#If anyone wants to talk theories then hit me up! I'm excited honestly

[haventyouheardimsolucky]

My thoughts on the H5 era so far...

Whew it's been a while since I did something like this! One of my biggest regrets is that I wasn't active during the IICHLIWP era as I was going through the worst time of my life... but anyways I'm glad to be back and fully involved in a Halsey era!!

Firstly I wanna say I am so happy that international fans are being more included this era, and I recieved my first Halsey letter!! I honestly can't explain how excited I was as I've been waiting so long to receive something.

Now, The End. I think I woke up at like 4am and heard it and oh my God, it wrecked me, I was so confused about what was going on and I was so worried about Halsey, I honestly don't think any of us were expecting anything like that. I haven't listened to it too much, as it's so emotional and I feel like it the context of the album it is going to hit 1000x more.

And Lucky, the aesthetics and everything I am absolutely obsessed with, I do love the song, now Halsey's more "pop" music is not usually my favourite but especially since the Manic era I've grown a deeper love for pop- especially from the early 2000s. I love how if you weren't really listening closely to the lyrics and seeing all the promo videos it seems like such a fun wee song but obviously it is so sad. I do love how Halsey is keeping her openness and honesty with us this era especially with topics I can only imagine are so hard to talk about.

I do think the time between first teasing Lucky and it being released was way too long but I don't think that was Halseys choice. I hope a lot more momentum can be built this era and album.

But yes I love the 70s vibe of The End and the 00s vibe of Lucky and I'm really excited about the theories the next singles will be 80s and 90s themed! I can't wait to see everything Halsey has tried out.

If anyone wants to, please let me know any thoughts and theories about this era and the album!!

[gu6chan]

Hello, I saw your rant on Drakenier lore and honestly I agree. While I do enjoy the occasional "oh those line up really well" lore, I choose to stay away from the fandom because they love to make it connections where there doesn't seem to be any. I don't enjoy a lot of those theory posts because they are way off Taro's vibes, intentions, and style.

Also I'm sorry you experienced such bad things in the community. Thank you for the translations, nonetheless, and I will cherish what memory I have of them should they be pulled completely off the net.

Okay, so I got this ask on March 16th of this year not long after I kickstarted this little blog and I VOWED not to come back to it till I actually was able to privatise my works and!!! The day's finally come!!! Accord's Library is shut down!!!!! I honestly cannot believe it's happened, I wish I could put into proper words how emotional the news was for me 😭 I was honestly scared they'd be stuck up there for years and I'd have to live with that paranoia and weight in my chest forever, but just??? Waking up? Knowing I'm finally free is such an unbelievable feeling, I honestly don't know how to put it into words. I've never woken up with a smile on my face so many days in a row before!!! I didn't even have an idea that it was weighing on me that heavily. I can go dark, shut down and take some time for myself, and who knows? I might even be able to get into translation again by 2025!!! I'm so excited aaaaaaa!!! I've been trying AGES to get my works back under my belt for even a moment of peace, i was beginning to think it might never be possible :,) Honestly, I get a lot of people might not be thrilled at the whole "I'm HAPPY your favourite fan archive got shut down so I can do my silly little hobby again :)))))" thing but honestly, I've realised I don't do it for them so much as for myself and the other silly little perverts who just want to see what's out there and see every iteration of their blorbo and whatever "Oh, that's what x was about" The Drakenier fanbase is small, so I might not exactly have the same small circle to share these things to like I used to and that can be demotivating at times, but again!! Just from what I've done here, my whole method of "breathe wrong about drakenier in an even slightly questionable way and i block you" has been working better than I thought it would, so it might be controversial, but I think I'll start applying that to my translation blog as well!!! For the longest time, I know I had even mentioned it in the post I assume this is referring to, I've been kinda "split" between "Oh my god this fanbase is filled with IDIOTS, stop talking about """the lore""" and stop to smell the characters, I wish I never shared ANYTHING with you stupid motherfuckers >:(" and "But I love translation, I don't want to give that up just because a few people made stupid assertions using the material i tled for them" And then the splendid realisation hit: It SHOULDN'T be for them!!! I'm doing this for me, ofc I always thought I had been based off the pretense "I enjoy doing it" but I never took it into account to apply that to my boundaries as well. So I think in the future, if anyone says or posts anything I don't want to see or just find annoying, it doesn't matter whether it's my personal blog or translation blog or what, I'll just block them!!! If their lore is really that precious to them then they can just make an alt and snoop lol Anyways, getting to the point I wanted to make is that it makes me so happy I can reply to this after so long, thank you so much for your kind words!!!! It actually makes my whole day that you actually enjoy my translations, even if they were pretty shoddy at times 😭 all that said, I don't know if you're still around to see this, anon (Maybe you're deactivated, maybe you're even one of the 200+ people I've blocked... its nothing personal if so, promise!!!) but rest assured these translations will not be going anywhere in the long-run 🫡 I'll just keep them to myself for a bit and stay on the down-low before coming back!! Hopefully with a new project to start~ Even knowing AL's demise was inevitable, I thought it would be a matter of years, not months since I came to that resolution it'd be the only way I could safely come back to translation - I thought by then, I'd probably be so budy with personal affairs I wouldn't even have the passion for translation like I do now!! So I'm really excited at the thought of getting back into translation again, I really never thought it would be possible!!!

