#If you wanna hear more about the wraith for that post about mothers PLEASE let me know I have endless thoughts on her
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This theme is continued in the CoC games as well. You mentioned Roland and Amanda- we never see anything of Roland that portrays him as anything less than a loving father, but we see the cruelty that love pushes him to. He’s willing to do whatever it takes to get her back, willing to blackmail and coerce and organize the death of an innocent woman. It’s through this he serves as a foil for Henry. Henry who loves his daughter more than anything else in the world, who considers her his moral compass, his guiding light. Henry who fails her frequently. He’s not there for Emily, gets swept up in his gambling and drinking. His debt puts her in danger. He’s willing to do anything to keep his little girl safe, but it’s his irresponsibleness that put her at risk in the first place. Roland is everything as a father Henry isn’t- a good relationship with Amanda’s mother, a stable job, a nice little house in the suburbs, meals on the table, a family pet- but he’s also everything Henry could be.
There’s also Antoine. We see first hand how much he loves the Stanczyk children. Children who might not be his, but who he loves like they are. He takes Erik in, he raises him like a son. He molds him like clay into a monster. Takes the distraught little boy killing another child in cold blood and tells him that cruelty is okay, that it’s expected, to release himself from inhibitions like morality and kindness. He is objectively a terrible father but he is never anything but a loving one. His revenge on the ones who kill his son is slow and calculated and serves a greater plan but it is still revenge. He tells Henry himself. “You know how much one will do for the ones they love”. And then- Anna. He says himself that she was like a daughter to him. Anna who he lays out on an alter, who he intends to sacrifice to be a host to a god and he calls it an honor. Don’t we all want to honor our children? Does Arthur not express the same desire? Antoine’s version of honor is warped and twisted and cruel and yet- and yet- it comes from love
Anna’s relationship with her biological father is no less complicated. Konrad starts as a family man and ends a raving lunatic. Anna watches as her father becomes dangerous, becomes a threat to her family, watches as he boards up her mother in her bedroom and leaves her to starve. Anna flees. Her father loses himself to forces outside of his control. Still in the depths of his madness he burns the remains of his infant son’s crib. Did some part of him know what he had lost?
(And when in CoC2 Nyarlathotep, in the guise of Konrad, starts a cult his followers call him Father)
We see fatherhood in many more forms than this in the CoC games. In Winslow’s doting on Petra, in Jarrett’s need for approval from Henry and Frank, even a twisted form in Senator Christian’s abuse of Mary Laval and the way he uses “fatherhood” as guise to keep her controlled
I’m not sure what my point here is aside from yeah. It’s very much a theme
It’s so fascinating to me about how much of Malevolent centers around bad or misguided fathers.
We spend ample amounts of time with Arthur’s grief and his faults, his fear of fatherhood, his failings of Faroe and the ensuing spiral afterwards. We hear of Bella’s strict upbringing, of Daniel’s controlling nature, the desire to shape his daughter into what he expected her to be, and even admitting to Arthur’s face that he intended to mold him as well, into what he thought his daughter’s husband should be. We learn of Larson’s betrayals, the sacrifices of his children: the monsters he made of those he should’ve loved, all in the pursuit of power and legacy. There’s an argument to be made even, of fragments and reflections and daughter and sons, that the King - that initial version of him now dead in all respects - was a sort of father, with John and Yellow as his residuals, his sons, his heirs, in a way. Finding their own identities now, free from the shadow of a predecessor, free to chose their own destinies, wether that is to separate themselves entirely, to scream defiantly of humanity and hope and self, or to try and reshape the visage of that dead malevolent god in desperate pursuit of love that wasn’t given, driven by a hate that was shared. What other analogy so seamlessly fits with the relationship between Arthur and Yellow than that of a neglectful father? The one who was supposed to be patient, be caring, be kind, the one who was supposed to teach this new being, this new child, about what life could be like? What love and kindness it could hold? But Arthur was too unsteady then. Too unstable to give Yellow the upbringing that he deserved. His nature was shared with John, and we’ve seen the depths of love he’s embraced. Yellow was simply nurtured wrong, encouraged down that spiral by a foster father who embraced and even venerated his rage. And similarly, in the basement in New York, we are reminded of nature and nurture, of animals and babes. Briefly, quick as a glance, we learn of the Butcher’s father, both a seething livewire and a subtle undercurrent in his motivations, manifested, perhaps, in his tumultuous relationship with failure, his self inflicted violence. Roland and Amanda receive less of the spotlight, but the foundations of everything are built upon their relationship. And now, with the Unclean, we know more of Arthur’s own father—who’s fate is known and the same as his mother’s—and his envy towards his friend, his childish jealousy and vindictive actions, of which he now condemns, having learned better, having known better. Every aspect of the narrative is seeped in fatherhood, in parenting, in children. Malam says as much by the fire: “They are our betters, our futures, our learned mistakes.” Malevolent is, at its core, about parents and children and hope.
