#IM SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG BUT I DEADASS COULDNT THINK OF A GOOD PROMPT

[captmickey]

+✏️ Marley-Threepwood family shenanigans?

Lucas always found ways to entertain himself during the long span of sailing. Whether it was coloring, helping Uncle Winslow with the maps, or reading, he found ways to subside his boredom for a few hours at a time.

Unfortunately, it was just that: a few hours at a time.

This particular sail was longer than usual thanks in part to the winds not being in the ship’s favor (or so he heard his father grumble) which, unfortunately, meant the usual activities he would do was not sufficing at the moment. He trudged to the wheel of the ship where his mother was currently helming, hopped himself up on the crate and let out a very apparent and very loud sigh of boredom.

“Everything alright, sweetie?” Elaine asked, side eyeing him ever so slightly.

“Bored.” Lucas huffed. 

“You don’t want to color?”

Lucas shook his head.

“Read?”

Another head shake.

“....Sort maps?” She asked, hesitantly, however.

“No.” He let out another huff. “I can’t think of a thing to color, I read all my books and Uncle Winslow is with Auncle Anemone so I can’t help with the maps.”

Valid point, she knew Winslow got rather cross when the maps were sorted incorrectly. “I didn’t think we were out of books already… hmm… what can we do to have some fun?”

“I dunno.” Lucas plopped his back on the crate, kicking his little feet slightly.

“Just like your father, I swear….” she muttered under her breath but then quickly lit up. “Just like your father…. Oh. I have a wonderful idea for you.”

—

With a final tug of the rope, Lucas hopped off his father’s desk. A smile beaming on his face.

While he ran out of books, drawings, and maps to play with, making puzzles was an endless supply for this little Marley-Threepwood. 

Lucas took a few steps back, eyeing his handy work. The amount of ropes that were zig-zagging were a bit excessive, even by his own standards, but for what his mother asked him to try and solve, it was doing the trick just fine. 

The puzzle, his mother asked, was to find a way to make a system to help bring an item from one side of the room to the other.

(“And for this sake, start in a smaller room.” Elaine added.)

Well, he thought, what better start than in his parents’ room? His father was always going back and forth between the journals on the bookshelves and the random knick-knacks that were in the treasure chest, surely this was the ideal and perfect place to run such a puzzle.

“Now to find the test subject.” Lucas spoke to himself, opening up the treasure chest. He needed something that was not too late but not too heavy, but enough to see if the rope could hold. Practically falling into the chest and kick his legs, Lucas dug around until…

“Aha!” He beamed, pushing himself out. In his hands was a weird looking horse head made of metal. He never did know what it was for, and according to his father…. Neither did he.

(“Stan gave it and insisted it would help.” Guybrush recalled.

“Did it?” Lucas asked.

“....no.”

“So why do you still have it?”

“Um… reasons?”)

Lucas tied the rope through the horse’s eyes, securing it tightly. Now all he had to do was go to the otherside of the room, hit the activation switch and–

“You sure it’s in here?” Guybrush’s voice called out.

“Positive!” Elaine’s voice projected. 

Oh. Clam dip.

Before Lucas could warn his father, before he could run and stop the activation, Guybrush opened the door and inadvertently freed the rope from it’s restraint, letting lose the flying unicorn head at full force.

“Dad, look out!” Lucas shouted, hoping he could warn him in time.

Instead, Guybrush mumbled a ‘huh’, looked up from his paper and saw the incoming projectile and grimace. 

“Oh fu–!”

The papers fluttered in the sky like snow as Guybrush collapsed hard onto the floor, his eyes shut from the world as he laid there motionless.

“Dad!” Lucas screamed and ran over, trying desperately to shake his father awake. Neither a groan or a mumble was heard as he stayed still and the young pirate felt his eyes prickle with tears. He kept shaking him, over and over and over again but Guybrush wasn’t responding.

Lucas stood back, his breathing hitching and ran out of the room, screaming as loud as he could in absolute tears.

“MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!”

—

Guybrush sat in the galley with a cold rag pressed against his forehead. Having been knocked one too many times in the head didn't anger the Mighty Pirate, not in the slightest. He would even argue that if he didn't get hit in the head then that there was a sign for alarm. 

But having been knocked out cold by his own son? Yeah… that was definitely alarming.

Especially so when he regained consciousness to a concerned Elaine and a wailing Lucas who was swearing up and down that he didn't mean to kill him.

