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mars101 · 2 years ago

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❝ Insomnia ❞

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☆ PAIRING = ex!seonghwa x ex!reader

☆ GENRE = second chances, ex's to ???

☆ WARNINGS = slight angst, talks of miscommunication, mentions of food, they fall down a hill (😭), the pov confusing and idk either

☆ WORD COUNT = 4.8k

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★ SYNOPSIS = communication or the lack of was the reason that brought you and seonghwa apart, your friends hope that a single conversation in a locked room will bring you two back together.

★ RELEASE DATE = 10/09/23

★ SONG INSPO = insomnia -> yukika

★ AUTHOR'S NOTE = im finally done with this damn oneshot, i cant omg. months of quitting and regaining my inspiration finally payed off… ok pls have fun reading, sunny's an oc btw ok antyways happy reads !! <33

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Act 1: Our Present

"I know you two were once in love."

"So where's the place?"

Mumbles are heard through the phone as Hongjoong starts to walk towards the window. "Turn your stereo down and maybe you'll finally hear me. Are you sure you're actually here?" his words are stretched out as he cranes his neck to look out into the street. The gps on your phone continues to say one minute away, you roll your eyes as it's been saying that for the last four minutes.

"Y/n. There's three cars outside alright?-" 'Okay" "We are the third house from the top of the hill-" "Why so high?" "And then Wooyoung and... oh wait.. Wooyoung and Seonghwa should be outside."

The car goes silent as now the only thing you hear is the soft rumbling of the car and the faint sounds of the music you turned down earlier. I mean you knew you were going to see him eventually but you didn't think it'll be this soon.

"Do you want me to make an excuse for him to come inside?"

Hongjoong's question brought you out of your silence, "No no, I mean it's been a year now, I should be alright." Keyword: "Should". It seems that after he said that, the house your friends had rented popped into view as you see the two mentioned.

"Oh is that you-" "Okay bye." You hang up on Hongjoong as Wooyoung starts to wave at you in the car, for someone who drove for two hours he looks far too cheerful. To his right was him. The smile that kept you up at night plastered on his face as you two kept the eye contact for longer than the eye contact for exes should be.

"Y/n noona!, lower the window!!"

"Wooyoung, you don't need to yell when you are right outside the window" said boy instantly leans into the car once the window is fully rolled down, already making himself comfortable. "So what? I just wanted to talk to you, it's been too longgg" he was dragging out his words as his bottom lip poked out.

You poked his forehead as you gestured him to move away, "Woo, I was at your birthday party two months ago. Now move it's cold, some people want to go inside." Wooyoung let you turn your car off as he went to the trunk of your car to help you bring stuff in. (it was only three things)

As you stepped out of your car you heard another set of footsteps come near you. The breath gets caught in your throat as you already know who's going to be behind you. The soft and clean scent still follows him after a year, oh how much you missed it.

"Do you need any help?" The sparkle in his eyes as he looks down at you has you wondering if this is real or a dream. Even at Wooyoung's birthday you were having a hard time even looking at him from across the room, but now that he's right in front of you it's making you feel as if every single emotion you've once felt with him is coming back like like a storm.

"Oh, I- Uh- I think-" "Hyung, I left the heavy things for you" Wooyoung makes eye-contact with you and he sends a wink your way. As you turn back to Seonghwa you notice he's looking at your necklace. His necklace that he gave you for your first anniversary. "Well uh, I think you can help me with the bag then."

The first few steps you two took to the trunk of your car was so awkward as you both didn't know what to say. "So, how have you been? I would've talked to you before at Wooyoung's party but I was too scared honestly", "You? Scared?" You couldn't help but to stare at him as a small smirk grew on his face. "Wait, I wouldn't say scared then, maybe just nervous,"

As he handed you your smaller bag and pulled out the bigger bag you also noticed something. A watch. The watch you gave him on that same anniversary.

knock knock knock

"Oh god, what are the kids doing up there.." You follow the direction of his eyes which is where the knocks came from as you see the 99's now scolding San for knocking at the window. "I think we should go inside now, Wooyoung started to eat your snacks." His pointed finger leads to Wooyoung inside flailing the bag of chips around as he walks in a circle around the poor boy.

The place they rented was big, but it felt full with the light music that was playing from Jongho's speaker and the sounds of yelling from the dining area.

You feel Seonghwa take your bag from your shoulder as his warm hand lingers just a bit longer than needed. "Y/n, I'll bring this to your room. Ah, Joong told you that you're rooming with Sunny right?" You nod remembering that it was actually said girl who texted you after months, excited that the two of you will be sharing a room.