[stereax]

hi, i have a question if you don't mind. beside cap space and contracts numbers, is there a limite to the number of emergency loan a team can have? (about the sens)

Hi anon! I never mind!!! Honestly I get super duper excited whenever anyone hits my inbox because it makes me feel like I'm doing something good sooo... Okay, enough about me, meet me under the cut! 💜

The first thing about emergency loans is that their use is dependant on cap space. The Sens have three emergency loans right now - Tyler Kleven, Nikolas Matinpao, and Jacob Bernard-Docker. All three are right side defensemen (RD) replacing Thomas Chabot, Artem Zub, and Erik Brannstrom. Chabot is notably on LTIR. LTIR is complicated as hell and I don't want to hit you with the specifics of it. There are jokes of "capologists" in certain organizations (notably the Leafs and Canucks) whose main job it is to navigate the cap. But there are a few important things you need to know.

Chabot's salary is $8m. In theory, since Chabot is now on LTIR, the Sens can call up players with up to $8m salary regularly, and not as emergency recalls. The thing is - if you've read my waivers primer - that emergency recall keeps players waiver-exempt (at least, for a while). So a team in a situation like the Sens prefers to start by using emergency recall, when they can, and then shift into regular recall. This is why Chabot was only placed on LTIR on the 27th - Bernard-Docker was called up as an emergency recall first. Then, when Zub and Brannstrom were injured, Kleven and Matinpao could come up and Chabot could go on LTIR while preserving Bernard-Docker's waiver exemption, which is important because otherwise he isn't waiver exempt and the Senators don't want that.

Also, when Chabot goes on LTIR, he is no longer considered a "roster" player. This is important for call-up reasons and contract numbers on the roster. See, the main "rules" of emergency callups are as follows:

1) If the team has no cap room (must be at least $875k) with which to call up a player,

2) And someone can't play and the team plays with fewer than 18 skaters and 2 goalies for one game as a result,

3) Then you can use emergency recalls to call up players on an emergency basis with cap hits up to $875k,

4) But when the players get healthy those emergency recalls MUST be sent down.

So no, there's theoretically no limit to the NUMBER of emergency recalls, as far as I can tell. Theoretically, you can play an entire team of emergency recalls, but that would require every player on your team to be severely injured and you'd probably end up using your LTIR space to deal with that instead. And also be actively tanking at that point.

But the thing is - emergency recalls do NOT come with a cap hit. They, themselves, do not count against the cap. That's the point of the emergency recall, after all.

I think that's it! I love talking about the Sens because there is literally always something going on with those boys, so thank YOU for the ask! If something isn't clear, let me know and I'll re-explain it 💜

[all-things-fandomstuck]

I apologize for the person I'm going to become this month.

For those of you who don't know, or need a reminder, there are at least two, possibly three, major things happening in some of the fandoms I'm in.

The confirmed things are:

1) The Ruin DLC for FNAF: Security Breach comes out this month. And if you've been following my blog for a bit, you know that I absolutely adore the Daycare Attendant. Sundrop and Moondrop are my faves, and I cannot wait to see them again!

2) The Welcome Home website will be back up sometime this month, as mentioned on Clown's pinned post on their blog. I can't wait to see where this story goes! We keep getting little snippets of information here and there, and I'm so excited! I can't wait.

3) Now, this last one is pure speculation, but, Hazbin Hotel is slated to come out sometime this Summer. Now, we know most companies consider Summer to be June through August, as that's when most of the kids are out of school. We're already out of June. So, if my theory is correct, then season one of Hazbin Hotel should be out sometime this month. Especially after we managed to get the release of Helluva Boss season 1, episode 8. I can't wait to see the hellish cast again! Especially Sir Pentious! He's my favorite of the Hazbin Cast so far. I hope we get to see some of the Helluva Boss cast drop in at some point. I would love to see Ozzie and Fizz again!

Now, I could be wrong, like I said, it's purely speculation. No announcements have been made. I'd love to be right, but hey, it's been almost four years since the pilot dropped, I'm sure everything is a little tired of waiting at this point.

So, when all of these things drop, do not expect normal from me. I'm also expecting to hit my post limit daily for the next two months. Also, if my writing blog (@all-things-fandomstuck-writes ) becomes a tad flooded, well, you'll know why.

