#IT GOES. BOTH. FUCKING. WAYS. MY DUDE. HE HAS NO BLORBOS (OR AT LEAST HE TRIES NOT TO)

[guqin-and-flute]

I came across a post once a long time ago that said that Xichen's philosophy in life is to not ask pertinent questions so he can believe that everyone is Right and Good and my personal reading of him is...yes, but actually no?

I think that it's less of a philosophy than something of a compulsion? Trauma response? There is a very real mental block that says 'The matter is complex' and becomes uncomfortable/unwilling to take a hard-line stance one way or the other when he is confronted with 2 people/sides/arguments that he cannot completely fault. Yes, he doesn't delve into it, ask the questions that would need to be asked to know every detail. Some of that is trust, some of that is willful blindness and the line is fuzzy.

And yet, I don't think that he sees anyone as Right and Good; that's not the point of the response. He very acutely sees everything in shades of gray. His mother was kind and funny and sweet and she loved them so much--she also killed someone and no one else that he trusts will talk about it. His Clan helps people, devotes their time to fighting monsters, is so esteemed that other Clans send their kids to learn morals and stuff--they also locked his mother up, away from him and Wangji except for one day a month and then lied about where she was to the rest of the world.

He doesn't twist himself into knots trying to justify that either of these things are 100% Morally Right; he's just very honest about not knowing what Morally Right is. Except that he's also the leader of the Morally Right Sect and his Uncle's very real project of making a Responsible-And-Upstanding-Clan-Leader-Unlike-Qingheng-Jun-Thanks-For-Nothing-Bro. With all these pressures, he does shockingly well by not being neither entirely rigidly adherent to the rules, nor so much of a worried hand-wringer about not knowing who to trust. He tries to give grace everywhere he possibly can.

When Wuxian asks why his mom killed his father's teacher, Xichen very frankly and calmly says, 'I don't know.' There isn't discomfort in his face or tone;

In fact, he tosses it out with an almost studied nonchalance. He's very clearly thought about this before but he has either never asked or (more likely, in my opinion) has been dissuaded from asking about it quite vigorously at some point in his life and has been convinced that pursuing this further won't actually lead to any useful information for him.

He loves his mom. He loves his Clan. Something fucked up happened--but what else is new? He can do what he can with the power that he has and the responsibilities that comes with. Poking old wounds that have been dealt more than 2 decades ago don't really factor into anything; he can just draw his own conclusions and try not to make the same mistakes.

Like...he does his best with the trauma that he has been handed (his own and others).

[girl-of-ink]

For the ask game: Yugioh, Komaeda x Hajime, and L Death Note! Feel free to do more also, I think you should do bakugo also for the character one just 4 fun ❤️❤️

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Yugioh:

Favorite character:

Yugi!!! he's my blorbo i love him so much i'd kill 4 him

Least Favorite character:

umm yami marik scares me. his duel against mai in the manga is utterly terrifying

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

PUZZLESHIPPING! the ship ever. soulmates. they ARE canon to me i'm sorry

wishshipping! nothing like some good old yuujou <3

dragonshipping, very underrated in my opinion, atem loves jou so fucking much

would it be cheating so say feathershipping here? puzzle + wish + dragon, what's not 2 like?

heartshipping. they're cute :)

Character I find most attractive:

mai <3

Character I would marry:

anzu?

Character I would be best friends with:

i wanna hang out with yugi so bad, yuugi mutou are you free this friday let me know if u want to hang out this friday when i am free

a random thought:

nobody understands atem actually. there are like 3 fic authors who Get Him and everyone else is wrong i'm sorry

An unpopular opinion:

yugi IS a better duelist than atem. some of you know this and are correct, but many people out there are blind to the truth.

