#Im basically the working version of a human vegetable right now

[lunar-pebble]

Imma rant because I'm real mad right now 

///probably trigger warning/// //Very long//

I don’t want to sound like a moody teenager or anything but let's talk about my mom’s shitty parenting skills for a minute because I'm so fed up and I’ve been needing to get this shit off my chest for years.

When I was young, like grade school before “tween” age young, I wanted shorts. My mom took me out and got me to try a pair on and after a few minutes in the change room I told her I wasn't coming out because they were way too big and I was going to show everyone my underwear if I stepped out. We argued through the door, I could tell she was really fed up and wanted in my change room. After I opened the door I remember her hand reach around my neck and push me against the wall angrily whispering something, I wasn't paying attention though because I was focused on my throat. That was the first moment she lost my trust.

When I was probably 11 I was having major self-image issues because of puberty and a stupid facebook thing that told me a few of my Facebook “friends” said I could stand to loose some weight. None of this was helped by the fact that my mom and grandma would sometimes tell me my thighs were getting big, or my mom poking my stomach “baby fat”, or smacking my butt even though I told her to stop ( because “she's my mom and is allowed to do that because she gave birth to me” and apparently that overrides consent), or her telling me I had a long face with a mocking facial expression. I struggled with Bulimia on and off for 5 years after that.

When I was 14 I got my first boyfriend and was so excited I went and told my mom. “Dating” was not a thing allowed in the religion I was born into and I was basically shunned in my own house until we broke up. I had no internet access so I couldn’t talk to him, she called the school and had them move us to opposite sides of the classroom, she wouldn’t show me any affection, I either cleaned the house for her or stayed in my room. One day my grandma came down crying and told me to call my mom and apologize for dating basically because she “didn't want to lose me”, confused as I was I pretty well gave up on most things in life so I did it. My mom came home and calmly told me if I didn't do that she was going to drop me off at some foster home because she didn't want to deal with me/be my mom anymore. That was the first time I googled suicide. I jumped in front of a car. it stopped.

When I was 15 I got really stressed with a class and skipped a different one to study. When my mom got the call I skipped she sat me down, accused me of sneaking off to do drugs or slutting around, called me multiple names like “asshole”, “bitch” and stuff, and threatened to publicly humiliate me (she wanted to follow me to the class and make me stand up in front of people I was trying to be friends with and tell them how much of an asshole I was for probably slutting around and basically talk shit about myself for her enjoyment; she never followed through with this thank god). Tensions ran high and we started fighting. We’d argue until things got physical, either her whipping me to the floor by my hair or slapping me across the face multiple times. we'd get loud enough that my grandma would come down sometimes and my mom would switch and start crying telling her I attacked her. That was the first time I truly felt alone. I was sent to a therapist after telling my friends I wanted to die. They gave me a yes or no questionnaire and I was one point away from being “depressed” so there was no need for further therapy.

When I was 16 I got back together with my first boyfriend trying to keep it a secret this time. Things slipped up and she found out. I was terrified of her or what she’d do so I left and moved in with him for a week. His mom was more of a mom to me than my mom was in that week. I left the religion I hated and went to counseling with my mom.  She promised she wouldn’t hit me again but my anxiety was at an all time high and I became constantly paranoid at everything.

Among those things, -she blames me for us not having enough money for things, -Tells me that if I was gay I would be disowned by the family and kicked out (surprise, I like girls and not able to do anything about it), -whenever we argue she says “If I didn’t love you why would I buy you X, X, and X?” like buying me things makes up for things or is better than actual emotional attachment ( *I’m very grateful for these things she buys but really?), -mocks any distress or stress because it’s “worse in the real world” I know nothing about stress and I’m being childish, -and gives me a full list of things to do on days I’m sick (ie Dishes, laundry, scrubbing bathroom) when I just want to sleep and recover and then gets pissed and takes things I’m looking forward to away because I was sleeping instead of being her maid. among other things (don’t get me wrong I’m cool with chores, just not when I’m really sick and really need the recovery time)

Basically, there's a lot of things my mom fucked up for me in my life. I have horrible anxiety that causes me to scratch at my skin leaving scars, I fall into these deep depressive loops, I can’t trust anyone, I flinch when someone raises their arm quickly near me, I have a hard time keeping stable relationships with people and I’m sick of everything. I just want my schooling to be over so I can get a little place with anyone who wants to be my roommate, I want to live and be completely happy for once. I’m tired of bringing stupid emotional baggage into every relationship whether it be friendly or romantic and ruining things or pushing them away.