Also, asks are open for anyone who wants to chat about any of these topics! I am so hype, and honestly, no one I interact with on my day to day is as excited as I am, so getting to talk with more fandom people would be awesome!

[lysallana]

Its been about a week since I posted this and I think it took about this long for me to fully collect my thoughts and feelings surrounding this decision that was... outwardly to my friends and gf a sudden and deliberate twist that it really wasn't and I do want to elaborate because I do think it's important to explain the full context here.

I was a whale. I spent a ton of money on gachas constantly. I have very low impulse control. My history with gachas is starting them up, spending money and playing for a week or a month. But never longer. Because honestly, most gacha games suck. They are mostly boring trash, terrible gameplay, and mostly serviceable stories.

I got into FGO cause IRL friends were into it. Having a consistent thing to talk about, speculate about, and theory craft about was really fun. My spending was out of control. I needed every new servant. I wanted every servant I missed. Any chance I had to get someone was taken, and most of it was buying quartz, not saving.

After lb6 released, and the hype surrounding that died down the discussions with my friends turned. No longer was the discussion tinged with excitement everything was turning negative. A sign of the rough patch of the games foreseeable future. But every New bit of info from the JP side of the game was met with hostility or indifference. The game and its future broke something.

In the months leading up to the new year, playing the game was a chore. I started looking away from the app icon on my phone and trying not to think about logging in. Events were done out of obligation. And there I sat, new years day. Having hit pity of a character I didn't want. Didn't need. But I had koyan dark and I was miserable. All of my excuses I typically gone to weren't working.

The day I deleted the app, was caused by a friend from a different group of friends posting into discord how she was done with her gacha of choice and deleted the app and in solidarity I decided enough was enough and did the same with mine. It felt like excising a demon.

I'm not going to sit here and shame anyone their vices. I'm not better than you because I've managed to symbolically get out, and I may even relapse who knows. But I do encourage every one to look at the games that you are playing and really take the time to wrestle with the questions about why you are still playing. Gacha games are predatory and even if you have good impulse control, they are still doing everything in their power to get you to break and start spending. If you aren't enjoying it, if it consistently angers you, if it feels like a chore. Stop playing. Stop engaging. Build up the strength to ignore it and move on. Please. It really isn't worth it. The best part of these games can be consumed for free by reading through the stories through YouTube.

I really needed to get this off of my chest and into some tangible form. If you read this far, hey thanks for reading my rambling incoherent mess, I swear this was more structurally sound last night when I couldn't stop thinking about posting my thoughts while laying in bed at 1 am.

I love you all but as an spending addict, don't be like me.

Enough is enough

[strawberryclementine]

TR 268 Spoilers under the cut

I'm seeing some backlash about Shinichiro being a time leaper but the chapter just came out and we don't know the details yet so idk it's not what I personally wanted to happen but at this point I'm just eager to see what happens next, y'know?

Like I always thought that Hanma would be a time leaper to bring everything full-circle (it's off-putting to me how little attention Hinata and Kisaki have had in the final arc because they were so important for the whole story leading up to and during the Tenjiku arc). I figured that future Hanma was probably motivated to time leap by something related to Mikey and Kisaki, which is relevant to Takemichi and Hinata because of Toman targeting them in every timeline. I thought that whatever future happened with Hanma, Mikey, and Kisaki was part of "the story of the Pierrot and the Reaper" from chapter 205.

And yeah, maybe that's not the case and I was probably/definitely wrong, but I'm still excited to see what happens next with the Shinichiro plot twist. There's still the possibility of even a third time leaper (please, Hanma🙏) or maybe even something more interesting no one has guessed yet!

I'm a bit skeptical that the series might get lost in the Shinichiro plot twist (I've been reading the new chapters these days, thinking, "Remember when this show was about saving Hina with Naoto?") but we'll just have to see. Fingers crossed though that in the end it won't feel like the story went off course. I hope Hinata, Naoto, and Kisaki don't get lost/forgotten in the end of the series, especially Hinata because she has been so integral and motivational to the story up until the Final Arc and she deserves the focus!

Anyway, all that said, Ken Wakui, please tell me the story of the Pierrot and the Reaper already 😭 Let's stay optimistic ~~

[callmeyuu]

A golden opportunity, or is it?

Genre: Sci-Fi

Au(s): Modern!Au, Future!Au, Astronaut!Au.

Summary: In which you're currently on a mission to explore space. An asteroid rain leads to a golden opportunity, or not?

Ships: None(?)

