#It did feel weird drawing her without her dumb little jacket... I don't even know if she had a jacket in the books

[the-halfling-prince]

Lazy Jack Spry doodle while I try to fight my lack of motivation to draw anything detailed

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Actually for me it's pretty weird that the most popular ship in Free! is Makoharu. I mean, they give me like zero romantic vibes, if not Rinharu I would've definitely shipped Sourin. It's the main reason I hated Sousuke when I watched 2nd season for the first time - I saw him as a threat for Rinharu (now I just don't like him that much, but I decided to let Rin has his best friend, lol). Maybe it's just me loving rivals to lovers :)

Well.. for me Free! was never that kind of anime where there are other ships, but honestly after several years of watching anime and lately discovering that people ship Wei Wuxian with Jiang Cheng I kinda lost my faith in people lol And yes, I also truly don’t get those ships, where there are zero romantic vibes, but I got used to seeing this already.

I think I’ve talked about Makoharu only once, I usually don’t do it cause as a ship it’s so illogical to me that I just don’t see the point of wasting time on this lol I feel like it’s gonna be long answer so I’ll split it and after “***” I’ll talk about my bro-rinharu-shipper Sousuke.

I’m not gonna throw a debate if it’s the most popular ship or not, but I just want to say that I don’t think that it's really called shipping Makoto and Haru, since firstly, let’s talk about Makoto as a character (which is the main problem in this whole thing tbh) cause from what I saw the Makoto the MH fandom created has nothing to do with the real Makoto. Like the dude is scared of dogs, ghosts, bees, water and I forgot what else; covers his eyes when he sees anyone even in swim trunks and gets embarrassed easier than a nun (apparently you can’t even unbutton the collar of your freaking jacket!!!!!!!!!!! oh lord!!!!!!); crumbles under everyone in this anime including Hiyori and can’t even talk back. 

And suddenly like half of this fandom thinks that Makoto is a dominant top apparently. We seriously laughed our asses off seeing that, I mean even my mom (who’s a teacher btw). I’m like... I have a sister who’s majored in psychology and I myself in literature (like I seriously promise we ain’t stupid) and we just seriously don’t understand.. In what Tarzan’s ass does he suit this description? Dude can’t even answer properly while being offended. Like maybe they like Makoto’s twin brother? Because real Makoto does not have any dangerous dark side, seriously, this ain’t “8 dogs of the east” lmao.

I appreciate their friendship at times, but I never was a fan of him, because I don’t really like people who treat everyone equally (friends and strangers) and think that some asshole deserves as much love as the closest friend. I just don’t understand this life position and don’t like those “world peace” guys anyway. I mean, that fish died moment in the books was when my brain died honestly. Like I get it, dude is sensitive, but... seriously?

And for me being kind is not really a personality. I mean, hell, sometimes it’s no good to be kind. There is a fine line between being kind and being a mop you know.

And sometimes his behavior is really cringy to me. Like during the funeral and during Haru passing out in the book and during many things that are very serious. I just don’t think he’s the person you can rely on at times. I mean at first I thought he’s a steady shoulder, but somehow in all serious situations he doesn’t do anything useful.

Like I might be in the minority here, but to me when you know very well that you panic in the ocean you don’t go there trying to save somebody, it’s not brave, it’s just plain stupid (like it’s not like the tent was far, it was fucking next to him, all he had to do is wake up a pro) so by the end we had to rescue two instead of one, just because he’s dumb af.

He also panics a lot which I really hate on people. I’m sorry but like panicking ppl are the only worst. It reminds me of one of my life situation when my sister was badly hurt and we needed to keep our heads cool to act quickly and do what was necessary asap. And I’ve seen ppl behave like Makoto in situations like this and man it’s seriously no fun, it’s annoying. Like when you need to help somebody and someone panics beside you it pisses you off. And he does it even in little things like when he yelled Haru in the ear while driving JUST BECAUSE A CAR IN FRONT OF THEM BRAKED I mean omfg I would seriously yell “shut the fuck up, you pussy!”

And it all honestly keeps getting worse and worse like the way he’s written, his behavior just buffles me so much. Makoto in s3 just murdered me tbh. Like he didn’t help with anything, he didn’t bring anything to the plot, you can just erase him, he only sat there anyways. And the way they pulled his “dream” out of his ass was just a second-hand embarrassment tbh. And he’s not even Haru’s emotional support anymore. He’s just... I don’t get it. There were literally scenes where he was third-wheeling or just forced into that looked laughable. 

