#IS IT SO HARD TO JUST /ASK/ NORMALLY WITHOUT HAVING TO ADD THE POINTLESS JAB TO THE END TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT ABOUT MYSELF | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

amitheonlyonezenaroundhere · 8 years ago

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my parents are like red bull they forget in a nano second if you've done something right by them and then drown you in criticism and negativity after one thing they deem a "mistake" and act like you're such a big problem that never does anything useful

#they complained about my sleep schedule so i fixed it #they complained about the amount of time i spent on my laptop so i haven't even opened it in days #they complained about me not doing anything so i helped my mom with errands #i helped prepare the stuff for my dad's birthday yesterday #i agreed to take care of the cooking today bc my mom has a cold #i already made the porridge she taught me how to make #the only other thing i had to do was cook chicken #it's not even 3pm so i figured i have loads of time so why hurry bc we won't be eating it until tomorrow anyway #but no now i'm lazy and have an attitude problem bc i wasn't doing everything right after the other #and god forbid decided to lie down on the sofa bc i get physically tired so easily nowadays #i might as well not have done anything at all i get the same condescending jibes either way #''you could be doing something other than lying on the sofa''#''if you ever manage to get up you could do this thing''#and if i get annoyed by it and say they could just ask me without the mean tone and i'd come help or do the thing they're asking for #i just get told to go back to the couch if it's so difficult for me to be cooperative #''well we can't ask you to do anything since you just get mad whenever you have to get up and leave your phone''#IS IT SO HARD TO JUST /ASK/ NORMALLY WITHOUT HAVING TO ADD THE POINTLESS JAB TO THE END TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT ABOUT MYSELF #i love how they were both there as my doctor and therapist told them i tire fast and need time to rest bc of various shitty reasons #and they acted like they understood and blah blah but if i show this symptom in action it's like a red cloth to them #and after you get yelled at for unfair reasons you just want to be by yourself and maybe cry #but they'll just use that as more ammo to drive in their point that you're lazy and will do anything to get out of doing things #fun times with the family #if you don't hear from me again maybe i've finally gathered enough courage to go drown myself 👍

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