Characters included: Kazuha, Jean, Venti

Warnings: Mentions of wounds

Word count: 675 words

A/n: This takes place in the year 2135. GN!Reader. Hope you enjoy<3

Work under the cut （。＾▽＾）

"I can't bear the thought that everyone is at home, playing and doing whatever they want, and WE just had to be HERE! On a spaceship, without any clue about where we are!" Venti whines while clinging to you, pouting. "Now, Venti, I believe we talked about this before, now let poor Y/N take care of our injuries in peace. Honestly, how did you get picked again?" Jean spoke up, you can clearly see that she is trying her best to come up with a reason for Venti to be selected for the mission. "I'm injured too! Why isn't Y/N treating my wounds?" Venti then points at a scar on his hand, but only earns a chuckle from you. "Venti, that's only a scar, while Jean and Kazuha here have open wounds. We wouldn't want them to be infected, would we?" Without any further words, you turn back to treating Jean. "Fine! I'll be up in the front then, it's not like anyone needs me!"

It's been several minutes since Venti was gone, you were enjoying the comforting silence with Kazuha and Jean, until the alarm goes off. And then there's Venti, running straight towards your direction, panting "G-Guys! There's an asteroid rain!" "Was the Autopilot mode on then?" Kazuha raised an eyebrow, concerned about the state of the ship "That's a good question, was it?" Jean continues. "I-I think it wasn't-" Venti stuttered. You yelped in shock while Kazuha went straight to the captain's room, Jean following him. You stayed in the medical room along with Venti, while waiting for the good news, if there are any, you swore that you felt the ship was hit several times. "What are they doing?" you thought to yourself "Shouldn't they have turned Autopilot mode on already?"

An hour passed, still no sign of Kazuha or Jean, worried, you decided to leave Venti in the medical room to look for them. "Kazuha? Jean? Where are you guys?" Gliding around the ship, you keep calling for them, but there were no responses. That was until you reach the commander compartment. There, you saw Kazuha and Jean manually piloting the ship into the asteroid rain. "Kazuha! What do you think you're doing?! And Jean!?" You yelled in shock "Why are you guys heading straight into the asteroid rain? Have you lost your minds?" "Woah Y/N, keep your voice down, I need to focus," Kazuha said without even looking at you. "Well then explain why you're doing this first!" Jean looks up from her computer, then gives you a reassuring smile "Come, I'll tell you" Jean then gestured you to sit next to her, which you did. "So, you see, those asteroids are part of a planet's ring" You hummed, implying that you understood "And this planet, has shown signs that there is life here! Isn't that great?!" Jean has never been this excited before, so it must be really good. "I guess it's nice?" "It's not just nice, Y/N. It's a golden opportunity! Now I would really appreciate it if you go inform Venti for us. We'll be landing on this planet soon, and of course, an expedition would take place." Kazuha said that while glancing at you. "Alright then, Kazu."

While going back to the medical room, you can't help but think to yourself about what Kazuha just stated "A golden opportunity? Is it really one...? Maybe I'm just thinking too much? I hope so.." You muttered.

The ship is always silent, but why do you keep hearing odd noises? Before you can develop any theories, Venti was already running towards you "Y/N! R-Run! Inform Kazuha and Jean! Now!" Your mind wasn't processing anything Venti just said "W-What do you mean?!" You spoke. "SOMETHING BROKE INTO OUR SHIP!" This time, Venti shouted, not minding the look you gave him. Suddenly, Venti turned his head "Y/N RUN!" When you shifted your head to look at the direction Venti's been looking at, your jaw dropped in terror.

[properweirdparker]

Someone Cool (Peter Parker x Fem!Reader)

a/n: aight this is my first fic so it's gonna be booty butt cheek no doubt. let me know what you think and I do take constructive criticism *sobbing intensifies*. but lemme know if you wanna be tagged for future fics n shit. The song in this fic is called fallingforyou by The 1975 which you can listen to here:

Summary: The daily life of Peter Parker is not as easy as it seems. With being a part time hero and part time awkward nerd trying to finish his last year of high school, he can't help but feel as if the world is weighing down on him. As if he is expected to be on top of things in his double life. Luckily he has someone who helps as a distraction from his chaotic life and reminds him he is more than the suit and powers.

Peter couldn't help but feel as if he was gonna explode. There was no way anyone could take on the responsibilities he had without going insane, and Peter was pretty sure he was about to lose it - assuming he hasn't already. Not only does he have a physics test at the end of the week that he did not begin to study for yet, he also needs to stay out longer than his usual hours in the night to patrol the area. The latter of the two leaves him feeling exhausted to even study for the former.

Lately, Peter has been feeling as if he has a heavy weight on his shoulders wherever he goes. As Spider-Man, he is expected to always be there whenever he was needed. It was a service he should never turn away from, not that he ever would, but he can't help but feel that being Spider-Man is starting to become a huge burden on his part. He feels horrible for thinking that since there are people out there that really needed his help, but this job has been taking away from his normal life as Peter Parker. Nevertheless he keeps those thoughts to himself, not wanting to come off as selfish.