Which brings me to the second point. From what I saw many of Makoharu fans are mostly Makoto fans, so they just want what’s good for him, and since he has no life goals whatsoever (like after he dropped his “I dream of making children like swimming” thingy like a hot potato and was like “training children.. but look at Rin and Haru” I really lost my last marbles watching him) they apparently don’t care for what Haru’s dream is and that he said openly that he wants a future with Rin.

Like I get that everyone has their tastes, but like what.. two people who are crazy about each other since twelve and blossomed a dream of having a future together and the thought of being with each other got them through and they finally have what they wanted.. this is not a trend anymore? Mutual romantic love is not a trend anymore? Like I even without novelization can see that (and I quote Rin word for word here) that “every time he sees Haru his heart beats so fast he can’t calm down” and quote “Haru sees Rin and he’s shaking, he closes his eyes desperately trying get rid of the image, but the pain in his chest doesn’t go away”.

I am personally very happy that Rinharu are finally together and will be doing what they wanted in their life by each other’s side, cause they’ve been dreaming about it for too long, they’ve been thinking about it for  years. So not wanting them to have that is very weird for me. And the argument that Makoto somehow better than Rin for Haru is so invalid, I always laugh. I guess it depends on what you want for yourself. But honestly like you guys better find someone who make you want to reach for the stars and make you heart skip a bit everytime you see him.

So I as a huge fan of Haru want my boy to fly and now I have all the canon proof for those who were blind that Rin is the only one (been said) who makes him feel that way. So all those anons who kept writing to me how relay with Sosuke, with Rei and what baffled me the most swimming with Ikuya was just as emotional for them can finally shut it (lmao I’m sorry).

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Now... Sousuke, my bro, the first Rinharu shipper on the village who helped them to get together is a threat? Okay. Well, I actually like s2, there are some dumb episodes but s2 actually to me showed how rinharu relationships are different from anyone else. There are literally two whole episodes and several scenes of how the bROMANCE prevails over BROmance.

Sousuke and Rin have typical brothers relationship. From their secret handshakes “parent trap” style to the fact that they draw them exactly the same with his real brother. I mean I don’t know if anyone noticed, but in 3x11 they drew Sousuke doing the exact same teasing move with Rin, that his older brother did to him in 3x01, and it’s definitely not a coincidence. Which means he treats him like his little bro, and not just that. I have lots of proof.

You know, I had a friend back at university who had an older brother who she was very close with and she kept telling me about how he kept testing her boyfriends if they’re good enough... I mean Sousuke was doing it with Haru since Rin has told him that he has found his one and only. And it never ever looked like he was possessive of Rin and was like “he’s mine”, it was always like “he’s yours so make sure you make him happy you loser”, he even stalked Haru to see if he still swims alright which is really funny (like okay dad), so by the end of the season when Rin lovingly looks at Haru and says it was all worth it, Sousuke looks very content like he was sure that they’re all good now.

And that moment like in Yakusoku where Rin dropped Sousuke as soon as he saw Haru, I honestly don’t think it’s the kind of jealousy people think it is. It’s like if I asked my sister “do u want to see the new avengers movie” and she’d answer “sorry, I already promised to go with my boyfriend” (not that this would ever happen, but let’s imagine that she found herself her nanase) I would be fucking upset too, but I would kinda get it (if it’s a love of her life I mean). Or like literally imagine you lived with your best friend for years and suddenly she wants to move in with he boo. I mean it happens sometimes. But it’s not the jealousy really, he’s just sad because he knows that he needs to let Rin go and he won’t spend as much time with him as he did before. Sousuke knows how much Rin loves Haru, plus after he saw that Haru is as good as Rin told him, he started to like him himself so he was worried about both of them. 

And I love Sousuke, he’s our godmother. I’d rather have him on the international team than Ikuya but he sadly he doesn’t swim breaststroke or back and we only have one butterfly and one freestyle spot xD

I’m sincerely saying as a person with two siblings that I really don’t see it. It’s just there’s a huge difference between brothers and lovers. And you can’t call Harurin bros. It’s just laughable. Even if you haven’t read anything and just watched the anime.

I mean I think it’s easier to see if you try to imagine Haru in Sousuke’s place in any Sourin scene and see how it would’ve went then. Like do you remember when Sousuke asked for cola and Rin went to get one and there was only one can left so they rock-paper-scissored it and Rin won and drank it?

Now imagine if Haru was there in Sousuke’s place. I can tell you 100% that Rin would’ve just given him the can. And then he would’ve looked at him with that face he makes when he’s content just by watching Haru eat, you know.

I mean it just how I see it. And there are a lot of comparable scenes in s2 that bring me lots of evil joy, but I won’t tell lmao.

