#I'm usually an optimistic
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June putting Nick on a pedestal and seeing him only through her "love glasses" was never a fair thing to do to him. Because eventually he was going to have to say 'no' to her and to do something against her wishes or morals in order to survive. He is always going to be a flawed, messy human surviving in a fucked up world. To make her love conditional upon his perceived perfection as a completely selfless ray of light that never had to abide by the realities of Gilead was just impossibly unfair. It is not possible for any human to live like that, especially so someone trying to survive in Gilead where difficult choices have to be made all the time.
In comparison, Nick loves all of June. All the ugly, horrible, messy parts. The parts that she might not like about herself or that frighten her. The parts that he doesn't like and that hurt him. That makes up who June is and Nick loves that and her completely. Nick's big issue is that June is the complete centre of his life, the only good thing, the only force that drives him anymore because he clings so tightly to her as he's so afraid of it disappearing. That's unhealthy and unfair to both of them as it pressures her a lot and results in him giving and giving and giving. It's just not sustainable at all. No one can keep giving forever without receiving in return. No one can be someone's centre of their life forever and have that be healthy for either of them.
June loves Nick, but she doesn't love him in the way he deserves- not yet. I think that this will be part of June's journey this season where she learns to love selflessly and not selfishly as she currently does and that she will love Nick as the whole person he is; good and bad, pure and messy, simple and complicated.
Nick loves June, but he doesn't love himself at all. He doesn't even like himself other than his love for June and even then he doesn't like how it makes him act sometimes, and yet he gives and gives and gives because he's so afraid of losing her like he's lost everyone else in his life. His entire purpose is all about June at this point and without her, first he's going to crash and then he's going to build back stronger, finding strength within himself and purpose outside of June.
In the end I truly believe Osblaine will become a much stronger couple and June and Nick much stronger people as a result of the growth we shall see them both go through. It's always darkest before the dawn and right now it's just before the dawn. We will get to that hopeful place and it will be real and raw and beautiful.
#nick blaine#june osborne#the handmaid's tale#tht s6 spoilers#i can't believe i'm the hopeful optimistic one lol#i am usually the anxiety doom spiral person#ah#tis a strange but welcome feeling#it's more fun for me to act this way
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"Woke Marxist Pope" aka a never trump-republican who's not a complete monster and who actually listened to the inconvenient Jesus-y parts of the bible where he talks about compassion for the poor and kindness for your neighbors or whatever and so wants people to stop treating immigrants like shit lol. Even his apparently iffy history with lgbt stuff and being pro-life isn't good enough for the rabid maga fanatics. The republican party is just a full on clown car honestly.
Hopefully he follows in Pope Francis' footsteps of at the very least being meh/ok-ish on lgbt stuff and other progressive social issues in a tolerant and humanity loving, "hate the sin love the sinner" "I like to think of hell as empty, I hope it is" kind of way. Not great, but not the worst we could have gotten by a long shot, viewing the catholic church pragmatically. I was worried the church was going to swing hardcore conservative after Pope Francis. Apparently Pope Francis liked this guy so that's a good sign. And if they can use his dual citizenship to help bridge the gap between the Americas that would be great.
#pope#catholic church#american politics#world politics#clown behavior from republicans#as usual#centrism#by catholic church standards#and by american standards#cautiously optimistic#this could have been much worse#wild speculation#not an expert#pope francis#pope leo xiv#very cursory view of this guy's history#so I could be wrong about things#I'm not religious#not a fan of organized religion#merely aware of the church's role as a powerful institution in the world#and hoping it makes good choices
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i don't mind the varying art styles at all, it would be fun to have like a warioware-esque game where each mini game has it's own style. my own worry is that the minigames won't have the usual zaniness of previous games
#this mini game looks very cute and i love the cat. obv i literally can't say anything about a game that'll release next year#but this seems a bit plain in comparison to other minigames in terms of weirdness where it looks like it's just cooking#like each minigame usually has SOME gimmick#like all the sport ones that take place in space#or just average people in weird situations like first/second contact#maybe i'm just misremembering but i can't think of many minigames that have extremely normal premises besides maybe....freeze frame..or lik#i guess love rap too#games like that#i'm optimistic and soooo hyped but this is a worry in my mind#txt#rhythm heaven#also that duck one looks ugly i'm sorry i can't hold back on that one#edit 1: i just remembered catch of the day and exhibition match those are also very normal. my bad lmao. but still#i wouldn't want a game with a majority of games like that. that's my worry with the new game. but we'll just have to see
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Guess who miscounted their open tabs of fics to draw for? And then didn't realize until I got to the last 3 sketches? 😀
I'm happy (and begrudged lol) to announce there will now be 32 days to Fan Joy July🥴🥴
Pray for my sanity hahaha
#Fan Joy July#i could have taken out a story...#but that wouldn't be fun!#and why shouldn't I torture myself?#haha oh well😂#on a more optimistic note#I only have 3 sketches to go until I'm ready to ink!!#WOOOOO#Sketching is usually the most time consuming for me so I'm excitteeedd#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu fanart
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Also I hope I don't come across as...stand-offish often. I'm a very easily overwhelmed person so I don't tend to really mingle around in fandom spaces as much these days! I hardly go into the tags either...just post and then watch youtube videos and chat with friends until it's time to sleep!
