#If he's not part of UL stop torturing him

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A Long Awaited Dance - (Bombshell) Supergirl x Male Reader

Note: Fluff 🥰

Based from the DC Bombshells Universe - Earth-24

Second of September 1945... The War had officially ended on all fronts, while the war between Germany and Britain ended in May fourth of the same year... The war on the rest of the countries officially ended on the second of September.

The Bombshells played a big part on the front, starting from 1940 during the war, the Bombshells were created and put together by Amanda Waller, an expert pilot, leader and the best at military protocol.

The Bombshells went all around the world at each time, Wonder Woman went to Berlin to make the Reich surrender, with all the events that transpired before hand, the world being invaded by strange forces on that other hand, it was all stopped in the end.

Though it came with a cost of Power Girl's and Superman's life, cloned from Supergirl's DNA in 1942, their sacrifices brought a victory that brought peace finally after six years. A victory sweeter than strawberries.

Kara Starikov had lost a lot during this war, Kortni; her sister, her family, and deemed a traitor by her own country; Soviet Russia. She vowed to protect the Motherland regardless, a promise she still kept when it was attacked eventually, she was raised in Soviet Russia, she grieved the loss of Power Girl and Superman but their memory would live on through her, she vowed it so.

Her sister Kortni aka Stargirl had sacrificed herself in 1941 within London, Britain where the bombings were taking place, a creature of pure power had threatened the entire city and world, the Bombshells soon responded to this threat. Kara wanted to sacrifice herself after she thought she was a danger to the world were she still alive, now deemed a traitor to Soviet Russia, her homeland, the only home and country she grew up in.

She knew she was special, her parents told her she came from the stars one night, within a strange mechanism like vehicle, she was their biological daughter, but they were her parents, they raised her alongside Kortni.

Returning from Russia, she flew all the way back to the US, to meet someone she had fallen in love with back in 1942, a special unit soldier that took unprecedented risks in his missions against the Axis Powers, a young man who travelled far and wide to assist the Allies, his name was Y/N L/N, his father served in WWII as a Sergeant, who unfortunately died in 1944 during the Allied Retaking of France, months after D-Day.

Kara was there for him when he grieved for the loss of his father, as he did when she lost her parents in 1942, during a altercation which they sacrificed their lives with the help of Swamp Thing to contain a threat that is still contained to this day, the Bombshells would answer to this Doomsday aka Faora-Ul if she were to escape one day and finish what was started in Leningrad.

Y/N was injured in March 6th, 1945, when a covert mission went wrong, resulted in him getting caught and captured by the Reich.

When word got out of Y/N's mission gone wrong, Supergirl went out of jurisdiction to find and bring the love of her life back from the front, alive. Flying out with a blaze of fury and determination to rescue him from the Germans, before eventually finding him, dismantling the Germans that had captured and tortured him for information, Y/N had bruises, cuts and had dried up blood all over him. He was malnourished too.

He remembered being relieved when Kara came to rescue him, she hadn't killed the Germans holding him prisoner but he swore she might've, based on how in bad shape he was, it was surprising he hadn't broke just yet. All he heard was shouting, shooting and screaming, Germans being thrown and punched while bullets bounced off her.

He remembered looking into the dark, seeing a pair of red glowing eyes approaching him before shutting off, returning to normal once Supergirl came into view, her red cape-like-scarf bundled-in-two flowing behind her like her skirt as she rushed up to him. Her soothing worried voice soon cutting him free and flying him out that day... All the way back to the US where he could be treated for his injuries.

He mumbled one word that day during the flight back to his country for medical care. And again said it once he awoke on the date, eighth of July, 1945 after being in a coma for months. Kara would make frequent visits to check on him and tell him about everything that was going on.

"Printessa" a word in Russian which meant Princess to her, it was a word he'd usually call her, other than "Solnyshko" for when they first met. Y/N was fluent in Russian and a few other languages, useful for infiltration and so fourth. The moment was tear-jerking for her, hearing his first word after being in a coma for months, his eyes had began to open following this while she hugged and cried happily in his shoulder, all that happened next was her sleeping with her head resting on his chest in the medical bay.

As of currently however, Supergirl flown herself back to see Y/N, the young man she fell in love with back in 1942. It had been a day since the war ended, Y/N was almost back to full health but still recovering, he wasn't clear for field work during the final days of the war like he hoped he would, which was nothing but unfortunate for himself.

In the home he was driven back to, his mother's home, Y/N sat on the chair, writing a letter to his friends who were still in the army, a newspaper on the table beside him, the big obvious title claiming that "THE WAR IS OVER", published from the Daily Planet in Metropolis.

Kara Starikov, Supergirl, thought about potentially being Metropolis's protector, it was a mere mention that sprang across his mind once his eyes laid upon the newspaper that was labelled by the Daily Planet. She had been thinking very hard about it since then, knowing she can't ever fully return to Soviet Russia, to Moscow, but she'd protect it as a watchful angel.

Soon enough after placing down his fountain pen and finishing writing the letter, he looked out to his window to see Supergirl landing just a few steps away from the door, before her eyes drifted to the window itself.

A big toothy smile grew upon her face while his came out as a smirk, she soon approached the door and knocked on it, knowing Y/N's mother was inside.

Kara couldn't keep her eyes off him after knocking on the door gently, the wind picking up her long, wavy blonde hair, the double sided scarf that acted as a cape billowing behind her along with her skirt, her big teething smile teasing him through the window.

Y/N couldn't either, her smile always seemed to distract him, let alone her face and beauty, she was the prettiest girl he had ever met, he hadn't known how pretty Russian girls really were until his eyes fell upon her in 1942, when he was given orders by the British to eliminate Dr. Hugo Strange who was in Leningrad at the time.

He ran into a few misfits during his mission, most notably Harley Quinn, Poison Ivy, Reaper aka Andrea Gruenwald and a Newspaper Girl named Eloisa Lane aka Lois Lane for short, who worked for the Daily Planet.

It turned out that Reaper wanted revenge on Hugo Strange for what he's done to her and Y/N's covert mission was to kill Strange, so the two worked together, with Lois tagging along, though Y/N had tried to convince her not to come with, since she was a civilian, however... Lois was pretty helpful and smart, convincing him to allow her to tag along... For now,

Eventually, he'd meet Kara Starikov aka Supergirl after he sabotaged Strange's security with Reaper's help, with Kara convincing Power Girl to turn against Strange, rescuing Steve Trevor next who was also captured besides Kara.

At a moments notice? When Y/N made himself known with helping Lois Lane out of the hidden window within the wall they climbed through, mentioning they were responsible for the power shortage in Strange's security. 

He fell in love...

Butterflies went through his stomach at a moments notice of her making eye contact with him, he felt his face heat up in that moment, he had heard about the Soviet's having a 'Superweapon' to be used for the War... But he didn't expect it to be a person, let alone... A beautiful young woman.

Y/N solely remembered that day... Where his life soon changed forever afterwards.

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[Flashback |Soviet Russia, Leningrad, 1942 | Strange's Laboratory]

"I.. Wow... Uh" Y/N looked at her speechless, while helping Lois out of the hidden window in the wall, noticing him looking at the 'Superweapon'. "Well... Originally we weren't meant to rescue you, I had no idea the weapon would be... A you" he rubbed the back of his neck, Lois helped Andrea out from the window in response, smirking away at the covert soldier's awkwardness. "I suppose it was a change of plans".

Y/N soon applauded the young woman's words toward the clone she was fighting, the things she made her realize, the woman soon softly smiled in his direction as he approached her, standing just slightly taller than her

"I'm... Uh..." Y/N found himself hesitant to even say his own name, though he went under the alias; Cobra, his name was mostly classified amongst all military personnel, knowing this... 'Superweapon' came from the Soviet Union, he felt... Sick about the fact the Soviets were wanting to use this young woman as a weapon due to her power.

"Have you forgotten your name?" the young woman giggled softly, still keeping her eyes on him, a light tint of pink rushed across his cheeks as he laughed softly. Steve Trevor took notice of this and stayed back for now, watching as this went down.

"No, no. It's Y/N... Y/N L/N" he brought his hand out and soon... She took it to shake it.

"And my name is Kara Starikov" she announced to him in her Russian accent, smiling at him as she shook his hand gently and respectively.

"But they call her..." Steve Trevor stepped into the conversation. "'Supergirl'" he announced to him, Kara still couldn't keep her eyes off him as he did the same, her warm smile taking shape as she blinked softly and slowly.

"Supergirl?" he questioned, a tinted smile appearing on the young man's face towards Kara.

"The Motherland originally called me that" her Russian nature explained it all, making him nod at her answer.

Y/N soon thought to himself, liking the name they had for her, though she admitted she never came up with the name. It was Russia that named her that "So... You're apart of the Bombshells, right? I heard about that group making a lot of moves recently, helping out with the war effort".

"{Yes}, I'm apart of the Bombshells, I defected the Communist Party, along with..." pain arose in her voice, before Power Girl came crashing in, ending the conversation... For now that was.

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[Present Day | US, West Virginia, 1945 | L/N American Household]

Y/N daydreamed on that day of being carried out by Kara when they first met, after she was able to fly again, dealing with the fact she lost her sister and as much as it pained her, she pushed on... In Kortni's name and love. Eventually telling him of the loss she recently suffered, about the fact the Communist Party deemed her a traitor since she wouldn't kill innocent lives in the name of the Soviet Union.

She felt her country was corrupt, she may love Russia as a country, but not the people in charge.

Soon enough, he could hear the front door opening with Kara joining her hands together in front of her.

"Hello Mrs. L/N, I... I'm here to see your son, Y/N" she hadn't met his mother yet, but he could see she was being awkward a little, not expecting to meet his mother without a proper introduction.

"Oh, you're the girl he told me about. Come in, come in!" his mother invited her in, happy to finally meet her. "Y/N!! Your woman is here!" the older woman shouted for her son in her London accent. As much as it felt embarrassing to hear her tell him about Kara's arrival. He felt his face heating up with embarrassment from the announcement alone.

His mother was told about Kara Starikov after he came home, though he was supposed to come back to check on her the year father was killed in the line of duty, they had grieved their loses after he came home to recover from being off the field.

"Might I say that you look absolutely gorgeous, young woman. My son must be lucky to have met you" Helen L/N's voice bloomed through the house, with the door in Y/N's room slightly opened, the music playing on his phonograph at a lower level as he was writing earlier.

"Oh, [thank you], but I thought I was lucky to have met him?" Kara replied, Helen looked at her funny however, not knowing what word she meant earlier as Kara realized what she said. "Oh, sorry! My mistake on that part, I-I said thank you in Russian. I'm sure he told you I was raised in the Motherland" her voice was closer to the door than it was earlier after being invited in.

"The Russian accent says it all, it's okay, Ms. Starikov" Helen nodded with a smile. "He's in there, writing. I'm sure he probably expected you".

"Oh, I'm sure he does" the Russian Bombshell smirked before Helen walked off back into the living room, to continue knitting. Kara on the other hand soon pushed the door open, seeing Y/N already stood up and his eyes falling on her.

"Kara, my Printessa" he smiled brightly, calling her by his many nicknames for her. the Bombshell that had rescued him on multiple occasions, especially the one where he was on the verge of death months back.

"Dorogoy!" a nickname (means Sweetheart in English) she'd call him time to time, she sped into his arms and planted her lips on his, with papers flying all about from his desk after she super sped up to him with a hug and kiss in mind.

Soon his arms wrapped around her waist as hers sprang around his upper back, her sleeve-gloved hands feeling and stroking the back of his head, her fingers running against his hair as he brings his arms up to her curly, long, blonde hair that drove down behind her and parted to the right hand side of her face, where his hands now felt the curls of her hair as their kiss continued.

"Mmm" a soft moan escaped Supergirl's throat after she felt Y/N tapped where her skin was showing from the shoulders and upper back twice, since she wore a corset for her overall attire as she's been wearing since 1940. "I missed you" her Russian accent whispered softly to him, an accent he missed hearing from the last few weeks since she last came to visit, now within the home where he mostly grew up in after moving her when he was young.

"So did I, Supergirl... So did I" he smiled as their foreheads gently collided, with their smiles brighter as the sun shining in the morning. "I heard the war is over, we won" Y/N soon brought up, Kara nodded with a hum before kissing him again for a few seconds, then both parties looked toward the newspaper lying on the floor, no thanks to Kara super speeding into the man's arms.

Kara unwrapped her arms from Y/N as he did the same, the Bombshell knelt down and picked up the newspaper with a 'oops' expression on her face, noticing the papers that had been flown around the place. Soon placing the newspaper on the table Y/N was working on earlier.

"I think I caused this?" she made it known to him as he chuckled about it, seeing the expression on her face.

"It's alright, Kara" he grabbed her by the hand gently with a consoling touch. "It's adorable when you... Do that fast speeding thing" he looked into her eyes, smiling right at her.

"If you say so" she batted her eyes toward him before floating off the ground to be a little taller than him, making him look up at her just a little which made him chuckle.

"For some reason my dear? I like it when you do that" he smiled right up at her before being pulled into a loving kiss that lasted for as long as he could take it, tapping her shoulder lightly when he needed some air after their lips continued to smack softly off each other for a minute.

"And for some reason, my Sakharok" the Bombshell pulled her lips back from his just slightly, whispering to him. "I knew you did, you would've said something already if you hadn't liked it" Kara's English sounded so surprisingly perfect still, for someone who was raised in Russia, she sure knew how to speak English fluently, even when she met him for the first time in 1942, though she's spoken English before hand, she was a quick learner.

Only Russian thing there when speaking English was her Russian accent, which Y/N found attractive at best. The two continued locking eyes as Y/N attentionally rocked side to side slightly to the sound of the music playing on the phonograph, the volume lowered down still. 

"I... Heard what happened, the invaders and all that" Y/N then brought up after the two exchanged looks and smiles. The Kryptonian woman's expression soon turned serious a little, knowing what he was going to ask.

"Did-"

"They died..." Kara interrupted abruptly, as Y/N's expression soon turned into shock.

"Kara..." he called her by name, as she looked away in a little bit of pain. "Power Girl and...".

"[Yes, they did]" she answered in Russian. "I brought their bodies back from space. Before she left, she told me not to grieve much, it was hers and Kal-El's choice, they did it for the Motherland" she then continued with her word, before thinking to herself, wanting to correct herself from what she said. "No, for the world, for Earth... For us".

"They were... A good bunch of people, great in the Circus as well" he noted, and Kara hummed in agreement.

"I'm going to miss their acts" Supergirl slightly smiled, looking into Y/N's eyes next before her boots made contact with the ground. "Their memory will live through me, as does Kortni's and my family's" she smiled at that fact.

"And mine? When my time eventually comes?" Y/N smirked as the Russian Bombshell looked at him with a frown.

"Don't say that you {Idiot!}" Supergirl pouted as Y/N smiled and laughed softly. "I don't get your humor sometimes, that's something very serious".

"Oh you're so pretty when you're all serious" he flirted. "It's such a gas" he smiled soon after again, making her roll her eyes and smiling back at him.

"And your mother said you were lucky to have me, I think I now see why" Kara soon replied, not thinking twice to break eye contact.

"I heard, and she's right in a way" Y/N nodded, agreeing with that statement. "I'm extremely lucky to have you, you've saved me plenty of times, helped me, rescued me months ago, and in return I've done the same. I'm lucky to have met a woman like you, and even luckier to be romantically involved with you for the last three years since we met. On that topic..." he stopped for a moment to smile at himself, it's been three years since they've been in a relationship. "I love you, Kara Starikov, Supergirl" 

"I love you too, Y/N L/N, {Cobra}" she said back to him with a teething smile, before the next song played on the Phonograph while the two kept their smiles toward each other and their hands intertwined. The fabric of Kara's sleeved-gloves caressing his hands gently and soothingly.

