#IF HE TRIES TO LEAVE HIM WITH ANOTHER DAZAI AND RUN ATP CHUUYA WILL JUST DIE & NVR TRUST AGAIN.

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[Most of the pages have similar notes, some have more

Fainting

Coughing

Hallucinations

Voices

Depression

Fear of self

Fear of blood

Vomitting

Lack of appetite

Disgust at food

Lack of motivation to get up

There are also a fair amount of pages that have been scribbled on roughly and ripped at, the words no longer eligible at all. There are still no dates in anything]

[Chuuya hums a bit, still mostly focused on trying to breath. He nods though, absently agreeing. He tilted his head a bit, seeming to be silently wondering if dazai had gotten it all or not, before sighing a bit. His grip around Dazais wrist is iron strong, if a bit loose.]

[@long-death-dazai contining the other one here!]

[long-death-dazai]

Chuuya- [he mumbles softly, almost mournfully, bundling up and biting into the blanket below him the more and more pages he gets through, spattered with blood, just picturing Chuuya in his worst states coming up to the one untarnished place in his house to record it all. And it hurts. It's happening to him right now somewhere in the HQ and Dazai is here unable to do anything about it. He can feel his eyes stinging but he ignores it in favor of flipping through more and more blood and tearstained pages]

[Chuuya hums a bit, still mostly focused on trying to breath. He nods though, absently agreeing. He tilted his head a bit, seeming to be silently wondering if dazai had gotten it all or not, before sighing a bit. His grip around Dazais wrist is iron strong, if a bit loose.]

[@long-death-dazai contining the other one here!]