"Yeah yeah. I'll be over there greeting everyone so.." The words trail away as it becomes silent again but the man in front of you keeps his smile as he turns you around pushing you lightly towards where everyone is.

The noise becomes louder as you step into the room, only Hongjoong and Jongho seems to notice you as the rest excluding Yeosang and Sunny are somewhere else.

"Hey hey!" The younger of the two raises his hand as a greeting as you give the other a hug. "Hi to our Jongho~ and bye to this loser over here", "Loser?? Did you forget who won the race to the rest station?", "Race??? You only said that after you got there!"

Out of all the people here (there's only 10 including you) you’ve known these two the longest. Meeting both Hongjoong and Jongho in the gym class that included each grade during high school. After beating the two in the class run, races for literally anything has become apart of your friendship.

“Alright alright we already have one argument going on we don’t need another…Noona you were the latest to arrive here though..” A smack on the boy’s shoulder followed with a chuckle from him made you realize. Why are those four still arguing?

“What are they talking about?” As you pushed yourself up onto the counter the two had been sitting on Hongjoong puts his arm around your shoulders slightly shaking you. “How San ruined the moment you and Seonghwa had out there” “M-moment, we were just- he was just helping me with my bags.”

He turned his head to Jongho who’s shaking his head in disagreement with the other, “Hyung. That is not a “moment” the two couldn’t even hold eye contact for that long.” “Exactly why it was a moment. The two were so shy after seeing each other they couldn’t look into each other’s shining eyes.” He turns to you teasingly batting his eyelashes.

You push him off you as the three of you are left with smiles on your faces, then eye-contact is shared with the boy who has been scolded for the last 5 minutes. A yelp is let out from him as he finally sees you entered the room. “Ahhh, when did you get in here???”

The three boys freeze then look at where San was looking at. As you wave to them Mingi seems to be startled too when he flinched grabbing onto Yunho's arm for support. “Y/n noona!! It's so nice to see you again!” Yunho said shaking Mingi's arm off heading towards you for a hug.

“I was so worried that you wouldn't come this year, I remember that one year where you didn't come and- Oh, did you hear about what I said about Seonghwa hyung earlier?” His face fell in realization that you were there for most of their banter.

“Oh come on, you know I always used to block out your petty arguements.” he let out a breath as you lightly punched his shoulder. “Noona it's good that you didn't hear what Yunho said because he was always there when Seonghwa-”

Mingi's mouth was covered with a slap by Wooyoung who started to drag the poor boy out of the room. “Oh hey, where's Yeosang? I think we should go look for him, right Mingi? Okay see you guys later”

Silence was shared with you five still in the room until San broke it, “That guy needs to work on his exits.”

As they now lead into a more civilized conversation you head out of the room to where you will be staying. When you enter the room you see Sunny laying on her bed with a half cleared out suitcase on the floor.

“Y/n!!!” The bright girl practically jumps up from the bed to engulf you in a warm hug. “Sunnyyy we were talking not that long ago” the smile on you face being heard as the girl was always so nice to you.

“Hon. I think a month is a long time ago, are you feeling alright here?” She pulls away from the hug slightly keeping her arms around you. “Because like.. you know who is here..”

“Sunny. You can say his name you know? And you were always closer to him than you were with me” the two of you then sit on the bed you were going to be sleeping on.

Her hands are soft as they caress your own, “Yeah I know but..” The breath she takes in makes you worried about her next words.

“Look, I'm not sure what happened to the two of you. But I know that you were once in love, love is something hard to get rid of once its happened and so I hope you'll be comfortable here.”

Act 2: Our Past

"I just reached for you without thinking,"

The next day you all were headed to the ski resort which was near the place you guys had rented out. The 10 of you were split into cars with Seonghwa and Hongjoong being the designated drivers for the 2 cars. During the car ride there, which was only twenty minutes, the two sitting next to you were Sunny and Yeosang. Next to Hongjoong in the front of the car was Jongho who claimed the seat by "falling asleep" as soon as he hit the chair.

"Soooo, have you been dating recently?" the girl to your right says as you pick your head off the window. "Not really," "Why?", Yeosang then pokes his head out from his spot next to Sunny as the two now look at you as if they're scheming something. Hongjoong looks back through the mirror as his eyebrows furrow at the two, "Why are you two so-", "Noona's been single for too long" Jongho cuts him off as he talks in a sleepy voice.

"Jongho you're awake?" Sunny leans her head to the front trying to see him. "I'm sleep talking."

Before Sunny can react to his statement Yeosang puts his arm in front of her to pull her back as he tells you, "Noona, it's been too long since we've talked to you so we just want to catch up!". As he says that, Sunny leans on you making herself comfortable on your shoulder, "Yeah hon, a lot can happen in 10 months."

