#IM IN TEARS HE IS SO HOT WHAT THR FUCK

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welcome to season 2 of twin peaks

"you alright down there?" he is visibly bleeding out

"warm milk" THANKS MAN

"thank you" DALE STOP SIGNING HIS GRATUITY BILL YOU ARE STILL BLEED9NG OUT

first 5 minutes of this season the longest of my life oh my fucking god. Is That A Ghost.?

thank you for the omens ominous french man. are you an alien of some sort or perhaps a mason

"you will require medical attention" yeah man i think he fuckin noticed

AUDREY I FORGOT YOUR DAD IS A PERVERT

what thr fuck jerry did u kill blackie or something

SCARIEST SCENE ALIVE STAY AWAY FROM HERRRRRRRRRRRR

"i would like to make love to a beautiful woman who i feel genuine affection for" implying you haven't before 🤔 curious

dale my goofster how i missed you and your autistic cadence

oooh please don't kill ronette poor ronette

why the fuck is his hair grey. leland palmer is an insane man i am a little bit obsessed with his mental decline

and Maddy's too hello?

WHY ARE THEY DANVING INSANE MEN??

really beginning this season with the kookiest shit they could imagine

intense and insane tension between dale and albert. i don't think they've known each other carnally but i do think a part of them has wanted to

james look different this season idk why

donna and her insane winona ryder slay. why is she seducing her boyfriend in prison. i feel like donna and james are going through thr craziest teen nancy drew light spice drama investigation novel ever and everyone else is doing whatever the fuck theyre doing in twin peaks.

what the fuck is up with the jazzy ass music. "Is it not okay for me to want you" WHAT ARE THEY ON. WHY DID SHE BITE HIM

ive become so lost these last few days without the show i need to be put back in thr boiling pot

why are dale's lower eyelashes so long and luscious

why are there so many pointed shots at the terrible hospital food

why are bobby and shelly genuinely cute. all i got is questions

loving the nadine/ed/norma/hank backstory. just the kind of drama im looking for

daddy issues conversation slightly messed around by bobby's crazy eyes. no hate to the guy but his overt facial expressions and large eyes scare me on occasion

hank did you just poison bobbys dad or some shit

andy's sweethearted nature makes its return. i missed your tears king

beginning to doubt that manslaughter of hanks was quite as manslaughter as he was saying it was

what the fuck are ben and jerry's deals

AUDREY DONT TELL THE HOT EVIL LESBIAN(?) YOURE NOT INTO HER

love the beautiful presentation put on by the hayward sisters. and then we pan across the table and the doctor looks disquieted, leland looks like the fucking godfather, Sarah looks as depressed as possible and donna and Maddy are just sitting there ominously.

leland there is something so fucking wrong w you babygirl

is audrey praying to dale? girl me too

THE GIANT FRENCH GHOST MAN IS BACK

DID HE JUST CAST FIREBALL

ronette is getting possessed like the girl from thr exorcist. why is some guy there. what the fuck is happeningggggg

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OH MY GODJDYJSUSJD THSI SIS FO FUCKFIGN NASTY OH MYGOD D

needs

steve kemp x fem!reader

summary: with your period worse than ever, you’re left almost bed-ridden in nothing but his clothes. and when you’re sat there, looking so pretty, steve can’t deny himself. a man has needs, after all.

warnings: SMUT (unprotected period sex, dubcon, light blood kink, PWP) blood, steve himself is a warning

notes: saw a post about steve liking period sex and it sparked something within my horny, period-ridden brain, and now i’m forcing it onto you ❤️

The coldness of the sheets worn off a long time ago. Your body has held itself in the same fetal position for hours, locked in its own paused joints, skin trembling as you try to ignore the stabbing pain screaming at you from your abdomen.

You’ve almost single-handedly destroyed an entire bottle of Ibuprofen, crushing the weight of your small heating pad underneath your body. You’re in nothing but a grey hoodie of Steve’s, pitch black socks and special menstruation panties with a built-in pad you got somewhere online. Everything feels too tight and too lose at the same time. Everything is too much and not enough.

You can hear the faint steps of Steve’s boots as he wanders the halls, doing God knows what — leaving you with the coursing anxiety of being alone.

The door opens, faint in your ears, and you can register footsteps coming towards you. The bed shifts underneath his weight as he kneels beside you, setting a glass of water on the nightstand— the nicest gesture he’s made.

“How are the meds?”

You can feel Steve’s hands bunch up the material of your sweatshirt as he strokes your skin through it, his thumb rubbing circles through the fabric. “It hurts.”

He hums, eyebrows furrowing in worry, as much as he can muster. His eyes rake over your form, inch by inch, before attempting to meet your eyes again. You can barely see him with your face buried in the sheets, hair covering your eyes and blocking him from your vision.

“Can I make you feel better?”

His voice is low, deep, something familiar, and not in the way that feels natural now. There’s that rumble in his tone he only gets in two different occasions. Two occasions you know oh-too-well.

Two occasions ending with someone bloody or cum-stained.

“I’m hurting, Steve,” You mumble, burrowing your face in the sleeve of the hoodie. He hums in understanding, but he still continues.

Steve’s hands pull the hoodie over your skin, exposing your bottom-half, plump and panty-clad — you always thought they designed them way too skimpily to be period products.

He squeezes your ass, causing you to whine, and he chuckles airily at the simple reaction. He moves from beside you, gathering himself behind, kneeling on the bed.

You’re not in full fetal, but you’re still close. More than half of your body is facing down on the bed, but your ass is stuck up in the air, lightly turned on it’s side. The view is enough to make his paints tighten, along with the light whimpers you make when your body starts to ache.

“Honey…” He tsks. “Lemme take care of you.”

You know him too well for this. You know he’s not taking in your well being, it’s all for him, for his pleasure, but something about that- something about that is for you. Something about him taking what he wants makes your cunt clench around nothing.

He takes his thumb, rubbing you over your panties, digging his thumb deep so he can press hard on your clit. You whine at the contact, and your body instinctually shoves itself closer to him. He grips your hip with his free hand, keeping you locked in place.

“You think you’re wet enough to take it?”

You dig your foot into his thigh when he rubs you faster, keening at his movements, your breathing getting faster.

“Can fuckin’ feel it,” Steve groans, cock straining against his slacks, “Can’t wait for you to stain my cock.”

He pulls down your panties with a tug, revealing your glistening cunt to him. You can hear the clanging of his belt as he pulls it off, tugging his pants down and letting his cock bounce free.