And now, Arthur and John are on the run from a mother, on a mission given to them by a father, who’s daughter is largely a mystery, or perhaps, more familiar than we might think.
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reaction post typed while watching SPN 13x03 “Patience”
(an episode in which everyone tries their hand at parenting, and only Sam and Jody succeed imo)
05:45pm
i would’ve been here earlier but the power was out
right now we’re running the generator so we have water and can cook dinner, but it may go out again at some point
I’M SO EXCITED CAS IS BACK CAS IS BACK LET’S DO THIS
patience is literally my middle name (but in arabic - “Subburah”) hghfghh
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05:46
first shot in the recap is STABBITTY STAB i’m upset
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05:47
ew wraiths and their creepy freeze-dried tentacle fingers
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05:48
the fact jack is a parallel to both sam and cas, and yet dean wants to kill him, makes me feel emotions
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05:50
OH NO
I HOPE SHE LIVES
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05:50
THIS IS sTRESSING ME OUT SO MUCH
I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH I HATE SEEING WOMEN IN DISTRESS
kudos to this actress then i guess
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05:53
MISSOURI MISSOURI I’D KNOW THAT VOICE ANYWHERE OH MY GOD JADHSHDFSHDF
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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05:54
laughing at the sign in the background
“it’s back!”
YES SHE IS
(how dare you refer to her as an “it”, background sign)
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05:55
kelly: “you have an angel watching over you”
I CRY
I CRY INSIDE SO MUCH
‘CAUSE LIKE............. MARY SAID IT TO DEAN
AND NOW CAS IS GONE
AND AAAAAH
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05:57
dean is such a mess oh no
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05:57
wait is this even the episode where cas is back? or is that next week
hnhgnhh i wish i knew
just seems like this is a pretty solid episode by itself and cas would seriously distract from all these ladies
(although..........both would be good. both would be perfect)
(give me an episode that can do both)
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06:00
i wanna hug jody so bad. she just looks so pleasant
i mean i did hug kim rhodes several times but OH MY GOD WHAT A GOOD HUG
she wouldn’t let go!!! she just kept hugging even though i kept flinching because i’m not good with physical contact and i wasn’t sure how long i was allowed to hug aND SHE LET ME HUG AND SNIFFLE ON HER SHOULDER BECAUSE I WAS PANICKING
IN CONCLUSION: DEAN NEEDS A JODY HUG
actually ?? in terms of hugs i’ve had in my life, kim rhodes ranks right up there with my sister and mother. like, third best hug i've ever had. which is saying something
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06:03
dean: “i’m not sure which one to hug first”
I FEEL YA
;a; i’m so delighted i love this
look at all these cute mom friends dean has
(although someone on my dash was vehemently suggesting jody is too hot to be the boys’ mother figure. while i agree, SHE CAN BE A HOT MOM FRIEND IT’S FINE <3)
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06:05
look at this light fixture lookin’ like a uterus
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06:07
are we ever gonna see more telekinestic!sam ?
i wrote a fic that i never finished, maybe one day
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06:08
JAMES NOO
i don’t get why people don’t believe in psychics. like.........people have so many abilities, why does belief stop when it can’t be explained by science yet? james must’ve grown up with missouri doing all her magic and seen that it’s true?? and yet?? hm
(edit: i had an inkling that wasn’t the reason, and it wasn’t)
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06:11
missouri: “you save my family, you hear me, dean winchester?”
on the one hand, cool
but on the other hand, PLEASE DON’T PUT THAT EXPECTATION ON HIM HE’S FRAGILE AND IF HE FAILS IT’S MORE PAIN FOREVER
“and thank you”
that softens it a bit but barely
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06:13
jack: “i can’t do this, and you keep staring at me, waiting”
I FEEL FOR DEAN AND JACK SO BADLY
parental expectation is SO MUCH
i have tears in my eyes
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“you stay here, try to relax”
sam is a good bean
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06:14
power’s out again?? my sister just came home from the dog walk and turned the generator off for some reason??
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06:17
i refuse to believe that missouri dies
robert berens is better than that. or at least i hope there wasn’t a season-long plot arc that includes no missouri
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06:18
she’s not dead
nope nope nope nope nope
nope nope
nope
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06:19
i love these girls already
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06:21
nope nope nope nope nope nope
WHY IS SHE DEAD NOOOO NO
NO NONONI
WHY BRING HER BACK TO KILL HER YOU MONSTERS
WHO DECIDED THIS
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU
look it’s not just that i liked the character, missouri was a) a person of colour and b) a woman who survived and NOW SHE’S DEAD
I THOUGHT THE WRITERS WOULD’VE LEARNED THAT’S NOT A GOOD WAY TO FURTHER A STORY BY NOW
WHERE’S HER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT
WHY WAS SHE JUST “REPLACED” BY A YOUNGER HOTTER GRANDDAUGHTER
I WANT BADASS MONSTER-FIGHTING OLD LADIES ON MY SCREEN ;n;
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06:27
YEEEEE KICK HIM
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06:29
it’s weird how much i relate to patience
bookworm named patience with lowkey psychic abilities and no interest in dating
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06:31
SAM READING PARENTING BOOKS
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06:34
sam is such a fast learner, he figured out his parenting technique ain’t working and he backed off
sam is the parent we all need(ed)
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06:36
sam: “dean...cas... my family helped me through that”
cas is included in this and mary isn’t
interesting
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06:40
missouri: “no matter what happens, no matter where i go, i will always look out for you, you hear??”
