#It was already but this is @my surgeon who told me to lose 25 kg before I could get a chest reduction

[succikko-nebulae]

OK so my leg STILL hurt as hell so losing weight is definitely out of the question

[anotherseverussnapelover]

Ok folks,

Should I make a tik tok account to speak about why I've to starve myself to be taken seriously by doctors ?

🚨 TW : Fatphodia, médical violence 🚨

Hear me out :

I've been fat since I was 3yo - obese since I was 6 (yes I did diets, yes I did sports (up to 8h/week besides PE in school), yes I've seen many doctors)

I easily gain weight since I have a 56% of the genes that ease obesity (according to DNA analysis that was made when I was around 12 for research purpose)

I have had a surgery cuting 2/3 of my stomach ~10 years ago

I lost 60 kg in ONE YEAR and the surgeon who did the surgery told me that I will NEVER be under 100kg since I never have since I stopped growing (and this means that I will ALWAYS be obese according to BMI)

When I was around 100kg, I had many health issues : dizziness (lasted up to 1,5 month, when weather/shower is warmer than 25°C), low blood pressure (down to 8/6), VERY PAINFUL PERIOD, ARTHRITIS, and the list can go on. Which eased or DISAPPEARED when I gained weight again.

So why now ?

Because I've been to my GP a few days ago, because my arthritic knee has been hurting and swollen for 2 weeks, since I hurt myself during a physiotherapy appointment (2 to 3 app. a week for 3 years now and it's a lifelong situation since it's a degenerative condition). And since my period was about to begin, I've had the "usual" inflammatory response so some other articulations was swollen too, especially my wrist which I had a surgery on like 4 months ago.

As I already knew it, it's a twisted knee (for like the 12th or 13th time in 15 years, and no, I can't wear a brace, since my knees are making an X and the surgery that could have prevent both the twisting and the arthritis was refused because of 🥁🥁🥁 MY WEIGHT).

BUT, when I asked about applying for a Recognition as a disabled worker, which basically compel my boss to adapt my post (the most part being working remotely since some days I can't drive because of the pain, and even 10 minutes of driving CAN CAUSE pain) and being paid from the first day of sick leave when I need one because of my knee (according to the law, you're not paid for the 3 first day of a sick leave, and then you go back to work or the NHS compensates the loss), he opposed me that I need to lose weight before speaking about this recognition like. What ?

THIS IS A DEGENERATIVE CONDITION. IT WILL NEVER HEAL. IT WILL ONLY GET WORST.

LOSING WEIGHT WILL JUST BRING UP OTHER ISSUES, WHICH ARE OTHERWISE DISABLING (e.g when I can't walk straight nor drive because of dizziness, can't take a hot shower because it causes dizziness, can't move for days because of period's pain, etc. see above)

He told me that my wrist which I had a surgery on will probably always hurt because it can happen when the carpal tunnel syndrome is too advanced AND GUESS WHO'S THE ONE THAT DIDN'T WANT TO ADDRESS ME TO A NEUROLOGIST FOR 15 YEARS BECAUSE HE DIDN'T BELIEVE IT WAS THAT ????!!! AND IT WAS ??!! AND IT WAS WAY MUCH WORST THAN EXPECTED??!!!

And that's just for the actual GP, because I've almost NEVER met a physician who didn't lectured me about my weight, EVEN WHEN I DIDN'T COME FOR THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE (I literally went to a physician to fulfill paperworks, HE LECTURED ME FOR 20 MINUTES ABOUT WHY I SHOULD LOSE WEIGHT, the anaesthesist I met prior to my wrist surgery DID THE SAME, EXCUSE ME BIATCH, IT WILL NOT CHANGE WITHIN 10 DAYS, and, OF COURSE the anesthesia became a fucking trauma because she didn't sent the right infos to the surgery aisle, my prior GP I've met when I was in internship in Paris told me to DO ANOTHER A SURGERY TO REDUCE MY STOMACH, and so on, once again)

So, since I'm not listened to, nor taken seriously, I decided to lose weight by the only efficient way so far : starving myself (100g of white rice, 100g of kimchi, 2 eggs, 2 toasts, 2 milk coffees and 1 milk tea a day), no matter what happens.