Steve leans over you, pressing his chest against the expanse of your back. His breathing tickles your skin as he presses his face in your neck, nipping at it with small bites, playing with you like a toy. His cockhead is sliding through your folds, up and down, teasing your entrance with the promise of filling it.

He grunts as he slides in. His chest rumbles against your back while his cock slides within your walls, your cunt practically sucking him in. Your arousal; granted by his earlier teasing, mixed with the continuous stream of blood is enough to help him bottom out almost immediately, setting the ache in your cunt that makes you moan against the sheets. He’s pressing so much weight onto you you’re practically squished, drowning underneath his body and the expensive cushioning.

“Pussy’s fucking perfect,” He’s grunting, groaning in your ear, already thrusting shallowly inside your cunt. “Perfect wet little hole, fuck.”

“Steve,” You’re whining underneath him, thighs sticking together with sweat, fingers tangling in the sheets as his thrusts get faster. His balls ars slapping against your skin, filling the air with obscene smacking sounds, followed by his relentless sounds and your muffled whimpers. He can’t help it, can’t help the way your cunt grips him, can’t help the way your smell makes him want to flood your pussy right then and there — can’t help that the promise of you whimpering under him is enough to make him feral.

Steve looks down, watching his cock slide out of your cunt, amazed as he watches it come out red — stained with you.

“It’s too much,” You whine, but he just chuckles. Chuckles in your ear with a tsk, tugging you back and forth on his dick.

“You can fucking take it,” He says, so sure of himself — so confident in the fact that you’re always good for him. Always ready for him to take you whenever he needs. Always ready to be his good little hole. Just as he needs you to be.

His cock slamming against that one spot inside of you, over and over again is enough to make you sob — reaching back to grab his arm, nails digging so deep you think it might draw blood.

“Gonna cum for me, sweetheart?” Steve gets faster, gets harder, turns into a man on a mission. “Gonna cream on my cock, honey? Fuckin’ do it, clench around it, baby, cum so fucking hard, you can do it. Fuck, c’mon, please,”

When he ends it with a whine, it’s enough to do you in. Your cunt spasms around his length, cumming harder than you thought you could, orgasm wrecking through you like a freight train. Your nails dig deeper, face buried farther in the bed, legs growing stiffer, sobs getting louder as you come.

“Fuck, yes, that’s it,” His moans are getting more desperate, less held back. He sounds like he’s in heat; gasping and whining, lost in the feeling of your cunt’s flutters. “Gonna cum in your dirty pussy,”

And he does. With one last, final slam, his cum floods your already drenched heat. He bites onto your shoulder as he comes, eyes slamming shut with the force, moaning deeply into your skin.

You two lay there in silence as you come down. Your skin is sticking together with sweat, bodies tied to each other with come and heat, dripping down from within your thighs and onto his perfectly made sheets. Your legs are still trembling.

Steve is almost sad as he pulls out of your cunt, smiling as he feels it try to keep him inside. The mix of cum and blood floods out of you almost immediately, and you can hear him groan — feel him picking some up with his index finger and bringing it to his mouth, licking his finger clean and smiling at the taste.

He brings a final, gentle swat to your ass, tugging you down the bed and turning you to face him. As lovingly as he can get, he pushes your soggy hair from your skin, squishing your face with force to make you look at him.

“The bed is ruined. We gotta get you cleaned up.”

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oke oke ...

[haechanplsacceptmylove]

Ruin You

Characters: BF!Johnny x reader

Warning(s): adult content, unprotected sex, spanking, edging, bulging, daddy kink, choking, oral: giving and receiving, basically just Johnny ruining you.

Genre: smut

Summary: Johnny finally decides to take a step and discover your body and ruin your innocence.

Word count: 2k

Requested✅

You enter your boyfriend's apartment with a devious smirk on your face, excited to startle him but as soon as you get close to his room you hear the shower sound from his bathroom. You sigh entering his room, seeing his shirt thrown on his bed you run to it and quickly change your clothes. You look at the mirror: his black shirt reaching the middle of your now bare thighs and smile to yourself jumping on his bed and laying on your stomach taking your phone out to play a game while waiting for your boyfriend. 

You and Johnny have been dating for couple months now, you met him in the club where you were celebrating your 21st birthday and you both just ended up having each other's numbers. You told him from the beginning that you want to take things slowly especially when this was your first relationship and he completely understood your situation, especially after experiencing your innocence on the dance floor.

"hi babygirl" your boyfriend's voice interrupts your thoughts as your head turns to the direction of his voice. You blush looking immediately away. He only had a towel wrapped around his hips, as one of his hands was using another towel drying his hair. "aw don't be shy" you hear him chuckling "just put your clothes on oh god Johnny" you say huffing trying your best to stop blushing "what if i won't" you turn your head back towards him in shock and your eyes end up staring at his perfect muscly body "like what you see?" he smirks walking closer. You huff and look away blushing more "y-you're going to be sick if you don't put clothes on" you stutter making him laugh at your flustered state. You feel his warm hand on the back of your thighs, freezing immediately. "you expect me to stay still and control my hormones when my cute tiny babygirl is wearing my shirt and swaying her pretty legs in front of me like that?" he whispers in yours ears, still massaging your thighs. You uncontrollably close your thighs making him shake his head. "come on baby" he hovers on you from behind, still whispering in your ear "i know you want to touch me" he kisses your earlobe, now his both hands are massaging your both thighs making you shiver at the feeling. "J-Johnny-" "it's daddy" you bite your lips as he trails wet pecks on the area behind your ears down to your nape and shoulders making you shiver more, accidentally letting out a small whine "you like that?" he teases. You lean your head down into the pillows in embarrassment, giving Johnny more access to your nape as he doesn't waste any time to attack it with kisses and sucking on it leaving bright red marks on it. You bite yours lips trying your best to not make any sound, but your body says otherwise as you keep shivering and curling your toes whenever his lips make connect with your soft skin. 

