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Lessons in a Full Moon (Capricorn Full Moon Reading).

Who are you? What are your current feelings? More, importantly, how is this full moon going to affect you? Capricorn full moon is going to kill us all!

DISCLAIMER: PLEASE READ! The numbers are for the Life Paths, since I don't know almost anything about numerology and life paths I've decided to just do a tarot reading, but i highly recommend you to also pick your Life Path number, as well as any other number you'd like.

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I've been trying to do a pick a picture reading and it didn't come out as I wanted so, for the full moon I'm doing this instead. Pick a number! ↓

𝟏. 𝟐. 𝟑. 𝟒. 𝟓.

𝟔. 𝟕. 𝟖. 𝟗.

𝟏𝟏. 𝟐𝟐.

𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 1, is no wonder why. You like being the first at everything, the innovator, to challenge perspective and to bring a breath of fresh air in every room you enter, you are the Star, and it's likely that you deserve all the praise, you have worked hard all your life. I picture a person who has been working since a young age and hasn't stopped ever since, maybe you've changed jobs to one more to your liking, but you have never taken a break from working or thinking of working, what's next? How can you innovate? How can you be inspired by your surroundings? Your attitude is an "i don't care what other's think of me" and that's perfectly fine! You are not confident because you're egotistical, but because you have proved you are good at what you do and you don't just talk and talk. You get things done, and you are proud of yourself for that. Maybe you don't see it this way, but you've accomplished a lot in a very short amount of time or at a very young age, when other people are expected to do it gradually and slowly, you exceeded expectations.

This is you, but what about your current feelings? What is it that you are going through right now? Well the over-achiever that you are, you feel not like that at all, you are experiencing very negative emotions about yourself and your path in life right now. You are a very black and white person, and you could've been through something very recently, like somebody you look up to patronizing you, something you were sure was going to be successful wasn't at all, your expectations weren't met at all, and you are currently questing.... Everything. Life itself, your decisions, why you do everything you do, am I really what I say I am or I'm just a fraud? And this, I see, is nothing new, you've always taken thing to the extreme, and people have told you to not to be negative just because you had a bad day, and yet, you can't help it, you lack grounding, you are too in your head sometimes or hyper-focused on an idea. You have always dealt with the difficulty of balancing things. You just don't know how to. Someone so smart and yet you still struggle to organize yourself and your mind.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you are going to be forced to change this behavior, you've been avoiding a really big breakthrough and you didn't wanted to see how things really were or how badly you were dealing with some aspects of your life, that's why you turned to job or studies or that thing that gives you instant gratification because you know you get praised for it. It will bring up some bad habits that you always refused to see as bad, and it'll also force you to change your mind or your plans on something, which you hate to do by the way, and you will be forced to enter unknown territory where success and recognition are not secured. Most importantly, you'll be learning to not be so self-reliant and to share your worries and anxious thoughts with others so you can feel accompanied by them. You'll learn to leave some things up to the universe, to not push it and to be patient. Do you feel that you are nothing without your achievements? That you have no value as a person? This Full Moon is meant to help you in terms of self, not in terms of work.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Capricorn Ascendant, Aquarius Ascendant, Saturn or Mars in the 1st house, Aquarius Sun, Scorpio Sun, Scorpio Mars, Aries Mars, Aries Sun.

𝑆𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 2 are very sensitive people. You are intuitive and have an eye for the arts, you like fashion and looking good, if Venus was a person, I'd probably be you; regardless of gender, you like to show off your clothes and you also enjoy learning more about spiritual matters, at you own tempo since you don't particularly consider yourself spiritual. You believe that is important to evolve, constantly, that being stuck in one place or one mindset doesn't help anybody in the long run, you like old music! 80's and 70's and 90's. Although you exude confidence, your personality can be very flimsy, you lack structure and organization, you live life in moments and it's hard for you to stick to a plan or make a plan. People see you as a shallow person, and you're not shallow at all! But you might display some behaviors that make others think you only care about looks, I'm not saying you don't take anything serious, but you can be prone to ignore serious matters or never want to appear like you are sad to your friends as you think they won't want to be around you? Do you feel like if people saw the worst of you, they'd leave? Is that why you are always performing in front of others?