A jazz type of song, one that a dance worked best with, a song that felt perfect for the two of them, at least that's what Y/N thought soon as it came on. He began to rock side to side again slightly, with Kara taking notice again, laughing softly at his movements as Kara let go of his hands so he could walk over to the phonograph.

The young man decided to turn up the volume a little, so it's at a optimal sound, enough to hear it properly.

"Remember when I promised you a dance?" he asked her, turning around to face her while leaning on the table where the phonograph was. 

"Two years ago" she remembered. "I remember clear as day" she began to smile, she had the idea of dancing, the time she was dancing at the Ball Event in the train from Istanbul to Leningrad back in 1942 with Steve Trevor.

"Well... Since the war is over... And I'm able to move again..." he began to smirk. Hinting at the promise he gave her in 1943, which they never got the chance to do so. "May I have this dance?" he asked politely with Kara outstretching her arms and hands out to him.

"I'd be happy to dance with you!" she smiled, her hands out, reaching for his. She had waited so long to hear him ask the question. "I've been wondering when you'd ask" she exclaimed, laughing softly at him as he approached and took both her hands.

The next thing, she brought him toward her completely in a space where they could move more freely in his room, embracing one another with Kara's left arm wrapped around his back, the other holding his hand, his fingers intertwined with her sleeved-gloves that were fingerless.

Y/N's arm wrapped around her waist while the other was around her back, his fingers locked with her own other hand. The Supergirl and the Cobra slowly dancing to the rhythm of the music.

"How long I've waited for this" Y/N cooed to his lover, seeing a big smile grow on her face soon after he whispered to her, their eyes blinking slowly with a love behind it.

"All you had to do was ask, and I waited patiently... For you" she whispered back, her Russian thick Russian accent making her sound more attractive by the minute, every time he heard her speak, it was like he fell in love all over and over again, especially when she whispered.

Silence fell between them as they danced in the one spot slowly to the rhythm of the song, their eyes locked onto each other as they found themselves lost in their worlds together, a kiss soon followed up with it deepening like that one night back in 1944 when the two done the deed on a quiet night after seeing each other once again. Kara remembered that moment very well, the night she lost her virginity, and she felt good after it.

And so did Y/N...

"And who thought an American and a Russian couldn't go well together?" he whispered back to her, making her lightly giggle at his question. Her ocean like eyes not daring to look away from his eyes.

"That's such a stupid question" she giggled a little more as Y/N then twirled her around, spinning her in a slow, smooth moment. Kara began to delight herself in this dance with the woman in the song singing. Let alone... Delighting herself more with Y/N taking the lead. 

"Yeah, I guess it is" he rolled his eyes playfully, spinning her around again in the same smooth manner, slow and gentle, Kara's scarf-like-cape and skirt billowed around with the smooth turn as Y/N caught her next.

Supergirl then began to smirk, intertwining her hand with his free hand once again and pulled him close to her body with a little kiss on his lips. The little kiss ended with Y/N giving Kara a surprised look before he smiled. Impressed by the sudden move.

"Good move, very romantic".

"That was good?"

"Yeah, it was a good move, the kiss made it way better" he praised her again.

Kara's blue eyes glistened toward his, like the ocean on a beach, swaying and moving. Her smile bright as the sun, her face prettier than a garden of flowers, her hair that would wave like a golden cape, she was perfect in his eyes. Though she'd highly disagree on that.

The music had drawn the attention of Helen L/N, wondering why the sudden music being turned up earlier, only to see both her son and his woman, Kara Starikov, Supergirl, dancing slowly.

Helen soon smiled at the two through the gap in the door after Kara slightly closed it earlier after entering, Helen wished Y/N's dad were still here to see this, Y/N had his father's looks after all, him dancing with Kara.

The older woman soon left the two alone without interruption, letting them delight in the dance as Y/N thought of something to talk about while their dance continued.

"Y'know... I do wonder what's next in store for us, what's next for us in the future" he brought up to her attention. "I've always wondered about it".

"I don't know, but whatever it is... We'll face it together" she said with a smile.

"Aren't you... Kinda scared?" he asks her with a curious look.

"I mean, it's okay to be scared, you never know what's going to happen" she said wisely. "Steve told me that... Before he...".

Y/N nodded his head, knowing what happened to Steve Trevor, how he died a hero. It was a hard-struck blow to the Allies and Bombshells alike.

"Yeah... I get where you're coming from" he smiled through the pain of loss, Steve Trevor was a good soul, a wise man, one that would be honored as time goes by. "A lot of good people gone, price of war".

"How long do you think that will last?" Kara brought up. "The Great War was only... Twenty-seven years ago, I came to know about the Great War when I learned how the Motherland is today, how it was born" Kara expressed her worries, showing concern for the world itself. "How long until peace is no more?".

"I... Don't think we should worry about that right now" he expressed, freeing his hand from her to caress her face, feeling how soft it was. "Whatever happens, my dear Solnyshko, I will always stick by your side, no matter what happens, nothing is going to tear us apart from each other" he vowed, soon making her smile softly once again.

"{Good}" she said in Russian, before pulling her face closer to his. "As long as we're together" she whispered in his ear, giving him a little wink after pulling back. Their dancing continued slowly with the rhythm.

"On that note..." he spun her around slowly and smoothly again, catching her before spinning her around, she stepped in and lightly pressed herself against his body, dancing to the song slowly with a delighted demeanor. "You still thinking on returning to Moscow?" he asked a good question, one he's still waiting for her answer on as she thought about it.

"Yes... I think it could be for the best... For now at least, but... I don't know if..." she was about to mention the tension between the US and USSR that could happen, regarding the end of the war, she had overheard talks about it all with her super hearing.

A part of herself did not want to be propaganda again, or to be used as a weapon against anyone for that matter alone, she still hasn't forgotten what the Russian leadership tried to make her and Kortni do to innocent Russians back in 1940, leading to them fleeing the country with their mother but failed to rescue their father in time, since he got captured and placed into the Gulag afterwards, 

But again... Russia was her country, it was her homeland, perhaps she could be a watchful angel over Russia, protecting it from any form of criminals or something else entirely, to keep the citizens safe.

"If something were to happen... Then... They'd want to use me as a weapon like they tried to do to me and Kortni, they could even-".

"If it does happen, Kara? We can just... Leave" he interrupted her, trying to keep her from worrying too much. "We don't have to get involved... Unless it's a very, very serious matter, like another destructive war from happening" he then made a mental note to himself and her.

"Maybe..." she said with a worried look still. "But run or fly away again?" she asked.

"I know it sounds... Discreet and dumb, I get that. But... I want to build a life with you also, it's an idea to have backups if things turn... Sour, if you understand what I mean" Kara soon nodded her head, turning slowly and rocking side to side with him slowly as they danced in the one spot together.

The Supergirl then began to smile at one part she picked out from Y/N's wording. That he wants to build a life with her, and in her vision? So did she, she wanted this to happen, she was the first to kiss him after all back in December of 1942

"I also want to build a life with you too" she drew her face closer to his once more, batting her eyes toward him. "I remember Faora mentioning something about the crystal necklace I came to Earth with, mentioning it would do something incredible when it contacted ice, like the ice in the North Pole, the Arctic you called it" Kara brought up a previous encounter with Faora back in 1942 before she turned herself into Doomsday, a hybrid at least. "I've always wondered what it would do".

"Hmm" the Cobra hummed a thought, thinking of a potential idea what they could do together, to discover if what Faora said was true back in 42. "How about we discover that... Tomorrow? You and I" he offered as she smiled funnily.

"I thought you weren't cleared for duty?" she asked with a curious smile.

"Who says I need to be cleared for duty? It's not like we're going on a covert mission, right?" the pair still rocked side to side, slowly turning in the same spot still as Y/N's question repeated in Kara's head as she thought for the minute, her eyes off of him to think so she couldn't get too distracted.

"{You're right}" she smiles after thinking, taking up on his offer. "On one condition" she locked eyes with him next.

"What would that be, my dear?" he smirked.

"Can I stay over? It's... Been a while since I last awakened beside you... In a more comfortable spot" she eyed the bed for a moment's notice before looking back at him.

"I'm sure my mother would be fine with that, I'll ask her, highly doubt she'd say no, think she already likes you" he nodded in agreement with a smile still on his face. "But... Let's enjoy the dance, I've been wanting this for a long time".

"I agree" she nodded. Before kissing him softly, her lips were soft like a cushion, pressing against his gently, with Y/N deepening the kiss by melting into her lips, the soft, smacking sounds overlapped by the music still playing as they slowly danced.

"I love you, Kara Starikov" Y/N pulled back slightly to communicate, both smiling softly.

"I love you too, Y/N L/N".

🎵 It's Been a Long, Long Time...🎵

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Fin...

Word Count: 5434

[otomelavenderhaze]

I can't stop thinking about the cave dialogue in which Rayan talks about Chloé, his ex wife, therefore I went back to read whole scene back from University Life episode 8, because what Rayan describes in episode 17 of LL is too diferent from that UL episode and from everything I could remember about it.

It's not to say that I caught some sort of insane discrepancy and AHÁ!

It's more because I find it interesting and I thought maybe others would find it interesting as well. So first I wanna show you what Rayan says in episode 8 of UL (which I never translated before until this post):

In my playthrough of it, back in the day, I asked him directly if he have a wife, which he answers yes first and then the proceeds to talk about it...

"And she will forever be my wife. But the last time we saw each other was seven years ago. Already… seven years… My wife, Chloé, died seven years ago. In a terrorist attack. Some savages came in shooting. No fixed target. In shop windows, in people and even in children."

"There were many wounded, and fortunately few dead. But Chloé is one of those who didn't survive… All that happened seven long years ago. It took me time. At first I didn't want to move. I wanted to keep everything, the smallest memory."

Now why I am showing this 4 panells?

This is important to understand how she died, how sad Rayan showed us to be about her death and his attachment towards Chloé.

He even goes as far to say:

"We met in high school and we got married at 23, in a hurry. We didn't tell anyone. But I'm not going to lie to you and say that everything was all roses."

Candy asks him, how so?

"We often quarreled. We stayed together for a long time, we didn't get to know anyone but each other and, sometimes, we even doubted. But when she left… I was torn apart."

Now we will never know why they used to fight, what made them marry so young and so quickly to the point where he implies they didn't even had a wedding ceremony.

Which makes this difficult to understand what compelled both of them to take such actions - maybe they they were just impulsive, but without a reason behind such impulsivity it's hard to tell if it was warrant or not.

But then, the actual panel that made me do this post in the first place eventually comes up in that same conversation with Candy:

"I loved her with all my soul. Before anything else, she was my best friend. But, sorry… I opened up too much…"

And I believe he did, regardless of anything else, because it makes sense for Rayan's character to marry someone for love.

That's the kind of "person" he is, that's why when he falls for Candy, he's ready to assume so many risks and even later talks about leaving his job for her just so they could have a less tense relationship.

This sets up him to be someone that would intensily love another person and do everything for them - they being Chloé or Candy.

I could say this is actually the point of that whole conversation: to show that he isn't someone that takes love lightly or shallowly, which helps us readers to trust his intentions and to believe that, yes, for love he would indeed be honorable, truth and passionate, instead of a player or a man that just wants to have fun with one of his students.

Not mentioning that he presents himself as a tortured soul that lost a wife tragically and never fell in love ever since, but falls in love for you, the reader, because you're special and irreplaceable, is something very flattering and, even, I dare say, romantic.

Meow meow is sad and you're the only one who can fix that for him.

Personally, I don't like how mcl writes grief, I don't think they know how to dose it without losing their hand, so it comes off as shallow for me, but I guess it serves as another thing: Chloe was loved by Rayan, but Candy needs to be special. The player needs to feel special.

Which brings us to this part of the conversation:

"Every women had something of her own. I saw her everywhere. And yet, it's been seven years. Since then, I have been unable to get involved with another woman, in a new relationship. Even in a simple friendship."

"Until… I met you. I don't know… For the first time, I met someone who has none of her. For the first time, I felt entitled not to think about her."

I understand why in an otome game is important to get the romance right and make the player feel compelled to play the character's route, after all, who wouldn't want to feel special, even if it's only on a game - that's why we have so many MCs or main characters in videogames that are heroes, that cares of others or the place they belong to.

However, I will say, maybe they should've worded it differently, maybe it's not so much about feeling entitled to not think about her, but when I realized, I wasn't searching for her traits on you, I wasn't thinking about her anymore, I was ready to move on. But this is just how I would've done it, just so it would come from Rayan the agency of the "healing" - in another words, he had healed himself before he met Candy and falling in love with her was just another evidence of that.

Which brings us back to episode 17 of Love Life, our Honeymoon episode (and pay attention to the parts that I will mark in blue):

"Y'know, I honestly didn't think I would get over losing her. And then after you got in my classroom and into my life. So, yes, I should have a star up there shining for me. Because, with you, I understood the meaning of true love. And it wasn't the same of what I had with Chloé."

"Sometimes, I think, if the story/timeline was another, if I had met you first before I met her... She and I would've been simply friends, without anything else between us. If fate hadn't been so cruel with her, it would've ended like that anyway, actually. I think she would have been happy to see me so happy these days."

"Just like I would have been in seeing her meeting someone else just as important as you're for me. And when I think of her today, is in this way: as a friend that left too soon. And that, of course, I still get a little with my heart tight. She was someone wonderful/beautiful. There's still some of her in me. But, when I met you, I was like a ghost."

Only Rayan to friendzone the dead.

"Thanks to you and our love, she just became a beautiful star, just like my father..."

At first I thought he was saying that he never really loved Chloé and that Candy made him realize that (How? Don't ask me, he doesn't say how), but thinking about this post and re-reading everything made me rethink my first impression of it.

It's not so much that he didn't loved Chloé, but admittedly, and for reasons that Rayan didn't say, he thought love was something else and he thought he loved her because of that notion, and then his notion of love changed because he met Candy and now he thinks that love is truly what he feels for Candy.

I, as someone that played all of his route, can't really say or even figure out how he would've come up with that reasoning.

Was it because for the first time ever, he had put someone else on his top priority, or at least in a more important position than his reputation and career (which he deeply cares for)? But wasn't he a passionate person to begin with? So isn't it natural for him, once he was sure he fell in love for Candy, to put her as his top priority?

Was it Candy presence alone in his life, simply being there, what made him create that notion? How she taught him that?

I don't know, because the way they fell in love was pretty quick and pretty normal I would dare say - normal not in the sense of, he was her teacher, normal in the sense there was nothing remarkable about their dates, the way they sneak around or in their conversations.

I think if he had realize that falling in love with someone new meant that he had "healed" from his past trauma, that he only had feelings for her because he was ready to have feelings for someone again and the sense of normalcy and easiness he felt in being with her was all he ever wanted after going through so much sadness and heartbreak, then, it would make more sense and sound more realistic, maybe?

But again, they wanted to spin that Candy was special, she needed to be the one that changed him, that was like gravity to him and he could not resist the pull of her.

“... It's just that, with you, I never got under the impression of playing any kind of game. Because I had a lot to lose. Before I met you, I had accepted to never love again. I didn’t want to ever risk lose someone ever again... And, above all, you came to enroll in my course. I looked up and knew that my certainties were worthless...” (episode 14 LL)

That's why I talked about his career before.

