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The "good Thing" about Jily is that they could never dismiss it or make It completely bad/toxic in the new series scenario because its probably the only ship they cannot change because they NEED it to be canon for Harry Potter to actually exist skfkfnfnsks so screw the haters and all these new tiktok fanon ships, Jily will always prevail
Break apart, no? But the movies never cared about James and Lily's (Harry's parents!!!) relationship, and they didn't portrayed it well.
Philosopher's Stone
Minerva doesn't cry about James and Lily; she just asks if the rumours are true, to which Dumbledore says that "the good and the bad" are;
The Mirror of Erised happens just as in the book;
Voldemort says that James and Lily were brave;
Dumbledore talks about Lily's sacrifice and power of her love;
Hagrid's album: a picture of James and Lily with baby Harry.
Chamber of Secrets
Other than the same photo of Jily with baby Harry, nothing else. No mention of James or Lily.
Prisoner of Azkaban
A new photo! James and Lily dancing.
Lupin talks about James (talent for trouble) and Lily (singularly gifted witch, uncommonly kind woman) - but then he also says he recognized Harry, who is the SPITTING IMAGE of his father (Remus' best friend for years, mind you), because of Lily's eyes. Take that as you will.
Revelation about Sirius' "betrayal". It's just said that Sirius was "someone that knew" the truth about the Potter's hiding place, and was Harry's godfather.
The Shrieking Shack scene. WHY are Sirius and Peter an animagus? Does it matter?
Peter does say that James wouldn't have wanted him killed, because "he would have shown mercy". Don't know why, so far Peter was only the "boy who never let James and Sirius out of his sight"
Sirius says that line about those who love us never really leave us, talking about James and Lily.
Goblet of fire
Rita Skeeter asks about how Harry's parents would feel about the Triwizard Tournament;
Harry sees his parents in the Priori Incantatem, they guide him to leave the cemetery.
Order of the phoenix
Molly and Sirius' discussion ("he's not James, Sirius")
Snape talking about James ("Lazy, arrogant, swine")
Snape's Worst Memory, or just James casting expelliarmus on Snape, Sirius complementing him, Levicorpus. Lily who? No "Mudblood" to justify the name of the scene. Harry never worries about his father's behaviour.
Half-blood prince
Slughorn talks about Lily (exceedingly bright), has a picture of her;
Slughorn talks about the flower/fish that Lily gave him, and the charm that died with her
Dumbledore says that Harry is like Lily, "unfailingly kind".
Deathly Hallows (both parts)
Harry sees their graves;
The Prince's Tale: James and Lily meet after the Sorting (somehow James is already sorted even though it's alphabetically?); James runs with Sirius, knocks Lily and Snape's books out of their hands; tiny James and tiny Lily share a look, and then they are dancing in that photo that Harry has, because, right, when a boy knocks our books, you two fall in love. I don't make the rules. Poor Snape, though, why couldn't Lily love him back.
The Ressurection Stone. James gets his "until the end" line; Lily just says "always".
Oh, they cannot break Jily apart, but they can mess it a lot 🤦♀️
#you know I keep making these posts#because my expectations are SO LOW about everything#I'm usually an optimistic#not about this
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Guess who miscounted their open tabs of fics to draw for? And then didn't realize until I got to the last 3 sketches? 😀
I'm happy (and begrudged lol) to announce there will now be 32 days to Fan Joy July🥴🥴
Pray for my sanity hahaha
#Fan Joy July#i could have taken out a story...#but that wouldn't be fun!#and why shouldn't I torture myself?#haha oh well😂#on a more optimistic note#I only have 3 sketches to go until I'm ready to ink!!#WOOOOO#Sketching is usually the most time consuming for me so I'm excitteeedd#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu fanart
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Michigan, Ohio, Pennsylvania, and North Carolina all trending blue??