("I assure you, it will take a lot more than that to kill him." Elaine softly spoke.

"WHAT?!" Lucas cried harder. 

Elaine quickly backpedaled and tried to calm him once more before Guybrush mumbled how mommy was right.)

"So, if I hear you right, you tried to do a pulley system with my items?" Guybrush asked Lucas, still being held by Elaine who only just managed to calm his crying to simple sniffling. 

Lucas nodded. 

"Huh. Not bad. Might need to um… ease the speed." Guybrush chuckled.

Lucas stared… then hid his face in Elaine’s shirt. Guybrush sighed and lowered the rag. 

"Kiddo, look at me." He spoke softly, watching his son turn his head. "In all my stories, I've gotten bonked on the head at least once, right?"

"Y… yeah…"

Guybrush smiled. "Then this is nothing. Just one more bonk."

"I didn't mean to…"

"I know, I'm not upset."

"....promise?"

"Promise."

Lucas stared and slowly smiled. Calming down a bit more. 

"Your turn to apologize." Elaine then said, speaking up to Guybrush, smirking ever so slightly as she adjusted Lucas in her arms.

"My– apologize? I need to apologize?" Guybrush sounded flabbergasted. 

"Yes." She nodded.

"Why do I need to apologize?"

"For scaring him."

"For scaring Lucas?"

"Yes."

Lucas giggled in Elaine’s hold and Guybrush sighed.

[mugram]

mini analysis: censored voicelines

010: "**... **’s g***."

"Ah... It's gone."

not too sure. didnt really have much to work with here.

009: "* c**'t ** a**t*in* ***e *o* **em."

"I can't do anything else for them."

took me a long time to get those middle ones but when i noticed the "t*in*" i figured it was "thing".

008: "*’* s****."

"I'm sorry."

easiest one so far ngl. voting forgiven just for that.

007: "**– N*, **, t**s ***n’t s**p*s*d t* h***en–"

"[???]– No, no(?), this wasn't supposed to happen–"

that first one could be another no or an "ah" idk but it doesnt really matter either way.

006: "* n*** t* *** h** b**k, **** it!"

"I need to [???](win?) [???](him/her?) back, damn it!"

yeah this one is mostly speculation. i could be totally off with the him/her thing.

005: "Y**, i*’* b*** d**e. ***d ** *ve* n*w."

"[???](yes?), it's been done. [???] is over now."

deadass this one had me googling words with 4 letters starting with b. couldnt figure out the most important word??? cries.

004: "H**. H** un***e**ed."

"[???](huh? hah?). How [???](unaffected?)."

:( its hard

003: "Y*u sh**ld h***e kn*** t*** ***n’t g**d f*r th*m. **u s****d h*v* ***w* **i* ***n’t *oo* **r t**m. Th**’*e d**d b**au*e o* y*u."

"You should have known this wasn't good for them. You should have known this wasn't good for them. They're dead because of you."

oh my god. thank you. this was easy. thank you for being simple.

002: "S***!! F***! Th*s wa**’t s*****ed ** h***en! W* sh**ld h***e l**t w**n ** *a* th**– D*** i*!"

"Shit!! Fuck! This wasn't supposed to happen! We should [???] [???](left? lost?) when we had [???](that? this? them?)– Damn it!"

bro thinks hes fuuta lmaoo but yeah im a bit stumped.

001: "Y*u c**’* ** s****us… The* c*n’t **..."

"You can't be serious... They can't be..."

why so serious? -the lawyer

[heyitsyn]

Keeping Up With Seijoh Ep. 1

a/n: this is a mini-series that are based off of your asks and once i,,,,, finish,,,, my seijoh phase, i will also do this for the other schools but pls take these offerings in the meantime as i work on the next part of my manager!seijoh and the time traveler au 

for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!

anon request: 

Wow, your series of Seijoh managers is so cute.🥺👉👈 After starting to read, I can only think about Oikawa and y / n on a Saturday night seeing mean girls, painting nails, taking care of the skin and the another day Oiks rubbing the face of everyone who spends much more time with his dear businessman LMAOO Anyway, congratulations on your work 💕💕 seriously, I LOVE this series omg-

