#It be ya own flesh and blood CHILDREN...tho much deserved

[amariemelody]

"'S bad scar. Looks painful." -sluuuuuuurp-

I'm…I…Shoto. My baby. I do not blame you (and, believe it or not, to a certain extent I don't blame your eldest brother, either), and hell maybe I would've said something similar if I were in your position, but…every time. Your bluntness. Every time. Every single time I think you're done. Or at least almost done. Every single time…with this one, I don't know whether to burst into tears or burst into laughter. I done 'bout did both.

So I ain't got no breath.

Do you understand what you did? Slurpin' on...what is that this episode, your favorite soba (cold)? You done stole the very breath out of one of your biggest fans and you wanna call yourself a future pro hero.

Not even my albuterol can save me.

I need a break. Seriously. Bc of you. I cannot breathe.

@blitzy-wing ...I do hope you're proud of my child.

[gliitchedwitch]

May I please have 1-45 with whatever you haven’t already answered for Aranea? I’m so gay for her.

1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

-Nah, none that she would remember anyway.

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

-She doesn’t have a relationship with her mother anymore. A very long time ago, when she was a different person, she very much resented her mother.

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

-She never knew him. Even before her flesh warping, he was never apart of the picture. She would have hated him though.

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

-uhh,, she kind of failed a coup on a noble house and was literally changed into a drider with no memories of her past self. And yeah, a good chuck of people are aware of this. I’ll give you a twofer tho, since I like ya so much. She also met this really funny human man and because of him, she’s slowly regaining parts of who she used to be. She could probably never express this to him, but she’ll be forever grateful for having met him.

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

- she doesn’t really have these.

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

- lol but she has tons of these! Her dead husband and children, parts of her past life and her current masters. All of it’s like walking in someone else’s skin and living out small snippets of a life that doesn’t exist anymore. it’s real wild dude.

8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

- Yep! her primary weapon is her rifle. As for that first target, that would a literal target during training. If you meant live target… that would be her husband and children.

9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

- yeah, you could say that. She was a dirt poor kid. Now she’s a fairly well provided for slave :U

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

- She doesn’t actually care? Like it doesn’t matter if she’s nude or fully clothed, doesn’t mean anything to her.

11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

-there have been a few but I’ll go with the first time she become fully conscious after her flesh warping, having no idea of where she was and who or what she was for that matter.

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

-This lady doesn’t know peace very often. But before everything hit the fan, she will admit a casual business day with Rinnill was never bad at all. Now it’d prolly be late night rooftop sits.  

13.Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

- No, it comes with the job.

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

- uhhh, names prolly?

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

- not really. She’s no need for it.

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

- “Happiness” doesn’t seem like a truly obtainable thing for her. Success is something she can set her sights on though.

17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

- She didn’t have much of anything as a child save for this somewhat fancy looking doll that her best friend stole as a gift for her. She cherished that doll and had passed it down to her daughter. Where it is now is anyones guess and she has no memory of it’s existence.

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

- In the past she was overly ambitious and perhaps a lil’ power hungry and it not only destroyed her but her whole family :) Now she is VERY emotionally stunted. 10 years of repression and brainwashing will do that to you but we’re working on it.

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

- She puts everything on her own shoulders and she knows for a fact that she was the cause of all her misfortunes.

22. What does your character like in other people?

- competence, someone that can hold an intelligent conversation with her. Tell her a good pun and she’s done for.

23. What does your character dislike in other people?

-Mmm,, people that are overly self absorbed or just flat out unreliable.

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

-It’s hard to trust when you live in a society that values deceit and betrayal.

26. How does your character behave around children?

- She’s actually very protective of children? Got a soft spot for ‘em for some reason.

27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

- usually a bullet will do the trick.

28. How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

- shooting her problems away seems to work pretty well so far.

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

- As a child all she ever wanted was to make something of herself. Be more than the gutter trash she came from and she was willing to do nearly anything for it. It did come true… for a time.

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

-Not a whole lot? Maybe sticky stuff? Like the nasty kinda mystery sticky stuff that tends to get on floors randomly and you know how when you walk over it it the soles of your shoes make THAT ONE NOISE, maybe that.

31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

- She’s very comfortable doing what she was trained for. Gun in hand, target in her sights and that moment right as the trigger is pulled. It’s second nature now.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

-When she finds herself overwhelmed with feelings. It’s been a long while since she expressed and felt exceptionally strong emotions and with all that’s been going on with her lately, it can be very draining.

