#I'm on episode three and i am unwell about this boy

[itsgonnagetinspiringsoon]

Ohhhh y'all weren't fucking kidding about Evan Kelmp

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

I'm watching too much stuff. And things are not slowing down with all the things coming in September. So I'm gonna try and keep this short. As much as that's possible given the amount of shows.

QL - Currently Watching

🇹🇭 4 Minutes [6/8] - Finally some answers. I haven't read all the theories floating around about this last episode and what it means, but I'm firmly on the side of, there is another alternative timeline, probably from when Tyme is dying at the start of the show, and also very much in agreement with everything @lurkingshan wrote here that these are just imagined do-overs and nothing will actually change in the real world. Which would be my preferred way.

🇹🇭 Addicted Heroin [2/10] - Haven't watched this weeks episode yet. My review for the first two is here.

🇹🇼 First Note of Love [4/12] - I like them a lot. And I like the pacing of this. I love the intro song. But with a second couple being introduced I think I'm gonna get frustrated having to wait a week for a 20 minute episode. I felt that way a lot during Kiseki.

🇯🇵 I Hear the Sunspot [10/12] - I am annoyed.

🇹🇭 I Saw You In My Dream [7/12] - May the boyfriend era commence. I am enjoying this one. I'm guessing we still have a bit of angst coming and I'm hoping for a good explanation for the dreams.

🇯🇵 Mitsuya Sensei no Keikakutekina Ezuke [6/7] - Just such an incredible show. This week brought the pain and I'm still unwell. As if Frito getting sick wasn't heart breaking enough, that ending left me in tears. I cannot believe we only have one episode left. I am not ready to say goodbye to the three of them.

🇹🇭 Monster Next Door [6/12] - My favourite thing about this is definitely Big. His presence on screen is great. But I'm not fully connecting yet for some reason.

🇹🇭 Peaceful Property [1/10] - It's a lot of fun. Yeah, I know it's not a bl. But it's bl adjacent so it goes here. Also in my head it's gonna be a bl no matter what. Possibly even with a gl side couple. The mind is a powerful thing.

🇯🇵Sugar Dog Life [4/10] - I love Isumi. I really liked that they didn't drag the girl storyline and it served it's purpose. Isumi is now very much aware of it's feelings. I'm looking forward to the date episode.

🇯🇵 Takara No Vidro [9/11] - Takara, my love. This boy has my whole heart. I can't believe I'll have to say goodbye to then tomorrow. I'm bracing for part pain, part happy. Please Japan don't let me down.

🇹🇭 The Loyal Pin [1/16] - I'm waiting to binge.

🇹🇼 The On1y One [4/10] - This show will hurt and I will love every second of it. I really like the look of this show and how we get those little insights into Jiang at the end of the episode. The actors are doing great and I specially love Benjamin Tsang facial expressions. I'm curious to see these two together and how their dynamic will work considering their circumstances. Also, always happy to see the revolving door of cameos Taiwan always grace us with.

🇯🇵Twilight Out of Focus - It's so beautiful. I'm enjoying that we get different couples even if sometimes it feels like we could have more time with them. I like Rei/Shion a lot, but I do miss Mao and Hisashi. 🇹🇭 The Trainee [10/12] - Just to get it out if the way, the Bamhee/Judy storyline was definitely the right call and @lurkingshan was right all along. Also the way the office came together was delightful and it's great to see Pah getting everyone together and once again being the best friend ever. Now. THE OFFICE FLIRTING!!! I was losing my mind giggling like an idiot. I love them. It's pretty obvious at this point that it's mutual and of course Ryan will need to actually be told that, but I still think Jane will wait until the internship is over before confessing or starting anything official. I can't wait to watch all the interns reaction next week. I love it here.

QL - Finished

🇯🇵 Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko! - I'm disappointed in this one. It started off so strong but by the end it lost me. I love Hiroko but I feel like they betrayed the character. And that ending with the kiss in the office was ridiculous. Actually most of the end was weird in the way that it seemed to contradict what came before. I like that they finally got together but it didn't feel as good as it could've.