I MIGHT BE AN IWA AND KYO STAN BUT OIKS IS DEFINITELY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND PRETTIEST DUMPSTER IVE EVER SEEN

yep lets start the pilot

so basically, oikawa was being oikawa again

what might i mean, you ask

well, he was starting to work much harder than before since this was his last ever inter-high and his last ever chance on beating ushiwaka 

even though they finally have the team assembled avengers assemble! with kyo back on the team, he still felt lacking and wanted to use every single free time to work on becoming better

yall fun fact about me, oikawa is actually my favorite character bc of how hard he works and the pain i have in that once scene during the karasuno match when he slammed into the tables and was struggling to get up bc of his knee----NO IM SOBBING AGAIN

iwa noticed him doing this again so he sent you out to drag him out and distract him from this 

‘cmon oikawa-san-’

‘NO, Y/N-CHAN! I HAVE TO-’

‘no, the only thing you have to do is spend time with me bc i miss you and i want to have that movie you kept talking about’

bahahaha he is so whipped that a single ‘i miss you’ from you will literally make him break his back and bend for you

it was successful and you were in your room, your parents understanding oikawa and his antics since youve complained about it before, and he was sitting on your floor while looking through movies

‘y/n-chan, do you have no alien movies in here? or barbie?’

IN MY CONTENT, IT IS CANON THAT OIKAWA LOVES THE BARBIE MOVIES FITE ME

you laughed from your spot on your bed and shook your head

‘no, oikawa-san. natsu took all my barbie movies and i get scared of alien movies’

he pouted but continued to look until his eyes literally lit up

it was like god took a picture of him and you saw the flash

‘MEAN GIRLS! Y/N-CHAN I DIDNT KNOW YOU LIKED THIS TYPE OF MOVIE!’

he shrieked but you shrugged

‘meh. katsuki, natsu’s boyfriend, gave it to natsu as a joke but he gave it to me instead bc he cannot stand regina george’

you reasoned while picking out nail polish colors and looking through the ingredients of your face masks

‘WE’RE WATCHING THIS! PERIODT!’

omg hes so loud but i am too so we compatible

ugh i hate my logic

then later,

as the movie played, you were arguing with oikawa as he refused to wear the unicorn and wanted the panda one, which was your favorite

‘OIKAWA-SAN, I LIKE THIS ONE!’

‘Y/N-CHAN I LIKE IT MORE!’

you sucked in a sharp breath before relenting bc you wanted oikawa to be relaxed per request of your beloved senpai

‘fine. but i get to paint your nails’

he nodded eagerly and you handed him the packet, to which he simply stared at it

‘y/n-chan, can you,,,, put it on me?’

he sheepishly asked and you gave him a confused and bewildered look

‘oikawa-san, have you never put these on yourself?’

he shook his head, cheeks flushing and eyes focusing on the blue blanket

‘my sister always put it on for me. or iwa-chan’

‘IWA-?! wHAT-?!’

but you nodded anyways and he made you sit on his lap to put it on

‘um, oikawa-san, this position-’

he smiled at you, a gentle and real smile, not the ones for his fangirls

‘nuh uh, its fine, y/n-chan. oikawa-san loves you so he likes you right here’

he mumbled, blushing and wrapping his arms around your waist to pull you closer making you giggle and nod

‘okay. close your eyes then, oikawa-san’

he excitedly nodded, expecting a kiss from you but you flicked his forehead making his eyes fly open and wince at the pain

‘so perverted, oikawa-san. pervert-oikawa-san’

you scolded and he pouted

he said something but you didnt listen, instead placing the mask on his face and smoothing it out

his fringe was about to touch the wet material so you hastily grabbed a clip and held his hair up

he looked so cute that you couldnt help but reach over and snap a picture of him

‘ara ara gomen did y/n-chan just take a picture of oikawa-san?’

he teased but you shook your head

‘no. what are you talking about?’

he did the same thing to you and now you were both painting each other’s nails, ofc staying loyal to your school mint green and baby blue on the ring fingernail

lmao dont blast me for not being exact w the school colors but it looks mint green to me

he finished yours first and omg?? hes so??? good?? like what???

you were holding his large hands with your small fingers and his heart started thumping really fast at the simple touch 

‘thank you,,,,, y/n-chan’

you looked up to him with large eyes, still unfamiliar with the softness of his voice

it was such a contrast compared to his usually loud and obnoxious, mocking tone

‘oikawa-san is not a really good captain since he burdens and bothers everyone but you always fix it all and keep everyone together. so, sorry for everything’

he mumbled and the eye holes from the mask let you see his sad eyes, genuinely sad about himself

you made the last paint stroke and capped the nail polish before leaning forwards, hands on his thigh so you could be closer

oikawa ofc freaked out because wow youre so much prettier up close and he doesnt?? deserve you??