My Canon OTP:

very funny to me that there are literally no canon ships in yugioh. takahashi was like "ok i'm gonna set up the barebones for some ships" and then he just. never came back to them ever. the peachshipping scene in duelist kingdom is so cute and then it just never happens again. iconic. in my mind puzzle is canon tho so i'll go w/ that <3

My Non-canon OTP:

it's still puzzle! they're everything 2 me. in theory i like lots of other ygo ships but i only ever actually read or care about puzzle sorry

Most Badass Character:

i guess it's atem? but that's not the side of him that i like the most, i prefer him when he's just a guy

Most Epic Villain:

thief king bakura is kinda sick not gonna lie. his intro when he breaks into the castle w/ atem's dad's mummy is so cool and sexy of him

Pairing I am not a fan of:

prideshipping can never work tbh i'm sorry. the only acceptable prideshipping is insane pining kaiba and atem just being like. okay. can i go home now i want to see my partner. dude just literally does not care

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

kisara girl in another world i KNOW you would have fucked so hard

Favourite Friendship:

...it's still puzzle. am i boring you yet?

Character I most identify with:

this is kind of a hard question. i don't think i'm that similar to any of them actually. but i guess atem is my uwu sadboy that i can project on sometimes

Character I wish I could be:

tbh i want yugi's life where's MY magic jewelry that has my soulmate inside it

002 | Send me a ship and I will tell you:

komahina:

When I started shipping them:

tbh immediately upon starting the game. during their first conversation i was like. yeah i'm not gonna be normal about this

My thoughts:

they're in love and they're really so very bad at it <3

What makes me happy about them:

island mode is so funny actually, komaeda is a horrible guy to date. anywhere you take him there's like a 50/50 chance of him being like. god this sucks i thought you liked me but i guess you hate me goodbye forever. and then hinata shakes it off and goes out with him again. over and over. obsessed with the unpredictability of this man. he is SO bitchy and high maintenance and yet we cannot stay away

What makes me sad about them:

komaeda's attitude change post-final dead room is really both funny and very sad to play. one day he's your insane bestie who loves you so much and the next day he's like actually i hate you, you are a worthless little worm with no talent and i can't fucking stand being in the same room with you. :((((((((( bestie don't say that

Things done in fanfic that annoys me:

you can't make komaeda normal. please god you cannot do that to him. i'm so utterly obsessed with everything that's wrong with him that if you try to fix him, i will simply not read it

Things I look for in fanfic:

i really like it when fic writers are able to turn the funny repeated voice lines like "THAT'S WRONG!!!!" or "I AGREE WITH THAT!" into plot-relevant and emotionally affecting moments

My wishlist:

i want them to make out and be weird and fucked up together idk

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:

tbh i don't think komaeda could be with anyone else. hinata theoretically could go out w/ other characters, esp chiaki, but i wouldn't really care. hinanami is far too normal for me, it's the insanity of komaeda that really draws me in, so hinata could definitely go out w/ nanami, i simply would not read it or care about it

My happily ever after for them:

i guess they cure komaeda's cancer and get him to a more functional but still insane mental state and then they hang out and bother each other forever. they get married someday and komaeda still says the usual komaeda shit about "wow i'm so happy right now, i wonder who's going to die because of this :)"

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you:

L:

How I feel about this character:

he's SO cool and awesome and i like him so much.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:

yeah it's just light.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:

we barely see this, but i do like to imagine L's relationship w/ the other wammy kids.

My unpopular opinion about this character:

DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT make him normal or nice or sane. you cannot sadboy woobify this man into being a sympathetic romantic lead. he is absolutely just as insane and unethical as light and this fact must be acknowledged

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

i wish he & light had angrily made out at least once before L died. they really both needed it so bad

Favorite friendship for this character:

i guess maybe naomi?

My crossover ship:

tbh i simply do not have any crossover ships for anything. ships stay in their canon for me

Bakugo

How I feel about this character:

i literally cannot stand him. he may be one of my least favorite fictional characters ever written. he sucks so bad that he drives me completely insane every second he's on screen. i would kill him if i saw him irl

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:

kirishima, i guess? but i don't like care about it bc that would involve caring about bakugo.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:

like. bakugo & going to therapy? bakugo & staying dead this time ???

My unpopular opinion about this character:

HE SUCKS. SO BAD. HE DOESN'T EVEN HAVE ANY EXCUSES HE'S JUST TERRIBLE

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

i wish he would die❤️ or at the very least he should go to therapy, apologize to izuku, and then never show up onscreen again

Favorite friendship for this character:

i don't care

My crossover ship:

no