#I'm so fucking violently angry IM TIRED OF LIVING A LIFE I DONT WANT TO LIVE

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

[jaxieshauna]

what do i do if my fp abandoned me && i lwokey do Not want to live bc she promised she wouldnt && i planned my whole life around her && it;s starting to hit that she really couldnt fucking care less anymore but i dont even know how to breathe without her im tired && i need her but she wont respond 2 messages && she hasnt checked in on me once after the election or after i had surgery && she barely said anything 4 my birthday but she used to live for me && i have not stopped living 4 her && i'm starting to realize it's toxic && she doesnt love me && she never really did && i'm starting to realize she doesn't need me anymore she grew out of me just like everybody else && she didn't even say goodbye she just left me like she promised not to do && there is so much more i could fucking say but i feel so silly she makes me feel so fucking stupid i'm her stupid little mutt && she said she would love me even if i wasnt human but she doesnt && i dont know why she stopped but it's been months maybe even a fucking year && our special things she's telling all of Them about && that's mine thats ours was it all a lie i'm just her stupid fucking mutt that's all i'll ever be she's ashamed of me && she i was her secret && i don't think im her good boy anymore && thats all i ever wanted i was built to be her stupid pup i would do anything for her i want her to consume me && i want to consume her but im just her stupid secret && the dumb little freak that will always be hers no matter how much i want to be free. i hate what i do i hate how i feel i hate how i think && how angry && violent she makes me. i fucking hate all of the people she left me for i want them gone && im trying to be good && stay out of trouble but i dont want to live like this anymore i hate what ive become it's not fair to the people around me it scares me && i hate myself for being nothing but the silly mutt that would do anything to make her smile . the stupid fucking dog that can't function without his owner.