"But then again nothing can happen in 10 months too," you lay your head on hers as Hongjoong starts to pull the car into the place. "It's been hard finding someone new, because these days no one is... what's the word..? Uhhh-"

knock knock knock

The knocks on the window startle you as both you and Sunny jump. "AH JUNG WOOYOUNG!" He waves behind the window as everyone else starts to exit the car. Wooyoung opens the door for you and Sunny acting like he didn't just startle the two of you.

As Sunny starts to chase him like they're kids again, you head over to where a majority of your friends are. "Ah, Y/n noona, what do you think?" Yunho asks as he bumps his arm on your side. "Do we eat first or should we go and snowboard?"

"Eat? But we just ate breakfast earlier?-" , "Guys, you see that! That's why we should go snowboard first!" You anticipate the upcoming debate between the group as you look around for where the usual peacemakers are.

Both Seonghwa and Hongjoong are taking pictures by the entrance as you decide to walk towards them. Seonghwa watches your every move towards them as a smile grows on his face, "Seonghwa!! Good smile, this picture will turn out perfect"

By the time you reach them Hongjoong is on the ground getting the perfect angle and Seonghwa waves you over to come next to him. Hongjoong notices this and turns his head, "Oh Y/n join the picture, I just got the perfect angle"

The man on the floor makes you feel as if you're on the cover of Vogue with the way he seems to snap a pic every split second. The blinding flash from his phone is as bright as the white snow everywhere. "Alright alright, you took a lot of pictures already." Next to you Seonghwa brings up a hand to block your eyes from the light.

"Ah wait wait. Just one more..?"

You held the hand in front of your view bringing it down to look at your friend but something behind him takes your attention. "Oh not again.."

The three of you looked at each other before you went over to the booming crowd of your friends. Their voices carrying through-out the entrance (which you're all still in by the way).

"No! I'm telling you, eating first is better before skiing!!"

"Wooyoung-ah I love you but no-"

"Ah ah kids be quiet. What do you guys think?"

Seonghwa looked at you as you shrugged at him gesturing him to just answer, "uhh I think we should just go ski or snowboard first because we already ate earlier."

"Wow of course the two love birds say the same thing."

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Sunny....

The once noisy group of friends were now silent as everyone stared at Sunny who now seemed to realize what she said. In a panic she bursts out in a laugh at the awkwardness that she created, the others joined in slowly as they look around for something more interesting.

Hongjoong, who was deep in thought the whole time broke the awkwardness, "Why don't we just split up? The ones who want to eat go eat first and the others go skiing and snowboarding first." Murmurs of agreement went around as some felt embarrassed because of the simple solution.

"Okay then byebye~~" Sunny was the first to head inside the building to eat dragging Hongjoong with her. You felt something (or someone) get pulled away from your hands as Jongho put himself between you and Seonghwa, "You young people are so cute holding hands"

A smack on both of his shoulders from the two of you came after his comment with the tall duo snickering at the side. The three of them went on forward into the place as you and Seonghwa were left side by side.

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"Did you ever want to see what'll happen if you fall off this swing?"

"Ask another stupid question and I'll push you off your seat."

Your foot that isn't connected to the snowboard you rented knocked into the boy's foot next to you. Jongho was seated in between you and Seonghwa, Mingi and Yunho were in the row in front of you guys and kept on turning around occasionally to wave at you three.

Behind the seat your arm and Seonghwa's kept on bumping into each other. In a way, they were like magnets wanting to stay together. "Oh my what is this?"

The younger one put the two of your arms together as he then layed on it, "My arm rests are back," His comment made the two of you scoff but the proud expression on his face was too cute to make you mad.

Seonghwa made eye contact with you before the two of you made a silent agreement. "Oh is the baby happy??" Seonghwa ruffled the boy's hair as you pinched his cheek, "Aww, our baby is so so happy"

"Alright alright, I'll get off," his pouted look made you lean him onto your shoulder. Another wave was sent towards Mingi who turned around again as a squeeze was felt from Seonghwa's hand which was still on your arm.

Jongho let out an exaggerated sigh as you locked eyes with Seonghwa, "Honestly.. I missed this," he mumbled into your shoulder. "Missed what?"

"Well, this. I missed when you two would act like my parents." you used your other hand to pat his head while your eyes stayed locked on Seonghwa's. "I missed it too Jong."

The eye contact was broken as you heard a loud laugh from Yunho after it seemed Mingi fell forward when getting off his seat. "Man I hate this part the most." With a grunt you jumped off the slow swing with the other two following.

