#Is God real

[mentholmuse]

you ever reread ur fav essay and noticed a spelling mistake 5 years after u submitted it

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

Down To The River To Pray: Alison Krauss

As I went down in the river to pray

Studying about that good old way

And who shall wear the robe and crown

Good Lord, show me the way!

O brothers let's go down

Let's go down, come on down

Come on brothers let's go down

Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray

Studying about that good old way

And who shall wear the starry crown

Good Lord, show me the way!

O mothers let's go down

Let's go down, come on down

Come on mothers let's go down

Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray

Studying about that good old way

And who shall wear the starry crown

Good Lord, show me the way!

O fathers let's go down

Let's go down, come on down

Come on fathers let's go down

Down in the river to pray

Ill Mind Of Hopsin 7

It's us, find power

Live life, mind power

It's us, find power

Live life, mind power

Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm

Life is a tour, I sit and ride along

Taking some notes and then I write the song

I'm staring down the road my life has gone

Is this where I belong?

Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?

My mental state is fucking me up

And I cried a pond while asking you for some answers

But we don't have that type of bond

That my desires gone with the way that I've been living lately

If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on

Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sell-out

Cause I hopped on Christianity so strongly then I fell out

Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down

Feeling so damn humiliated because they looking at me like I'm hellbound

What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth

I'm so close to the fucking edge, I should be close to you

But who the fuck are You? You never showed the proof

And I'm only fucking human yo, what am I supposed to do?

There's way too many different religions with vivid descriptions

Begging all fucking men and women to listen

I can't even beat my dick without getting convicted

These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions

I been itching to get it, I've been given assistance

But the whole fucking system is twisted

Now I'm dealing with this backlash because Marcus isn't a Christian

And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction

But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it

I need an answer and humans can't provide it

I look at the Earth and Sun and I can tell a genius man designed it

It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it

Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it?

Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long it take Man to find it?

My mind's a nonstop tape playing and I can't rewind it

You gave me a Bible and expect me not to analyze it?

I'm frustrated and you provoked it

I'm not reading that motherfucking book because a human wrote it

I have a fucking brain, you should know it

You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment

It was a mission that I had to abort

Cause humans be lying with such an inaccurate source

It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course

Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch

I swear I'm slammin' the door

A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised

Humans are fucking dumb, still thinkin' that Pac's alive

I ain't trying to take your legacy and torch it down

I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit from the horse's mouth

Just sheep always telling stories of older guys

Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized

Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes

And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise

Sound's like a fucking Poltergeist

Show yourself and then boom it's done

Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this shit, you're the One

I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun

And all my old habits can hop onto of a roof to plunge

I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds

Fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang with a group of nuns

And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do

I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You

I hate the fact that I have to believe

You haven't been chatting with me like you did Adam and Eve

And I ain't seen no fucking talking snake unravel from trees

With an apple to eat, that shit never happens to me

I don't know if you do or don't exist, it's driving me crazy

Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don't forget

If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it

I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this shit

My gut feeling says it's all fake, I hate to say it but fuck it, shit I done lost faith

This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed

My thoughts just keep picking shit apart all day

And in my mind I make perfect sense

If you aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent

That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is

And I could just sit in church and say "fuck" in the services

Man what if Jesus was a facade? Then that would mean the government's god

I feel like they've been brainwashing us with a lot

So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box

Man everything is "what if", why is it always "what if"

Planet Earth "what if", the universe "what if"

My sacrifice "what if", my afterlife "what if"

Every fucking thing that deals with you is fucking suspect

I'm fucking done, I'm fucking done

This is my fucking life and I'm living it, I'm having fun

If you really care for me, prove that I need to live carefully

But I'll be damned if I put my own pleasure aside for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed

We are you, and you're us, stop playing games

My life's all I got, and heaven is all in my brain

And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain

Do as you please, and I'll just do me, I'm a human, I'll stay in my lane

Ill mind

It's us, find power

Live life, mind power

It's us, find power

Live life, mind power

Embracing the Duality: My Love for Two Powerful Songs

Music has a unique way of capturing the complexities of our experiences, emotions, and beliefs. I often find myself drawn to two songs that, on the surface, may seem worlds apart, but share a profound connection in my heart. "Down in the River to Pray" and the reflective piece that questions faith encapsulate my personal journey through belief, doubt, and the search for meaning.

Starting with "Down in the River to Pray," I find solace in its gentle melodies and lyrics that evoke a sense of community and tradition. There's a warmth in the call to come together, a yearning for guidance and understanding. Even though I may not subscribe to the beliefs presented in the song, the emotional weight behind it resonates deeply within me. It reminds me of the importance of connection—how we all seek a sense of belonging, especially during challenging times. I love the imagery of descending into the river, a metaphor for cleansing and renewal, which speaks to my own desire for growth and redemption.

Contrastingly, the other song lies in the realm of raw introspection, addressing the struggles of faith and doubt head-on. It embodies the frustration of questioning religious norms, feeling alienated, and grappling with the fear of being "hellbound." This song resonates with my own skepticism about belief systems that are often taken for granted. The artist's candid exploration of their internal conflict allows me to feel seen and understood. I appreciate the vulnerability in its lyrics, as it conveys the struggle of trying to navigate a world filled with contradictions and uncertainties.