🇹🇭 Century of Love - Started of great and imo fell apart by the end. I don't think it was consistent all the way through and the mythology was all over the place. Daou did an amazing job though. Also Ju is one of the greatest female characters of the year.

🇯🇵 Cosmetic Playlover - Pretty show. Final thoughts here.

🇹🇭 Knock Knock, Boys! - Probably the biggest surprise of the year for me. It's great. I like the development of both couples. Even if near the end I got a tiny bit annoyed with Peak, I really liked the conclusion of it all. Latte is a great character and the very rare slut unjudged by the narrative.

🇹🇭🇨🇳 Meet You At the Blossom - Look it's great that we got a chinese bl, but this was not it for me. Let's hope this one helps get others made though.

🇹🇭Love Sea - It was fine. I enjoyed Mut but in general I just never connected to this show. And Muk annoyed me to no end. I was so happy to see Aya again and now I just wanna forget that she was ever in this and simply remember her as Yiwa.

🇹🇭 SunsetxVibes - I don't even have words. I don't know if it was my lack of attention or if it never actually made sense but I never really got what the mythology was all about apart from inspiring a truly horrendous looking necklace. I was slogging though this one and I guess the finale was fine.

🇹🇭 This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans - The sides were great, their chemistry was on point. I really wanna see them again. The mains were my favourite thing about Pit Babe but I just didn't like them here.

🇹🇭 The Rebound - I just have to accept that MeenPing will always have bad scripts. They are pretty together but this was a mess.

Dropped

🇹🇭My Love Mix-Up!

Rose Watches OJBL

Pornographer: Spring Life | Playback | Continued Spring Life Finally finished the novelist. Final thoughts.

A LOT of stuff coming this month so if you haven't checked it out, here is the post with all announced upcoming qls for September with a couple of updates that I made today.

As usual my ask box is open. Have a wonderful week💜

[kerubimcrepin]

Crepinlore and the 30-50 random games 90% of fandom has never heard about

This post, like everything else about this blog, is very self-indulgent. I discovered many things during its making, and I simply can't not share. So, let's begin with something you likely have literally never heard about, and go to more popular things from there:

KROSMASTER ARENA 3D

Krosmaster arena online was a video game it seems nobody played, and honestly, I am mentioning it here because I fear that if I don't document it, it will disappear, and it will turn out that it was simply a vision I had, as if in a David Lynch movie. Evaporating, like tears in rain.

I don't think anyone ripped/tried to rip/found a way to rip the models from it — and considering the fact they're pretty... mobile ad-core, not much may have been lost.

Anyway, here's Keke beating the shit out of some guy.

Wakfu Les Gardiens

Joris appears in the quest "The Tree of Life" of this game, which, as far as I'm aware, was updated in time with Wakfu episodes.

Even back then, Ankama knew that 1. Joris is very sus and 2. you cannot let him get close to you during a battle, or it's OVER.

It's all very cute.

There is something interesting I wanna say about this sprite, actually:

An alternate version of it exists, made as a concept for the Dofus MMO. I am assuming it was Juien Druant elaborating on the ways Joris might look in the game. The first two designs are: baby Joris (probably not used because he looks too young to be a 200 year old man...) and Welsh & Shedar 60yo Joris. They were combined to make the iconic Dofus MMO-era 200yo Joris design.

I'm quite sure that this sprite references the Les Gardiens one very heavily.

One More Gate: A Wakfu Legend

The first game in this list that actually has implications for real lore, and yet its plot is literally "it was all a dream that Oropo was having while inside the Eliacube"

For this reason, the events of this game are not entirely reliable — but are probably based in some way on the memories Oropo has.

The main contribution this game has to Crepinlore is a third Crepin, who might be an ancient ancestor of the brothers, whom Oropo met and remembered, some sort of cousin, or he might be based entirely on fiction, and inspired by Kerubim (though ehhh I severely doubt Oropo would care so much about him that he'd hallucinate a guy like him within Eliacube's fake world).

I really want to headcanon that the events of the game are based on something he really experienced, waaay before forming the brotherhood. But that's just my brain disaeses.