your eyes blazed with anger and he stuttered your name but you cut him off

‘OIKAWA-SAN IS NOT USELESS. HE IS A REALLY GOOD CAPTAIN WHO LED HIS TEAM TO BATTLE THE ULTIMATE RIVAL AND EVEN THOUGH THEY LOST, THEY STILL WON IN MY EYES. YOU GOT KENTA-KUN TO COME BACK EVEN THOUGH HE DIDNT WANT TO BUT HE DID BC HE KNOWS HOW GOOD YOU ARE. HE WANTS TO PLAY ALONGSIDE A PLAYER WHO DESERVES TO BE ON THE COURT AND EVERYONE ELSE THINKS THE SAME THING. ME, Y/N, IS JUST A MANAGER WHO MIGHT NOT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT VOLLEYBALL OR THE TECHNIQUES AND ALL THAT BUT I RECOGNIZE YOUR TALENT AND YOU WILL MAKE IT BIG SOMEDAY, OIKAWA-SAN! I PROMISE! AND WHEN YOU DO, I WILL SUPPORT YOU AND COME TO YOUR GAMES BC YOU ARE MY CAPTAIN AND I DONT REGRET EVER MEETING YOU. SO DONT APOLOGIZE AND SAY SORRY TO ME, INSTEAD TELL ME YOU ARE HAPPY TO BE IN THIS TEAM AND SAY YOU LOVE THE TEAM AND YOU LOVE VOLLEYBALL AND YOU LOVE-’

but he cut you off, placing a chaste kiss on your exposed nose

yall really thought it was the,,,, speaking function part of your face

nahnahnah that is only for the doggie

oop what

 you stopped, flustered at the sudden action but oikawa smiled

‘i love you, y/n. i really love you so give me a chance, okay? i will wait, no matter how long it takes but,,,, let me catch up and for now, think about me, okay?’

BRUH HOW IS THAT RELEVANT TO HER LONG RANT LIKE WHAT---

you tilted your head to the side, confused

she is deadass naive like bls protect her

‘a chance for what? you want to catch up for what? youre already good, oikawa-san’

then he laughed

so much more different than the ones he let out in public

it was so,,,, beautiful

you found yourself grinning with him and he calmed down, brushing away the stray hairs that is in danger of getting stuck on your mask

‘come on, y/n-chan. lets go take this off’

he stood up and offered his hand which you took

after the moisturizing and final touch-ups for your skin, you finally settled on the blanket fort and dozed off, the movie still playing but you were too comfortable in oikawa’s arms that you didnt even notice the credits rolling

the next day, you didnt feel the need to mention it at all

but oikawa did and it was still truly an accident

iwa heard about him staying late again and you having to drag him out of there and he was hitting him and kicking him again

you were so used to this that you were just writing down your notes at the corner, oblivious to oikawa’s crying

finally, he had enough of it

‘SEE THIS IS WHY Y/N-CHAN DOESNT LET YOU SPEND THE NIGHT WITH HER! BECAUSE YOU ARE SO MEAN!’

um, sire what did you just say

that was completely taken out of context and everyone, omg, especially iwa and kyo just froze

‘what,,, did you just say?’

iwa asked in a dangerously low voice and you shrugged

‘you told me to distract him, iwa-san, so i did. he was happy and satisfied and thats all that matters, right?’

you shot them a smile and oiks had such a smug smile when iwa looked at him and he was about to hit him when kyo just came out of nowhere and YEETED the smile off of his face

oikawa screamed

just a wittle blurb about this bc i totally love this :( and he totally needs more love and some of my readers love oikawa and want oikawa manager content so here it is!!! feast on these crumbs!!!!

[rqsie]

bts fanfic recommendations.

