#I've loved this group since 2016 so I was excited when I saw they got a new song for the first time since 2017 (2018 if you count a remix o

[reinemichele]

We're in your car (in your car) It's still silent (so quiet) Can you break the silence? 'Cause I don’t want it All I can hear is the sound of the radio in here (in here) This is so sad, say something please... We're not talking at all in the moving car And we just ride (na-nanana) I'm staring at my phone, you're looking out the window I'm so frustrated; we're hopeless, babe I know, you know, we both know We must break the silence (I don't understand) I know, you know, we both know But we just can't start a conversation...

[cheeseceli]

I'll be waiting

Pairing: idol Bang Chan × Gn!reader

Genre: fluff, angst, friends to potential lovers, fic (1.6k words)

Prompt: "Even ten years from now, if you haven't found somebody I promise I'll be around. Tell me when you're ready. I'm waiting"

Warnings: for a short moment there's a bit of unrequited love, happy ending tho. Mentions of insecurity back to the trainee days.

A/n: the longest fic I've ever done, I'm kinda proud of it ngl

Patience might be Chan's biggest virtue, he thinks to himself. By seeing where he's right now and where he was ten years ago, he smiles. He couldn't agree more with that statement.

2014

He still remembers the first time he saw you.

Monthly evaluation. At this point, Chan should already be used to this whole process of the trainee life. However, that day felt particularly depressing to him. Hopeless, he would say.

He had found out that JYP was about to debut a new group. A girl group. And as much as Bang Chan tried to be completely happy for his friends who could finally try and debut, he had to admit he was somewhat jealous. Four years of training and he felt like he was heading towards nowhere.

Still, he tried to practice. He sang the song he would showcase so many times he reached the point of not even feeling the words leaving his mouth. He was so lost he also didn't notice the presence of someone else in the practice room. That is, until you clapped.

Chan turned his head towards you, low-key surprised. He recognised you as the child of one of the Got7's staff. He couldn't remember your name though. He doubted he even heard it at all.

"Sorry" you finally spoke. Your voice was pretty "I'm looking for my dad. Your voice is very beautiful though. You're doing well." And with a thumbs up you went away.

Chan couldn't help but laugh. Now that was random. He could barely process what happened. But you complimented him. It had been a while since he last heard a genuine compliment.

Somewhere inside his mind, he repeated his words nonstop, filling him with motivation and hope. He also was trying to remember to ask your name later.

2016

He did remember to ask your name after all. Y/n L/n. The pronunciation of your name was beautiful, almost like a melody. Honestly, after two years of knowing you, he could affirm that your existence itself was like a sweet melody.

You both became friends, good ones at that. He also found himself developing feelings for you. That was the saddest part of it all in his opinion.

Even though he hadn't known you for so long, he couldn't see life without you. To live without your horrible jokes (that he always found funny), without your sunshine-like personality (even though most people wouldn't describe you like that. Maybe you were his personal dose of light) felt like a nightmare.

However, it felt a bit cruel that he needed to live like that. He wanted to be an idol. You were the one who was his biggest incentive. Then why, to have a romance with you, could bring problems to his career? It was almost as if destiny liked to make chan suffer.

Pick one.

Happily, Chan was patient. So patient that he decided to wait for you as long as needed. He had hopes that any time now, you would come to him. And he would be ready.

Meanwhile, he focused on becoming an idol. He couldn't give up now, especially given the fact that he knew you'd be in the front row, cheering for him louder than everyone else.

2018

He kept his promise: he followed his dream, finally achieving the so exciting debut, and still waited for you, his crush developing into the most sincere love he ever felt.

However, you had other plans. Of course, you were still there for him. You were probably the one who got the happiest with the results of the survival show. You spent countless nights with him on the practice room and in the studio. You were seeing his dream come true in first hand.

But this time, there was someone else besides you: your current boyfriend. Chan really doesn't know why he didn't think this could've happened. Of course, you were dating. You were smart, beautiful and had so much love to give. Someone else would've fallen for you at some point. And it was unfair of him to expect you to be single, waiting for an empty promise.

The saddest part of it was that your boyfriend was a nice guy. It was clear he loved you. He even made an effort to love everyone who you loved, including Chan himself. You were happy around him.

Maybe it was a blessing in disguise. Chan got the job, you got someone to love - someone who could adore you without being scared of the media - and you both still got each other in the end.

Maybe that was what Chan could have. It's okay, right?

2020

The downfall of Chan's patience at last.

Although you both were still as close as you always were, life was leading each of you in your own direction.

You had a job, he had a job. You had your friends, he had his members. You had your own house, he had the dorms. You had your boyfriend, he didn't have a partner. But it was okay because he didn't even have the time after all.

Still, he tried to fall for someone else during this period. Being in this industry for two years now, he had the opportunity to meet a lot of people. Some fancied him, some tried to take a step further in a somewhat relationship. Some even wanted to just have fun. Chan swears he tried to give in most of the time.

Needless to say he failed at every try. He couldn't come close to someone without wishing it was you instead. His short answers were compared to how sweetly he talked to you. He didn't even bother to call people or have long conversations. He knew it was only a matter of time until his mind started the undesired comparison.

Maybe it was what the job required. Maybe it was because of his lack of time. Han disagrees though. Chan remembers how his friend insisted on the fact that his leader wouldn't even try with other people. But it wasn't his fault either, as it was a subconscious thing. Chan's mind was still wrapped around you. And his heart wanted to disagree, but it all goes down the moment he finds out you and your boyfriend, now your ex, had broken up.

Although he tried hard to deny, he couldn't help but still wait for you. No matter if there was a light at the end of the tunnel or if it was only darkness. He would wait.

2022

Something in your brain has switched, and Bang Chan can't say he really liked the difference.

Of course, you were still the greatest person he ever met. You were still his sunshine. But it seemed like you were tired. Your conception of life and love wasn't as bright as it once was and Chan couldn't help but feel worried about it.

For him, who has loved you deeply for over eight years now, to see you giving yourself less credit and affection hurt him. He doesn't know why and when it happened, but your brain was trying to shut down all genuine feelings one could offer to you. You thought you were, maybe, undeserving of it all.

Honestly, to see you slowly losing your light has wounded Chan way more than all his past experiences: from his fear of failure to his disappointment upon meeting your ex boyfriend. Almost as an instinct,he tried to solve the situation. This time, patience wouldn't do.

Without even noticing, he started to love you more. To actually show you how he cared for you, to put his feelings into words and actions. At first, your heart tried to deny any possible affection, but it soon realised it wasn't possible. Not when Chan didn't even hesitate on showing the entire world how you were worthy of love. And not once he showed it as a challenge or a burden. He was by your side, and he never made it seem hard.

The best part of it all was that none of you noticed it. He started to open up to you to try and protect you,and you opened up to him in order to heal and protect his feelings. Maybe that was patience finally showing itself as a virtue.

2024

Ten years later, it finally happened.

Honestly, Chan was still a bit suspicious. There was no way he was actually seeing this, right? Maybe he was becoming delusional after all. Maybe he started to hallucinate because of his desires. But at the same time, it felt too real.

The way you looked at him, that is. It was just a normal conversation between old friends. Between gossips and laughs, there was absolutely no reason for you to look at him like this. So lost in thought, with this shimmer in your eyes that Chan knew way too well. He knew it because he had it too.

