#I'm not even that sick I just haaaate being sick

[chronurgy]

Blerg, called out of work because I feel like garbage

[destinyc1020]

It’s just so exhausting hearing the same conversation from so called Tom fans every 3-5 business days. No one is saying that you guys need to love everything he does but it really does feel like some of you harp on every single thing about the man to a point it doesn’t feel like you’re fans. His agents, his friends, his family, just constant nitpicking. And I’ve never been in an fandom where people truly think they have a say or can control a grown ass man like this. And some of the criticism that you guys have are the same regurgitated criticism that film twitter bros have who have a gripe with MCU. It’s never actually productive or constructive. It sounds like you guys are mouth pieces for that sector who decided to hate Tom 2 years ago because they decided to hate Marvel and he went public with Z. It’s annoying. The man is one of the most successful unproblematic young actors of his generation. He keeps to himself and his family and friends and girlfriend but I swear there’s always this hate train going on him. You have to see how people can get tired of it especially when he’s done nothing to warrant the constant ragging.

Exactly Anon! 💯

It just gets old.... and exhausting 😩 And I think it mainly gets old not only because it's every 3-5 business days, but ALSO bcoz it's coming from people who supposedly call themselves fans of Tom. With fans like these, who needs enemies?? 🥴

It would be one thing if these people were open haters of Tom and just admitted it. Then the hate and constant nitpicking would at least make some SENSE (okay, you're not a fan of the dude.... got it).

But when it comes from so-called "fans" who are following a blog of someone who's obviously a FAN of Tom's, it just feels really weird to me....

Liiiiiiike....

Like you said, Tom is unproblematic, he minds his business, he works hard, he's talented, and he doesn't do anything wrong or offensive to anyone!

Atp, fans can't even enjoy any new project news for Tom, because fans of his are ready to complain 24/7. 🙄

The TCR Filming Announcement came out:

"Omg....I wish Tom didn't take this project on. It's just going to make people with DID look like monsters! Hollywood always does this! I wish Tom would drop this project." (Keep in mind, the series had not even started FILMING yet, let alone come out. 😒)

The FA Filming Announcement came out:

"Ugh!! I HAAAATE biopic films! I'm so sick and tired of them!! They're just Oscar bait films anyway..." 🙄

Tom Simply TALKS about a possible SM4 movie in the works later on down the line:

"I sure hope they don't do another trilogy. Tom needs to STOP playing Spiderman and do more serious indie films instead of getting sucked into SUCKY Sony and the MCU. He's being held back by his Spiderman contracts!!"

A simple TWEET comes out that Mark Wahlberg has said that the script for "Uncharted 2" is has been written:

"Nooooooo!!!! 😫 I hated that movie! It wasn't funny, it wasn't charming, and it wasn't even a 'good' action movie! I wish Tom would drop this franchise and do smthg else!" 😭

All it sounds like in Tom's fandom is this all the time.....

After a while, it just gets tiring.... 😓

[uh-velkommen]

Coming out as Trans, I feel like I've unlocked a new minigame section of life, like I now have access to a world I only ever watched from the sidelines. It's funny how I used to wish I could be part of this community. I always related to the stories I'd hear. So often would I stare at my body in the mirror wishing I could've been born differently. I always felt like there was a part of me missing or that something was wrong. All the stereotypical Trans thoughts were there. I just kept telling myself I only hated the patriarchal norms that were being forced upon me. I only hated my body because of how sexualized it always was. I always wanted to hang out with my brothers friends because they were the only people my age who would come over often. But the past few days, I've been thinking about all the silly things I'd think and do that should've been clearer indications as to who I was/am. (I'm probably gonna continue updating this as I think of more stuff)

I used to try on my brothers clothes, put my hair up in caps and try to look like a boy in pictures.

I tried training myself to speak in a deeper and calmer voice because I hated how high and girly my voice sounded. (I loved having a sore throat because it made my voice deeper while being sick actually made it higher)

I overcompensated when it came to dressing and being girly as a way to bond with my mother despite having no real interest in make up and pedicures. (There's a lot of things that I'd do or want that initially made me think I was cis but we're really just ways that I'd beg to be treated decently or show that I was loved)

I never felt like I was a Lesbian but had no other way to explain my attraction to girls.

