#It’s also so good for Harlequilt angst/fluff

[actuallyjustabiscuit]

Personal Pomni Headcanon:

Pomni doesn’t like being touched by other people because when it happens it feels like she’s losing what’s left of her autonomy.

She lost her entire identity when she entered the Circus. Her name and her body were all taken and replaced. She remembers that she used to feel like nothing even in the real world, perhaps she still feels that way now, maybe even more so if her only role in life is to play whatever is assigned to her that day, or go insane and give up what’s left of herself.

She has little to no control over who she is or what she does. So when a person touches her without consent she feels even more degraded. If she doesn’t even have control over who is allowed to touch her, how can she expect to have any control over her own life? It drives her crazy whenever someone reminds her of her own helplessness each time they casually grab her by the arm or pat her on the head, because in that moment it doesn’t feel like it’s her arm or her head anymore, it’s there’s. It’s not her body, it’s not her skin, because how could it be when someone else is clearly calling the shots. Nothing is hers when she’s being touched.

She feels like nothing if she’s being touched.