#Idk abt u but this made me feel a little less lonely lol

[catboydreamer]

author notes: I am a scara awkward at romance type of person

okay so he wouldn’t be discreet at all 

though he would definitely try to hide because it’s embarrassing 

like he had gone to the shop and bought you flowers and chocolate. 

mind you, he spent an agonizing amount of time in the valentine aisle trying to figure out what the fuck to get you. 

and of course, he starts sweating and losing his mind, swearing up a storm in the store. it’s fine, it’s fine.

he eventually settles on something but cannot help chewing his lip raw as he waits to check out his items. genuinely, he’s losing his shit and wants to bolt from the store and go back home.

only thing that stops him is the potiental of seeing your face fall and the avoidant gaze you’d give him.

because he knows you won’t directly tell him how you feel about such a thing. 

you weren’t supposed to be home yet. he had prepared for you to be at work for another two hours. two hours he needed to prepare for Valentine’s Day. 

he tries to hide the items behind his back but a tint of red peaks out.

your gaze locks onto it, but with a smile you turn on your heel and walk away. 

“I need to pick up a few things from the store.” it was only a half lie. 

as soon as you get out of the house you can’t the goofy smile that breaks across your face. 

he’s trying. for you.

when you waltz in there’s a scene you can’t quite seem to forget. a small, old candle set as a centerpiece on the table. in front of it lies a bouquet of followers, laid to the side. then, on the right, a heart shaped box of what you hope is chocolates. the icing on the cake? a folded up piece of paper.

you take the paper into your hands, carefully unfolding the contents until you can take it in. 

in the back of your mind , you wondered where he was but most thoughts vanished as you read the words. 

im not a big fan of holidays and suck at this ‘romance’ shit. still, I wanted to try , knowing how much it means to you. just know that I love you, and can’t wait to spend more time with you.

there’s a huge grin on your face by the end of it. 

fortunately you look up to see Scaramouche, face fully tinting redder by the minute. 

your favorite part is his ears but unfortunately they are quite hidden by his messy hair today. 

you make a small gesture with your hand that’s in your own special language for ‘come here’.

he instantly obliged and sinks into your embrace. 

you feel his shaky breath against your neck. it’s almost nice.

your arms wrap around his shoulders, as you push him as close to you as you can.

“I’m really happy. I love it so much.”

There’s a definite long stretch of silence before he whispers, “im glad.”

[slytherinshua]

He's just precious. I definitely need to watch some of his live performances! I love it when artists really get into the music. Yechan is quite fun to watch, he seems to get quite into it. And Wonsang!! I love it when he is making faces while playing bass (generally I'm reacting the same way to his parts ahaha)

People are honestly so tough to deal with sometimes lol. I'd become a recluse if I could ahaha. I was talking about this with my brother once, when I finally have enough money to move out (not anytime soon 😭) I NEED to live with someone else. Partly for safety, but also because if I don't I'll become a hermit and never leave ahaha (also because I despise cooking and there is a very real possibility that I'll just starve instead lol). I'm glad you enjoy talking to me, I do too! (Feel free to message me anytime too!)

That's exciting, I hope it goes well!! Are you working towards grades or anything? Or do you just go along with music that you want to learn? Lessons on zoom seems interesting, online classes were hard enough sometimes so music lessons must have been something else. It is literally so hard to find motivation to practice! Like I want to be better, but I don't want to practice ahaha. Although I use to really have to practice because my mum taught me for a while so she'd definitely know if I didn't 😭

Oh wow you were so close to them!! I'd probably forget to how to pose as well, although I can't really pose in general without it being awkward lol. That's really cute that he was telling you what he was going to do

i remember my favourite hyunsang song (or maybe favourite song of all time in general) is snowflake and i watched the live of it and there's this one part where he looks back at his band/orchestra behind him and just smiles so widely before he goes up onto the lifted platform to do his guitar solo AND IDK IT MADE ME EMO CAUSE I NEVER SEE THAT BIG SMILE FROM HIM HES SO CUTE (here if u wanna see it btw)

yechan is always so mesmerizing to watch he gets SO into the music and playing you just can't take your eyes off of him!! wonsang always has fun with it and dances, smiles so wide, or focuses really hard when hes doing hard parts on the bass i just love him i could talk about him all day

yeah and its pretty bad i don't have like any interaction irl its all online and im kinda thankful for that because its a lot easier to deal with interactions online than in person its a lot less stressful 😭😭 but i never go outside i swear 😭😭 i feel like i would get so lonely if i was living alone even though i don't tend to think of myself as someone who needs in person social interaction... but i think it would build up and hit hard if i no longer had people around me to talk to even a little every day like my family.... hehe i will its so fun to talk to you ^^