I have so much love to give and I try my best to make my friends feel loved because I never want anyone to feel the way I do, to feel broken and that they've given up.

I’m just tired, I’m tired of life like this and I’m tired of faking a stupid smile everywhere I go.

[all-i-wanna-write]

🎃 Wanna One as supernatural creatures  👻 - Hyung Line

[ Masterlist ] [ In honor of just making this blog as well as spooky spooks fest coming up in a few days, here’s a Halloween inspired Wanna One imagine! It’s lengthy for a first post so it’s under read more. 👻 Maknae line will be posted tomorrow! 

- Admin V ]

Yoon Jisung 

a very gentle vampire

you wouldn’t think he would be a vampire upon first glance

like he looks so happy and sunshine-y all the time that it doesnt seem like it

but then you know guanlin saw him sipping blood from a coffee mug labeled “#1 sucker” and that was that

he also had to convince guanlin that he didn’t go around randomly feeding on people

no one knows his age

“a wise man never reveals his age.”

“isnt it secrets?”

“shh daniel, go eat your red meat.”

he may be a creature of the night but he is literal sunshine

he works as a doctor 

ha ha vampire as a doctor how generic

he genuinely likes helping people with his vast knowledge that he collected over the many many years hes been here

he lives in the little home above sungwoon’s shop

he drinks the packets of blood he gets from work that no one uses and is generally good about his feeding

he only ever needs to feed once every two weeks or so 

when he’s missed out on a feeding session due to something he secludes himself from other people until sungwoon is able to make a replacement blood supplement for him

when he goes without blood for a prolonged period of time his eyes turn red 

he tries to maintain his manners but he can only hold back the urges so long

don’t hurt his children he will bite

literally

hes very protective of those he has deemed as family

because he didn’t have a family for as long as he can remember

so the members are his family

Ha Sungwoon  

he has everything

tonic for sickness? 

got it

potion to make someone fall in love with you?

he sells those

Pepsi?

yes, but he keeps it in a vial for some reason and no one knows why

he is following in the footsteps of his previous master and is running the old shop

which has been altered to look more like a store to blend in with society more

“people were looking at the place weirdly hyung”

“i liked how it was daehwi!”

“get with the times hyung! :(”

sungwoon didn't really grow up in society when he was training so he doesn't really get why he cant just rant about rabbits feet and troll leather and its magical properties in public

or why you cant just have this hut looking thing be inbetween large corporate buildings

the place where a lot of the members actually live is above his store 

but yeah he is a potion maker if you want to be real about this and he sells potions that generally are just used for pranks and makes the big money.

but he also is the one to help jisung when he cant get blood in time and never charges him.

actually he never charges any of wanna one.

he denies any statements about being soft as “i owed you a favor im just repaying it”

“you made me hot chocolate hyung”

“you didnt trip me that one time thats why”

don’t let that tsundere attitude fool you hes soft for the members

overall him as an alchemist doesn't change much

he just has much more stuff

which = mess = angry minhyun

but overall he is a very smol potion maker who helps his friends with their ailments and cares a lot despite denying such 

Hwang Minhyun 

a literal Angel™

no really hes actually an angel

you can literally almost see the halo above his head

and he does have wings! 

he just hides them

because he knows that walking around with large hulking wings is not normal in society 

he came to earth a long time ago and is mostly done with humanity but still tries

its just hard sometimes

he came upon jisung a long time ago and despite,,, beliefs he had at first about what jisung was

(he literally tried to throw garlic at him and jisung just stared at him and laughed so hard he cried

minhyun was really confused)

he came to understand jisung and the two are close friends

nowadays he volunteers at local community centers and pounds

he says that he is a very responsible being but no one believes him

especially when he came home drenched wet holding a kitty in his jacket

“why didnt you just use your wings to cover you and the cat?”

“ill be honest, i didnt think of that at the time.”

he cleans the home they all live in because they are all such messes

well not all of them

actually its really only jaehwan

which he doesn't understand cause jaehwan is literally a ghost

he sings whenever he cleans and its the prettiest thing to hear 

it enamors all of the residents of the humble home

tl;dr don’t hurt this precious man you’ll have a horde of angry supernatural after you