Here we can see the store itself.

Krosmaga

I saved the best for the last — Krosmaga.

A video of the casts of Dofus and Wakfu beating the shit out of each other

There are characters besides Atcham, Joris, and Kerubim in this game — Julith, Jahash, Lou... But I choose to concentrate on my favorite three ones. Or I will die fr.

If this Ecaflip gives the impression of constantly having a bad hair day, it's precisely because he doesn't have any! Brother of Kerubim Crépin, Atcham is fiercely jealous of the man he considers his worst enemy. And how could he not be, when not only does he occupy the prestigious position of Ecaflip's favorite son, but also displays his dense, silky fur without any modesty or sensitivity?

Here are his three forms:

I'm.,. unwell about the white one. I have to draw Atcham in a Bontarian getup one of these days.

They're really giving a fight to this Joris costume recolor from a Christmas event in one of the MMOs... (Now I want to see Kerubim in red too!)

On topic of Joris,

Adopted son of Kerubim Crépin, Joris is a curious and mischievous little boy. His favorite pastime is listening to the childhood adventures of his beloved "Papycha". And when he's too busy serving customers in his antique store, he's off playing with his best friend Lilotte! An avid boufbowl player and fan of Khan Karkass, Joris also hopes to become a star of the horned ball. While his destiny may already be mapped out on the stadium pitch, his origins are much less clear… But the good thing about not knowing where you come from is that you can imagine anything! For the little boy, there's no doubt: his parents were great boufbowl players, and it doesn't matter if it's true or not!

Here are his alternative forms:

I LOVE THE WAY HIS ADULT SELF IS DRAWN IN THIS GAME... I'm insane.

And now, last but not least: Kerubim.

Judging by his adventures, Kerubim seems to have had more than 9 lives! From small-time opera rat, to Bontarian police officer, to lawyer: the least we can say is that during his youth, the man Joris calls his Papycha never stopped working! So much so that today, the owner of the antique store Aux Trésors de Kerubim takes advantage of his free time to purr quietly in his armchair, or to tell his adopted son about his past adventures. Past? Well, not quite! Because when the terrible witch Julith arrives to retrieve Jahash's Ivory Dofus, and seems intent on attacking Joris, the old tomcat doesn't hesitate to get in her way. With Kerubim, there's no age limit to being a hero!

Once again, it is confirmed that the store's name s literally "Aux Trésors de Kerubim". Sorry, I'm insane about the name of the show being the name of the store.

And his alternative forms:

He's beautiful.

[thegeminisage]

wow it is star trek update time. last night we watched ds9's "blood oath" and tng's "journey's end," which is one of the strongest quality ricochets we've had yet.

blood oath (ds9):

okay, so the summary said "three klingon legends" but what i didn't realize is that they were all REAL KLINGONS FROM THE ORIGINAL SERIES

i have to pain this picture for you, whoever is reading this. the three klingons in this episode appeared in "errand or mercy" "the trouble with tribbles" and "day of the dove." like, they really came back to reprise their roles almost 30 years later. i'm going to paste a picture but uhtw 60s blackface

now, if you're a tos viewer, you may recognize that fella in the middle as also having played the titular squire of gothos in. "squire of gothos." now, as an episode, i find "squire of gothos" to be pretty mid, but there is one specific scene that really did something for me. to me? it did something TO me. what it did to me was send me off the fucking deep end, i wish i could convey the depths of my madness with human words

(still screenshot grabbed from this infinitely more amazing gifset, give it up for @maulthots for enabling me, no literally please go through her gif tag and reblog her gifs)

anyway, before my good and wonderful friend so kindly made this gifset for me, i did maybe sit in front of my pc and replay the clip upwards of [mumble] times a day because i was very, very unwell. when i watched this scene for the very first time what happened to me in that single instant was the bone-deep realization that james t kirk (tos and aos) ate fascists on tarsus iv, probably, and he'd fucking do it again because nobody tastes better than a fascist! i wrote an entire fanfic about it, sorry for the spoilers.