While pushing yourselfs forward Jongho proposed an idea. "Let's have a race down the slope," Yunho was the first to answer with a nudge of his arm, "Okay~ I'm in!"

Mingi puts his arms around the two boys pushing his head on theirs, "Loser pays for food later, right?", "Of course loser pays!," your voice is a bit muffled as you're leaned over with your hand on Seonghwa for support as you put your other foot in the board.

"You guys can do your race and I'll just pay later."

"Oh, hyung why? Is it because you're the only one who picked skiing?"

"What? No, I'm just too slow so-"

The things that happened next were so quick that you could miss it if you weren't paying attention. And you were definitely not focused on the conversation happening.

“Ayyy Seonghwa hyung that doesn't matter, you can still— OH NO!” Jongho paired his words with what was supposed to be a light punch on the shoulder but the boy forgot his own strength.

Your hand still holding onto Seonghwa was pulled as he fell from the impact of Jongho's “light” punch. A wave of profanities escaped your mouth as the two of you rolled down the hill. The male wrapped his arms around you tightly as he repeatedly apologized while keeping a protective hand behind your head.

Luckily your fall stopped before you made the halfway mark of the hill. As you got off of Seonghwa and sat up the words that were going to come out of your mouth halted as his hand slowly ruffled the snow out of your hair.

“Are you okay?” his question snapped you out of your trance as you slapped his hand away, “Of course I'm not.. you didn't need to drag me down with you…” Despite the harsh slap from you he continued to help brush the snow off you.

You let him as the silence engulfed the two of you again, but this time it felt comfortable. The sounds of your breathing was all you heard as you stared at the man in front of you. His features are still as beautiful as they were the last time you admired him.

As his hand went from your hair to your cheek, the two of you locked eyes. “W-why did you pull me down with you..?” The intense eye contact made you nervous as the two of you slowly leaned in.

His nose was eventually touching yours and his warm breath which contrasted the cold air around you radiated on your lips. Before the small gap was closed between you he used his other hand to hold yours as he answered your question.

“I just reached for you without thinking..”

Act 3: Our Future

“More like too late.”

"So..?"

"So what?"

“Oh come on, you think I wouldn't notice when two of my best friends all of a sudden become awkward and nervous with each other, well.. again.”

You and Hongjoong were in the small office that the rented house had, it was late and after the ski resort him and Sunny noticed your mood changes. The couch you two were sitting on was small, meaning there was no space between you two during the conversation.

“Jongho pushed Seonghwa and he dragged me with him down the hill.”

The couch started to shake a little as the man next to you tried to hold in his laughter. Eventually his shakes became giggles and giggles became a full on cackle.

“Are you done yet?”

“No of course not, that's hilarious,”

His laughter continued for a bit until he finally calmed down, manually breathing in and out to control himself before he loses his composure again.

“Alright okay, is that it? I mean falling down a hill together can be embarassing..”

“We kissed.”

The slow fade from a smile to a shocked expression on Hongjoong's face almost scared you with how his whole body melted as his hand even grabbbed onto you for support.

He shook his head to get his thoughts back together as you started to get nervous.

“Well it wasn't really a kiss kiss though, it was only a few seconds because I heard the others coming down the hill after us and-”

“OH MY GOD.”

Your rambling was cut off as Hongjoong now started to freak out, “YOU KISSED?? HOW? WHY? WHAT?”

“Joong. The kiss was probably an in the moment action. It probably meant nothing to him.”

Your voice drifted off as you unknowingly held onto your necklace. Hongjoong notices this and recognizes the necklace that Seonghwa gave you.

“But it meant something to you didn’t it?” he took your silence as an answer as he asked another question, “You still love him don’t you?”

“Of course I still do, we were together for over two years and known each other for longer but our relationship ended in such a regretful way.”

Just as Hongjoong’s hand was about to comfort your shoulder there was a knock at the door. Sunny’s head poked through the door as she smiled at you and gestured for Hongjoong to come out the room, “Oh, I’ll be back Y/n.” when Hongjoong left the room another person was pushed into the room.

The door behind Seonghwa was slammed shut as he was in panic because of the forceful entrance. You watched in confusion as he tries to jiggle the door knob that is being held on the outside by Sunny. Seonghwa gives up with a sigh and turns to you, eyes full of longing as are yours too.

“Hi.”

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The room was filled with silence, the only thing heard was the sounds of your breaths. Seonghwa walked closer and sat right next to you. His scent engulfs you as there’s little space between you two. When you turn to look at him, he’s already looking at you.

“I’m sorry about that kiss earlier. I think I just.. missed us.”