It was love. Not the one nurtured by friends or family. The one shared just between lovers. And he was so sure of it because he knew he looked at you in the exact same way you were looking at him right now.

He smiles. For a moment, you're a bit lost, wondering if you lost a joke or an important moment. That, however, makes him laugh. He couldn't believe he just saw you fall in love on the first row.

Ah, he's been patient. Now, he can't wait for you to realise what just happened. Either way, he knows with a smile on his face that he'll be waiting for you.

I promise I'll be around.

Masterlist | you'll probably like: summer with you

Thank you for reading <3 let me know what you think about it!

Taglist (open!): @yuyubeans @dandelions-143

Dividers by @dollywons

Credits for images 1 , 2 and 3

[keldau]

Throwback to the beginnings of my costuming journey. Though this armor has since been retired, mainly due to my unfortunate physical growth, I think back on these times fondly. I like to think the time and care I put into my first build shows, but I may be a touch biased.

The completion of this armor lead to a great many things in my life. Some of the most fun I've ever had, some of the best friends I've ever made, and some of the coolest opportunities I never thought I'd have.

In 2016 I was invited to attend a convention in Salt Lake where I met the man himself, big boss Boba Fett, Jeremy Bulloch. While it was a brief (but incredibly cool) opportunity, he wasn't the only hero I got to meet that weekend. While attending a panel for Mark Hamill, I also got a high five from Jason David Frank (RIP). Another man I've loved and respected for as long as I can possibly remember.

While manning the Star Wars Costuming Clubs booth that same year, along with a new friend, we were blown away by a random surprise visit by Michael Rooker. Though I regret missing this opportunity to get a picture, the conversation we had without a massive group of people interrupting him, is all the memory of the event I need. What a genuinely cool guy.

Over the years my armor evolved and grew with me, but continued to open doors I never thought possible. Growing up in the middle of nowhere, no real money to my name, and no opportunities to truly geek out with the people left in my hometown, I never thought that Comic Cons and costume groups would be part of my life. I had followed what the 501st Legion was doing since I was a kid, and was truly blown away when I saw them on tv marching in the Rose Bowl Parade in 2007. Still, I never thought anything like that would exist in Montana. At that point, the Mandalorian Mercs were just starting, so I hadn't even heard of them yet.

By the time I started college, I was made aware of the existence of the MMCC. Sitting in my dorm dreaming that I'd have the money, time, space, skills, etc, to start a build of my own some day. Then one day in 2015, I saw this helmet for sale from Headshot Props, and I knew it was time. I had to make this purchase. I checked my accounts, moved some stuff around, skipped getting groceries for a few weeks, and 2 months later, there it was in all of its glory. Sitting at my doorstep when I got off work, I don't think I had ever been that excited. I took it inside, ripped open the box, knocked off just enough of the sharp edges to put it on without cutting myself, and low and behold... it didn't fit.

Motivation: demolished. Faith: gone.

I was, frustrated, to say the least. I'm the type of person to take setbacks like this extremely personally because of how often it seems like it happens to me. I set it on the shelf and looked at it for a few days. I knew there was nothing I could do about a return because the dimensions were posted, and I measured my head. It should have fit. I didn't take into account the cheeks of the helmet being a tighter spot, and my bigass fivehead just wasn't gonna do it without breaking the helmet. I had to do something though. I sanded the hell out of the inside of the cheeks to the point that you could see light through them, and I could get the helmet on, though it wasn't a pleasant experience. I then took my heat gun, thinking there's no way this will work, heated the resin just enough to push the cheeks out that little bit extra, and I'll be damned. It was just enough. The helmet was still tight, but it fit, and it was back to game on.

The course of the next few months brought on a ton of changes. I was lucky enough to be working at a sign shop at the time I began this journey, and that shop had a seemingly endless supply of foamed PVC board and a flatbed CNC machine. I was able to trace out my armor design and just have it cut right there! Barely even had to trim and sand anything! It was amazing! I started learning skills I never even knew I wanted. Using a heat gun to form shapes, learning to paint, kit bashing parts to make in-universe looking props, it just never seemed to end! Halfway through my build, I moved, but I didn't let that move ruin my motivation. In that tote was a pile of loose parts and a helmet. Within a month of moving into my new place, it was wearable. Rough, but wearable. Around Halloween that year, I had met up with some local guys that were also building armor, and we handed out candy at the Zoo! It was amazing, and I had so much fun. Met some of my future best friends that day.

Over the years of doing local events, I've been humbled on a few occasions. Mostly from people who joined the group later on that have told me their journey started when they saw me at one event or the other. That's such an incredible feeling and honestly makes all the time, effort, money, stress, blood, and love I've put into this build worth it.

If you've stuck with this post this far, I applaud you. You can probably tell I'm not much of a writer and I'm all over the place with no real conclusion to any of it. I'm really just reminiscing. This weekend I will be parting out this original kit, or at least most of it, in order to help new costumers, new friends, get a foothold in their build, and hopefully motivate them to continue.

If you've ever wanted to build a costume, regardless of what fandom it's for, don't let anyone tell you not to do it. Buy it, build it; piece by piece or all it once, it doesn't matter. Just do it. Solid chance you'll never regret it.

[slutforiankingsley]

My top 10 favorite Choices stories (with reviews)

1. Queen B (book 1)

I just loved how we had the option to be a bad bitch for once! Such a breath of fresh air, and the drama! Oh the drama, I loved it. However the only thing I really didn't like is how forced Kingsley is to players who didn't want to romance him, I didn't release it (because I choose the romance options) until I saw other players playthroughs and I was shocked. And how Zoey is a great LI but got pushed to the side and made a walking closet.

2. Blades of Light and Shadow

Literally everything about this book! The choice of LI, the fantasy, swords, I loved it. And to me it seamed like the majority of players really liked it and it really doent have anything problematic in it like a lot of choices stories.

3. Ride or Die

I replayed this bitch so many times and would switch between Logan and Mona being my LI, don't ask me to pick because I won't. It really gave me fast and furious vibes and I was all for it. I loved getting to be a criminal and doing all the illegal shit, the cars were real cool too. It really isn't what you expect it to be from the "bad boy romance" title, it's a shame they cancelled the second book.

4. Wake the Dead

WTD is the first book in mouths that wasn't smutty or straight up porn, it has been a relief from the crappy books PB has been releasing here recently. I've witnessed players (including myself) beg for a zombie book since 2016 when they started the app, I was so excited last year (2021) when they announced a zombie book in the insiders email. But along with most players I was devastated mouths later when they decided to put it behind a pay wall when they decided for all new stories to be VIP🙄 I'm not even gonna get into that rant.... Anyways, it's very well written and keeps me on my toes! I like how many different choices of LI there are and how your choices really affect future chapters. The writers seriously went out of their way to make a book this good compared to the others that couldn't be bothered to write half decent stories. It's awful that they aren't giving it a second book so they can make room for trashy sequels (like surrender🤮)

5. Open Heart (book 1)

It's been a while since I played it, but I'm into anything medical so I liked getting to play as a doctor (I know it wasn't really good medical since most of it was fictional bs lol). The friend group was great and of course it had to have ridiculous drama like Grey's Anatomy. It's kinda sad that the sequels weren't as good, I was seriously disappointed by book 3.

6. Laws of Attraction

I thought this book was gonna be a another lust romance but it really took me by surprise, I liked the mystery to it and getting to solve a case while keeping the romance part at bay and not shoving it down your throat if you didn't want it. I'm much looking forward to book 2.