Despite the chaos he attracts being Spider-Man and the add on stress he accumulates from trying to keep up with his normal life, Peter always knows who exactly to turn to whenever it gets too much for him. His best friend Y/n Y/l/n, who he met at the start of their freshman year, was always able to take his mind off from reality and just allow him to exist peacefully. Of course she didn't know he was Spider-Man at first but eventually she found out - Peter isn't exactly a master of subterfuge - and she was completely understanding as too why he kept it a secret.

What Peter loved most about his friendship with Y/n is that she leaves him alone without actually leaving him. She never strings up a conversation about anything to do with him being Spider-Man or about different assignments he forgot to finish for various classes. He appreciates it, he appreciates her for it. She was just what he needed, a distraction from everything.

Y/n would always strike up conversations about different things whenever Peter comes to her. If he is tired from his patroling duties and needs to rest a bit, he swings by Y/n's house and she tells him about this new book she is reading that has a character with the same name as him but differs in personality. If he is upset because a teacher of his randomly gives out a pop quiz for which he, well, no one was prepared for, Peter would find Y/n after school so he could walk her home all the while she brings up the topic of alien existence and how she feels it is selfish of people to think we are the only living creatures in the galaxy. He would have to introduce her to Thor one day, they'd hit it off immediately.

"Like are you kidding me? There is more to all of this and you have the nerve to say I'll believe it when I see it!? Imbeciles!!" She huffs as Peter laughs at her outburst, seeming to have forgotten why he was so upset in the first place.

Or if he just wants to hang out with someone he finds cool Peter would invite Y/n over to his house and she would talk about the two ladybugs that landed on her right shoulder earlier that day. Trying to figure out what it could mean and she would ask Peter what he thinks off it, genuinely wanting to hear his thoughts on this - another thing he loved about their friendship.

All these things are a part of the many reasons as to why he started to gain feelings for the y/h/c haired girl. She is so absorbed in knowing he is more than just Spider-Man. She reminds him that he is not the center of the world just because he saved it a couple times and he never chose to be either. To Y/n he was just Pete, her kind friend who helps to carry her many books she borrows from the library home so she won't struggle with it. Her amazing friend who she always asks for his input on certain things so she can have more perspective. He never found her irritating or weird whenever she would ramble on about anything she deemed interesting and she appreciated that. For Peter she was just Y/n, the girl that needs him to hold her things from time to time as she tells him about the latest updates on the many conspiracy theories she finds interesting. He wanted her to be more than just what they are to each other though he didn't know if she felt the same way at all.

It took Peter a while to come to terms with the fact that he had feelings for Y/n. It started off with him noticing small little details about the girl like the little strands of hair that were left out when she would put her hair up in a bun or ponytail. Or whenever she would be doing anything like making a snack or doing other small things, she would make a little song out of it and sing it to herself while completing these tasks, which he found absolutely adorable. He caught her singing about making soup one time while she was putting said soup on the stove to heat up once, he really wished he had brought his phone with him so he could record it. Even smaller details he notices like how her eyes would sparkle a bit whenever she talked about her favorite books or movies. At first Peter mistaked all of this as just his admiration for the y/h/c haired girl but it never stopped with the observations.

Peter found himself missings his best friend's presence a lot. Even after only a few hours of seeing her, he wanted to be with her again and listen to her talk for hours on end. He didn't know why at first but he just blew it off as nothing.

As time went on, Peter knew he couldn't deny it any longer. He knew why he was feeling these things but he just didn't want to believe it because then it would change everything. If she didn't feel the same way then it would totally ruin their friendship, everything would just be awkward and he would not be able to go to her when things ever get hard for him because he would be too embarrassed. He didn't want to jeopordize their friendship so he kept his feelings to himself. Thinking it would be for the best because these feelings were only one sided. He couldn't be more wrong.

Y/n invited Peter over after school so they could study together for their upcoming physics test, god knows Peter absolutely needed it. His duties as Spider-Man barley left him any time to study at all. Luckily for him, Happy let him have a couple of days off to prepare for it, after much persuasion.

They were both sitting on her bed looking through their notes and quizzing each other from time to time. An hour had passed and Y/n, bored out of her mind, decides that they should take a little break.

"Alright I'm beat, lets take a break yeah?" She looks to Peter and he agrees.

"Yeah a break sounds good, I'll go get those cookies your mom made from the fridge. Be right back." He then got off her bed to go to the kitchen.

Y/n then decided to play some music so she connects her phone to her speaker and puts her music on shuffle. She smiles when fallingforyou by The 1975 starts playing and she softly sings along to it.

What time you coming home?