They set up Rayan to be someone that loves his work, that cares about his reputation and his career, if not, as he only thing he had since he moved away from his family and was living alone.

Risk it all for Candy was to show that he wasn't playing, he wasn't just trying to get a kick out of it.

And knowing how he got after when Marina actually got him fired, how much of a mess it made him, this put things even more in context, it shows that truly, risk it all for her was no joke, even thou, they used to be pretty reckless about it (never gonna forget their first kiss, crazy, both of them).

Which brings me to one of my favorite parts of dialogue in Rayan's route, episode 15 LL, the marriage proposal dialogue:

"It’s funny... for a long time I thought that love was like a burning fire. And I even thought that, in my case, all that was left was ashes of it. Until I met you and I understood that I didn’t know anything. That I have got it wrong in my whole life. With you, I understood that love is like a stream/flow. A wave that breaks again and again without stopping. And that drags everything wherever it goes. You imposed yourself on me like an evidence. In the calm. I knew it right away. But I only understood it this well later on."

Think that love was like a burning fire: it lights up, it shines bright, it consumes itself, then it becomes ashes and there's nothing left of it.

Ouch, Rayan. 😢

Not to mention the destructive nature of fire, but I don't think Rayan or the person who wrote this scene thought it like that necessarily, I think it had more to do with how fragile and how it consume itself, which feels more how like I would expect from how Rayan described his relationship with Chloé before: intense, too quick to think everything through, the fighting, the feeling that it wouldn't last anyway.

Meanwhile Candy is like a strong wave or a strong stream, his love for her dragged everything with it: all his reasoning, his principles and scruples, the risk of losing his reputation, his career, AND breaking again and again, because it didn't matter if he had build any walls to keep her out in the begining, she somehow brought it all down.

Two kinds of love, one feeling less truth and lasting than the other.

While it would've better, in his head, to have remain just a friendship with Chloé, with Candy, there was no way for it to have ended just in friendship, it would always be more.

You can see the contrast between his feelings for Chloé and his feelings for Candy, how it was different and the key word should always be different.

It surprised me to see him talking about their wedding too, Rayan and Chloé married young and in a hurry (we will never know why), meanwhile, Rayan found Candy in a stage of his life when love wasn't even in the table and when it finally came back to the table, Rayan wanted everything, he wanted celebrate it having a proper wedding ceremony and all.

But those are little subtle things that they left out in the air, instead of saying it so clearly like they did so many times before.

Personally, I don't think would've make any sense for Rayan's character to haven't love Chloé, considering they built a life together before he even met Candy, the same way, I don't think we could've ever thought that Rayan loved Chloé more or even the same way he loved Candy.

Cuz, Chloé and Candy not only met him in different moments of his life BUT ALSO, they totally two different women, it would go without saying it.

But I guess, they wanted to make it even more screaming that it was the case, which I can understand why.

I mean, people thought that Rayan had really tried something with Marina, outside of his route: which for those people I always told it would be impossible.

It would go against what they presented to us about him during that first dialogue in episode 8 of UL and it would represent a contradiction in the writing itself. It would bend the rules that they set themselves to follow too grotesquely. Not to mention, MCL never gave other love interests to the Lis that stayed on the side lines.

Unless, of course, they had set things up that we would understand that Marina was such a special existence is moving like Candy - which, okay, I could've accepted it, but they didn't so. That's why I was so sure of it.

Y'know, have to read so much back in his route to make this post made saying goodbye to his route so hurtful but also so fulfilling, I always loved how they wrote him, despite having my criticisms, I am happy that I got to experience Rayan's route from the start to end.

If you haven't played his route like ever, I totally I encourage you to do it now that we got it all. xD

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(not really) poorly explaining every single rhymix character's backstory (to the best of my ability) (part 1)

yeah.

under the cut yayay

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1. Ars Cantate

prince who gets gem that has been passed down from generations to generations by his parents. experiences torture through his evil shadow self. suffers from there.

2. Lucas

really wants to get out of his home nation for god knows how long but can't because the people around him are holding him back so he turns to his best friend (who is still unnamed for now fuck) to help him. ends up getting betrayed by said best friend but manages to escape by himself.

3. Ana

gets backstabbed and used multiple times by others so she decided that, "if they dug her grave, then she'll dig up theirs too."

4. Fate

doesn't have an interesting enough backstory she's just there.

5. Testify/Eternity

was jealous of amazing mighty so she wished that she could have her own nation so that she can finally know what it feels like to be a leader. her wish somehow came true and memoria was a thing lol. also many many centuries later she has beef with tempestissimo and kills him and then regrets it and revives him and becomes eternity. i will elaborate this in detail one day for i am Still fleshing this one out lmao.

6. Galactic

was really upbeat and was besties with spinel but then spinel went missing and then she went cold ooooooooo so so sadddddd

7. Destonio

HOW DID I NEARLY FORGET HIM I'M CRYING. anyways he experiences pain and agony for a few years and gets revealed of The Horrors Of The World™ and grows to hate it. met lumine and was starting to slowly heal but then lumine fucking killed herself and then he became miserable again. ends up killing himself too and then amazing mighty made him a god. good fucking lord.

8. Felicia

no real backstory nothing interesting about her other than she met dahlia and experiences what it feels like to feel Yurious.

9. Dahlia

attempted to off herself but then got stopped/saved by felicia. she then experiences what it feels like to feel Yurious.

10. Dawn

girl finds out about hikaru (who was a popular idol at the time) and then idolizes him and swears to be just like him one day. ends up achieving her goal in the end, but by the time that happened hikaru was already "dead" (or...yk, became a god).

11. Raven

i can't think of one for her yet. i'll think of something eventually. next.

12. Risa

was an angel but then certain events that i have not fleshed out on happened and then she was sentenced to not be an angel any longer and then ends up on rhymix with zero recollection of what happened prior and zero memory of who she is.

13. Unknown Levels

some guy created him but then deemed him unworthy so he just left UL in his old workshop and fucked off to elsewhere. unknown levels was only left with a note saying "main objective of creation: destroy" or something like that idfk.

14. Abstruse Dilemma

raised to be the perfect ruler to the kingdom his parents ruled over at the time, but that gave him pressure and even more depression and anxiety oooooooo. arghena then comes into memoria and snatches him lmao. but don't worry he comes back eventually.

15. Primeval Texture

a bunch of scientists made an experiment using a bunch of elemental pieces of various textures and then conjoined them together to become one. but then those pieces became primeval and she wasn't the result they had hoped for (for whatever reason????) so they discarded her and then she was found by a family and then she got adopted into it yayayayayayaayayayaya

16. Technicolour

used to be such a cheerful kid who loved his family and friends so much. lived in a relatively small neighbourhood that eventually got fucking destroyed in an accident involving the higher ups. before that happened tho techni got sealed away in his protection cube that's in some sort of realm by his father and then boom. he's stuck there for most of his childhood and teenage years. sad. but he gets out thanks to primeval and stasis eventually so yayyyyy

17. Logos

lives in a rich and wealthy family but thinks it isn't worth it since she felt like this isn't the life she sought out for. eventually went on a walk during the rain and found abstruse drenched and alone like a sopping wet cat lmao. eventually becomes friends with him :)

18. Ego Eimi

was a normal angel in heaven until she accidentally did something that she didn't know would be considered a sin. proceeds to get kicked out of heaven and becomes a fallen angel and then she swears she'll get back there eventually.

19. Arghena

random ass bitch from another universe that is NOT rhymix who tries her hardest to appeal to other people in many ways possible, especially at school back then. but nobody noticed her efforts and she then felt like a loser nobody who no one gives a shit about. she then found out she has the ability to look into other universes and then sees abstruse and immediately gets jealous of him because he is everything that she is not. so she travels from universe to universe to find him. eventually comes into rhymix, fucking KIDNAPS ABSTRUSE, AND THEN SETS UP A NEW OBJECTIVE FOR HERSELF: "i'm gonna dethrone amazing mighty lmaooooooo"

20. Transient Space

doesn't have an interesting backstory. youch.

21. Nameless Passion

born from arghena's really weird desires. lmao.

22. TeraVolt

nothing interesting about her she's a FUCKING THUNDER GODDESS FOR FUCK'S SAKE.

23. Tempo

his life is so boring lmao. he made shifta because he wanted to test his coding and building up a robot skills.

24. Shifta

created by tempo so that he can test his coding and building up a robot skills. oh and also so that she can aid and help others and do combat and shit i guess. look i scrapped the thunderriders okay what do you want me to do with their backstories now.

25. Trojan

MALWARE VIRUS TURNED HUMAN WHO CAN GLITCH IN AND OUT OF REALITY AND IS REALLY GAY AND KIND OF TWO FACED. OH MY GOD THIS SOUNDS MORE LIKE ME POORLY DESCRIBING HIS CHARACTER THAN HIS BACKSTORY BUT SHHHHH MOVING ON.

26. Callima Karma

nothing much to say about her. L.

27. Pamolia

shy and timid girl who keeps getting bullied at school no matter if it's middle school or high school. eventually met pupa one day and was really freaked out at first but then accepts him either way. more will be elaborated and shown in side story 4.

28. Pupa/Larva

guardian spirit for pamolia who was originally a normal girl who liked bugs just as much as pamolia did but then got MURDERED BY MANTIS BECAUSE HE HAD TO. FUCK. anyways more of his whole relationship with pamolia will be elaborates and shown in side story 4.

29. Tempestissimo/Momento

was a devil from hell who then did a good deed which is Not what devils were supposed to do so he gets kicked out. ends up in memoria and is scared shitless because he keeps seeing memories of conflict reflected on the glass butterflies and then grows cold and hostile and needs to hurt someone NOW. eventually has beef with testify and then gets killed by her but then she regrets it so then she revived him and then he becomes momento. also now he goes by he/she good for her.

30. Conflict

nothing interesting she's just there i guess whoops.

31. (Jak)Arta

was friends with hikaru but then had to move away and then had slight beef with hikaru about it and then ends up moving away either way but then felt guilty about it. weeks later he finds out hikaru's dead and immediately blames himself for it. he learned to Sort Of move on from it over the years tho and managed to become a train conductor and learn how to like. make his own little robot friend oh my god wow!!!!!!!!!!!

32. Miracle

suffered through abuse by her mother for years on end and when she finally gets out from that situation the damage is already done. eventually gains magical girl powers and is tasked to guard the miracle forest in phi central.

33. Ether Strike

lived a life filled with happiness and good memories but eventually got bored of it. the memories he made gets stored in glass butterflies that flutter around behind him and then one day they all hover over him and trapped him within them to the point where he nearly lost his mind over how bright it is in the glass butterfly seal lmao. gets rescued by ray afterwards. hasn't realized One Thing about him yet tho.

34. Axium Crisis and Lady

axium took lady to the vicious labyrinth in the lost world area because he has been curious about it for god knows how long. gets in, tries to collect all of the conflict glass butterflies with lady, and then he decided to play the hero and literally destroy the labyrinth to the best of his ability to the point where it goes BOOM POUSH KACHOW onto the ground. axium was safe but then lady saw an anomaly and was traumatized ever since. axium felt bad since lady blamed it all on him and then he just. lost his old self and became more hostile and constantly blaming himself for hurting lady.

35. Aegleseeker

tries to find lost light in the area in memoria he lives in, ends up getting into an entirely different universe that's just pitch black, has a panic attack about it, but then saw overwhelm and she was like "hey i'm here to help you lol" and then they ventured thru the weird mirror dimension together. eventually they found myriad and far away light—memoria's source of light that aegle has been looking for. aegle fights myriad, defeats her, and then they all come back to rhymix where the light is restored in aegle's home area yippeeeeee

36. Crave Wave

nothing much about him for now. meh.

37. Chariot

was alone for some time and felt miserable until destonio and retribution took her in as a member of team destruction lmao. woooo

38. Retribution

had history with destonio but desto didn't felt too much of a connection with him. eventually years later they reunite and destonio offers to take retribution in to become a member of team destruction. retri agrees, and then boom. it's like as if he was a loyal dog and destonio was his owner (good god that's a really awful comparison but it's accurate enough. retri's dickriding is crazy.)

39. Lumine

saw The Horrors Of The World™ just like destonio lol. met destonio, became friends with him, only to kill herself a little while after. she then accidentally gets revived by fate when fate was trying to hijack the project destruction simulation lmao.

40. Ad Astra

NOTHING ABOUT HIM. LITERALLY 97% OF THE GODS DON'T HAVE BACKSTORIES BECAUSE THEY JUST SPAWN INTO EXISTENCE LMAOOOOOO. got married to moonlight tho i guess. horray

41. Moonlight

nothing either. got married to ad astra tho i guess. horray

42. RGB

can't think of anything for her yet lmaoooo.

43. Dynikitos

saw a lake when he was like. middle school aged and then dipped his hands into it out of curiosity. eventually gets jumpscared by a bunch of slimey vines coming out of it and crawling onto his arms and then boom. he gets the ability to control them since then.

44. Amekagura

nothing interesting about her sorry girlie :/

45. Spinel

was friends with galactic but also faced pressure back at home. gets sick of it and then runs away. eventually she joins some organization that promised to make her life better or WHATEVER. galactic then found her, confronted her, fought her, cried onto her, and then spinel decides to leave and come back to galactic :)

46. Clarith and Chase

they both went to school once but then some terrorist attack happened with killed nearly all of their classmates AND their homeroom teacher. are both traumatized ever since.

47. Glory Road

nothing special here.

48. Lightning Screw

didn't got much attention as a kid so he acts high and mighty to feel special and superior to other kids and to make himself feel less lonely. grows up with that attitude and only glory road can really make him stop acting like that for a short period of time lmao.

49. Felis

explores memoria unaware of his origins with his companion who i don't have a name for yet fuck. a few things happened which then led to felis finding out that this companion of his is a replica of HIM. AND THAT HE ISN'T REAL. AND FELIS IS THE REAL ONE. felis then has an existential crisis that has never stopped until now.

50. Arcahv

she lives a normal life, though since she has to finish college in astria (the nation ars' family rules over) she had to go back and forth between astria and memoria (she usually visits memoria for summer/winter breaks anyways). one time she was at memoria for winter break she met tempestissimo, and the two constantly meet each other at random times each day. eventually tempest makes an attempt to fucking murder her but that got backfired once testify and the rest of her Allies™ came in. also did i forget to mention that she knows tessi personally? yeah. that.

51. World Ender

wasn't originally a god, but rather a leader to the devils in hell. eventually has a change of heart and wants to do good instead, so they cut off their wings, horns, and tail and went to amazing mighty for guidance and then WOOSH. they're a god now yippeeeeeee

52. Overdose

high school drop out, does drugs, blah blah blah. eventually struggles financially so she turned to streaming to get income.

53. Yamero

depressed, filled with anxiety and self hatred, blah blah blah. eventually found out about streaming and decided to try it out for herself.

54. Spasmodic

all i'm gonna say is that she had history with lea. ok moving on.

55. Kumo

has literally suffered for most of her life and has had enough of it. went batshit insane and killed her abuser and then ran away with a new identity.

56. Temptation

she was made specifically to compliment with aleph i guess. that's all.

57. Equilibrium

became the cantate family's royal guard at the young age of 19. got underestimated at first but then he managed to prove his worth.

