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no one told me that the wellbutrin club would feel like this 👁️👁️🤢

how are you guys doing?

honestlyyy we have both been going through it for a minute which you guys probably have picked up on from our very unplanned absence on here 😗 our work schedules have just been so crazy and we have had some personal stuff going on at both ends so we have been existing in a kind of default state of complete and total exhaustion for like a month i fear. but we are now 1. medication twinsies which is so silly of us actually and 2. getting therapized on the regular so hopefully we will both feel more normal soon and get our creative energy back and be more active online again 🥳 (thea is also actively being blown away by the hurricane right now so everyone please manifest that she stays safe and dry and doesn’t end up floating away down the gulf because i would miss her and be so sad.) thank you for asking i hope you’re doing well! 🫶🏽

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Outside the Rain - Harry styles Series (Part 18)

Part 17

You groaned rolling over on the other side of your bed. Your body was stiff and you were still exhausted, but the urge to pee was preventing you from staying asleep. You pushed yourself up and out of the bed, moving slowly with half closed eyes walking towards the bathroom. When you were finished, you sleepily made your way back to the bed. The morning sun was shining in through your window and you sighed knowing you were due to get up in a little over an hour. 

You laid back down in the bed, when you realized something. You sat up, rubbing your eyes, and looked around your room. Harry’s bags were over in the corner of the room, his clothes from the previous night were laid on the chair, yet he wasn’t in bed or in the room. Now, you were confused, had his things not been in the room, you would have thought you dreamt him being there. 

Knowing you wouldn’t be able to fall back asleep, you decided to go ahead and get up, despite still being tired. Your muscles ached from the previous night’s video shoot and you knew your body would only be put to the test when it came to the performances you had lined up and tour next year. 

You tried taming your hair a bit before you walked downstairs in search of your boyfriend. He was nowhere to found. You were just about to check your phone, when you saw Harry at the door with a bag and some to go coffee cups in his hand. 

“So, that’s where you went,” you laughed when he walked inside. 

“Sorry, I was hoping to be back before you woke up, but I got stuck in traffic,” he said. 

“It wouldn’t be LA if you didn’t get stuck in traffic,” you laughed taking the coffees from him and heading over to sit down. 

“How are you feeling this morning?” He asked. 

“Like I got hit by a truck,” you sighed. “These rehearsals and everything are really taking a toll on me. I can’t believe I’m this out of shape. I workout at least five times a fucking week.” 

“Yeah, but I’ve seen what you girls do and that’s braver than any marine or anything one can do at the gym,” he said pulling the breakfast sandwiches out of the bag. “And you only workout like what an hour and call it quits. But yet what you’re doing now is like three or more.” 

“You did not just meme me,” you laughed. 

“I did and you laughed!” He pointed at you. 

“Because I can’t believe it,” you pointed at him. 

“Yeah, yeah,” he said taking a bite. “I’m funny and you know it.” 

“You wish,” you smirked. 

“Would you like to finish that sandwich?” He asked. “Because I won’t hesitate to take it out of your hands.” 

“And I won’t hesitate to kick you in the balls,” you said. 

“Don’t joke about that,” He winced. 

“Don’t joke about my breakfast sandwich,” you said. 

“You know sometimes I wonder which you love more, breakfast sandwiches are me,” he joked. 

“Definitely breakfast sandwiches,” you answered with a mouthful.

“Glad to see where I stand,” he laughed. 

**

Later that morning, just as you were about to get ready for your lunch meeting, you got an email saying it was postponed until tomorrow, which you were super happy about. Not only because you didn’t feel up having a meeting, but because Harry was there and you wanted to spend time with him. 

“So, I’ve got some great news!” You smiled walking into the living room, where Harry was searching around on Netflix. “The meeting has been moved to tomorrow, thank god.” 

You walked over sitting down on the couch next to Harry. 

“Then I guess that means I have you all to myself for the rest of the day?” He asked wrapping his arm around your shoulder. 

“That you do, until I fall asleep,” you laughed. 

He smiled kissing your head and wrapping a blanket around the two of you. You laid your head on his shoulder, wrapping your arms around his torso as you two watched a random movie. Your eyes started to feel heavy and you couldn’t control it more before giving in and falling asleep. 

Harry knew you would fall asleep as soon as your head hit his shoulder. He could tell you were exhausted and to be quite honest it worried him a little bit. You were only just getting back into the scheme of things with the group and you were already pushing your limits. He knew what that was like and while he loved every minute of it, it was also from taxing on him physically and emotionally. 