We started losing light

I'll never get it right

If you don't want me 'round

I'm so excited for the night

All we need's my bike

And your enormous house

Peter came back with the cookies and stopped by the doorway when he heard Y/n’s voice. He just stood there in awe while she sung softly with her eyes closed. He smiled and his heart swelled at the sight. He knew she liked to sing but he never really got to hear her voice until now. Peter honestly couldn't be more infatuated with her than in this moment.

Y/n opened her eyes when she felt a presence and blushed when she saw Peter standing by the door smiling at her.

"Your voice is beautiful Y/n." Peter walked towards the bed and placed the cookies down then looked at the her and smiled when he saw her blush more.

"Thanks Pete." She bashfully smiled back and they stared at each other for a bit until she finally worked up the courage to say this next thing.

"Um, do you wanna dance with me? I mean you don't have to but I just love this song and I've always wanted to dance to it but-"

Peter cut her off with a smile "I'd love to."

They both stood up and faced each other in the middle of the room. Y/n moved closer and placed her hands on Peter's shoulders and Peter hesitantly put his hands on her waist. They then started to sway as the music softly played in the background.

Don't you see me I

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And don't you need me I

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And on this night

And in this light

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And maybe you will change your mind

Y/n moved closer to lean her head on Peter's chest and he hoped that she wouldn't notice how fast his heart was beating in that moment. He wanted to tell the girl how he felt about her so badly but he just didn't want to risk losing their friendship. She just made him feel so many things that he couldn't help but want more than this.

According to your heart

My place is not deliberate

The feeling of your arms

"I can hear the gears in your head turning rapidly Pete. Penny for your thoughts?" The girl on his mind chuckled and looked up at him smiling. God he loved her smile.

"It's-It's nothing I just-" he sighed and she tilted her head in confusion, waiting for him to finish.

I don't wanna be your friend

I wanna kiss your neck

Screw it he thought and leaned in until his lips connected with hers. Y/n's eyes widened for just a split second before she closed her eyes and kissed him back. Her hands tangling into his soft brown locks while his hands gripped her waist and pulled her closer.

They both pull back when air was needed and Y/n leaned her forehead against Peter's. They both were smiling at each other and the latter spoke up.

"I've been wanting to do that for the longest time you know." He chuckled softly and she giggled and pressed a kiss to his cheek.

"Me too Peter." They both shared a laugh and with that they leaned in to kiss once more as the song was finishing it's course.

Don't you see me I

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And don't you need me I

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And on this night

And in this light

I think I'm falling, I'm fallingforyou

And maybe you will change your mind

[titanicfreija]

Sunny is excited, Ghost and Rex are not as loud about it but they're waiting their turns anyway.

(I don't have followers, so I just answer all of them cos I wanna)

Sunny

1. I helped her pick it out, but she picked the book we got it from.

2. I was really uncomfortable with it, and I still don't like it, and I'm relieved that she doesn't like it either.

3. I want the bunny shell SO BAD but we haven't gotten it, yet. We'll get there!

4. Third question first, yes, a little. Mostly because of the first question's answer-- I looked FOREVER, it felt like a million years! I was looking on Earth until the Red War. I always thought maybe my Guardian wasn't dead, yet? But then after the war and so many casualties, I didn't feel any closer to finding my guardian, and I was so disappointed I just left. For the second question, it was a fortunate accident. I found her half-buried in a cave on the Reef. It was said that the dead on the Reef were in the cursed loop, but this one wasn't one of the Queen's, I think she died long before that. It was like her bones sang to me, to let me know she was in the cave, cos I was just floating right past it. I know that's a little weird.

5. I got sleepy and lonely. I know I wasn't, but just something was closed off and it felt empty and sad.

6. Once. We spent kind of a stupid amount of time running around on the Moon, messing with the Hive and hunting Nightmares. And it wasn't really anyone's fault, we were doing our usual things, I was being a flashlight and Freija was searching for momentos for Eris, and this huge ass Knight appeared behind us and he cleaved Freija's head so hard it busted her helmet. She ran away fast enough that I could fix her helmet, but he still hit us again before we could get out. He knocked her down and grabbed me in his hand, and he was squeezing and I could feel him sucking the Light out of me when Freija blasted him in the head six times. And it really took six shotgun blasts. It was terrifying.

7. I like to talk to her about what's going on in the Tower while she's cleaning her guns, we both like to hang out and watch the sky pretty much anywhere. She's a good listener. I like helping look up information about... Anything, really.

8. I love her so very much, and she's my best friend and I think I would say that even if I didn't feel her calling me from the moment I was me. She's brave and strong and tough, and sometimes she's mean or rude or brutish. I'm very happy to be her ghost.

9. Freija's is Solar. Me...? Probably void, but solar is close second.

10. It that became Many. Honestly, I've felt so cut off since we broke up (ha), the only thing worse was being suppressed.