58. Ringed Genesis

he's not an angel nor is he a god......and he's not a bird either. sorry genesis. either way nothing too interesting about this man other than the fact that he knows both tessi and arcahv personally and he first met edel when edel was injured. he's so high and mighty when really....he's just some guy 🥲

59. Amazing Mighty

oh mighty.

isn't actually truly a god. he originally was a human being who just suffered a lot back then and wanted some worth but never got it back then. during pandora's whole outrage on making the world "perfect again" he dies. at the same time pandora gets put in a prison realm similar to felys' prison realm to atone to her....uh. sins, i guess????? anyways because pandora—the literal ruler of rhymix at the time—was just. some prisoner now, amazing mighty then took her place and he was just SO CONFUSED AT FIRST. initially acted like his usual pathetic self from when he was a human around the other gods but then they didn't see him as a worthy leader so he had to put on an act. do you see the furina genshin impact inspiration yet. anyways yeah that's all. mighty's is lengthy for a reason lmao.

60. Satellite, Terabyte, and Opia

lumping them all together because all of their backstories takes place in the same place. i would've put perfect here too but i'm gonna be honest, she has a whole other thing going on with her that's separate from these three so yeah. anyways they were science experiments in a lab since they were little. eventually tera got fed up so she and the other kids set up a plan to run away from the lab. plan becomes success, they run away and live freely in the end. sate and tera keep in touch, but since they weren't That close with opia, they don't know how he's doing now either. okay yeah this is also long but ywah

yk what i'm splitting this into parts lmaooooo so yeah hahahaahhdfjfngj

[elexmori-mcl]

30 day facts! 17/30 [Side : Elex]

Elex and Lysander both love the atmosphere around rain and thunderstorms. Their favorite thing to do then is lying in bed, holding each other while listening to the sound of nature outside. Their weekends were often full of activities e. g. hanging out with their old friends (Priya, Iris, Castiel.. ) to let Elex stay connected with them, visiting the farm with Lysander to help his parents, band practise or one of them had to work in their parttime job. Both decided on their own to go this way together and they're happy how each of them includes the other in his daily life. But sometimes in moments like this they just stay in bed the whole day, sleep, kiss, get up to eat / drink something, return, holding each other as tight as possible. Words were not needed, they talked in their own language. Lysander whispered some lyrics in her ear from a new song he had onhis mind while Elex used her fingers to write something on his body.

One could say their relationship was exhausting, but they refused to let go of each other.

"If you find your soul mate, you wouldn't just go the easy way to find your personal happiness. When he suffers, I'll be there for him and I know he would do the same for me. I know that a video chat is not the same as seeing him right in front of me, his voice sounds different and sometimes I just wish he would be right here with me. It's not his fault, mine neither. But the time we spend together is so precious that I can't wait to see him again and jump right into his arms. In these moments I'm the happiest girl on earth."

[pequenaotaku]

Episode 01

"The Airs of Country Life"

Oh, this episode was great! Of course, it was annoying that they kept putting it off so the two could finally meet, it was almost torture, but okay, I understand that this is part of the experience of raising expectations and making things more exciting, giving more sense of urgency even, and I have absolutely nothing against it. Also, the moments with Lysander at the end were so sweet... Better than that, they were longer than they normally are in the UL canon! It was really satisfying!

Anyway, enough with the opinion on the episode and let's go to my headcanon.

(As always, sorry for any spelling mistakes. English is not my first language and I end up relying on Google Translate.)

Margot took advantage of the last recess she would have from college, since it was also her last semester of classes, to travel to the farm and spend the week there.

She was very anxious as it had been almost 5 months since she had last seen her boyfriend.

As planned, Mark would stay at Rosalya and Leigh's apartment as a guest as he was busy with a school event and couldn't miss it for a week, while Margot would meet Rosa in town for coffee and then head to the farm.

Halfway through, between conversations and jokes, Margot tried to call Lysander, as she had already received a call from him before and had not seen, but only gave voicemail. This worried her a little, but Rosalya managed to distract her until they arrived.

At the farm, just after saying goodbye to her friend and thanking her for the company, she knocked on the door of the house, but as there was no answer, she entered without ceremony (luckily Lysandre had forgotten the door open), she knew he wouldn't be upset about it. Margot looked for her boyfriend right after putting her things in the room and, when she couldn't find him, she concluded that she should have gone shopping or doing some delivery.

While waiting for him to return, she spent her time drawing the landscape and talking to the animals (a habit she had acquired because of him).

By the time the sun started to set, she was already seething with worry as there were still no signs of life from him, so she decided to try calling again. With that, she heard a sound coming from inside the house, but soon discovered it came from the cell phone that had been abandoned on the armchair.

She sighed in frustration, thought he had already returned, and tried to go back to the pastures to keep trying to distract herself, but on the way she was stopped by the rabbit Rosa, who suddenly started rubbing against her foot, as a way of greeting. Cracking a smile, she started talking to the little furball as she hadn't seen her all day and was happy to see her again.

Then, she heard a faint laugh behind her and turned around as fast as lightning, even getting a little dizzy from it. Her boyfriend was just a few steps away, watching the scene with grace and affection. They tried to exchange a few words, but they were too emotional for that and, in a soap opera climax, they ran towards each other, hugged and kissed.

After the little shock of the meeting wore off, they walked in and started talking. They had dinner peacefully, talked about college, the farm, their relationship... And after a few exchanges of affection, they went to sleep hugging each other.

[skelemira]

Ooooh whats Rowan's lore? *grabs popcorn*

ALRIGHT BUCKLE UP BUTTERCUPS

Gonna leave it after the cut (if I remember how to do the cut right on mobile lol) so I don't clog up feeds

So Rowan started out as a human. Her family was okay financially, probably lower middle class. Not rich enough to be truly comfortable, but not in a whole lot of danger debt-wise. She had a mother, a father, an older sister named Magnolia (Nolia for short) and a little brother named Cedar (lol do you see a naming pattern here I'm so creative). Her parents were... Okay. They weren't abusive or anything, but they weren't exactly doting. They didn't really have the time to be doting, since they both worked all the time. The siblings all got along really well, though, the type of siblings that stuck together initially because they lacked that true family relationship but slowly morphed into ride or die siblings.

So one day, little 14-year-old Rowan (Nolia was 16, soon to be 17, and Cedar was 10) gets home from school, pretty average, normal day.

She's sitting at the table doing her hw when someone knocks at the door and her parents (it was kind of weird, they were never home at this hour) rush to open it. There stands a man in a lab coat, holding an envelope. Rowan hated him instantly. Something about him seemed wrong.

He talked to her parents for a bit, and her parents asked her to go get Nolia and Cedar with some urgency in their voices. And.... If she was right in placing that tone.... Guilty excitement...?

She got her siblings and they came downstairs.

Turns out her parents had been closer to debt than she realized. So to get some more money and.... Relieve some financial burdens, they sold their kids to a group of scientists needing victi----research participants.

Of course there was a struggle, Nolia stepping up to try and defend her siblings, screaming at her parents, Rowan holding Cedar close while silent tears poured down both their faces.

But the scientist was prepared, and before anyone could react, three men appeared with rags, holding them over the kids' mouths.

She woke up in an empty white room.

Well... If you could call it white. It was more of a dinghy, hardly cleaned beige. These men were not with the government, she could immediately tell that.

Gonna sum up this part bc it involves torture but basically the scientists were experimenting to see if they could turn a human into a monster. They found only Rowan's soul was compatible. They used her siblings to keep her under control..... Only they had dumped Nolia and Cedar on the streets weeks ago. They simply reused footage to "prove" to Rowan they were still there.

They almost succeeded in their experiment. They forced so much magic into her soul that it started to flip.... But it was too much and Rowan flatlined. They dumped her body in the woods, only disappointed that they came so close.

A couple months passed. Her body decayed until only her skeleton remained. The decaying process was helped along by all the magic, which seemed to have concentrated in her bones, morphing them slowly until they were all connected.

She woke up.

She spent several years on the streets. She begged, she stole, and... She drank. Or at least she tried to. (She was allowed into bars because people thought she was a monster, and she wasn't wearing stripes, so that must mean she was an adult.) She quickly discovered that her alcohol tolerance was *legendary*. She drank bars dry having drinking contests with people (that's how she paid for all her drinks) but felt no different than before. Eventually someone dared her to try Everclear, and though she grimaced at the taste, she drank the entire bottle.

The bar was silent.

The taste eventually grew on her, a kind of self-inflicted punishment that soon became a routine, almost a comfort.

Now a good chunk of the next part has to do with my friend's sonas which I'm not going to talk about because they're not my characters, but suffice it to say they were amazing friends to her and helped her recover and get on her feet.

One such friend discovered her sleeping by Grillby's dumpster, and Grillby let her stay the night on his couch, setting up a job at Muffet's for her the next day. She and Muffet became really close friends and finally she started to have a more stable life. (She finds and dates Underlust Sans but that's another story lol which I would be happy to share in another ask~ but y'all these two are so cute plz)

So someone suggests she go see a therapist. Goodness knows she's got some trauma. So she agrees. The name of her therapist seems..... Eerily familiar but she decides to ignore her gut and go anyway. She walks into the therapist's office and---

And sees her mother sitting there, looking professional and well-rested and happy.

She runs.

Yeah so suffice it to say she isn't gonna trust therapy again for a bit lol, and it takes her even LONGER (and some good therapy sessions) to accept the fact that her mother was clearly better off without her and her siblings.

Yeah ya girl has a lot of issues, especially abandonment <3 she is very much a people pleaser and WILL put your needs high above her own. Anything to make you want to stay. Anything to make her feel needed or wanted.

So she's hanging out at Grillby's one day (he and his bartender like to try out different mixes on her, try to see if they can get her to make a face at a cocktail) when a huge party comes in. Rowan automatically shrinks a bit from discomfort because of the big crowd, and she continues her game with Grillby and the bartender (the bartender is my friend's sona that's why I'm not naming them lol). Then she hears something that makes her freeze mid-sip.

"Let's hear it for Magnolia!!!! The first of us to get tied down!" Followed by raucous laugh....ter...

She recognizes that laugh.

She flees the bar, with no explanation to anyone. She catches a glimpse of Nolia, with Cedar by her side, and both of their eyes squint slightly in confusion as she passes by them.

She makes it outside, looking around for where to go, unable to think in her panicked confusion when---

"R......Rowan?"

She goes ramrod straight and slowly turns, hands balled into fists to hide the violent shaking. Nolia bursts into tears, Cedar immediately clinging to her stiff form, his shoulders shaking as bad as her hands.

They.... Recognized her. They.........

Were *happy* to see her.

Slowly she hugged them back and they got to catching up. (So yeah if it wasn't clear Nolia was getting married, they both had survived on the streets together until Nolia was old enough to get a job).

Also something I forgot to mention lol is Rowan had found 2 kittens behind Muffet's, an older girl kitten fiercely protecting a little boy kitten. They immediately latched onto her after she made it clear she wasn't a threat, and she decided to name them after her siblings.

Also things worth noting, she smells like apples, she has magical red translucent hair, her soul wavers from more upside down like a monster's to more upright like a human's, she loves to bake, she is like the DEFINITION of cottagecore, she has magical tattoos on her face that change around to look like the Day of the Dead skulls (the colors get brighter or darker with her moods), and she drinks 2 bottle of everclear every time she goes to Grillby's. The paramedics in the area quickly become used to people calling the ambulance when she drinks (seriously look up everclear it's basically pure alcohol). She eventually stops drinking (not that it was *really* harming her since she had that alcohol tolerance and a body made primarily of magic at this point (plus alcohol isn't really gonna hurt her, she doesn't have kidneys lol) but she wanted to stop anyway. She loves to paint and teaches one of her friends to paint, tending to her friend's garden while her friend paints. She also loves to cook and bake, she eventually helps out with baking at Muffet's, though she refuses to bake the spiders into the pastries. Her scones are things of legend, they sell out as soon as she brings the tray out of the kitchen.

Yeah that was a lot lol and there's little things here and there that I missed so feel free to send in questions about her if you want to know anything! Or if you want to know how Rowan and UL Sans got together (spoiler: they eventually get married and it's so cute)

[melodyalanaroster]

The End Of My Candy Love... And The Future Of This Blog.

I am not surprised that MCL is coming to an end. I knew it had to one day.... Its something that was expected...

What I am surprised is how sudden it is. Love Life was a train wreck, but I was hoping that it would at least have 20 episodes and conclude properly. Now, it feels like the game is getting cut off at the knees. I now, expect that Episode 15 will be a long one. I’m hoping for a proper Epilogue to Lynn’s story, but I highly doubt it will happen. This is how Beemoov works these days. The most we can truly hope for is 1 long episode with a final good set of illustrations of our love interests.

When I signed up for MCL on New Year’s Day of 2013, I was looking for a new site to call home after TinierMe’s deletion and I was about to enter into the second semester of my Senior Year of High School. I had no idea what I really wanted to do with my life. I was still dealing with my mom’s best friend and her reign of terror on my family... I had no real idea what I wanted in a partner... And I had just gotten into the Doctor Who fandom... I fell for Nathaniel because he was the sweet, smart, cool, type. I felt connected to him for being a bookworm with a tortured home life.

I was NOT expecting to spend 8 years in this fandom. I really wasn’t expecting to get this invested and do so much. It has had its highs and lows... But it has been a constant for me during a lot of difficult time. Writing my fanfic and editing pics for it has helped me through my depression. I wasn’t expecting to get to the point where I have a Tumblr blog with 1,300 followers, an Instagram with nearly 300 followers, a Discord Server with over 100 people in it, where I’m the Vice President of the US Nathaniel Fan Club, and where I actually use my DeviantArt! I didn’t expect to find a game where I got so immersed in the universe that I’d drop so much money on unofficial merch, write a MASSIVE fanfic, or wake up early on the days when episodes drop...

I am not deleting this blog, getting rid of my Discord, or stopping work on the last few chapters of Alana’s Canon.

I still like editing and sharing stuff. So, as long as there’s Nathaniel related content to be made and shared, I will still have this blog. I’m proud of it. Sure, no one really reblogs anything anymore... But, after all this time, I still feel too attached to delete this blog....

My Discord Server, Otome Haven, is filled with friends and comrades that I have made over the years. We talk about more than just MCL and we will continue to talk about stuff in there. I’m sure the fandom will stay active in there. Especially considering a lot of players aren’t even done with HSL or UL.... Not to mention the amount of friends I have made in the fandom. I love you guys too much to leave you all when the game ends...

I am NOWHERE near done with my story! I told you guys that I had a handful of blurbs left to write to finish it... Well, that hasn’t changed. In fact, I’ve got a lot more work to finish it than I originally thought.... So, I will still be producing content. I have no idea when it will be finished, but I am doing my best.

Honestly? I’m kind of grateful that MCL is ending... I’m currently moving into my bf’s apartment and intend on being completely moved in by the end of July. I’ll have bills to pay and won’t be able to spend money on any games for a while... The money I’ll be using to get Alana’s Canon turned into at least 1 copy of an actual book is already in my savings account.... I love Nathaniel and highly doubt his ending will be what I want so I can give more time to focus on making sure the ending I write for him and Alana is exactly what I want it to be... When I finish my story, I’ll be able to devote more of my time to what I want to do with my life... Cosplay prop making.

I will still make edits... But, I’ll likely stop writing after I’m done with my story. I have had thoughts for stories involving Sam’s side of the main story, or what would happen if Alana had ended up with either Armin or Castiel.... But, I’m not sure if I’ll actually end up writing them.... Even if I do, I won’t get them made into part of my book.... I will also still be taking part in events... It’ll be nice to return to the game every few months... 