He knew you were happy with how things were going and being back with the girls, but he could also see you would hit a breaking point soon. There were bags under your eyes, you were looking a smidge bit skinner due to the rehearsing schedule sending your metabolism into overdrive, and when you weren’t working, you were spending your time with him. 

Part of him wonders if him surprising you was actually a good idea or not. Had he not been there, then maybe you would actually get the proper rest you needed. He didn’t want you to feel like you had to entertain him the entire time. He looked down at you as you slept softly and peacefully at his side. He repositioned himself, so that he could move and let you sleep more comfortably on the couch. He ran his fingers through your hair as he watched the movie before eventually falling asleep himself. 

**

Later that day, you woke up to the smell of something in the kitchen. You were still on the couch in the living room and music was being played softly in the background. You sat up, rubbing your eyes before getting up and walking into the kitchen. You instantly noticed the sunset and you couldn’t believe you slept the entire day. 

“I’m sorry,” you sighed looking at Harry who was stirring something in a pot on the stove. 

Harry turned around, “For what?” 

“For sleeping so long,” you said walking over to him. 

“Don’t worry about it,” he said wrapping his arm around your shoulder. “You need the rest.”

“Yeah, I did,” you nodded. “I feel a little better now.” 

“And that’s all that matters,” he smiled kissing your head. 

“What are you cooking?” You asked peeking over into the pot. 

“Soup,” he smiled. 

“Interesting,” you said. “I didn’t even know I had anything to make soup with.” 

“Well, you didn’t, so I went to the store,” he laughed.

“God, Im such a horrible girlfriend,” you sighed. “You came all the way here to surprise me and I’ve not spent anytime with you.”

Harry sighed turning to look at you taking your hand into his, “You are not a horrible girlfriend, far from it, actually.” 

You wrapped your arms around his waist, placing your head on his chest, “Thank you for being here.” 

“Anytime,” he smiled wrapping his arms around you. 

You looked up at him, puckering your lips, “I want a kiss,” you laughed. 

He laughed placing his hands on your face as he leans down pressing his lips against yours. 

**

It was the next day and you all had a quick rehearsal run through before your meeting at lunch. You still weren’t feeling 100%, but sleeping he prior day and having Harry there to take care of you definitely helped. After you two ate the soup he made for dinner, he ran you warm bath to help relax you before you both laid down in the bed, cuddling while watching another movie. 

Speaking of Harry, he attended the rehearsals, wanting to see what you were working on. You had a few appearances coming up and you all need to practice for them. You were dripping with sweat and you only had been running through the routines for half an hour. You just finished another song, when you started feeling a little dizzy. Luckily, there was a quick water break, so you sipped on some water and tried calming yourself down. 

“Okay, we’ve got enough time to run through it, one more time,” Daisy said. 

You nodded wiping sweat from your forehead. Harry looked up from his phone, eyebrows furrowed as he looked over at you. He was really concerned about you, but he didn’t want to make a big scene about it. Plus, i was only one more time, so surely you would be okay after it. 

However, halfway through the song, when you were doing a turn, you lost your balance as your knee gave out. You dropped to the ground in pain holding your leg as you cried out. Everyone stopped what they were doing and rushed to your side. 

“Y/N!” Daisy said. “What’s wrong?” 

“My fucking knee,” you cried. “Fuck.” 

“Get some ice,” Daisy shouted. “From the cooler.” 

“Should we call an ambulance?” Rachel asked. 

“No,” you groaned. 

“Can you even move to walk?” Jess asked. 

Harry darted over with a small bag of ice, placing it on your severally swollen knee, “Baby, we need to get you to the hospital.” 

“It hurts to move,” you sniffled. “Fuck me, this hurts like a fucking bitch.” 

Harry grabbed the keys to you car from his back pocket, “Here, go unlock the car, while I pick her up and carry her,” he told Jess. 

She quickly took them from her and headed straight for the parking lot. Harry placed his arms underneath you before gently picking you up causing you to wince. 

“I need you to hold onto me,” he said. “And hold your leg out straight.” 

You cried into his chest as he carried you out of the studio and to the car. Jess already had the car door open, so he placed you inside as gently as he could before putting the icepack back on your knee. The pain was so severe you started feeling nauseous. 

“Maybe we should call an ambulance,” Daisy sniffled. 

“We don’t have time,” Harry said. “Can someone ride with us? And the rest follow behind.” 