Johnny gets up and turns you around, smiling at your red cheeks as you try to look at anything else other than him. He holds your chin forcing you to look at him, you shut your eyes as soon as you see him leaning closer, earning another chuckle from him. Finally you feel his hot tasty lips on yours as you return the kiss immediately going straightly to a needy heated make out. You wrap your arms around his neck deepening the kiss, feeling his warm hands go under your (his) shirt, rubbing on your soft stomach. You break the kiss to catch your breath as you stare into each other's eyes. "tell me whenever you want to stop" you nod. He leans back taking your hand in his hand and placing it on his well built abs making you bite your lips, feeling as if your face's burning in embarrassment. You bring your other hand and place it on his abs along with the other one, Johnny let's go of his grip on your hand and looks at you as you stroke your hands from his v line up to his chest, making him bite his lips trying his best to control himself. You look down and blush, seeing the bulge that has formed under his towel. Johnny notices and smirks "you see what you do to me babygirl?" you look away. Johnny takes your hands and pins them above your head "answer me when i ask" you gulp "y-yes". He starts sucking and biting onto your neck, his hands reaching the hem of your shirt, taking it off you. You try to cover your exposed body but he holds your hands "you're gorgeous y/n" he pecks your lips "so... No bra?" he smirks making your frustrated. As you were about to answer him you feel his hot lips on your nipple, sucking and biting on it, making you let out a low groan, biting your lips right after. "i want to hear your pretty moans baby" he says holding eye contact with you as he trails kisses from your left boob to your right, again sucking and biting on it as his hand massages the other. You let out a loud moan at the new feeling, your fingers tangling up with his hair. “you drive me crazy” he kisses down your stomach, finally reaching your clothed clit. He looks at you and you nod giving him the permission to continue. He presses soft kisses on your inner thighs making you squirm, finally kissing your sensitive clit, making you curl up your toes trying your best to control yourself. Johnny takes off your panties throwing them on the floor, not wasting any time, positioning himself between your legs, putting them on his shoulders as his tongue drowns between your folds making you moan closing your legs around your boyfriend's head. He quickly holds your thighs, opening them wide, attacking your sensitive nerves with his wet hot tongue, sucking and biting onto your clit, your moans music to his ears. He finally inserts his tongue into you and you grab his hair, pushing him deeper "y-yes daddy please don't stop". Hearing you, Johnny quickly inserts two fingers into you, making your back arch as a loud moan escapes your lips. He starts thrusting them in and out of you in a quick pace making you see starts. "f-fuck i think I'll cum-" you moan making Johnny stop all of his movements. You whimper at the emptiness "what was that for" your frown. "do you know how many times i had to hold myself from destroying your little cunt and just release myself in the bathroom because of you?" he says licking his fingers. You bite your lips "now you're going to pay for that baby" he says, motioning to you to sit down in front of him on the edge of the bed as he gets off it. He stands in front of you, looking down at you. He grabs your small hand and puts it on his hard member, making him groan and throw his head back in pleasure. You lick your lips and start stroking his member through the towel. "yes baby just like that" he starts thrusting into your hand making himself moan. You bite your lips and take off his towel slowly, freeing his big member. You gulp at his size making him chuckle "big, isn't it?" he smirks "i-it is" you look at him "it's okay baby i know you can take it" you nod. You start stroking his member, Johnny following your moves. You lick your lips and lean towards his throbbing member, licking the precum. You give the head couple kitten licks "don't tease babygirl" you finally take him in your mouth, holding eye contact with him, making him twist in your mouth at the hot view in front of him: his innocent cute girlfriend on her knees taking his huge member in her mouth. He throws his head back as you start sucking him up and down, using your hand to stroke the left of his length that's definitely not fitting in your mouth. Johnny holds your head and starts thrusting into your throat making you gag around him, tears streaming down your face, he holds you still, cutting off your breathing space, you tap on his thighs and he takes himself out of you, letting you cough and breathe heavily. "fuck baby you make me lose my control" he pushes you back on your back and hovers up on you and opens your legs wide, wrapping them around his hips. "I'll try to be gentle baby" he says kissing you, as his huge member stretches your entrance, finally entering you. You feel your insides getting stretched out and you hold his arms. He stays still making you adjust to his huge size. You nod making him start thrusting in and out of you in a slow pace, fastening slowly. "g-go faster" his thrusts get a lot faster, making you both moan in pleasure "shit babygirl you're so fucking tight mmh perfectly sucking my dick into you" he sucks your earlobe making you moan louder "fuck oh my god don't stop daddy" you cry out feeling him thrust deeper and faster, hitting your g post every time. You scratch his back leaving red marks on it, making him groan in your ear "fuck baby you feel so good" he sucks on your neck leaving red and purple marks, his hand goes down to your stomach, eyes following it, making him smirk at the bulge formed in your stomach "fuck baby im in your guts" he chuckles, pressing on your stomach, feeling himself fuck you raw. "fuck daddy I'm close-" he pulls himself out of you making you cry out "do you deserve it baby?" "y-yes please i want to cum daddy please" you cry out, throwing all of your shame away. Johnny turns you around so now you're laying on your stomach, he places a pillow under you hips making your ass higher. "now start counting" he spanks you, earning a yelp from you "o-one... two... thr-ee".... "f-four" he rubs the red marks on your buttcheeks "these are how many times i just wanted to pin on you on the wall and fuck you senseless in just one day" he kisses your back, spreading your buttcheeks and slamming into you from behind, making you yelp. He starts immediately thrusting fast and deep making you on cloud nine. "fuck y-yes daddy you're so good" you yelp as Johnny spanks you again, one of his hands going up to wrap around your throat adding pressure now and then, as his other hand goes down to rub onto your clit increasing the pleasure, he leans down groaning and whispering dirty things into your ear. You starts moaning louder feeling close for the third time "please daddy let me cum I've been a good girl" "hm should i let you" he questions, sucking on your shoulder "y-yes please daddy let me cum around your big dick- oh god" "cum baby" you cum, clenching around his member making him moan and release into you, painting your walls white and filling you up. He collapses next to you and takes you into his embrace "fuck baby that was amazing" he pants kissing your head while stroking your back. You hide your embarrassed face into his chest making him giggle "c'mon baby don't be shy" you hit his arm playfully. He holds your chin finally making you look at him "i guess you're not innocent anymore" you grab the pillow and throw it at him, making you both chuckle. Let's go shower. "t-together?" "together" he carries you to the bathroom with a smirk.

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Sono Tuo

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The sound of the needle rattling seemed louder than the melody it drew from the record spinning across the room, despite the ceiling fan spinning right above her head, her face felt hot, her fingers were tense, she did not want to touch anything, felt everything was restrictive, had taken off the dress she'd been wearing for half the day and was now sat anxiously on the bed in  her underwear, for some reason still felt too warm as she waited, impatient, on edge.