PLEASE KEEP IT UP
#don't even come at me about how early it is i fucking know#i am glued retina-first to the ap election results page okay i know how small the 'votes counted' percentages are this early#but usually states trend red first bc they count in-person ballots first and those lean republican#i'm allowed to be optimistic#if my home state (oh) and current state (nc) both go blue when they've been festering pits of red i will lose my shit /pos#us politics
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I had a dream last night about Jay and his arc so now I wanna talk about Jay (Spoilers under the cut)
So in my dream, my one major worries ended up happening which was Jay's whole amnesia/villain arc was resolved super quickly. I don't even remember how it went down exactly in my dream, but I remember feeling dread watching the episode and knowing that they were going the quick route with this. And I really hope that doesn't end up happening in the actual show.
Since Jay is my favorite character, I have a lot of thoughts about him and his arc in DR. Personally, I hope that either his amnesia lasts for a while and doesn't get resolved super quickly, OR if he does get his memories back relatively quickly, then he still has to deal with the lasting impact of Shatterspin. I think I made a post about this before about how it would be interesting if Jay got his memories back but still had his personality altered from the Shatterspin due to not being able to fix that yet, but yeah my point still stands.
I want Jay to have at least one season where he gets to be an antagonist for the WHOLE SEASON, not just one episode, but an actual threat for a substantial amount of screen time. Because if the ninja get him back super quickly, then it's gonna feel like all this build up was for nothing. And one more thing that I wanted to talk about, but there's two characters that I think would be interesting if they were included in Jay's arc somehow.
Starting off with what I think is least likely to be a major player, but it's Frak. Just like Jay, Frak was tricked by Ras and was on his side during the tournament. Except Frak realized Ras was evil and never used Shatterspin unlike Jay who did. And Frak is also established to be a huge fan of the ninja, so he'd know who Jay really is. I think it would be interesting if either Frak has more info about the lies Ras told Jay that he can then tell the other ninja about, or if he actually tries to reason with Jay and get him on their side since he was in a similar scenario. But in all honesty, I think Frak is probably gonna be sticking close to Cole's side like how Wyldfyre was basically always with Kai when she first joined the team.
Going into the second character, this was something I only realized after other people had made posts about it, but bringing Arrakore into Jay's arc would be a really cool idea. For one, he's a djinn and Jay has history with a certain djinn. He doesn't remember it, but still, thematically it would make sense. Arrakore has also already met Nya so we also have a link there. And ultimately, if it comes down to it, I think Arrakore might actually end up being the solution to the Jay problem. They can probably just wish for Jay to get his memories back and to undo the Shatterspin. And as long as they don't come to that conclusion super fast and we build up to it, I think I'd be ok with that.
So yeah, those are my Jay thoughts for now. I crave more of him from DR and I hope he gets more attention next season. I truly believe and hope that the writers are building up to something big with him, but we just have to wait and see.
#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago spoilers#dragons rising spoilers#jay walker#i feel like i tend to be on the more optimistic side of things with dragons rising#but i'm also just usually the type of person to see the benefit of the doubt and wait for things to reveal themselves#but yeah i'll also admit that i'm starting to get upset at how little screen time jay has been getting
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Happy New Year!
To all my amazing followers, mutuals, and friends~
I wish you all a lovely time to come in this new year. Whether or not the last one was kind to you, may this new one bring you some peace. I personally am ready to move on into a new phase, hit the reset button on a few areas of my life, and get back into the things that bring me the most joy.
If you like, I would love for you to share with me some things from this past year that you're proud of or that really touched you. Leave me links to fics or fanart or just pop in to the ask box to tell me about a moment that mattered. It doesn't have to be Obey Me related, it's all whatever you want.
I truly appreciate every single person who has been on this journey with me. Whether you just followed me today or you've been following me since I posted my first fic, I am grateful for you and I love you.
No matter what, you are worthy, you are enough, and you deserve love. Please never forget that, even if this new year turns out to be less than ideal. I'm proud of you for surviving every day.