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

-Willing to improve, unless she thinks that she’s absolutely right in the decision she made then she’s a lil’ defensive.

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

-If one method doesn’t work, try another.

37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

- hmm, she doesn’t have much of an honor to speak of and her status as a slave isn’t much to defend.

39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

- probably at some point. I think she might have been bitten by some spore rats? Really didn’t affect her.

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?

-lol indifferent. Sometimes she intimidates them into not answering funny lil’ bard’s questions. ;)

41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

-… even if she earned it at this point she doesn’t feel like she deserves much of anything. It’s perhaps a little bit selfish but she works for it anyway.

42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

-mm, sort of? There’s a running joke that the party has about her masters being called “Mom and Dad”

43. Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

-hmm, hard to say. I’ll get back to this one another day.

44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say ���I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

- It is an extremely difficult emotion for her to process and even more difficult for her to be able to say the phrase to someone if she truly meant it. If she had to say it to trick someone for whatever reason, that would be easily done.  

[musefulstranger]

5x09 review-One Fettered Slave

I can’t believe we’ve come to this point.

One episode before the final epilogue and it feels so surreal-i can’t even begin to imagine  how it must’ve been for the people that have sticked to this show for 4 years.

Ep 9 was what i imagined it to be: quick paced, action packed and extremely emotional.

I was scared about the analogy between the Helena moments and the general mythology arc cause they had to show a lot of things- especially after Siobhan’s death- but they balanced it well.

let’s analyze the different thematics:

The Funeral

Siobhan’s funeral  started with Sarah speaking . In an episode that is focused on another character i think the writers did a good choice not showing Sarah’s vulnerability.

She’s suddenly the pillar of the family and eveyone is expecting directions from her. She has to be the strong one there’s no other way. Her grief and feelings are not her priority right now  so she won’t break down. Not in front of Kira, not in front of everyone.

Sarah’s grown so much.This moment says it all

what am i supposed to do?

she can’t afford losing her child as well. She’s the reason she’s keeping it together after all. So she stays with her and comforts her. Something Ms S had done all those years when Sarah was absent.

I also adored the symbolism of her wearing her mother’s jacket.

Sarah taking responsibility, lifting the weights of this family

also congrats for letting Tatiana without make up in her  portrayal of Sarah (or rather the “no make up” makeup ya know) cause it made her emotional chaos more humane… her eyes said it all..

also about her breaking down- i believe we’re gonna see her grieve the way she’s supposed to after everything is finally over. Last episode is Sarah centric so it totally fits to have her moment in the epilogue.

What i didn’t like from the funeral scene was the singing at the beginning, which i found anticlimactic..it would be much better if we could just hear Sara and Felix speaking with no other sound in the background..

Also the fact that 4 days after S’s death they could walk and talk in a house that is a murder scene was totally unrealistic..Police had to be all over the place investigating and all…

Unless Art handled the situation in a way..but still a plot hole is a plot hole

Team working together

Cosima,Felix, Art, Hellwizard, Scott, Rachel ok what a pleasant suprise to see everyone working together. I loved the fact that supporting actors got the chance to actually help the ledas and be useful. Each one helped in their own field.

Cosima helped with the Dyad information and Scotty-Hell with the security system (even if it was kinda weak to hack the security system with such convienience-i’m bypassing that lol)

Even Rachel helped!! Rachel!!! My only complaint was Alison’s minimum participation in this but i get that given the circumstances her involvement  would be extremely difficult

Should i talk about Art??

Cause everything

screams

SACRIFICE

and all this time i ‘ve been crazy rambling about how his chances of surving are veeeery  low…. ep 9 built his exodus cause the final episode will be Leda/Sarah Centric…so be prepared guys…

i get Ebro’s schedule..i trully do..and i was fine with Sardinia..i was fine with Geneva as well cause there was a reason behind it plotwise but we’ve come to the point where there isn’t even an explanation about this…

they didn’t clarify the reason she left… cause it doesn’t make sense when Siobhan’s funeral was 4 days after the gallery party…there wasn’t a reason good enough to justify her absence that’s why the writers didn’t give one…they prefered to let the fans decide which reason was good enough…let’s be real though that was sloppy..and as much as i love orphan black i’m gonna point out  it’s weakening points as well.