But as I said before to me there’s a huge difference between bromances and bromances. So I mostly don’t get most of these ships. I don’t understand anything in this world apparently lol but I only see Rinharu since the first time I’ve watched it, and then I’ve read everything and realized that I’m right, so I’m ok with all this xD 

[buckysgirls-stuff]

One Ghost Less - BuckyNat (one-shot)

Authors note: this is something I wrote by this idea I had while watching CA: The Winter soldier for the millionth time... and I'm kinda happy how it turned out. I'm not the best at drawing, I'm out of practice, but I tried and it could be worse 😅 I was thinking that I might do a smut second part for this... let me know if you want that

Word counting: 786

Not warnings, just fluff and a little angst

THE DRAWING IS MINE, IF YOU USE, PLEASE GIVE CREDIT, THANKS

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The morning just started, the ghosts on his head couldn't let him sleep anymore. He needed coffee. Coffee and some cardio to relieve the anxiety crawling on his chest. He felt cold...

"FRIDAY, can you turn up the temperature?"

"Sure, Sargent Barnes. Is 80°F alright?"

"It's great, thank you"

He stood up from his bed, nothing good came out of his dreams, he didn't like that place.

With his coffee on his hand, now clean and ready to go to the training room, he greeted Steve as he left to the elevator for his morning run.

"Why don't you come with me? Warm up in the exterior"

"Not ready for that yet, Steve... maybe another time" he wasn't ready for going to the out world, he felt like everyone was watching him. Steve nodded and waved as the elevator door closed.

When he crossed the door, he saw her; standing next to her gym bag, drying her face with a towel, her daily training was over, he knew, he knew her body language... she was about to leave.

But he didn't want her to leave...

He got closer to her, small steps, feeling insecure and shy, weird in a man like him. He had to do this. He had to...

"Tasha..." she turned around, not surprised by who it was, she knew because she heard him enter, and only Bucky had that way of walking. She remembered the sounds of every person who lived there. An old habit.

"James..." she was on a tank top and joggers, comfy clothes for training.

"I- we- we need to talk"

"Sure, about what?" He was nervous, couldn't find a way to start the conversation

"About that" he pointed at her belly. Was that the best that he had? No. It was a dumb way to start.

"About... my..." she looked at where he was pointing, now knowing what he meant, but not wanting to talk about it "my hip?"

"Yes. Wait- no- about that... the- the scar"

"Oh," the Soviet bullet. She couldn't forget... neither of them could.

"Steve told me... well, actually it was accidentally. I told him I remembered you but couldn't remember when or what" he scratched his neck, verbal vomit coming out. Natasha was quiet, for the first time not knowing what to say "so I asked him if he knew something... he did, but didn't told me at first; he said I had to ask you and talk about it... then it slipped by accident... he said that it left you a mark on the hip..." he wasn't going to admit that since then he not only started to remember everything, but also he looked at her more, every time she was on a short top, he looked at her trying to see the scar, the guilt all over him

"James... it's fine"

"Can I see it?" He needed to, not knowing why, there was not an actual explanation

"Um- sure..." she got her fingers in the elastic of her pants, and slowly pushed it down, enough to make him see it... approximately two inches, a big and notorious scar. He felt even worse. Then he remembered another thing... that was not the only time he shot her. That time on the bridge... without even thinking his hand went straight to her shoulder, moving her hair away to see it... another scar. That one barely kills her.

"I'm sorry..." his eyes were filled with tears, none of them were dropped

"It's okay" he was too busy thinking about how much damage he has done, he didn't notice she took his metal hand to hold it, and with the other one she tried to stop him from touching the scar, caressed his arm softly, he didn't need any more pain...

"Nat..." she saw the horror on his eyes

"Bucky, I swear... I'm fine" she felt his pain... and wanted it to go away

She has never been a "skin person", she wasn't used to hug, or give affections, or say nice things that often... but she felt the urge to hug him and hold him on her arms, away from the bad thoughts. And both of them were surprised when she did it. Her hands climbed his arms and held him tightly, his went slowly to her waist, letting himself go and do what any average human would do... hug back the woman he had feelings for. And it felt amazing...

"I forgive you, if that's what you need to hear, I didn't thought that was necessary... but I do. You are a good man, James" he hugged her even tighter.

One of the ghost that chased him left his body. And a hug never felt this good.

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Bonus drawing:

I didn't liked this one... awful eyes, Nat's hand is way too small, Bucky's face looks bad. But I tried 🤷‍♀️

When I did the drawings I wasn't sure how to introduce the scene so I just did Nat with Jeans and Bucky with a Jacket... I didn't want to fix that so... yeah

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