what does squire of gothos and tarsus iv have to do with ds9? well first of all every star trek episode is secretly about tarsus iv so jot that down

but secondly, i've watched this clip so many times i have to hide my face when this man shows up in trouble with tribbles. now, i'm not so good with faces, but i KNOW THAT VOICE. but i know him AS the squire of gothos. i frequently forget entirely that he also plays a klingon, so i didn't recognize his name. so when i heard the squire of gothos's voice come out of a random klingon's mouth in ds9 my immediate kneejerk reaction was "no i am hearing things that can't be--" BUT IT WAS. i PAUSED the episode so i could look iy up, realized that the guy in the drunk tank was kor or "do you have a tongue you will be taught to use it" fame, and then to my eternal glee, kang shows up next

i remembered reading once that kang came back later and i was like ??? no one comes back later on tos BUT HE DID! I JUST HAD TO WAIT FOR IT!!!!! mystery finally solved...........

once i recognized them this episode was a blast. absolutely loving these 100 year old klingons getting ready for a rip roaring rampage of supercentenarian revenge. i was VERY sad that they died at the end but at least presumably they all died together (didnt see the last one go down but im just assuming he lived long enough to eat the albino's heart and then die)

(the albino is a really funny concept by the way like he's not even albino he's just a white klingon)

other notable things about this episode: firstly, quark hiding behind odo at the beginning. classic. secondly, dax actually being a good fighter ?!?!?! and finally, a true passing of the bechdel test where dax asked kira some alarming and upsetting questions about killing people and kira immediately took her aside and MADE her talk. i love. Women. and also women who murder people. i support womens wrongs.

i even love that the ONE time sisko doesn't back up one of his people it's for a good reason (doesn't want the 27yo reincarnation of his father figure to die on a klingon suicide mission)

10000/10, absolutely stellar ep, zero complaints

journey's end (tng):

oh boy.

just about the coldest bucket of fucking water...

you know, we tried to give this episode the benefit of the doubt actually. we were like "maybe this was progressive in 1994. i mean they ARE saying that moving these guys forcibly would be bad" and i mean like what would we know about what was progressive in 94? we were 5. so we checked and um i don't think anybody liked it in 1994 either

devastating that THIS has to be a wesley episode bc i wanted a better sendoff for my boy. "i had a vision and now i'm leaving starfleet" and yes they said the word vision in the most derogatory way possible. jesus christ

TRAVELER ALIEN RACEFAKING? HE PRETENDED TO BE NATIVE AMERICAN TO GIVE WESLEY THE VISION? and then he was like haha don't you know all that stuff is fake. (picard earlier in this episode "i am sooo respectful of your beliefs")

furthermore when picard was like "oh yeah this guy blames me for the crimes of my colonizer ancestor" girl at no point did he say that. idk if white people should go around accusing other white people of white guilt so i don't say this lightly but jesus christ captain picard can you tone it the fuck down buddy

i came across a gifset today of picard from season 5 (idr the episode) going "starfleet doesn't want officers who blindly follow orders sayign you're just following orders has been used to justify too many tragedies in our history" and then smash cut to this episode where he's like "well i tried but yeah i'm gonna have to move you sowwy :/" like good lord.

anyway it's a bummer these last few eps of tng have been less than great bc ik tng is capable of good episodes and i was hoping this series would go out on a high note. but it's going to end the same way it began with us waiting for something good to happen and throwing popcorn at picard

TONIGHT: ds9's "the maquis part i" and tng's "firstborn." i am Braced. for trouble.

[callipraxia]

sooooo i read the christmas pages and now i'm crying about it. it could've been a whole episode it could've been a WHOLE EPISODE. WIN!!! but also i'm here to say that my assumptions about ford "not being much of a drinker" until bill cipher was ACTUALLY CORRECT??? SOMEHOW??? also this is making me want to write again. like very much so. guh (let's hope this hype continues!)

Feel you on the wanting to write again; most of what I've written so far has admittedly been short extrapolations on tumblr and I am suddenly full of interest again in the notes I made for another essay last year, so maybe it's triggered my nonfiction era or something like that, but I also wrote like half of a fifth chapter for the 'Unexpected Memoirs' recently.

