#I'm so.sorry. i am SO sorry. I am REALLY sorry. I'm sorry i don't ever know what to sah | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

thr4shit · 5 days ago

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Sometimes I wonder how to even interact with certain people anymore because I want to. And I want them to know i care but I'm monumentally afraid of fucking the conversation up, cracking one of the eggshells, and just making them more upset.

I don't want to upset them. I don't want them to feel like I'm watching from the sidelines or that I don't care.

But I feel like that's what I'll end up doing?

I'm not good at words, and I hate it. Because I really want to say something? Yknow?

I'm just too scared I'll say the wrong thing.

Even if I'm also always scared of.losing them.

#the clowns are rambling instead of dancing #ignore me please #i don't like vague posting. but i really don't know what to.say and this thought keeps returning and digging it's claws in #like “you need to say SOMETHING! stop being such an unfeeling dick!” but also “you'll say the wrong thing and they'll think you're –!!”#so. i hate myself for not speaking and i would hate myself for speaking. so. fuck.#of course. not ABOUT me. about THEM. i just want to help but I don't know how and i don't want to likeyknow? try if I'll make it worse #because I'd really HATE to make it worse! I DO NOT WANT TO GIVE THEM ANY POSSIBLE WORSE ANYMORE.#THEY DESERVE BETTER. AND I DON'T WANT TO EVEN POTENTIALLY CAUSE A MOMENT OF WORSE IN THEIR PERSONAL HELL.#but yeah. yeaj. I'll probably regret this eventually cause i feel like an asshole for talking like this #because what if they think i think they're a burden? cause i don't i love them so much and i never WANT them to think that #but i don't know wjat to do anymore #and I'm so sorry that you have to.live in that fucking place with those fucking people and km so sorry i can't do anything #where the fuck dod all this emotion come from? how long have i been wanting to say this???#and I'm not even fucking brave enough to say it to them. instead I'm VAGUEPOSTING. like a fucking baby.#ALWAYS WHINING LIKE I'M THE WORST WOUNDED THING OUT HERE WHEN BASICALLY EVERYONE I KNOW HAS IT WORSE #“LOOK AT ME AND MY FALSE LIMP!” THAT'S HOW THIS FUCKING FEELS.#THAT'S NOT THE POINT AND YOU KNOW IT. BUT OH WELL. HERE I JJST FUCKING GO AGAIN.#I'm so.sorry. i am SO sorry. I am REALLY sorry. I'm sorry i don't ever know what to sah

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