This is you, but what about your current feelings? I'm going to say it now, there's a second person here, in your mind you're probably thinking of a failed relationship or a romantic situation where you don't know where you stand. You are anxious, and thinking so much all the time, you're usually always in your head, this time you have been very disconnected from reality and thinking of what-if's and how you would've changed the past, thinking about the future and so; Completely disconnected from the present. You and this person haven't been speaking since you react so differently to emotions, you can't never get to agree, one is too codependent and the other is too cold, and this is a situation that could've been going on for many months, it's like when you try to come to an agreement the other changes their mind and everything gets turned around, lets' be honest here, do you feel like you are not enough to this person? This might be something both of you feel with this relationship, is just that one hides their feelings better than the other.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you will be asked to make a decision regarding this situation, if there's nothing to do with this person and you can never agree on what you feel for each other, is better to just accept it and move on, you'll be saving yourself so much stress and anxiety. I'd advice you to look more into spirituality as well, since it's not difficult for you to connect with that part of yourself, it will be very good when it comes to dealing with these emotions. There's sure going to be an enormous change in your personality or the way you see things, or your life in general, be sure to look for help in friends and not isolate yourself, this is important for your health.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Cancer Ascendant, Libra Ascendant, Virgo Sun, Taurus Sun, Leo Moon, Virgo Moon, Libra Sun, Libra Venus.

𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑟𝑑 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 3 are very quiet and reserved. You are a person that comes off as very shy and socially awkward, you don't like strangers and have a hard time trusting people, you think trying to get to know you is pointless, but you think pretty much everything is pointless. You are a person that has achieve a lot in a short age, you seem very self-contained and are always calm or unaware of what other people are up to. You live in your own little world, and you like that, prone to self-isolation and have very few friends, if any. You are a person that doesn't feel connected to anything, most of the time, you are lethargic and impassive, you don't like to try too hard and you move slowly, seeing where life might take you. Again, getting to know you is extremely difficult, people see you as a mysterious person, you have no interest in making friends, it's very possible you've had friends that left you or lied to you before, and this left a deep fear of opening up to others again. You are a very smart person, and you rely on your own judgment of things as you are good at analyzing things from a more cold perspective, and people like this about you a lot, they like how you carry yourself, and, believe it or not, many people feel compelled to be around you, and try to get to know you, and yet, you seem so closed off, why? Why do relationships scare you so much?

This is you, but what about your current feelings? As I said before, you could've dealt with a betrayal from a close friend or being judge by them a lot, which caused you a lot of anxiety and made you even more nervous to interact with others. You are a person who values friendship over romance and it hurts you deeply that someone who you trusted went and told your secret or sided with a person who hurted you. This could've been very recent as it could been a very long time ago, it's no difference since you feel just as bad as the day it happened, it was always difficult for you to trust people, now, after that it has made it almost impossible to reach you or interact with you, you are most likely trying to stay off the radar and avoid any kind of attention from people, you usually deal with others trying to invade your privacy or hate you just because of your reserved personality. You completely refuse the idea of opening up again, of trying to interact with others if it's not completely necessary, which has made it harder for you to deal with your emotions, since you bottle everything up and have no one to talk to. All of this has made your life monotone and boring and you've become so chronically lonely, you think it's normal to spend days without talking to anyone.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you will come to a sort of awakening where you'll realize your accomplishments and your goals met don't fulfill you anymore, you will have to face that emptiness that is in your life where you thought you could be in forever and see that, there's no point in doing anything if you can't share it with somebody else. You'll move very slowly with this realization, it won't be overnight and you'll make little steps into accepting that you can't hide from people forever. The truth is, that you are a very intelligent person, obviously, and you love to learn and to explore and expand your mind, there's going to be a switch in your brain where you'll see that being stuck in the same mindset, inside of your own world, has done nothing but postponing your growth as a person. You'll want to turn things around in the name of personal improvement, at it will take a lot of courage and a lot of panic attacks as well, but you have to open up to new experiences, otherwise you'll stay with that one bad experience in your memory for the rest of your life.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Scorpio Sun, Leo Sun, Leo Ascendant, Scorpio Ascendant, Sagittarius Mercury, Scorpio Stellium, Libra Moon, Capricorn Moon.