#I'm not usually very aware of like...what other folks do sometimes#I've been in my bubble for a while now for my own comfort but I'm still happy 2 see people's cool art#whenever i feel brave enough to look into tags#idk i'm 30 years old and years of fandom hoo ha have worn me down#TRYING TO BE OPTIMISTIC but usually I'm just like posts and skitters away
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Happy New Year!
To all my amazing followers, mutuals, and friends~
I wish you all a lovely time to come in this new year. Whether or not the last one was kind to you, may this new one bring you some peace. I personally am ready to move on into a new phase, hit the reset button on a few areas of my life, and get back into the things that bring me the most joy.
If you like, I would love for you to share with me some things from this past year that you're proud of or that really touched you. Leave me links to fics or fanart or just pop in to the ask box to tell me about a moment that mattered. It doesn't have to be Obey Me related, it's all whatever you want.
I truly appreciate every single person who has been on this journey with me. Whether you just followed me today or you've been following me since I posted my first fic, I am grateful for you and I love you.
No matter what, you are worthy, you are enough, and you deserve love. Please never forget that, even if this new year turns out to be less than ideal. I'm proud of you for surviving every day.
Now let's all hope that the end of Nightbringer season two doesn't start 2024 by making us all suffer! It's okay, I'm not gonna jinx it because I think it's already too late lol.

#usually I am a perpetual optimist but yo I dunno about how this last lesson is gonna go#definitely think I'm just gonna stay in denial like the this is fine dog#at least when it comes to this lol#misc rambles
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My parents make better friends than they ever did spouses and like that was painfully obvious to me at age ten to the point I was pleading with god during my christian years by saying "I know divorce is a sin but I'll take the punishment if you let them divorce" but for whatever fucking reason they thought it was better for me to wait until I was eighteen to split and then they marvel at how all my romantic options just end up being friends and how lonely I am romantically
#I'm not aromantic. I desire a romantic partner(s) but like. I can't get over this hump that partnerships are just about being petty#and angry at each other. and being passive aggressive. and screaming over stupid things.#and not being able to be in the same room without making everyone else on edge#I want a family so so so so much but every time I picture myself as a parent I'm doing it solo#because I absolutely cannot risk picturing it in my head raising a kid where I don't love my hypothetical partner and that's all I know#i can't subject that to a kid in my care even in my brain where I control the imagination#i can't even hold it in my mind that there will ever be a future where I can have a romantic partner and not feel uneasy#anyway to be clear this isn't some friendzone bullshit it's usually my fault my romantic interests default to friendships#because i panic then try to play it cool and i just end up coming across as aloof#the one time I was optimistic about my love life I got ghosted after MONTHS of dates and planning for future days. i still don't know why#anyway divorce is great I'm a big advocate for divorcing if it's not working out for you. kid or no kid
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dragon age origins is one of my favorite games but it was released 15 years ago. gaming trends and development have moved on and some y'all need to too.
#my blog#being cautiously optimistic is not the same as whining it's not the same as origins#go pull a fully realized video game out of your asses why don't you#i'm hoping for a fun and playable game with an engaging story that's about it#hopefully better hair than previous dragon age games but would it be from bioware if there weren't 15 bald hairstyles?#this is mostly about the subreddit per usual#they're all babies
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Imma be honest after VLD fiasco seeing any actor with ship content gives me aneurysm.