Now let's all hope that the end of Nightbringer season two doesn't start 2024 by making us all suffer! It's okay, I'm not gonna jinx it because I think it's already too late lol.
#usually I am a perpetual optimist but yo I dunno about how this last lesson is gonna go#definitely think I'm just gonna stay in denial like the this is fine dog#at least when it comes to this lol#misc rambles
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The more time goes on, the more I think we (= westerners, especially white westerners) are just so fucking bad at guilt. I feel like guilt is among the most pernicious and dangerous emotions out there --not because guilt is literally deadly in isolation, it is an excruciating emotion but it will not kill you in itself, but because we have been trained to associate guilt with worthlessness (I partially blame christian values, the idea of impurity and sin --not to downplay, of course, the danger of a community judging you or being expelled from that community on the basis of being considered a danger to its other members due to the thing you've done that has been generating this guilt), and so we must, absolutely must, protect ourselves from simply feeling that guilt and processing its cold indifference washing over us, and we must do so through any means necessary. This can involve defensiveness, denial or reject of that guilt altogether so we are mentally protected from having to reevaluate ourselves and our place in the world, or can involve wallowing in and using it to self-harm --focusing on the pain and on self-hate rather than on what the guilt is telling us about ourselves and our heritage; blinding ourselves to it still in a twisted way.
I think it's also complicated to know how to manage guilt in a world where we're generally (as a whole) deeply powerless. It feels unfair to be called out about not doing enough when you know that pulling even mediocre heroics on your own will most definitively do almost nothing, hurt you, and be buried in a way that might be extremely unhelpul --not to mention, that it would actually hurt you in a very real and final way and lead to entirely thankless results, even if it was the morally correct thing to do. I do not want to pretend that it's not, very often, the results that awaits even serious and well-practiced activism --or even mild activism, major shoutout to everybody who got maimed or arrested or even killed on zero basis simply because they happened to be at or even near a protest, when they were not brutally attacked for no reason even outside of activism because an officer was racist or sexist or queerphobic or simply bored that day. There are genuinely good reasons to be scared.
So we feel guilt because of this fear, because of our isolation from any serious movement and the fact that we privilege our comfort over letting action taking over whatever else we have going on, and because fear and comfort knowingly keep us into inaction --or action that doesn't feel like enough, or that we feel doesn't achieve much of anything (which I think is never true: even giving someone a glimpse of hope for a second because we made an effort towards them is always always worth it in my opinion, it's not nothing and it's not a cop-out --of course it's not enough and we collectively need to find ways to do more, but it's not nothing and it should never discourage people from taking action --but I digress). But I think we start making a mistake when we point at this very real powerlessness as a shield from the guilt. Both can coexist. Both have to coexist. It isn't fair that some people are being forced to be courageous when we can afford to remain cowards. It is not even a moral judgement that condemn our souls forever, weakness is human and lack of individual reach against an overwhelmingly powerful and removed system even more so; it is a simple fact that we *have* to acknowledge if we want to take a clear look at the actual situation instead of camouflaging it behind self-justifying walls to give ourselves temporarily relief from that awful feeling. And I'm not saying it's not a constant effort, to keep those instincts of self-preservation at bay, or that some people don't have really good reasons that they cannot act more than through social media or miniscule donations or by talking about it around them, or being powerless to even do that without putting themselves into real and concrete danger --or that letting guilt in will be pleasant or even healing. It won't be. But it's also not the point.
Yeah, I get that it's hard to truly reckon with the fact that almost everything that made us (= westerners, especially white ones) is soaked with blood, imperialism, white supremacy, sexism, queerphobia, and a whole sweve of truly rancid ideologies that we cannot afford to passively accept as our lot. We were not given a choice in that legacy, and we don't have a ton of leverage over reorienting our haunted civilizations into something that isn't a horrible nightmare; but it is a fight that is happening right the fuck now.