7. The Heist: Monaco

Again, I love getting to be the bad guy and not some naive goodie 2 shoes MC. I liked how your choices really affected the story even though it was tricky to make the right choice. Really wish it got a second book.

8. The Elementalist

It's been awhile since I've played but I liked the magic! It was really cool and made me feel like a looser for not having magic powers in real life lol.

9. Foreign Affairs

I hate politics, I can't stand it. I wasn't looking forward to it but was gonna play it to get diamonds, well I ended up spending a ton of diamonds on it haha. It wasn't as polital as I thought and ended up being really good. My favorite part of the story is Tatum😍

10. The Royal Masquerade

I didn't like it at first just by how MC was treated (i know that was what it was like back then) but I really got into it. I liked the fantasy and mystery to it, I'm pretty sure it was a very popular book among the players so I don't understand why it didn't get a second book. The ending felt rushed.

I don't see any of the future stories to be released making the list but who knows it might surprise me, but probably not considering the way books have been written here lately. The only one's I look forward to are sequels like LOA and BOLAS if they ever release it and don't do what they did with ROD.

[h0neyjaehyun]

☁︎ 𝐄𝐲𝐞𝐬 ☁︎

Summary // Chenle finds Tali such a precious thing in his life, especially her eyes that have this shine that he wishes that would never go away.

Characters // Talia Flores + Dreamies(except Jisung)

Era / Years // May 2016

Word Count //

⚠️Warning⚠️ // bullying mention

It's no secret that Chenle LOVES Tali. Everyone in SM knows that, ever since they partnered up during the trainee days he has been attached to her. Honestly Tali finds it adorable and doesn’t mind. Chenle just loves being in her presence since he feels so loved around her.

But the thing that Chenle loves the most about Tali is her eyes.They are so pretty to him and her eyes, he can tell how much she loves him.As people say the eyes are the window to the soul, and when he looks into her eyes, he couldn’t agree more.              

He always tried to look into her eyes at least once everyday to reassure himself the light was still there .Sometimes he would look at them for so long Tail would get flustered.He would just smile and coo at her and say “Aww I'm sorry didn’t mean to make you flustered.” then he would hug her and giggle cutely.

There have been many moments fans love of either Chenle or another member complementing Talis eyes and her getting flustered.Most of them is of Chenle just admiring her and complementing than the other members.

Chenle has heard about Tali’s talent and her beauty, especially her eyes, so when he was partnered with her and Renjun he was ecstatic. When he first saw her boy he was amazed with her eyes, prettier than he thought they would be, vibrant.

When he met her, he was so shy yet out there. Over time when they were trainees he had gained confidence and complemented her eyes, but was disappointed with what he discovered.

Tali just came out of vocal practice for a 30 minute break to eat lunch.She went to the cafeteria to grab some food and she saw a familiar group of boys eating.

”Heyy,” Mark said, dragging his voice first to notice his female friend.Tali smiled and responded.

"Hey Marky." She sat between Mark and Chenle, Chenle hugging her.Jaemin started feeding her since she forgot to grab her food.

Chenle started to stare at Tali admiring her eyes, unlucky for the Chinese boy, Haechan noticed and started to tease him.

“Ohh~ is out Chenle checking out Tali, ahh~ he's crushing on her, Chenle has a crush on Tali ,Chenle has a crush on Tali.” Haechan said with a high pitched teasing voice, with a smirk on his face.

Everyone in the group knew that he just finds her precious, so they  were now either teasing or pitied the flustered Chinese boy in front of them.

“N- no it's not like that” They poor boy was trying to explain, but he was still too flustered to speak properly.

“Then what is it?” Jaemin said in a teasing voice while handing Tali her water that she couldn’t open. Tali just shook her head at the boy handing her the water, feeling bad for the flustered boy that couldn’t seem to get his words out.

That's when Chenle finally had the courage to say something that caught Tali off guard.But something the boys all agreed on.

“I- i was just staring at her because I wanted to look at her eyes.”Chenle said with embarrassment, all the boys laughed in agreement. He then looked up at Tali expecting her to be smiling but instead she looked shocked and confused.

He was surprised when she was shocked. Did he do something wrong? She could tell that he was worried that he said something wrong.

“Oh uh sorry you didn't do anything...it's just." She said hesitantly while shaking her head.

”It's just I don’t get complimented on my eyes” She said with a shy smile.

They boys were surprised over that, everyone gushes over her eyes, and talks about it what does she mean she doesn’t get compliments.

“No~ it's just I get the opposite...some female trainees in my dance practice say I don’t look pretty because of my eyes or I should have colored contacts because I look weird.”She said hesitantly but with a cute head tilt and a sad smile.

Everything went quiet

Tali looked at all the boys and she could tell they were mad

But before any of the guys could say or do anything she gave them a smile 

 “ Hey it's fine, I'm used to it, and it doesn't bother me much. I've always been called weird or been told my eyes make me look ugly it's okay, either way I gotta go back to vocal practice, please behave. I don't wanna cause problems.”

The boys were quiet when she left, all thinking who the hell would do that to Tali, their noona. 

Chenle was conflicted, how can people be so insensitive, he was mad really mad.Who would do that to his noona she was always sweet and caring-

“We have to do something”

Everyone looked up to see a pissed off Haechan.

“You know what she said-” “Oh please Mark, you really think it doesn’t bother her anymore, she bottles up her  emotions, we can’t just sit here and not do anything when we know what is happening.” Haechan snapped at Mark.

“Haechan we know, but we also have to respect her wishes. ” Jeno said with a stern voice trying to calm him down.

”but Haechan has a point we need to at least do something.”Renjun said with a sad tone.

They were all conflicted on what to do.Part of them want to have a “talk” with those girls while the other part of them want to respect their noona’s wishes.It was getting late and they decided the older ones to try to figure out who did it secretly.

While Chenle distracts her which he did to his excitement since even tho how long he has been clinging on to her, he never got the chance to hang out with her alone.

“We are….what?” Tali said with a surprised voice wondering what's going on with the adorable boy infront of her brain.

“We are going to go out together just the two of us!” Chenle said with such excitement in his face excited to finally have time with his noona alone and get to know her better.

Chenle could never see if she was sad or mad or any negative emotion from her so at times it was hard to read her.So he took this as an opportunity to get to know her better.

Tali looked at him confused on why out of all people, why her.She thought about it while looking at his face thinking to herself...how can I reject that face. She sighed while looking at him with a sweet smile,

”Sure, why not”. 

With all of that Chenle melted, her eyes looked at him so lovingly, and when she accepted, happiness filled him and he started to drag her to the mall.He wanted to buy her everything thinking she deserves the world.But she stops him and it doesn’t take a lot of convincing either. It just takes one caring look in her eyes and everything doesn’t matter anymore.

The things he has learned about her is that she is not that girly; she is more of a soft person and her color palette in clothes wise is around the warm colors like pinks and browns, yet also blacks, grays, whites. He finds her style pretty simple.Then realized he has never seen her in a dress or skirts even tho she has a uniform mostly cause she changes pretty quickly after school.So when he gave her the puppy eyes when he asked her to put on a dress and she couldn’t say no.