You can’t help but to stay silent after his statement, your head was now lowered as your eyes shut.

“Y/n.. why’d you leave me?

“Because you left me first.”

The words were barely audible as they came out of your mouth, but you know he heard it as Seonghwa looked at you with a mixture of sadness and regret in his eyes, and you felt your heart ache at the sight. For a moment, it was as if you were transported back in time to the day when everything ended between you two.

Seonghwa's voice wavered slightly as he spoke, his confusion evident. "Left you? What? It... it was you who ended things between us, Y/n."

“Seonghwa.. did you not realize how much you distanced yourself from me? The last few weeks of our relationship was filled of you practically ignoring me at some points.” Seonghwa's eyes were glimmering in confusion and guilt.

Your gaze softened, and you let out a sigh, leaning back against the couch. The words seemed to hang in the air, a mix of memories and emotions swirling around you both. "I guess we remember our last months together differently..."

Seonghwa kept his eyes on you even when the eye contact was broken as his words were filled with sincerity. “Y/n, I love you. But I was second-guessing myself and thinking I was too clingy and too pushy with you. I was distancing myself to make you less uncomfortable.”

“Why didn't you just talk to me..? Even when I broke up with you, you could have at least said something” You feel your voice waver as it starts to get hard to get words out of your mouth.

“I just wanted what you wanted..”

“But all I wanted was you.”

As those words leave your lips, you feel a few tears run down your face. At the sight of them Seonghwa lets his own tears run free too, he brings his hands to your face to wipe them away and at his touch you break down on him.

He pulls you into a hug as your tears start to soak his t-shirt and his own get lost in your hair. Your arms wrap around him, longing for this feeling again for months. “I never wanted to leave you hwa..” Seonghwa plants a small peck on the top of your head, “I know y/n, I know darling..”

“I should've just talked to you.. I don't know why but I was so scared, I didn't want to lose you. But turns out not even saying something made us break up anyways…” You feel Seonghwa’s hand caress your back while he talks which makes you melt into his touch.

“I'm sorry hwa, I still love you. Never stopped..” You stay quiet after saying that, wanting to bask in the feeling of being close to him again. In a cold room there's the embers of the flame growing again between the two of you.

“Y/n… would you let me take you out again after this trip? On a date.. we can wait a few more days of talking again before you say—”

“I'll go on a date with you Seonghwa and we’ll hold hands and hug and kiss and-” Before you can finish your sentence he pecks your lips, “Too soon?” Seonghwa looks into your eyes with stars in his.

The tears in your eyes from earlier faded away as the grin on your face replaced them. Your hands go to rest on his cheeks as they start to glow a pretty pink. Your noses start to tickle each other as you pull him closer, breath feathering on each others lips.

“More like too late.”

★☆★ AUTHOR'S GOODBYE = AND THE CROWD GOES WILD!!! i took so long to write this one-shot that i literally got into and out of a relationship twice… and omg i was supposed to finish this by January but its october now ;-; but anyways thank you for reading! YAYAYAY

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pyonochrome · 1 year ago

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my favorite kpop songs of 2023 ✨

here is a post documenting my favorite kpop songs of 2023~~ 💖 musically this year was AWESOME for me lol. my ears and my heart had so much fun.

this is just in order of release date - i can’t rank these songs, i love them all too much

…let me in is certainly my favorite song of 2023 though lol

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perfumer - moonbin & sanha i float atop this song…it really does sound like scent drifting off incense

madness - moonbin & sanha IT GOES SO HARD!!! TOO HARD!!! i love the drop and the vocals and the choreography is COMPLETELY insane

our miracle (너를 만남이란 기적) - jinyoung the atmosphere of this song feels incredible. just my type

tinnitus (돌멩이가 되고 싶어) - txt SMOOVE AFROBEATS…it gets stuck in my head constantly. this song is so easy to put on repeat and exist to lol

skyscraper - nct 127 i bop so hard that i shouldn’t listen to this song while driving

new look - tripleS pop perfection tbh. tripleS do high-pitched vocals in a way that is very pleasing to me

sweet juice - purple kiss OKAY THIS SONG…THIS SONG IS SO PERFECT…everything about it hits every spot. and the OUTRO - i get goosebumps every time

nabi - onlyoneof the production of this song is incredible tbh. the chimes the guitars the beats. this song sounds like wind

우주의 법칙 (space science) - yukika queen. i love everything she comes out with lol. this song is particularly jazzy and comfortable.