On the subject of Ford and drinking...I know you put the story with alcoholic!Ford on the back-burner, but it occurred to me last night that there's the potential for some interesting discourse around Ford's role in the show's addiction metaphors now. Admittedly, we have to take Ford's statements about himself with a tiny grain of salt, since he's barely a more reliable narrator than Bill when it gets too close to home, and one could read into the fact that he says he usually "tries to sober", which leaves open the option that he has to 'try' because it's an active effort for him and/or that he's the poster boy for nineties narratives about peer pressure making you make unintelligent decisions - not sure if I read it that way or not, but it would definitely be a legitimate reading. If we take Ford's statements at face value, though, and he really doesn't/didn't drink very often pre-Bill, then an interesting pattern that I assume could mean something still develops: Ford might not drink that often, since I can only recall now three canon instances, but when he does, he apparently cannot handle it at all. And it works even though we already had Fiddleford as the "alcoholic just waiting to happen" in the plot, since they have completely different motives. Ford isn't deliberately blacking out portions of his own life to avoid dealing with them like Fiddleford did, but he does, after all, 'use' Bill to get 'round his problems at first. His loneliness, his lack of social facility ("[he's] given me clever comebacks when I'm insulted"), his professional paralysis after a certain point of his research...issue solved! And he's rather repressed as a rule, trying to live up to his picture of himself he's built up in his head, so it makes sense that if his inhibitions are lowered in the slightest, he just goes a bit nuts with it, takes it too far, not least because Ford takes everything too far no matter how it feels, but also because he's, like...having fun for once. At least at first, anyway. Before we cross the fine line between 'taking it too far' and 'taking it too far" and then everyone ends up miserable and unwell.

Which also reminds me: I forgot about one portion of my original Ford Essay when I said last night that nothing in it had been definitely debunked. I proposed there that Ford may have had some vague approximation of a life in the years before Bill and the Blind Eye came along and messed up first him and then the whole town, but nah, apparently Ford was, indeed, lying through his teeth when he made a point of how happy he was at first in Gravity Falls and how he felt like he'd finally found a place where he fit in. Which also makes sense, since he and Stan are both to an extent putting on a show for the other's benefit in that scene in order to save face, but does make me kind of sad :( I wanted him and Manly Dan to be friendly, dangit. Don't know why, but I apparently was more invested in it than I'd realized, I guess.

[stevengrantandmarcspector]

What’s your opinion on Arthur being super ableist towards the boys? I’m curious 👀 have a wonderful day friend!!!

hello anon! this is gonna be a bit long, so i am gonna add a cut!

(disclaimer: i do not have DID, but i do have other mental illnesses and i am neuro-divergent, and i am going to draw from my own personal experiences with ableism.) cw: depression, panic attacks, ableism, the whole nine yards, and moon knight spoilers for episodes two and three

i'm gonna answer this seriously. as a mentally ill person myself, i have experienced ableism, whether it be someone dismissing my mental illness(es) by telling me that i don't "look" like i'm mentally ill, being incredibly invasive in the sense that they don't want to learn more about the illness(es) i struggle with, but want to entertain themselves with the information, calling me psycho when they find out i have mental illness (which has actually happened), telling me to 'just be happy/get better' and the list goes on. a lot of the rest of this ask is gonna relate back to my personal experiences with ableism, i do not speak for anyone else.

the first time that i recall us seeing arthur be ableist is to steven in 'summon the suit' where he actually says to steven

"I'm curious, do you think that Khonshu chose you as his Avatar because your mind would be so easy to break or because it was broken already?"

i had to actually pause the episode because of the surge of emotion i felt. i have had people tell me that i am 'broken' because of my mental illness, i have been told that i am weak. and most of the time, i react like steven, i think, 'i'm not broken. i am a whole person. i might need help, but i am not a vase that needs to be superglued back together. i am a person who is trying my best everyday, and that's all that matters.' but there have been times, far and few but still nonetheless, that i think, 'maybe they're right. maybe i am broken. maybe i'm just pretending that i'm ok. maybe i am weak, and i don't deserve to be happy, and my best isn't enough.' i am not broken because i am mentally ill. i am not defective simply just because i was born with something i cannot control. we don't tell people they are broken because they are blind or deaf or have speech disabilities (or at least we shouldn't). we say, "i see you have a disability. how can i help make things more accessible to/for you?" or at least we should.