She came out with a short flowy white flower dress off the shoulders.He was shook on how pretty it looked on her.He noticed how she became shy about to run back in dressing room her quickly back hugged her while she hid her face in her hands, “NOOooNa yOur SO PreTty….can we please buy it and the next time we go out can you wear?” He asked so cutely knowing at this point, that's the trick.She looked at him embarrassed and she huffed.

“...sure”

They left the mall with smiles on their faces.Chenle excitement knowing he is probably the only member that has seen her in a proper dress.Then Tali is just looking at him with adortion knowing that she made his day, and honestly that was her goal for the whole day.

Just to make him happy. 

Then the more he thinks about it the more he realizes that it seems like he likes her like a girlfriend. But both Tali and him know that is platonic and he just loves her so much and finds her the most precious thing in his life.He came to the conclusion that he doesn’t care what people think as long as Tali knows he loves her.

Chenle was looking at Tali writing in her note book some lyrics that came to her mind, remembering the memory about the mall.Tali noticed him looking at her, she looked up tilting her head with a confused but cute look on her face. He smiled at her knowing exactly what he was gonna say.

“Noona….can we go buy a dress for you” he said with a cheeky smile.Tali looked at him with confusion still written all over her face wondering why he wants to go buy a dress for her right now?

“Why?” she looked at him with her eyes so innocently his heart could burst about how cute she looks at the moment.

”Yeah, it's been a while you been in a dress, and it's been a while since I bought you one, last time i bought you one I'm pretty sure it was during the trainee days and i'm pretty sure you outgrew it.” He said with a smirk putting his head on his hand looking at her.

She looked at him in thought but realized he is probably gonna whine if she doesn’t accept his invitation on buying her a dress.So she tilted her head while  she looked at him with the same loving eyes as before maybe even more that he loves to look at with so much emotion coming from them that he could just explode from just a gaze.

“Sure, why not.”

[officialinuyasha]

Official Art is free use as long as it is not used for monetary gain, and I will never ask anyone for money for my pictures, and I was told I am the only person that actually credits the official animators and artists. Each image of the anime is directly ripped RAW Japanese versions, that are ages old by the way. There are probably better ones out there now. Because had these when the English dub hadn’t came out on my Windows XP. About that, they should be in 1080, but since they were used into WMM I had to recolor all of them and increase their quality myself. I don’t like taking screenshots from YouTube like most people do. Not only do I increase the quality but there are assets I enjoy changing them from the anime. Most people can’t even tell it’s changed because it’s “that good” they say. The only thing I ask if you are sharing my edits, just credit me for taking to time to increasing the resolution, ripping, and alters. I do a lot of screen-stitching also. There’s a lot of them and some I haven’t even posted. But here are some of my favorites -

Besides that, I also like posting basic screen caps with my watermark on it. Because I did it. I don’t have to explain myself on that. Because it originated from my RAW rips, I have every right to credit the official animators and myself for doing the work. I see a lot of people post their watermarks on official images, even when it comes to illegal manga scan sites. I don’t see anyone complaining about that.

If you see my watermark on it, like Max’s it’s because I have his permission to slightly alter it as a Profile Picture! - and I usually have their credit or their watermark on it also whether in the image or in the description! Since Max intentionally made art for me also, it’s kinda a given.

I always see @redrobelover talk about bullying and certain fandoms. I can tell you what I see.

Here is what I see most of -

People “bully” others if someone is asking where a certain fan art came from - With absolutely no intent to steal it. They know they didn’t make the art.

But as soon as someone constantly credits each individual animator, they don’t care and the official animators are swept under the rug. These people are paid, just like fan artists. But they are way less known. I hardly ever see anyone talking about the animators of InuYasha. When they do, it makes me very happy and excited.

They also think it’s okay for someone to share Fan Art from a person that intentionally left because of drama like this. Basically, “this person left, probably because their art was being stolen and sold on Chinese merchandise. But I’m going to share it anyway.” And to them, that’s completely fine.

Can you see where all this hypocrisy is?

-

I’ll tell you all a story. Our friend was from Tumblr since 2009. I won’t give out her identity, but a lot of these people know. And she recognizes a lot of this toxicity and drama. She used to write a lot of fan-fictions and became really well-known. She was a very popular role-player.

She knows and can name people, can predict how people are -exactly- on here.

Well she actually left because people wouldn’t stop fighting, making fake accounts to go and attack everyone. This stuff is stupid. I just don’t get what’s so fun in that.

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A story about me.

I had a friend on here I knew for years. She used to take a lot of my edits and I wouldn’t say anything because she was my friend. Even if it bugged me, I felt like she wasn’t doing any harm in that. All I asked of her was to at least tell me or credit me. Which I don’t think she ever did. It was always odd to find out from another person that she was doing this, or stumbling upon it myself.

The sad part was, I saw her as a really close friend of mine. And when my life began ta change dramatically I went and told her everything. I wrote a whole novel for her. In hopes that she was going to be supportive of my life changes and choices I was making during my transition and the person I am meant ta be with. Like most of my friend are supportive of it and asked me a whole buncha questions about it. They were happy.

Unfortunately I never got the ecstatic answer from her. Instead she ghosted on me and I think blocked me. I never understood why. But I was told it was probably because we have the same mind set in a lot of things. So I will never hate on her ever. I don’t have a reason to. I just wished things like that was better.

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We are all a family. We all like InuYasha. InuYasha is supposta be a safe space.

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Something I wrote in August 20th, 2018

My name is InuYasha, yes legally. Yes I'm the only person on record with that name in the US atleast. I am a transman. I've been on hormones for two years now! 💪💉 Damn those "emojis" look hella weird... August 2016 was when I started my hormones. Anyway. I'm in a relationship with @officialkagome , her name is Kagome she's a transwoman! I really came around on YouTube 2007 as TheHanyouInuYasha, now displayed as "OfficialInuYasha". I also run the FaceBook group "Official InuYasha Group" which is increasingly popular and extremely active with almost 5,000 members now! My sister really helped push me to go for the doctor's appointment for my transgender diagnosis in order for me to start my hormones. The series InuYasha really helped me get in touch with my true self, as InuYasha I see myself as one with. Being an outcast and having to make my own world was very, very difficult. I went through a lot of depression and anger during certain times and was told I could not be "InuYasha" because they told me I was a "girl". Just like in the series how the ignorant people also pestered InuYasha being half demon, that it was "unnatural" to them. I continued on, struggling as InuYasha. I started cosplaying InuYasha around 2005. I remember going to my neighbors house to watch it pre-recorded in Japanese dub! I was only about 10 years old. My grandma helped me make my first outfit. We made the top from a Wizard robe and Dancer pants patterns. I have gone through four different outfits, now 7 wigs, and 6 different Tetsusaigas. My current wig was made by Alichii from deviantART since 2004 based on Katie Bairs method, made from 3 different wigs. A historical wig. My current outfit is the Officially licensed VIZ Media outfit! It's my treasure. Kagome in the series really helped me alot to learn and to love. I have had many issues with haters, stalkers and copycats. Keh! But that won't stop me!

