#I'm home for the weekend cause I have a concert on Sunday.

[despite-everything]

so i've got this friend and he's super cool and very interesting, but we aren't always great at communicating with one another, but we're like... on the same page about it. our conversations can get really awkward, but we still seek each other out and i'd been feeling a bit bad that i haven't been able to hang the last 2 times he's invited me to do something (in both cases, i was technically free, but he's a fucking party animal and much more of a laid back stoner type, so i just needed to go home and chill rather than go out with him), but i'd texted him last week when i had to turn him down and said i could do something this weekend....

anyway i saw him last night at the station and we were chatting and he was like 'yo theres this waylong jennings tribute tomorrow you down?' but i have my radio show, so i said i couldn't but that i could do saturday/or sunday and the man lit up!! he said his dad has a set of concert tickets so some kinda chill funk group that he couldn't go to, so my friend and i are going to go together now. and like... normally, i just go home after a show, but he was like oh and we can go to [my favorite club... that i havent been to in more than a year cause i literally dont go out lol] afterward and you know what. we're gonna do it. i'm really happy cause like... i know i'll be exhausted on sunday and everything, but i'm still really happy he wants to hang.

we saw each other last night cause he hosts his show during my staff meetings in the station, and then afterward we (finally!!!!) returned to the AM airwaves, so our other friend sacrificed her usual show to let us staff and core volunteers play some of our favorites on air to celebrate. my friend and i had our chat then, and he also suggested we DJ a disco show together entirely on vinyl, and i'm so stoked. his show is super eclectic, and while i play some disco, i mostly do soul and r&b on mine, so there's a bunch of disco i love that i don't really play. idk man... i'm just really happy. it's nice to know he likes me.

[smollobsession]

my slow improvement in doing things continues.

the biggest step so far continues to be that i'm sleeping normal amounts of hours. i average on 8h a night and that's perfect. some days i go up to 10, some days i go to sleep late and still only get 6, but it's not 4 any more so wow yay woo.

i'm making simple lunches for work, but they are healthy and i AM making them :D

i realized that while it's true that i rarely crave sweets now, i still have a strong habit of thinking i need them, buying them, and if they are in front of me i will eat compulsively. but once i put them in the cupboard i forget they exist and i'm fine. (i did quite enjoy the peruvian sweets :D )

I met up with E a few times this week and she gave me a bunch of things. Most notably, a shirt! it fits me and the colors are wild :D i'm not sure what i'd wear down with it, but my wardrobe needs a bit of a refresher ... some time when i get paid and have money to burn i guess grr.

She gave me this herbal supplement that people seem to love by AG but I read once (and double checked now) and it's really hard to make sure that all the 6789098765 ingredients in the supplement don't mess with the ssri. so i think i'll give it back. i'm also gonna ask her to check if her sleeping problems didn't return once she started taking it.

she made banana bread with spelt flour and gave it to me today, it is DELICIOUS!

and finally, she gave me a bunch of perfume testers, one of them was for givenchy's l'interdit and i LOVE it so much i'm actually planning to buy it. again, money, what is it. C might be able to get it for me cheaper, and she also has a small version of it at home that she'll get me! :D having friends is nice.

i kinda want to find a dnd group or go watch hockey again... but all that would do better to wait for my next job, with a hope in more normal work hours.

I did treat myself by NOT buying the skz tour dvd because I was like... I literally don't have a dvd player what is the endgame here. i would much prefer for them to announce a tour here and spend money on multiple concerts.

work is causing a bit of anxiety as always. i had to have some discussions about not being racist in class pls, some insecurities about the upcoming exam etc. also i've already started working on the evaluations because it's so repetitive and boring for some students. what's the point.

i'm lowkey getting inspired to write again, so that lxc/jc fic might get another chapter soon :D it's been... 3 years now? :D if only i didn't keep changing previous chapters so i could at least post is as wip. but no, it only lives in my head :P

i am NOT keeping up with the raids needed to finish that timed challenge in pogo, i should probably do some stupid 1* raids even if i hate them, just to up the numbers. but i really want to do more shadow raids at the weekend. last sunday i went to the center but damn for once it was empty.

yesterday channie came online again and of course i was working but i snuck in 10 min of him during the break. it was so good to see him. and just as i was on the break, lino came to bbl :D <3 my minchan always :)

my korean is going well but i really really need to get a teacher again. i'm eating through duo too quickly :D

[bunnybosss]

I'm gonna miss christmas..