I struggled a lot between wondering if I was just a tomboy or butch but found myself relating to Gay men more than butch women.

I literally never ever ever took off my bras because I felt super uncomfortable with the girls moving around.

A lot of the time I worried about upsetting my dad because he was so happy to have finally made a daughter after 4 sons.

My uncle used to have a friend who I could never figure out if she was a boy or a girl (I still don't know to this day) and yet I could never get her out of my head/admired her for being so confounding.

I would get reeeeeaaaaally jealous of Trans women for being beautiful women with boy parts. Sometimes I couldn't fathom why they would give up being a boy as if it were a slice of cake they were refusing "while kids in Africa starved."

I often struggled with questioning if I was dysphoric because of my AGAB or if it was insecurity from my brother calling me fat and ugly all my life.

I was always too scared to come out as lesbian because I knew it felt wrong and on top of that, it wasn't my sexuality that was the big secret I had been keeping. It was something much worse.... my gender.

When I was about 14, Disney released a TV show where the main character was a girl named Dylan and I felt a cosmic shift in learning that women could also have boy names.

I always wanted to do rugged things with my brother. I practically lived vicariously through him, letting him teach me about fighting, parkour, video games, "boyish music" like dubstep. Everything that I didn't have access to. Nowadays I think about how I really just wanted to be him.

I even tried hanging out with my male cousins and family friends more than the women because it felt like this other world that I desperately wanted to understand.

I used to HAAAATE when my uncle would joke around by calling me "little boy" because it felt like he was making fun of my internal struggles.

Sometimes when I wore my hair a certain way I would angrily compare myself to a "little Mexican boy" because why couldn't I look like a pretty Hispanic woman?

The torturous anxiety I'd feel about wearing makeup in public (I literally had a panic attack at prom because my hair stylist put eyeliner on me).

I loved hanging out with the neighborhood Gay kid even though he was like 4 years younger than me because he would let me ride his skateboard. (We found solace in each other bc he got bullied alot and we were both queer - whether I knew it or not)

All my life I've just wanted male friends but I could never obtain a friendship without being sexualized or viewed as an ultimate romantic interest. At the same time I only knew how to interact with boys in a flirtatious manner though it was never intentional.

Shopping for clothes was a whole can of worms in itself but I used to feel sooo uncomfortable going down the aisles of the women's section. All I wanted was to see what the boys section had to offer but I also thought it was entirely off limits to women. Sometimes I pretended I was shopping for my brother or I'd encourage him to let me style him so I could have an excuse to buy the clothes I liked/wanted.

Sometimes I'd want to date boys but only in the way that boys would date boys.

When I found out about intersexuality I got super obsessed with it, wishing that I could've been born with both male and female parts. Sometimes I'd think that maybe I had a hormonal problem where I was just producing too much testosterone and that could explain why I felt like a boy.

The visceral reactions to ANY comments about being a good housewife, a clean girl, a future wife, not being able to do a man's job or otherwise putting men first simply because I was born a girl.

God the constant comments about my butt, my mom used to hate that I'd let my pants sag.

The way I'd get SUPER emotionally affected from reading about the AIDs crisis (along with Stonewall) and the way Trans people were treated. I mean before I was even learning about Lesbianism, I was getting enraged about the way it was handled. I'd cry more reading newspaper articles than at actual funerals. I was completely obsessed with learning more and more stories from real trans people.

Overall, I think I tended to carry myself and walk in a more masculine manner. I feel like I was never this dainty feminine being until adulthood when I'd started becoming reclusive and turning further in on myself.

[bunnyb34r]

I got snaaaacks 🍿🥤

Not as expensive as I thought like $10 for a small popcorn and small icee, but that's more than the price of a matinee so yknow 🤷‍♀️

Was very good though sgdgdgd think I'll do the order ahead pick up in theater thing if I get snacks again, but I only ate like half the bag agdgdggd big ass bag for a small and tiiiiiny cup for a small icee

Anyway the movie was really good! I forgot spiderman is marvel though 😬 but I used my movie credit so I didn't pay for it. Still though...