- The response @officialkagome wrote after me -

My name is Kagome, yes; it really is. InuYasha inspired me to share my own story. I am a transwoman, and have known I was a female my entire conscious life. I was told I couldn't be Kagome because I wasn't a girl. I was punished a great deal and abused for being trans. I was told I was wrong, and sick for 'thinking' I was a girl, I was invisible to everyone around me. I grew into an aloof teenager that thought I knew the evils of the world, until when 14 years old; I was sexually assaulted by three men while at a house party without my parents knowledge. My world fell to pieces, and who I was died. I spiralled, I lost all respect for myself. I never was dated, I gave myself to bad guys. I made horrible choices and I still carry the shame of what those men turned me into.  I watched InuYasha a lot then, and I found similarity in myself and Kagome. She was everything I always dreamed of being. Kind, brave, beautiful and pure. My first Impression of InuYasha was that he was a jerk; but I got to learn more about how he felt different in his world, and didn't belong. Before I knew it, I fell deeply in love with him. He saved my life and made me feel like that strong woman I knew I was. I spent the next 13+ years submitting to the fact that I would never really be able to see InuYasha, I begged for dreams, If I could only see him.. Meanwhile, InuYasha was going through the same exact thing. We crossed paths on so many occasions, even unknowingly, we grew up in the same cities, our whole lives lead up to us finding one another and life blessed me, and brought InuYasha to me in the most ironically fated way. We are BOTH trans! He gets me, And he waited for me just as long as I waited for him. There is so much coincidence in our meeting. It's haunting. He looks at me, a pile of my trauma; and he loves my broken pieces back together. InuYasha has ALWAYS come for me, and I may have lost faith; but I am glad I didn't. InuYasha found me in the darkness; and now together we move towards tomorrow. We have always been the same since the very beginning. We ARE InuKag~

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Thank you for all the asks.

I will respond to each one. All will be animated, which I know they are piled up.

So send all Asks. Let’s see how fun we can make this -

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- Inu-Yasha -

[vsirin]

On flute I mostly I play hymns but I like baroque pieces (though since I'm not in school/lessons anymore I don't have anyone 1.) getting me new music or 2.) forcing me to practice. What I really miss is playing with other people. I've been to soo many concerts and am similarly excited by them all so don't apologise for your rambling!! I saw the Who in 2015 in a big basketball arena and I was SOOO far from the stage! But getting Pete's guitar picks---that is so COOL!! I've seen Justin solo twice (and I LOVE Mike Dawes) both in 2016 and I saw John Lodge solo earlier this year. I was SO LUCKY to see the Moodies 3 times, the first at the Hollywood Bowl with a full orchestra, and twice in the front row the year they toured the Days of Future Past 50th anniversary (I got John and Justin's guitar picks!) I've seen Ringo twice, most recently in September and it was incredible! Edgar Winter, wow! The first time was Halloween in 2017 (?) and Todd Rundgren was in the All Starr Band. I saw Paul McCartney when I was living in Germany and that was surreal, and I saw him again earlier this year (originally I was meant to see Ringo and Paul in the SAME WEEK but Ringo's show was rescheduled) and I had a terrible view but he is so incredible and that's such an emotional experience that it doesn't matter where you are in the audience.

Also in no particular order: Jeff Beck, Donovan, The Zombies, Alice Cooper, Chicago, REO Speedwagon, Styx, Foreigner, Kansas, Graham Nash (2x), Wishbone Ash, Dave Mason, Peter Noone, King Crimson, Christine McVie and Lindsey Buckingham, Steve Winwood, Peter Frampton, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Arlo Gurthrie, Steve Hillage, Gong (2x) , Caravan (2x), Rick Wakeman (2x), Anderson, Rabin and Wakeman, Ian Anderson, Arthur Brown (2x), Roger Waters, Carl Palmer's ELP Experience (2x), Curved Air (2x), Gordon Lightfoot, Go Now! the Moody Blues tribute with Gordy Marshall (2x), and Neil Innes

What concert would you have liked to have seen? Apart form obvious ones like the 4 Beatles all together, I'd really have liked to see a John Entwistle show. Also I've never seen the Kinks/parts thereof and they are my all time favourite band

yes yes yes i agree about playing w other ppl! i used to know several flutists but they've all moved and now i have no one to play with and solos just don't cut it for meee :'( i hope one day i'll be brave enough to join a local group or something!

WOWOWOW YOUR SHOWS!!!!! oh my god it just radiates happiness, i love how concerts make the best memories!! and ahh paul!!! i know when/if i see him i will not have a good seat because he's so expensive but it truly IS the experience! to just hear him in person and to be with so many people who also love him and his music :') that reminds me of last month when i was in LIVERPOOOOL (i miss it so much) and how fun it is to just be able to talk to practically anyone around you about the beatles haha

ooh a solo john show!? that's a fun answer! i've heard his shows especially as he got older were very personal and small, which i love!! what era would be the dream?

do you have any kinks song recs!? i haven't listened to them much/at all :) who is your favorite in the group?

[dingyuxi]

i had not realized how long it's been since i sent an anon message omg!! i'm still soooo behind on kinnporsche (ep 7) and i fell behind w link too... but why her and yumi's cells s2 are SOOOO good!! also showtime ended so cutely!! it was v much giving 2016/2017 kdrama vibes in the best way!! also rereading old messages i'm so behind on love all play too.. oh my goodness 😭 on the bright side i got two tattoos i've been wanting to get for like 7 months now and some stress is finally going away as i've been taking care of things irl!! also i've gone to soooo many concerts, i was going to go to raveena to see her again in may but i was too tired from moving back home from college and ended up skipping it.. but i'm seeing umi on june 29th!!!! and i'm going to see tamino and dpr regime when i'm back at school in the fall!! and i think my favorite artists i've seen have been young the giant, omar apollo, and day6!! the first time i saw day6 i was so close.. and youngk sat down and i could touch him.. i didn't ofc but i got some great pics w no zoom!! also wonpil's stare is so...... whew.. like if i was a delusional stan i would hear wedding bells because that man........... HIS STARE..... god. do you have dream artists that you want to see in concert? you like victon a lot right? :O if i saw sejun irl.. whew. ALSO CARROT CAKE IS SO GROSS. the frosting is the only good part. i also hate pies.. like banana cream pie and ... idk key lime pie is KIND OF tolerable but still . it would be a . this is the last food on earth i need to eat it to sustain myself type of meal. maybe i hate it because my sis and mom love carrot cake so they would get it a lot when i was growing up :((( i would say my fave desserts are molten lava cake, mexican styled fried ice cream, coconut milkshake, banh da lon, raspberry yogurt cheesecake (from mango mango)... before i used to be like obsessed w the most chocolatey desserts but as i've gotten older i've mellowed out w my taste!! also my sis got covid like 2 weeks ago and her and her gf were Feeling it.. they had a trip planned to jamaica too and luckily they tested negative days before the trip but it was cutting it close!! also i do have a radio show!! just through our campus' station! last semester it was highlighting bipoc artists so i played ppl from burna boy to khalil fong to ambré to youra!! but my friend asked to do it together next semester and idk how that's going to work because they like only listen to yt artists and like 2 genres......... but i couldn't say no because i didn't want to be mean...................... also regarding sm noise music... not to sound like an sm stan... but at least it's noise music done well 😫 a lot of groups don't know how to make noise music that is addicting yet not overwhelming but nct slay at doing so.. omg now i sound like an nctzen.. i swear exo and shinee r my faves 😭 but yeah i mean my favorite songs from nct are typically their slower rnb ones.. white night from nct 127 was my most played song of 2020! and teddy bear by nct dream is in my top ten for this year i think?? sorry for such a long message but i hope you've been well!!! also one last thing, do you listen to kard? they finally had a cb since jseph is done w his service but idk the title isn't hitting as it usually does... i really like jseph's part though!! - z anon