I genuinely think guilt is a feeling we are not taught to handle in a healthy way; and because we have essentialist, pseudo-religious and punitive justice concepts terminally untangled with that feeling, guilt governs our politics and our private lives in the most rabid and unchecked way imaginable. But guilt will not kill us, unless we allow it to, and it will help literally nobody if it does. Guilt isn't evil in its soul-crushing pain as much as it is informative. Guilt is unbearable, unfliching clarity. But fever boils us alive because there is an infection that needs to be destroyed.
#thoughts#personal#not zelda#palestine#free palestine#guilt#cw self harm#(not graphic and really in passing)#sorry it's quite different than usual and it's a lot and I don't know if I'll agree with everything in five seconds#but I feel like we don't talk enough about the impact of guilt on our lives and psyches (and politics)#I am not great at guilt either (tho tbh I don't know many people who are)#but I'm trying to get better at simply... shutting up and Feeling It#I'm sure there's a way to face guilt that isn't destructive or self-pitying or generally useless#but I am.... I am so pessimistic about the future#not in a: let's all give up and cry but in a: we must fucking brace ourselves and look after one another#and put our foot in the sand right now because everything is unnacceptable and we need to acknowledge it much harder#if we let it fester it will only get uglier and uglier#and it doesn't mean we won't win or that hope isn't an absolutely essential component to it all#I am ultimately optimistic that there is an After to capitalism and imperialism and that brand of self-centered preservation and brutality#and this general oozing of toxic and unprocessed guilt#But#let's say that we'll all have to lead our own fights against it at some point#and I think that time should be right now#tl;dr imo there's no hope for justice and genuine resistance without facing guilt and resisting the urge to deny or fret against its ache#which doesn't have to equate with allowing guilt to rule us and use it as a tool of self-torment#anywayyyyy#saw a LOT of very weird reactions to the gaza genocide in my personal circles#some that really disappointed me even though they came from people I know to be better than this#so#yeah
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My parents make better friends than they ever did spouses and like that was painfully obvious to me at age ten to the point I was pleading with god during my christian years by saying "I know divorce is a sin but I'll take the punishment if you let them divorce" but for whatever fucking reason they thought it was better for me to wait until I was eighteen to split and then they marvel at how all my romantic options just end up being friends and how lonely I am romantically
#I'm not aromantic. I desire a romantic partner(s) but like. I can't get over this hump that partnerships are just about being petty#and angry at each other. and being passive aggressive. and screaming over stupid things.#and not being able to be in the same room without making everyone else on edge#I want a family so so so so much but every time I picture myself as a parent I'm doing it solo#because I absolutely cannot risk picturing it in my head raising a kid where I don't love my hypothetical partner and that's all I know#i can't subject that to a kid in my care even in my brain where I control the imagination#i can't even hold it in my mind that there will ever be a future where I can have a romantic partner and not feel uneasy#anyway to be clear this isn't some friendzone bullshit it's usually my fault my romantic interests default to friendships#because i panic then try to play it cool and i just end up coming across as aloof#the one time I was optimistic about my love life I got ghosted after MONTHS of dates and planning for future days. i still don't know why#anyway divorce is great I'm a big advocate for divorcing if it's not working out for you. kid or no kid
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dragon age origins is one of my favorite games but it was released 15 years ago. gaming trends and development have moved on and some y'all need to too.
#my blog#being cautiously optimistic is not the same as whining it's not the same as origins#go pull a fully realized video game out of your asses why don't you#i'm hoping for a fun and playable game with an engaging story that's about it#hopefully better hair than previous dragon age games but would it be from bioware if there weren't 15 bald hairstyles?#this is mostly about the subreddit per usual#they're all babies
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Imma be honest after VLD fiasco seeing any actor with ship content gives me aneurysm.
I want anon to know It’s to get engagement and new fans. It’s fun but don’t look too much into this/genuine
Don't mention Voltron to me I'll have war flashbacks 😭
#i rewatched it recently btw#not the best decision#but yeah i usually just never pay much attention to what the cast says abt these things ngl#like it's nice they want to engage with the fandom and maybe they're genuine!#i like to believe they are bc i'm optimistic#but y'know don't get too attached to what they say idkkk#ask-bean!
