#I'm just burnt out and exhausted

[pilots-and-protons]

Quick blanket-statement for anyone who is thinking of sending me messages:

I am fully aware and conscious that there are problems with every Star Trek.

I understand the ongoing issues with racism, sexism, and a number of outdated ideologies. TOS-VOY (which are what I watch, other than the movies) are all products of their time and incredibly dated in many ways, and it’s wonderful that people want to point out the flaws and issues and discuss the varying ways that Star Trek could have and should have done better even for its time.

But let me make this clear: Star Trek (TOS, TNG, DS9, and VOY) are my comfort shows. I am autistic and they’ve been my special interest for a long time now, and I cannot stress enough what that means to me. I watch them to be happy and to find a sanctuary away from the constant stressors of every day life, especially since I struggle with anxiety and depression.

I don’t want to talk about everything wrong with them. I just want to focus on the best aspects of Star Trek - the stories, the characters, the relationships. I want to talk about fascinating science-fiction concepts and the beautiful way Star Trek tried to bring important social issues to the table. I want to talk about found families who love each other, including all the ways they are strange and unique and different.

I know that there are problems and I am not ignoring them entirely - I just need a space to focus on the good things.

So please for the love of god, I don’t need people to question whether or not I’m aware of the racism or the sexism, I don’t need people coming after me because they don’t think I should enjoy specific characters, and I don’t need to be hounded about every little issue that ever existed because a bunch of (mostly) Cisgendered White Men were writing stories before we even reached the 21st century.

[daily-pilby]

Pilby. Deserve. A. Kiss

day 30

mwah

[vaguely-concerned]

more for the garashir fairytale grab bag AU I am never going to actually write: garak knows exactly what would break his curse from the start, he just never tells anyone for the longest time b/c he's so sure it could never happen

(it's asking forgiveness, of course. he thinks it's tain's forgiveness he needs, and tain is fucking dead and knew he would be by the time garak woke up so it seems the perfect unbreakable parting fuck-you revenge curse. and garak would expect nothing less from his father than that, so he's resigned to dwindling away painfully. enter julian bashir and his fierce force-of-nature compassion (and also secret illicit immense magical powers) with a steel chair!!! to go 'OH YEAH??? we'll see about that', as you might expect. oh. OH necromancer-ish julian calling tain's ghost up to ask him about what the hell he did and how to undo it, ala his gambit to go see him the wire? and the knowledge he gains from that is what confirms garak's suspicions as to what is Up with this handsome young healer mage because it could be known only by those long dead. cue east of the sun west of the moon part of the narrative once julian understands his game is up and runs away??

anyway getting some true love's kissing in by the end of it all is just a nice bonus it's not needed like strictly magically for either of their situations lol)

[uncanny-tranny]

See, I do dream of labour, but what I dream about is labour that isn't soul-sucking, redundant, or bullshit jobs made to make the world a worse place.

[squid--inc]

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[dani-the-goblin]

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[strhwaberries]

every day i come here after work and other people than me have giffed hwa and i feel stupid and useless :((

[sisterdivinium]

I wrote a little something for the halfamoon Dreamwidth community in the spirit of celebrating female characters.

With a prompt such as Black/ White/ Shades of grey, of course my mind could go no other place than, well, Suzanne, Jillian and doctor superion :)

[stochastiz]

the education coordinator is getting so good at writing emails that make me want to immediately quit

they've had so much practice now, but this was the first time i had to leave my classroom crying while trying to read it aloud to my co-teacher

i cannot walk out. i care about my kids and co-teacher way too much. and i am not cognitively/emotionally capable of finding another job

but i cannot keep putting up with this level of disrespect

[practically-an-x-man]

it's one of those days where i'm really craving interaction and validation i guess :/

[sleep-nurse]

sometimes i wonder why i've always felt the constant need to post art everyday and then i remember it's because i've always had this fear of being forgotten. of returning back to nobody, just like how i used to be before i made my tumblr main account. taking a 1 day break is painful (despite the fact that it helps a lot when i do it) because i feel like everybody will instantly forget about me, so i view myself as nothing more but someone who is here to produce content

[wewontbesleeping]

ughhhh i just feel like absolute shit today.

[lucianinsanity]

Giving up on the year, yep

[cosmic-ships]

New f/o dropped.

Ship name: Hymn of our heartbeats

Single tag: Digital Diva

Lore and si coming soon although I may base first interaction from the song Blackjack. :0

[moe-broey]

I don't really consider this a spoiler/might not even take this route anyway, but. Sharena Engage active wear color palette. Choose.

Also factoring in my notes from when I flipped through all the chara's outfits to find The Pattern

Okay NOW you can Choose

Another thing you can consider is having the shoes be all one color/Not having the second color stripe accent. I noticed some characters wouldn't have that as part of their palettes! Seemed arbitrary which ones would and which ones wouldn't!

[esleep]

i am so tired of being out of shape but i have no idea how to fix this. someone should invent exercise that doesn't make me want to shoot myself in the head.