rn i do plan to take another music exam probably grade 6 since that'll be the easiest to do. i need it for a high school credit so we'll see how it goes. i've done grade 3 and grade 5 in the past and got first class honors both times i think but it's still extremely stressful i think i cried both times lmao 😭😭 technically im more grade 8 or 9 piano but i don't want to do a higher level when i don't need to and haven't been playing for a year so we'll see how grade 6 stuff goes.... online lessons for piano were interesting for sure 😭😭 it was harder to do stuff like ear training and having the teacher not like exactly there with you made it harder to progress... i also forgot abt my piano lesson times a lot and would oversleep 💀 i really lost motivation to practice around the same time i was getting burned out because of school idk... back in 2020 i was so motivated with piano i would practice so much and that's actually why after i finished my grade 5 exam i progressed like 3 levels right after. i remember getting the grade 6-7 books but all the pieces were so easy in them all of sudden just cause of how much i practiced lol. but now i think i'm gonna struggle a bit to pick things back up before it gets easy again. damn having your mom as your teacher must've been hard but also nice in a way i assume?? i remember my mom used to bribe me with stuff to get me to practice, and one time i wanted to quit and she would not let me which was good cause i would've regretted it so hard but at the time i was not happy that i couldn't quit 😭😭

i remembered a pose for the second pic we took but for the first one my mind was just so blank, party cause i didn't know we were gonna do group photo immediately and also cause sangyeop was RIGHT there talking to ME. like he literally told me to sit i prob would've been fine if he hadn't spoken but like he did so ITS HIS FAULT FR 😭 i wanted to follow the pose he said he was gonna do and i did for the second pic since he said a heart pose but like damn my brain didn't want to understand what a flower pose was....

[cursedbunniii]

i miss all my posts. i miss all my messages. i miss all the asks and replies i got. i miss all my old moots from years ago i still checked on. i miss all of my tags. i miss all of my sideblogs. i miss all my posts. i miss getting traction and activity and interactions. i miss not feeling alone. i miss ppl relating to me and telling me so. i miss eveyrthing ppl said to me. i miss my archives. i miss all my blogs... so many sideblogs. i miss all of my pinneds. i miss it all. i miss it sm. i miss my only safe space i've ever had on the internet and irl. i miss that ppl were nice to me. i miss that even if i am all alone and dont have anyone to talk to or send pics to or share my thoughts with, i had my blog and ppl who made me feel not so lonely. what even is the point in any of that now? when i started having a blog like i didnt even think i would ever have interactions bc i have never had that on any platform lol. but it really did make me feel less alone. i miss all my old moots.... i miss all my old posts. i sometimes got notifs abt ppl finding my old posts and posts i'd forgotten abt and it was just fun to see it again. i miss all of it. i miss feeling safe and comfortable bc i dont anymore. now i can feel how ppl either dont care abt me or dont see me or simply judge me. i cant talk to anyone anymore. i cant reply to the few messages i get. i just cant. even if i know it probably isnt true, i feel paranoid and like everyone are playing a trick on me. i feel desperate and sad because i know now i really will fade away. rotting away all on your own isnt as scary when other ppl are there to acknowledge u or relate to u or stuff like that. i have never mattered irl. and i know i truly know how fucking pathetic this sounds but i felt a little bit like i mattered just the teeniest bit bc ppl like witnessed my blogs (not only main but multiple of my sideblogs. like ppl even requested moodboards from me sometimes?!?!?!). but now im back to being a ghost again and this sounds so dramatic... i just dont want a real life. i dont. i hate ppl irl. i hate school. i hate work. being on here and posting dumb thoughts and making moodboards and vent wdits and posting a fkn pic of a snail and getting interactions and ppl saying nice things was enough to make me feel a bit ok. now what???? and im so jealous bc like.... this is abt specific ppl lol but they talk abt being lonely (which everyone feels and i know that!!!) but they are being seen and witnessed and loved by their bfs. i dont even have a bf!!!!!!! i think i'd feel ok having a blog and only interacting w him. but i feel like he wouldnt even be interested in seeing my blog. he isnt now. and hasnt been for so lomg. he only liked my sideblog where i posted dark knk stuff that is only a fantasy and not real life for me. i feel like he doesnt care abt me lmao. anyway. i miss my account and idk what to do know. i really really really did not believe i would get that termed. like. i didnt even post any fkn gore or sh like they say i did. or are they talking abt all my vent text posts? like they dont even tell u bc they dont care lol. but yeah i have gotten other accounts termed but i always knew why. i never thought my beloved one would get termed bc i was careful. so it was so unexpected and im just so fucking mad and sad and i feel so unimportant and alone and like. i hate evrything and evryone. i have nothing now. i have no one. im such a child. i want attention. when i was on a walk i could show and get like a few likes, the bumbers arent even important it just felt nice that a few ppl saw my existence and acknowledged that i exist. or just .. it helped to romanticoze boring stuff by being able to write abt it or post a pic or whatever. also i am so fkn sad and upset that all my documentations of my life and ups and downs and my "writings" of working out my feelings are just gone. i will never be able to read them thru. that makes me so fkn sad. idk i hate all of this. i hate every new blog i make. nothing will ever be that again. i dont want anything but how it was.