on top of that, in ‘the friendly type’, arthur using marc's DID to discredit him in front of the ennead hit a nerve for me. i have trusted people and confided in them about my struggles with mental illness, only from them to throw it back in my face during an argument or when they are mad. i have had people use my own struggles to discredit me and make me look unreliable and 'unstable.' arthur tells the ennead:

“This is a man who literally does not know his own name.” “I have no idea how many personalities he must possess.” “The man is clearly insane.” "...this man is a deeply troubled man."

i have heard most of these things in some way, shape, or form, i.e:

'you're two-faced (while i was in the midst of a period of depression and struggled to be as energetic as i usually was while hanging out with a so called 'friend')'

'you're a fucking psycho! (from a relative when i revealed that i was seeing a therapist)'

'have you ever been admitted to an asylum? (believe it or not, that is a real question i was asked. and the person asking it was a person who had proven themselves to be incredible cruel when it came to other people's struggles and experiences)'

and my personal favorite, 'wow, you really are fucked up (said to me while i was in the middle of a panic attack).'

people have taken advantage of my mental illnesses to dismiss and discredit me, and watching that situation that i've lived through many times play out with marc because of arthur resonated with me. much like marc, i am not in denial about my mental illnesses. i know that i am 'unwell'. i am aware of my mental illness and how it impacts my life. what it shouldn't impact is how people see me. it should not impact my credibility. my mental illness should not impact whether or not someone believes me. i should not be dismissed simply because my brain is wired differently than someone who is neurotypical. i will be completely honest and i've said this before, but ethan is doing an incredible job playing arthur harrow, and yes i may make jokes about arthur in my posts and asks, but do not forget that he is an ableist cult leader. he is manipulative and he views mentally ill and neuro-divergent people as defective and broken as evidenced by his own words. i love the person playing the character, and i love the way the character is being approached and played, but in no way do i like or support the ableist views that arthur harrow has nor do i actually like arthur as a character himself. please realize that my jokes are just that. i dislike arthur as much as marc and steven do, not only because of how his remarks put down people like me simply because of something we have absolutely no control over, but because any decent human being would not and should not stand for the belittlement of disabled people, whether it be mental, physical, or any other capacity.

i apologize for the length of this ask, and in no way do i expect anyone to read this entire thing, but i felt compelled to be as honest and as forthcoming about my feelings as possible. i may have unintentionally repeated myself a few times but i hope this made sense! thank you so much for this thought provoking ask anon! i hope this didn't depress you too much, and i hope you have a lovely day as well!

laters gators!

[cookinguptales]

i don't find s3&4 as funny as s1&2 but i do find it very delightful? like, i'm not laughing non-stop (tho i did lol a lot at the newest episode; i know it wasn't your cup of tea) but i just love watching the characters doin stuff bc they're so entertaining

sorry I forgot to answer this one lmao

It's not that I'm not enjoying s4? I feel sort of the same way I felt watching s3, tbh, like it wasn't exactly the laugh-a-minute pace of the first two seasons, especially s2, but it was leading up to something and I wouldn't know exactly how I felt about things until they all came together.

like I remember feeling like Laszlo felt off for a lot of s3, like more subdued than usual (I even remember people theorizing that Matt Berry was unwell), but then when the Colin reveal came, all that made sense. and I remember feeling like they were making a lot of odd allusions to Colin's 100th birthday without giving us a lot of answers, and that ended up panning out as well.

I have that same sense of vague unease watching this season, tbh. haha. There are a few elements of foreshadowing that make me feel like Something Bad Is Coming (sorry, Freddie, but you are the biggest culprit there) and the themes of fatherhood that keep getting doubled down on over and over and over make me wonder how exactly that's gonna pan out.