Ong Seongwoo

actually he’s just fully human

,,,

with a catch

he hunts down demons

not the ones who try to live peacefully like jisung

the bad ones that cause harm to people and other beings

a Good Demon Hunter ™

he doesn't necessarily live in the home with the rest of the gang 

mostly due to the fact he really cant put any of his equipment there without giving minhyun a heart attack

who wouldnt get the scare of a lifetime when you see someone casually polishing a large katana that had blood on it

but hes basically there 24/7 when he doesn’t have a job to do

like it’ll be three am and daniel would be getting up to get a drink and nearly go wolf and attack in surprise at seongwoo casually sitting on the couch watching tv eating some ramyeon 

daniel does help him with his job sometimes! but seongwoo doesn’t let him go to the dangerous ones

a. cause he cares about daniel

b. jisung would actually kill him

hes still a jokester and plays pranks with the others

tells spooky stories about demons hes hunted to rile up the kids

is then told off later by jisung who had to deal with daehwi nearly shooting his head off with a spell and woojin setting fire to his bed in alarm

“whoops”

when hes on the job tho

hoo boy

he turns so serious, a complete opposite from that jokester persona he puts on around the gang

there are a lot more jobs around halloween than any other time because hallow’s eve is when demons are at their highest activity rate

so that means he gets no sleep as he hunts down demons

he doesn’t stop until his job is done

so you could not see him for weeks

then all of a sudden hes just there eating corn flakes like

“sup, how ya doing?” 

and he’ll have his arm in a cast, multiple limbs wrapped up, and be limping

but is just so casual about it

save this man

Kim Jaehwan

so funny story

hes dead

no like

he died a while ago but

hes a ghost now

hes learned how to manifest his energy in a more physical being though!

but this is also a bad thing because

he plays pranks

all the time

and he haunts sungwoon and minhyun so imagine how fun that must be for them

everyone jokingly calls him a banshee and says to move on already but they don’t actually mean that

he knows that too

so he just blows a kiss towards them and laughs as the cringe away

when he does become a more physical version of himself, he likes to play the guitar when minhyun sings

the combo is lovely

he lays on the other members who complain

and he just goes 

“i’m a ghost you cant push me off thats disrespecting the dead”

they threaten with salt and its like wow suddenly he has to go water his roof

one time someone managed to break in and he scared them so bad by floating through the doors

he didn’t actually know that there was a burglar he was going to go try and get one of those vials that sungwoon made that lets him eat food so he can eat something

hes now the guard dog for the house. 

he doesn’t remember how he died, no one does, and he doesn’t like to talk about it

overall, he’s a very mischievous ghost who does care about the people he haunts. 

Kang Daniel

alright i think a lot of people saw this one coming

our boi is a wolf

actually, he’s pretty young for a wolf

he still has a hard time actually turning and prefers to just stay human to eat his food and do other things

he’s getting the hang of it don't worry

he has his hyungs and friends to help him

when he is able to turn he is just a big fluffy dog to be very honest

one time when they were having a picnic at the local park and daniel was in wolf form for the day, seongwoo jokingly threw a ball for daniel to catch, thinking he wouldn't

daniel chased it all the way into the forest and brought it back

needless to say he won’t be able to live that down

ever

“so pup, did you eat dinner yet”

“hyung stop, it was one time”

he cant really eat a lot of produced stuff well

it doesn’t sit right with him

he cant have chocolate either

which really bums him out

que sungwoon to the rescue again with a potion for everything

so he lives off meat and vegetables

but he is somehow able to eat gummies just fine

which he is scolded for but he still does it anyways

he dances in his free time when he isn’t in school

or you know hunting

he doesn’t hunt often, and when he does it is only with small creatures

he feels bad afterward and doesn’t come out of his room for a while

poor wolfie

a living heater v.2

helps seongwoo with his hunts 

as in he tracks them but isn't allowed anywhere near the site for his safety

he complains but begrudgingly goes back 

he’s just a big ol dog who wants to eat what he wants and dance in peace 

[thathumanwiththecatears]

all of the ask! (for the numbers thing

well i hate you but also thanks cause i was bored

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? 

