#I'm hoping this'll be the last one of these I ever make lmao

[alllgator-blood]

Disappeared for a bit but I'm still here, I just got overwhelmed and learned I should probably take this blog less seriously

I'm using the new year as an excuse to come back on here and try to not ditch my account for another 6 months-- I'm NOT good at posting stuff online to a crowd of more than like 5-20 followers, I originally wrote a huge long-winded draft describing all of my thoughts in great detail. It was too long. I guess all I want people to know is I'm somebody who's spent years making art that I knew nobody will ever see, so it's incredible and overwhelming to have thousands of eyes on my art all of a sudden? It's both the coolest thing and the scariest thing ever to me simultaneously, I'm by no means a Popular Artist but I went from virtually no interaction for years to suddenly tens of thousands of cumulative notes on my posts so it's huge for me. And I haven't adjusted super well to it, entirely due to my own shitty brain chemistry.

I don't want anyone to feel like I'm ignoring their messages or like I don't appreciate the fact they go out of their way to give me their thoughts/send me ideas, genuinely this is the most support I've *ever* had for my art and it's so so fucking cool. It's led me to create so much more than I thought possible! I used to run ask blogs for a couple very niche video game fandoms, and I prided myself on being able to draw full comics for EVERY ask I got, answer EVERY message and went into this blog assuming I could still do that. Um....safe to say I cannot....I have like 200+ asks and I think I drafted a dozen or more that I answered but felt my art was too low effort. I felt so bad I couldn't put maximum effort into everything, and I've been beating myself up over it to a point where *no* asks are getting answered, and this blog went from a really fun thing I actually woke up early just to check on, to something I wanted to avoid like the plague for the past week out of guilt. DUE TO NOBODY'S FAULT BUT MY OWN, everyone has been so chill when I've had to take breaks so idk why I feel the need to hold myself hostage.

So I'm gonna try and take it easier, give myself a break when my personal life goes horribly, close my ask box periodically if I feel overwhelmed, maybe hop on here like once or twice a day rather than compulsively refreshing every 5 minutes...I hope that makes things better. I realize I should probably just *do* that without announcing it, but I have no self discipline and unless I announce I'm gonna do something, it's not gonna fuckin happen lmao.

Anyway if you read this far, here's the first panel of a sequel comic I made to the christmas one I posted last time I was on here, this one is *very* representative of my mindset the last week and will hopefully not reflect how I feel now that I survived december. I know for a fact there's mentions I haven't gotten to check yet so I'm gonna do that after laying down for a bit, here's to a chill 2025 where my social anxiety doesn't eat me alive

[mylahrins]

forget-me-nots, 05.

hi y/n,

i've been telling my mom about our letters, she seems to look forward to your responses as much as i do! today she went grocery shopping and there happened to be a really big sale on flower seeds. i'm not actually sure what kinds of flowers she bought, but she bought a lot for you. she wants to meet you someday! my little brother does too. if there's ever a time you can or want to, please come over for dinner! the seed packets should be in the envelope. i hope you're able to make some use of them!

speaking of seeds, i had some poppyseed muffins for breakfast this morning. i remember you mentioning liking muffins. my little brother has really been into baking (not so much cooking). he made a lot so ill bring you a small basket on monday, hopefully you'll be able to share with some of the gardening club members. if you'd like, i can bring you whatever my brother ends up baking, he always makes big bunches.

i've also been meaning to tell you that my coach wants to talk to you. he's that one sketchy looking guy that works at the convenience store near our school (don't tell him i said that). he's been asking about the flowers you arranged for kiyoko and wants to order some as well. if you can, please come by during practice when you're not busy!

take care, sugawara

about the flowers!

➤ poppies: i wasn't originally gonna do one of these, but i mentioned poppyseeds so i thought that i might as well! poppies overall have a lot of war symbolism. though they also hold meaning to things like death and sleep and peace. red, white, and black poppies especially tend to represent the fallen soldiers from past war efforts, most notably ww1. i found that purple poppies actually represent the fallen and hurt animals from war (which was really sad to learn!!). BUT!!! poppies aren't all about death and war. colors like pink can symbolize platonic love and sympathy while orange symbolizes good health and regeneration!