It wasn't the initial panic the morning after that had pushed her over the edge, not the strange sensation in her abdomen, not the craving of food Alexander had had that she usually did not need him to share, not even the irregular change in cycle. But less than an hour had passed since she had returned from the bathroom, glad Alexander had already gone that morning and not witnessed anything. She'd brushed her teeth now, but the tears of discomfort and fear had not stopped coming every now and then, even now she was still on the verge, checked her phone again for an update from Miles. The consideration of who to ask had been brief, she knew that no member of security would make sense, she could not safely assume that not everything she required would somehow, soon, reach Alexander. And, as she had already guessed, no one would see or suspect anything if she merely called Miles, even if he had to go to a pharmacy, though it'd turned out he kept an abundance of tests at his apartment. She did, however, not feel like she could go there now, though was starting to regret that decision, as the waiting was slowly driving her mad, at least a short journey would have been a distraction.

She jumped when the door clicked open, Helders coming into view, though diverting his gaze. "Kane's here."

"Fookin'ell, she's expectin' me."

"I am..." Jade said, her voice quieter than anticipated, and she only dropped the tension in her shoulder when the door fell shut again. "He's going to tell him."

"Tell him wha'?" Miles asked, raising an eyebrow.

"That I'm fucking crying," Jade snapped, rising from the bed and holding her hand out impatiently in front of him.

"'e didn't see..."

Her eyes darkened and she watched as he reached into the inside pocket of his white suit jacket.

"I didn't fink tha' ya..."

Her fingers closed around the box, but she waited, kept her eyes on his. "That I what?"

"Be... so... I mean... ya dun't want... a famileh?"

"When have I ever said that?"

His eyes widened. "Jade, I thought you'd 'ave spoken teh 'im about this. 'e won't want ya not teh go thr-..."

Jade tilted her head to the side, staring back at him in disbelief. "He won't want what?" she huffed, shaking her head and passing him on her way into the bathroom, cursing under her breath.

"Sorreh?"

"I got what I need, you can go."

"Wha'? Nah, I'll wait wif ya. I'm 'ere for ya."

"Clearly," she huffed, sarcasm lacing her voice, her desperation replaced by anger instantly. "I don't need that kind of support. I do whatever the fuck I want. You can be whoever you want, he can be Alexander Turner all he wants." She closed the door, locked it before his hand could even touch the handle. "Out."

"Tha' is not wha' I meant, bella..." he sighed, staying close on the other side as she shuffled out of her thong and sunk down. "I joost thought yeh was worried 'bout 'is reaction 'n all..." He cleared his throat. "I can't believe ya 'aven't spoken t'im 'bout it. Trust meh, I know 'im. 'e wants this."

She huffed. "And isn't that all that matters."

"No, Al just-..."

"This isn't up to him," she stated, standing back up, the instructions simple enough and she adjusted her underwear, placed down the test out of immediate sight, though staying as she was, not unlocking the door.

"So wha'? Ya gunna get rid of it?"

"I don't even know if there's anything to get rid of yet." She swallowed hard, biting her lip. She couldn't say she'd given the idea of Alexander as father much thought, much less her as a mother. But she knew him too. If not for the sake of his own family, he would want an heir to his empire, more power. And no child would ever be safer than his. Her voice was quieter when she spoke again. "He wants this?"

"I thought 'e would've told ya before marryin' ya."

"Fuck you."

"Wha-...? Bella..."

She dried her hands, stepping away from the sink and slowly unlocking the door, staring right back into Kane's eyes on the other side. "You're ridiculous." She walked past him, pulling on her silk dressing gown.

"D'ya not want a famileh wif 'im?" he asked, his own voice now tenser.

"Is that any of your business?" She couldn't help but remember his instructions, his threats concerning her treatment of Alexander. She ran her fingers through her hair. "One time I forget," she muttered, shaking her head. "Fucking one."

"Talk to 'im about this, bella."

Her gaze snapped up. "You really don't know me, do you, Kane?"

"Oh, come on..."

"I told you I don’t need you here."

He swallowed, his eyes remaining on her, though spinning around when the door opened audibly, Alexander stepping inside.

Jade's heart skipped a beat when she saw him, tensing instantly, barely able to form a coherent thought when he was already right there, one look at her face all it took for him to rush and pull her in, his arms around her.

"Darlin'..." he drawled, the depth of his voice as unsettling as it was comforting. "Wha's wrong, eh?"

"Alexander..." she whispered, her lips against his neck, her fingers running through his hair at the back of his head. The blur of smoke and the spice of cologne was hopelessly overpowering. She heard movement, tilted her head and saw Kane cross the room and step into the bathroom.

"I were on me way teh the meetin' but Maffew told meh yeh seemed upset."

She swallowed hard, her eyes widening when Kane stepped back out of the bathroom, held up the test, she could just about make it out from the distance, the look on his face saying it all. He pressed his lips together, the softness in his eyes comforting despite before he was out the door.

Alexander drew back slightly, though kept his arms around her, aware of his friend's exit, yet she maintained his full attention. "Are yeh okeh?"

She realised only then that tears were pearling down her cheeks and she forced a smile, taking a deep breath. "I can't believe this..." She tried to compose herself, frustrated with the emotion overcoming her, leaving her powerless. "Fuck."

"Jade, darlin'..." he rasped, his forehead coming to rest against hers. "There ain't anehfin' yeh can't tell meh, no matter wha', eh?"

She could not take it any longer. "I'm pregnant, Alexander." Despite what Kane had said, she'd been convinced she knew what to prepare for. But she hadn't.

His eyes widened with evident shock, then his arm tightened around her, a smile tugging on the corners of his mouth. "Doll..." he said, his voice lowered. "Is tha' rehyt?"

She licked her lips, surprised by the confidence with which she met his gaze, unprepared for the softness in his eyes. "I think so," she said. "The other night after the opera I forgot to take..." She took another breath. "Alexander..."

He blinked slowly, fear creeping into his gaze. "No..." he whispered. "No, Jade..."

Her hands moved to smooth his shirt down over his chest, struggling to take even breaths. "You want this," she concluded, could read him effortlessly, knew him.

His hand came up to cup the side of her face, her skin warm against his palm. The unfiltered joy was slowly but surely facing growing panic, desperation. "Please," he whispered. "I do. 'course I do, sweet'eart." He realised her tears were not joy and his no longer were either now. "Talk t'meh."

"I just never-..." She stopped herself. "I did not see this coming. You... this is what you want?"

"Jade, y'kno' 'ow mooch me famileh means t'meh. I want me own, I alwehs 'ave. But I want you, doll. I want this wif you. Tell meh wha's on yehr mind."

She leaned forward, closing her eyes, her forehead against his chest as she tried to make sense of the chaos in her mind. "How things will change," she said.