And, who knows? Maybe Chino and Beemoov have a MCL related project in mind for the future... We’ll just have to wait and see.

[cintanna-stuff]

a-z for 🍅 stay safe✨

So many Castiel requests 🤣 He definitely is a popular boy, I love him too.

 Also stay safe you all 💕

NSFW alphabet for Red tomato head (Castiel)

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Castiel is very busy so most of the times he’s tired, so he’s actually the one who falls asleep faster. However, Castiel is very protective, Candy’s well being is one of the most important things for him, so he won’t fall asleep if he sees there’s something wrong.

B = Body Part (His favourite body part of their partners)

Hehe, obviously her boobs. He mocked her saying she had no boobs in high school when actually he had a huge crush on her, doesn’t matter if you were his route or not. Let’s all admit Candy has the most perfect boobs in UL and LL, obviously Castiel loves them.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum)

Guess what, he also likes to finish on her breasts (I’ll elaborate on this later). I’ve something else dirty to say about this; during his last days on tours, he usually stops touching himself to wait for when he sees his Candy, so he makes a bit of a mess when he finally gets home...

D = Dirty Secret

He’s always had dirty thoughts about Candy, Always. Doesn’t matter the route.

E = Experience (How experienced are they?)

Castiel has always been experienced. Back in HS he wasn’t a virgin, in UL he obviously knows what he’s doing in bed even though I believe he chose his few one night stands carefully before seeing Candy again.

F = Favourite Position

Castiel likes taking her while she’s lying on her side, with one leg hooked on his shoulder while he stands on his knees between her legs, to look at her face. He also likes doggy style since he can get rough and fast and also appreciate her backside.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in bed? Or are the humorous?)

Not goofy but he does joke a little sometimes or mostly teases her

H = Hair (Are they groomed down there? Does the carpet match the drapes?)

We all know the carpet don’t match the drapes in this case. His hair down there is black. So Castiel usually shaves down there, but sometimes he’s so busy he doesn’t have time for it and just let’s it grow. Still he keeps it short.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, are they romantic?)

Castiel is very much in love with Candy, he also likes to have sex and isn’t good with words usually, so he puts a lot of efforts into showing how much he loves her during sex. He’s passionate. He also kisses her a lot, everywhere; on her lips, nose, cheeks, he runs his lips up and down and licks and sucks where he knows she likes it. 

He might say some romantic things in the heat of the moment and right after finishing: “I love you” “I missed you so much” “My little girl” “How greedy”

J = Jack Off

Before being with Candy or when he’s on tour for a long time, he does it usually. He has his needs and has no problem relieving himself.

K = Kink

He’s passionate and willing to experiment, but atm I don’t think he has any particular kink.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

In private and preferably indoors, if they’re in an isolated place it could be outside. He’d die if they got caught by paparazzis.

From here, he’d take her anywhere, specially if they haven’t seen each other for a long time. When Castiel comes from his tours, he’s x10 hornier than usual, or maybe more than horny he really needs to be with her, so any safe place works.

M = Motivation (What turns him on? What gets him going?)

Sexy lingerie (black), a nice cleavage. Candy in general, he’s Candysexual.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do.)

No sharing, no harming, no risk of being caught, besides that he’d be willing to try anything with her.

O = Oral (Do they like to give or receive? Are they skilled?)

Oh, he likes to give. He so much likes to give. This man lives to eat Candy’s pussy and he’s incredibly good at it, we’re all aware of it after that one night stand. I believe Castiel eating Candy out was one of the best and hottest scenes BV has written (if we forget about the dam). This man loves to bury his face between her tights. He not only knows how it is done, he also knows to set up the mood for it.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual?)

Most of the times he’s vigorous, passionate and hungry.

Q = Quickie

Like I said before, he will need Candy nonstop when he comes back from one of his tours, so many quickies in many places will happen. 

R = Risk (Do they take risks? Are the willing to experiment?)

Yes he’s willing to experiment. In fact, before meeting Candy again he wasn’t too much into girls riding him, but he loves Candy doing it and worshiping him from time to time. Also loves when she’s horny and starts being demanding with him.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)

Like I said, he’s usually very busy and very tired. But if he hasn’t seen her for a while he could go all night almost non stop, after so much time he just wants to drown in her.

T = Toy (Do they own toys?)

Yep, I think he could use them to tease her, I can already see his excuses. “This? someone gave it to me... we can try it if you want to 👀”

U = Unfair (How much do they like to tease?)

He’s a big tease. Loves seeing her moaning because of him and begging for him, to torture her with pleasure.

V = Volume

Not very loud. He doesn’t usually moan, only sometimes when he comes. For the most part he grunts and does some mild dirty talk.

“Look at you, so greedy and so beautiful”

W = Wild Card

Sometimes when they’re watching movies they have long make out sessions. In some occasions those won’t even get sexual, just passionate kissing, caressing each other and cuddling there under the blanket, until Pancake also wants love and jumps on top of them.

X = X-ray (What’s going on down there?)

He’s actually pretty average but has a good girth. 

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

High when he was younger and then average, except for Candy, then he gets horny more easily.

Z = Zzz (How quickly did they fall asleep?)

Yep well, if he’s very tired he’ll fall asleep quickly. Satisfied, happy, in a warm bed with the love of his life after making love, yep he’s going to be sleeping in no time.

[bnha-scenerios-imagines]

I'm not sure if you do really dark stuff so tell me if you aren't going to do it. Can I get Headcanon on bakugou, Todoroki, and kirishima finding out that their lover/friend was kidnapped and each day they don't find them the kidnappers would send a picture of their lover/friend getting tortured in a dark twisted way like poking sharp needles into their body or getting dropped multiple times from high places. I need to calm my mind down... I'm sorry if this is disturbing for you...

Warning: Dark themes ahead. 

I hope you don’t mind, I didn’t make it as dark as you wanted but I tried to meet halfway if that’s alright. I also made it with a kind of happy ending. 

Bakugou

When he sees the first video, showing you getting kidnapped, it’s shown on all the TV’s, computer screens, phone screens. Everyone sees it. It’s a statement, a move to show that the heroes, that Bakugou, isn’t as strong as they all claim to be. 

He’s beyond angry, hands shaking. He’s both fuming with rage and shaking with fear. They took you from him.

The next video is sent privately to him. To his phone. He’s gritting his teeth as he sees you laying on the floor unmoving. 

He tells his company what happened and shows them the evidence. 

He does what he can, tapping into cell towers, computers, your phone. He gets nothing.

The updates on your situation keep coming and he just gets angrier and angrier. His mood worsens and no one wants to even talk with him.  

He can’t bear to look at the videos or pictures anymore. He completely hands his phone over to his supervisor and tells them to watch it. He’s just done. 

He doesn’t stop working until they find you. He spends sleepless nights looking over everything they've found, spending days looking for you.

When he does finally find you he beats the person to a pulp. They can barely stand without some part of their body collapsing on them. No one tries to stop him, they hide what he did under the mat and instead cuff the villain and throw him into a police car while Bakugou moves to untie you.

He doesn’t let go of you, holding you tight against him as you sob into his chest. He apologizes to you in a hushed tone as he tells you he’s here. He’s here and he won’t let you go.

Not over his dead body.

Todoroki

 When he first sees the video of you being kidnapped his quick kinda... just starts up on its own. He’s freezing his phone and burning the carpet at the same time.

He’s already quite intimidating so the fact that he seems even more stern and stiff than before makes everyone avoid him completely. 

He’s angry he couldn’t save you. He’s scared that he won’t find you and even if he does you may not even be alive by then. His mind is racing with scenarios of what could be happening to you right now. What that villain is doing to you.

Everytime he gets another picture or video of you being abused he feels his left side heat up and his right side cool to the point it’s unbearable. 

He doesn’t spend much time sleeping, when he does it’s only for a bit and then he’s back at work, trying to find you. He asks for footage from blocks down buildings that you could be in. He watches your kidnapping video multiple times, hoping to find something that could lead him to you. 

When he finds the villain who’s been hurting you, sending videos of you to torture him, he has to hold himself back from just, freezing him. Instead, he knocks him unconscious, his fire burning his side as he throws himself into your bruised body.

Your hands shake as soon as he rips the ropes from your limbs, holding you close, running his hands through your hair, trailing his hands down your face. He missed you, spent so many nights driving himself crazy just to find you.

He doesn’t let you go, always touching you in some way. His hand holding yours on the way to the hospital, his bad pressed against the wall next to your room as he waits for the word to go in and his fingers pressing against your pulse as you smile up at him despite being bloodied, broken, and bruised.  

Kirishima

He’s angry with himself, his hands clenched so hard that blood began to pool in the palm of his hands. The video played once again, rage running through his veins. 

As others tried to consul the optimistic redhead others stayed clear. Not so much in fear but more so to give him space, time to think about what had happened.

You meant so much to him. You were his life, his future. He wanted to have a future with you. He wanted to get married, maybe have kids, he hasn’t decided on that yet.

As more videos and photos of you being beaten and bruised flood his phone every day his anger rises. He can’t even focus. He has to turn his phone off and force himself to take cold showers, thinking about possible places you could be. 

He has one of those stereotypical red yarn boards linking to pictures of where you’ve last been seen, where you were kidnapped and where he could go from there. 

He can’t sleep, mostly moving on energy drinks and adrenaline. 

When he does eventually confront who had hurt you it’s a brutal fight, he goes all out. He stops after breaking the man’s nose. 

He knows it doesn’t do justice for what he’s done for you but it brings a sense of relief when he sees him and handcuffs.

He opens the door to the small room you were shoved into and the way you cower into the corner just simply breaks his heart. Your clothes are torn and burnt, your hands dirtied and bleeding. You're bruised all over but when you look up to see him standing there, the light falling over him like he’s some sort of angel. It gives you enough strength to stand up. 

Kirishima picks you up at that moment, placing kisses all over your face as he holds you close, your arms wrapped around him as you allow yourself to freely cry.

He doesn’t leave you after that, not even letting you go until a doctor has to examine you and even then, he holds your hand. 

[efrmellifer]

Triad

One thing she never understood was why people… whispered.

Etien knew that others had come before her, that before she had come along, there had been more between Estinien and Aymeric than there was now.

In practice, anyhow. And how long ago that was didn’t make a difference to her.

She felt like she sounded fake when she said “as long as Aymeric is happy,” but she meant it. She was content to have a place in his heart, whether it was a share or the whole portion.

For all his calling her a breath of spring, she was the one who felt the full warmth of the sun under his gaze.

So let someone else sit in the sunshine while she slew lightwardens and primals and all manner of ill-fated life. Gods be praised it was someone so wonderful doing it.

She wasn’t stupid; she knew her heart. She knew her feelings toward Estinien fluctuated from “an ally, a helper, and a dear friend besides,” to making a very short list of the things she wouldn’t give to tangle her fingers in his long light hair and remove the smug smile off his lips with her own.

If she wanted to selfishly guess, all three of them had this same issue. Feelings blurred and muddled by obligations of bonds. Guilt, maybe.

But she also knew that she had never been loved by anyone the way Aymeric loved her, would never love anyone else the way she did him. And not just because each time is unique.

This was her one reward for her work, for the pain of being the shoulders the yoke fell squarely on.

She could never give that up.

But allowing Aymeric to indulge the full breadth of his desires was no bother. As long as he loved her. As long as he was honest.

She couldn’t blame him, when she kept leaving him alone for so long. He needed comfort when her arms were full of other burdens.

She owed Estinien massive amounts of thanks, in fact, for keeping Aymeric happy when she could not, so far away.

Gods, it did make the ache worsen, though. She wasn’t protectively jealous, was only slightly envious. She wished it were her, though.

She wanted to hear those sighs that turned to whines, desperate huffs that she was all too familiar with because bless him, he wanted more. Bless him from his top curl to his curling toes. Kiss him over the same range, while you’re at it, she mused into the dark of another night not where she belonged—in his bed, in his arms, in his overwhelmingly loving embrace.

But it wasn’t to be.

She was positive—sure as the snows—that Aymeric had done nothing, would do nothing, without her express permission. And she would freely give it!

Except.

No matter how hard Etien tried to put her past behind her, to start over as a new woman in her new home with her new family, the damned facts and memories and fears lingered, tortured her at the strangest times. And so it was that one Tia’s dishonesty had made it so any play at polyamory would have to be done in her line of sight. In truth, she didn’t have to be involved. She just had to be there. Not even in the room (though sick as it may sound, she might like to watch), just in the home, in Ishgard, on the same godsdamned world.

Thinking about this was just upsetting her, just reminding Etien how badly she missed Aymeric—her husband. How she ached for his touch. Nothing sexual was even required at this point, just a nimble finger sliding over her markings, trailing down her nose.

And she wanted to hold him, too, slot her arms around him and feel his weight on her, the pressure of them both breathing so deep. Eventually, they would synchronize so they seemed to share one breath, passing it between then as he inhaled with her exhale. Balanced. Intimate. A little dance only they shared.

...Unless they didn’t.

Etien wanted to stop working herself into a lather over it. Aymeric was one of the best men alive, and he wouldn’t lie to her, go behind her back, hurt her.

...But they had a history she wasn’t a part of.

She took a deep breath to calm herself. There could be a thrill to seeking the knowledge Estinien possessed. She let herself imagine it.

There the three of them were, them in some state of undress, or perhaps completely bared already. Aymeric’s excitement would be plain, even now. Etien did so enjoy that about him. Some people criticized it, but she loved that he was so candid and unvarnished, especially when it came to her.

As for herself, she would be in that nightie from Tataru, the blue silk one.

And then, she would lean in, seductive as she could manage, and whisper to Estinien, “show me how to please him like you do.”

He’d start to guide her hands, direct her in a voice low and rumbling, telling her what to do, until Aymeric panted out “it’s too different. I like… I like what you do to me, too, Etien. I want it.”

She’d preen, probably, glad of that. But even better… think of the possibilities if she and Estinien worked their separate wonderful ways at once.

There was a history between Aymeric and Estinien, yes, and she wasn’t a part of it. But she was definitely part of this, now.

Her eyes fluttered shut as she let herself change fantasies—this one was just about Aymeric, about holding him, skin against skin in the embers of the moments afterwards, where all was warm and hazy and slow and no one existed but them.

She would drop every burden, every job she was juggling, set down this new bow (nice as it was) to be near him. This bed was nice, but it didn’t compare to how much more comfortable she felt lying next to Aymeric, able to reach out and brush back his bangs and smile, so madly in love she could scream.

She sighed. A choice of herself and Estinien didn’t have to be an either-or, but she didn’t know how she felt about the prospect right now, other than homesick and wishing she didn’t have to think about the possibility of failing Aymeric so badly that he needed someone else to take her place in bed, even if Estinien was wonderful, and even if Etien couldn’t imagine anyone else fit to do the job.

With a decisive nod to no one, she chose not to. Yet. In a fit of calmed distress, however, she attempted a linkpearl call. No need to gather paper and pen and call for Feo Ul. She just hoped it worked.

The line crackled the whole time, but it connected.

“H’lo?”

“Aymeric?” she said, aware her voice had wavered.

“Etien! Is aught amiss? Are you in Ishgard?”

“I’m okay. I’m still on the First, despite how much I’d prefer to be in Ishgard. I just… I had a question, but I probably woke you. It’s late here, too.”

“There are worse things to wake to than my beloved wife’s voice hitting my ears again.”

She smiled. “I miss you, Aymeric.”

“And I you. Desperately. What was your question?”

“It’s silly, but… do you feel the need to replace me while I’m away?”