𝐹𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 4, you are in for an awakening. Much like the previous one, you are a shy, introverted person, but you have a big personality, that is very noticeable, and this is something you do almost unintentionally. People might describe you as intimidating when first meeting, this is far from the truth as you are a very kind person but are not used to socializing frequently, you need your alone time and it's important for you that your friends respect this, since you are also impatient and don't like when your boundaries are crossed. At the same time, you have a hard time saying no to people you trust, and are often disrespected by them when they don't respect you and make fun of your way of expressing your emotions, and this is something you've dealt with a lot, since you were very young, people dismissing your emotions or saying that you are just overreacting, this making it harder for you to share your worries and vent to people, they might think you are being defensive, but it's just the way you react to things. You could have a past of misunderstanding people and be more harsh with your words than intended, you are a self-sufficient person and it can be hard for you to understand other people's points of view. You always want to do things your way, incredibly individualistic, so much so, you make people feel like you don't need them, specially friendships and partners, you rely only on yourself and your own experience, which can anger people as you make them feel like their issues or their experiences are not as important as your. You have a survival kind of mentality, always thinking that somebody is going to do something to you.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? You can be too paranoid with people you don't know, always second-guessing, however, when it comes to your close circle you are completely devoted to them and can be manipulated or lied, sadly, you have the tendency to be too dependent on people, since you have a hard time forming meaningful connections, you are scared that you won't find anything like that again; you are also aware of this behavior of yours, as if you've been told before that you can let a lot slide when it comes to your loved ones, and you try not to fight or to keep some sort of peace, as you are scared of them leaving, it's a very complex energy because you'd like the freedom to do whatever you please, but are also always keeping an eye on your loved ones, seeing if they might need something, or just to watch over them.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you are going to have some sort of epiphany and realize that some people that you keep in your life and keep so dear in your heart are not worth worrying for, these are the same people that diminish you and your concerns, and this is something that'll happen out of nowhere, an unpleasant surprise, gathering with your friends and realizing you don't feel comfortable with them anymore. In this time the Full Moon will hit very hard in your personal relationships, and it will leave it's fair share of drama, it's important that you understand this is better for you in the long term.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Aries Sun, Capricorn Stellium, Virgo Ascendant, Pluto or Saturn in 11th house, Pisces Ascendant, Aries Ascendant, Capricorn or Aquarius Mars, Libra Stellium

𝐹𝑖𝑓𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 5, you are the pillar; What do I mean by that? You are your family's pillar and the glue of your friend group, without you, everything loses it's meaning, you are an extremely giving person, to a fault. You like taking care of others and feel that kind of responsibility with them, even if nobody asks you. This also makes you noisy, you want to know everybody's business because you want to help in what you can, but not everybody needs that help. You are a committed person and are always trying to be there and be present, the main reason might be because you are a very disorganized person in the interior, emotionally volatile and never knows what you want, you have a hard time balancing things and your life is a mess. You find it more fulfilling to help other's instead of helping yourself, you tend to be a pushover and try to give unwanted advice to people, thinking you know best, but sometimes, you do! You have a savior complex, and look companionship in people who've suffered the most, people you think need your help. As I said, you are volatile and this shows in your career, as you might go from job to job, trying to find something you have to find in yourself. You over complicate things and people around you can be frustrated by this habit of yours, this duty you feel towards helping others can become a major problem in the long run.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? Like I said, you like getting involved, solving others problems instead of your own, and, oh shocker, people have taken advantage of you and have drained your energy completely, you just couldn't say no to people who said needed your help desperately, and as of lately you could've been tired of these people coming to you for their problems to be fixed and the leave like nothing, you could know many people but have few close friends, and constantly feel lonely around the ones you know, why do you feel the need to help everyone? Why is it so hard to help yourself? Each time you spend alone it's spent reflecting and thinking why you do so much for people who don't give anything back and then you get frustrated for not standing up when you should have. It's a long process, to let go of people-pleasing, maybe it's something to do with your family, a very dysfunctional one that always needed you to be the peacemaker, the good one. But you are not in that situation anymore, and you've abandon self-care just to give peace to people that wouldn't do the same for you.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you will shift mentally, your core values will no longer be tied to how much you do or not do for people. You'll learn a few things about reciprocity, and it won't be a quick process, it'll be rather long and very eye-opening, you'll start to feel more liberated but you'll have to change and transform a lot, and go through a lot internally, thee good part is that you are in the right state of mind, and you are willing to change. This Full Moon is going to serve you, to put an end to things that have no place in your life and to learn to care for yourself first and most importantly, you've been avoiding dealing with your own issues, and this is the time where it will all resurface, to make you understand yourself better.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Leo Ascendant, Virgo Sun, 6th house Stellium, Virgo Stellium, Gemini Ascendant, Venus or Saturn in 6th house, Libra Venus

