#ITS LIKE. UGH its not the podcasts fault it had some Issues but i did genuinely love it

[nomairuins]

caught myself being nostalgic for that damn podcast again. we need to kill connor !

[pbandjesse]

I honestly cant believe today it over. The last couple days just really flew by. It was a good couple days but this just means I start my new job tomorrow! Wild. 

I did get to see the moon last night. The way the moon path goes I can lay in bed around 11 and see the moon for almost an hour. Its great. 

And I did sleep well. The extra hour of sleep was very nice. And while I didnt wake up at 715 like I wanted, waking up at 9 allowed me to feel a lot better. Though I was sad I only vaguely remembered saying goodbye to James. 

I got up and got showered and dressed. My skin is looking great and I only have a few more days of the one. So I wont have to shower so much anymore. I will probably still take the double showers some days, but its a little exhausting honestly. 

I felt cute and good today though. I liked my outfit. I love wearing tights. It was rainy and grey and I was just in a good mood. 

I spent the morning playing animal crossing and starting to post on the new store instagram. I am pretty excited. I have already made 3 sales. Jess may back out of the whole thing. There have been some technical issues and she just doesnt really want to deal with it. But I am having a good time at least. I am going to post a few things every day for the next few weeks and make things as I go. But so far I have had great feedback. 

I had a good time playing animal crossing too because its a new month! Last night when James got home we played together for the first time in a while and doing all the halloween stuff was fun. Handing out candy and things. But now halloween is over, so I am picking up most of the pumpkins, in favor of the new mushrooms you can grow. I am going to leave the decorations up for a while longer as we collect more christmasy things. But I am excited by new things so thats pretty great. 

Around 11 I decided to go for a drive. It was raining but not to bad. But of course as soon as I left the house it started pouring. I went back upstairs to get a raincoat and then I was off. 

As I waited at the light to get on the highway, a homeless man asked for change. I did not have change so I gave him the $5 bill I had and he was super nice to me. We talked for a minute while the light was red. Someone had shot him with a paintball gun last night. I felt so bad. Then he asked me where I was from because I had an accent! I always think thats funny when people say that. James says I have a dialect for sure, and its my diction as well. Neat. 

I went out to savers. Driving was a bit scary. Despite all the work on the car, the little traction light is still coming on. Ugh. But I made it to the thrift store in one piece. 

I had a nice time walking around there. I got an amazing lobster rug and a piece of fabric. But the best find was for James. I finally found slippers for him! Except they arent just slippers, they are grey name brand Uggs. For $10. And they fit him! Amazing. So proud of myself for that one. 

I wandered around for a while though. Enjoyed my time out. Not as many weird things today. But a nice walk around. 

When I was done there I went and got lunch across the street. Continued to listen to a podcast. And then went to get some snack based groceries. 

That was a nice time. Thinking about things to put in my lunch this week. Had fun looking at the christmas stuff they are starting to put out. 

I was only very annoyed when I went to my car. Because the cart I was using locked its wheels about 30 feet from my far!! I was still in the parking lot!! Stupid cart. I had to put it in the little cart shelter and then carry all my stupid things to the car. In the rain. So then I was both wet and hot. 

I drove home. Had some issues because of 3 separate accidents that had 83 very very backed up. Making single lanes each time, but of course it was not in the same lane. 

But I still got home soon enough. 

I brought in some of my stuff. Left the heavy things in there. And did some putting away. Some cleaning. Some playing with sweetp. Helping Jess with some google issues and working on some store stuff. I got a little upset by a comment she made about how she would have given up a while ago if I wasnt so excited about the store. And like. Yeah Ive felt that from you. I told her she didnt need to do it with me, but she said she has made a lot of masks already so shes going to. But like. It makes it hard for me to feel good about being excited about something when someone says stuff like that. So I dont know what will happen on her end but I am going to keep going and try to not let it bother me. 

I decided to go for a walk. I went over to walgreens and got nail polish. And when I got home James was here! Hello boyfriend. 

We hung out for a while. And then he made me a taco. Except when he heated up the tortilla, sweetP jumped on the counter and melted his whiskers and got his face singed. I was so upset. He doesnt seem hurt at all but his face was all curly and his chin and chest are burnt. I trimmed it a bit and cleaned him off with a wet paper towel. Im more upset when he is for sure. But still. 

James felt really bad. But it wasnt anyone's fault. It all just happened really fast. 

After dinner James had trivia. I decided not to participate this week. Instead I decided to cut my hair. I put it in two pig tails and chopped off 4 inches of hair. I got a cute bob now. Very nice for the fall. 

Once I finished cleaning up my hair I took a bath. Relaxed. It was a nice time. 

I laid in bed and watched videos for a while. Then went to sit with James as the game was finishing and Lane recited Dante's amazing parody poem. And we showed off our moths. It was a goofy time. 

Now I am in bed. I am cold. James is in the shower. I am going to put a differnt sweater on and try to get to sleep quick. Because I have work tomorrow!! I dont know if I will actually have any kids. But my plan is to get to know my coworkers and set up some art bins for the kids so they dont have to share tools. I hope we eventually get some kids but not having any tomorrow will be alright. I got plans. 

I hope you all sleep well tonight. Take care of yourselves and eachother. Goodnight!

[cameiotmagazine-blog]

Shall no one mourn the death of Seeso?

