#Ill admit I cried at the end. Reflecting the on the complex profundities of life just got me you know.

[segemarldoodles]

I beat Citizen Sleeper this morning, I finished every story-line and ended up taking the Lem and Mina ending, but I just wanted to talk about the Gardener ending.

Spoilers below, you should absolutely play it if you haven't.

I was a little upset that I couldn't unite Hunter and Killer, because I saved both of them and I was really hoping that I could combine them into a single fully sentient AI because I feel bad for them.

Then Navigator just fucks off into the datastream to look for other AIs, like 1) I wanted to put you in the Ambergris, and 2) I never get to talk to him again to see if he found anything.

Then I got to see the Gardener and get the seed, so the entire time I was doing the Hypha quest-line I was like "why can't I just tell Riko that an AI is running the greenway" until finally we grow the interface, and that ending got to me. This AI networked all the mushrooms on the greenway into a huge data cloud hive mind and it was offering me to leave broken and dying body and join its chorus of voices, and I chose to wade against the current, back to my robot body, slowly breaking down and failing, because I still had unfinished business. I knew I couldn't come back, but I had to tell Riko about everything, I had to help Lem and Mina get off the Eye, I still hadn't helped Sabine get out from under the thumb of the Yatagan. I couldn't just abandon all of the people I've met, just to drift off into the buzz of a million minds. I need it all to mean something. So I went back, squeezed Riko's hand, and woke up. It reminded me a lot of the ending of night in the woods where Mae says that she wants it to hurt because that means it meant something.