“I will,” Daisy said getting in the car. 

Harry nodded getting into the driver’s side as he flew to the hospital. He knew while this injury was serious, it wasn’t life-threatening. However, hearing your wails and curses of pain, broke his heart because he wanted nothing more than to take it from you. When he finally pulled into the parking lot of the Emergency Room, he helped get you out of the car, carrying you inside until he a nurse brought over a wheelchair. 

“What happened?” She asked. 

“Knee injury,” he said quickly. “While dancing. It’s swollen pretty badly and she’s in a lot of pain.” 

“I think I’m going to be sick,” you groaned. 

“Let’s get her back to a room,” the nurse said, luckily the ER was not super busy during that time. 

Harry and Daisy went to follow the nurse, but she stopped them, “We need to get her settled and run some tests,” she said. “We will come get you when she can have visitors.” 

They both nodded, walking over to the waiting room. Harry sat down, his legs bouncing up and down as his nerves took over his body. Tears filled his eyes, so he quickly wiped them away. 

“She’s going to be,” Daisy whispered. “It’s probably just a sprain.” 

“God, I hope so,” he sighed. 

He hoped and prayed that the injury wouldn’t be all that serious and would only take maybe a few days or weeks to recover from. Because he knew if it wasn’t, and it affected the upcoming tour and appearances you all have worked so hard for, you would be extremely upset and felt like you let everyone down. 

He also blamed himself, he could see you were exhausted and your body needed a break. Maybe if your schedule wouldn’t have been so hectic with dance rehearsals, then your body would have been under so much pressure. But it was too late to worry about what if’s and what could have been done differently. All that matter now was you being okay and it not ruining everything you had worked so hard for these last few months. 

**

Uh-Oh! Poor Y/N! 

Also, don’t forget to send in any ideas you might have for my new Christmas Series, Someone Special, by Friday night! :) 

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Needing some help

I totally understand if you scroll right past this, but I am in need of some help. My name is Kelly and I am a bi nonbinary trans person in need of some help. I recently lost my job and I am trying to find a new one as fast as I can. My previous job put so much mental stress on me that I could no longer do it. (If you want to skip me talking about my last job and why I quit/ lost my job skip the next paragraph)

I worked at a call center esque (I worked from home tho) job where I answered the phones for people needing their landlines fixed. The company I worked for was horrible. On the daily I would have to answer calls from people who desprately need their landlines, read; elderly and disabled people, who were unfortunate enough to live in remote locations with no cell service so landline was all they had. These people could not call 911 and sometimes had pacemakers or life alert systems that work solely on the phone line. When it’s out they take out their anger and frustration on people like me. Now my company was terrible. They were awful at truly fixing anything and usually put a band-aid  so a lot of the people I talked to were repeat callers. On top of all that usually it would take a week to two weeks to fix someones phone. Having to wait 2 weeks on something your life depends on is extremely stressful. So you can imagine these people were angry. and that was my job day in and day out. I had to de-escalate many angry people who basically just were fearing for their lives. I could not do it anymore. The very last call I took was a mother who lived in a rural place and had 2 very small children. One of them was very sick and she could need the doctor at any time. All they had was their landline, the mother was calling from a gas station miles from her house. Because her landline didnt work she could not call the ambulance. The best date I could offer for repair was 2 weeks away for a tech to come and fix the issue. She (understandably) screamed and yelled at me but there was nothing I could do. There is 0 protocol for emergency situations. I could not take the stress of thinking about if these people died or something because of the company I worked for. It made me physically sick; some days I would not be able to get out of bed because I felt nauseous from fear and anxiety. My depression also got so bad that I could not do anything that I enjoyed anymore. In recent months I neglected drawing, playing video games, or going outside, basically anything that used to give me joy this job sucked it out of me. I reached out to my HR manager to ask about resources or ways to manage what was happening to me. She had no recommendations other than find a new job. 

I have been searching for a new work at home job for the past couple weeks but time and money are running short. Rent and utilities are due soon. I thought I had a new job opportunity, but they fucked up and sent me the wrong assessment, and since this was on indeed I have no way of contacting them back. (all of the emails I received from this job are from “no-reply” email addresses) so im back to the drawing board. I am constantly sending out applications and applying to anything and everything I qualify for with my experience from my last job. So if you have any recommendations of work at home jobs or can spare to donate my paypal is  paypal.me/belenuspanda and my cashapp is $belenuspanda 

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