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a/n: hi guys sorry it took so long to update!!! im on vacation and away from home rn so the format might be a little weird. ill fix it once it get back!! also im pretty sure this is the first chapter update since i edited the "theme" of my fic.. what do you guys think??? is it cute? hehe ANYWAYS thanks for patiently waiting, i think this'll be the last chapter i write until i get back home though... family vacations and writing fanfiction doesn't really mix well LMAO but no promises! if i get bored maybe ill write the next chapter too!! ALSO IM SO SORRY IF YOU WEREN'T TAGGED IN PAST CHAPTERS!!! i just learned how to fix my tag system 😭😭 so im making sure to tag everyone correctly now </333

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[ibuki-loves-you]

Ajdjdjde if this ends up being a miniature story I-

This'll answer to Taiyo's relationship with spiders, and who said the thingy.

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"When I grow up, I KNOW you'll be my queen! Alright Spider!? You're making my declaration of love not romantic anymore..." Taiyo whined, crossing him arms with a huff. He quickly swiveled around, ready to walk away. Taiyo wouldn't though, but if he did he'd go quite slow...

"T-Taiyoo! Taiyo wait!! I'm sooorrryy..." The girl standing next to him, Yamanashi Kai, or Spider, barreled straight into him.

At first glance, you'd never guess she'd practically mastered Taekgyeon and Wushu already. Yamanashi was quite small; frail-looking. Yet, that allowed her to easily trick her opponents into letting their guard down. She'd never let her small defect(Yamanashi actually only has 8 fingers! That and some other things are why Taiyo calls her Spider.) lead her life.

Taiyo, on the other hand, didn't quite bother with self defense. He, one, found it useless(no one would EVER hurt their prince!!), and two, would never accomplish anything with it.

The two were an unexpected duo, but an inseparable one at that. Taiyo was warm-hearted, naive, and generally a very nice person(if you counted out his many pranks). Yamanashi was quite a cold, sarcastic, rude person. At least she respected her elders?

"Taiyo... You believe in me, right? Because that belief in me is needed right now. I need you to stay right here, and don't move for quite a while." Yamanashi whispered, giving Taiyo's hand a small squeeze, then dashing off.

Taiyo waited. Waited some more. He waited what felt like an eternity, until his gut feeling got too strong for him to handle.

So, being the impulsive kid he was, Taiyo dashed in the direction he last saw "Spider" go.

"Sp-Spider? Hello?..." Taiyo glanced around frantically, his eyes eventually landing on a half-dead body. Soaked in blood, no one else but Taiyo would recognize the person.

"...Spider? Spider? Spider respond to me!!" He sobbed, dashing towards Yamanashi with unbelievable speed.

Taiyo clutched onto her martial arts uniform, sniffling quite loudly. "Y-You- you aren't allowed to die, alright!? I-I won't let my future queen die!! We- we have to- to- rule together! S-So get it together stupid-head!! Cmon, respond to me!" Taiyo squinted, hoping to see even the slightest movement. He knew she was still alive, her heart was beating... Even though it was slower than it should be.

All Taiyo got from the one person who understood him, and loved him nearly as much as he loved them, was a weak "Shhh... You've done great, you survived. Yay! I'm going to be gone soon, so you need to accept there's no saving me...", as she smiled ever so slightly and lifted her arm up to drape it over his back.

She let him cry. Didn't attempt to stop it at all. Yamanashi knew of what she did, sacrifice herself. A "stupid-head thing to do", if you asked Taiyo. Yamanashi knew how Taiyo would respond, how he wouldn't wait like she told him to, how he'd run after her. She understood the reasoning behind his breakdown. She was the only person he really loved, and still did...even after her eyesight blurred, darkened, her heart slowed more. The last thing she heard was "Yama-Yamanashi Kai!! Y-You better not die on me just yet-", and the last thing she said was "Enjoy life for me, Prince Hinode...Your princess will watch over you forever."