[minwooks-moved]

ok so: overall, i like the concept a lot, maybe bc it falls in line very well with their debut release (at least visually, i kinda hope we get like, a middle ground between fight inside and fireworks audibly, if u get me. like, calmer than fight inside, but hyper than fireworks) and i like that they're idk, staying consistent, it feels like they already know what image fits them well and that's nice. as for the fits, i like them all with the exception of seunghwan. im sorry i know he's your fave, but his outfit just feels a little strange to me, like the pants not matching and the headband and the left earring and... yeah. though i do kidna like the hair color, maybe if he gets a diff fit it'll be alright for me lmao. i have something to say abt yoel's sweater, but combined with the hairstyle he lowkey looks like one of the tj_beastboy fans i used to see all the time at school and uni so i can't hate it either, just wish the sweater had less/no motives on it (maybe they shouldve straight up given him tj_beastboy merch lol) nd like he has that same earring seunghwan has but here it makes sense to me bc of the overall look idk. i love what they did with eunjun's hair but the outfit... its not bad, but i feel like somethings missing. idk im not a stylist but maybe i wouldve slapped some pink-purple bandages on his knees lmao. wooyoung, seunghyun and doryun i have nothing to complain about though, they all look really good with the lone skater looks. i mean, wooyoung kinda doesnt have that going on, but he looks good with the other two to me. nyways that was really long i apologize but those r my thoughts!! nd yours?

i get what u mean !! they’ve def found their own little thing, nd i’m so 🥰 it really does fit them, so i’m super glad they’re sticking w/it <3 does seem like they’re leaning back toward fight inside-esque vibe, so it wouldn’t be too terribly surprising if they ended up matching it in sound …. though like you said, it would b pretty cute if they ended up doing something that’s like .. an in-between fight inside & fireworks.

and no worries abt not liking hwan’s 🥹 it’s a bit better than what they gave him for fireworks (🫠), but it’s still . messy like . they keep doing that w/him nd it’s so djdbdj — WHY !!!😭 they haven’t rlly styled him right since debut nd for the life of me i just . don’t know why <\3 nd yoel’s … going to b real honest nd say i don’t have Any Idea who u are referencing, however i can kinda get what u mean like ?? it’s very . he’s cute, but it’s . a wee … idk — there’s a flatness there (outside his makeup/hair) that’s v . idk … they could’ve made him match a bit better w/out the sweatshirt JEBDJD — nd also i can see what u mean abt feeling like there’s something missing with eun’s .. like it’s almost perf, but it feels a little . Empty.? like there’s a gap in accessories that’s like . a little too noticeable this time ‘round, which is super strange. :<

but w/seunghyun’s + wooyo’s + doryun’s, they somehow nailed it … to me … like they r so cute, nd they all look/feel a bit more .. comfortable / natural ? like if that makes sense .. really don’t have any abt their outfits. ^^

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

ella! as i was walking my dog past a river this morning my dream came back to me. they are usually in fragments i think somewhat due to smoking on that itty bitty every night before i sleep with a mixture of bad memory but i thought it was weird to dream of you especially bcoz of your latest venture into decoding what dreams are in the first place.. maybe it’s because you are one of the few blogs i check but i’ve been trying to think of what it meant. maybe nothing but maybe there is a hidden meaning too

anyways you were maybe 11 years old or so laying on your stomach while floating on a raft in a lake reading a book. near the shore. never did i see your face yet somehow i knew it was you. my pov was in the air maybe 30 feet and i watched you sway your feet flipping through the pages until you fell in and pulled yourself back onto the raft. the book did not get wet in the water after being submerged 0.0

soooo glad i waited until i was in a better mood to answer this anon cus when u sent it to me earlier i was in a sorry state omw to urgent care. it was the perfect time to receieve it cus i rly needed something beautiful to happen in that moment. n this rly made me feel like the world is a less lonely pplace.