Raggamufin~ Silversun Pickups

transatlantacism~ death cab

i will possess your heart~ death cab

Daydreaming~ radiohead

Canvas of life~ Epica

Who’d Have Known~ Lily Allen

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?~ i really have no idea, so i will be gross and say whoever my soulmate is3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.~ there are only 16 lines,,,, the last one is “Question: What is wrong with this picture?” its my science of music book,,,4: What do you think about most?~ probably my stomach pain, or how much I lov my frens5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?~”!!!!!!”6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?~ usually, sometimes no shirt, i hate shirts7: What’s your strangest talent?~ I can hit my wrist with the attached hand, i broke it like 3 times8: Girls… are beautiful and im gay; Boys… are beautiful and im gay9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?~ yes10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?~ probs a few years, its tragic11: Do you have any strange phobias?~ not really strange but i am deathly afraid of bugs, if i even see one it will feel like its on me for like hours cause i get so freaked out12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?~ probably13: What’s your religion?~ idk14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?~ swim15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?~in front if im also taking the pic, if not behind16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?~ im not answering this i dont have one17: What was the last lie you told?~ “yes thats all she said about you”18: Do you believe in karma?~ yes19: What does your URL mean?~ im a human (probably) and i wore cat ears for a year20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?~ weakness: people, i always say yes to anything, strength: not showing emotion21: Who is your celebrity crush?~ none im demi22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?~ no23: How do you vent your anger?~ rant on here24: Do you have a collection of anything?~ hello kitty stuff25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?~ talking on the phone, dont look at me26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?~ eeh27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?~ VELCRO I HATE IT; rain28: What’s your biggest “what if”?~ what if no one loves me (ew thats too deep)29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?~ sure why not30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.~ right: wall; left: plastic bag31: Smell the air. What do you smell?~ my shampoo that smells like old ladies in a good way32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?~ earth33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?~ east mate34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?~ there is no opposite gender35: To you, what is the meaning of life?~ happiness36: Define Art.~” hey look i made this” yes this includes children37: Do you believe in luck?~ ya38: What’s the weather like right now?~ fine, warm39: What time is it?~ 9:2840: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?~ no41: What was the last book you read?~ i dont read42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?~ no43: Do you have any nicknames?~ iz44: What was the last film you saw?~ Beauty and the Beast45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?~ broken arm46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?~ ya47: Do you have any obsessions right now?~ ya48: What’s your sexual orientation?~ demi49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?~ ya50: Do you believe in magic?~ ya51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?~ sometimes, depends on if i like the person52: What is your astrological sign?~ aquarius53: Do you save money or spend it?~ save54: What’s the last thing you purchased?~ sunglasses55: Love or lust?~ love56: In a relationship?~ i wish57: How many relationships have you had?~ somewhere between 1 and 3 i honestly couldnt tell ya58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?~ i did once, 59: Where were you yesterday?~ home, walmart, 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?~ lots, including on my pants and laptop61: Are you wearing socks right now?~ no62: What’s your favourite animal?~ i cant pick, cats,sharks,polar bears, penguins63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?~ try way too hard64: Where is your best friend?~ home probably idk65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. @the-merry-maiden​ @yukinessecretadmirer​ @thatoneirishgirl​ @anxiety-cucumber​ @brookballad​66: What is your heritage?~ idk im white67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?~ watching BBCAN with @yukinessecretadmirer​68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?~ what69: Biggest turn ons?~ necc, idk what else really70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?~ ye71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?~ save the doggo72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?~ I would tell some people, would probably tell the people i love that i love them, no73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.~ trust74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?~ a song immediately popped into my head but sometimes it makes me sad, so fireflies- Owlcity 75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?~719476: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?~ trust77: How can I win your heart?~ say hi, thats it78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?~ sure79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?~ dying my hair white80: What size shoes do you wear?~ 11-12 (in womens) i actually usually wear a pair that are 11 in mens 14 in womens my imaginary dick is huge81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?~ see you soon82: What is your favourite word?~ sleep83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.~ love84: What is a saying you say a lot?~ not a saying but I say “YAH DINGUS” a lot85: What’s the last song you listened to?~ Love is Love by Mary Lambert is on rn86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?~ apparently lime green87: What is your current desktop picture?~ a nebula thing i made88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?~ probs orange man89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?~ “who do you love”90: Turn offs?~ being a dick91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?~ shape shifting, i could be a perfect version of me92: where are your parents from?~ america93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?~ life94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?~ none95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?~ alaska or antarctica96: Do you have any relatives in jail?~ not that im aware of97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?~ ye98: Ever been on a plane?~ no99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say~ stop being fucking idiots 

[script-a-world]

(1) Im trying to create a world where mytholigical creatures have developed their own modern society, away from the humans. A vampire boy, that loves planes and wants to build one, gives a scientist permission to do experiments on his soul in excange for material to the plane. When he flies for the first time, something to do with the experiments makes him lose control over the plane and he crashes and dies.

(2) The scientist succeeds to bring him back from the dead, which the boy must keep a secret, so he runs away from his sister so she'll keep thinking he's dead. The sister traps herself and some other people in a cave to plan revenge. The scientist is also secretely working on a bigger project, that for some reason emitts some kind of toxic slime. The scientist dumps the slime in the lake outside his labratory, and the water and all the plants that absorb the water get toxic as well.