He gasped, only just audibly. “I could never replace you, even if I wanted to. Which I do not.”

“...All right. Thank you.”

“Etien?” He didn’t need to say any more.

“A fit of insecurity, I suppose,” she explained. “That helped. I’m sorry.”

“No need. Goodnight?”

“Goodnight,” she cooed, almost purring. “Sweet dreams, Aymeric.”

“Dream of you, then.”

She laughed, taken by surprise by that. “If it will make you happy. Sleep well. I love you.”

There came an “I love you, too,” followed by silence on the end of the line. She settled back into her bed again.

Maybe someday, there could be an addition, rather than a replacement. But for now, she didn’t want, and didn’t think Aymeric wanted, more than what they had already.

For her part, it already filled her heart to bursting.

[wickednerdery]

Title: FrostBitten: Shiver Author: @wickednerdery Fandom: Marvel Pairing/character: Loki x Reader x Jotun!OC Rating: Explicit Summary: “Trust me.” Notes: This is a series/multi-chapter fic - Masterlist Here. Ulfr is a Frost Giant, more clearly so than Loki, and “played” by Lee Pace. The whole thing in general is dark, this piece (which picks up right after the last one) is quite smutty, pretty awkward, all dub-con, and has Loki using slurs. For all that and length it gets a “Read More”.

You were a fool to think Loki would not snake his away around your agreement, that he couldn’t find ways to torture without touching...keep hands on you, but malice for the other. Fucking you in front of others was nothing new, Loki forever wishes a great audience, but this is not fucking. And this audience was of just one.

“Say my name,” Loki mutters against your lips, your neck, your chest. Over and over, never satisfied no matter how often you oblige. He must sense it, that you’re not there. Your body reacts - nipples perk, skin pricks up, breath shortens - under his skilled mouth, yet you haven’t the true presence of mind to play along. Your thoughts are focused on the other.

Ulfr sits in utter silence, watching without fully taking in the scene. He can’t. He needs his head right, his desires - good and bad - under control. For your safety if for no other reason. He saw it coming with the “invite” and separated immediately; remains detached, but aware.

Loki ghosts a possessive bite over your belly that causes you to tense. It’s too intimate right now, awkward without knowing the father. His chuckle oozes as he glances up. “I hardly think a single kiss will affect our child.” It’s between tease and provocation. “What?” He mocks your shock, smirks as he raises legs over his shoulder. “Honestly think I wasn’t aware? My, but you are such a foolish little Midgardian. Your good fortune you’re also delicious...”

Tongue gives a single, slow, lick between your folds and your head falls back without response. So the tongue laps again, this time slower still, flicking fast at the end to get the desired response. Your arch, your moan, your juices flowing for him to taste. You want to look to Ulfr, to see if there’s anything within his stillness, but don’t dare. It’s too dangerous; safer now just to relax, to let Loki have his way, and attempt to speak later...always later.

“If only you’d the presence of mind to taste her when you had the chance.” Loki laughs his taunt across your sex as two fingers enter to elicit a moan. “Not that your kind holds any interest in such things.” Loki indulges in overly greedy moans, suckling at your clit until you shake. “Tell me,” he moves to kiss his way back up, fingers never stopping. “Did you even come for him...Come for him as you always do for me?”

You don’t dare answer, confess you had so intensely you’d passed out. Eyes shift to Ulfr and they catch. His spirit seems to light up, but face remains expressionless. Then his eyes drop away.

“Perhaps we should let him try again, what do you think?” The god’s mouth slams yours to prevent any answer. Fingers slip out, up to your clit, and near abuse it until your crying in need for what simply will not come. He slows as he pulls from the kiss, his grin vicious. “It’s not as if there’s risk of a child with mine already growing inside you.”

Finally Ulfr announces his alertness in a reply. “I can’t.”

Loki’s on his feet, leaving you to cover yourself. “Oh yes you can.” Eyes narrow as he closes in on the other. “You think me as foolish as she. Think I’ve not kept my eye on you, my senses open to your abilities? I know full well you can touch her now.” He sneers down at Ulfr. “You should be grateful that I even allow you to look in her direction, she is the future mother of a prince! Your prince!”

The Frost Giant slowly tilts his head up, then back down. “I will do as my king commands me. If he is generous, I will take the gift given.”

“This isn’t a gift, it’s a reminder of what you cannot have without me. That, as much as you want, you will never truly have her. You will never have children with her while I’m having the first of many.” He smirks wide, gestures Ulfr to stand. “And you need to be happy with whatever leftovers, scraps, I bestow on you, ergi.”

Whatever air’s left in the room leaves; it’s all tension, a swell of hate from Ulfr that nearly drowns you as Loki stands against it in calm amusement. You attempt to get up, slip away, but the bed creaks an alarm and both men turn to you.

The god laughs. “Come now, my dear little bold one, I’ll not let him take you as he did before. I’ll ensure he’s gentle...” Loki turns back to a glaring Ulfr. “Considerate of our child growing within you.” It’s meant to remind you of how dangerously aggressive and uncontrollable Ulfr is; that an animal’s about to fuck you and only Loki can keep you safe. And, if Ulfr isn’t aggressive, it’ll show just how much he truly cares. The offer, in Loki’s eyes, is a win-win move.

You too see the clever cruelty in it. Loki’s not just exposing Ulfr’s increased skills in magic - and how aware he is of them - but potentially his true feelings for you. You don’t fear Ulfr will be harsh, you fear he’ll be so gentle Loki finds it a reason to attack as he did before.

"Well?” Loki gives an expectant expression.

Ulfr take a deep breath, gathers his many thoughts and calculations, and acts. Approaches you slow, eyes not quite catching, and yet you get the sense he’s calm rather than unsure. That he’s thinking of his next move and those four ahead of that. But all he says is. “I won’t hurt you.”

You didn’t believe him last time - you’d hoped, but didn’t believe - you do now though.

“Take off your clothes,” Loki orders as he slips into the chair once occupied by the other. “If you’re going to be with the mother of my child, you’ll do it properly, not like the rutting beast you are.”

It’s purely for humiliation, but Ulfr doesn’t hesitate. He strips down completely and, in truth, it’s awing. Those lines you felt you now see rising across his body; the way the vines grow, entwine, swirl, from the tree at his center. The image of a wolf prowling underneath. Ridges even spiral around cock as the mere sight of you seems to arouse. Only when your eyes meet does he seem to show discomfort. “May I approach?”

Mute, eyes still taking in his full form, you nod.

He does, slow and steady, hands out at his side. You slip back, he sits. So close you feel chilled breath on your face, can see his ridges almost twitch, Ulfr mutters into your mouth. “Trust me.” His lips hit soft before you can respond, but you show your trust in opening to him.

The feel of Loki’s eyes on you remains, but you continue your attempts to ignore him. To force him to the back of your mind. The task is made easier with Ulfr’s hand cooling your thigh, soothing your sex where Loki had been so unforgiving just moments before. Whether due to Loki or the baby or simply being of sound mind now Ulfr’s touch is tentative. He breaks kisses only to return to them, hand fluttering between thighs and fingers shaking as they brush clit. With him your reaction comes quicker, more naturally, with a shudder and sigh.

“Do not drag this out,” Loki snipes suddenly, smiles tensely. “I assure you, she’s plenty prepared.”

There’s a split-second look that suggests amusement, maybe victory, before Ulfr encourages you back onto the bed. “Trust me,” he repeats even as his own nerves show. A slight shake in his lips against yours, frequent glances away - whether to the side at Loki or merely down - as he shifts to hide you both by sheets.

Loki chuckles. “Nice try.” They fade away along with the remnants of your clothing. “You’ll not hide yourselves from me. After all, how can I ensure nothing will become of my child if I cannot see what’s being done to its mother?”

The taunt sets off your anger more than Ulfr’s as you deepen the kiss, put arms around the Frost Giant’s neck to pull him to you. He’s cool, but there’s no risk of a burn and, the longer you touch the warmer he becomes...melting against you as fingers tangle up in his hair.

“Trust me.” You lift leg to hide Ulfr’s initial entry, to better feel the length of ribbed cock sliding in and filling cunt. The slowing down makes it feel so much better and you moan into his mouth, tightening muscles on instinct.

It feels so much different this way; strangely heightened and almost unnervingly intense. Being face-to-face, looking into each other’s eyes, is not Jotun custom and nearly throws Ulfr beyond his comfort. It isn’t until he feels your other hand slip down, fingers trace along curling vines over hip, waist, and ribs, that he relaxes. Begins to move.

You bite lip, hold back a moan of his name, still very aware you’re being watched. That Loki may find this amusing until he doesn’t. Ulfr’s name is turned into just a soft huff, “Ul, ul...” as he keeps slow, shallow, in thrusts.

“See, my dear bold girl,” Loki’s voice snakes in. “He’s too frightened to even fuck properly now. He’s nothing but a rimy little pup.”

Something in the word causes Ulfr to flinch, as if struck, as he looks away. “Sorry,” he mutters.

“Watch our bodies,” you offer, recalling his preference to observe. “My hand...” Fingers at ribs move in, feel along branches at his chest, then down towards his roots.

"I imagine you wish the child yours...” Loki continues, delighting in the reactions. The insecurity, the weakness. The pain. It feeds the worst parts that the Tesseract and Mind Stone have brought forth in him. It reasserts he’s the king, the god, he needs to be. “But you'll not have her without my child already growing inside. Now finish my leftovers before I change my mind and pull them from you forever.”

Ulfr gives a growl as you reach the strangest twists in his lines; the section of his lower stomach where roots turn to wolf. His breath catches, lips crash to you, as desire begins to override doubt. Hand runs down, wraps one leg around his waist as you wrap the other yourself. Pace remains steady, manageable, but the thrusts are full and deep. Arm bracing by your head curls protectively, hand brushing back hair from your face.

Now you can truly feel that want building, going beyond hope into reality. You arch, grip the back of Ulfr’s neck with only his moan as reaction. Other hand circles to grab ass, trace ridges and allow him deeper as your body shakes under him. “K-Keep going...fuck...” Loki’s all but faded for both of you. If he watches, you don’t notice. If he speaks, you don’t hear. You only feel Ulfr filling you, hear Ulfr grunting and groaning your name.

“C-c-come.” It’s half order, half beg, half warning as it spills from his lips only moments before he does. There’s that same rush of him filling you, overflowing, but this time it’s warm. He’s warm with hand slipping down to join yours in rubbing clit and finally, blessedly, throwing you into over into orgasm with his name a cry on your lips seconds later.

“ENOUGH!!” Loki’s up, full-armored, face twisted in crazed loathing. His eyes glow a murderous blue in time with the scepter now in his hand. Enough of this game, of all games...enough of Ulfr, such foolish rivalries (certainly not those he may well lose!) are beneath him as king.

Instinct has you curling around, up into, Ulfr all the more. Arms and legs wrapping around as much for protection as to protect. You hear him faintly request you trust him once more before light smashes the bed to pieces.

The god cackles his victory as he goes around, expecting to find you and only ashes of his rival...but he finds neither. There’s nothing but bits of cloth, splinters of bed, and shards of shattered lamp.

“You honestly think touching her is the only thing I’ve learned these last few months?” Ulfr leans against the doorway behind him, dressed for combat with Eye of Agamotto around his neck and malicious grin on his face.

Loki raises his scepter to strike once again, but the other is quicker. The arctic blast strikes at the god’s center of mass with such force it slams him against wall and window, cracking one and shattering the other...

Like I said, picks up right after the last piece. As you can see Loki’s back on that old ‘let’s torment Ulfr’ shit, he just thinks he found out a way to do it while keeping within the confines of his agreement with the reader. Also, clearly, he’s become a bit too cocky (no pun intended) for his own good, lol! I cut the piece off where I did for fear the whole rest of the series would pour out of me more than anything, LOL!! (What’s happened, Ulfr’s trick, should be revealed in the next piece.)

Special Note: Ergi is an Old Norse (noun) insult meaning “unmanliness” or ”effeminacy”, but more specifically to be the bottom/submissive in a gay male coupling. It’s somewhat considered the equivalent of the gay slur that starts with f (you know the one). And, for super ironic sake, Ergi was also related to men practicing Seiðr (magic), which was generally considered women’s stuff.

(Gif made from two found on Google!)

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[libertariantaoist]

News Roundup 6/3/19

By Kyle Anzalone

US News

A new app allows users to record interactions with police by voice command. [Link]

An Indiana judge orders a police force to repay $80,000 that was confiscated from a driver. The money was taken without charging the man with a crime. [Link]

Andrew Bacevich explains how the war party broke Trump of his good foreign policy instincts. [Link]

The Pentagon is offering an $11 million contract to European firms for small drones that soldiers can carry with them. [Link]

Assange

The UN rapporteur on torture says, “In 20 years of work with victims of war, violence and political persecution I have never seen a group of democratic States [US, UK, Sweden, and Ecuador] ganging up to deliberately isolate, demonise and abuse a single individual [Julian Assange] for such a long time and with so little regard for human dignity and the rule of law,” [Link]

The legacy media is beginning to understand the importance of the case against Julian Assange. [Link]

Patrick Lawrence explains the importance of the Iraq War Logs. Chelsea Manning leaked the documents to Wikileaks. [Link]

Europe

The man who planted several bombs in France that wounded 13 people claims to be a member of IS.  [Link]

Pompeo says the US may cut data sharing agreements with Germany if Germany doesn’t fall in line with the US ban on Huawei. [Link]

Protesters prevent a Saudi ship from receiving arms at a French port. [Link]

China

In Acting Def Sec Shanahan’s first major speech he said the US will take a more assertive position against Chinese interests in Taiwan and the South China Sea. [Link]

China says the US ‘is playing with fire’ by increasing its activity in the Taiwan Strait.  [Link]

Recent moves by the US are increasing are part of the increasing tensions between China and Taiwan. [Link]

Israel/Palestine

Israeli forces kill a Palestinian teenager climbing a fence separating the West Bank and Israel. [Link]

A Palestinian stabbed two Israelis and was shot dead by Israeli forces. [Link]

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[krinsbez]

Revised History of the DCU: Krypton, Part IV

As the great Jax-Ur predicted, even with the Evil Three out of the   picture, their followers continued to be a problem, launching a campaign  of terror attacks. The job of rooting out these terrorists is given to Dru-Zod, a Major in the Military Guild, one of their rising stars. Major Zod's primary weapon in this effort is Jor-El, who's role in stopping the Evil Three was never made public, allowing him to continue to  infiltrate their network even as he studies under Jax-Ur. Years pass,  and it becomes apparent to Jor-El that the terrorists' new leader is  someone in the space program; for this reason, he and Major Zod bring  the astronaut Lara Lor-Van into the investigation. Working side-by-side on this dangerous assignment naturally builds a   great deal of intimacy between Jor-El and Lara, and the pair soon fall   in love. Their romance does not distract them form the job at hand,   though and they eventually discover that the terrorist leader is none other than Jax-Ur! Not only that, he's used the resources allotted to  the space program to build a cache of devastating doomsday weapons with which to blackmail the Kryptonian people into submission. Fortunately, Jor-El is able to destroy these weapons...but not before Jax-Ur blows up  the moon of Wegthor. Yes, the one with a colony on it. All 500 colonists die instantly, of course...and some would say that  they were the lucky ones, spared the horrors to come. Because the   massive amounts of debris from Wegthor overwhelms the meteor-deflecting satellites, even causing the network to shut down completely in some  areas. To make matters worse, the device Jax-ur used left all the debris incredibly radioactive, enough to overwhelm even robust Kryptonian genes. Thousands die from the initial strikes; millions more will die   from the radioactive fallout and devastating weather that follows when   the weather-control machines are likewise overwhelmed by the strain of   dealing with this ecological catastrophe. The capital city of Kryptonopolis is especially hit hard, and the entire apparatus of   government has to be moved, lock, stock, and barrel to the city of Kandor, Krypton's biggest, wealthiest city (the Manhattan to Kryptonopolis' Washington). Jax-Ur's trial offers further shocks as the once-revered scientist drops  the facade and reveals his true self; a megalomaniacal sociopath, hellbent on world domination and utterly lacking in empathy for anyone else, forget about remorse. He reveals that the Evil Three had in fact been his creatures all along, and most disturbingly of all, that for decades he had been exposing his students to a device of his own creation that alters the neurons; the intent was to allow him to control  them, but the result is that each of them bears a seed of amoral   madness. He further declares that prior to his capture, he activated a   device that will slowly cause many of these seeds to sprout. It is obvious that only the harshest sentence will suffice. Yet, no prison can be trusted to hold such a towering but malevolent intellect, and the peaceful sleep of suspended animation is insufficient punishment; for the first time in generations, the idea of execution is bruited about. Fortunately, before that most drastic step has to be taken, Jor-El reveals a new invention, a device that can send people into another dimension that he dubs "the Phantom Zone", where Jax-Ur will simultaneously be alive and completely unable to harm anyone. The sentence is carried out, and Jor-El and Dru-Zod, the latter promoted to the rank of Colonel, are acclaimed as Krypton's greatest heroes. It's a  great day for Jor-El, but it is bittersweet; for among those damaged by the fallout is his beloved Lara, who is rendered sterile. Feverishly, he  begins devoting himself to finding a cure for her condition. One year later, the martial artist Faora Hu-Ul, one of Krypton's most renowned athletes, is arrested for abducting, torturing, and murdering 26 men. Though she is soon imprisoned in the Phantom Zone, the people of  Krypton cannot rest easy, for the first of Jax-Ur's Seeds has sprouted. And she will not be the last...