and here I am replying extremely late myself; let's count it even lmfao. I dropped yumi after it was clear they weren't gonna make babi endgame lmfaooo I'm petty like that. I only watched for jinyoung anyways :D top in link are still amazing but the whole plot is kinda dragging now, they really didn't need to make the whole killer/kidnapper plot line so convoluted. but glad that the shows you have kept up on have delivered for you! I'm in a drama drought again, I don't even really know what's coming out soon. ahhh congrats on the tattoos!! what are they of? that's quite the lineup you've got going, I'm excited for you! I hope you have (or had) fun and that you stay safe. I know so many people around me who are getting covid again; this pandemic won't ever leave us. omg I miss the day6 days. I still love them but I feel like the fandom is just not the same. wonpil is the sweetest always tho. one of my friends sent a video of him to me when she went to the concert and she was SOOOO CLOSE. VICTON my babiessss yes. my main is literally @/limsejun aldkfj that man is fineeee af (even if he is a weirdo; who we love). I will respect your choice on carrot cake (just know that it is wrong). pies are fine, I can get behind a good apple pie. I like key lime too. can't say I've had a lot of banana cream but I wouldn't say it's something I'd choose to eat. LMFAOO my friend is a NCT Stan so don't worry I'm used to it. noise music clearly caters to people (I just am not one of them). I will say that their choreography usually slaps tho. I haven't listened to anything from KARD in a hot minute so that includes their latest release. overall I'm doing well, I have one more week of this month's clinical rotation and then I have august as a break (technically supposed to be writing my thesis tho so it really a break?). I'm just glad to get this month over with bc it's not hard this rotation but it's just soooo slow and boring and I don't really feel like I'm learning anything which is the whole point of these rotations.

[starry-kfics]

Hello!! So, I've recently taken an interest in ASTRO? And I was wondering if y'all knew of any performances/comeback stages/ whatever that would be good to watch to get a good feel of the group? You know? Lol, anyway, thank you for your time!!

i legitimately got so excited when i saw this ask bc one of my favorite things abt astro is their live stages and i have an entire playlist of my favorite live stages (from all my groups) so i’m hype to rec some for you!! literally any astro performance is good, they have such an incredible energy on stage and unique stage presence that they blow me away in every single one. i’ll go from debut up through crazy sexy cool [under the cut]

sorry if this is like way too much for you; if it is, feel free to watch just one from each era or something!!

cat’s eye

- quick breakdown of this song, it was like their predebut debut; it was the featured song in their predebut webdrama ‘to be continued’, and so the mv was released before they debuted

- mv - show champion live stage (cat’s eye + their other Fantastic Song polaris) (polaris is the origin of eunwoo’s iconic ‘gachi gallae?’)

hide & seek

- okay so now we’re officially at debut; their concept for their first four mini albums was to make one for every season, and hide & seek is the title track of the first one, spring up; also has the Most Iconic astro dance move imo (the lil pyramid thing they do @ the beginning w bin on top)

- performance m/v - showchampion live stage (i’m partial to the green outfits whoops) - dance practice (always watch to the very end of astro dance practices)

breathless

- first comeback!! this mini album is titled summer vibes and features literally one of the most catchy astro songs ever i get it stuck in my head once a week; another Iconic astro dance move is born with eunwoo holding mj and moving him like a lil airplane

- dance practice - inkigayo live stage (the orange outfits were the cutest fight me) - special stage (they’re wearing cute animal hats what more could u want; also, skip to 2:15 for the actual performance)

growl

- this isn’t astro’s song nor is it even all of astro lmao; it’s a rookie special stage of knk, snuper, and astro covering exo’s growl. the astro members that participated are rocky, moonbin, and sanha!!

- link

can’t help myself

- this also isn’t the entirety of astro, just jinjin; it’s actually an eric nam live stage where jinjin was featured for the rap part!! he absolutely kills it, and he’s like bffs w eric now (fun fact: vernon from svt was featured in another performance of this song and did the rap)

- link

fireworks

- this is another song from summer vibes that they were able to do a live stage of and it’s super cute!!!

- link

confession

- boy oh boy autumn story was The Era for so many reasons but mainly bc confession is just such a damn good song (R-O-C-K-Y) and they promoted it really well too!!

- performance @ the 26th seoul music awards (not typical stage outfits for this era: RED AND BLACK SUITS) - mnet presents performance (filmed during baby era!!) - music core stage (red outfits were superior dont even @ me) - relay dance

replay

- astro did special stage cover of shinee’s replay where rocky and jinjin sing (aka the birth of vocalist rocky, the best thing to grace the earth in 2016)

- link

winter dream

- i didn’t put a specific song, i just did the mini album title bc they didn’t really promote normally during this era with a bunch of live stages on music shows of a title track, they have some stages where they sing should’ve held on (also called again), and they also did some stuff with you&me, which is their song to aroha (their fans) saying thank you for everything and its real cute

should’ve held on/again

- dance practice - kcon la performance - kcon mexico performance - kcon japan performance (intro + again) - kstar live power music (again + baby)

you&me

- special ddoca (this isnt a performance its just them being dorky and cute;; basically a self mv of m&y) - astroad to dc (fancam)

don’t look back

- this is their first time on immortal songs 2 (i cant tell you much abt the premise of the show but from what i can tell they have to prepare a medley or cover or special performance of stuff and astro kills it every time)

- link

baby

- the truly ‘refreshing idol’ era with dream part 01 and it’s also the one that made me fall in love with astro; their stage outfits are literally the best thing ever the aesthetically pleasing ergonomic lines and colorblocking makes literally every baby stage my favorite whoops

- performance mv - dance practice - mcountdown stage - 2x faster vers (from when they went on weekly idol) - relay dance

la bamba

- they were in mexico for kcon mexico and these kings of language did a wonderful cover of la bamba 12/10 would recommed

- link

with you

- their second time on immortal songs 2 and they killed it yet again

- link

because it’s you

- they had a couple short stages of it and its one of my favorite songs so

- link (short) - another link (short) - one more link (full; mwave meet&greet)

crazy sexy cool

- their most recent comeback song in dream part 02 (as of march 2018 when i’m writing this) and they finally have completely dropped the super cutesy stuff; this one was a much more mature comeback but they maintained their refreshing imagine somehow being ‘refreshing sexy’ idk what that entails but they did it

- simply kpop (leather jackets lord have mercy) - dance practice - special dance practice (they goof off and they’re six entire dorks that i love so much) - relay dance - music bank (red!!suits!!) - mbc music (arohas are in the background making shapes and words with little white papers or smth its so cute!!)

run

- they also did full and short stages of this upbeat ballad (is that even a thing) from dream part 02 and its real cute; vocalist rocky has returned to murder us all and jinjin gets to sing again (he’s rlly improved since the last time im proud of my sweet rap boy)

- show champion (short) - simply kpop (full) - mwave meet&greet (full)

beautiful lady

- their third time on immortal songs 2 and this is by far my favorite its funny and well done and just some hq astro content

- link

to you

- they went on a show called sugarman 2 (again, idk much abt the premise of the show but they were on the same ep w red velvet which was cute) and im p sure this is a song cover but anyway i love it a lot (and there’s a pro recording of it available on apple music)

- link

christmas songs

- they had a couple christmas special stages this season that were absolutely adorable

- carol medley - must have love

so that was my list of astro live stages that i hope will help you!! i’m sorry if its too much, i kinda went overboard bc i love pretty much each and every performance they do

i went back to look @ the original ask and i realized that u wanted just a few to get a feel of the group but instead i spent 1.5 hrs making an exhaustive list of quality astro live stages my bad my true trashy aroha self is showing again

if there’s other arohas who have some more good live stages to add, feel free to reblog with those links!!