𝑆𝑖𝑥𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 6, you are one of a kind. Your presence and elegance are something that keeps everyone looking, you don't have to try, and you hardly ever do, you are a very honest person and can be unintentionally cruel sometimes. You have a high sense of self and you know exactly what you want, is difficult to make you change your mind once is settled in something, you are kind of someone people look up to, since you exude this kind of confidence and others are very drawn to it, you have been accused of being too shallow because you are a good looking person, without even knowing you. You are a very resilient person and tend to be very stubborn as well, if someone advice you not to do something, you'll go ahead and do it anyways, since you rather have the experience and have grown from said experience. You do not like being told what to do and you love reading anything you can put your hands onto, you rely on yourself a little too much, you've probably been alone or felt alone for most of your life, so now you think you don't anybody, which is probably true, but you are always rejecting company. You are aware that people always want something from you and you pay no mind to those people, you are too much in your own world.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? Let's get this out of the way, you probably went through a breakup recently, or the wound still feels very much fresh, this person with who you had a relationship felt like the one, like you found your other half, somebody who complimented your bad temper and your high standard, this person was someone you trusted blindly. Something you don't usually do, but here is the dilemma, you and this person were too alike, and you clashed a lot, eventually the fights were too much for this person and decided to just leave. Now you are not quite sure where you stand, as you feel like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders, but at the same time can't find the same feeling with someone else. You are not telling this to anyone, to neither of your friends, and you don't know how either, love is not something that comes easily to you, you can be more of silently showing than screaming it to the entire world. You miss someone and you don't want to, as you feel empty without their presence, and you don't want to feel like you depend on someone.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn you'll be facing a harsh truth, this person was all talk, but they never showed the love they said they felt for you, this person could've had strong feelings for you but they couldn't deal with them, so they prefer to leave than facing them. And, since we are on this topic, it's not unlikely that this same person comes back to check on you, to ask you how you've been since you two broke up, they are still very much keeping an eye on you, and they still very much won't commit. Ultimately, this is up to you, if there's a chance of trying again, would you do it? It's important that you learn that love is about compromising and sometimes sacrificing, your ego was bruised by this person and you have been dealing with what was left. If you feel like you can't deal with romance and commitment right now, don't do it, but if you and this other person are willing to solve things and talk like adults, this Full Moon is the perfect opportunity to see what will come out of it.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Taurus Sun, Sagittarius Ascendant, Venus in 11th house, Taurus Stellium, Gemini Moon, Aquarius Mercury, 8th house Stellium, Mars in 1st house, 1st house Stellium.

𝑆𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 7 you will be dealing with everything related to relationships, it's important that you still stay focus on yourself and what is it that you want. You are a person who has no problem with anything, you are an easy-going kind of person, that's just your personality, you are not dramatic and most people will define you as calm and chill, and they'd be right. You are non-confrontational, unless it's really necessary, but you also tend to stay in the middle a lot, you never say what's on your mind and you rather not to make the decisions most of the time, you love being alone as you feel you can't really be your truest self around people, because someone always has a problem with something, and you like calm places, you hate disorganization and chaos, you deal with a lot of chaos as you might have a very dysfunctional family and are always trying to stay uninvolved, to get away from their drama. You don't like talking about your family and you rarely talk about your friends to your family, because they will always see something negative in everything you do or say.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? As easy-going as you are, you tend to be disconnected from people a lot, it's difficult to reach you or get to know you, you are always between being nice enough and not sharing too much private information, you don't like noisy people and you hate when they try to land a hand on you, you like to keep everything a secret and do everything by yourself in fear of being even more judged. You feel stuck in the same place and have a really hard time understanding what is it that you want to do with you're life, you crave a change but you are also a paranoid person, sometimes staying neutral is your way of not getting involved, not getting hopes up so you won't be let down.

There is a big, enormous need to let go of something, to leave something behind, and the fear of sudden change, with this Full Moon, there most definitely be an unexpected change that you won't be able to politely get yourself away from, it has something to do with meeting a new person or receiving an offer of some sort, you think you are not ready for this big change, but you most likely are, as you are a very flexible to circumstances kind of person, you'll just fit right into this new change, which will be huge, and you'll need a lot of bravery to go through it, but, being you, it's not something to worry about, as long as you know how to balance it with the rest of things coming your way.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Sagittarius Stellium, Aquarius in 3rd house, Virgo Moon, Taurus Ascendant, Gemini Moon, Mercury Dominant, Libra in 6th house.