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going dress shopping tomorrow. wish me "not hating my body" luck <3
#i'm fighting for my life trying to be optimistic!!!#but i hate shopping and i dont usually love dresses and my mom and aunts oppoinions scare me!!! so you can see why im terrified...
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My mom is like "You don't need both the TV and the radio turned on :/" like she doesn't understand that the whole point is that the inside of my head is so loud that the only way to fight the 'inside loudness' is with 'outside loudness' but :') this is fine I'll just keep going insane :') no need to worry about me :')
#I took my meds so hopefully that helps dial down the inner loudness a bit but I'm not optimistic tbh#if I'm too worked up then they don't work as well on me#idk why I just feel like I've been going crazy all day long!!!!#I'm losing my grip on things and everything feels wrong and fake#I feel so bad both physically and mentally#I'm really hoping it's just from not getting my injection yet and it'll all go away once I get it again#but I mean it's true I'm also mentally ill so idk?#for sure it's been feeling even worse than usual for me though and idk why that would randomly be happening now#and like. 2 severe headaches a day every day is not normal for me#waking up panicked from vivid nightmares literally EVERY night is not normal for me#I am extremely exhausted both physically and mentally and literally do nothing but still feel like shit#I get headaches when I wake up but they usually go away but the ones I've had recently are debilitating and won't stop#like I had to skip an online meeting because one had me feeling so terrible I just couldn't power through#I keep feeling like I'm going to die like just drop dead finally#even though that's illogical but it's how my body is making me feel#idk it just sucks#kind of tempted to ask on reddit about it but like#people go on there to share the worst of their experiences and I have enough health related phobias already#I did enough skimming to find out that it probably *is* from missing my injection though#ughhfuhfh
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what do you think of willy at center?
I don't hate it but I don't love it either... most of my thoughts are "eh, could work" but frankly one of our two notable star wingers' skillsets more classically befit a centre and it's not Willy
#asks#william nylander#like as usual i'm fairly optimistic#this isn't a decision that's obviously bad. willy's smart (PLAYWISE) and if needed puts a lot of work in#he's the most Passionate of all as they say#but i also am not immediately like YES GOOD IDEA GOOD.#i do hope they give it a fairer shot than last year out of curiosity#and having a nice dual RW/C could do well in the line versatility department because sometimes the classic 1634/8891 or 8834/1691 pairs#don't always work. but i think we can always Wait And See
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finishing off season five and i have many many many thoughts about the last two episodes
#and not many of them are good#the times where issues in the episodes haven't changed since the episode was aired 20+ years ago usually gets depressing pretty quickly#but watching these two episodes now#in light of everything?#it's something alright#kate is the only one i trust in this#granted i haven't finished s5e22 yet but i'm not optimistic#the west wing#west wing#what's a nice kid like me doing in a place like this
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chat i fear i'm not getting this job
#txt#interviewer told me they'd contact me within the same day of the interview but i've still gotten nothing and it's been two days#usually i brush it off as me being ghosted but this company so far does a decent job of communication#bc i got an email for interview invitation within 2 days of applying#so i'm not optimistic ToT
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They could still cast black/mixed race actors for the Conquerors. The conquerors operating under Valyrian supremacy to colonize Westeros is hardly a dealbreaker. The show cast a black man as Alyn Velaryon who was the right hand man for Daeron the Young Dragon (a half Velaryon) in their second colonization of Dorne. In the book, Corlys was echoing Rhaenyra’s racist insults towards a black girl, Nettles, but in the show Corlys is black (and Nettles is probably erased).