- mel

[stonefieldofdreams]

andrew/emma

so, since last year I’ve been thinking about how andrew still isn’t over emma after TWO years A LOT and I would like to talk about it a little and see what you guys think of this :)

this is a long post, so click on "keep reading” to see all of it.

1. the break up news came around october 2015

2. they were seen together publicly for the first time since the break up on august 2016 when emma went to london to see andrew on his birthday:

3. on october 2016 in her vogue interview, she talked about andrew, saying “[He is] someone I still love very much.”

4. then on november 2016 his interview with vogue came out and he said “ I’m not currently in a relationship with anyone. There is nothing but love between me and Emma.” this was the first time he talked about her after their break up. adding this quote with the photos of them on august it was clear they were still close and IN CONTACT

5. on the beginning december 2016 during hollywood reporter actor roundtable, the actors were asked “You're on a desert island and can have one actor or actress with you. Who?” and andrew’s answer was “Emma Stone. I love Emma. She's all right. She can come.” NOTE: HE COULD HAVE SAID ANY FREAKING ONE. HE DIDN’T. this is actually when i started to think “uh maybe andrew still has feelings for emma”

6. also on december 2016 at the critics choice awards (both emma and andrew attended), andrew said about emma/la la land/her success "It's lovely to see people that you care about and love doing things that are profound and that are seen deeply and are appreciated, it's a beautiful thing."

7. then also at the critics choice awards of course he was asked about his desert island choice, saying “Who wouldn’t want to be on a desert island with Emma? She is the greatest.”

8. critics choice wasn’t done for stonefield so we got two VERY CUTE videos where -this time- andrew wasn’t talking about emma and stuff but she was the one wanting his attention. theres two moments: one is when emma tries to get andrew to look at her and shows her brother spencer where andrew is and two is when she loses her award and turns to andrew so they could drink to that. I WANTED TO CRY.

9. in one interview for the guardian, he said “ I’m always cheering Emma on, in all ways. I’m one of the millions who is grateful that she exists.”

10. 2017 started with the  “awards chatter” podcast and YES YOU GUESSED IT andrew talked about emma, again. when talking about spiderman, he said “ So many beautiful things came out of that. I met someone that remains incredibly important to my life on that -you can fill in the blanks on who that is.” here was when i started to think that he WANTED us to know he still had feelings for emma. like, they were so chill and private when they were together and suddenly he talking about emma every chance he got. and it wasn't like when he was doing interview with emma for tasm. they weren't together anymore.

11. january 6, 2017 we got one picture of them together at the AFI awards. again, they seemed close.

12. the next day we had the golden globes AND EMMA WON. andrews reaction? STANDING OVATION. a super chill reaction from her ex. no biggie. nothing to see here.

13. emma’s reaction when she found out andrew kissed ryan reynolds. she was just standing there but when she hears andrew’s name she’s like WHAT DID YOU SAY

14. also at the golden globes he talked about emma, saying “I dore her and always will.” he was asked about her so i’ll let this one pass, andrew.......

15. january 12, 2017 on his interview with vanity fair, he said “It's been wonderful [doing awards season together] because we care about each other so much, and that's a given, that's kind of this unconditional thing. And there's so much love between us and so much respect. I'll speak for myself: You know, I'm her biggest fan as an artist. I'm constantly inspired by her work. I'm constantly inspired by how she handles and holds herself. So for me, I've—it's been bliss to be able to watch her success and watch her success and watch her bloom into the actress that she is. And it's also been wonderful to have that kind of support for each other. It's nothing but a beautiful thing.” if you watch the video you’ll see in HIS EYES!!! that he still loves her. it’s there. you don’t need to be a close friend to see it. its just so clear to me. he saying that its an “unconditional thing”. good god.

16. after the golden globes they were apparently seen together, which more than ever showed that they were still pretty close. 1+ year after they broke up and they were still being close and andrew was still showing so much love for her, instead of just not talk about her/avoid talk about her, like everyone usually does.

17. as awards season continued, they were both seen together again at the bafta pre-party, hugging and making me want to cry all night listening to sad songs. vanity fair said about that night “We also couldn’t help but notice how Garfield and Stone spent much of the night in rapture of one another. Could the BAFTAs bring everyone’s favorite couple back together?” apparently it could not

18. at the oscar being the most friendly exes ever because that is what normal people do ya know (also pictured: andrews dad)

19. there was A WHOLE LOT OF CUTENESS at the oscar when emma won her award (see THIS and THIS post) + emma looking at andrew from the stage when la la land won for like 2 minutes

20. just when we thought things were cooling down, on november 2017 they were seen together again at the governors awards. e! news said “ As cocktails were served, Garfield chatted with Carey Mulligan by the doorway to the ballroom as Stone walked in. She turned her head and saw him but went straight to her table. During the dinner break, she walked across to the other end of the dining room to Garfield and the two chatted and laughed for almost the dinner entire hour, just the two of them. After the gala, they and their groups walked outside together and chatted on the steps for a while.” note: at this point they were broken up for 2+ years!!!!!!

21. again we had andrew talking about emma when he could 100% not but okay at the sag-aftra interview, saying when talking about spiderman scenes, "I knew that me and Emma were getting along and I knew those scenes were gonna work. She's remarkable as an actor and as a human being. And I knew that was gonna be okay."

22. in an interview with evening standard on december 2017, he said “ It was beautiful to see someone you love being acknowledged like that. I was so pleased for her.” talking about emmas oscar win

23. during “breathe” premiere on december 2017, he was asked about emma. “When asked about Emma's portrayal of the real life Billie Jean King and if there was any friendly competition between the two, especially since both their films are out right now and are based on true events, Andrew laughed."I haven't [seen it] but I'm very excited to," he told E! News. "I'm nothing but supportive and her biggest fan.’” i think the reason people ask andrew about emma still is because he just CANT shut up about her??? we don’t see people asking emma about andrew.

24. and here we are 5 days into 2018 and already have yet another interview where andrew talks about emma. “Yeah, there was one amazing New Year where I was in Hawaii with my mother and a very close person in my life and all of my other family had gone to sleep, and we stood on the coastline where the ocean meets the sand, and it was just us, the three of us, and it was the most intimate New Year’s moment. It was very, very beautiful with two people that I love very much, and under the magic of Hawaii, as well. So I’ve had very nice, beautiful, calm New Year’s, but any wild New Year’s is not worth telling. It always ends up as kind of a shit story actually.” he doesn’t say her name but he doesn’t really have to. I CRIED.

25. this one is going to be me saying what i think, so it may or may not be what andrew meant. keep that in mind. during the same interview for w magazine where he talked about NYE, he also talked about his favorite toy, saying his favorite toy wasn’t even his (it belonged to his brother). you can watch it HERE.

you may be thinking what andrews favorite toy has to do with emma, right? well, after telling that, he says “That is kind of a good indication of what's happening with the rest of my life.” and YES i do think he IS talking about emma and her boyfriend here. something that he loves but isn’t his.

to me, he clearly still loves emma. which, at this point, is kind of sad, because she moved on with her life but he still is in pain. and i want him to be happy.

that is crazy to me, but also totally believable because andrew always made so clear how much he loved emma (when he was with her and even more so after they broke up). so thats my take on all of this.

what do you guys think?