𝐸𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 8, this is special for you, since you could've been thinking about money a lot. You, like number 1, are an ambitious person, dedicated to what you like and dedicated to money, most importantly, you need to feel safe in your work environment and you need your work to mean something to people, I'm just going to say it, your job is the most important thing for you right now. You are a positive person that can be lead by impulse most of the time, you tend to rationalize things according to what you are feeling in the moment, if you're sad then nothing makes sense, if you are happy you can rule the world, you have many mood swings all the time. You lack patience and diligence, resilience and organization, your good attributes is that you do things differently than most people, and this brings originality to the table, but you have a hard time accepting criticism, you get defensive and believe you always know what you're doing. You're visionary and are always trying to find new ways to do things, to shock people, to do something that has never been done before, or do it better. You are not trusted around your loved ones, as they know your mind is always changing, sometimes you want to do one thing, and others something completely different. You look to be successful and have a stable income since this could be some very unstable in your life.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? Nowadays, you've been less pessimistic and less fatalistic, this has shown great improvement in your work and your career, more than you ever know. You are a person that can go from 0 to 100, and you know this, so every moment where you are happy you take advantage of and try to make progress in your chores or projects, and, with this Full Moon is possible that there's a new opportunity to make more money or to get recognized for your job. You've been feeling like you got something good and you want to take care of it, not in a possessive way, but absolutely in a possessive way, and you have been very careful not to tell everyone your business, or your whereabouts, you feel like there are people who'll bring their negativity into your situation and infest you with it. You are a very influential person when it comes to opinions of the ones you love, and can get anxious just as soon as someone says something, since you are scared to not be up to the kind of work you want to do, why do you keep doubting yourself? Haven't you proved to be worth of the praise?

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn, you will start seeing positive results when it comes to finances, and this will boost your self-esteem and sense of worth, however, you'll get to learn to be patient as the goal you want to meet is not yet there, and it's important that you don't back down like you usually do, don't be impulsive and keep working hard, you are on the right path, and if you keep this way, you'll soon have the possibility to travel abroad, something you might have always wanted, you'll receive the praise you've always wanted, and most importantly, you'll learn to let go of toxic bad habits.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Gemini Sun, Aries Mercury, Gemini Stellium, Aquarius in 8th house, Uranus in 8th house, Sagittarius Mars, Pisces Mercury.

𝑁𝑖𝑛𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 9, you are a lover, you don't like to work too hard and you don't like to work too long. You thrive on enjoying life at its fullest potential and you lack stability and organization, or rather put your attention into more stimulating things that are more attractive. You are fun to be around but can come off as mean or cruel since you never put much effort into your relationships, you decide who to be vulnerable with and can often treat your friends as toys. You are always looking for the next adventure and your childhood could've been very restricted and you weren't allowed to do anything that you were passionate about, you like things that can't be explained and you found liking in spirituality and mysticism. Your way of doing things is almost carelessly, but you probably try really hard to be the opposite of your parents although you have some control freak tendencies, it's something you'd like to hide.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? You are going through a rough time trying to cut ties with family, you have been pretending that everything is okay when it isn't and wonder why try to be agreeable with people that wouldn't do the same for my peace of mind? Although this is your family, and you grew up with these people, you couldn't feel so far away from them. You probably have many other people you could rely on but them, even a partner, I could see that you are in a relationship where you feel secured, something your relatives never cared to give you. And even when you tried to keep in contact, they always kept pushing you away or making it harder for you to not be mad at them. This is something you don't usually tell everyone, but others can tell when you avoid childhood questions or never invite your friends to your place. Your family doesn't make space for you and you always feel left out.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn, you will come to the harsh realization that your parents or your family won't change their ways, won't try to see your point off view and will always want to start some sort of confrontation. But with this, I'll come something better in the form of a new, romantic relationship, if you aren't in one already. This person will be your loyal companion and will feel like home to you, if you let go of this fear of intimacy and compromising, you could build something beautiful. You are a person that's scared of being vulnerable and scared of having done so much for someone who wasn't worth it, but this Full Moon will show otherwise, it will even force you to seek help when it comes to intimacy and letting people into your life without trying to run away the other direction, overall it'll ask you to be open to receive, but mostly to give.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Cancer Chiron, Capricorn Venus, Libra in 4th house, Venus or Saturn in 4th house, Pluto in Pisces or 12th house, 12th house Stellium.