(3) I want this toxic slime thing, the vampire boy's story, and the fact that theyre all mythological creatures to be connected somehow, but i don't know how. I also don't know what kind of project the scientist could be working on that emitts all that slime. Do you have any ideas or tips?

constablewrites: You could possibly make the slime the source of everyone's powers, or a byproduct of that source. Like a physical manifestation of magic or whatnot. As far as tips, I see a whole lot of moving parts here, some of them potentially contradictory. (How can someone who's already undead get resurrected again?) The more ideas you try to cram into a story, the less room you have to explore any of them with any sort of depth. So if you've got an element you like but can't make fit in the story, that story may not the right place for it. I'm a big proponent of your characters driving the plot, so if they're having to act in ways that don't feel believable in order to allow something to happen, your readers are likely to pick up on that dissonance.

Synth: Some questions to think about, because we here at script-a-world love questions to get the creative thought juices flowing:

When you say "their own modern society," is this in the sense of The Masquerade, where it's a secret society mingling with and hidden amongst the regular populace, á la the wizarding world in the Harry Potter books? Or have these mythologicals set up their own country that everybody knows about, with treaties and agreements with neighbouring nations?

What kind of vampires are we talking here? The Twilight sparklebutt? The Anne Rice sex-bomb? The Bram Stoker classic? A version inspired by some other vamp-ish mythological creature (because there are some really weird regional variants on blood-sucking/soul-draining creatures out there {see: leyak, penanggalan}), perhaps? Maybe there are a variety of different types of vampires? (I would, however, suggest picking one, mmmaaaybe two types, to keep things simple, unless it becomes a vital plot point that there are many subspecies of vamp.) Are your vampires born that way, or are they made? If they are made, is vamp-boy’s sister also a vampire? Are they legit related to each other? You say your vampire boy was killed and then resurrected, and from his need to keep his resurrection secret (why does he need to do this?), this does not seem like a normal state of affairs, so I'll guess his species is not the undead variety of vamp.

What other mythologicals live in this society? Only those that are reasonably humanoid, or can disguise themselves as such (e.g., vampires, succubi, incubi, panotti, shapeshifters)? Humanoid *and* the more fantastical, that couldn’t possibly hide amongst humanity, like a roc, tikbalang or chimera? If there are non-humanoid mythologicals, are they sapient, or more like wildlife? If they are non-sapient wildlife, how are they kept contained to the mytho-only areas?

This scientist guy, is he a normal human, or is he a mytho too? If they live in a secret society, how did he come to know they exist, and what is his interest in studying them/their souls? What was the purpose of bringing the poor kid back to life?

Why does the kid’s resurrection have to be kept secret from his sister, and why is she plotting a roaring rampage of revenge because of his presumed death? Does she know/suspect that the scientist had something to do with it? Why does she need to be hiding in a cave to plot? Is her desire to avenge her brother frowned upon by the other inhabitants? These people she has sequestered in the cave with her: are they willing accomplices or were they coerced into assisting her?

The vegetation absorbing toxins from this icky slime is perfectly reasonable. That kind of thing happens right here on Earth when poisons get into the ground and water and work their way into the food chain, although toxins produced via mad science and/or questionable magic could have much weirder effects than just “everything is dead now”. Is the slime a byproduct of one of his experiments-of-potentially-questionable-ethics-and-legality? Is it an intentional result? Is there no equivalent of the EPA (Environmental Protection Agency) in this universe to come along and go: “Dude, maybe don’t dump your gross goo in the water, hey?”

I agree with @constablewrites that you have a lot of stuff going on here, but I think if you plan carefully, you can make it work. But like @constablewrites said, don’t get so attached to a character or plot point that you can’t let it go if it doesn’t help move the story forward.

The vibe I get from the basic outline here is some kind of conspiracy/thriller/mystery tale. Maybe the scientist has some kind of personal grudge against the mythological community, and he plays on the vamp-boy’s desires in order to use him to further his secret anti-mytho vendetta. The boy’s death and resurrection were intentional for , and the toxic slime is played off as an oops byproduct but is actually the real goal because the scientist plans to poison/subdue/turn into mindless drones/etc. the mytho populace. Vampire-boy’s sister is the only one who suspects he’s up to something nefarious, and is out to prove it, regardless of how many people she has to go through, figuratively and literally, to get answers for her people and justice for her brother.

I would totally read a supernatural murder mystery eco thriller, by the way.