rover - kai let's go transgender allegory. a theme song for anyone who has ever changed their name lmao. the anthem of being in charge of your own identity. this song still goes so fucken hard

slidin' - kai I LOVE THIS INSTRUMENTAL OMFG…and jongin’s voice all over it is A++++

enchanted night ~ 白夜 - billlie this. song. is. IT. this is probably my favorite non-exo song of the year lol. this song is everything i love most about billlie tbh…instrumental, vocals, rap, storytelling, this song is so funky and sleek

eunoia - billlie i do believe this is one of the best pop songs ever made. so infectious, so bubbly, so catchy. and i LOVE these lyrics

extra-ordinary - billlie this soooooong is such a groooooove it makes me want to strut around. as per usual with billlie…the vocals…insane

nevertheless - billlie SPEAKING OF BILLLIE VOCALS…okay this is another contender for soty lmao. oh my god this production??? the layering??? EVERYTHING??? this is one of the most magical kpop songs i’ve ever heard tbh

easy - key mmmmmmm so slinky i love this melancholy feeling

like crazy - jimin GAWD i love the world this song creates lol. this instrumental & production >>> it’s glittering

jelly pop - boys planet final listen i couldn’t resist ghjkfds. this is such a catchy pop song holy shit. this song is fun beginning to end.

dangerous - tempest this song is soooooo danceable…it’s like vintage kpop-y but still very fresh. i really love the instrumental in the chorus

eve, psyche, and the bluebeard's wife - le sserafim as a homo, i love everything about this song. gawd this beat.

welcome to MY world - aespa (feat. nævis) this is one of my favorite aespa songs. mmmmm the vocals…the night sounds…it’s so dreamy

crazy like that - verivery THIS INSTRUMENTAL IS SOOOOO ICY COOL...really really love this beat / synth / the fast-paced vocals that dance on top of it

item - stray kids this song turns me into the chomp chomp from super mario. just devouring everything in my path

topline - stray kids (feat. tiger JK) i just really love every single one of these verses + the chorus is tuff + tiger jk into han goes completely insane ok 😭

충돌 (collision) - stray kids i luv these horns…i luv this vibe…i luv this song

404 not found - taeyong this song resonates with my soul tbh.

attitude - fromis_9 MMMMM THE HARMONIES IN THIS SONG MMMMM THIS SONG IS FIERCE AS HELL. THE BRIDGE???? FUCK

bouncy (k-hot chili peppers) - ateez this is the banger to end all bangers. that slowed-down cronchy fucken groove in the chorus what the fuck

불면증 (insomnia) - shinee harmonies harmonies harmonies omfg…this smooooove track is my favorite on their new album

small talk - kim sung kyu the sweet catchy pop rock song of my dreams. it feels so refreshing and it's ALWAYS stuck in my head

back to zerobase - zerobaseone it's like a new universe is opening up omg. the rising synths, the fast lil beat, the TWINKLING...the HIGH-FLYING VOCALS...this song is a bath of starlight

in bloom - zerobaseone THIS SONG CHANGED MY WORLD…the way the instrumental completely incorporates the concept is SO COOL and i love the a-ha interpolation ghdsjkfds. also these lyrics…are SO beautiful…and will enchant me forever

always (zhang hao solo) - zerobaseone i say that’s my baby and i’m proud. this song is so comforting…and it sounds like a 2000s boy band song to me and i love that

let me in - exo this is already my 11th most played song of all time gshjgkfs. THE ATMOSPHERE…OF THIS SONG…is the only world i want to live in. exo’s vocals have developed to such phenomenal levels, every note & harmony in this song gives me goosebumps. this song was woven together so well. this song is like diving into the bluest waters and floating there for eternity. it’s like a perfect meeting of concept and sound. really masterful work, r&b perfection

hear me out - exo THIS SONG IS SO COZYYYYYY if let me in is introspective, hear me out is playful and friendly. this coy fuckin song with these smoove vocals omg. it’s so much fun to sing along. and the bass oh my god

cream soda - exo NASTY VOCALS ALL OVER LET’S GOOOOO. this song is like hurtling towards the sun gdshjkfds it makes me want to dance and scream. sechan’s raps are so hype and the bridge is PERFECT

regret it - exo SHAKING ASS AND TAKING NAMES. the vocals in these choruses are just??? INSANE??? THEY’RE OUT HERE SINGING. this song is so fun lol this song is SUMMER

love fool - exo speaking of fun,, i love the playful lil groove of this song all the way through!! and the chorus is SO addictive

another day - exo i. love. this. song. i love the unconventional instrumental and how it blends in with the SOARING vocals that exo lay over it. i love the lyrics…i love the way this song feels like wind against my skin

new emotions - infinite GAWD THIS SONG IS DANCEABLE i looooove the a capella-type beat and the chorus is immaculate. this song is stuck in my head at all times tbh. every song stuck in my head becomes a mashup with new emotions

je ne sais quoi - odd eye circle so slinky so smooth, the vocals are soooo heavenly atop this gorgeous instrumental

love me like - odd eye circle this song makes me feel like a real homo and i just love loona okay. this song is dance personified

poison - nct dream this song is slinky as fuck and sooooo so comfortable. this arrangement really slaps.