(hiiii, these are my favorite fics ever. i highly recommend all of them. btw these are all manxwoman bc i dont really read manxman

btwww i couldnt tag all accounts cuz for some annoying ass reason tumblr only lets u tag 50 accounts.... sorry)

kim seokjin:

dont wanna fall (m) by @9uk

sugar daddy!seokjin

love bite (m) by @taetaesbaebaepsae

vampire!y/n

these wicked delights (m) by @ditzymax

incubus!seokjin

the leather loafers by @jimlingss

cinderella au (cinderella aus are superior and ofc jimlingss is a queen. everything she writes is a 10/10)

min yoongi:

heaven’s winter (m) by @matchakoo

seraph!yoongi

2.1 out of 5.0 (m) by @minflix

black mirror au

mixtape (m) by @jungblue

baby, you can drive my car (m) by @jungshookz

mechanic!yoongi

jung hoseok:

heartbeat (m) by @joonbird

gang au (i LOVEE heartbeat so much. everybody should read it, its so good)

the worst wonderful time of the year by @lamourche

christmas au, office au

my soul to reap (m) by @readyplayerhobi

reaper!hoseok, harpy!y/n

the purge by @jungblue

purge au

distractions (m) by @dreamscript

may the odds ever be in your favor (m) by @yandearest

hunger games au, yandere!hoseok

hot rod (m) @kinktae

greaser!hoseok (yes i think its the best of all of the rewind fics. sorry bitchin' stans 😴)

kim namjoon:

a taste of heaven (m) by @joonited

(read this NOW!! its really short anyway)

runaways (m) by @littlemisskookie

nerd!namjoon (yall read all the warnings first cuz its honestly kinda fucked up 😳)

thrills found on solid ground (m) by @bibbykins

soft yandere!namjoon (even though its a yandere au its really really soft yandere, i could hardly tell tbh, and its literally so good)

castaways (m) by @rmnamjoons

desert island au (this took me so long to read but definitely worth it)

wrap it up (m) by @1997jk

the dragons lair (m) by @solastia

hybrid!namjoon

park jimin:

otherworldly (m) by @sinning-on-a-sunday

coraline au, yandere!jimin (coraline and jimin. it doesnt get better than that me thinks)

ragdoll (m) by @ausblack

hybrid!jimin

i love you by @seokjinchuriki

vampire!jimin (GUYSSS,,,,, this one is so short but fuck i love it so much.... 😭😭 i would die for vampire jimin)

chained to you (m) by @addicktjimin

fuckboy!jimin

peaches & piercings (m) by @matchakoo

cheerleader!y/n, punk!jimin

kim taehyung:

stuck with you (m) by @jungshookz

roommates au (i think the best thing about all this fic are the drabbles. they really make her characters feel so alive)

tempting (m) by @kinktae

demon!taehyung (again literally everything this queen writes is amazing!!!!!!! but im not afraid to admit that i think tempting is her best work 😌)

pretty kitten (m) by @sweetheartjeongguk

hybrid au, camgirl!y/n

worshippers of the sky by @jimlingss

greek goddess!y/n (my second favorite series ever i think. i deadass cried at the end of the last chapter purly because it was over and loved it so much)

dont ask, dont tell (m) by @jingabitch

hybrid!taehyung

the seven seas (m) by @readyplayerhobi

atlantis au

forbidden by @namjoonbby1

try my luck (m) by @drquinzelharleen

teacher!taehyung

jeon jungkook:

secrets of silk (m) by @nochugguk

camboy!jungkook

by its cover (m) by @gimmesumsuga

the devil’s change up (m) @jungblue

baseball player!jungkook

raising demons (m) by @jeonseok

demon!jungkook

énouement (m) by @littlemisskookie

mulan au

gold rush (m) by @nochugguk

track runner!jungkook (i literally was obsessed with this fic, i have read it sooo many times)

streamy (m) by @jungkookiebus

angel in darkness (m) by @icyhobi

mafia au, prostitution au

new romantics by @cupofteaguk

hogwarts au (if you like hogwarts aus,, this is a must read)

hunting a hybrid (m) by @btswrckd

hybrid!jungkook

under the moonlight (m) by @katobobato

werewolf!jungkook

the sea & the storm (m) by @jamaisjoons

sea spirit!y/n (this one is also really good, but i especially loved the ending. it deadass made me so happy)

shimmers by @boywivlove

hogwarts au

finding beauty in your darkest places (m) by @dreamingofkoo

mental clinic au

what happened in vegas (m) by @namjoonbby1

stripper!y/n

offside (m) by @daddychims

soccer player!jungkook (omg i only just realized that this is on tumblr too. ive always read it on ao3 cuz i didnt know it was on here. but im happy i can add it cuz its one of my fave fics ever and i always recommend it to my friends)

quarter quell by @chinkbihh

hunger games au, yandere!jungkook (omg someone else reminded me of this fic. and like thank u,,, cuz i literally forgot it existed. but i remember reading the first part and being in love with it so i read part 2 and now i love it even more 🥳 i highly recommend and im really existed for part 3. also everything on this account is a gem for yandere!bts fans)

jimin + taehyung:

baby, baby (m) by @hobiwonder

surrogacy au (i really love this one. especially jimin, he is so cute)

namjoon + seokjin:

zodiac (m) by @honeymoonjin

(i honestly dont even know how to discribe this one but its like soooo good.