He pulled her closer, pressed a kiss to the top of her head. "I won't try teh persuade yeh if yeh've made up yehr mind," he whispered, his voice strained, barely audible with the last word. She was shaking in his arms and he hated being somewhat responsible. "But if yeh 'ave... worries... let meh ease 'em."

She knew what he would say, and she knew he would be right. His words brought fresh tears to her eyes. Nothing mattered more to him than she did. Being his meant being invincible. And apart from herself, there was one more person she wanted that for. He was Alexander Turner, and there were no worries she knew he couldn't ease for her, no worries that didn't stem from shock rather than actual insecurity and doubt. Slowly, she drew back to lift her head. "If it's a girl-..."

The smile that lit up the edges of his face drew uncontrollable tears of relief from the corners of her eyes, her giggle shaky when he nodded understandingly, knew effortlessly what she would say, spoke with her.

"Valentina."

He brushed her hair back from her face, chuckling. "Of course."

She sniffed, then wrapped her arms tightly around him, sobbing her relief into his chest. "Ti amo."

He smoothed his fingers through her hair, his other hand spread out on the small of her back to keep her as close as she was. "Jade, cara mia," he whispered into her hair. "Sono tuo."

[etherealrj]

bad at love - part three

pairings : reddie

words : 1.3K

warnings : none

part one

part two

part four

ok but bc part two did so well i decided to treat ya'll  and post part three super early! bad news tho this is the second last part of the series, I hope you all like it!!

Eddie’s shoulders were tense under Richie’s hold. He could feel the breath from the taller boy fall upon his cheek, and the dark curls he loved so much melding itself with his own dark hair. Eddie could feel the heat rise on his cheeks, gladly appreciating Richie covering half his face with his bushy hair.

“Back already?” Mike questioned. Richie snorted before sliding down beside Eddie, throwing himself on top of Eddie’s lap, his legs tangled with Eddie’s own.

“Well, long story short.” He puts his arm against the back of the chair. “I’m a free man.” He showered the group of misfit teens with a blinding grin.

“But you guys were so happy.” Eddie says glancing back at Richie. The position the boys ended up sitting in was nothing new to the either of them. Richie draped across Eddie’s lap, Eddie’s arm wrapped around the Richie’s waist. This is how it had always been. “I saw you earlier, after school. You guys were acting like perfectly happy couple.”

“Well, Ed. Funny thing, it’s not that hard to fake happy.” He gripped Eddie’s shoulder with his right hand. “Now, you and me though, I could work with that.” He winked at Eddie, smirking slightly at the smaller boys flushed cheeks. “No, faker needed.” He starred for a bit, maybe a little bit too long. Eddie was beautiful. This was nothing new to Richie, he had harboured a crush on the boy all through most of their childhood. From the lack of any present and reliable parental figure, Eddie was one of the only constant Richie had in his life growing up. Despite the Loser’s being there most of the time as well, Eddie had always been Richie’s favourite. The former friendship had only begun due to the relatively easy flow between the two. They would bicker back and forth but knew when to draw the line. Richie admired the fact that Eddie could bounce back from whatever insult he through at him, he challenged the boy to think and come up with bigger and better content for future conversations.

Richie in simple words loved Eddie. He loved him with his entire being. From head to toe. Richie would do anything for this boy just to see his bright smile. Whether that was taking on a murderous shapeshifting clown or sneaking into his bedroom window at three am, to bring him a hot chocolate when he was feeling down. Nothing was too much. Most of Richie’s waking thoughts were spent hoping that Eddie was safe and having a good day, missing him when he wasn’t there and wondering when he was going to be back. And If that isn’t love, well Richie didn’t know what was.

An extensive ‘Um,’ was drawn out by one of the remaining four Loser’s sitting at the table. Too wrapped up in his own thoughts Richie hadn’t yet noticed the departure of Ben, Mike and Bev all claiming they were going to get a head start on playing Streetfighter. Ben exclaiming that he needs all the practice he can get if he wants to beat Richie anytime soon. “So, Bill and I are going to go play some pinball, we’ll see you both later yeah?” Waiting for no response Stan dragged Bill off toward the pinball machines. Face flustered at the tension which had settled in-between the two boys in question.

Eddie shifted his position to face Richie more directly, pulling at Richie’s waist to turn his body with his own. Richie tightened his grip around the boy’s neck hopefully making the situation a little easier. Richie always commended the boy at his ability to hold his weight so easily considering the dramatic size difference. The boy had yet to make any eye contact with Richie, he starred down into his lap and played with his fingers. He mumbles something under his breath which Richie had no hope in hearing. “Sorry Eds, couldn’t quiet hear you.” Richie teased the poor boy. Eddie took in deep breathe before clearing his throat. He glanced up into Richie’s warm honey eyes.

“You, uh – you said earlier you were in love with someone else?” Swallowing down all the courage Eddie possessed to confront Richie, he flickered his eyes to behind Richie’s face where all five losers are standing. They all give a reassuring nod to Eddie. He took in a deep breathe knowing this wasn’t to end the way they all were hoping. “Why did you never tell me who it was?”

Gasping loudly, Richie’s mouth opened wide as he stared at Eddie with a hand clenched to the shirt covering his heart. “My boy, I thought you already knew.” Eddie raised his eyebrows and narrowed his eyes, still awaiting his answer. “Your Mom Ed’s. I’m in love with your Mother. Mrs.K. You better get used to having another Da- “Richie was cut short by Eddie throwing him off his lap. He landed hard on the ground with an ‘oof’ Richie sat in shock, he looked at the boy with a smirk playing on his lips. Eddie’s face remained void of any emotion as he stood over him and walked away.

 “Eddie!” Richie shouted as he watched his figure faded into the overly crowd arcade.

All five losers had watched the scene play out. From Eddie pushing Richie onto the ground, to the part where the boy wiped away the tears leaking from his eyes as he walked past them, slamming the door shut. They all glanced over to Richie, mouths wide open as he starred at the door with confusion on his face. “W-what the fuck Rich!” Bill voice boomed across the room. Richie stood form the floor and headed toward his friends.

 “All you had to do was not be a dick, for once in your life.” Bev piped up, crossing her arms over her chest and narrowing her eyes at him.

“What did I do?”

Stan scoffed from behind Bill, “I told you it wouldn’t work. Richie is too- he’s too Richie Tozier.” Stan said with a wave of his arms as he gestured up and down Richie’s body. “Now poor Eddie’s all heartbroken and shit.”

“Did you listen to anything he had to say?” Mike raised his eyebrows at Richie waiting for a reply. Richie was slightly speechless as he looked among his friends.