I had such a good month :3

The first week of december, the 5'th I think, I went to a friends house. She lives on a farm with ducks and chickens and cats. (I got to hold a fat chicken mama) She had the whole house to herself that weekend so she invited a lot of people, 20+ I think, and made a big christmas dinner with pork roasts.

There was many friendly faces and a few new. We sat up playing warewolf, deerlordi, dark overlord and a bunch of other games all night. We watched httyd, shreck and madagascar christmas specials. My allergies were trying to kill me, but there was no stopping me. It was just too damn cozy so I stayed all weekend. We also watched the nightmare before christmas and a fuckload of cookies.

There were regular chocholate chip. Vanilla rings, jew cookies, and other christmas cookies. We had a lot of fun makeing them together and chased eachother around with towels while the host was talking with a friend from newsealand on skype. Another one of my bros had brought along his el-guitar and a stereo speaker thingy to plug it into. He is pretty fucking talented and gave a little concert while we were dying on food coma on the couch.

The house was so nice too. You could tell it was old. And they went all in with decorations. Honestly it’s the first time in years I really felt like it was really christmas. You know that real cozy and nice christmas spirit/mood?

She had also bought little presents for everyone (I got two wahaha) so I bought her a nice box of chocolate as a surprise. Cause she told people she didn't​’t want anything in return.. but I mean.. it would feel weird not to give anything .-.

When I got home I started on vikings and am really digging it. It made the got need go away a bit xD And the way they portrayed Ivar? he a scarry bitch.. well done A+.

Around the 15'th i hosted my yearly dinner thing. I got really sad cause a lot of people cancelled 2 hours before. And it felt like a waste of money too. So I felt the sadness creeping up and thoughts of my family started to come up. But then I pulled myself together and made a few calls. We ended up filling all seats at the table (7) and I was happy.

It was a bit hard financially but I had so much fun with them. We laughed till we cried and I made everyone a kick-ass christmas dinner with ducks and everything. We sat up all night playing til 5 am. Then they slept on my sofa a few hours untill one of the boys got up in a panic and had to be in a church in cph at 10am cause he promised his parents to help with something.

After they left the 16'th I slept all day, and then at night i left for Roskilde. A friend, Helena, had invited us over for burgers and that “m.o.t.h.e.r.” game with the robot quizz game on the tv. I lost my credit card, and went into a panic cause like.. food i need. It was nowhere outside so i called the bank to close it, thinking i dropped it on the but cause i did last time.

I was planning to take the train to Havdrup around midnight, cause it takes 3 hours to get there. I had promised to join some friends i went to school with once. Cause the 17'th at 11:20 I was upposed to be there so Patrick could pick me for our dnd session with simon and them dnd people. But the next train was not leaving Roskilde untill 5am. So I played sivilisation with Rune all night, concurring the world and stuff, till the sun came up.

It was snowing outside and it was so pretty. I called patrick, saying sorry for not keeping my promise, and he was so sweet driving all the was to Roskilde to pick me up. I got a two hour nap, and felt a bit gross cause I didn't​ shower since friday.

So it was sunday, i felt like dying, and we ended up playing from 12 to 19. We had fun at first but then I kinda went into zombie mode.

I was a bit tired and confused, so I ended up missing the train home :c But Patrick the personal taxi service came to the rescue and drove me home. He complains a bit, but he always helps. So i bought him a christmas present as a surprise.

Hmm.. around christmas things got a bit sad. My uncle didn't​ invite me for christmas. He also got married this year I had no idea.. but my grandparents invited me over the 25'th. But then my mother showed up and everything was mayhem. Granddad called me and was very upset. We were supposed to do so she would join the 24'th and then work the 25'th like always. But now she did it the other way around. So he told me I would have to come sometime after christmas. They raised me and I haven’t seen them for 10 months. It got me down. But I already had plans with the lovely Erin

I spent christmas at her house with her family and it was amazing. No drama. Just good food, good people, fun, cozy vibes, pretty decorations and presents.

I got some pretty awesome stuff. You could really tell she had put thought into them so they were personal and it made me so warm and happy inside.

Today is the 25'th I’m enjoying some of my gifts from erin and some snacks her mom gave me. Tomorrow I will clean up my apartment and go to a friends place in cph for games and some good food. :3 The 27'th I’m gonna watch the new star wars movie at the the cinema (wuup wuup) with with my boyfriend and then we go for dinner afterwords.

We gonna be together till new years and then have a small party with some of his old friends. I’m so ready! I think it’s gonna be a lot of fun and I have some sweet Asti and some expensive Champagne from my great-grandmother I might bring.

It’s been a good year, and looking forward to the new one.