𝐸𝑙𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑡ℎ 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose number 11, you are thew definition of balanced energy. You are good at interacting with both your logical side and your emotional side, at least that's what you show in the outside. You are an empathetic being, but you also look up for yourself the most, you can be very authoritarian with people and have a hard time seeing the bigger picture. I'll say it; you're a good liar, you like to appear more peaceful than what you actually are, as you can have your tantrums and your personality can be quite strong, still, you are a kind person that is lead by their surroundings. You have a hard time making people trust you sometimes, since you can act one way one day, and completely different the next. You perceive yourself in a different way others perceive you. You have a hard time connecting with your feminity as you don't know how to be open with your emotions and always feel like you have to put up some façade.

This is you, but what are you're current feeling? You feel as though you can't quite get what you want, there's always something you lack or something you should tune down, every time you think you've cracked the code, it just gets more difficult. You want to be seen a completely different way from the person you really are, there are aspects of yourself that you think no one would like so they should never see it, but you are failing to recognize your imperfections as an important part of who you are. You are scared that you will be judged or hated by others, and feel like everybody is waiting for you to fail. There's a conflict of interest between the person you are and the person you want to be seen as, why do you care so much? Why is it so difficult to show these traits of yours? You could've been bullied when you were younger since you were very different from your peers, so much so that people envy what you had and what they couldn't have, you have something otherworldly and it's reflected in everything you do.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn, you'll be forced to show these traits, to admit that you are not who you were trying to be, people love authenticity, and it's important for you to learn to balance femininity and masculinity both into your personality, regardless of gender , since it's something you have hard time dealing with. Overall, the lesson this can leave you is to not try to hard to do something is not meant for you, to not be ashamed of silly things and to actually learn to balance logic and emotion, you aspire to do great things in life, but you fear being ostracized by people and being seen as weird, maybe the reason why you mask everything you do is to feel included, to feel a connection with others, you are meant to leave a mark on the world, your uniqueness and your way of thinking is something that shouldn't be hidden.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Aquarius Stellium, 3rd house Stellium, Mercury in Leo, Mercury in 3rd house, Cancer Sun, Scorpio Mars, Libra or Gemini in 11th house.

𝑇𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦-𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑃𝑖𝑙𝑒:

People who chose the number 22, you are a force of nature. You can be stubborn and you can be charming, people ewqnt to get to know you, really get to know you, and you have a way off presenting yourself that is almost scary, but endearing at the same time. You are exactly how you present yourself, it's hard for you to hide your personality specially with your facial expressions, you are impatient and are more of a spur of the moment kind of person. You like to keep busy and you can come off as rude to others, you are a very needy person with your loved ones and you can be very possessive if you are not careful. Like the last pile, you have a complicated relationship with feminity, is not that you don't want to be feminine, or be more gentle or sweet, you are simply wary. You are always lead more by your intellect than your intuitive, and you have a fair share of both. You probably grew up extremely independent, with one or neither of the parental figures at home, you surrounded yourself with people much, much older than you, and you always behave in a more apathetic way towards people.

This is you, but what are your current feelings? You've been dealing with a lot of revelations lately, mainly about how you handle things and how you handle yourself. You might have no plans for the future and this makes you feel worthless, you usually don't feel excited for things others do, and your interests are very different from people your age, you have always been fine on your own but lately you have wanted more company, right? And the good thing, is that you are willing to make the effort to go up to people and make conversation, since you've always been alone because people were scared off your presence, you became very shy, even socially awkward. You feel so out of place sometimes and so disconnected from people that is hard for you to make friends and to make connections, your way of doing things as always been on your own, and you rarely share your struggles with people close to you.

After, —or even during— this Full Moon in Capricorn, you will most likely go through a period in your life where loneliness isn't what it used to, and it starts to be unbearable for you, this awakens a new way of seeing things. You are giving yourself the opportunity to let go of the fear of not quite fitting in, but before this happens you'll go through something very painful or drastic, that'll change your perspective on things. You'll learn to let go of apathy but also to try and look for something you enjoy doing, just por pleasure, you've been stuck in a kind nihilistic mindset almost your whole life, where you thought nothing really has any meaning, so why try? You are freeing yourself, like shedding old skin. It's important that you are patient with this process and patient with yourself, as you are a person who has a hard time accepting change and you'll need s Lott to feel comfortable in a new environment, overall this Full Moon will change the way you see other people.

PLACEMENTS YOU COULD HAVE: Scorpio Stellium, Mercury in 11th house, Scorpio or Sagittarius Moon, Capricorn Ascendant, Leo Ascendant, Aries Venus, Sagittarius Venus.

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