Anyway really liked it, really liked the casting and story. Didn't end the way I thought it would tbh. I'll put my spoilers under the cut. Sat second farthest row back bc getting snacks took so long that the end seats were already taken in the row I picked and I didnt wanna make someone get up especially when the theater was so sparsely filled anyway like it's not REALLY assigned seating (unless you order stuff to your seat)

But! I could see the screen a lot better and I didn't need my ear plugs even with it being a loud action movie so that's a plus! Fun little trip all around :)

Oh! And guess what trailer was playing when I came in. Guess. :)

Imaginary. I fucking hate those trailers 😭 stop making me see Chauncey 😭 hes not even cute!! And Alice sobbing at the end makes me saaaaad having seen the other trailer

AND Tarot looks really fucking good even if I haaaate horror movies. Like the premise that whatever card you picked is responsible for your death (I think that's it, I'll have to look it up) is really cool (couldnt help but think of stardust crusaders 😅 I'm like 👀 what does the Hierophant do? 👀 like we saw the hermit, the high priestess, the hanged man (kinda??) Like what else... let me see without watching the whole movie and being paranoid for a week like horror always makes me 😭) anyway I think it's the first 12 cards and 13, death, was the last one tying their fate I THINK. Anyway idk if I'll see that 😬 but it's funny bc I remember when Ouija came out I tried to convince my friends to skip school with me and go see it but no ones parents would let them call out sick but mine sgdggdgd my mom was like whatever just let me know if your friends take you to the movies (they did not.) Anyway I picked that bc it looked cool and they liked horror, and I think this is the same "franchise" same director

The creepy rhyme of the rules was cool sgdgdgd

Spoilers for Madame Web under the cut ⬇️

So it's a prequel to spiderman! I didn't know that! We got to see Uncle Ben becoming Uncle Ben, and he didn't just have like a short cameo like he was apart of the story which was cool, I liked that.

The "hints" that theres gonna be more involving her and the girls looks cool. Maybe I'll see em when marvel stops being shitty fuckers. (So likely online... for free. (; )

I wish Ezekiel didn't die in the end (he's super super dead lol) bc he was a cool villain! I really liked his character and he had a lot of potential! I wonder if that's gonna play a part in the upcoming series, like if he's somehow alive again (probably not). I might look up free scans of the comics later bc I really like Julia, shes so cute agdgdgd I mean I like them all but I like Julia's spider-sona the best

I liked the overall idea and plot, though the Las Arachas (I think that's how you spell it) scared the fucking shit out of me sgdgdgdggdgd I was like oh that's a cool legend, wonder if it's real. Have to look that up later. OH SHIT

Also glad they didn't kill the mom, I thought they did bc they didnt even like move Cassie closer when her mom was reaching for her??? Hello??? Asshole??

Also shout out to customer who called in the girl's sighting, even though it led Ezekiel to them, way to not be a bystander 🤙

Also nitpicky thing but I wish Cassie had given the girls a count when she taught them CPR, I remember we needed to count (1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4... or something) over and over when we learned it, or tell them to use the beat of Staying Alive (could've easily gotten the rights... then make a joke ab them not knowing that song bc haha Cassie old)

Mainly just wish they didnt kill him, like that would have been such a good "oh I'll be back. Just you wait" type villian! I mean I get it, he would stop at nothing to kill em but like come ooon

Anyway highly recommend seeing this... online ;] ;) bc marvel is shit

[shslpunkartist]

HIHIHI!! I'M BACK FROM GOING THROUGH YOUR BLOG LOOKING FOR THOSE BEE BLOO BLEH WHATEVER HCS WITH THE PUNK TRIO!

HOPE YOU DON'T MIND SOME COPYING AND PASTING HERE. DOING THIS CUZ JUST WOKE UP A WHILE AGO AND MY MIND SUCKS AT RETAINING INFO WHILE STILL WAKING UP. AGAIN HOPE THIS IS OKAY! Oh and btw these HCs ARE the Punk trio ones you talked about before, it's just that this was before you decide to give them nicknames lol.

Both of them have “naughty” piercings. Amelia has her nips pierced, and Pico has dicc piercings.