And all went blank.

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WoO, I think we can all agree that s u c k e d.

Ye 👌 🕺✨

So here's young Taiyo and Yamanashi trying to remember how to ball dance lmao-

SUCKED!? HOLY SHIT THAT WAS AWESOME (IN AN ANGSTY WAY) POOR TAIYO I JUST- SOBS - MOD IBUKI

[benjaycaptain]

i'm so excited for you to get your gift. i think you'll really like it, but i don't want to say too much to spoil the surprise lmao

d2 did feel a bit like they erased d1 lonnie, instead of building on her character and showing she had layers. i love lonnie too and have been wanting to include her in more of my fics. she shows up very rarely in descendants fanfics in general.

as long as you're enjoying it, that's what matters! i definitely have some fics that are entirely self-indulgent. if someone else enjoys them, great, but it's mostly just me writing what i felt like writing lmao

four days off is still really good! oh, that does sound like a nice break away from home! hopefully you'll get to do some fun things.

yeah, the silence had stretched on too long. i was thinking it would be cancelled too, but i would've been thrilled if they proved me wrong. at least it won't be one of those shows that goes way off track in later seasons. we'll know we got that perfect first season, even if it was only 9 episodes. maybe they will release more books for it too. i would definitely love to read about a continuation of the story!

ooh christmas cards sound fun. i haven't made any of those in years. i have seen neither of those episodes, but i am curious about the justice league one. would it make sense out of context or better to watch the whole show to understand it?

also alsooooo did you see that booboo stewart and mitchell hope are at the back to the musical convention in france? there's a lot of cute pics of them together on social media! there's one where mitchell jumps into booboo's arms and it has such good benjay vibes!! i wish i could send it to you, but it won't let me send a pic on an anon ask.

have you ever been to any descendants fan events or had any viewing parties with your friends?

- gifter anon

LET ME FOCUS ON THE MOST IMPORTANT FIRST: DCAU JUSTICE LEAGUE!!! my eyes zeroed in on that and nothing else lmaoooo but you definitely don't have to watch the whole show for that one episode, but also! i will definitely push for watching the whole show because it is amazing!! the live action movies ain't got nothing on that show

[tho i will say it builds on the other dcau shows like batman tas and superman tas and batman beyond, even static shock, but you don't have to watch those either. you'd get a lot of lore jokes/callbacks and easter eggs more easily, but it isn't actually necessary. however, justice league unlimited episode "epilogue" draws heavily on the batman mythos of both batman tas and batman beyond, as it was intended as the finale to the whole dang dcau before unlimited was renewed for one more season]

phew okay i need to. get out of dcau mentality lmao sorry, but if given allowance i will Not shut up about that show okay i love it so much it literally saved my life and so much more it's the best and every time there's a fucking terrible live action batman movie coughNOLANcough i just wish people could cleanse themselves with the dcau

okay i said i would stop but i didn't lmao let me reread the ask to focus better

d'aww how sweet! while i don't mind spoilers at all, i also like surprises so this'll be fun xD

and don't worry, literally everything i write is self-indulgent. the gift fics less so, but there is definite self-indulgence when writing them lmao i've been writing off and on since i've last updated that monster [2017 hot got damn] and every bit of that was tailored specifically for me xD

i have not seen that about them, nor did i even know that that convention was a thing lmao i don't really keep up with celebs tho i might follow some on insta [whenever i remember to check it whoops]. i'm sure it's adorkable, but i'm kinda not one of those people who take what actors do when not on set as what their characters do, you know?

sometimes i wish i was, cause people who be reaching seem to be having fun lmaooo

and no, i actually try to stay away from fandoms if i can help it. especially this fandom. i don't want anyone perceiving me and it was just the worst luck that had my trash fic gaining the traction it did orz but! i did marathon the movies with my roomie/housemate, but that was more of "i will be watching this thing" while she was in the same room and didn't bother leaving. it was fun to see her reactions because it's always fun to see someone's reactions to dcoms xD we both agree zombies is better tho zombies is perfection