apollo is even there 💀 but now im apollos age in the fic and im like 'hmm. Yeah maybe not...'

Then there was a fic that was coming out towards the end of isos that i felt was copying me 😭😭😭 ← 14/15 yr old feelings. Who cares! But i would update and then they would update and i was so paranoid 😭😭😭 honestly, the vibe in general for valgrace in 2018 is much different than right now, and it was much more open and varied in topics. This is not to discredit the current valgrace leaders or whatever the fuck, but the vibe is just ... Pretty different.

But yeah. Im sort of using this ask as an excuse to talk about it, but isos was SO big and what i was known for within the small vg circle (outside of the text fic at the same time 💀) so i was constantly reminded of it. And dont get me wrong, i ADORED that fic when i was writing it. I was upset whenever my life was too messy for me to drop the chapter of the month. Double updates felt so ... Um. Mature and awesome, like i was a professional 💀 i wrote leo as bisexual but he had a pretty strong inclination to men because i was figuring I'm out that I wasn't bisexual but a lesbian, but I couldn't really articulate that, especially as I was dating a guy through that fic. That was some cute little endpoint i was gonna have but its reality frightened me so it was dropped... The complexities of piperleojason were insane to think about when i was like, crying at lunch in my bf's car 😭 When it was posting, i left some really crazy A/N's showing how volatile i was at the time, that i eventually deleted. But i was so proud of it and it was a comfort to write. I think the drafts were a lot more raw but people loved it anyway.

Anyway. It's been a while since I've been able to talk about this fic. People have left the most loving comments in the world and it connected with a lot of readers. Its also my only fic that had fanart and playlists and such made for it! I was so proud of that! I dont think people understand how incredible that is and it truly is the dream for fic writers!!! I have other fics that inspired ppl, but isos was the one ppl constantly flocked to or appreciated :)

I used to cry writing some parts of it and now it just feels like an old diary entry. I haven't read it in a while and thought about remaking it (probs... As college kids though) but haven't bothered. Technical-wise, theres so many things that are dropped or forgotten or are just clumsy but thats really just a maturity thing.

Anyway THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!!!!!!! Ppl dont ask me about my fics like they used to which was the whole reason why i made this account :(((( among other things, lack of interactions in fandom have decreased so much :((((

Love love love uuuuuuuuu