cool with you - newjeans MMMM THIS SONG FEELS SO COOL…the vocals are soooo fluttery and pretty, the music is gorgeous, i totally love this song

move - treasure t5 this song takes me back to 2nd gen kpop in the best way lol, it's sooooo nostalgic sounding for me

the flash - kwon eunbi this chorus takes over my brain lol. THE SYNTH IS SO POWERFUL

girls' capitalism - tripleS lovelution this. bass. is. IT and this song is so catchy and fun and bouncy lol. a perfect pop song tbh

better things - aespa mmmm i just love his addictive this song is, all the harmonies are so tight, i love how fast-paced it is despite feeling minimalist

call d - nct u THIS NASTY ASS DIGITAL SNAKE CHARMER SONG??? GAWD all the prolonged held notes and the runs in the chorus, holy shit!! this song saunters around and seduces tf out of me

pado - nct u okay this beat is EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. lo fi groove for the stars mixed together with nct's smooth pretty vocals. AND THE BRASS IN THE CHORUS??? SHUT UP

interlude: oasis - nct u I LOVE THIS HYPNOTIC SONG…I WISH IT WAS LONGER…but it feels perfect being as fleeting as it is. i just love this strange little atmosphere + the vocals are shimmering

picture - hyo I LOVE THIS FUCKEN SONG…it is so sexy and addictive. always makes me wanna dance

뭣 같아 (but sometimes) - boynextdoor FUNK SKA??? IN MY KPOP??? THIS SONG IS INCREDIBLE OMFG…the melody in the chorus?? the harmony??? SHUT UP. i seriously love this unique fuckin song

nothing but (이것밖에는 없다) - young k as per usual young k is breaking my heart. i just love hearing him belt these complicated feelings out like this...his music is so evocative

bungee jumping - young k this song is so breezy and fun!! again i totally love these lyrics and this song is so fun to sing along to...roll the windows down and just glide

natural - young k THANK YOU COMFY SYNTHY YOUNG K SONG! love putting this song on repeat and feeling the love

babo - young k this is my favorite song on this incredible album 🤩 luv this groove luv this vibe...these confidently self-deprecating lyrics. it's so playful and coy and sweet

what is.. - young k this. song. is. HEARTBREAKING HOLY SHIT. it really does feel like a punch in the chest and the brain, simultaneously. and also a beautiful place for young k's haunting falsetto to shine

내일의 우리 (ordinary days) - d.o. first things first, this man has the most gorgeous voice in the world, so i'm so happy whenever he gets a chance to croon and tell stories like this. this song is like warm tea (or a hot toddy at a friendly bar if you're into that sort of thing). this song is like finding comfort in skinned knees. this song has me WISTFUL

the view - d.o. this song makes me nostalgic for dreams that never came true tbh. the amount of dopamine that was woven into this song is insane. and kyungsoo’s vocals are so…so…SO beautiful. HIS RUNS??? A SONG FOR KSOO'S RUNS??? OVER THIS TWINKLING GLITTERING HEART-WRENCHINGLY YEARNING GUITAR AND PIANO AND SYNTH??? the view is PERFECTION

dive - tempest THIS SONG MAKES ME SO HAPPY…i love this guitar/instrumental/boppiness coupled with the totally cute lyrics and vocals. the post-chorus is so lovely

trouble - evnne this song is sick as fuck. THE RAPS…THE TOWERING VOCALS…THE FUCKIN DROP IN THE CHORUS OH MY GOD

byob (bring your own best friend) - billlie this cute little track oh my god,, the strings along with the synth, oh man this instrumental is totally beautiful. the soft vocals pair so prettily with it. i love this twinkly song and the lyrics are perfect lol