“He hadn’t said anything!” Stan scoffed in response.

“Ah, so you didn’t even let him say anything before you were a dick!” Richie squinted his eyes at Stan, slightly insulted.

“He asked me who I was in love with, I said his Mom.” Ben groaned and if Bev could face palm Riche right now she would.

“G-go talk to him.” Bill said awfully loud if they hadn’t already attracted most of the arcades attention by now, they just did. Stan stepped in-between Bill and Mike to come face to face with Richie. Being the only two in the group who rivalled in height. Stan’s facial expression was extremely aggressive, if Richie were to say the least.

“I don’t have any clue as to why, but he’s in love with you, you fuckface! Now go see him before he changes his goddamn mind!” Richie’s eyes widen, flickering back and forth as he processes the information. A quick ‘shit’ was whispered from under his breath as he ran toward the door. Bumping into children and tripping every few feet. The Loser’s yet again stood back and watched the gangly limbed boy child make his way to the one and only person who will ever be able to stand him. With a shake of his head Stan headed back to the table, “He better not fuck it up again.”

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[whatthefuckisasweep]

YALL RVB FANS GET A LOAD OF A MONSTER HIGHSCHOOL AU I THOUGHT OF AT 1:41 AM ON A FRIDAY

CONSIDER THE FOLLOWING TAKES A DEEP BREATH- simmons: vampire, is like a "veganpire" cause he doesn't like to drink from people, very non-aggressive for a vampire, gets picked on for being way too sympathetic towards other races of monsters and also not being a traditional vampire, SPARKLES IN THE SUN, pale as a sheet of paper, his dad is a high society vampire and expects simmons to grow up into a skilled vampire warrior and trains him accordingly; "here son, got you fresh blood from a virgin today" "not feeling it dad" "Cmon. At least try it. It can't hurt" "no", taught that werewolves are savage and impulsive and also kinda stupid, ALSO HE IS THE CUTEST TYPE OF BAT EVER Grif: werewolf, fun lovin, sleeps in his den all day, no landscaping, messy hair everyday, best friend is a fucking succubus, when in werewolf form he totally tries to get people to pet him and give him food for years, full moon day at school and he opens a cold one with the boys, wash thinks he's an idiot, HES A FAT PUPPY IS WHAT IM GETTING AT, A FAT SMART PUPPY WHO SLEEPS 90% OF LIFE AWAY, not a good fighter much to Sarge's dismay, Kai is a smaller werewolf that all the alphas want, Grif rolls his eyes as a beta and attacc, was taught vampires are sly and untrustworthy by the wolves, HES GOT A TAIL AND EARS IN HUMAN FORM OKAY Tucker: succubus((I AM AWARE THR OPPOSITE IS INCUBUS)), AT FIRST HE BRAGS ABOUT HOW MUCH SEX HE GETS BUT HE LEGIT GETS NONE LMAOOOOOOO EVEN AS A SUCCUBUS, has classes on how to be hot; decides to stand up and say "this is bullshit, I PERFORMED A LAP DANCE ON 4 PEOPLE TODAY AND IT WAS SUCCESSFUL GIVE ME AN A MOTHERFUCKER" "Lavernius, one of them tried to kill you" "KINKY, RIGHT???", it's rare to be a male succubus so he's picked on a bit, but still charming and cute, actually a pretty badass fighter, "bowchikabowwow" "what does that even mean" ";)" "okay -10 hot points for Tucker" "dAMMIT" Wash: An alpha werewolf who acts more like a beta, but still leads very well, teaches classes to werewolves about the importance of cooperation of a pack (couGH FRIENDSHIP), "it's mr hot wolf teacher" "Lavernius this class is for werewolves only take off your fake ears" "FOILED AGAIN", tired dad, howls when sad, can control his transformation fairly well, hates being called savage, loves cats Donut: A FAIRY, his wings are so beautiful TBH, makes everybody jealous, he is sparkly and beautiful and he grants wishes with magic, he's not very good at it though he's still in practice, he has a little wand, floats around like a beautiful wad of bubblegum, others actually really like him, makes a ton of bad fairy puns and innuendos Doc: a HEALING ELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, A GOOD BOY, MAKING HERBAL TEAS FOR EVERYONE, WEARS A FUCKING CROWN OF GRASS, THEM POINTY EARS,,, YELLS, doES GREAT IN CLASS, tries to be nice BUT HAS A DARK ELF SIDE CALLED OMALLEY, and he physically changes when Omalley takes over and people can tell, rare disorder within the elf genome Church: another werewolf, an omega male, hates his life, yells and growls a lot, sarcasm 100%%%%%, probably not a strong wolf (stronger than Grif though), whines a lot, can't find a good mate Tex: LITERALLY A RARE ALPHA FEMALE, agressive as all hell, will CHOMP EVERYONE, takes over the alpha wing, sCARES SARGE, MAKES THE VAMPIRES VERY AFRAID AND CONFIRMS THEIR "SAVAGE" STEREOTYPE, FIGHTS EVERYDAY, has a thing for tiny baby omega church Sarge: werewolf who has a grudge against vampires and preaches bad propaganda while every other monster rolls their eyes about the million year feud Caboose: A STRONG WEREWOLF, a GOOD BOY, A SOFT BOY, A GOOD BOYYYYYY, PET PET PET, HE HAVE A GOOD TAIL AND EAR,,, I LOVE lopez: Sarge's Orc assistant that only speaks Orc language and Sarge literally has no idea but doc knows orcish a little so he can translate Locus & Felix & Temple: bunch of MEANIE GHOULS :(, locus then becomes a vegan and drinks that coffee from Tokyo Ghoul tbh so he doesn't eat humans anymore but felix and temple kill for sport and temple has a LITERAL MURDER FRIDGE FOR HIS FOOD TEMPLE LEGIT HAS A MURDER FRIDGE FOR HIS VICTIMS MEAT LIKE IM PROUD OF THAT SHIT OK FUCK YOU SOMEONE CAN YOU DRAW THIS PLEASE LIKE A BUNCH OF MYTHICAL PEOPLE ON A BUS OR SOME SHIT IM IN TEARS

[the-ballad-of-the-shredder]

Warn this is a lime/lemon fic

It was too and Skekzym began to get tired waiting for her mate to show up. She started to wonder where he was. Her body felt heated up and her breaths were heavy. The poor girl was yearning for his speical thicc gift that only he can give her.