[marvelstars]

Stypefy... He missed; the jet of red light soared past Snape’s head; Snape shouted, “Run, Draco!”and turned. Twenty yards apart, he and Harry looked at each other before raising their wands simultaneously. “Cruc —” But Snape parried the curse, knocking Harry backward off his feet before he could complete it; Harry rolled over and scrambled back up again as the huge Death Eater behind him yelled, “Incendio!” Harry heard an explosive bang and a dancing orange light spilled over all of them: Hagrid’s house was on fire. “Fang’s in there, yer evil —!” Hagrid bellowed. “Cruc —” yelled Harry for the second time, aiming for the figure ahead illuminated in the dancing firelight, but Snape blocked the spell again. Harry could see him sneering. “No Unforgivable Curses from you, Potter!” “Stupe —” “Blocked again and again and again until you learn to keep your mouth shut and your mind closed, Potter!” sneered Snape, deflecting the curse once more. “Now come!” he shouted at the huge Death Eater behind Harry. “It is time to be gone, before the Ministry turns up —” “Impedi —” But before he could finish this jinx, excruciating pain hit Harry; he keeled over in the grass. Someone was screaming, he would surely die of this agony, Snape was going to torture him to death or madness — “No!” roared Snape’s voice and the pain stopped as suddenly as it had started; Harry lay curled on the dark grass, clutching his wand and panting; somewhere overhead Snape was shouting, “Have you forgotten our orders? Potter belongs to the Dark Lord — we are to leave him! Go! Go!” "Kill me then,” panted Harry, who felt no fear at all, but only rage and contempt. “Kill me like you killed him, you coward —” “DON’T —” screamed Snape, and his face was suddenly demented, inhuman, as though he was in as much pain as the yelping, howling dog stuck in the burning house behind them —”CALL ME COWARD!”

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

The first time I read this I was as in denial about Dumbledore´s death just like Harry was and Snape culpability of it, and this part of the book gave me a lot to think about so at the end of it I was sure there was a reason why all this happened.

I mean here we have:

Harry understably angry beyond measure and trying to use curses and unforgivables to stop Snape, who instead of attacking him back not only blocks all his curses but chides Harry about the use of unforgivables

Tells Draco to Run until he can dissaparate so he´s safe.

Tells Harry that he needs to "keep his mouth shut and his mind closed" so use non-verbal spells and oclumency if he want´s to fight on equal footing with him.

Stops a deatheater from using a crucio on Harry and tells him instead that they have to scape before the ministry gets there.

Finally when Harry says to Snape to "kill him like he killed Dumbledore" Snape totally losses it, his face looks demented and in great pain"

This day was a nightmare for Harry and Severus:

From Harry´s pov

Snape just killed Dumbledore after Albus begged him, the leader of the Order, the only person Voldemort fears is gone.

Harry feels guilty, he thinks it was his fault Dumbledore was so vulnerable in the first place.

Has the fantasy of fixing it by having Snape and Dumbledore in the same place.

At the end of the book Harry feels like, after the death of his parents, Sirius and Dumbledore, there is no one else to defend him from Voldemort so he has to become an adult and deal with this alone.

Harry is also developing survivors guilt syndrome and this even before the battle of Hogwards.

From Severus pov:

He became public enemy #2 for the Order of the Phoenix after Voldemort

He just killed the only person who was his friend and knew the entire truth.

He still has to tell Harry he needs to die so that he can defeat Voldemort.

He has to help get the deatheaters out of the school before they kill someone else.

He has to protect both Harry and Draco from all this.

He can´t tell no one of this facts.

He still has to keep his double agent part to help Harry and the Order from the inside.

In short, imo, Severus was having a breakdown at the end of this and still he has to keep a "happy face" for Voldemort.

I find interesting how dark the second and six books are, specially since those have great Slytherin symbology. The lies, deceptions and mistery are stronger in those books even when they allow the biggest victories for Harry.

[the-crippled-god]

Ys Origin

Alright, this one was pretty damn good. I have some complaints, mostly technical issues with the PC version (they're all quite minor), and some issues with the scope of the gameplay. So, we'll start with the bad bits to get them out of the way.

These are PC version only issues, as far as I can tell, screenshots of the switch version and others that also support widescreen seem to have most of these fixed:

Usual issue with Japanese PC ports: configuration is done through a separate exe, the configuration tool itself mostly works fine, I had no problems with it (but do make sure you use it, since the defaults are quite bad), however there's complaints on steam that it has issues re-mapping certain controllers.

I couldn't get my Dualshock 4 to work, either raw, or through D24Windows, it seemed to interpret the analog deadzone as being the upper left? This isn't uncommon in games this old, but it'd be nice to see support patched in.

Dug out my Xbox 360 pad, and it worked fine, except you can't map anything to the triggers, and the dpad and both analog sticks are treated as the same input (also not re-mappable).

Various minor issues with the support of widescreen, which the game/engine is not built for, but the PC version does support and it works fine mostly, issues included:

Health bars for individual parts of bosses appear in the wrong positions, which is generally not an issue, but for the True Final Boss, it made things a bit confusing.

There's a couple of area transitions that look like dead ends, because the widescreen view sees past where the game expects. It's only really noticeable for one exit at the end of Guilty Fire, but it'd also be trivial to fix.

In a couple cutscenes (most obviously Toal's scene with Yunica after disarming the early game teleport trap) characters can be scene on screen when they're not supposed to be, occasionally duplicate models of people who are on screen.

All the above widescreen issues seem to not be an issue with the Switch version (although I think that port has some performance issues), and it also fixes this issue: The HUD looks unfinished, the version on Switch looks so much better, and is mostly much more readable. It'd be really cool to see a patch for the PC version to get the improvements form later ports.

And finally, my biggest issue with the gameplay: This game is 3 ~10 hour story campaigns, each character goes through the same levels, in the same order, with items, enemies, and bosses mostly being identical. The game moves fast enough that it didn't really bother me until the latter half of the third campaign, where I started to just want the game to be done. It's still a Napish Engine game, so if you like a slightly more combat focused zelda like where you move at the speed of sonic the hedgehog, you're in for a good time. Just know that the scope of content here feels distinctly budget, the dungeon is completely linear, and the story will be what carries you to finish all 3 campaigns, not any new gameplay.

General story: ~700 years before the events of Ys I, the civilization of Ys is losing the war with the demons. The Goddesses have lifted Solomon shrine and all the citizens of Ys into the sky to escape the conflict. Toal Fact and Saul Tovah stay behind on the surface to attempt to disrupt the demon's forces from within their ranks. Some time later (a few months, since the demons built Darn Tower in that time) the Goddesses vanish from Solomon Shrine (and later we learn they also took the Black Orb), and the Holy Knights and several talented Sorcerers mount a rescue effort, descending to the surface to look for them. They're attacked during the descent, scattering them, but eventually everyone end up at Darn Tower, and begins to scale the tower in search of the goddesses. Eventually, they find the demons are being controlled by people from outside of Ys, referring to themselves as Darklings - humans who took on a portion of the demonic essence - lead by Dalles. Eventually the rescue party finds and rescues Feena, who explains what we learned in Ys II: The Black Orb is both the source of magic, and the source of demons. The Goddesses have come to the tower to seal away the demonic essence within the Black Orb (likely sacrificing themselves in the process), in order to save Ys (and keep in afloat, since destroying the Orb would cause it to crash to the ground). Conflict eventually escalates and the rescue party is forced to confront Dalles at the top of the tower, where he has captured Lady Reah and the Black Orb.

So, following that, lets break things up among the 3 playable characters, and discuss them in more detail. First however, a brief explanation of the story: The first two characters are sharing their interpretation of events, not the events as they transpired, the 3rd character is the canonical one. I'll get to it when I talk about the 3rd campaign, but the difference is mostly that the first two characters are over emphasizing their actions (they beat all the bosses, were the leader in climbing the tower, etc.) and also exaggerating their character flaws (they views themselves as more flawed than the rest of the characters view them).

Yunica Tovah

Yunica is a cute girl, with no magical aptitude, a big axe, and a big heart. She plays most similarly to how Adol plays in other Napish engine games.

Generally the easiest campaign, Yunica has powerful abilities and enough health to make mistakes, but she's the slowest at dealing damage, so boss encounters tend to last longer.

Her skills are easily the most powerful of the three, with the Phoenix Flare breaking several bosses almost completely due to it's huge range (the most of anything in the game), wide AOE, and solid damage. Her boost/burst mode is basically useless.

She's the only character who gets a second weapon: Her Father's great sword. It's mostly similar to the axe, but it swings slower, has a bit longer reach and wider swings, and does a modest amount more damage per hit.

Gameplay wise Yunica is the most fun, but the least challenging. All of her abilities feel good to use, and are very versatile. Her melee combat is fast and satisfying, and generally I never felt like I was taking damage when I shouldn't have been.

Her story centers around 2 things: Her friendship with the Goddesses, and her feelings of inadequacy due to not being able to use magic (nearly every citizen of Ys can use some magic, so she's probably not treated great). Basically, when she was a child she accidentally snuck into the Goddesses's chambers, and because she treated them like humans, has been their friend ever since. She's wholly devoted to the Goddesses, and forced herself into the Holy Knights for the purpose of rescuing them. During her story the Knights are initially very critical of her, because she's an amateur, but she eventually through her actions is promoted above members senior to her, and ends up respected. She is one of the first to arrive at the tower, behind Father Shion and Eloa (and maybe Hugo Fact), and fights her way up the tower ahead of everyone else. She encounters the lower ranked Darkling Epona early on, and they fight (with Yunica eventually killing her towards the end of the game) but Epona doesn't play much of a role in her story (beyond being generally adorable and teasing Yunica a bit). Eventually she finds Lady Feena, but quickly so to does Darkling Kishgal, Epona's older brother, and the man her murdered her father. One way or another Kishgal beats Yunica, and Feena agrees to go with him and Darkling Sorceress Zava, provided they leave Yunica alive. This is obviously quite a blow to Yunica's confidence, but eventually generic knight dude (her romantic interest) pulls her out of it, and tells her he found her Father's sword hidden in the tower. Yunica retrieves her Father's sword, and has a talk with his ghost, which sees her confidence renewed and a new level of devotion to her duty to protect the Goddesses. Higher up the tower, after Yunica rescues Feena from Rado's Annex (though Feena remains trapped in a barrier until the end of the game), Yunica encounters Lady Reah and the Black Orb, and learns the truth of why the Goddesses vanished. Higher up still, Dalles appears and petrifies the other Knights, leaving Yunica unfrozen just to torture her. This shakes her confidence, but with the help of Hugo Fact (who we see talking to a mysterious Darkling with claws, very briefly) and Lady Feena, the knights get unfrozen, and Yunica becomes a Holy Knight in full. Near the top of the tower Yunica confronts Kishgal and avenges her Father's death. Later still, after confronting Zava, Zava traps and attempts to kill Yunica, stopped by generic knight dude, who dies saving Yunica, giving her an item that can be used to being someone back from death (but only once). Firm in her resolve and duty, Yunica confronts Dalles at the top of the tower, and with the help of the Goddesses and the Holy Knights manages to beat him. The Goddesses use their wings (the source of their powers) to seal the demonic essence within Dalles in the Orb, draining them, and forcing them into a slumber until the demons reawaken. Yunica decides to stay on the surface with a few others (to watch over the Goddesses), while the rest of the rescue party returns to Solomon Shrine.

Her story is easily the 'lightest'. She has her internal conflict, but she's kind of just a headstrong dumbass who blunders her way through things (generic knight guy says effectively this to her face), so she feels like she goes through the least change during the course of the story. She starts out as overconfident, but lacking in ability. Then becomes more skilled, but less confident. And finally gains resolve in her ability, and is seen as such by her peers. Her friendship with the goddesses is cute, and she's generally a fun character with lots of good dialogue, but compared to the other two, her story feels a bit throwaway, especially considering most of her development doesn't happen in the other campaigns.

Hugo Fact

Younger of the Fact brothers, appointed heir to the Fact priesthood after Toal joined the Holy Knights. Hugo is a magical prodigy with anger issues and an inferiority complex the size of the sun.

Hugo is a ranged characer, so no melee, no combos, just mash button to shoot bullets. Hugo has a low movement speed compared to the others, and though he has low health, the first ability he gets is a defensive one, so that becomes a non-issue.

His other 2 abilities aren't that useful, good for taking down specific enemies, but the mines are hard to use, and the fire lasers do less damage (and are harder to aim) than just mashing his regular attack. His boost mode is a good boost of damage, but his burst is useless against bosses, since they become un-damageable when he uses it.

I really wish hugo's regular attack had more too it. It fire 3 bullets straight in front of him, and can be mashed quite fast. If enemies are too close he does less damage because he's hitting them with his stick, instead of the magic. But that's it.

You start out feeling pretty weak, but by the end of the game your damage output is so high that most bosses barely get a chance to attack, and when they do you're behind your shield ability.

His campaign is room-for-room the same as Yunica's but he solves a couple puzzles differently, and fights a couple different bosses, and a couple in a different order.

Hugo is more fun than those bullet points make it sound, but he definitely feels unfinished. Like all the other character's attacks get special properties, depending on if you use them during the rise or fall of a jump, but Hugo does not. They all have a 3 or 4 hit combo attack, he does not. I feel like giving Hugo a charge attack (like in metroid) or giving his normal attacks properties based on the element you have equipped, would have made his campaign much more interesting.

