#Im sorry I get a really bad self-deprecating vibe at this time of the year

[dizzycloudzzz]

it gives me PHYSICAL discomfort to post something on tumblr just saying it without having any images, so I'll just put a ?????? that I drew in a whatsapp status ☠️ but don't mind it, just a bald guy and catteen, the post is not about them ITS ABOUT ME UNBELIEVABLY

cuz I couldn't finish drawing anything today even tho I started 2 and that's only weird cuz as far as I know I'm not in creative block, like I did everything creative today, I listened to music, I sang music, I wrote music and that's all I need to live

so I was in doubt, questioning myself "man why can't I concentrate on what I like to do?? it seems like there's something worrying me and nothing is happening"

and then I remembered "oh yeah tomorrow is my birthday DAMN"

one less year of life for me, 16 will come and do u know what that means? absolutely NOTHING, I'll just be older and doing the same things

but how can no one outside of my family (I'm not a big fan of them) wish me a happy birthday since my relationship with my best friend has gone and now she ignores me and my ex-boyfriend is, well, my EX, I'm going to make a beautiful happy birthday message for myself!!!!!

"hey, me

thank you for existing, I could never live without you, you are important to me and I hope we can be together until you get tired of me because you will lol, I'm just waiting

by the way, my favorite dumbass, remember when we were 14? well, I don't remember either, our memory is shit, but soon we will also forget what it's like to be 15 and 16 will be the new 15, of course just until we're 17

anyway, everything will be normal, or normalized, or at least very funny

self-love, me"

and happy birthday to those who are growing old this month too, you guys are awesome even though I don't know you, hope you have a good life

those born in other months too, congrats on being born and even more for survive

[grayfilmsandstuff]

Hey there friendo! Could I get a funky madcom matchup? I'm fine with whoever (๑¯∇¯๑) This is also gonna be hella disjointed, so I apologize in advance (╥w╥)

I'm 4'11 with super dark brown eyes and hair and a baby face; most people always think  I'm much younger than I actually am (I'm 20, but just look like a forever teen I guess) I've got dreadlocks that go a little past mid back, freckles, beauty marks and light patches all over my body (not sure if its vitiligo or not), and I wear prescription sports goggles instead of normal glasses since the straps make me less likely to lose them, and Im accidentally rough on stuff sometimes

Agender, aroace with leaning for gender neutral and neopronouns, but i dont really care much in the end ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I've got a metric shit-ton of mental illness, so my mental state is Wack™, tho I'll point out my ADHD and Autism since those are my most prominent. Paradoxical is the best word to describe me cuz I can range from feral gremlin memelord to so-quiet-you-forget-Im-there (I accidentally scare people alot cuz of this). Relatively apathetic emotionally, and I can sometimes struggle with social cues, I'm also very childish, hyperactive and immature, and can be blunt and straight forward with my words. I have a trash sense of humor (I'll basically laugh at anything), tho I do enjoy dark, self-deprecating, and/or inappropriate jokes the most. Since most people see me as "ignorant baby", I like fucking with them by just saying the weirdest shit or casually cursing because I can. Honestly, the amount of memes, shitposts, and copypastas that I've memorized just for the sake of a joke, is amazing.

I'm academically smart to a degree, with a leaning towards the sciences, maths, and engineering. Mostly a big psychology and astronomy nerd and really big into art. I've gotta bunch of sketchbooks and folders full of drawings, (mostly character designs), from over the years and too many damn color pencils (that I will continue to add on too, because fuck yeah colors). I'm really into transformers, comics, anime, video games, and true crime. I like to lift weights and have questionable eating habits (forgetting to eat is a problem of mine so I always have snacks on me, and I tend to eat things I really shouldnt; Ex. Chalk) and basically eat like a famine survivor when it comes to food. I practically inhale my food and I tend to get aggressive if someone tries to interact with me while I'm eating or cooking. All and all tho, I'm mostly here to vibe and just live in the moment.

I have a lot of cat-like habits and tend to headbutt, rub up against, and bite and/or lick people who I like; walk on my toes alot; and prefer small spaces over wide open ones. I'm also really flexible, so it's not odd to causally find me weird ass positions. Gets the nyoomies randomly and struggles with volume control (not helped by me being slightly hard at hearing), so I'll usually pace around while talking and making random noises (echolocalia basically, and I'll mostly beep, meow, trill, make Kirby noises "poyo!", etc.,), and also hand flappy! I also like to sing to myself and have a really great range (mostly on the higher end of the spectrum), as well as decent voice acting capabilities! I mirror things alot, so if I interact with someone long enough, I'll subconsciously start mimicking them and their habits (mostly verbal quirks and accents, but physical quirks too sometimes). Very much prefer hot and humid weather and get real tried/hibernate when it gets colder. For that reason, I've got a huge nest of soft blankets, pillows, and stuffed animals.

i.. . .this was so long.. . .. i love you thank you for sending in a request but note for people in the future please don't make your requests this long it makes it rough on me

this is a good example of the longest request i'll take and this is a good example of the shortest use this to your advantage

i match you wiiiiiith...