I want anon to know It’s to get engagement and new fans. It’s fun but don’t look too much into this/genuine
Don't mention Voltron to me I'll have war flashbacks 😭
#i rewatched it recently btw#not the best decision#but yeah i usually just never pay much attention to what the cast says abt these things ngl#like it's nice they want to engage with the fandom and maybe they're genuine!#i like to believe they are bc i'm optimistic#but y'know don't get too attached to what they say idkkk#ask-bean!
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somehow i feel like reading this book as someone who is very very far from being a keefe fan made it easier
#unraveled spoilers#i didn't expect to care about this book at all tbh#and there were many times in this book in which i felt keefe was making the absolute worst decision/having the most nonsense thoughts#but that somehow made him more likeable to me?#idk we see him usually through sophie's pov where she's usually pretty positive about whatever he says/does (even when she shouldn't be)#and i think that's what irked me the most before. this idea that we're supposed to love keefe bc he's way more perfect than fitz#idk i think keefe is a super unreliable narrator and i don't necessarily blame shannon for there being a lot of fitz negativity#i say this as a fitz fan. keefe has a very messed up perspective on a lot of things rn and unraveled made that pretty clear#however. it does make me stand by my thinking that chapter 42 came too early#even if sophie had reached a calm point of sorts in her emotional journey keefe was still deep in whatever he's going through#anyway i know i tend to have a very optimistic view of new keeper books#but this is the first book for a while that i genuinely don't think the intention is to kick sophie and fitz's relationship while it's down#it's simply that alvar and keefe are just...not big fans of him rn? although i do think alvar went a bit hard on the fitz hating#anyway to connect this back to my og post. not liking keefe made it way easier to me to like the book bc i just treated it like a book-#-where i'm supposed to think the protagonist is super fucking wrong#ok long tags over. damn that was a lot
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going dress shopping tomorrow. wish me "not hating my body" luck <3
#i'm fighting for my life trying to be optimistic!!!#but i hate shopping and i dont usually love dresses and my mom and aunts oppoinions scare me!!! so you can see why im terrified...
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what do you think of willy at center?
I don't hate it but I don't love it either... most of my thoughts are "eh, could work" but frankly one of our two notable star wingers' skillsets more classically befit a centre and it's not Willy
#asks#william nylander#like as usual i'm fairly optimistic#this isn't a decision that's obviously bad. willy's smart (PLAYWISE) and if needed puts a lot of work in#he's the most Passionate of all as they say#but i also am not immediately like YES GOOD IDEA GOOD.#i do hope they give it a fairer shot than last year out of curiosity#and having a nice dual RW/C could do well in the line versatility department because sometimes the classic 1634/8891 or 8834/1691 pairs#don't always work. but i think we can always Wait And See
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finishing off season five and i have many many many thoughts about the last two episodes
#and not many of them are good#the times where issues in the episodes haven't changed since the episode was aired 20+ years ago usually gets depressing pretty quickly#but watching these two episodes now#in light of everything?#it's something alright#kate is the only one i trust in this#granted i haven't finished s5e22 yet but i'm not optimistic#the west wing#west wing#what's a nice kid like me doing in a place like this
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They could still cast black/mixed race actors for the Conquerors. The conquerors operating under Valyrian supremacy to colonize Westeros is hardly a dealbreaker. The show cast a black man as Alyn Velaryon who was the right hand man for Daeron the Young Dragon (a half Velaryon) in their second colonization of Dorne. In the book, Corlys was echoing Rhaenyra’s racist insults towards a black girl, Nettles, but in the show Corlys is black (and Nettles is probably erased).