11. Absolutely! I've never doubted. (I've had some trepidation on what she was becoming, but I've never had to worry long.)

12. I like the red cloth drapes over the top of the bazaar arbor in particular.

Rex

1. No

2. I don't care what he uses. At this point, I'd be happy to see some ambition. (I kinda like stasis. It's... Minty.)

3. I like the Hunter guardian games shell, but I use the Warlock one.

4. A while. I gave up looking for a long time, and I found him by chance. I wasn't jealous, just confused.

5. Cold

6. No

7. I just like it when he stops being useless. I like watching him in the lab and helping in the field, but these days he just sits around theory crafting about the Traveler on the couch

8. Thomas is a lazy good-for-nothing who spends way too much time thinking and not nearly enough time doing. He's embarrassing.

9. Personally, void.

10. It's the REAL guardian of humanity.

11. I. Just. He's got SO MUCH POTENTIAL IF HE WOULD JUST TRY-- yes, I would, but that's a really soft yes.

12. The hangar on the walkways above the ships.

Ghost

1. No

2. Kinda. I don't like it, but I'm practical enough to get over it.

3. Just a basic, simple shell for me, maybe with little patterns. I do like to play with shaders.

4. Not long at all. We both got lucky there. It was only a surprise because of how soon it happened, we hardly knew what Risen were.

5. Oh that sucked so so much

6. Yes! Kind of a lot, depending on where you wanna draw the line at "almost". In situations where it was likely, but not imminent, like every other year. Plain, only-survived-by-luck-and-quick-thinking, several times, with Three scraping us out of a narrow spot.

7. We like to listen to music together, and we play board games

8. Three is my Guardian. She means a lot to me, and I want to keep her safe, and she protects me.

9. Solar

10. It's... Been... Complicated.

11. Yes. I like her. She's had some moments, but we've only had a few interpersonal rifts.

12. The Annex in the fountain.

Questions for Ghosts!

A Guardian would be nothing without their Ghost.

1. Did you name your Guardian?

2. Would you be against your Guardian wielding Darkness? If they already do, what’s your opinion on that?

3. Do you have a favourite shell? Where did you get it, if you have it?

4. How long did it take you to find your Guardian? Were you surprised when you did find them? Were you ever jealous of Ghosts who found their Guardian before you?

5. What did it feel like during the Red War, to have your Light suppressed?

6. Have you ever almost been killed? What happened?

7. What things (outside of missions) do you like to do with your Guardian?

8. Describe your Guardian and what they mean to you!

9. Do you have a favourite out of Solar, Void and Arc?

10. How do you view the Traveller?

11. Would you still choose to resurrect your Guardian, knowing who they are now and what they’ve become?

12. What’s your favourite place in the city?

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*Long Post, But If You Like Reading Please Read*

So I've decided to take on a huge project that probably SHOULD have been done sooner, but I don't think COULD have possibly been done sooner. So here's the story and here's the project:

!STORY TIME!

I was a creative writing major in college... However, I have not written anything for a year, and the whole year prior to that, every time I sat down with a notebook or at the computer it was torture. I used to save my creative writing homework for last cause I knew I'd enjoy it, but my final year that wasn't the case. I was told in my creative writing classes that my writing - if it was good enough - would protect me. It would protect me from those embarrassing moments I was writing about, and from the anger of other people because when it breaks down to it, it's a story and we read for good stories. Well, that wasn't the case. My writing was good, and that wasn't the case. Rob was wrong. I was wrong.

Then enter two years of depression followed by anxiety. Pretty much convinced I had no support from anyone in my life and then at the same time my anxiety started making up conspiracy theories about myself... how convenient. I stopped going to church, I stopped really believing in God [like I KNEW, but like... do you even care? Clearly not, so why do I put my trust in you? Type thing]. Through a very emotional night I confessed what I had been holding in for months about my confusion, bitterness and anger to Evan and of course Evan suggested I start going back to church but I was so reluctant. I didn't want to, but any time I went with him I felt almost as if my body had been full of static (like TV static) before church, and after it was like living with a clear screen. I could breathe for a little bit.

So this one day, I am sitting at work, minding my own business and this little girl comes in and gets a french manicure. Conversations take off and she starts telling me how her Dad's a pastor and I started to open up a little bit about my story and my doubts and that I grew up in church yada yada yada. So she invited me to her church... and feeling like it was maybe God finally paying attention to me again, I went. And I continued to go for a couple of months. They were warm and welcoming and EVERYTHING I WANTED... but any time there were events, my schedule didn't match up and I started to think that even though Solid Rock was what brought me back into the habit of going to church, maybe that wasn't where I was supposed to be. Which sucked cause there were a lot of amazing people there.