If they were wear other outfits than their standard.. Amelia would wear soft and form fitting outfits, but nothing tight (unless it involves kneesocks) Keith will wear anything bigger than him, but again, no pants of any kind Pico will wear clothes that look tight, but are still comfy enough for him to wear

Pico loves trying out whatever the person wants to try out/is into. Even if he’s never thought of it before, he’ll try anything out (as long as it’s nothing fecal or nasty like that). An example of this is getting stepped on and electrical stimulation (also here's a special mention with one of your tags on this one which I think might help provide a bit more context: #how I look up the electric thing and they off me a kit for $60)

Amelia cries the most with children movies, mainly cuz the main focus will usually be about family/bonds between friends, and that’s what gets her acting up. She loves them though

Keith loves butt rubs. Doesn’t even have to be in a sexual manner. He’ll lay on the bed and accept butt rubs while watching tv or playing on his phone. He gets grumpy when the person stops too early though. Amelia loves head massages. I’m talking deep past the hair to rub the scalp or lower head. Get the massage going, and she’s falling asleep in your hands within the next 5 minutes Pico likes to do the rubbing instead. He’ll accept rubs, sure, but he’s very touchy. He’ll rub anything soft for an hour straight. Butt, boobs, belly, thighs, hair, whatever. (also here's a special extra on Punk Keith/Oreo involving an anon's commentary and your response to it: Anon: Punk Keith reminds me of my cat a bit. Little guy also loves butt rubs and would often get grumpy if we were to stop too early. He always looks so adorably offended whenever that happens and it took all of our willpower to not laugh at him whenever he gets grumpy. Your response: I was just thinking that! Cats (and I think dogs too?) love butt pats Keith will start at the person who stopped rubbing him, snatch their hand, and it on his butt until they continue. You don't stop until he says so.)

Keith likes turn-based games the most. He likes using strategy to take down the opponent. He gets upset when the enemy lands a crit/lucky shot on him though, and he’ll complain that his luck is utter garbage

Keith doesn’t wear pants nor shorts. Only underwear under his big hoodies/shirts. He claims it’s more comfy

Pico likes running outside while it’s the dead of night. Not even as a jog - no, a full on RUN. Like he’s being chased, or extremely late to somewhere. He does it because he loves letting out all that energy, out of breath in the end, brisk air, nobody around to wonder what the hell is wrong with him. It’s an amazing feeling

Amelia haaaates spicy food. She’ll literally cut thru her food to eat the nonspicy stuff, or not eat at all. Even if it’s a speck of wasabi, or a dash of hot sauce, she hates it Pico will get himself sick sometimes with food. It’s because he’ll want to taste the flavor of something, but he’s already full but he doesn’t care. He’ll have ice cream despite having a huge dinner because he wants something sweet. Now he’s got a stomachache

All of them are genderfluid and bisexual. The one who is most picky is Amelia, by like.. 2%. You need to be a good cuddle buddy.

(Also here's another special extra with another anon, this time with Cherri and Pachinko. Anon: I have to ask, what is it like for Punk Amelia and Punk Pico to have both parts? I imagine, like most things, having both parts has its own pros and cons there. :0 Your response: I mean, obviously I can’t speak from experience, but it’s probably a regular thing to them Sadly, cuz I’m super dumm and thinking dirty stuff, a pro is that they can handle more stuff (and are probably more sensitive) in bed. Con is they’re probably double wet if they’re excited, so like.. their underwear gets soaked, and they got a friggin boner, so like.. double embarrassment)

And lastly here's one that involves Oreo and Keith due to an anon going Beep! instead of Bee!

I’m gonna make this a double Keith fact then, and say that Punk Keith likes to go small and lay in Keith’s hood. Carries him around like a high backpack. If Keith is gonna sit/lay down, Punk Keith will crawl out and slip into Keith’s shirt instead

And there you go! This was all I could find! There might be more but I'll look again later. Right now me very hungry and would very much like to eat so bye for now~!

Holy shit

You and the others that collect info like this are insane ajsldlak

[dontcallmecarrie]

As a non-US fan, I think MCU's portrayal of the US is terrifying if you take it seriously. The superhumans are all American or US-affiliated, and apparently, the US was secretly controlling the world for decades via a high-tech/superhuman Nazi cel. Only Wakanda could stand up to them. Lots of non-US people must haaaate America in MCU So in TWIFFON, if I'm understanding it right, Tony is selling himself internationally as more inclusive and checking his privilege?