hoseok + namjoon:

for the crown @seokoloqy

royality au (its an interactive which is so cool tbh)

ot7:

enjoy your stay (m) by @honeymoonjin

hotel!au (its been a while since i read this one but i did really enjoy it. i just really love hotel type aus for some reason)

armed to the fangs (m) by @jingabitch

vampire!bts, hunter!y/n (i actually really like how slowburn it is. im getting so tired of fics where y/n is like “i hate you guys,,, im not easy like other girls” and then jumps on their dick the next chapter lmao. but yes,,, this one is really good)

men on the 13th floor (m) by @khyunni

hotel au, ghost au (i love this one so much)

the iris hotel by @sugakookiecrumble

hotel au, horror au (again,,,, i really like hotel aus)

catalyst (m) by @untilspringdays

mafia au

oasis by @secret-kpoplibrary

hybrid!bts (yall this fic is so cute. i always reread when i want something fluffy)

all is fair in love & war by @smoljamswrites

mafia au

undecided by @nomimits7

detective au (i really love these type of aus!!)

thesis it by @xherxx

roommates au (this fic has a special place in my heart cuz i remember loving it so much that i stayed up the whole night to read it and skipped school the next day cuz i was too tired. good times)

moth to flame (m) by @bang-to-the-tan

vampire!bts (not to be controversial lol but im my opinion this is the best smut. its just sooo good lmfao. also vampire bts 😋 what else could u want)

ethereal orbit (m) by @miamorjoon

alien au (saving the best for last ofc. seriously i think ethereal orbit is my favorite fic ever. i just love it so much. also yall don’t understand how whipped i am for eo namjoon and jungkook. theyre the best. you have to read this one)

anyway thats all for now. i might update it later. i hope this helps u find new pics. btw sorry for the lack of yoongi and seokjin,,, 💔😾

[sorikkung]

Well it's hard to equally distribute the lines and One and Only You wasn't my time to shine but!!! LOOK IS OUT NOW *dabs* and I look and ofc sound pretty amazing in it, if I can say that about myself. - Double B

you’re so positive omg inspirational…if i got only 4 secs of lines id c R Y lol

YEAH I SAW IT HDSJKSJKSJKSJKSKJJSKJDKSFHJDS hOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOly shIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT……boy you snatched my wig so hard it’s orbiting the sun as we speak. i don’t even have a wig. AND THAT SNEAKY DAB IN THE CHOREO HDSJKSKSJ okay but like ?? the song??? was so??? refreshing??? and??? rejuvenating??? I FUCKING LOVED IT??? 

okay im going on a ramble fIRST OF ALL the instrumental was absolutely gorgeous to the ears, bless leader jaebum and his producing/composing what a bloody legend that man i could go on about it for AGES. the weird glitch noises in the chorus, the weird bridges after each chorus that sounded like a bridge but it happened like after every chorus and was used to end the song i was so confused??? BUT IT SOUNDED SO GOOD????

and the VOCALS UGH like usual, the vocals went straight to my heart i felt so many feelings but your part made me sPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST B O I i’m so used to your rapping/singing being more towards the high pitched side (not quite as high as yugyeom but you know what i mean) bc that used to be your natural voice back during fetus era lololol but like you definitely grew out of it but it was still higher compared to like, mark or jackson, or jinyoung? it was your style yknow like double b. BUT THEN. YOU JUST DID THAT. your voice was all low and like dragged out thIS BITCH FUCKING LOST HER SHIT OKAY i am literally so far from being okay right now oh my god it was one of the hottest things ive ever heard i had to replay in like at least five times. i want that verse tattooed on my face. not to mention i thought that verse would be your only lines in the song but bless, you actually have lines im gonna cry what an era mark’s voice also set me on fire and jackson’s threw me into space but yours flung me into the sun

