#I've been watching too much CaseOh

[crowbury]

Emi's new apartment pt2.

[dixiewishes]

12/11/2024

oh, dear, I've fallen behind. Again. Not shocking when you consider the circumstances. I can't recall where we left off. I need to remember to use this as a diary and not a novel. Things don't need to make sense to an outside reader. So the play has been amazing. Abrupt subject change, but I'm the author. Reclamation or whatever. I love my castmates, even if there's 300 of them. We went to Applebees on Saturday and it was an actual riot. A crew of 20 theater nerds roll up at 9pm to an applebees. I was with leah, julie, and... shit. I forgot. Ellie maybe? These tiny beings ordered one (1) appetizer plate to split. My fatass creamed that and a macaroni and tendies bowl. I laughed until I wept. I remember at Farrier Fun Day in the hottub, someone said one day I will find my tribe. I really felt like I have. The girls were funny, attentive, active listeners. I felt understood. I felt... loved. It was an experience. We also decided to write a play called COUNTY BUSINESS where it's us going into progressively more unhinged scenarios in the name of the great county. Ahh, we also bullied me for having the most epic line blunder. "He was as good a friend, as good a employer, as good a man, or any other man, and men, in the good ol world." Fucking iconic. I had a really insightful conversation with ry dearest. What we're looking to get, what we mean to each other, what we hope will happen. He was vulnerable and open and honest and beautiful and I'm thankful we had that moment together. I'd like to drop in for new years but he might be too cooked. We had a mini date where we watched caseoh granny together. I think I like him. He said he was going to visit daddyslaw's gf in washington. I freaked the absolute fuck out to the point I was shaking on stage. Like... he can do what he wants? You know you just set off 36 blazing alarms in his pretty head? He handled it really, really well and reassured it's not a set thing, she has a live in fiance, he just loves silly me. I'm shocked he covered so well and was so patient. Maybe he is actually a nice guy? I gave him a dump about why I'm like that, but I also get his ptsd slaps too. I have to do better. I'm disgusted that I got that upset over a guy just... visiting his pals? wtf cheyenne? I'm going to nuke this before we have a chance to see what happens. I know he absolutely hates that, but anxiety is a bitch. I'm mad that I'm jealous over his rp partners when I don't even rp. I need to stalk and control him and it is so disgusting. I need his attention and validation all the time. I'm doing exactly what someone else did and broke apart a marriage. We all become what we're running from, I guess. I apologized and thanked him for being good, but I need to get a fucking grip. Shit, so much more to cover... So after all this, Sunday we went to the taco dealer, another group of 20 theater nerds. I was with Stuart, Tara, Diann.... and I think I'm missing some. Oh, Pam. Stuart shared a deeply personal tale of his gender identity. How he felt slewicidal, and he may have acted on it after losing his job. But his identity of Sabrina helped him cope. It was a really moving talk about finding yourself and your identity, and it's never too late. He shared a lot of pictures and ngl im mad that his makeup and styling is better than mine. gg sabrina get it bestie. i wanted to cry and hug him at the end. id like to try new things and all that but.... yeah me and fren had a painting night last night. i made a very Phat gnome. i love him. nobody else had a jumbo gnome. again, good food, laugh until i cry. good times baby. im also super into crochet now so thats cool "yup. i think we're done here."

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About me 🤯🤯🤯

First of all, I'm a minor

I'm not really sure how this account's gonna work, but I think I'm just gonna post when I want to and not worry about being a cringy little kid or whatever.

My name's Clyn, and my pronouns are they/them

I'm chill with people tagging me in stuff, and if you wanna interact with me, that's 100% cool

I think a lot of my vents will be about this so wanted to get it out of the way: I'm neurodivergent. I've not been diagnosed because heathcare sucks so bad where i live that they cant even get me on a waiting list right now, even after ive been waiting for almost a year. im pretty damn sure i have adhd but lots of people have told me that i have autism too (even people with it diagnosed). its not really a super important thing but its a huge part of me and how i live so yeah

I dont plan on doing much on my interests (now that I'm thinking about it, that sounds intriguing, but I think I'll make a separate account for that) but I just started south park and it's been super cool (Kenny's my favorite and you won't change my mind), I love caseoh, I have rick and morty memorized at parts because I've watched it so much, and smiling friends is super good

DO NOT INTERACT WITH ME IF:

- you're racist, sexist, homophobe, transphobe, or anything of that sort

- ableist (and yes, youre still ableist if youre disabled and discriminate against others disabilities)

- anti furry or thearian

-proshipper or support proshippers

-literally just a bad person

i cant think of anything else but i think you understand my beliefs

I think thats it for me but asks will be open if youve got any questions