I doubt they will because HBO is a real company run by real people who live in the real world who have shown no interest whatsoever in actual telling Black stories, employing Black creators, or actually allowing Black actors to lead major franchises (out of Zaslav's ten thousand tax writeoff movie cancellations, it's not surprising that the first was a superhero movie where the main character was going to be portrayed by a Black actress), let alone making Black people the face of one of your most popular brands. Thus I have very little faith that they're going to take the Conquerors' Velaryon heritage into account and actually have them be biracial. It's likely not gonna happen because the entertainment business is not nearly as progressive as Fox News thinks it is, which you can tell because, with the Velaryon intermarriage with House Targaryen, Viserys and Daemon and even Rhaenyra should be somewhat mixed/clearly not white as well. But they're not. Because our leads can't be Black, just a badly written side characters who vary from inconsistently written but around to present for about one episode before dying to literally lamp posts throughout all of season 1 who could have been played by sticking a wig on a mop (Baela and Rhaena got NO season 1 characterization! it's insane!). As to your other shitmillion points that are all kinda dumb:
It is absolutely an optics failure to have power hungry Black people commit what some might view as atrocities against an all white population in order to subjugate that white population under their rule, as well as making them sexually degenerate to the point where all white religions are rising up against them and their unholy abomination of incest. It's a bad look, and even if you're David Zaslav and co and you're assholes who don't actually care about the messages your creativity sends, you're not gonna invite that firestorm of controversy anywhere near one of your few profitable franchises.
This show is ending after four seasons. It's covering the Dance. It's absolutely not going to cover anything as far away as Daeron's conquest of Dorne. That's not why they cast a Black man to play Alyn. They cast a Black man to play Alyn because he's related to Corlys and Corlys is Black, be serious.
Corlys being Black does not preclude him from being an ass about Nettles, even about her being Black, especially if she's not actually a dragonseed and just a girl who was resourceful and lucky and thus proving that Targaryen genes aren't necessarily needed for dragonriding.
Nettles was also absolutely not probably erased because Corlys is now a Black man. Nettles was probably erased because a) the showrunners likely didn't want to set up her relationship with Daemon (even tho it's actually really important to him and his overall story) either because they don't want him cheating on Rhaenyra or because the age gap is creepy b) they don't want to have our nominal protagonist spout racist abuse about a young Black girl, because the show has gone to significant lengths to greatly soften Rhaenyra from her book characterization, as well as not wanting to turn the audience against her c) they decided that as long as they had Rhaena, who wasn't doing anything in the Vale anyway and who is now Black in the show, it's still a Black girl learning how to tame a dragon, it's fine, we're not being racist, no need to understand how erasing Nettles is a problem and Black people aren't interchangeable or even how that fucks with some of the symbolism for Rhaena (Morning being born after the Dance and being named Morning is kinda, like, symbolically significant). It has fuck all to do with Corlys being Black and everything to do with the writing getting lazy.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i'm sorry i try to be nice usually but these are just ridiculous points#i do not have faith in a mega-company actually putting care into this craft#especially considering everything we saw last year with wga and sag-aftra#and everything we're seeing this year with AI and whatnot#but i'm supposed to believe they'll care enough about representation and identity that they'll let the targaryens be POC?#i do not i do not believe that these companies give me no reason to believe that#if they do end up doing that it'll be great i'll be more on board for this show than i've ever been#but i'm not optimistic and there are legit reasons for that lack of optimism
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makes me wonder if it's 2024 or 2016, if i'm considering making a whole blog for an oc
anyway i mentioned him a few times not by name but here he is, his name is sai
#i don't have a live action fc for him other than a few actors that look kinda like him when he was younger#i just have compress from m/ha as a partial fc#might have to learn how to draw again just to draw him but i've never been good at drawing men who aren't twinks or just fat little demons#i'm not sure if i will or won't make him a blog but he's the only muse who speaks to me after aaron and theo went on vacation#so i don't know if it's worth trying to cpr aaron or even theo or if i should just accept that this is the new normal#he's a far cry from my usual oc since he's so optimistic and sweet#but he is a thief and has a story driven by inequality so he shares that with my others lmao#riley speaks
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