 Oh Seeso. It was not so long ago that you graced our internet screens with comedy, and more comedy, and some drama. You laughed every once in a while while watching it.

Oh and then you tragically fell. The first casualty in this upcoming war approaches us. Oh! Yet no one mourned you. No one wrote long epitaphs in your honor. Well, if no one dares to do such a thing. I will fulfill that role for you Seeso. Oh you were gone too soon. A great streaming service, well a great library but we'll get to that.

Seeso, as many of you aren't totally aware of, was comedy streaming project by NBC. Given its support, it was what should have been (and this is how the story is supposed to end), the ragged upstarts breakthrough and redefine the entire generation. But it did not happen. Well, it has happened, but it did not happen in such a beautiful dramatic way, terrifying way as certainly we all hoped.

It was lead of course, by the podcasters. It was supposed to be the podcasters. Big reveal into the regular world. Of course all that stuff has been slowly seeping through. The podcasting world never got a chance to shine with its more rigorous talent. Nowhere was this more apparent than with bagillion dollar properties. Oh poor, poor sweet bajillion dollar properties. What a fallen gem you were. You were placed the Reno 911 sized hole in my heart like so few others could.

Any show that gives Paul f Tompkins a home deserves an ever-loving respect. That man is a national treasure. His mustache should be placed in the Smithsonian. His opinions on the Big Lebowski are totally off-base, but that's okay because that's his truth.

Then of course there was Harmon Quest, a great show. A fun concept based on a very popular segment of Dan Harmon's podcast, and the list goes on and on. Great comedic shows, excellent casts, perfect timing. Why oh why did this service fail? There was no reason except several very good reasons why it didn't work.

Remember when I mentioned before that it was a great library and not a great streaming service? Well this is the part that comes to. The reasons why Seeso failed as a streemong service. The first one should be obvious: it was another freaking streaming service. So the streaming history is, of course, becoming overwrought. There is too many. The market is flooded and streaming service are a lot like MMOs in that people do not really leave the one they put the most effort into.

See, it wasn't supposed to be this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way. Streaming was supposed to cheapen everything, free us from lengthy cable contracts. But I'm telling you those contracts will come back pretty soon. Shows are getting segmented, the marvel movies will be on the Disney streaming app. CBS has its own thing. Netflix will have exclusive shows. Hulu will have exclusive shows. HBO will now have exclusive shows. Amazon will have exclusive shows. I'm telling you, its coming man, its coming. There will be a company soon that packages all this crap together. There are simply too many and too few amount of money for everybody to pay for it.

There is another reason, a very practical reason. Say if you had already paid for it, like I did happily and wonderfully. I was enjoy for the 25% of the time, because the other 75%, the freaking thing didn't really work. There was always connection issues; there was always trouble.

Then the other issue - and this one is kind of a fault in design. This idea didn't work and I don't know why they did this. It was a bad, not really good well-thought out thing, is that I don't think they understood the streaming game, man. This felt clear design things of people who were slightly too old to understand or needless innovation. The needless innovation was this: Sees did not support binging. The name of the game in streaming is binging. They would play random stuff. That didn't really work. That was needless innovation for needless innovation's sake. It was difficult to operate.

So those are the fundamental reasons, probably, why it didn't work.

The other one, and this is the one that scares me. The one that I stay up all night because my favorite streaming service ever also does this. I of course talk about filmstruck. My beloved filmstruck. The one, who if it was personified as a woman, would marry on the spot and/or follow whatever dangerous cult they're plotting. And it's that Sees catered to a small specific group of people.

Now Paul F Tompkins is a genius. I love Carman Esposito and Rhea Butcher as much as any sane, logical, still-alive person can love. But I was wracking my brain recently to think of where they were ... See the thing about streaming, especially streaming exclusive things, is that you kind of need a big name. They don't all have to be big names, but you need one or two big names to be in the thing. And I would bring everybody. You know, it's the old problem of a lot of these people have critical respects or were beloved but Tompkins' of the world aren't mainstream and that sucks and I hate that they aren't. But the only way podcasts can be mainstream is if you talk about serial killers but comedy stuff - the meat and bones of what podcasts do and just not doing it. I don't know why. And they're all really funny. Maybe it's because they're probably an hour long.

Anytime I try to talk people into listening to podcasts ... Its like two hours long. But dude, what do you gotta do for like two hours. It's a commitment and you kind of have to commit to this idea, but you end up enjoying it, lovingly. So maybe Sees was never destined to survive, not with the technical issues I brought up, but maybe it was just a brief shining light in this sad world. Part of me fears that it wasn't the glorious crowning of this great comedy movement. Part of me fears that it was instead the final gasp of it. It's time now. The new generation must be coming up around this point, influenced by podcasters more than anything.

I recently took a class at UCB, and there were a lot of people, including myself, there who were fans of this type of comedy. Seeso might have been the end of the ... maybe a brave new world is upon us. Maybe its Instagram comedians. Or maybe it will great new things. I dunno. The world is new and scary and some of the change is really bad, like super duper bad like "Oh my god why did this happen?" Some of the change is good. Maybe we're all relics now. Maybe it's their turn, whoever they are. But Seeso was there and it was fun for a brief point. And I just think that should be talked about at least once. To be mourned, for walls to be banged against, for chairs to be thrown. Ugh. For somebody to write on their Tumblr "Ugh, all the feels right now." Something. Anything. Don't let this just be a cry in the night, man