VISUALS. VISUALS!!! CAN WE TALK ABOUT VISUALS I FUCKIGN NUTTED not just was the cinematography and camerawork amazing and i swear i was fangirling over the sets so much bc they were so aesthetic??? the colours??? the sunsets??? skies in general??? every shot was screencap worth iSTG BUT ALSO!!! MODEL7, VISUAL7, YOU FUCKING NAME IT YALL JUST SAID FUCK YOU TO EVER MODEL EVER THEYRE LOSING THEIR JOBS AS WE SPEAK there was not a single tragic look this era NOT EVEN JAEBUMS MULLET which i despised at first but boy has it grown on me, its still not my fav but damn he can rock it better than i thought and like blond mark is back can you bELIEVE in a leather jacket too???? running his hands through his hair like its no-ones business??? i DIED and and!! youngjae’s hair omfg my precious sunshine baby with amazing vocals ??? god im so emOtional and the wAY YUGYEOM LOOKED AT THE CAMERA DURING HIS PART!! MY HEART WENT BADUMP BADUMP!!! jinyoungs vocals at the start too and him leading the choreography i lOVE THE LEG THINGY THING oh and jaCKSONS VERSE WAS LIKE AMAZING I LOVE JACKSONS VOICE AND HIS SET WAS SO PRETTY TOO AND HIS OUTFIT REMINDED ME OF OKAY??? AND THAT LOOK ON HIS FACE PLS TELL HIM TO STOP

ofc i have to put the best till last, bambam your fucking visuals had my ass on the fLOOR YOU BROUGHT BACK THE BLUE CONTACTS AHHHH I LOVE THEM and like im still upset that you dont have black hair anymore bc that was my fav but I LOVE THE RED AND!!! THE HAIRSTYLING TOO!!! SUITS YOU SO WELL and your expressions hdfkjksdDSHDSKJKJ THAT LIL SMILE WHEN YOU WERE SNIFFING THE ROSE???? IM DEAD!!! literally at that small clip i deadass screamed THE INTENSE LOOK WHEN IT WAS ON FIRE and so was i??? IM DEAD!!! AND DONT THINK I DIDNT NOTICE ALL THOSE CUTE LITTLE SMILES DURING THE CHOREO AND YOUR VERSES THAT YOU COULDNT HELP BUT DOING. IM SO SOFT OH MY GOD. BUT ALSO YOU JUST LOOKED HELLA FINE IN GENERAL I LOVE ME A WHOLE ASS VISUAL

dont even get me S T A R T ED on the other songs in the album oh my god this album was so good not a single track let me down. istg these b-side tracks of yours only got better and better with each album, i must confess there were a lot of b-sides from earlier albums that took a long time to grow on me and i still see them as mediocre, but theyve improved a shitton ever since the flight flog trilogy where they just kept getting better and better and 7for7′s b-sides were amazing and these ones too like i think its bc now jyp is actually letting you guys make your own music I LOVE HEARING YOUR SOUNDS!!! YOUR INDIVIDUAL SOUND!! YOURE ALL SO UNIQUE AND PRECIOUS AND AMAZING AND I WANT TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE.

thank you for both completing and ending my existence, this has been a rant. honestly bams im sorry i talk so much lmao

[cyincalangels]

a final goodbye

as a warning, this is going to be all my thoughts and emotions in one long post. a post i never even thought i would have to make. when i first made this page, i wanted to show this to you at a bigger milestone in a relationship, i wasnt sure what that was going to be or when that was going to happen to be honest. but here we are, at our final milestone. parts of me also never really wanted to show or mention this page to you. but in all honesty, this makes it easier for me to recognize and acknowledge what im feeling and being able to come back and see how my feelings and thoughts have grown or may have changed. i read through all the posts ive written to double check if these are even worth showing you. and i still think they are. i still feel the same way in each post ive written. and i think ill always feel the same way, even after you’re no longer a huge role in my life. i was hurting after i read through all the posts because 1. ive never written things about other people like that. i never even write my feelings out like that 2. i always felt at peace almost after writing each post. each post made me more grateful for you. and dont get me wrong, its not like i only wrote these posts when i was happy, i only wrote when i remembered or made time. there should have been waaaay more posts than there really are. so ill try to make it fit in this one. and 3. im scared ill never really be able to feel like this about a person again. or at least want to be vulnerable anytime soon. again, i never really felt this way about someone. so it definitely hurts having to sit here and write this. i hurt because i know this is my fault. i dont need you to accept or validate anything in this post or what ive done and i dont need you to say it wasnt my fault. ive come to terms that a lot of this was caused by my baggage i failed to heal on my own, which eventually ended in me basically neglecting you and taking you for granted. ive honestly had to stop and cry and recollect myself several times in writing this so it may be all over the place. im also really sorry if this is way too much for you and if this is nowhere near how you felt about me.