Loving both songs simultaneously may seem contradictory, yet each fulfills a different need within me. "Down in the River to Pray" offers comfort, reminding me of the beauty in tradition and the search for divine guidance, while the other song provides an outlet for my doubts and frustrations, challenging me to think critically about faith and existence. Together, they create a balance in my life—a blend of hope and skepticism that fuels my personal growth.

Ultimately, these songs are not just melodies or lyrics to me; they represent different facets of my identity and my journey. They remind me that it's okay to embrace the duality of my feelings—loving the call for community while questioning the very foundation of that community. In a world that often demands certainty, I find peace in the uncertainty and the exploration of my beliefs. Music, in its many forms, allows me to express and understand my feelings, and for that, I am eternally grateful.

[smitemeister]

deleted the post bc yeah i hate venting but i was in the moment and just utterly harrowed

shit sucks so bad im just gonna pause using my main for a bit tbh

[gremblim]

Alfred’s making such a stance in the podcast post what are they talking about lmao

I like to imagine the podcast lasts about 5 hours and they've argued their way through such a variation of topics that the segue between unrelated arguments would give any normal human whiplash!

[elizabeth-mitchells]

THREE WARRIOR NUN MOVIES?!?!?!!????!!!

[thedman0310]

hnnnnng

[daincrediblegg]

OK THIS IS NOT A FUCKING DRILL EVERYONE FUCKING REPEAT AFTER ME. THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL DO WHEN YOU WATCH MUPPET CHRISTMAS CAROL THIS YEAR:

You will navigate to the page on disney plus (and it has to be here. Unless someone has actually uploaded the REAL movie anywhere else you cannot get it elsewhere)

BUT YOU WILL NOT HIT PLAY. You won’t do it. Because it’s NOT THE REAL VERSION OF THE FILM AND DISNEY IS FUCKING LYING TO YOU AS IT ALWAYS DOES

You will scroll down HERE. To EXTRAS instead. You MUST GO HERE. This is non -negotiable

THEN YOU WILL SCROLL DOWN TO THE BOTTOM OF THE EXTRAS AND YOU WILL THEN HIT PLAY ON THIS BAD BOY: THE FULL LENGTH VERSION

And you will watch it. And you will thank me for having been so blind and led astray by that stupid fucking mouse. You’re welcome.

[placebo-ambrosia]

ough what am i doing i need a job

[nazumichi]

the joys of a keychain (wow! little object) vs the fears of a keychain (What If It Vanishes)

[drusies]

couldnt stop fucking thinking about this all day at work

[sapphic-storm69]

Spiderverse thots

[xsimbaaa]

This scene makes me feral…

The watch, the jaw, the wrist flick, the VEST….🤤

[snowberai]

Merdusa (mermaid + Medusa) but her hair is ribbon eels

[consultingfujoshi]

inconsolable over irving in this episode. no nuance here, irving is straight up suicidal in this episode. essentially placing him in the same circumstances in which mark chose to become severed - suffering unimaginable heartbreak and seeing switching his brain off as the only viable option for coping with it - and giving him that same choice at surface level to be relieved of it - except it's NOT the same at all, because innies don't get to compartmentalise, they ARE the compartmentalisation, if they choose to switch themselves off, they DIE. the illusion of choice here. irving can either suffer mindless torture of monotony every day with the knowledge that the man he loves is dead and never coming back, or he can fucking DIE. and he genuinely sees that as a viable option. as his only way out of this pain. because even if he did make it out, if he somehow against all odds gained his freedom in the outside world, he'd still have nothing. burt would not be waiting for him.

"I should be happy he's happy" and the way he doesn't even feel entitled to his grief?? like he has no right to be feeling the pain he's feeling right now? innie indoctrination goes so hard he's incapable of seeing that the very fact he's grieving innie burt, a hypothetical life they could have had together, is proof that he's just as real as his outie counterpart! he has just as much right to that life as anyone! like, NO, irv! you have been wronged, you have been so deeply wronged, they made you capable of feeling these things and forming this relationship and falling in love and then systematically removed every tool you could have had to pursue it, and then effectively handed you a length of rope and made you feel like the only empowerment you can find is in the act of hanging yourself with it.

"if he's gone and I'm gone, then somehow, we'll be together" broke me because he really has been so beaten down by this point at the hopelessness of it all, realising that there is no scenario in which he can be with the man he loves, that his only hope at finding any triumph or meaning in this is to die along with burt. at least in chasing him into oblivion, he will have made the one choice he could have to follow his heart. and that as a queer-centric narrative specifically is actually devastating.

SUCH an insane and heavy thing to come straight out of the gate with in the season premier. immediately cementing irving as one of the most masterfully complex characters I've ever seen - i can only hope his arc this season is in finding strength in the act of defiance at last and making good on his promise to burn lumon to the ground for what they've put him through. to carry that grief and channel it into bringing the system that has wronged you down. I believe in the power of queer rage and vengeance!!!!

[araneapeixes]

i made a chart to explain my views and beliefs