Guillermo has felt a bit weird to me sometimes this season, but I'm hoping that all kind of makes sense in the end, too. He's getting crazier by the episode, which is nice and has been allaying my anxieties somewhat. He's really kind of the heart of the show to me, so Guillermo's characterization is the keystone of how I'll feel about the season when all is said and done.

The new characters are... Well, honestly, it's still kind of hard to get a handle on Marwa and Freddie. It's not like they've talked much, and I suspect we haven't really seen the whole of Marwa's character yet for good reason. (...I think she's very smart, okay?) But the Djinn. Oh. I love the Djinn. He's everything. And Baby Colin has been shockingly endearing. I really thought that would end up annoying me, but I am very invested in his houseful of daddies (and one mom who seems to be parenting him along with a gaggle of woodland creatures.)

as for 4.05, it's not that I hated it...? I just cannot handle cringe humor and boy oh boy was that cringe humor lmao. It took me literally three watchthroughs before I could watch it without peeking through my fingers hahaha. But it did have some very funny moments and it gave me a lot of Guillermo & Nadja parallels, which I adored.

I worry that the fact that I haven't said much about 4.05 might make people think that I hated it or I don't have a lot of thoughts about it, but it's actually just that I'm on work deadline and I'm um. Really sick. Haha. I feel like I'll get around to saying a lot eventually but I'm kind of just trying to keep my head above water rn.

[legendofthefireemblem]

Sorry I just see your Polizeiruf stuff and think of you from time to time, like do you speak any German? How did you get into it?? How are you holding up? Can you read the German fics in Google translate or something at least 😟

Ah, thanks for thinking of me ^^ This is definitely a long story so buckle up.

For context, I speak very little German (beginner level/A1). I've always been keen on learning it but I've never had the time to get farther than A1. Anyways, I saw some German mutuals recently lose their mind over the recent Tatort Saarbrücken episode, so my interest was peaked in German crime shows. Then a Slack conversation popped up about Tatort and Polizeiruf 110, where some funny comparisons were made (Is the Doctor Who of Germany a local old people crime show? apparently yes). The convo mainly focused on Tatort when @papercutdoctor brought up the new Polizeiruf pair: Kommissars Sleep Deprived and Gender Frodo.

After this convo I made two goals:

Get the English subs for Tatort Saarbrücken

Write a crack fic about Gender Frodo throwing the ring into Mount Doom

@papercutdoctor mentioned that she was working on subs from that latest episode, so I thought it would be a good idea to ask for them. Maybe I would get around to watching them after Tatort Saarbrücken. I didn't need them for the crack fic, but it would be nice. I didn't expect them to be done quickly, but ofc, she finished the English subs for Hildes Erbe two days after that convo. I, being my usual procrastinator self, still hadn't even asked for the Tatort subs. It actually took me twelve days to get around to watching it, but hoo boy once I did, there was no going back.

I wrote my fist P110 fic within three days of watching because they did in fact, drive me that insane. I am very unwell (in a good way) because they are definitely one of my favourite dynamic types. However, I will admit I am suffering a little. I've been able to discuss with both papercutdoctor and another friend so I'm not entirely alone, but I am jealous of the Discord that I've heard about. I've been reading fics through Google Translate but I'm very much aware of the failings of GT due to learning other languages in school. Absolutely fascinated by "hätte, hätte, Fahrradkette" but reading it in a GTranslated fic just gets you "would have, would have, bicycle chain" lmao. Either way A1 level German is not that conducive to conducting conversations, reading fic or understanding prior episodes about your blorbos. I've kind of settled for making my own content (the reductress post, second fic) and I've received lovely comments on both, so I'm pretty happy about that :'D

I'd love to discuss with everyone, even if we have to meet in the middle a little heh. I'm always open to messages here on Tumblr (or if you want to use Tumblr to ask for my Discord I'm okay with that too lol). And yes, I still haven't watched Tatort but tbh my brain is so filled to the brim with Adam and Vincent that I don't think there's space for Tatort XD (also there's still no subs for the third ep). I've picked up Nicos Weg and Duolingo again, but with work and other things we'll see how much better I can get at German in time for the next ep ^^