So then this one day I was tapping through Instagram stories and my friend from freshman year of college had posted this quick story about the church she had started going to, 2|42. I sent her a quick message about what it was like, and she was happy to respond. I then texted Evan and said "we are checking out another church." I swear I could hear his eyes roll through the phone.

Showed up at 2|42 and it was kind of everything I wanted, but for the longest time couldn't find a way to connect so while I was still going to 2|42 I was looking around at other churches... being me and preparing for the future I was already thinking "okay, I want my kids to be able to be in JBQ and Missionettes..." but I felt God pull me back and kind of tap me on the shoulder and remind me that I don't know what the future holds or if I'm still gonna be around the area for that. I had so much else to worry about before I worried about JBQ for my currently nonexistent kids. So focusing on the now, I ended up staying.

In the meantime with all of this going on, (excuse the language, but I can't find a better way to describe it...) shit hit the fan in my own personal life. I was battling with my roommate pretty much almost on a daily basis, feeling left out - on purpose - belittled, ignored and I honestly don't know what I ever did to her. As well as the Gymnastics Club board was having issues and I cared way too much about them that their stubbornness and my will to fight for myself was causing issues. When it came to personal interactions between people I called friends, I knew that I was no longer this sweet innocent freshman, I had some dirt on my hands, blood on my face, and in a lot of ways I wasn't afraid to show it. Creative writing encouraged me to un-sensor my work, so you could say my vocabulary expanded. It taught me how to talk about things in my writing that I typically wouldn't talk about. Personal thoughts, experiences, family issues, fears, intimate conversations and connections with friends. But in most conversations it felt like I would have been more respected by the people that surrounded me in my everyday life, if I had just stayed sweet and innocent, and never stood up for myself... or had never even written at times. It was as if they respected me as a Christian when I was 100% all about Jesus all the time, but didn't respect me/my beliefs when I was struggling with my faith - which is a common thing to struggle with. It was as if loosing my innocence was what lost me respect which was strange because everyone else was allowed to lose their innocence and they were welcomed with open arms into the club of people that could earn the "Platinum Certificate of Depravity." So after a night at sidetracks, I said goodbye to Dave, told him I loved him and I remember closing the door that night and deciding I needed a break.

The weeks that followed were ones where I was realizing that if I wanted to keep my income (as a nail technician) I would have to retire from gymnastics. I could not pull out one final season. So the plan was to talk to the board and strike a deal to keep my position without doing gymnastics for one last year and see if anyone wanted to be "trained" to take it over from me. But if it hadn't been for a warning from a close friend, I would have been blindsided when told that the board had not only talked about it without including me or notifying me, but had also decided that in order to continue making the videos for the team for the 2018 - 2019 season and posting on the Instagram and promoting the club... not only would i be doing that for free, but I would also have to pay the FULL 210 club dues. Without doing any of the gymnastics that came along with it. Which was the reason we were all there to begin with. I wasn't going to pay to do a job I should be getting paid for, and I wasn't going to pay to record everyone doing things I wished i could still physically do... which by the way, sucks. So I quit right then and there, handed over passwords and walked away. I gave away most of my leotards a month ago. *Not belittling the club or the current board, I am just explaining my decisions and how it felt.*

But it really left me feeling alone. All I had was work, Evan and my roommates. However, 2|42 was promoting this thing called ROOTED. If you joined there was a chance you would become a small group afterwards, so after weeks of saying no, I finally said yes. The group was a total God thing, and tonight was the first night since quitting the gymnastics club and completely walking away from it that I felt like I was going to - in all aspects of my life - be okay.

So... with that being said, I have been thinking about it, and it is about to be a huge project. But I have gone through, removed all previous pieces of writing from my blog, it is currently "Under Construction". This will take MONTHS. But I have started writing again. It is darker, and heavier and not what one would expect. However, I want to show the transformation of my life through my writing. From the moments of lost friends, to realizing that I had lost them, to the issues that followed, with the loss of faith, to feeling - like I said - covered in dirt, scares, lies, pain, drama, ultimatums and the struggle between wanting to break away from it all and become someone or something else or becoming and embracing the person you are meant to be with all of your dirt all over you. Innocence gone, friends gone, yearly traditions gone, mock awards gone, potlucks gone, Halloween and Christmas parties gone, leaving group chats, exiting conversations... to this life that has gone from a bad reputation to someone who is reclaiming it. Surrounded to alone and from alone to surrounded. From unforgivable to forgiven. From supported to unsupported from writing stories to writing poetry, from innocent -> Guilty -> Forgiven and finally a story of life without God to a life with God.

I would really love the support from anyone who enjoys reading. You can follow the link and click on the follow button or (with that button) set up an email that will be linked when I first re-launch it. I will probably share this again, but I am really excited to "relaunch" something that has had such a negative impact on my life and turn it into something I am proud of.