;A;
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06:42
i like this music as james is going through his box
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06:48
AW MAN NOT JAMES TOO
I WAS SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS EPISODE BUT THIS IS SO DISAPPOINTING
why can’t there be a nice happy psychic black family who hunt monsters and live to the end of the episode
why can’t we have that
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06:49
JODY
NO
WHAT THE FUCK
WHAT THE FUCK
WHAT THE FUCK
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06:50
THIs has gotta be a psychic vision right
patience is having a vision and she sees what’s going to happen so she can prevent it
that’s the only thing i choose to believe
fuck this, this isn’t real
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06:52
dean’s down
yeah this ain’t real
i can relax
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06:53
dean picks up a rope and i’m like DEAN IS WONDER WOMAN ALSO
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06:55
and patience is psychic in the way missouri wasn’t, she can pull the future out of thin air
personally i have the psychic dreams but never see the events coming when they happen for real, i only know afterwards that i knew it was going to happen. kinda useless really
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06:57
so much about parenting in this episode
jody and sam are the best parents, objectively
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06:59
dean is a such a shitty emotionally abusive parent tbh
cas, get a divorce and take the kid somewhere safe already
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07:01
dean [angry shouting]: “it got him dead. now you may be able to forget about that, but i can’t”
;~;
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07:02
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAS
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07:03
SO...... CAS IS IN THE UPSIDE DOWN
BASICALLY
(if you haven’t seen ‘stranger things’ already you need to)
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07:03
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CAS IS BACK, SORT OF
YEEEEEEEEEEEE JACK AND HIS EMOTIONALLY CHARGED POWERS
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07:04
well it’s over
and i’m............unsure what i feel about this
this story was okay. i feel like it could’ve been stronger. i appreciate that we never had to suffer through watching missouri die, but i feel like she could’ve gone out fighting rather than just accepting her fate. (i liked the sass she gave the wraith though)
my face is kind of sneering in distaste of its own volition so i guess i didn’t enjoy this very much?
but feelings aside....
actually no, everything is emotions, i have no rational input
i’d give this 8/10 i suppose. patience’s friend was great, i liked her fun energy, and i hope she’s in the spin-off show (there’s a spin-off happening, right?? with patience??). jody was great too, always is. sam was great. dean was a SHITTY HUMAN BEING but i guess he’s just completely messed up by losing cas & co.
god i hope they go to therapy sometimes. there needs to be hunter therapists. that would be a great job to get in this world. very needed, paid in protection or magic beans
i feel so much for jack and patience. being the kids in this story... oh man. “gifted”/overachieving kids and parental pressure is something i relate to more than i want to. i needed a jody or a sam in my life and i never did, i had to become my own jody-sam hybrid to be able to forgive myself for failing (due to chronic illness and a shitty doctor who dismissed me instead of diagnosing me, yet somehow it still felt like my fault??)
(and i still do have to forgive myself. every time i see other people succeed in my particular fields of interest i get so ... not jealous exactly, but upset that i haven’t been able to achieve that. but i gotta remember i am literally doing the best i possibly can, just to get a fic out once a month.
and trying harder isn’t the best option when it comes at the cost of basic things like leaving my room, petting a cat without worrying i’m wasting time, looking at the sky for 5 minutes as the sun sets, or talking to friends.
even once my parents eased up, i became my own source of pressure to succeed. and i need to be more like sam sometimes. tell myself to take a break. eat some food. and try to move the pencil with my brain later.)
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but actually... on that note, one of the things that i desperately want to achieve is financial independence from the government system, and i can only achieve that through asking people to support me on patreon. if you read my fics, or enjoy my spn reviews, or love ANYTHING i make, and want to keep me supported and encouraged even when i desperately need a break, you can ease my pressure slightly, right here <3
my next goal is only $40 away, it would be the best thing ever if that goal was met before, say, the next episode of spn airs ?
(the worst thing is when i try my best, and self-promote to thousands of people, only to have nobody say or do anything in response... that hurts way more than achieving nada hurts. again, i gotta forgive myself. i can only do as much as i can do, and asking for help is a big part of that)
if you’re reading this with good thoughts in mind for me, i love you. like misha quoted in his snaphat once, sometimes love is just waiting while unable to do anything. that’s me, every day. and you, if you can’t help me. i appreciate you anyway (and i know i’m still loved.) <3
(wow i thought this was a tv show review. welp)
(also here’s a rebloggable list of my Destiel fics if you want something to read)
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