i wonder what the dream meant. im not great at interpreting yet. but i know water means emotions. maybe it was a representation of you watching me trying to utilize knowlege as a way to pull myself out from my emtoions. or maybe the me that you were watching is actually you. from what ive gathred from this book im reading rn, sometimes our minds will use other ppl as stand ins for ourselves. but not always! it is confusing..im not attuned enough yet to kno the difference. i wonder if the book didnt get wet bcus the types of books i read are much more dry+factual than emotional? idk lol, just a guess !

thanku so much for telling me about this anon..im rly glad u remembered. i cant rmemeber my dream the past few nights except last night i know i kept finding little jesus figurines as i walked down the street. and something abt my mom. i keep dreaming of terrace houses in the UK. i hope i remmeber something from tonight.. #<3.

[gerrydelano]

lonely depot ask dump! i’m also putting the old ones in here to keep it contained and in one place + say thank you as it’s due without spamming the situation any more. if you sent me an ask about it and i didn’t respond, it’s in here!

i’m trying to take it easy this weekend and not dwell on it, i’m gonna put my laptop away after i get this squared, i took a good painkiller and i’m super sleepy so pbthth gonna just. rest. because i sure didn’t sit yesterday at all at work.

some of the new ones i got a little tangential oops sorry jHBKNM i’m just! keeping this all in this post from now on, is all.

starting with old ones in chrono order:

anon: Hey, I'm sorry so much shit has happened and been done to you. That sucks. I hope things improve soon, but until then we're here and we dont mind listening. I'm glad ren is there to support you.

thanks, man, i'll be okay! sometimes you just gotta bitch about it all at once when you get reminded haha. i want to try oversharing less on here in the future, i'm just a little shocked at the job thing right this minute, but i'll figure it out! i'm glad ren is here, too; would definitely be very lost without them. i appreciate the kindness, thank you 🧡

anon: I’m really sorry if this is intruding but just. *virtual hugs*

no worries! hugging you back like we are football bros who just won a big game

anon: Fuck him up Ron

will do 💪🤪

anon: so like idk what's going on w your boss but fuck them honestly

oh yeah this isn't going to end quietly

anon: damn, what a complete asshole that guy is. All the best of luck in dealing with that situation 😔

thank you, i'll be fine! my mom is angry so you know what that means :'-)

if there is any time to pull the dragon lady trope regarding my own mother it is now because Yeah. i can at least trust her to be thorough and so very angry and Not let it lie.

anon: Fuck 👏🏻 him 👏🏻 up 👏🏻 Ron! 👏🏻

i wish i hadn't asked him to clarify because it gave him a chance to cover his behind but mike even said it read to him as me being fired before we even spoke, so. when we talk on monday that'll be fun!!!! it's my mom he has to worry about LOL

AND NOW NEW ASKS

anon: Cheers dude rant all you want, fuck ya boss, hope it works out for you - also report that shit, depending on where ya at it can all be anonymous - Im so drunk btw please ignore me if you want 🥰 have a good dayy

this is so cute pbthhth thank you, it’s gonna be okay! one way or another. i don’t think i can do anything anonymously at this point here but i’m not handling this alone and something is going to get done at least, i’m sure. i hope you had a good night + are feeling okay today!

anon: i definitely understand how u feel. as a disabled person it really feels like jobs and school are just not made for us. i hope ur able to do something abt ur awful boss and im so sorry ur going through all this

yeah, you’re right, they’re not made for us. they’re made for abled people who can fit the capitalist mold better without as much “complaint” or effort. they literally were trying to act like i had to disclose my whole ass disability from the time of hiring like. 

no? you realize that’s literally Not my obligation, specifically Because people will discriminate against that and find an excuse not to hire disabled people at all? i Shouldn’t do that? and yet tbh i did anyway? to be candid about my capabilities???? and? hello?

it’s all rigged it’s all jammed it’s all on purpose they have Practice bulldozing people they do it all the time they strategically word things and go to further lengths to silence and rob us than they would even have to in order to just make the workplace accessible it’s Literally Evil. 

i’m sorry you’ve clearly faced this kind of thing, too, and i hope that you’re doing better/find better opportunities that treat you the way you deserve to be treated. 