All of sudden the door creaked open and Skekmal slipped open. He his shirt was covered in blood and he was panting. After discarding his dirty cloth, he plopped him on to the bed.nect to her.

Without warning Skekzym couldnt handle her urges and attacked his neck. She smothered his neck with kissing..she lightly grinded that her teeth on his neck, before pouring an edible oil upon his stomach. She looked Skekmal into his eyes with a toothy smirk. The apethocarist then kicked to trace her tongue slowly down.his body, licking up the oil.

Skekmal body was starting to heat up. At first he was so tired, he actually wanted to cancel sex night, but now he's happy that didnt. His mate really knows how turn him. The hunter closed his eyes, feeling his tongue work magic upon his belly..buy now his nipples. She rubbed circles around his nips. She sucked on them, grabbed fist fulls of his tits.

She smirked on her face, at the thought of how senestive mal's nips were, so grabbed one of mal's throwing knives, and she placed it flat on one nip, she laughed a bit. When she felt Mal's body do a small twitch and him lightly gasp at the sudden cold temperature with the combo of his.nipples getting pinched.

Skekmal's was could feel his body heating up more as she played with his nips. The hunter kept staring at the ceiling as his mate worked her magic. His closed his.mouth, firmly pressing his teeth to his.mouth, when all of sudden. He felt it! The feeling he's been waiting for all night.

Her started by nuzzing cock with her beak, the warm breath wrapped around it. When she exhaled on to it. After slowly licked it, staring from the head all the way to his balls. Skekzym repeated that action a few times, before embracing his entire cock with her.mouth. She wrapped her tongue around his shift, grinded her teeth against the senestive skin.

She could feel Mal's being erect within her.mouth. He was so easy to please. Her mouth took to his.cock, like a horse eating a carrot. She could hear Mal gasp, his body twitching.

Skekmal's entire body was hot, his breath were shallow. He gasped everytime he could feel her tongue upon his shaft. Though his arousal began to take effect on him. He couldnt handle it any more. Skekmal licked at his beak rear backed his hips gave a big thrusted forward.

Skekzym felt mal's cock get slapped almost down her throat. She had no idea that was going to so that. She had no way to prepare her for gis penis getting forcibly shoved into her throat opening. The apethocarist loudly gagged, she pulled away from her mate. She had a few tears in her eyes from the scary event. It cut off her blocked her air way, giving her feeling of suffocating.

Skekmal jerked up to check if his mate was fine. He rubbed at her back, while she coughed. "Im sorry" was all he could say to her, as he rubbed her shoulders

Zym was in mad at first, but started to get turned on by the shoulder rubbing. "Its fine, lie back down. Im not done with you" she commanded. She took her hand and shoved Mal into a lying positions. "Are you ready?" She asked, in which Mal gave an eagerly look.

Zym grabbed man's legs position them sligtly up, as she kneeled over Skekmal, gently lowering herself down upon the tip, before she started to bounce upon and down his cock, started by using her leg muscles to lift her up and down upon his shaft. Slowly she went upon and down, feeling every inch of his cock as it rubbed against her. She lowered herself a few shallow inches upon his cock, but coming down for a deeper penetration. Her breaths began ragged, and she speeds being to slowly increase.

Skekmal gripped her hips and held on to it. His toes began to curl, he could slowly feel himself build into an orgasm. A rumble in his throat began to form, he couldnt stop nor did he wanted. He threw his dead back and released his moan of pleasure into air. He panted heavily and repeated his louding moaning

"Oh.. Oh. Nnnngn Thra" "Say my name!"

Skekmal was already building to her climax, her breath was heavy. Her eyes twitched, and rolled inside her eye lids. Her head was limpy bouncing around, as she bounced on his cock. She began to moan, which got louder and louder.

"OH! Ooh! Skekmal!! Her was started to moan loudly, she couldnt help herself. She began to repeatedly on an endless loop shout "Oh Mal!, Oh Skekmal!" The room filled with the the words. It was like she couldnt stop moaning his name,no matter how much she tried.

The loudness of they way she screamed his name.

"Oh mal. Oh Mal Oh Mal! OH MAL OH MAL!!"

Her shouting his names were like music to his ears. Mal started to pant heavy, and he too found himself, shouting his mates name.

"Oh oh oh oh Oh Zym zym zym zym zym zym!" He was reaching his climax, started moan as loud as his.mate

"Oh Zym Oh Zym! Tame this hunter! Ride this hunter! "Who's your hunter! Who'd your HUNTER!

Zym reares back her head and shouted to heavens "Skekmal!, you are!" So as she yelled that. She felt Mal lifted her body up into a standing position. ahe lifted her body up with his powerful dominant hands. Skekzym wrapped her legs around his waist, squeezing around him. He lifted her up and gentle lifted her up and down on his cock, the gentle rhythm quickly turned to harsh thrusting. Skekmal normally tries to be gentle, but once the lust snd arousal kicks in. He extremely unpredictable. One.moment he fucks like a violently feral beast, then all of sudden starts thrusting slow and gentle. He quickly thrust Zym, he was fast with violent deep trusts. She swore she was going to get whiplash, so she tapped on his shoulder and pointed to a table filled with herbs and potion in front of the window. Her mate nodded her and placed upon table. The hunter lifted up by her legs and put over his shoulder, then quick shoved tip into her wet.hole.

"This time start slow, we've talked about this"

Mal nodded at his mate, he looked into her eyes as she slowly thrusted in. He started with small shallow thrusts. He counted in his head the amount he did. Once he got to eight, he did a slow deep thrust. He slowly smiled, when Zym cringed her face at the deeper penetration. Skekmal repeatedly his steps. He.kept eye contact with her, their eyes almost engulfed each other. Almost his eyes, shift to see a potion bottle next to him. "Whats this?"

"Oh its an aphrodisiac potion" "I had some earlier to day"

Skekmal did a chuckle, before increasingly his thrusting speeds.

"Oh thats why you were so horny, when I came in today.. Let me guess, its worn off"

Skekzym did gasp, she slowly felt an orgasm start to build. "Y..y..yes". She stuttered a bit. "Could you go faster"

'As you wish" He his eye contact began more intense, as he began to pick up speed..his thrusting began harder. He felt himself build up to orgasm. "Say my name! I want to look at you. When you say it"

"Skekmal!" She yelled. Her body began tense, whenever he randomly thrust himself deeper into her hole. She could see her legs bounce around on his shoulders, as she increased speed and power. His moans began loud, first time he broke eye contact was so he couls rear his back and.moan.