Disclaimer: I’m a very broke college student who’s main knowledge of international politics stems from a military history class I took years ago, so odds are it’s very much not nuanced. [Well, that, and being second-generation.] So, again, I’ll admit I’ve probably got my biases going on, which aren’t helped at all by the current very stressful sociopolitical climate. 

Secondary disclaimer: TWiFFON was meant to be nothing more than self-indugent crack, not sure where the hell the rest of this angst and legal drama came in, and apologies if I got anything wrong there that couldn’t be explained/hand-waved away via ‘this is MCU, we’ve got magic and aliens and mind-control and secret Nazis’. This was just me messing around with what I had at hand, and tried to take things to their most logical conclusions. I’m just derping around, probably reading too far into things that were probably not meant to be taken beyond face/shock value. 

Okay, now that that’s out of the way: yes, quite a few aspects of what the MCU’s implying puts me on edge. I mean, I’ve seen it since it started, back in 2008 with the first movie, and I loved quite a bit of it—but the further it went along, I keep getting put off by the turn it’s taken, in more ways than one.

The escalation in terms of villains, I kinda get: this is comic book science, okay, got it, I can work with that. However, the escalation in other ways, and the anti-Tony turn it took, during Phase 2? Not so much. Ditto as to the borderline imperialistic tone it took, too: Civil War’s just the straw that broke the camel’s back, in some ways [the fandom’s reaction is what inspired me to even write this fic], but even in The Winter Soldier I was just kinda mentally screaming when the HYDRA reveal happened. 

However, I will say that some parts of it, I could kinda see it as terrifyingly plausible, in some ways, especially with factoring in said comic book science: SHIELD, especially later on, was very heavily-coded to be basically another CIA, which…hasn’t been nice, to some countries in the past. [I guess that’s my personal bias, though: I’m a Latina, so I’m always especially low-key bitter hearing people talk crap about ‘those Mexicans’ and keeping my mouth shut while remembering that Chile’s and Venezuela’s and Guatemala’s infrastructure in the ‘70s was okay before—anyway. Sorry for the random tangent.] So, all things considered, and allowing for comic book extravagance, SHIELD’s past influence sounds plausible. I don’t like it, but it sounds plausible. 

That doesn’t excuse what’s going on in the modern day, however, and it’s why I’ve tried to deal with the fallout of the HYDRA reveal the best I could. The MCU just sort of…dropped it, after the fact, but in TWiFFON the world now has complete, unredacted proof of the shit SHIELD/HYDRA pulled, so there’s consequences. [I’ve mentioned this before in another meta post, too. Plus nobody’s happy about HYDRA having existed. No one.] 

So, yes, quite a bit of the world’s pissed off right now. 

They now have proof of what went down, but have to be careful as to how to deal with this because yes, the US has quite a bit of power and not very many countries can really compete. I mean, Wakanda’s one, but I can’t help but think that Russia’d be another, since I’m assuming the MCU parallels our world in some ways, especially when it comes to power dynamics. […no comment about rl nope this is stress relief dammit]. Plus, they’ve got Tony Stark, who for decades was one of the biggest names in the arms industry. You’re probably sick of hearing this, but I really can’t understate it, because the threat he presents was huge. [Jericho missile, anyone?] 

So, yes, while the US flipped out when Tony came back from Afghanistan and did what he did, the rest of the world breathed a sigh of relief. 

Because after Afghanistan, that is definitely how the rest of the world’s seeing it: Tony’s focusing on the bigger picture, literally trying to make the world a better place, and trying to be a better man. He’s checking his privilege, in a way, and pushing for accountability and privatizing world peace and everything else is just proof that he’s on the right track.

(Kinda spoilery, but that’s also going to be a major component behind the power dynamics behind the Civil War arc; because here, Johannesburg didn’t get swept under the rug, and Lagos onward is going to result in a clusterfuck and a half if all goes according to plan.)

[yaoi-zaoi]

I hate being in pain I hate being sick I hate being stuck in bed I'm literally so upset. I don't feel well enough to do things that make laying in bed more tolerable either... like, I've tried playing games but they just give me motion sickness, and I don't have the focus to reply to rps and I can't even sleep because I hurt too much/feel too sick I haaaate this