i’ll be fine! i think we’ll be able to do something, even if it’s just... getting to give him a piece of my mind lmao hearing my mom yell at him would be just dandy. telling him he’s a manipulative, lying c*cksleeve would be very satisfying but i’d wait till i had No Tie to the place first lmao.

anon: <3 I'm sorry your dealing with all this shit, *fuck* your boss and the gm and all this shit, best of luck on throwing them to the wolves like they deserve

<3 it’ll turn out alright somehow! but yeah honestly FUCK them both tbh i have no words at this point? not even anger, just. it’s a hell of a betrayal to be spoken about the way he wrote about me in that e-mail and i’m shocked he would turn on me so fast, and for nothing. 

my mom has said some choice shit on fb messenger and it’s so funny like she wanted to fucking vague him (because he’s friends with us both on fb!!!! LOL) and literally make posts about going to the dept of labour and whatever and I had to tell her NO jhbKJNKJn but it’s like, just nice to see she has anger on my behalf ig. like

“Don't worry, we will go to EVERY agency necessary to fuck them up or close them down.  I told [my sister].... she wants to go there.  Even [boyfriend] said they are fucked up.” 

my boss told me once that “some snobby girl” came in and was SO nasty to him when she was looking for me and i wasn’t there so she THREW a pile of coupons on the counter and stormed out and i’m like. what. that’s my sister? and i asked her about it and she was horrified like... that’s not how she behaves in fucking public. like. he’s a chronic liar even when it’s so pointless! there’s no need to lie!!!! about that! about my family? you don’t even know her? hello?

this is my fave tho from my mom’s one DM i have to share this it’s so fucking funnyjhbgfrkfnkenf

like... i dunno! i feel safe with people on my side for probably the first time in my life, enough that i can have a laugh about what’s going on. so i’m really okay. and i trust my mom to help me do something about it, so fingers crossed that the wolves eat pretty fucking well come next week lol.

again - pasting this from another deleted post - thank you guys for tolerating all those posts. i know that isn't what anyone is here for and i'll clean it up later/tomorrow, but the advice i've gotten has helped me immensely so i appreciate the opportunity to talk about it and figure out my next move with some help. i really can't do this kind of thing alone considering my history and health so like. it does mean a lot to get some perspective.

i’m leaving the bigger posts i made about it up (but putting under cuts too, to keep them small) just to preserve the timestamps for when i made them and any advice i might’ve received in the replies. archiving, etc.

so! i’m not going to let it go in terms of giving up, but i’m also not going to waste my weekend stressing over it. just gonna wait until monday to see what happens when we talk and go from there. because unlike this clown, i actually have some self control and keep my word! who knew how easy it was to just do that.

EDIT 8/24/2020:

anon:  *hugs* what's happening to you is fucked up dude, you are absolutely valid in feeling the way you do, I hope your IRL friends with more legal knowledge give you the advice you need. Know that your internet fans are cheering you on!

thanks! i actually have no IRL friends save for ren who moved up here to live with me after a long internet friendship so i'm relying pretty much solely on internet pals and my mom kdjdkdjd the call did not go well because HR was actually like more or less nice (though she did say "i can promise you this is not a discriminatory company we always want to help" which was hilarious and so i had to say oh yeah i believe you, but these two chucklefucks don't seem to feel the same way about upholding those policies.) and so i might get screwed into quitting because she might actually try to get me the accommodation, even though now the issue is less me begging for that and more me reporting them for this treatment.

now i'm being asked to call HR again hm!

update: it went well enough that she told me to stay home for the week and she’s going to pay me for it so that’s very nice but who knows what’ll happen now. gonna end up consolidating all my posts and replies into one of the previous posts just to keep it all there i guess!

[actiasteeth]

♛ ryan/david

Who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: david is more likely to find ryan in his clothes

Who enunciates hand holding?: both

Who likes having their hair washed by who?: david??