i can thank you in a million ways for how you have impacted my life in the very short four months ive known and got the chance to experience you. you were the first and only person who really made the effort to want to get to know me and learn about me. its taught me to be vulnerable and be okay with sharing myself and my stories with others. it showed to me that some people actually still care about what made me, me. i think thats what really intrigued me the most about you. you like stories and you wanted to hear mine. and i wanted to share and experience some of my life story with you. but now all i really have of the memories that remind me of you.

you also exposed to me a lot of my own trauma that needs to be fixed. it was a hard and ugly truth i had to accept about myself and still trying to process it all now. you were strong enough to stand up for yourself and realize that youve had enough of all my baggage. that was probably one of the most humbling moments ive had in a long time because i mean yeah, people leave me for reasons, but it didnt affect me like how this did. it really woke me up to realize that i need to stop making excuses for my trauma. i cant just rely on attention to make it go away. maybe because i tried so hard (at least in my head) to do things to make you stay and i forced us to change to make it work. when ive always known that i cant control or force someone or something to stay. thank you for forcing me to want to work on myself. for me now. 

i know i spent a lot of time talking about me and not enough about you. i asked you today and you said you never needed much from me and for some reason, i felt like i failed you. because you did not need much and i couldnt even give that to you. although i kept asking and telling you what i needed and what works for me and i just wanted you to listen, i couldnt even do the same. i wanted change in a relationship its like i wanted to help change you to be better for me but i couldnt even change myself to be the best for you. i didnt want to accept that the change that was needed, was in me instead. i guess you were right when you kept asking if i was ready for you. because now looking back at it all, there is still so much work for me to do. 

i really went through all five stages at grief today. almost all at once. one second ill be okay and productive and really accepting of what i have to do from now on. but it could be seconds later where i think of you and suddenly bust into tears because i can no longer have access to you and no longer have you in my life. i thought to myself, “wow, i didnt think the last time i saw him was really THE last time ill probably ever see him again. ill never be able to hold his hand, hug or big spoon him, rub his back, or even scratch his head again.” all weird little things, but all things that i can never do again. i was more angry and disappointed with myself because my passion and emotions cost me someone i genuinely loved and cared about. it pushed someone away. again. i neglected you and let you slip away. i always had a feeling you’d leave me, i just didnt hope it was so soon. im going to miss you so much. beyond what words can explain. but even though i was upset or needed more when i wasnt physically with you, the second youd pick me up from the airport, all of that went away. being there with you made me forget what even makes me upset in the first place. i always appreciated every moment i got to spend with you. i was never bored. i was never tired of you. i never wished to be anywhere else than with you. 

theres so many things i regret that we couldnt experience together like how we hoped we could. like we couldnt go out anywhere together. you couldnt meet my people, even though they really wanted to. and i couldnt meet your people either. im actually really sad and hurt we couldnt travel or take a trip together. i was really looking forward to it because i know how much it meant for you to travel with your partner. theres so many things i wanted to do with you because i really enjoyed your presence and just wanted to share stories with you. but we couldnt experience a normal part of a relationship because of whats going on in the world. maybe that wouldve changed some things, but also it doesnt matter now. 

i wish i wouldve told you sooner. about how i really felt. not sure if that wouldve changed our situation much and what that would mean. but i never really would have thought i would fall in love with someone through an iphone screen. and i never expected you to feel the same, which may be a reason why i was always too scared to say it out loud to you. just know that i meant every word that i have ever said to you. ill still deadass ride or die for you. still support you. still always be here for you. still be a rock for you while the world is falling apart. still got your back, front, side, whatever you need. still be a call or text away. still be a nike plug if you need more shorts (or clothes and shoes in general). i could never hate you for this or for anything. i know all this is probably super dramatic for the four months ive known you, but i can promise you that this is nothing like ive experienced in a good way. i really do love you, camilo. and i knew for many weeks now. im sorry it had to come out this way. im sorry our story ended a lot sooner than we (mostly i) expected. i promise that ill still stay true to everything ive told you and promise to you that ill go to therapy for myself. please take good care of yourself. of all aspects of yourself please. i hope i can still count on you in the future. i love you. ill always keep praying for you. xoxoxo

ps this took me about two hours to write. and i might write more on here if i ever feel the creative need to release anytime soon, if youre curious to see later.