[hongssami]

Good evening~ Ooh I can imagine 😣Ah your hidden soft spot heh 👉👈So, the new mission :D I think I've kind of already asked you that, but feel free to tell me more if you want to! Hm... my first taste of kpop was a few years ago because at that time some of my classmates would play music videos during breaks and they would kind of dance at the front of the class? But I didn't actually get into kpop until last year when Boy With Luv was released :P 1/? -🌺

I came to know and love ATEEZ through a friend urging me to watch the Answer MV, though I think I actually saw the Wonderland one some time before (without really knowing who they were). I think the first NCT video I saw was Boss? But I also watched WayV's Take Off (don't know which was first ahah) and it was a pretty cool song! ONEUS holds a special spot because I think I stumbled upon them near the latter quarter of last year with their comeback LIT, and they were really good!! 2/3 -🌺

Ahhh oh goodness I nearly forgot to turn on anon just now asjkdfhs but yeah and Seventeen I kind of came across from following blogs that stanned them and I heard Clap and HIT that made me more interested in them! Wait there was also Home I think? (oh I can't remember that well...) The Boyz! I once listened to and liked No Air but didn't really make an effort to get to know them more? But then there was Road to Kingdom and their performances blew me away :o 3/3 -🌺

Oh! By the looks of it, you’re newer to the kpop scene than I am! I started around November of 2016, right around BST was released but I’ve been casually listening to Big Bang’s songs before then.

I can relate to the classmates dancing at the front of the class during breaks hahah! (I used to be one of the people who would rush to the front for random play dances even if I only knew like the point dance and not the entire chorus.) Because of them, I became more open about the groups I followed and I fully blame them for encouraging me to enter ~15 different fandoms (to list a few: i am a Stay, The B, NCTzen, Atiny, MyDay, Carat, Hidden KARD, Monbebe, Aroha, Universe, Wannable, iGOT7, I’m gonna stop there fdskvndf).

Ah, I first came to know ATEEZ through a friend as well! He would tell me about their predebut days, and one thing that keeps haunting me is when he told me how Hongjoong got his laptop stolen when they were in the US jfgvnbfgd (I’m still mad that we can never get to listen to he songs he made predebut. Joong, honey, if only I could avenge u ;-;) I loved their debut song, and I honestly think it’s one of the best debut song a 4th gen group has.

I started following NCT mid-Cherry Bomb era and I remember fully tunnel-visioning on Mark Lee, then Haechan, and finally Winwin (who I named this blog after)! I’ve known ONEUS since Valkyrie but I never got to get to know them more and I feel like I’m missing out lol.

Seventeen was my second ult group right after BTS! Ahhh I remember entering right before they released Al1; I think that was the most excited I was for a first comeback in a new fandom. Seventeen became my ult group for a whole year until Stray Kids took that title from them.^^ But Seventeen is like the group that I can go back to and still feel welcomed however long I’ve been gone from that specific fandom.

It’s kind of weird to look back at it. Well, at least for me. It’s only been 4 years but I’ve shed actual tears for people that mean so much to me, then the next year I’m sending another batch of strangers I’ve come to love to the military. The emotional investment I have for them is quite questionable, but  I wouldn’t have it any other way.

They’ve helped me become stronger and taught me to believe in myself when no one else could through a mere show of their own passion for music and performance. Hope came in the form of Kpop for me, I guess hahaha

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Asjdhsjks 🙊🥺💖 they're honestly the best aren't they!? They definitely have the most perfect timing and always seem to show up when you need them the most ❤ they've done so much for me since they've come back into my life, it's mental and yet amazing!! And yeah that definitely is magical 🥺😭💕

There is honestly no one I'd rather be riding this bts wave with 💖💕💖💕💖💕

🥺💕🥺💕 yeah it's weird when you change fandoms, bc you do get less and less interactions with people you used to see daily, understandably ofc!! It really is lovely to know that I have someone in this fandom that I'm friends with 💖

I've been doing okay, it's been a rough year or so tbh ahaha 💕 as cliché as it sounds bts have helped so fucking much and made these past few months easier 💕 how about you my love? How have you been?? 💜💜

My friend, at the time, introduced me to them, she introduced Exo to me first and with how much i loved them she sent me the link to bts' new mv Dope, and ooooooh boy did i fall hard asjdhsjks 🙊 also me and her grew so much closer bc of that! Honestly no he wasn't, Tae was my bias back then asjdhsjks I remember seeing the grey suit look in dope and that leather jacket look in war of hormone and just thinking well damn he's so cute and so gorgeous ahaha 🙈💖 Jimin honestly is the most gentle and loving guy I stg ahhh 😭 I love him so bloody much!! 💕 At the beginning of 2016 tho me and my friend kinda just parted ways due to who she became friends with, which sucked big time. I felt like I couldn't listen to them anymore, or any of the groups she showed me bc they just reminded me of her in a way (if that makes sense) so I just stopped listening/watching them all. BUt when I went and watched some of their music videos at the beginning of this year, honestly was the best feeling ever. The sense of pride i got when I saw what they've accomplished from back then up until now was incredible 😭 now I'm getting emotional ahhh sorry for another tangent lmao 💖💕💖💕💖

How about you, has Yoongi always been your bias? Also I'm intrigued to know what mv/song of theirs did you come across first? And how did you find them?? 💜💕💜💕💜💕

Thank you my love, I hope your day was good too 💕 also never apologise!!! I love excited&babbling!cam as you can see, I'm the same ahaha

Okay oKAY WAIT A SECOND

I'M SORRY my stupid ass gets really confused with changes of url and all BUT OMG BABY YOU'RE MY PAIGE?!?!?!?! BACK FROM SEBASTIAN/STUCKY/MARVEL ERA?!?!?!?! DARLING HIIIIII!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 HAHAHAHA I feel like such a dumbass for not making the connection THEFUCK I'M SO SORRY 🙈😫🤡

Holy smokes I am so excited and I feel so stupid at the same time LMAO HI BABY!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜

Asjdhsjks url changes throw me off sm too!!! I've definitely confused majority of my followers too with the constant changes to my url lmaoo

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HIII CAM!!!! YESSS MY LOVELY, THATS ME!!! I'M YOUR PAIGE 💖💕💖💕💖💕 you're so adorable omg also you don't have to apologise at all my love!! You've honestly made my day with this 🥺😂 ahahaha

bit of a tangent - a few months back I remember seeing bts stuff with your tae with suga url on my dash and being like when did I follow a bts centric blog? But then clicking on your blog and realising it was you I was ooh awesome it's Cam!!! (I used to be a huge fan of bts/kpop back in 2015/16 but kinda just dipped out of it) BUt after seeing them on my feed a few times i realised how much I've missed them and other kpop artists I general, and now here I am asjdhsjks so basically I just wanted to thank you for kinda, pretty much bringing them back into my life 💖💜💖💜💖💜💖

ANYWAYS, this is so fucking exciting honestly asjdhsjks and we near enough went from one era to another together and I find that so amazing 💕

I hope you had a good weekend bb and that this week is even better for you 💕💜💕💜 I'm sending you all the love