Who likes to slow dance?: are they slow dancing to david’s emo ass mix cds lmao,,,, but like honestly neither of them but i’ve still got this image of them in my head where they’re either parked in like the middle of nowhere or an empty parking lot,, windows are down and the radio’s still running and they’re standing outside sharing a Real Soft Moment foreheads pressed together hands on necks hands on waists slow slow kisses subconsciously swaying to the song playing i’m weEPING

Muse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: david prob but contrary to popular belief ryan’s not above this either

Muse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: david,, ryan can stand approximately five (5) minutes of cuddling before he’s fidgety and needs it to escalate or end

Who hogs most of the covers at night?: ryan

Muse who nuzzles the others shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: uhhhhhhhhhh david

How do they share a desert? Two forks or one?: two but since ryan is fucking gross he’s making jokes abt ““just come here and let me spit it in ur mouth it’ll be so cute #relationshipgoals”

Who gets jealous more easily?: daaaaaaaaaviiiiiiiiiiiiiiid

Who gets angered more easily?: r y a  n

How do they go to sleep at night?: probably like,,, whole hours after the Average Person,, they make a conscious decision to go lie down in bed instead of passing out in front of the tv but end up just lying there for a while talking abt pointless shit or playing little games like would u rather or never have i ever or 20 questions or truth or dare etc until they get tired enough to start dozing off 

Who gets the most shoulder rubs?: david

What are there arguments/fights like? How often do they fight?: haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa when are they not fighting honestly???? they take these things that could probably be discussed civilly and worked out and blow them tf out of proportion,, someone is probably gonna cry (((see: david))))),,,,, there was this one time david Literally Died????? kind of an overreation if u ask me but i still support him

Who is more likely to throw things in fights?: ryan won’t straight up Throw things (((at least not when david is around)) but he’s broken things a few times rip,,, ghost!david on the other hand,, i can’t speak for

How do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument?: i mean,,,,,,, as their relationship has dragged on ryan’s more or less accepted it as a lost cause but,, unless he’s in like a moOD and a hALF he still gets rly fuckin affectionate and soft w him,,,, obvs he’s gonna try and get in on the whole make-up sex ordeal b/c,, like,,,, come on,,,,,,, but when it all comes down to it it rly is abt making david feel good and feel loved b/c despite everything in him telling him they should just call it off,, despite the fact that maybe it doesn’t seem like it sometimes,,, idEALLY,, ryan still wants them to be ok,,,,,,,,,, sometimes ryan will take him for a drive,, maybe they go get ice cream or some shit maybe ryan drives him out to the middle of fuckin Nowhere and leaves him there and they do some cliche romantic shit like stargazing wHO CAN SAY,,, other times they’ll just stay in and ryan will turn on a docu series or sth he thinks david might like and love on him lowkey in the meantime

Do they have nicknames for each other?: they turn insults into terms of endearment tbh,,,, ryan also calls david some rly obnoxious sappy / inappropriate shit in front of other ppl just to be fucking embarrassing

Caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: ryan gives negative fucks abt catching w/e david has (((but catch him being whiny and miserable when he Does end up sick))))))),, he’ll hang around and make sure david doesn’t get too bored or lonely and that he has what he needs,,, he keeps making david spicy ass soup like “““U GOTTA SWEAT IT OUT”,,,, keeps tryin to make him tea but he can’t brew a good cup of tea to save his life,,,,,,,,,,,,,, he’s trying his best

Who’s more likely to be patching the other’s wound?: ryan lol

Muse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: ryan

Your otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: Unrealistic

Your muse’s reaction to finding the other crying about something? And how do they make them feel better?: ryan is p much Bad at the whole comfort thing but he hates hates hates when david cries,, especially if they’ve been fighting that’s ryan’s breaking point where 9/10 times he just gives it up ((((not that he’ll actually own up to it and give an Actual Apology beyond like ““i shouldn’t have said that / i didn’t mean it”“““ at least not right away but—)))))),, expect long hugs and lots of touching in general in an attempt to soothe him,,,,,, if david’s upset abt sth that has nothing to do w him tho expect equally long hugs and attempts to make him laugh

What would they be like as parents?: they’d both be trying to be the Cool Parent™ and their child(ren) would be Out of Control as a result,, good thing they’ll never get a chance ha ha !!!!!!!!!!! not that they would have ever made it that far anyway rip

What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?: when he was younger ryan latched onto anyone that showed him any level of softness so,,, while idk if they would have been ““sweethearts”“““““ necessarily i think they could have been good friends that eventually grew to fulfill the whole friends-to-lovers narrative,, ryan would’ve loved to have someone like david around when he was growing up and i feel like that would’ve contributed to them having a much healthier dynamic now b/c like,, then david would have known a version of ryan that wasn’t so jaded lmao

Who enunciates taking a bath together?: honestly??????? idk

Who likes who playing with their hair?: i would venture to say david is the one that likes it

The place they mostly likely accidentally fall asleep together?: probably the car???????? not rly accidental but like if they go out on a drive somewhere and they get too tired to wait until they get back,, one of the few instances ryan will tolerate deliberate extended cuddling is so they can both lie down in the backseat