Story wise, Hugo's is the edgiest. He's got issues with his Dad, issues with his Brother, is generally a stuck up anti social loner, and some really bad anger management issues. His story centers around him learning not to pursue power over all else, and learning to rely on, and be thankful for, the people around him. In his story, he arrives at the tower first, and he leads the way up the tower. In addition to searching for the Goddesses, he's been tasked by his father to hunt down and kill the man who betrayed Ys, who we quickly find out, is his own brother: Toal Fact. Early on he runs into Epona, who loses control of the demons she summons, and Hugo saves her. From that point forward Epona will keep showing up, especially when Hugo is talking to himself, and either help him out with no explanation, or try to get him to open up to her. Her crush on Hugo is adorable. Epona is adorable. She makes this campaign worth playing. Basically, she feels a kinship with him because she also feels inferior to her own brother, and is less confident in the Dalles's goals than the rest of them. Miuscha also has a crush on Hugo, she's a boring (but pretty looking) and very shy young Sorceress who came with the rescue party. Hugo is generally an ass to Miuscha, and is oblivious to her advances, and is at points borderline abusive in how he treats her, right through the end of the game. Hugo does eventually open up to Epona (after she saves his life a couple times), and though they remain 'enemies' it's clear they have no interest in killing each other. The Mysterious Darklig with Claws is in fact Huugo's brother Toal, he joined the Darklings (and took in the demonic essence) sometime after Saul Tovah's death. He (one way or another) beats Hugo's ass early on, further driving Hugo's complex and lust for power. Hugo drains the power from Saul Tovah's great sword, ignoring the Ghost's words. Dalles eventually makes Hugo an offer, a free trial of the demonic essence, just to see how strong it'd make him. Hugo accepts the deal (because for a prodigy he's really stupid), goes nuts, nearly kills several members of the rescue party, and is eventually stopped when Epona snaps him out of it. Dalles doesn't like that Epona betrayed him, and curses her to slowly petrify, dying and turning to dust in Hugo's arms. Resolved to stop Dalles and the demonic essence, and no longer desiring power for its own sake, Hugo makes his way to the top of he tower. Eventually he runs into Toal, and they talk it out. Turns out they both thought they were the inferior son, Toal joined the Knights because he had poor magical aptitude, and knew Hugo would be a better successor. He joined the Darklings in hopes of sabotaging them from within. From here (and after Epona's death), Hugo treats his companions much better, and is generally friendly towards them by the end of the game. Just like Yunica, he stops Dalles with the help of the goddesses, and decide to stay on the surface, to keep an eye on them.

I liked Hugo's over arching story, but there's some lines that are cringe worthy edgy loner shit that caused me to laugh hysterically and lose investment in the scene. He starts out insufferable, but by the end of the game he's fine. Interestingly, in Yunica's story he's already behaving like his end game self, from the beginning, in Toal's he's got the inferiority complex, but not the anger issues.

Toal Fact

Elder of the Fact brothers, former Holy Knight of Ys, new Darkling. Definitely became a Holy Knight more because he was crushing on Lady Reah rather than because he wanted to get away from his dad. This is the canonical story of Ys Origin.

Melee, with very fast attacks, very fast movement speed, low health and really low range. Toughest campaign, but kinda for the wrong reasons.

All his abilities suck, godspeed is useful, but hard to aim, and his other two abilities are too slow, too low range, and too low damage to compete with other character's abilities.

His gamplay relies on his boost mode, which recharges fast, turns him into a demon, doubling damage dealt, having damage taken, and improving his abilities.

His campaign is the most different, several new bosses, totally new story sequences, and several changed room layouts (although the room layouts are mostly changed because his abilities are more limited)

You feel like you have too little health for the entire game, and generally have to spend a lot of time avoiding damage during boss fights.

Melee combat as Toal feels buggy. There's a 'sweet spot' to his attack range, too close and you do less damage, too far and you don't hit. His attacks have very little stagger and knock-back, so enemies can just attack through you. Several bosses do contact damage (which is weird because almost no bosses do in the other campaigns), punishing you for using the difficult to control gap closer of godspeed.

Toal is... weird? When the claws feel good, they feel really good. His boost mode is the most necessary, and probably the most powerful of the three. His big issue is that his abilities suck. He really needs some way to crowd control, and the closest he gets is the thunder claw, which pulls enemies towards him, instead of knocking them away. A few boss fights ended up feeling like a damage race, since I couldn't reliably avoid taking damage while trying to attack, despite attacking during what I knew were safe windows during other campaigns. However, when you're winning, you feel like an absolute master, like the enemies have no chance, and that's kinda cool.

I don't really want to go over the whole campaign again, since large chunks are the same as the other, here's a basic gist, in note form.

Toal Fact joined the Holy Knights to get away form his family legacy, and his father. Through his time as a Holy Knight, he becomes good friends with the Goddesses (they are mostly drawn to him for his bluntness and treating them as equals) and develops a pretty big crush on Lady Reah. He is the one who gives Lady Reah her harmonica.

Though he tries to hide it initially, Toal takes on demonic essence and joins the Darklings in hopes of sabotaging their plans. All the Darklings have basically already worked this out before the game even starts.

Toal's internal conflict is mostly that he has a super low opinion of himself, everyone seems to view him as a hero, but Toal thinks himself a weak coward. Eventually through confronting the rescue squad and the darklings he finds confidence enough in himself.

His original plan is to take the demonic essence from Dalles, and then kill himself, to wipe out the demons.

In this campaign Yunica is consistently the 'junior knight', you eventually give her the great sword, and later she uses it to save you.

Toal in this campaign feels inferior to Hugo, but he doesn't really have a complex about it, he just knew Hugo was more talented, so left the family legacy to him, and left to pursue his own life.

Hugo still gets possessed, however you are the one to snap him out of it, while he's attempting to kill Epona.

Yes Epona still develops a crush on Hugo, and boy does Toal ship them so hard.

Epona lives through this campaign, so we can presume she and Hugo end up together.

She's also still adorable here, and Toal teasing her about her crush is great.

Generic knight guy also lives, good for Yunica, I guess?

It's made explicit here by Lady Reah that the reason why the Goddesses left Solomon Shrine without telling anyone was two fold:

They suspect that sealing away the demonic essence will either kill them, or lock them into a long slumber.

Someone told outsiders (who became the Darklings) about the demonic essence and the Black Orb, someone from within Ys

Toal's goals shift a bit, make sure Lady Reah (and lady Feena) stay alive, and stop Dalles his own way. Reah, obviously, doesn't want this, and tries to convince Toal that he should value his own life (more than she values hers).

After stopping Hugo, Toal resolves that he's going to finish this without anyone dying.

You stop Dalles, similar to the others, but then Cain Fact (Toal/Hugo's Dad) descends form the sky, he was the one who told the outsiders about the demonic essence, and in fact, explicitly instructed them to keep Toal alive and give him demonic essence. This was a trial run for giving demonic essence to the more powerful Hugo, which itself was a trial run to Cain taking on the essence himself. True the Fact name, Cain is pursuing power for power's sake, and fuses himself with with the demonic essence, and the Black Orb.

Feena has repaired Toal's old Cleria Sword (the silver sword from Ys I) infusing it with divine power, and Toal uses it to vanquish Cain's near-perfected form. After which the Goddesses due the usual, sacrificing their wings, and going to sleep to seal away the demonic power within the Orb.

Toal does not stay on the surface, returning to Ys to write the books of Ys (with the help of the other priests) and take onf the Fact legacy.

This campaign is much more satisfying than the others, from a 'ties into Ys I/Ys II' perspective. Everything lines up here, including how several items ended up where they did. There's also a big revelation that I've saved for here, since it likely has to do with the other games in the series. The Goddesses are not perfect (which we knew), but they're also not really Goddesses, they're remaining members of a precursor race who 'betrayed the gods' (who were likely also not gods), they're ageless, but the Black Orb, and their Wings, are artifacts from their civilization. When they founded Ys, they were quite young an naive, and though they knew the source of the demon problem, could not find a way to stop it, without potentially causing the citizens of Ys to lose faith in them. They mention that the Darklings worked this out by discovering the Ark, guessing that'll be Ys VI then.

So yeah, this game was quite good, but you can tell why they made a new engine after this, Napish clearly has some weird limitations that this game was brushing against (I'm sure there's a good reason why the Dragon Scales are an item instead of an accessory, but it's an engine limit, not good game design, etc). Next is Ys: Memories of Celceta, a fairly recent game design to fix the issue of there being two different versions of Ys IV (developed by 3rd party studios), and bring the story more in line with the canon plot lines developed in Ys VI. It's using the engine from Ys SEVEN, a game that I played for a bit on the PSP, but didn't much care for (though I remember almost all my issues being related to the PSP's display and controls). Celceta is a couple iterations of that engine ahead, so we'll see how I like it. It's also a much longer game, so, I might need to start taking notes, instead of writing these things as a stream of consciousness after I complete them.

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Facts about UnderLate Frisk/Datos sobre UL Frisk

As I did with Late! Sans, I've made a list of canon things about Late! Frisk, both in her Au and in relation to other universes.

Frisk's appearance: It has changed a little because my drawing style,  I still in my drawing beginnings.

Her main features are her blue headphones and the bracelet of golden flowers. She can be drawn without headphones (Sometimes  she removed it xD) but not without her bracelet. Her shirt is the classic blue with stripes, but broke at the height of the second line. From there to below it is violet with the real symbol.

First name. Frisk Dreemur

Age and gender: 18 years old when leaving the ruins. 11 when she falls. She is a woman.

Position: Princess of the underground

Parents: Toriel and Asgore Dreemur. Unknown biological parents.

Brothers: Flowey? It's Asriel, so he's her brother.

Before the reset that is UnderLate (Since more than an AU is an alternative timeline or At the style of Glitchtale or Aftertale ... but I'm not going to get specific and mess it up too ... let's call them all Alternative universes which is easier) Frisk is very similar to UT Frisk, taking the latter as a child (thing not canon but popular). Although seven years old, the change from childhood to maturity has changed her.

Her personality is very similar to what the fandom gives UT Papyrus: Naive, sweet, kind and with the decision not to hurt anyone. She believes that everyone deserves to be saved.

In UnderLate, Frisk is the character who has more nightmares and is more tortured but does not show it. Her positive nature and determination helps her to regain happiness, quickly but also falls into guilt and shame just as quickly.

Although Frisk sees other versions of herself or her friends as completely different from her family, if she shares the opinion of their behavior. For example, in question to the Sanses, by very grumpy, punks or ... with "homicidal instincts" all are good. That can lead to problems with other Aus not so friendly.

Gaster terrifies her. If she met other Au Gaster, no matter that he is good, she would never trust him.

Late! Frisk would never harm a monster, even if it was in self-defense. Before she prefers to sacrifice herself to hurt someone (Does not include the Gasters)

Frisk only made a genocide route, possessed by an evil Chara, but managed to stop her after Sans killed her multiple times. Having accepted Chara's help mortifies her. Her nightmares are plagued by the visions of her dead friends and family by her hands.

UnderLate Frisk has a only canon ship: Late! Sans. (Although if someone ships her with another, I do not care, but it's not canon)

Join the last two points and you'll have the best way to mentally destroy Late Frisk: she has not seen Sans die on her genocide route ... meet other Sanses physically affected by a known route ( Like Geno, Color, Delta ... Dust not because , despite his madness, remains intact) would leave her in shock.

It's Blueberry Fangirl (Underswap Sans)

Thanks to her long stay in the underworld, surrounded by magic and her age, she is able to regenerate determination, provided she does not lose more than 50% of it. That allows her to create limited protections for the souls of other monsters (only protection of her Sans is perpetual), create a protective barrier, and even if she traveled to another Au and died there, she could steal control of that Frisk for a limited time. .

She does not invoke weapons, style glitchtale or refusetale. She is against them.

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Como hice con Late! Sans, he hecho un listado con cosas canon sobre Late! Frisk, tanto en su Au como en relación con otros universos. Aspecto de Frisk: ha cambiado un poco debido a que mi estilo de dibujar, al estar todavia en mis inicios de dibujo, está cambiando mucho  pero es este. Sus rasgos principales son sus auriculares azules y la pulsera de flores doradas. Puede ser dibujada sin los auriculares (alguna vez se los quita xD) pero no sin su pulsera. Su camiseta es la clasica azul con rayas, pero se rompió a la altura de la segunda raya. De ahí para abajo es violeta con el simbolo real.

(Mirad arriba, en la parte en inglés. No me deja subirlas de nuevo)

Nombre. Frisk Dreemur Edad y genero: 18 años cuando sale de las ruinas. 11 cuando cae. Es mujer. Cargo: Princesa del submundo. Padres: Toriel y Asgore Dreemur. Padres biologicos desconocidos. Hermanos: ¿Flowey? Es Asriel, así que es su hermano.

Antes del reinicio que forma UnderLate (Ya que más que un AU es una linea del tiempo alternativa o At al estilo de Glitchtale o Aftertale…pero no voy a ponerme especifica y liarlo demasiado… llamemos a todos Universos alternativos que es más facil) Frisk es muy semejante a UT Frisk, tomando a esta ultima como un niño (cosa no canon pero popular). Aunque los siete años, el cambio de la infacia a la madurez la ha cambiado.

Su personalidad es muy semejante a la que el fandom le da a UT Papyrus: Ingenua, dulce, amable y con la decisión de no hacer daño a nadie. Cree que todo el mundo merece ser salvado.

En UnderLate, Frisk es el personaje que tiene más pesadillas y está más torturado pero no lo demuestra. Su naturaleza positiva y su determinación la ayudan a volver a recuperar la felicidad, rapidamente pero tambien cae en la culpa y la vergüenza de forma igual de rápida.

Aunque Frisk ve a otras versiones de si misma o de sus amigos como seres completamente diferentes a su familia, si comparte la opinión de su comportamiento. Por ejemplo, en cuestión a los Sanses, por muy gruñones, macarras o…con “instintos homicidas” todos son buenos. Eso le puede llevar a problemas con otros Aus no tan amistosos.

Gaster la aterroriza. Si se encontrara con alguno aunque fuera bueno, jamás confiaria en él.

Late!Frisk jamás haría daño a un monstruo, aunque fuera en defensa propia. Antes prefiere sacrificarse a hacer daño a alguien (No incluye a los Gaster’s)

Frisk solo hizo una ruta genocida, poseida por una Chara malvada, pero consiguió detenerla despues de que Sans la matara multiples veces. Haber aceptado la ayuda de Chara la mortifica. Sus pesadillas estan plagadas de las visiones de sus amigos y familia muertos por sus manos.

UnderLate Frisk tiene un unico ship canon: Late!Sans. (Aunque si alguien la shipea con otro, me da igual. Pero no es canon)

Une los dos ultimos puntos y tendrás la mejor manera de destruir mentalmente a Late Frisk: No ha visto a Sans morir en su ruta genocida… conocer a otros Sanses afectados fisicamente por una ruta conocida (estilo Geno, Color, Delta… Dust no porque, a pesar de su locura, sigue intacto) la dejaría en shock.

Es Fangirl de Blueberry (Underswap Sans)

Gracias a su larga estancia en el submundo, rodeada de magia y a su edad, es capaz de regenerar determinación, siempre que no pierda más del 50% de ella. Eso hace que pueda crear protecciones limitadas a las almas de otros monstruos (solo la de su Sans es perpetua), crear una barrera protectora e, incluso si viajara a otro Au y muriera allí, podría robar el control a ese Frisk durante un tiempo limitado.

No invoca armas estilo glitchtale o refusetale. Está en contra de ellas.