I doubt they will because HBO is a real company run by real people who live in the real world who have shown no interest whatsoever in actual telling Black stories, employing Black creators, or actually allowing Black actors to lead major franchises (out of Zaslav's ten thousand tax writeoff movie cancellations, it's not surprising that the first was a superhero movie where the main character was going to be portrayed by a Black actress), let alone making Black people the face of one of your most popular brands. Thus I have very little faith that they're going to take the Conquerors' Velaryon heritage into account and actually have them be biracial. It's likely not gonna happen because the entertainment business is not nearly as progressive as Fox News thinks it is, which you can tell because, with the Velaryon intermarriage with House Targaryen, Viserys and Daemon and even Rhaenyra should be somewhat mixed/clearly not white as well. But they're not. Because our leads can't be Black, just a badly written side characters who vary from inconsistently written but around to present for about one episode before dying to literally lamp posts throughout all of season 1 who could have been played by sticking a wig on a mop (Baela and Rhaena got NO season 1 characterization! it's insane!). As to your other shitmillion points that are all kinda dumb:
It is absolutely an optics failure to have power hungry Black people commit what some might view as atrocities against an all white population in order to subjugate that white population under their rule, as well as making them sexually degenerate to the point where all white religions are rising up against them and their unholy abomination of incest. It's a bad look, and even if you're David Zaslav and co and you're assholes who don't actually care about the messages your creativity sends, you're not gonna invite that firestorm of controversy anywhere near one of your few profitable franchises.
This show is ending after four seasons. It's covering the Dance. It's absolutely not going to cover anything as far away as Daeron's conquest of Dorne. That's not why they cast a Black man to play Alyn. They cast a Black man to play Alyn because he's related to Corlys and Corlys is Black, be serious.
Corlys being Black does not preclude him from being an ass about Nettles, even about her being Black, especially if she's not actually a dragonseed and just a girl who was resourceful and lucky and thus proving that Targaryen genes aren't necessarily needed for dragonriding.
Nettles was also absolutely not probably erased because Corlys is now a Black man. Nettles was probably erased because a) the showrunners likely didn't want to set up her relationship with Daemon (even tho it's actually really important to him and his overall story) either because they don't want him cheating on Rhaenyra or because the age gap is creepy b) they don't want to have our nominal protagonist spout racist abuse about a young Black girl, because the show has gone to significant lengths to greatly soften Rhaenyra from her book characterization, as well as not wanting to turn the audience against her c) they decided that as long as they had Rhaena, who wasn't doing anything in the Vale anyway and who is now Black in the show, it's still a Black girl learning how to tame a dragon, it's fine, we're not being racist, no need to understand how erasing Nettles is a problem and Black people aren't interchangeable or even how that fucks with some of the symbolism for Rhaena (Morning being born after the Dance and being named Morning is kinda, like, symbolically significant). It has fuck all to do with Corlys being Black and everything to do with the writing getting lazy.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i'm sorry i try to be nice usually but these are just ridiculous points#i do not have faith in a mega-company actually putting care into this craft#especially considering everything we saw last year with wga and sag-aftra#and everything we're seeing this year with AI and whatnot#but i'm supposed to believe they'll care enough about representation and identity that they'll let the targaryens be POC?#i do not i do not believe that these companies give me no reason to believe that#if they do end up doing that it'll be great i'll be more on board for this show than i've ever been#but i'm not optimistic and there are legit reasons for that lack of optimism
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makes me wonder if it's 2024 or 2016, if i'm considering making a whole blog for an oc
anyway i mentioned him a few times not by name but here he is, his name is sai
#i don't have a live action fc for him other than a few actors that look kinda like him when he was younger#i just have compress from m/ha as a partial fc#might have to learn how to draw again just to draw him but i've never been good at drawing men who aren't twinks or just fat little demons#i'm not sure if i will or won't make him a blog but he's the only muse who speaks to me after aaron and theo went on vacation#so i don't know if it's worth trying to cpr aaron or even theo or if i should just accept that this is the new normal#he's a far cry from my usual oc since he's so optimistic and sweet#but he is a thief and has a story driven by inequality so he shares that with my others lmao#sai#flynn speaks
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brawn colours???
HE IS SOOOOOOO... i'm under no illusion that this isn't ONE HUNDRED PRECENT on purpose and i know that most likely he is just playing us bc he is so goddamn annoying like that. HOWEVER... OH MY GOD?!?!?!OH MY GOD OMG OMG????
#literally he cannot fool me BUT i am also sooo gullible and truly an optimist that i'm shaking with excitment#it'll probably be like 'haha how cool is it that the brawn car will be 2 hours at this whiskey market :)' but in my head#this is him announcing he's gonna race for 30 different teams and 40000 races next year. oh and brawn will buy alpha tauri or whatever#i am delusional as always :)#also vile of him to announce on twitter he knows i don't have twitter :( i also don't use any other socials he should've said it to my face#sorry if this is more insane than usual i've spent like an hour watching videoedits of athletes so i'm slightly more derailed than usual#eve <3#ask#button
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