#I've done tons of infusions before. I used to go to the hospital monthly | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mossistyping · 3 months ago

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TLDR insurance lied and I am Not denied the 10k a dose medication (Yay?) so my first infusion is next Monday and now I'm just stressed for Different Reasons™

Maybe I renounce my body and truly become moss how about that

#ahah. The money is. Well. We'll do what we can #There's a savings programs I'm approved for and we've almost maxed our deductible anyway #but now I'm trying not to cry because 1) what if it fails because my body has never fucking made anything easy #Like this would be the 8th treatment I try and it's basically the final boss so if this doesn't work. There's nothing much left #But also like #I've done tons of infusions before. I used to go to the hospital monthly #But this one I would do alone because I'm almost sure my husband can't take off work #And that's different #Like new medication new hospital alone for hours is going to suck #Even if I bring everything you need for an infusion aka favorite clothes and switch and book and whatnot #There is no comfort here because none of this feels like anything I know #I can't take the bus there because why would there be functional transit #Which means I can't stop anywhere after for treat because I'll minimize Uber costs #I just. Lol.#Anyway!!!! Sorry for journaling on main! I did journal about this for the record but then i #Started shaking too much!

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