She joined his moaning, she felt table began to shake, banging loudly against the wall. Mal's lust and arousal once again took control over him. He didnt seem all there, as mouth hanged up, drool dripping from his.mouth His eyes seem to have rolled to back of his head. His thrusting has began faster, harder and deeper. The table began to violently slam against wall. Mal let out a low growl, his breath began panted.. This was thr first time Zym, heard him wheeze. Mal was slightly wheezing as he panted heavily.

"Ooooooooooooh zym" he lowly moaned, he was too in the zone of pleasure and a sexual high

Skekzym began to pant as well, felt Mal grip her legs holding them firmly. He wanted to hold on to something as he reached his climax. Zym threw her head back and rocked his body against mal'a thrusting. She began to moan Mal's name as her own climax soon. She was swallowed into her own sexual high, along with mal.

Mal couldnt handled it anymore, he quickly reached his head back and let out a loud moan "OH SKEKZYM!!!" as he released his essense inside. Skekzym held on to the table as she moaned loudly. "OH MAL!

Skekmal slowly pulled out a little bit of his cum dripped from his slilt. He stood there over Skekzym panting, as both came down from their sexual high. Zym watched as Mal almost stumbled as he.stepped back. His legs were so tires, Mal slowly panted before picking up Zym by her hips and placing her upon the ground.

Skekzym gave her mate a firm slap on the ass, before they both made their way to bed. As they laid next to each other, Mal curled his tail around her legs, and embraced her into a cuddle. He heavy panted into her ear, from how exhausted he was, but Zym didn't mind. “Y’know, we should try to do a three way sometimes” She laughed

Skekmal shook his head in disbelief that she even said that. “No!” he shouted.”Nobody is allowed to touch you, except me” Skekmal snapped.  “Who said they’ll be fucking me” she giggled Skekmal shook his head again, “I will not be fucked by another, only you” Skekmal laid against her back, and pressed his beak into her neck. His slowly began to close, and he awaited his well deserve rest. Skekzym smiled at his reaction, before soon following him into the land of sleep.

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[forgivemyevilsins]

Sit your ass down, lemme talk bout my first concert experience

Guys so ytd was Party Baby in SG and i rmbed rushing to buy the tickets and i got the center stall which was nice and i was at a decent distance away from the stage. Then,i went really early ytd which was arn 12+ when it starts at 7.30(i basically went directly from school) Slowly but surely, more people started to come and fansites also arrived and they were having giveaways. I talked to a fellow fan and we just stayed tgt while checking what giveaways there were. As it drew closer to the concert, more fans were crowding arn the entrance of the place and it was really crowded and i was pretty worried that we were disrupting the place since the concert was held at a tourist hot spot basically the Mastercard theatre in Marina Bay Sands(we crowded outside thr) When the time came, we went in,queued for our autographed album,went to our seats and waited. Opening act came in, it was lit guys i just started to jam with my lightstick and all. He was really good! Then,when the counter started to count down, everyone started to get more excited.

 They came in, everyone was screaming(?) I was more of shouting since i knew screaming would immediately hurt my throat.they came in and then the lights and all the mist, it was actually rly hard to get a clear view of them but i was shouting along trying to fanchant as much as i can(i normally prefer to sing the whole thing somewhat).I didnt know who to focus on tho, i wanted to look at everyone so my eyes were flying everywhere. The thoughts that came to me was they are real, they are infront of me rn. When they finished performing the first section, the lights turned on and i could see them in their glory. They greeted us with singlish(they tried) except for yongguk. my mind just kept chanting they are real and infront of me,  these bunch of flawless perfect humans.What did i do to deserve them,i dont fking deserve them. and thats how i got fking emotional and i felt my eyes gettin teary the more the concert went on 

The lounge talk was nice, it was chill and all and the girl that got on stage was so lucky. I was so fking emotional for the whole thing my god just thoughts of seeing them right there and the fact that i dont deserve them, like i felt tears in my eyes and my face scrunching up, the feel when you are gonna cry but i didn’t but i was still jamming and all and at one point i was so hyped i swung the lightstick abit too much and hit the person in front of me, i immediately oh shit im so sorry I really hope she didnt get hurt by that. When it was coming near the end it was so fking fast i didnt realise at all. They kept lying tho, they were like this is our last song then after awhile they came back in. stop playing with my heart. There is this one part where Daehyun pointed at me and smiled while he sang and all (it was in my direction it could have been for anyone else but lets just pretend that he pointed at me) during Be Happy(if im not wrong, i dun rly rmb everything is so hazy)

I was smiling throughout the concert honestly like this fun, i havent had in awhile though it was emotional as well like after seeing them on screen for so long… Oh and they performed 1004 which is like one of my fav songs so i was rly happy and Youngjae got teary at the last stage with you which made me even more…

ok but there was a feeling that came to me, like idk is it because im so socially awkward and i can only be open arn people im close to but there was this foreign feeling, maybe cuz i only started to really stan them in like 2015 and its my first time seeing them live or its the realisation that im just a fan out of many and there were many other fans that were like so open and playful with them and were with them longer than i have and even learnt korean and all while i was waiting for the translator which apparently translated wrongly but i take what i can get. I mean no matter how much i love them and all, they are still strangers that you only just somewhat know. I guess seeing them live just made sure that we indeed are strangers.(ok that took a sad turn)

And the most important, the Hi touch. Guys guys i fked up like i entered, saw them up close and i could see how smooth their skin is, zelo was first so seeing him in all his tall ass,cute face glory, i dazed out,i honestly dun rmb the in between just hi-fived,thanked him and left. next was himchan, he had his hand down so i hi-fived him and looked up,made eye contact and fuck he was beautiful and then i completely blanked out, i wanted to tell himchan i love him but i fking blanked out after seeing his handsome af face and then sadly he didnt smile at me maybe just maybe cuz i fked up. Then i just continued on(my legs just moved on its own) in a daze, i dun even rmb whether i thanked youngjae and jongup, i dun even rmb their face during the thing cuz i was in such a level of dazed though i did rmb yongguk since seeing him smile his gummy smile in front of me kinda snapped me out of it for awhile, he gave me a small smile and nod combo and then daehyun, he was at the end of the line and he was so cheery with his smiles and eye smiles and i snapped out of it when he said bye and i quickly said an ‘i love you’ to him but i was already moving forward alr. My left hand is blessed now

But im so happy i could get to see and hear them live and all and this was my first concert tbh, everything was moving so fast and i feel like at least i accomplished something finally since i was nvr a fan of crowds and all. I know this was so long but thks for reading my first concert experience with B.A.P