DANG! (hocus pocus) - billlie this song is so much FUN to listen to (and watch) and the notes in the chorus are so bubbly and fun. DANG this bangs. luv the metallic sounding harmonies and the general undercurrent of ~uncertainty that runs along with the lyrics...billlie are always dropping psychological bangers

love effect - onf VERY HAPPY ONF ARE BACK...and this song is so quintessentially them, i missed it lol. nobody does horns like onf. (and that jaunty piano for the rap break omfg i'm obsessed)

space - nct 127 this is another song where the atmosphere was so well thought out...it really does sound like it's out in SPACE lol. that sax, that reverb >>>>>

invincible - tripleS evolution once again triples are out here doing the high-pitched vocals so well. this whole production is??? insane??? i LOVE this dreampop song

growing pain - txt this song came to me at the perfect time in my life lol...i am really falling through the sky with this one. helps me scream. takes me back. propels me forward

back for more - txt this song is disgusting in the best way lmao. vocals insane, groove insane, beats insane. nostalgic and fresh dance track

deep down - txt i just love how...understated this deep club track is??? it's like...shy desperate longing. the drop + the silky vocals are addicting

물수제비 (skipping stones) - txt yes this song had my jaw on the floor on the first listen and it is still bewitching. this nasty ass indie rock instrumental holy fuck. the vocals. the lyrics. all of it together is screaming out to the universe and i love it

underwater - chuu CHUU IS FREE AND SHE IS SINGING!!!! LIKE GODDAMN!!!!! beautiful beautiful voice, beautiful beautiful song, beautiful beautiful lyrics. that chorus that feels like being suspended in space, mmm

good enough - chanyeol SELF HELP SONG! i love the cute lil beats in the chorus and the coziness of the whole track

talk saxy - riize THIS SONG...IS EVERYTHING I LOVE ABOUT KPOP LMAOOOO. NASTY BEATS, HORN GOING CRAZY, RIDICULOUS FUCKING LYRICS. "rawm pawm pawm pawm when you call my name, rawm pawm pawm pawm talk saxy" is shakespeare to me. i go so hard to this song

algorithm - heejin HEEJIN IS OUT HERE SINGING FOR THE BACK ROW ON THE FIRST LINE!!! seriously i love her voice and i LOVE this perfect pop song - the melodies are all so tight and fresh, the bass is driving, the synth is twinkly and lovely. love it all

guilty - taemin a whole art piece. the vocals...on this song...are CRAZY, taemin really stormed into the booth mad as hell. every note on this song is perfection and i love how all the vocals are layered. this atmosphere is so bleak but sexy, dystopian, rotted in the best way lol

she loves me, she loves me not - taemin speaking of rotted lmao. the catharsis that the chorus EXPLOSION gives me is impossible to replicate with everything else - this song unlocked a new emotion within me. i just love how wrecked and janky this song sounds, coupled with those operatic vocals in the bridge & the end - this song sounds like a mental breakdown trying to be contained and i love it

제자리 (not over you) - taemin the production on this song is INSANE. taemin's voice is so expressive...the way the chorus develops each time, first with the electric guitar that harmonizes with the melody and then with the synths in the final chorus that go so crazy...luv it

오늘 밤 (night away) - taemin mmmmm this song shimmers like stars in the sky. it feels so lovely and taem's voice is so sweet. that run that he repeats towards the end...holy shit right to my heart

melting point - zerobaseone SO CUTE AND COZY...love a song that instantly becomes a winter classic lol. i love the adlibs, the breakdown in the bridge, and of course the catchy hook

take my hand - zerobaseone MMMMM THIS INSTRUMENTAL REACHED A PLACE DEEP WITHIN ME...this arrangement is odd and i live for that. the soaring vocals in the chorus, the lyrics, the picture this song paints are all beautiful

ootd - dreamcatcher CMON NINE INCH NAILS INFLUENCE. MMMMMH THIS NOISY GLITCHY PRODUCTION IS SO SEXY AND DARK. this song is completely sick

wait - dino i LOVE this song. this clever little electronic beat with the sexiest, smoothest drops i've ever heard omfg. this song sounds so FRESH. THE PIANO ALL OVER...THE PIANO IN THE CHORUS AHHAH

미친 폼 (crazy form) - ateez this chorus is sooooo catchy and omfg...this makes me dance like a spell has been put on me...i really love how ateez break up their song sections lol it all feels like such a production

marine turtle - nct u THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! THIS MESSAGE???? the "i see my sea" part knocks me over omfg. absolutely love the scales in the chorus. this entire instrumental is gorgeous and the vocals are so rich

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that's all!!! this was genuinely the Worst year of my life but there was so much music across many genres to comfort me, so i’m happy now. kpop releases always have a place in my heart and there was so much good stuff this year.

there are a handful of albums from artists i love that i never got a chance to listen to...i look forward to enjoying them in the new year.

here's to 2024 having lots of amazing music too 🎉

#tobypost #favorite songs of 2023 #thoughts #music #favorite kpop songs of 2023 #kpop #i hope this formatting works ghfjkda

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