Hank!

- Hank isn't sure where you came from but he returned to the bunker with you one day and after the shock factor was over, everyone accepted it and welcomed you in

- they really like your goggles, sometimes they'll point to their own and then point to you, saying that you were matching :}

- he's got a wack mental state too, so he understands a lot of what you're going through and helps you with social cues from the other three, and just is there in general to help out

- you also help them if they feel like they need to lean onto you for comfort or help

- he actually thinks your bluntness is helpful because he's the kind of person is mostly oblivious and doesn't understand what you're saying unless you say it directly and say exactly what you mean

- they love making you laugh at the silliest things. if makes them really happy knowing that they can make you smile or laugh no matter what the circumstances are

- a lot of the time when you say a meme or a copypasta in front of him he won't understand and will ask you what it means

- "one bad gloop and she do what i yoinky two big splurgs and a big gloopy three more yoinks, then i buy me a smoothie poured up a gloop, that's a gloop and a splurgy"

- "...i'm sorry what"

- they really look up to how smart you are and it fascinates them when you'll just ramble about a topic because they know that means you're really interested in it

- you love drawing and a lot of the time you give your assorted doodles to Hank. he loves and cherishes them because what the heck how are you so talented??

- they get onto you for eating things you shouldn't. they want you be happy and healthy, not just the former

- he also enjoys watching you cook whenever you do! he tries his best to help but the big guy has no idea how you do it

- they LOVE your cat-like habits. they love cats. period. any time you'll meow or rub up against them they just melt entirely

- the first time you picked up on something he said and started mimicking it, his initial reaction was :O but it grew more into a :D

thanks for the request! i tried to keep it short with all that you provided me, have a good day my friend

[tandembicycles]

@onecattrashcatband replied to your post “I have been away from Tumblr for nearly a week because I am a bad...”

I'm sorry all that happened, I hope things get better for you soon. Sending you lots of love and good vibes. Please don't feel like you need to respond to this, I'm just glad you made it through and you're still here ♥

Thank you, Cherie, ily... 

@kishibecore replied to your post “I have been away from Tumblr for nearly a week because I am a bad...”

IM RLY GLAD UR OK ��

Ah, yeah... I’m okay, thank you dude ahaha

@moonlightcrazyphoenix replied to your post “I have been away from Tumblr for nearly a week because I am a bad...”

(Please don't feel pressured to respond to this) Holy crap that sucks. You're absolutely justified in being upset about this train wreck of events. I really hope things get better for you soon. Just take your time if you don't really want to be on here right now, just know that people do care about you, and don't see helping you or listening to you vent as a burden.

Yes, very much so. Well I’m eating fruit snacks rn, the Welch’s kind, the best kind, and talking to Danie again at least, so that’s some sort of turn around, yeah. I... don’t want to be on here right now... but... I do, all at the same time lmfao I’m not entirely sure how to explain. I’ve definitely missed everyone and I’m definitely lonelier, so on one hand that sucks, but on the other hand I still feel the self deprecating shit, but on a third hand from a stranger I’ve also gotten used to just... not... talking to anyone. I was kind of tempted not to come back. But then this shitty day happened and I was like OKAY I GOTTA VENT THIS and now I’m sucked back in. For better or worse I’m *shrugs* I’ll probably just ease back into it. Al.... right thank you... 

@harunnn replied to your post “I have been away from Tumblr for nearly a week because I am a bad...”

Oh no, I hope you're ok?? Stepped on a nail??? Oh god. And I would be pretty down if all that happened... I am so sorry! I'm glad to hear how you are doing, we've missed you. I definitely have missed your presence. Take your time with everything, I really hope things pick up from here! (I am sure your dad is more than happy to help you in every way he can!) Don't feel respond to me either.

*don't feel pressured to respond to me either. Ilu Tandem ♥ I hope you feel better.

My shoe saved my ass. My flimsy flip flop that I’ve worn down over the past four years was just BAAARELY enough. At first I thought it actually got me because the surprise is usually more devastating than the pain when I get hurt and I was like “OH THANK GOD... NOW I CAN DIE OF TETANUS... FANTASTIC...” but my shoe saved me. It pricked me but didn’t break skin or draw blood which... is still surprising because it did hurt... But I was still pissed off like “OF COURSE.............................” Mmmmmm thanks...................... My mind is telling me not to believe you but I’m going... to ignore it... Alright alright... (hhghhg)  

@cutiepie-tro replied to your post “I have been away from Tumblr for nearly a week because I am a bad...”

I'm sorry you've been having such a rough time! ��that really sucks. I hope things get better soon

(Also please don't feel pressured to respond to me I totally understand needing space and all that, just wanted to remind you that people care about you)

Ah, thanks thanks. It does, yeah, thanks.

(Listen I know you and several others said don’t feel pressured to respond but listen... listen... I thought it would be rude of me not to........ which is the opposite of what you said but listen........... I didn’t wanna be rude... sorry)