Coady+ Mark

So Mark died absolutely clueless…his death matched Ira’s death, both manipulated by their creators, hoping for a cure that never existed in the first place.Too bad that there wasn’t any building up to bring tension and to make us care about those characters… so this scene felt kinda flat at least for me…i believe the reason behind this was cause ob writers didn’t want to make Coady a grey character…. well i for once celebrated her death after this scene

wait it is confirmed that Coady is dead right? I mean Helena beat the shit out of her so it would be  impossible to zombie out ?? or should i be worried??

PT + Rachel!Sarah

oh god PT without his wig is like a bulb with ears lmao

anyway so i loved these 2 together…this is the first time Sarah meets John am i right?

also congrats to the props team and the level of detail they use in each scene…i liked that Sarah didn’t wear the same patch Rachel wears…

a++ to the dialogue about PT perving out on Rachel because in that way Sarah put herself on Rachel’s shoes and actually saw for the first time how they were monitoring her sister and what actually means complete lack of privacy…

also both Susan and PT seem to have a perplexed image as to what a father/mother figure looks like

you don’t fuck your ‘son’/ or watch you ‘daughter’ masturbate and then call them “son/daughter” lol

but it gave me pleasure that Rachel never actually called PT “father” and that’s how Sarah got exposed..

the moment she cut him with the knife i was like “yaaaas finish him lol”

HELENA

FLASHBACKS

omg??

don’t get me wrong the kid was very good/ super talented and all

but how could they do this???

i mean it was SO.FUCKING.OBVIOUS that this isn’t the face of a leda clone you couldn’t concentrate on anything else!

at least i couldn’t! Especially when 2 episodes before they used canonically Cynthia!

i mean

??????

it defies logic?? there’s no excuse??

they could have dubbed the ukranian parts i don’t care if little Cynthia couldn’t play that good that was so wrong in so many levels… it had the “Spongebob takes a bath in the sea” logic lol

and it was really such a shame cause the flashbacks were so amazing..

first of all i loved the whole “pleasures of the flesh are unacceptable in a religious environment” thematic cause it adresses real social issues like the austerity and fake puritanism of social institutions.

the reason behind Helena’s bleached hair was a nice touch even though little Helena should also have some  burn marks after this…we got to know why she has those pink shades under her eyes as well so that was good..

as far as to why her hair is still blonde after all this time…well i choose to patch this plot hole by believing that Helena did this to herself again and again..she bleached/dyed them as a sign of punishment, self harm  and guilt cause that was the way she was raised- a mouthpiece and killing machine of others..

the art department did a brilliant job with the dollhouse and the correlation between Helena’s fixation with dolls back in her Rachel assassination attempt

Tomas took her and hide her the fact  that she’s a copy..she grew up in the illusion that she was special..that she was the original..in fact Rachel and Helena fantasized about the same thing and it is so fascinating to see how they are 2 different sides of the same coin…

Most Heartbreaking moment

Oh god this moment…

what kind of mother could you possibly make?

jesus Tatiana each time you give more and more, i haven’t seen an actor as committed and devoted as you are, you deserve all the praise girl woah

Coady found Helena’s weakness and it is not how she smells, looks or talks…it’s about her capacity of giving a future more bright and beautiful to her children than the one her younger self  had to endure…

and at the end of the day she’s willing to take the bait..  it’s either freedom or death…exactly like Rachel..there’s no middle ground..she won’t leave her children become experiments so that’s why i find super important that we finally get a Rachel Helena scene…there’s a high probability Rachel won’t make it in the finale so at least lets have a last glorious scene with the 3 of them as they try to escape…or so i hope…

THE TWINS

YEEEEEESSSSS

all this crazy rambling about this being a Sarah-Helena season finally came true! Everything came full circle and this moment was SO important like you guys don’t understand…

Sarah finally made up for Helena..she gave her her blood to keep her alive…she put each and everyone of her friends and family searching for her, she made her a priority- drowning her grief -cause she couldn’t lose another one..especially Helena.

And now she will help her give birth..she will be there for her, protect her, give her life even..even tho after the obspoilers fiasco my theory now is that Art is gonna save Sarah…because it is super symbolic .. it would be his second chance and his redemption after losing Beth.. now he’s gonna do it right. Idk it is so foreshadowing… i wonder what Rachel’s role is gonna be..i sure hope she’s the one that’s gonna kill PT but who knows at this point.

Ep 9 set the mood for a very powerful ob series finale..Helena’s inner world was raw and pure and it’s going to  parallel  Sarah’s  final  gut-wrenching episode.The twins are going to set the epilogue and i trully hope their journey will be as magical and  satisfying as this show was  for all of us.